#maladaptive daydreaming ruined my life i want to cry i can’t believe im saying this when i condisdered it my safe space for so long

[bo0zey]

thinking abt how i’m already a chronic maladaptive daydreamer w a sensitive sidereal pisces moon in the 8th house and having access to klonopin is like a forcefield of protection for my brain and body it’s only times like these i feel safe enough to come out of hiding and glide around the real world for a little bit before the drugs wear off and i dive back into my other multi universes and try to experience life through them instead except but lately it’s gotten harder and i think it’s because i’ve been so out of touch with reality for so long that i got stuck in this weird state of writer’s purgatory i used to be able to draw so much inspiration for my characters and story plots from the real world but now it’s blanks ……..i need 2 go outside n touch grass or smthing how do i feel connected to myself and the world again i don’t want to but i think that’s the reason why i can’t write anymore as much as i try…i spent >17hrs a day trying to organize 4 different stories at a time my brain is scattered im losing hope and motivation all over again …. alllll over again!!

[videograhams]

for "200 things...": 200,199, 193, 171, 166, 160, 162, 155, 150, 148, 138, 136, 112, 107, 106, 104, 97, 83, 60, 46, 39, 38, 35, 31, 29, 28, 18, 5. sorry if there are too many questions ^^'

not at all! thanks for requesting! i doubt anyone will read these

200: My crush’s name is: I don’t really have a crush but i guess if i have to choose one it would be Ethan lmao. as for a character its Warren.

199: I was born in: A hospital? lol

193: My height is: tbh i dont really know

171: Do you play an instrument? No but i use to play violin in 6th grade if that counts.

166:  Do you believe in Yourself: not really. Im not very good at many things but thats alright. Can’t win em all lmao.

160:  Do you believe in Soul mates: As lame as it sounds yes. I mean i guess you can connect with people but I think that when you meet your soul mate you’ll feel more complete? but idk movies and tumblr ruined me.

162: God: Yeah. not really much to say lol.

155: Magic: Yes!! I just think its cool and it gives me an explanation for the un explainable it that makes sense? prolly not a word but ok

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes bc im one lmao

148: Summer or winter: winter. it really fits with my constant mood.

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor. If im spending the rest of my life with someone they better be nice. I already count for enough bitchiness and ugliness lmao.

136: Hillary or Obama: I’d make a legit answer but being honest, I dont know anything about these two.

112: Facebook: I dont even use it but i guess its cool.

107: College: I think its nice and a good experience, tbh i dont rlly know that but hey

106: Sports: I can’t even run for 60 seconds next.

104: The future: im so excited for it. I dont know why but im constantly thinking of the future. 

97: Swam in a pool: Maybe two summers ago?

83: The most difficult thing to do is: find somewhere to sit at lunch where its acceptable to be alone. i legit spend 20 minutes wondering till i find a place.

60: I lose all respect for people who: Accuse me of something i did not do. If i did something, Il own up to it always.

46: More guy friends or girl friends: I don’t have any friends. Lmao I sound so lame.

39: I would like to move to: Arcadia Bay so I could date Nathan Prescott or Warren Graham.

38: I wish I was a professional: Spy. Idk i just want to catch fake bitches in a lie and expose them.

35: President: Kanye? idk bro not into politics or current events at all.

31: Actor: Jake Gyllenhaal I guess he’s cute and looks like Rafe Adler. or Rafe looks like Jake idk i dont watch movies fight me

29: Singer: Lewis Watson. I like emo love songs that make me cry and think of video game characters. 

28: Band: Is Hala a band? if so i love him/them?

18: Sport to play: Pacing while i maladaptive daydream and listen to music.

5: Color: Light purple. its just nice man.

Sorry Im boring but you can always ask more questions.