#maybe itd just be considered existentialism

[one-shitpost-a-day]

a Thing about me is that i'll have moments where i randomly look up from whatever i'm doing and observe the many objects in my surroundings and think, "wow, this was all because of thumbs"

[autistic-fandom-trash]

rating tma entities based on how likely i would be to willingly become an avatar of them

The Buried: 1/10 i hate the idea of being trapped/suffocated and i also hate capitalism. 1 point for excellent taste in ambient music tho

The Corruption: 3/10 it would be absolute hell for my sensory issues and i want it far away from me at all times. 3 points for emotional appeal... like damn maybe i do want to be entirely consumed by what needs my protection and therefore will always have it

The Dark: 6/10 its kinda basic but being able to hide in the shadows and representing the fear of the unknown is an absolute vibe

The Desolation: 10/10 chaotic lesbians lets go!! also i am forever indebted to agnes montigue bc she killed the web avatar who brought up my school trauma

The End: 4/10 im pretty existential sometimes but like not in a depressing way. ive been suicidal in the past (not anymore dw) and i feel like im pretty comfortable w/ the idea of death all things considered. there is also a person from my past i have dreamed about killing but we dont have time to unpack all of that

The Eye: 5/10 i love learning new things and im not scared of being judged. however i dont rly like the idea of anyone knowing abt my intrusive thoughts bc its just uncomfortable

The Flesh: 3/10 its all pretty yikes but ig shapeshifting could be fun

The Hunt: 4/10 tbh im kinda torn on this one. on one hand, it has to do with law enforcement (ew). on the other hand, the wilderness creature aspect is an absolute vibe. maybe id consider it if it let me be a feral catgirl instead of a werewolf

The Lonely: 3/10 its depressing as shitfuck and also a lying bitch. 3 points for the share amount of writing i would get done. just nonstop fic updates

The Slaughter: 7/10 to quote the jurgen leitner rant im just mad bc i am angy

The Spiral: 3/10 i hate it when ppl dont take me seriously abt my mental health issues but itd be kinda fun to mess w/ ppl ig

The Stranger: 8/10 again!! the unknown!! and being unapologetically weird!! an absolute vibe!!

The Vast: 9/10 its just... beautiful. everywhere you look. the bright blue of the sky silver clouds gray storms flashing lightning starry nights infinite shining galaxies the wind in your hair the thrill of a roller-coaster. humans may be small and unimportant in the universe but the universe is lovely and we get to experience it. there is so much to love we will never run out do you get it

The Web: 0/10 it can eat shit and die!! i can handle spiders but keep mind control the FUCK away from me

The Extinction: 3/10 i like computers and i dont rly fear change but the climate crisis is... oof

[larksinging]

and who have you considered yoloing recently? or if there's not many that you have, what are you looking forward to developing most relationship-wise on denny?

i do have an arrowverse yolo who will, sadly, only be a yolo at least until more info as revealed. i am gonna do this, ive just been distracted, but im being vague because it really is just a one off funsies yolo 

i have an oc ive been considering yoloing! her hesitant name is rain feather, who is from a universe of magical foxes in a sort of... maybe no post-apocolyptic, but like an earth many generations after humans fucked off forever. shes a silver fox who was kicked out of the main red fox group at a very early age for her coloration and instead raised by ravens. i didnt have her personality nailed down but shes supposed to be independent and a little mischievous, very focused on survival and scavenging but not a terrible person. will i actually do this? idk 

in general i usually have very few yolo possibilities tucked away since im very... all or nothing with characters. 

sooo some upcoming relationships! lets see what haven’t i talked about a lot

im excited to give maive a chance to bond with some non-humans more... itll be a good chance to give her a sense of perspective and not being as alone as she feels. i mean, she’s not alone, but there’s a kind of existential loneliness when you’re a feral animal and all your friends and family are humans or anthros, yknow? 

nyssa and the witchsquad! i think nyssa and cloud specifically because, as the two humans and the two... arguably more chill of the group (sort of, kind of, in some ways), they particularly have a chance to have a strong bond. what kind of bond?? im not sure! but itd be good for both of them to have more friends and someone with that level of trust that comes from surviving an intense experience together. 

oh winter and killer frost and caitlin! this is a more lowkey and slow burning plot, but he’s finally finding out about killer frost stuff and thats... got a lot of potential. but it also gives him something to talk to caitlin about, and a good reason to build more on him offering to help her out, and just... building up their friendship more.