#maybe one day I'll add more to this ahah a

[misc-obeyme]

i feel so validated and supported rn, omggg thank youuu <3 😭 ALSO YAY SOLOMAMS TRAIN!! I'M FILLED WITH IDEAS AND KEPT DAYDREAMING SCENARIOS AT WORK TODAY- I HAVE A NOTES APP SPECIFICALLY FOR THIS AU. I'd love to write it, I'm just afraid I wouldn't do my faves justice or know how to format it. Maybe interconnected drabbles?

i need to research the workings of cafes, and how food is served, because Mammon runs this place on his own. I like the idea of Mammon prepping sandwiches in the morning for the day, and waking up early to bake the pastries. There's also a "pipsqueak special" (named by Mammon, of course) every 1st and 3rd Monday of the month where there's limited cake that Luke baked over the weekend. All profits from his cakes go towards his college fund (Mammon adds extra money to his earnings without telling him).

AHAH, SPEAKING OF ME AND SOLOMON COMING IN AT THE SAME TIME... I have IDEAS. (literally inspired by my crazy day the other day)

Solomon who comes in ten minutes after opening (7:30 am?), on a Wednesday, to cram for an exam. Mammon is immediately pinching himself, his routine is off, he's not prepared and stumbles over his words. Solomon orders two coffees, no danish, and settles in. Mammon feels like the world is ending.

Two hours later, Mammon gets a text that I woke up early again (am on a three day streak) and am coming in for my usual. He knew that the record shop was going to be closed Wednesday-Friday for inventory and cleaning (he knew the shop would be closed, not because he stalks the social media page or anything in an attempt to work up the courage to visit. That would be crazyy).

He starts prepping the order, because I always show up around 24 minutes after I send it. It's routine. But now it's been 40 minutes, my drink is melting, my sandwich is cold, and Mammon feels like the world is ending once more. Solomon has not moved an inch in all this time (except to flip the page of his notes/textbook), and Mammon's eye twitches as he starts fixing up a sandwich, trying to convince himself he is NOT worried about the man. "Mammon? I didn't order a sandwich." "Yeah but ya haven't moved an inch except to flip the page of that damn notebook since you ordered your first two cups and I'm wor- I-I mean, it looks bad for business! It's been two hours, idiot." "And it's not bad business to call your customers idiots? *signature teasing Solomon smile*" "Tch. My customers enjoy the food too much to complain. They know what they signed up for, and that's what they come here for." "The food isn't the only thing they come here for." "Eh?" "Nothing. Ahaha, nothing at all."

Another twenty minutes pass, five after Solomon got his free sandwich. I finally show up out of breath, rambling about how the bus was late, then it broke down, the next one was cancelled, and I decided to walk the rest of the way. I practically collapse into a bar seat, while asking if I can still have my usual, but for here instead. Mammon short circuits, since I always take my food to go since I immediately head over to my shop once I grab my order. And I'm staring at him with my head tilted, up close for once and blinking curiously at him. And wow, my lashes are so long, and are my eyes really that dark? He notices there's gold eyeshadow on my waterline, and why am I waving my hand in front of his face- HOW LONG HAS HE BEEN STARING?! "Earth to Mams?" "*voice crack* Y-Yeah? *Coughs* I'll uh...have your usual out in a sec." 'Wait... Did she just call me Mams?' 'Oh god, I just called him Mams, what if he doesn't like that. Wait, he didn't say anything so maybe he didn't notice?? I gotta act natural. *ears are currently the brightest shade of red ever*'

Mammon feels like the world is ending again for the- He's lost count of how many times he's felt like this today (third times the charm).

And now Solomon has noticed me, coming up to make small talk. Mammon has his back turned for one second to start prepping the drink, and suddenly Solomon has moved his work and food to the bar, right next to me, planning to join me and eat together. A little break from studying should be good, right?

Mammon feels like the world is against him. The two regulars he serves who both make him feel lightheaded for different reasons, who he knows their orders like the back of his hand, but only snippets of their lives, are sitting right in front of him and giggling together like old friends. His heart is in overdrive. He's stuck behind the counter. They're both smiling at him. God help him. (tbc! ..maybe LMAO)

okayokay, hope everyone enjoyed my ramblings. this came out longer than I meant it to, as always </3

- ✨ anon

Okay, now, listen here. I am here to tell you that you will absolutely do it justice. You already have. I can tell by the amount of thought you've put into all the scenes you've described for me so far. You've practically half written it all already!

As for format, interconnected drabbles are the same thing as a full story. Well, for me, drabbles are very short almost summaries, more poetry than anything. But some of them are a little longer and more like scenes. All my fics that are either drabbles or ficlets are a single scene. When you interconnect them, they become a story. Whether you call that a fic or a short story or perhaps it even ends up closer to novella length, that just depends on you.

Stories are structured around scenes. For instance, you might write a scene where Mammon sees Solomon coming in to the cafe, only ordering two coffees and no danish, freaking out. Then your next scene is what happens two hours later, when he gets the text from you that starts the whole next part of the action. You can also change scenes every time you change viewpoint. For instance, if you were going to write a version of the first scene from Solomon's perspective.

WELL anyway, not to get all technical about writing stuff with you here lol. It's just something I like to talk about. I guess my point is that if you do want to write it, don't worry about not doing it justice or the format of it. The first thing never really goes away, so you gotta learn to write despite it. And the second thing will usually just resolve itself as you go!

Anyway, I'm loving this story about the three of you and I absolutely want to know what happens next. I love the image of both you and Solomon sitting at the bar smiling at Mammon who's busy having a meltdown about it. Absolutely amazing, it's like you're unknowingly ganging up on him and he can't take it lol. Do you somehow end up as Solomon's apprentice in this au? Or like learning something from him? Or is it just the crossing of paths continually at the coffee shop? Does Mammon ever confess to either of you??? I have to know how this resolves itself! As long as they all end up together, I'll be happy lol!

[mimine666]

@madamairlock tagged me in this and I just saw it using my laptop. Quite excited to answer

1. How many works do you have on AO3?: 42 :)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?: 80,429 Pfiouf !

3. What fandoms do you write for? Mostly BSG and Major Crimes, but I loved For All Times and Dances with wolves and I have tons of ideas for both shows but will never find the time to write it down.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Ignoring my Tumblr Drabbles collection, they are:

Getting Caught

A Canadian Vacation

Intimacy

Safe From Harm : amused that you would my "deviant" ideas likeable

The Long Day is over (very surprised about that since this one is written in French)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I try to, usually. I just saw that I have a few comments waiting to be answered in AO3 since i don't always get a notification by email.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Not a big fan of Agnst but maybe this one, where Laura finds out her ex-husband is on New Caprica : Pity the fool that fell in love with you

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Most of if not all of them tend to have a happy ending or at least a neutral one. And I might add when it comes to smut, Sharon and Laura always get happy endings!!

8. Do you get hate on fics? I've received a few weird message on ff.net and tend to get away from that plateform because of that. In the past, when i was a teen, I got hateful comments on fics i wrote about ER and Dr House and ended up delating my account for a few years.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I love smut, love to write it. I'm into things that can happen in everyday life, usually I'm for tenderness and closeness.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Never, yet but I have this big ideas for Raised with a Fist to meet with Laura from For all Times. Maybe one day i'll wrote it

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not sure. A few years ago, I received a weird email from ff.net stating that someone copied/pasted 2 of my fics then that a new publication was very similar to mine and asked me if a wanted to file a "complain". I did and never heard about it ever again.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? When I was young and in another fandom yes. Feels like a life time ago. Would love to do it again.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship? Just one?! the SpaceParents. I love the build up of their relationship on a solid friendship, I love their chemistry on screen something I feel Shandy is missing but I prefer Sharon Raydor caracter to Laura's.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? I really really want to finish A Canadian Vacation and can't wait for the weather to bring tons of snow to inspire me ahah. Intimacy : i really doubt i will finish it. I'm way more inspired for MC nowadays ...

16. What are your writing strengths? I think I try to stay close the characters and i try to make you feel what they feel.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Writing in English though now i comes more naturally than writing in French and because of that : grammar and vocabulary. I'm also quite dyslexic so even if i proofread it 3-4 times i don't usually see that a word is missing or things like that

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? Been there, done that. Would probably repeat it lol

19. First fandom you wrote for? ER I loved Elizabeth Corday !

20. Favourite fic you've ever written? I have a very soft spot for Intimacy and Getting Caught because they're so fun to write. And I love my one in Canada because I want fluffyness and love. On the smut ones, I really enjoyed writing Safe from harm, felt very liberating.

[mayonakano-archive]

hi, leoj! how are you???? i hope the answer is well i wish you well

busy day today ahah (busy day everyday -_-) But i remembered there was a specific song i wanted to send you since this morning, a classic in the sense that it was made for project diva f so every long time vocaloid fan knows this one but i have absolutely zero idea how Known it is more recently.... though apparently it got a remake last year and it has 1.2 million views so i have to assume it's relevant today right? (i'll listen to the remake while being held at gunpoint tied to a chair in like 4-5 years maybe we'll see what happens)

ANYWAY my vocaloid song recommendation for you JUST FOR YOU today is cosmobousou-p's (i know they have modern popular songs!!) sadistic.music∞factory !!!!!!!!!!!!!! extra exclamation points bc THIS SONG is to blame for half of my mental illness i think the vibe is something that i picked up as a personality trait at the tender age of 10 years old and ive been fucked ever since

I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!!!! it's another weird one However the unconventional-ness with which the whole thing is composed music-wise adds to the off-putting experience, i think- like the original art and the pv have this dark edging on disturbing aura that i literally live for and the disservice it did to my ears the first time i heard this just makes it all the more scary

and the beatmap! this song is sooooo so so fun in game. famous for being a god damned nightmare. incredibly challenging and distressing. super fun!!!! one of my faves, this was charted in hell

hi ems!!! i love that you send these around 9-10pm my time most of the time and by that time i am already in bed getting sleepy cosy. and then i forget to answer the ask.

i have heard of this song!! i have never listened to it though... it really does have a kind of off-putting vibe. i dig the miku module though she's kinda badass there won't lie. i vibe. it's fascinating. yet another song i would like to see the map of :o

[sainztander]

Hello there! I’m a returning fan of f1 (I first watched races back in the early ‘00s n loved schumi) and I recently found your blog. I really enjoy your posts and as I started watching races again -and as an unfortunate Ferrari fan- I was wondering what your favorite Ferrari races are? Or your fave races from sainz and leclerc?

oh hello!! welcome back to the sport then ! i hope you're having fun, both with the races and the fans. and thank you so much for the kind words ! i'm happy you are enjoying my ramblings ahah

ohhhh well it's difficult to live up to the schumi era but we still had our moments <3

i've been actually watching since 2017, so i feel like starting from there? so you can check out what you're interested in (even tho i'll probably list more from 2019 onwards since my memory is not the best)

i'll begin saying that most of the races i'll mention are gonna be great for one ferrari driver and heartbreaking for another but aren't we used to that 😔💔

(ferrari 🔴, leclerc ⚪, sainz 🟡, vettel ⚫, raikkonen 🔵)

anyway! i'm recommending

🔴⚫ malaysia 2015 (seb's first win for ferrari)

🔴⚫🔵 monaco 2017 (ferrari 1-2 but kinda painful for kimi)

🔴⚫🔵 hungary 2017 (ferrari 1-2 and sweet teamwork)

🔴⚫ bahrein 2018

🔴⚫ silverstone 2018 (a casa loroooo ❤️)

🔴⚫ belgium 2018

🔴🔵 usa 2018 (kimi's last win)

🔴⚪ bahrein 2019 (charles' first pole, first podium and almost a first win)

🔴⚫ canada 2019 (idc about the penalty seb won that one)

🔴⚫ germany 2019

🔴⚪ belgium 2019 (charles' first win)

🔴⚪ monza 2019 (ferrari win in monza :') )

🔴⚫⚪ singapore 2019 (seb's last win, ferrari 1-2)

🟡 brazil 2019 (pretty amazing race for him + carlos' first podium)

🟡 monza 2020

🔴🟡 monaco 2021 (carlos' first podium for ferrari)

🔴🟡 brazil 2021 (particularly the sprint for carlos)

🔴🟡 abu dhabi 2021

🔴⚪🟡 bahrein 2022 (their first 1-2)

🔴⚪ australia 2022 (maybe a bit boring but! charles' first grand chelem (but very painful on carlos' side))

🔴🟡 canada 2022

🔴🟡 silverstone 2022 (carlos' first win but kinda painful for charles)

🔴⚪ austria 2022 (charles' win, painful for carlos)

🔴🟡 france 2022 (great race by carlos, painful for charles)

🔴🟡⚪ monza 2022 (no win for either but very strong race for both, esp carlos)

i wish to add more for carlos and charles' pre-ferrari days but i genuinely don't remember them 🤐 i know carlos toro rosso and mclaren days were pretty strong and charles hasn't being doing bad in sauber either (esp in the second part of 2018) but i can't confidently pick some particular races, sorry!!

i hope i helped you a little tho! bye!!

[eirasummersart]

hello :D i come with asks from different ask games that you reblogged hehe always late sowwy. these are for you! i'll send some for your oc's in 2 other asks (sowwy x2 for the spam). || valentines day: preference, blush || weirdly specific artist ask game: 3, 4, 14, 28 and 30

Hello, An! Thanks for the asks! I'll get to answering the others after this one! Now let's go for these answering as myself hahah

I'll add the links before the answers related to it start, since they're from 2 different ones!

Valentine's days ask.

preference: sexuality? what’s your ‘type’? Well, for the people who don't know yet, I'm aroace hahah I've always just been ??? about irl romance xD As for my type, can't say about irl preferences, since see above. But my types in media are usually kind/nice in some way (gap moe works well with me in this sense, with cold/grumpy who is actually sweet. But also just plain old kind and sweet). And also prince/ss-ish elegant and pretty I also like. But I feel like my type is all over the place sometimes hahah Ah, and I don't really care about their gender tbh.

blush: what could someone do this valentine’s to make you feel special?

Eh, not sure. I never did anything for Valentine's Day in a romantic context. I guess showing their appreciation and having a sweet gesture towards me would be enough? Just knowing they care and view me in a special way. I don't need anything fancy, really ahah I'm a simple person(?) (in this sense XD)

These two are strangely much more embarrassing to talk about than the earlier ask saklfhsakl

Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game.

What ideas come from when you were little

Not sure if it means past projects that survived to this day, or just general motifs/parts of my artstyle that have made it to my present. If it's about past projects… none really, all my past OCs and stories have died some way or another 😔 My oldest OC right now, Diana, I plan to use in my new project as a supporting character, so maybe her! As for my style and such, I think the "I wanna draw pretty girls, with pretty hair and pretty outfits" of my childhood never left hahah Those are still my fav, and easiest, thing to draw~

4. Fav character/subject that’s a bitch to draw Well, there's a few like this? Idk, Ruggie and Sebek fall in this category for sure 🤔 Malleus too. And then, some of my other favs that are "manlier" from other media as well, like Xander from FE:Fates. I can't think of more like that rn, but I am working hard(?) to be able to draw muscles and manly so I can have the best of both worlds 💪😔 hahah

14. Any favorite motifs This is a bit broad for drawing 🤔 But I'd say some stuff for mine would be: pastel/soft colours, really blended shadding borders, flowy fabric with lots of details, frills, etc. and cute things. Also, I love drawing blushes, so adorable!

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

No zines, but I've joined oc x canon week and a couple Twisted Wonderland October events in the past (not the same both times so asklhfaslk). I also participated in a fem!twst collab in the past! And I'm active right now in the twst-charity project, does this count here?

What piece of yours do you think is underrated

TBH, any full rendered art that takes me a few days or even weeks. Those usually are the one with less interactions/appreciation 😭 (Still sad about my Epel Harveston drawing XD. Or how my van Zieks polished art got less interactions than the Susato one, which was doodle-ish with colour 😭) I mean, they're not perfect, but I put so much effort in those arts 😔 Forever sad about this topic.

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That's all for these! I hope it was midly entertaining at least hahaha Thanks again for the ask <3

[bunny-rambles]

omg of you do sleepy kisses with the boys (which, btw, is a supreme concept and that's all there is to it) i will 100% push for your ideas of adding cyno, because yeah ;;; literally why wouldn't i want to ready about him.

aside from him tho — like, i don't even wanna make a recommendation bc you already know what i might suggest lmao. one of my first thoughts though was diluc for some reason? mostly bc i think the guy is always so busy that managing to catch him all soft and sleepy in bed for cuddles must feel like kind of a miracle lol

with this i'll go ahah — but i am totally supportive of the idea!

(also i have seen the most recent kazuha piece, but i will talk about it when i get the time to read it sigh)

have a great day bunny, ily <3

- 🍓

i am currently writing something for Cyno that is very self indulgent ngl but it’ll most likely come out a little later bc I’m rereading it and idk if it makes any sense at all

Diluc,,, yeah that guy needs a break, i have an idea of what morning cuddles would be like with him so I could probably add him !!

Hm, would this other person you have in mind happen to be short, moody and beautiful? actually, that could be two people. Um… huh. Can’t even say anemo vision either bc that doesn’t help. How about the one who happens to be causing everyone to cry because of what’s happened in the story quest recently? Yeah, that’s a lot better. I might add him, I just feel like I write for him so often that maybe he’s becoming ooc and that’s my biggest fear whenever I write for these characters OTL. But !! I will consider him !!

Oh, I hope you like the new one :,) it’s a little different to my usual stuff but I put a lot more emotions into it this time. Let me know when you have the time 💞

ti voglio bene fragola <3 have a good day/night

(and omg i promise we will co-op at some point I am just incredibly forgetful atm)

[ccremisiusacclassi]

A Report, Of A Kind

Ao3 Link

Three months ago, Optio Aquestus decided he liked my penmanship and began calling me in to scribe his reports, especially when he’d overdone it on wine the night before. 

I was worried at first. I’ve seen soldiers caught between the commands of their direct superior and the whims of a far outranking officer, but Decanus Martinus found no issue so long as I fulfilled the rest of my duties without delay. Earning the Optio’s favor, more than my good standing and competency in battle, was probably what put me up for promotion. I guess it chaps my ass a bit that my mother’s obsession with giving me a “lady’s education” had any positive effect on my military career, but I’m not about to whinge about it. 

On the other hand, that promotion was what required me to undergo that Maker-damned medical examination.

This is all a long way to say that I got into the habit of writing reports. Since everything’s gone to shit, my ribs are still healing, I don’t want to go out to the campfire when I can’t bind my chest, and I can’t sleep, I thought I’d write a report, of a kind. What things are like now, what I observe, you know. Only there won’t be a “you”, no one’s meant to read this. I’ll probably just burn it all as I go.

Anyway, I’m stalling. 

I’m going to describe The Iron Bull.

He’s one of those Qunari, first of all, and you have to understand: unless the Qunari slaves I’ve seen all came on the small side, he’s massive. With things... as they are, I’m not a very tall man, but I’d eat my hat if I even come up to his tit! He’s got to be 20, 25, maybe even 30 stone and he’s covered in scars. Like his name suggests, his horns protrude straight out from the sides of his head and then bend up into points. By the way, unless he and his mercenary company (called the “Chargers”) are really committed to taking the piss, he truly goes by that entire name. 

Intimidating, right?

I was stationed so far South, I’d never fought any Qunari, but there’s not a Tevene soldier alive that hasn’t heard stories of the ox-men. We all heard how they know no concept of family, no emotion or passion except for war and loyalty to the monolith of the Qun. 

I suspect The Iron Bull isn’t from those tales. 

He’s a fearsome warrior, I saw that myself, but besides that? He talks loudly and endlessly of his love of good food and redheaded barmaids. As I gritted my teeth through my second medical examination in as many days, this time by the Chargers’ company medic, Stitches, The Iron Bull stood outside the tent and attempted to distract me with tales of Nevarran dragon hunting. The distraction actually worked far better than I expected, if only because I was caught up trying to decide whether he was actually making innuendos, going on about thrusting his axe into “thick, hot dragonflesh”, or if it was all an unfortunate coincidence. Even now I can hear his booming laughter outside this tent. 

He isn’t even like any Captain I’ve seen. One of the first things one of his men said to him when he brought me to his camp was, “Andraste’s tits, Captain, we can’t leave you anywhere!” There was no punishment given for his disrespect. He encourages their input, without expecting some drawn out show of lowering themselves to preface it. He even pitches in during camp setup and breakdown– less at the moment, I’m told, but that’s my fault.

You see, the Iron Bull lost his eye saving my life. I’m a stranger to him. A Tevinter stranger. I still don’t understand it. 

...I don’t want to write about deserting, and what happened three days ago during the fight doesn’t matter. The Tribune and his men are all dead. But I’ll write about afterwards. 

I saw The Iron Bull kneeling in front of me. I was so dazed, I thought he was going to kill me now that he was finished with the others, but enough of the spots cleared from my sight and I saw that he was hunched over, holding his eye as blood poured down his forearm. 

He asked if I was ok. It made me laugh, which, if you didn’t know, hurts like a howling bitch when you’ve got a cracked rib. 

“What about your eye,” I said.

“That’s why we’re made with two of them,” he replied, like it could’ve been a chipped tooth, for all he cared, “Plus, I’ll get to wear an eyepatch, now.” 

He took a tunic off one of the dead, gave it to me to cover up. I gave him my torn shirt, which he wound around his head to soak up some of the blood. He introduced himself and asked what I was called. 

I said I was Cremisius Aclassi, and when he raised an eyebrow I was braced for a sneering remark like, “What’s your real name.” I had abandoned the life I’d worked for since I was fifteen, the life that freed me, and I was sick to death of being mocked. I admit, I was ready to pop the guy right in the face and likely vomit from the pain of it, wisdom be damned. 

But all he said was, “That’s a mouthful. Do you have a nickname?” 

“Says the man called ‘The Iron Bull’,” I said. I’m not blessed with an overabundance of self preservation, but it just made him laugh. 

He wanted to call me “Krem.” I accepted. I intended to walk out of that tavern alone and find a place to hide and recover, so it didn’t much matter to me. But just as soon as I was on my feet I was toppling over, so when The Iron Bull caught me, he insisted that he take me back to his camp, where “Stitches can patch us both up.” 

I accepted that as well.

As he took me to the outskirts of Hunterfell, and later, when I was laid out on this cot, waiting for the medic to determine if his Captain would ever see out of his left eye again, I wondered when The Iron Bull was going to bring it up. 

He must have heard the Tribune reading my charges, and there’s no chance he didn’t see what I am. I wanted to gauge what sort of lie I needed to tell, how much of my pride I was expected to swallow until I was healthy enough to leave. I’d already learned that there was no place for me once people knew the truth.

It… hasn’t played out how it ought, which is becoming a theme with The Iron Bull.

He came in before Stitches did and sat down on the ground in front of my cot with a remorseful groan, like he’d already realized that he wasn’t going to like the process of getting up again. He’d been outfitted with a proper bandage around his face, and I could see the swelling and the dark bruising against his silver skin peeking out from it in the dim candlelight. I was too exhausted to fill up with defensive anger when he looked me over now. We began speaking at the same time.

“Look, it’s been a long fucking day, so just ask what you must and be quick about it–”

“I’m going to brief Stitches on how to approach this, but I need to ask some questions–”

We stared at eachother. 

“What?” I said.

He sighed. “I’m sorry, kid. You’ve gone through a lot, so I thought I’d follow your lead, make things simple, but I’ve probably been scaring the shit out of you instead.” 

“...What?” I said again, getting tired of the cryptic act, fast. The Iron Bull nodded, like he could see exactly where my head was at. It’s not the first time I got that sense, and I don’t suspect it’ll be the last.

“You’re a man,” he said, “Is that right?” 

“I– What?” ...Really! I was so bloody airheaded that the first fucking time someone saw what I am and still called me a man, I don’t even confirm it right away! As soon as my mind caught up to my mouth, I waved my hands and sputtered something painfully stupid like, “I mean– yes! That’s right! You’re… you’re right. I just didn’t think– I didn’t expect–”

He nodded again, which shut me up, and he stared at me with this strange look in his eye. It didn’t piss me off like it did before, but it made me uncomfortable enough that I looked up at the shadows on the ceiling of the tent.

“How did you know?” I asked. It was a little easier to shape my mouth around than ‘Why do you believe me?’

That’s when he told me about a word in Qunlat. I don’t think I can spell it, “a-qun” something or other, but he said it meant someone “born one gender, but living like another.” 

“What does the Qun do with these people?” I thought it was an insult. There’s no word for me in Tevene. There are descriptions of fraud, at most. For there to be an insult in Qunlat told me I’m not alone. Believe me, I’m still reeling from that. But it put me on guard again, all the same. 

“Whoa, kid, back up,” he said, “There’s no punishment, if that’s what you’re thinking. The [a-qun somethings] are treated exactly as they are– real men and women. The Qun’s practical that way.” 

I must have given him a really skeptical look then, because he laughed really loud. 

“You think Tevinter is threatened by the Qun because it’s torture?” He waved the topic off with his hand and straightened out his legs with a groan. “Point is, running off a perfectly good soldier because his insides and outsides don’t match is stupid. Shouldn’t have happened.” 

“You really think that?” I asked. 

“I do,” he said.

After that, he talked to me about Stitches, asked me what I wanted him to know, how I wanted the examination to happen, whether I wanted company. He started telling me that unless I started foaming at the mouth or something, Stitches would be instructed to stop at any time, etc, etc, etc.

It was a lot. Too much. The pain in my ribs was making me sick, all of a sudden.

“I just want to get this over with,” I told him, and he got that same weird, intense look, so I scrambled to summarize, to prove he could stop, “Stitches can know if he doesn’t call me a girl and doesn’t talk about it to anyone, I want to be as clothed as possible… Maybe company outside the tent would be good.” 

“Ok,” he said, surprising me with how quickly he responded after dragging things out so long. He got up stiffly and said, “I’ll go give him the heads up.” 

“If you’re Qunari and not Tal-Vashoth, why are you running around Thedas with a mercenary company?” I blurted out as he started to leave. If you think I had a really good reason for asking that when I did, I appreciate your faith in me, but you’d be wrong. It just popped in my head… and maybe I was getting nervous about him leaving.

“Long story,” The Iron Bull answered, but he formed a toothy grin when he looked back me, “Mostly to hunt dragons, though.”

[feebledetective]

[ i'm ngl i forgot how cute saiibo is- ]

[hoseoksssangels]

Hii, it's your local astrology geek here, and also a new follower >3

That's the thing: scrolling down your blog I've noticed (firstly, amazingly good vibes 😂✨) and then I've seen that thing about spouses, which i consider very cool, so I'd like to ask about it since I'm curious af:

*clears the throat*, so, I'll make a list so it'll be cleaner 😂

20° ♏ 7th house

3° ♊ mars in the 1st conj. moon

22° ♐ pluto in the 8th (retrograde)

Additional things:

18° ♑ juno is in the 9th conj. (largely) chiron

20° ♐ groom in the 8th conjunct to pluto

Interesting facts I'd like to share with you since i adore to use my gemini prominence this way:

My groom persona chart has prominent intense scorpio energy, such as:

♏ ASC, and a ♏ mars in the 1st conjunct ♏ venus

a ♐ stellium between the 1st and 2nd house filled with easy-teasy plutonic energy like: sun, moon, and mercury all conj. to each others and pluto

ok, as you can see i added degrees (20°, 18°...) cause i didn't know if you use them or not, in doubt i included them here 😂

[Ok, I'm done now, have a nice day ☺️✨]

Hey there!! Sorry for the late answer! Thank you for the compliment abt my blog! It warms my heart 🥰✨

Now let’s see! ✨

So first thing that popped into my mind is that your future spouse might be foreign!

That’s bc your Juno the asteroid of marriage/spouse etc...is in the 9th house! So this person might live at a distance from you right now. You could meet while travelling or it could even be that they live in the same state as you, but are foreign. Also you guys might meet while doing something spiritual as well (as the 9th house rules spirituality and religion //if you’re religious ofc, pls take it as it resonates to you, I don’t wanna say something wrong when it comes to religion and other ppl beliefs ❤️ \\)

I do strongly believe that your partner will be very Plutonic, so expect them to have Scorpio placements or strong Pluto influence in their chart. ✨

Groom in your 8th house (conj. Pluto wow) also makes me think that your future spouse will have strong and intense energy. But I feel like they won’t express it in a negative way. It’s more likely that they’ll be very emotional intelligent, they might also be quite powerful/successful with all that Pluto energy. As we know the zodiac sign Scorpio is more secretive so I think your partner won’t express their feelings much, but they will feel a lot for sure. With all that 9th house and 8th house energy, it could be that your future spouse/partner might be spiritual in any way, and maybe study astrology, tarot cards etc...or show interest towards these topics🔮🌌

I also wanted to add, that your partner might be someone that could’ve gone through some pain in their life. It’s the Juno-Chiron conjunction that makes me think about this, even tho the conjunction is a large one. It still works.

Maybe they’ll teach you a lot and bring you a lot of healing especially in 9th house matters, or perhaps pain. It all depends on how Chiron in their and your chart is aspected. 🔮

I feel like your relationship will be highly spiritual and you guys will be strongly connected. Might even be a fated relationship! <33 And I say this bc we know that Plutonic connections most of the time are fated, as nothing happens for no reason when it comes to Pluto.

Some signs that your partner might have in their chart are:

-SCORPIO 80%

-Sagittarius 15%

-Pisces,Cancer 5%

(Pisces and Cancer are added bc your 7th house is ruled by a water sign, so maybe they won’t be a Scorpio sun for example, but they could be a Pisces Sun and Scorpio Moon, but this is only an example 🧚🏻‍♀️)

I do get some channeled informations from my spirit guides and intuition randomly a lot of times ahah, and for you I’m getting that your partner might be older than you but not much! (2-3 max.) but then again, this is not 100% sure! 🥰

I hope you enjoyed this! Have a good day/night and stay safe! ✨🙏🏻

[icharchivist]

Hi same nonny as usual haha! You asked for my thoughts on the spring troupe so now that I've finished the summer troupe debut I'm going to knock out two birds with one stone! I liked summer troupe a lot more then spring troupe. Not that I didn't like spring troupe! I just think that they didn't really communicate with each other?

The only reason why sakuyas issue with swordfighting was resolved was because masumi happened to be eavesdropping on a convo with the director, and why someone knew about itarus injury was because of citron noticing. I'm not saying there was no communication at all these two issues just. Bothered me so much the swordfighting one a lot more then the injury. The thing that bothers me about the injury is that itaru wasn't like. Told off for not telling anyone about his injury. Cause he could have seriously damaged his foot or something. I get that in the future there's probably going to be character development for itaru that lets him open up more to his troupemates. The swordfighting one just felt like a cop out to have a "moment" between sakuya and the director instead of having sakuya discuss that stuff with his troupe (which, bleh do not care for the characters flirting with the director at all. wish it wasn't there but I get why they do it.)

Despite my griping I did really enjoy spring troupe! They were fun! They just felt less trusting of each other then summer troupe at the end of day. And I get that char Dev will prob happen bout that but still haha. That's my thoughts on spring troupe! I could just be horribly misremembering the entire episode but oh well!

I know I said I'd also do summer troupe in this ask but it's already horribly long and I'm writing this on my phone. I'll get to that later. Thanks for reading my rambling that has not been proofread at all or edited. Hopefully it makes some sense hahaha. Thanks for introducing me to a3 it's tons of fun.

aaahh thanks for sharing!!!

honestly i kinda get where you’re coming from. I really love Spring, but it’s especially now in insight of their development. On first read, i think the thing especially was that the chapter was more about setting up some of the most major issues of the universe (the debts, the way  to arrange themselves in that new environment ect..) that therefore the characters issues may be not as focused as the others chapters?

(also for character flirting with MC there will be only 2 in main stories that do that a lot, one of which is Masumi, and the other isn’t much flirting as just hopelessly in love. Not much we can do about it but honestly once you move on from spring if this really holds you down, it will ease off at least, even if there’s a few thingss here and there stil)

Summer was the moment i really fell in love with the game, i really, really adore Summer’s dynamic and it was just. so good to go through.

As for the things you bring up about Spring, on one hand on first read i think i get you, but yeaaaah in insight of all we learn about the characters, it’s really not that far fetched ahah.

For Sakuya imo it’s really just that he freaked out because of his abandon issues and i don’t really see him discussing it with Spring yet at this point? Like. Sakuya is terrified of not being good enough and being abandoned as a result, like all of his relatives ever did. So he tries to compensate. When Masumi just brought up that they’ll just replace him, i don’t find it far fetched that Sakuya freaked out about it and failed to explain it to Masumi at the time. 

Those very same issues also lead Sakuya to hold on everything bad ever to himself. The reason he opens up to Izumi, more than her just coming to him there, is that she already proved before that she wasn’t willing to abandon him, if only by how she took up the theater because of his passion to start with. And, just, timingwise. 

And i think Sakuya wouldn’t have taken reassurances from his others troupesmates who have already made clear they believed in him, because i think Sakuya would be more crushed with the idea that they’re just being polite and kind with him. Because he knows he’s failing and the others’s way to reassure him would probably have made it worse. He needed reassurance 1) from the director who at this point has already started to be giving more constructive critisms, 2) Masumi, who’s the one who caused those insecurities by the fact he doesn’t hold back. But i don’t see him reach of to Masumi with how hostile Masumi has been to everyone up until that point. (i have more thoughts but that’d be me overreading it too but dKJFDLKF a3 makes my brain go brr)

As for Masumi, this kid has serious communication issues (only child with no friends and no parents around? oof) and i don’t think he would have reached out to Sakuya or even figured something was wrong otherwise.

Are those just easy way out for the writers? maybe, but that’s just how writing is isn’t it? if you want to make even some “artificial” conflict, you need to make it believable why this conflict exist even in the first place. 

Honestly the swordfighting issue doesn’t strike like that to me, and those are all about things that are shown in the Spring chapter itself, but i suppose since i also know those things are expended on, it does add a layer of “this was made with depth for their characters in mind” imo.

Also i think if Masumi hadn’t eardropped, Izumi would have talked to him about it, being the mediator and all of that, and i think Masumi would have understood then. I don’t think Masumi was unwilling to understand, but that he lacked the groundwork to understand it. and we mostly were spared from having to repeat the scene with Izumi telling him about it.

Idk if i see Sakuya managing to tell it to Masumi even after this talk? I think Sakuya is the kind to take all of his pain in silence and assume responsibilities for everything that goes wrong, and i don’t think he would have felt comfortable opening up with that, especially since, as he tells Izumi, he genuinely feels like *he’s* the failure about it (and as Izumi tells him, it’s not his fault if others people don’t try either. Sakuya was made to believe that he had to take full responsibility when a relationship doesn’t work because of his relatives, and i think he was set on doing the same with this Massu’s situation, and the reason he could share it with Izumi is because she’s not the person he’s taking responsibility for). On top of that, Sakuya remains Masumi’s elder, and Sakuya does want to be someone people rely on - he wants to be a big brother figure, and i think he wouldn’t have wanted or known how much of this responsibility he could share with Masumi knowing that. And i don’t think it’s healthy! but it’s perfectly understandable from Sakuya’s perspective and the specific way he shoulders responsibilities because i will fistfight his family his family sucked.

As for Itaru, on this one we only got the reveals about how deep this lack of trust Itaru had for people ran only recently, so imo early on you just need to take it at face value and hope when you get to know more, it’ll click. Realizing he doesn’t want to be alone anymore and wants to be more with Spring is a turning point from this set up about him, so he can only develop from here.

For why no one really told him off about it, i guess i can understand the grip ahah. imo i think everyone worried already enough that he was talking about leaving the company this was the priority to discuss and i do think talking about his ankle at that point may have not worked with the pacing of the emotional moment. I wouldn’t have minded seeing some of them being more worried about it in general though.

In the end the thing with Spring is that aside from Tsuzuru, they are all people who come from background where communication isn’t their forte. Sakuya fears he’s never good enough, Masumi never even had to face how lonely his life had made him until now (and i think he specifically lashes on the director because it’s the first time he feels like he wants a connection with anyone in his life and he doesn’t know what to do with it. I find his obsession creepy imo but i also see where it’s coming from), Itaru has severe trust issues and rather be solo in general, and Citron hides a lot about himself.

and i think, we have Tsuzuru has never been really alone ever, and he takes a lot of responsibility, (though there’s a few things about his background we learn later that shows he still has similar struggles than the rest of his troupe regarding some.. broken connection, which he vagues at in the Spring chapter (... which is something i only noticed on my reread knowing that so i wouldn’t blame you for not catching it))  but he’s also trying to do things for himself for once in his life. Ultimately he knows how to communicate more in general but he has that going on for him, and especially, i think his way to communicate or connect may be too foreign for the rest of the troupe for a smooth connection off the bat.

All of them are trying to connect in their own ways coming from those complicated feelings they have about connection imo... and i do find it fascinating. 

I see Spring a lot like, the kids who had to grow up too fast and the adults who are unhappy with where their adult lives have taken them and the expectations pushed upon them who yet are trying to cope on their own mostly because they have reasons to feel unsafe otherwise. (Tsuzuru is a bit in between imo bc he’s not “unsafe” yet and he’s already taking himself back in hands with the expectations things, but anyway, i am. trying to keep it short, believe it or not) And they’re still navigating where that leaves them as people, and where that leaves them in their connection with others, and especially with each other because in the end they’re all yearning to connect especially with one another, and just don’t know how to reconcile this desire with who they have been all this time to cope through all of this.

All of this is present in the Spring intro chapter but ^^” i could imagine that without having the full picture those aren’t things that may be easily picked up as important for their characterizations. But honestly there’s a throve of details in the writing to flesh them out when you know where to look and i find it fascinating. (but also i like. relived this chapter 5 times, 4 of which after i’ve seen most of their development, and my first read is so long ago i think i just overthink everything DLKJFDLKF and like, Spring was one of my least favorite at first read bc i struggled to connect with them, so it’s not like i don’t get you, it’s just. nowadays, spring is care spring is love and i cry over their intro chap a lot.)

Anyway i guess i get what you felt still, but, idk maybe i feel strongly about it ahah, i like the way the characters stand out from one another even in the moments that are probably just.. stupid, but in a “they wouldn’t know how to do better because of what’s holding them back” way.

i feel like “lack of communication” is a problem every troupe have to various degree and for different reasons, but the whole thing is about trying to figure out how to fix that and work it with them. Some are more forward than others (like, Summer, mostly because Tenma and Yuki are stubborn and loud and straightforward in their own way)(”than others” i have so much to say about this i’m holding back dLKFJD) but i think it depends also a lot on some thematic it wants to tackle and the spirit of the characters in each troupe. It changes as the story progresses but yeah after all, they are all strangers. And while the game mentions they have a few months to prepare for their play, it was reckoned that every play takes one month to prepare, so it doesn’t really give a lot of time on their first play to really figure out everything they need to work on.

Spring, in essence, as a season, is about blooming back after Winter, after sadness and hardship, and learning how to slowly open up again. So imo their intro chap have to reflect that slow progress for them. While Summer can afford to be more loud, straight to the point (and even there it’s not always easy), Summer is full of learning from their mistake, living in the Now, in the Moment. So their season thematic reflects a bit in their intro chap at least. (ofc they all grow from there though but that’s still interesting imo).

anyway i rambled LDFJDLKFJFDLK

I didn’t mean it in a way to say your reading is invalid though!! sorry if it feels that way, i’ve tried rewriting it a few times DLKFJDLFK i just have a lot of emotions about Spring and the points you mentioned made me think about some stuff about it. 

ANYWAY

if you want to share your thoughts about summer too and the rest you’re always welcomed o7 i’m glad you’re still enjoying your stay, and i hope you’ll keep enjoying the ride!

And Take care!

[jam-is-my-food]

Okay I'm sending another ask because there's something that's been bothering me and I think you're probably the person I know that can hello the most with it???

So my parents are kinda misinformed on things 😬 so sometimes they'll say things and they think they are being great allies but they are actually getting the opposite of helpful. And like I'll try to call them out on it, but they just give me the "oh you're too young" or "you don't actually know" or "you think you're such much smarter than us" and yada yada so I basically can't challenge any of their ideas ever but it makes me feel so, ill is like the only way I can describe it, about the fact that they are misinformed. So now I am trying to gather recourses about different topics that have come up that I notice they are misinformed on so that is it comes up again I have something top back my claims up with and I'm not just "a young, niave child who doesn't know any better"

That was a terrible incoherent mess so I'm sorry about that, but here's to the point:

Autism speaks is a bad organization, right? Like correct me if I'm mistaken, but as I understand, actual autistic people collectively agree that autism speaks is bad. But I never really understood what they did that was wrong? Or like I was never told what they did? So I tried to tell my parents autism speaks is bad and they were like "well what did they do" and I had nothing besides "well actual autistic people don't like it" and that just wasn't enough evidence for them.

Basically what I'm asking, is are there any recourses or websites or tumblrs or anything like that with info on that kind of stuff or anything you yourself know and could tell me? I just need to be able to inform them in a way that they will actually (maybe) accept and I don't rly know who or how else to get the info I need.

It's totally fine if you don't feel like finding things for me, I just need to know where to start looking because basically I'm lost lmao

God this ask was such an incomprehensible mess I am so sorry, I hope you get what I mean ahah.

Also please tell me if I got anything wrong or if anything I said was bad or anything if that makes sense? Eoirbrbdjjwl I'm so discombobulated

Thanks in advance! (Also sorry again for formatting)

- 😸 anon

don’t worry, cat - everything you said here was fine and dandy loll. and yeah i can try to help! obviously i do not speak for all autistic people but no autism speaks is very bad and problematic and just generally Shit.

i spent a few minutes looking for the best articles on it and i found this one very helpful: https://medium.com/artfullyautistic/autism-speaks-deception-eugenics-and-abuse-618cf65c094a

this one was also pretty good, and from a more recognized source if you need that: https://www.washingtonpost.com/outlook/2020/02/14/biggest-autism-advocacy-group-is-still-failing-too-many-autistic-people/

i think those articles sum it up better than i ever could, but to sum it up even further, i guess - autism speaks is not what it says it is. it’s a harmful hate group that caters not to autistic people at all but to their neurotypical families, and the money it claims is going to help families is mostly spent on advertising and research to find an “autism cure.” (i do not speak for all autistic people but i do not want to be ‘cured’ - that’s bullshit and eugenics and hugely problematic.) the organization sees autism as an enemy and autistic people’s voices as irrelevant. it’s also released very harmful videos and information. 

i believe the first article i linked has a list, but if you want to support a better group i’ve seen a lot of people promote autistic self advocacy network (asan), which is i believe a nonprofit run by and for autistic people. i haven’t looked much into it, so i wouldn’t take my word as concrete, but i do know it’s a much much better alternative.

(also, i obviously don’t know much about your parents or the context, but the fact that they dismissed autistic people ourselves not liking the organization and wanted more information is kind of unfortunate. it just pushes the pattern of those who are actually autistic not having our voices listened to in discussions that are about us.)

all is to say, i hope this helped! if you have any more questions you can definitely come to me - but autistic people, just like any others, are not a monolith, and i wouldn’t stake your claim on something just because a single autistic person told you so. you can also do research yourself! all you need to do is google “autism speaks harmful” or something to that effect and you’ll definitely find some good info. try and read things written by autistic people ourselves, because our voices get drowned out a lot in these conversations. (on that note, any autistic people reading please feel free to add on to this post, i’m just one kid.)

thank you for the ask, and i hope you have a great day!

[babieyangs-moved]

hey!! sorry for the late reply, I've been really tired of using social media for the last couple days! 😩

ah im glad the interview went well! what type of volunteering is it?

im so tired of working from home at this point lmao I'm glad I'm gonna work outside now but aLso scared because of reasons 🤧

oh I see, I think I'm the opposite, I prefer having eye contact on interviews I guess? I think it's because I get nervous if people don't see my body language? xD idk if it makes sense. I always hated phone calls 😩

omg I even forgot money heist is still airing LOL I finished everything so far but I lost interest because of sthg that happened (don't wanna give spoilers). maybe I'll watch but idk?

ooh I've never heard of any of these dramas... I gotta watch more of them so I'll check them out!, until now I've only watched Korean ones (besides the untamed and I forgot to tell u last ask I'm watching hehe)

Navillera is so good 🤧 but I cry every episode hahahahaha it's very emotional... but I get emotional very easily, I guess so,, maybe the fact that I danced ballet when I was younger probably counts as well? also the protagonist is Hot . So yeah definitely watchable ! 🧐

btw have you been watching Kingdom? geez I'm so late in the episodes fkshdkdbs I keep saying the gifs on my dash and I'm just 👀🤪

(hope u are well tho 💕💘🥰)

it's like communications based volunteering (social media, creating flyers and pamphlets, media releases, etc, that kinda thing) for the state association for lyme & chronic fatigue..

its nice to have a wfh option bc im still waiting to hear back abt some retail positions ive applied for (had a phone interview for one and i have a face to face for another next week) so like nice to have some flexibility w volunteering so i dont have to choose between one and the other.

and oh yeah... im lucky in the sense that we have no community covid here but theres always a risk bc of the hotel quarantine system and whatnot.. plus i dont even know when i'll be getting my vaccine bc of the issues w AZ here not being given to those under 50 plus im at the bottom of the list bc asthma doesnt count as a reason to get it early :(

and ooh yeah i kinda gave up on it after finishing part 1 but sometimes i wanna watch something thats not a kdrama or cdrama so im like oh yeh i can finish this.. and i just happened to restart it when pt 5 was announced so added bonus i guess. plus i can practice my spanish listening skills

and ooh well now that you mention it maybe i'll add navillera to my watch list after all bc i think netflix has recommended it to me ahah :D

and not really.. i watch the performances on yt once mnet posts them but i dont rly watch the eps.. i didnt do that for rtk or queendom either so i just read people's liveblogging and im like :) dont know whats going on but okay ahah