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bamsara · 5 months

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So is the reason for Tyren getting more unhinged the side effects of the devotion necklace, or was this a downward spiral he would have gone done regardless of the necklace? I remember you talking about how the necklaces have consequences, and I'm curious if this is one of them.

Yeah!

Tyren would have been an already overly-doting and even jealous character on his own without the loyalty necklace, (and had been due to his crush on the Lamb even before recieving it, and what happens when you reject followers in-game) but his spiral into a unhealthy obsession and idolization was aided by the loyalty necklace.

If it was given to perhaps a regular, less devoted follower, the effects maybe wouldn't have had such severity. But Lamb got the materials/necklace from the mystic seller and isn't fully aware of the effects it might have on their followers yet.

So, dog is unhinged a bit on his own, but amplified by the necklace. He's originally friendly, caring and sweet. But you take good traits, too much of a good thing, and they can turn bad

#I want to talk about Tyren in stream again or go on a ramble #he's a character i want readers to like but also i dont want them to LIKE LIKE him #i want to write him in a way that makes you wonder if he did not go down this path he would actaully be someone you'd want to be friends wi #what ifs and what not #also in some reality there would people rooting for tyren in his corner because in his point of view #hes known the lamb for a long time and has been their friend and confidant #and has cared about them and even had a crush on them for quite a while #then suddenly this cat appears and everything feels wrong #dont get me wrong tyren is meant to be a good friend turned bad guy #but i was also never meant to get attatched to and develop the side characters as i have been doing slkdghsld #okay ive rambled enough #tyren oc #trod au

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hpdfag · 17 days

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logically i know its better for my mental health to not try to get into a romantic relationship for the forseeable future because i will get guilty about it and fold it into my psychotic hellscape but like also. im the most desperate man alive

#... servant's song ♪#i get attatched so easily #but i know ill just get stuck destroying myself about it for the next month like i did last time #if that makes sense? idk. will not stop me from wanting to be close with him but i cant do anything romantic at the very least for a while #im just kind of talking to myself here sorry i dont know aaaaaah. but. if ur seeing this i want to get to know u more and talk more!! waaaah

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bendyy-blog · 2 months

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I don't CARE !!! I WANT EITHER ONE OF MY STRAIGHT PLATONIC FATHERS WHO HAVENT TALKED TO EACH OTHER IN DECADES AND ALSO AT LEAST ONE HATES THE OTHER. AT LEAST ONE FOR ME !!!!!!!!!!

#I DON CARRREEE I NEED HENRY OR JOEY TO TREAT ME NICELY AND COMFORT AND SPEND TIME WITH ME !!!!!!!!!!#batim kin #fictionkin #fictionfolk #ps i dont know what the hell joey is but he does NOT want henry like that #that guy had the worst rsd ever after getting too attatched and now demonises the man is all. trust me im bendy ink machine #i would KNOW !!! /j

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pneumonic-screamers · 3 months

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I think my worst trait is that I need too much. and I don't mean in a "I'm needy" way I mean it in a want things so bad that I cannot discover it from need and it turns into a need when I start feeling ill over it

#jinx's hijinks #example. i get attatched really quickly to people who are interested in me romantically. this is probably because my last ex abused me.#but that attachment becomes extremely unstably very quickly too. if they arent talking to me or interacting with me.#i crave them to the point of not being able to focus #not being able to think about ANYTHING other than them and then it manifests physically #with nausea. throwing up and various other bad things #like it can cause genuine suicidal ideation #and idk i questioned that maybe i have bpd but idk because i dint fit many other symptoms i think i just have really bad anxious attachment #and im still traumatised from my ex. which ofc usnt gonna just go away. but i wish it was just easier to manage #i just wish that i handledthis all differently #and ik i dont really control it at all #but i wish i could.

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mokutone · 2 years

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Hey! Just checking in, wanted to say again that you're one of my absolute favorite blogs, and looking thru ur art usually helps me through whatever drawing rut I'm in (artblock who?). Anyway, i sent u an ask ages ago about trad art and I DID start doing sketches again in my actual sketchbook recently so thank u for ur advice!! Was gonna do a little thank you doodle of yam but I couldn't get his expression quite right so rain check on that

that's really sweet of you to share! and i'm really glad that my art is useful to u in that way!

also, i'm so glad ur sketching and i hope ur having fun in ur sketchbook!!! thats really the most important thing, having a good time!!!

#yamswers #little-feral-baby-moth #also it is so sweet that u wanted to draw me a yam ty 🥺#i feel it on the wanting to get things right...every once and a while asks take super long to answer from me bc i just. dont have a sketch #that id feel right attatching to the ask #actually unironically i put this into my drafts to attach a doodle too later but i was like hmmmm none of my doodles feel like they vibe 2 #this specific ask...#so it just sat there for a while #one day i will probably stop doing this just so i can respond to an ask without taking a wholeass week to get around to it

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4giorno · 2 years

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jeht and jebrael my beloveds

#i LOVE this world quest #and these npc designs are so intricate and cool that i dont mind them juat having npc looks #im not done with the quest yet i just got out of the throne room but still #this is great for a world quest #edit NOOOOOOOOOOOOO oh my god im crying this is so evil #its so sad but wow im so flad we have quests with actual ppl again i just couldnt get attatched to #the aranara last patch so. im glad to have world quests that get me involved again #glad*

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ruthlesslistener · 2 years

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I didn't know you played flightrising. Unfortunately I don't have any halos, but I have a bunch of other stuff from circa 2016 if you ever want free stuff. My account is basically abandoned since I lost interest, would be happy to donate to help you rebuild!

Oops I lied, I apparently have a Spellwrought Halo and a Glitterfreeze Halo if you want those lol

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jdhfbgsd my guy I am like 20x richer on my new account than on my old one so i kinda feel bad to take free stuff with 50kg in the vault that could feasibly buy back some things but also. a. if you REALLY are fine with tossing me any old fest stuff then i am also not going to throw a big protest there bc i hoard those things like a motherfucker. my un is HallowedKnight

#i am not one for profit flipping apparel lmAO i can never get enough of the fest stuff #also if you do decide to send some stuff then make sure to also attatch a pm so that i dont get banned for bs reasons again #(well i intentionally broke the rules earlier but i still dont know how they caught me bc i was feeding my friends's dragons)#anon #reply

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cinnabeat · 1 year

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i fucking hate self portraits btw especially when my professors are like make it represent something about yourself 🥰🥰 like fuck youuuuuu

#like.#i dont like representing myself with symbolism and things meaningful to my life like im some fanartists blorbo #like you know????#maybe its bc there isnt a strong attatchment to any aspect of my identity but like #yeah im latina yeah im a lesbian yeah im (insert other aspects of my identity)#but like. these arent prominent aspects of myself? they just are?#like im not a fan of someone being able to look at me and know certain aspects of myself?#im not explaining this right #whatever but i prefer just painting myself as i am #there is no hidden side of me i hide from other people or that others dont see #what you see is what you get and the idea of posing myself is weird #like thats not me i dont present myself in some specia or exaggerated way #like i said what you see is what you get is who i am #like you dont know me and putting up personal aspects of myself in some symbolic way for a painting is eugh #ot even the mortifying ordeal of being known bc you DONT know me #you just see a painting of myself but you dont know me from that #you can guess but that doesnt mean you know me #idk i dont think i said my thoughts properly but whatever i hate self portraits #i am tired of painting my face #michi tag

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dbssh · 2 years

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like obviously i work hard on and am proud of all of my creations but characters like aja and kasey are culminations of YEARS of varying levels of effort and a lot of general failure and a lot of days they still dont really click the way i want them to or move through the motions of the story the way i need them do. nina as she stands right now is the product of a couple months of concentrated effort and im so happy with her and she feels so fun and natural to work with and she slots right into the clock exactly how shes supposed to and works exactly how i want her to yk.

#red.txt #it helps that nina is structured on a foundation more similar to the current story #aja has been throughso many changes in the universe and plot #and im still figuring out how to get them to work in this one #and because the main 4 are so much older theres concepts i got attatched to yk?#the way they Are just is the way they Are #especially w aja and hutch because theyre Real To Me #so deciding to cut edit or change stuff is so so hard to commit to.#so they just. dont have their roots down in this story yet.#ajaposting

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bamsara · 7 months

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are you actually cancelling the shipment of the new laptop or was that a joke?

It's a joke but. What if I did auuugh

Making big purchases like this give me anxiety to a heavy level because low key I feel like I'm wasting money and that I don't need it because Arson, even though he's clearly not meant to last a lot longer in that shell and is corrupting and losing files, is still booting up and therefore I feel like I've done this 'too early' and that I don't deserve to get the new pc

Like I KNOW I need it and it will help me immensely but. You know

#ive been saving up for about 2ish years now since arson started showing signs #and hes well past his 'shelf life' but if youve been following me for a long time you know i dont really like replacing things #until theyre practically scrap metal #theres also the thing where if you grow up without a lot of money then you develop the mindset of #'now that youve spent that money you wasted it and also theres gonna be an emergency that will happen and youll wish you hadnt'#'what if you hate the pc'#'what if it ships in broken'#'what if something else happens and it breaks when it gets here'#just anxiety anxiety #i hate making large purchases i have such fears around them #also i actaully am really attatched to arson as a character which makes me crazy but hes like the little dude in my head aka my desk

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nicodaws · 2 years

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#life is just me and my fic idea that i cant get out of my head #but also cant write coz i worry abt the morality of writish hrpf when i want to work in hockey journalism/media #against the world #i start writing it and then :/ and then i feel bad ao i stop even tho i dont actually think its gna have any impact on my ability #to work in media or journalism or whatever i end up doing #will probs just suck it up write it so i can stop annoying myself + not attatch my name #rambles #delete later #maybe #talkin 2 myself

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raccoonfagdyke · 4 months

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#i am legit so intensely exhausted emotionally and mentally #physically too but a bit less so #there is so much happening there has been so much upheaval all at once and i am honestly about to fucking lose it #i dont feel safe in my apartment anymore #and neither does my girlfriend so i havent been able to get the comfort i need from her #my system is all over the place #depressed parts are triggered flight parts are triggered anxious and attachment parts are triggered #everyones barely holding on rn #i knew my life was a catastrophe waiting to happen but fuck i honestly dont think i can handle all of this #i have no way to numb all of this #i have no outlet #i cant self soothe and my girlfriend cant give me the kind of support that would help rn #like i know logically ive been through worse #ive survived worse #but fuck man #everything in my life feels like its falling apart #the flight parts are telling me to drop everyone and that nobody is safe and i need to run #my attatchment parts feel abandoned and alone #barely any of my partners affection and kind words is breaking through and soothing us #i cant get a handle on whose having what problem #i dont know how to talk this through internally #everythings on fire and i hate it so much #im scared for myself im scared for my relationship im scared for my housing situation im scared for my finances #im just fucking terrified of everything happening and allnof these sudden changes and i can barely breathe #i cant do all this #i mean i can but its just so much #i hate that i married someone who treats me poorly and i hate that ive accepted her treatment for so long #im exhilerated that its finally ending #but it hurts . it hurts me it hurts my partner . its stressful on my entire support system and i dont know ifni can sustain any of it #i cant fucking breathe and im scared and i know ill be fine eventually but right now it feels like im dying

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feral-ass-raccoon · 6 months

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seeing shit abt people's internetsonas being some cool fuckin guy with horns 'n magic or some shit and just. looking at mine, knowing she's a literal damn raccoon. look they can shift to a people!!!! and also exclusively wears hoodies.

like- fuckin creature!!!! whoo!!!!

#raccoon's thoughts #not me getting emotionally attatched to the creatures i made up again lmaooo #look corri/feral/raccoon is my Child and i adore her #even if shes technically just me #yeah this kinda random but its like two am and i dont give a shit rn

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eternallys · 7 months

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#started watching ppls photocard collection videos again 🫠#theyre like . relaxing to watch satisfying in fact #but makes me wanna collect every photocard ever to exist 🚶🏻‍♀️#and i can’t be doing that 😭😭#have to remind myself i am not made of money #i only actually really collect 2 idols. and thats enough #idk how these ppl are out there collecting 282616 idols 🚶🏻‍♀️#i mean i do. they do the trading and buying from japan with the proxy sites etc etc #but still 😔#they’re out there buying dozens of albums just to get cards to trade #personal #i mean i suppose i could trade? but i also am attatched to members i pull from an album #and also the loops you have to jump through to trade is too much.#i dont have the evidence of the like. 2 successful trades i pulled off and even if i did these ppl require like dozens of proofs 😭#also i trust no stranger :/

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4giorno · 7 months

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omg the screenshots in this dream place are basically accurate 😭💖