#my nohobal heart

[meep-meep-richie]

´He was the love of my life.´

[fabledprayers]

Bill Hader should make all the movies and shows he wants

Barry was start to finish, T to B perfection. Brilliant critique of the media landscape the valorisation of violence and especially the military. Amazing stuff, I have no words. All the awards for Sarah Goldberg also

[spyral-out-keep-going]

Bill Hader scaring me with this episode

[themarionette-theporcelaindoll]

please have this during these trying times that we are facing (it's tuesday)

[thewomanwhoboughttheworld]

Last night I finished watching Barry and, after having slept on it, I want to say something.

WHAT.

A.

SHOW.

I mean, if you haven't already seen it go and catch up because wow. It's only four seasons, eight episodes each, about 30 minutes each episode. I promise it's worth it.

Little shitty recap if you haven't seen the series: Barry Berkman is an ex-marine who comes back from Afghanistan and becomes a hitman. When he discovers theatre and meets Sally (a girl he falls for) and Gene (acting teacher), Barry decides he wants to change his life. Shit happens, the Chechen mafia is involved, he can't leave his life behind so he always finds himself in the darkest place.

Don't keep on reading if you haven't seen the show because I'm about to go and spoil it for y'all as I will talk about the last season and the last episode.

I get it, alright? I get why people don't like the ending. It's because it doesn't have a build-up or a build-down, it doesn't resolve anything, it's just... An ending. Just like in Bojack Horseman, when Bojack is sitting on the roof with Diane and she tells him it's just an ending. That's exactly what Barry's last minutes are. Just an ending.

We don't need something big, some action-packed gran finale with whatever you can think of. We already had that. We already had an adrenaline-filled last episode in past seasons, but it always meant that something else was going to happen, that the story wasn't finished. And you know what they had in common?

Barry.

Those endings all had to do with Barry. Barry killed Janice. Barry went on a shooting spree. Barry wanted to seek revenge. But Barry's not there anymore, so who else is going to keep on the violence and the blood thirst? Nobody. Not NoHo Hank, who is dead. Not Gene, who's in prison. Not Sally, who wants to get away from all of this and care for her son.

This simple and bitter ending is just perfect for the tone set by all of the series. It's a satire, it's sad, and it makes you want to shout at John not to believe in what he's seeing. But it's real and raw. It is upsetting, that's true, just as the whole series is because Barry's point isn't to comfort you. It's never been.

Furthermore, what else could we have more? Every character got their own ending, in a way. That's it, there was nothing more to say.

Fuches (my God, Stephen Root you excellent actor, how I hated your character throughout the seasons) served his time in prison and got what he deserved. He still couldn't leave his criminal life behind, but we see that he understood his mistakes. We can see it in his eyes when he brings John back to Barry. Don't fuck it up, kiddo, don't fuck him up. Will he keep on leading a criminal life? Of course, he doesn't know anything else. Will he manipulate another kid like he did with Barry since he was a child? Not likely.

NoHo Hank... Listen, I still had my heart in pieces from the Ineffable Divorce (my babies deserve so much more, I believe in the South Downs cottage) and now THIS?! I WANTED TO SCREAM, OKAY? Nohobal was so precious and the healthiest couple on the show (I can't believe I just said that about two criminals but whatever) and this is what they pulled? Bill Hader, I love you with all my heart but I'm never going to forgive you. But it's so incredibly in character for Hank because even if we see him as this sweet and polite guy, he always chooses violence. Ever since the first season, his answer was always violence, even if it was to protect Cristobal and their future together. We just see him in a darker place and I just-- That last scene with Hank dying and holding Cristobal's statue's hand is *chef's kiss*. Give Anthony Carrigan his fucking deserved Emmy Award.

OH. MY. GOD. GENE. Even though I thought he was slightly off the entire season, I think it's fine. We've always seen him composed and rational, but this season he just let emotions take hold of him. He was so scared and angry and just didn't know what else to do. I was so worried he was going to unalive himself with that gun but boy. He did it. He really killed Barry. I couldn't believe it at first but wow. And Henry Winkler, my friends, is the reason why NOBODY should be typecasted. He was so good and believable and overall GLORIOUS in this series that I can't believe the industry didn't see his talent back then and just wanted him to play different versions of the Fonz. But Henry darling, I love you so much but I can't look at that hair and that beard.

Sally's such a complex character it is really hard to break down. I love how we can still see her trauma, her abused and abusive nature. She's always true to herself, even if she grows and changes for the better. I love that she found a passion for teaching and decided to be what Cousineau was for her. I really think she will be a great mentor if she can let her ego go. I love how she understood what John would have done at his (boy)friend's house and accepted it. I think that, while in the car, she was choosing what to do next. Do I tell my son the truth, that that movie is bullshit and his father was a killer, or do I play along so that I won't fuck him up? That's what her eyes told me, but I may be wrong. But wow. Sarah Goldberg is perfect. Just perfect.

And now Barry... Barry, who I loved so much, who I believed in, who I rooted for. Barry who can't stop being violent, is a killer at heart, who can't be redeemed. He's unforgivable, he can't make it right. We've seen it in the past seasons when he couldn't escape from Fuches and the mafia and all of that, we see it now as he dies before turning himself in. It's mindblowing. Bill Hader is such a fucking genius and such a good actor that I don't even know what to say. I could talk all day about this series and this character, but I think this post would be too long.

In the end, great series. One of the best I've seen in recent years, one of my favourites. Thank you, Bill, for making this show come to light and being so freaking good at writing, directing and playing in it.

[watasemasaru]

sand cupped in beloved inked hands

each granule a piece of something new

he held it close to himself

the heat of his heart

where heaven and god reside

that cup of sand 

became beautiful glass

those inked hands admired each round edge

enamored by fractals and catchlight

his fingers held a little tighter

a little tighter

and a little tighter still

to keep close and make sure

every edge stayed perfect as it was

warm and safe and loved

but those loving hands grew hard

became sharp

became their own cold diamond beauty

the beautiful glass unable to bear the weight

shattered finely

slipping through the hands that loved

returning to where it began

diamond hands held close 

he felt no warmth

no heaven or god

heart left in the sand

here take my terrible nohobal poem lol

[taotueycte]

hello this is a side blog that isn't just about arctic monkeys/the last shadow puppets

here is a list of interests over the years that i may occasionally mention here

pre-middle school:

pokémon, undertale, deltarune, yuri on ice, gravity falls, steven universe, sailor moon, overwatch, animal crossing new leaf

middle school to present day:

danganronpa, jojo's bizarre adventure, night in the woods, odd future, kevin abstract's helmet boy character, bandori, bbc ghosts, what we do in the shadows, the mandalorian, star wars in general, car seat headrest, community, the it crowd, the marvin trilogy, a new brain, the book of mormon, into the woods, succession, barry, saturday night live, arctic monkeys, the last shadow puppets, jujutsu kaisen

ships from any of these things that i have been insane about in the past/are still currently insane about:

- alphys/undyne (undertale) (probably the first thing i ever properly shipped)

- viktuuri (yuri on ice) (holds a special place in my heart despite me being very annoying about it as a child)

- lapidot (steven universe) (peridot is literally me)

- reaper76 (overwatch) (i don't want to get into this one)

- ishimondo (danganronpa) (the grip these two had on me man)

- saimota (danganronpa) (they are just so slayful)

- caejose (jjba)

- josuyasu (jjba) (the sillies!)

- bruabba (jjba) (seriously love them so much)

- helmet boy/summer (billy star?) (idk how to really explain this one)

- yukilisa (bandori)

- mocaran (bandori)

- nandermo (wwdits)

- seanszlo (wwdits)

- finnpoe (star wars) (i still love these two so much)

- trobed (community) (i love them sm)

- mossroy (the it crowd)

- whizzvin (falsettos)

- mcpriceley (tbom) (this ones a lil embarrassing)

- kenstewy (succession) (loving the tragedy on this one)

- nohobal (barry) (loving the tragedy on this one x100)

- i havent finished jjk but i love maki and nobara so much

also on the tlsp fan front i am not a milexer but idk something may have been going on. like i wouldn't be surprised. like it's not like theres not evidence lmfao. some of yalls fanfic is good i'm ngl. alex and louise are cute tho and people who make weird invasive louise-hating milex theories get on my nerves.

anyway that was an introduction to my acc hope u enjoy my insanity

[meep-meep-richie]

I’m unwell