#my parents are basically freaking out and dealing with my issues not in the healthiest way

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[fairycosmos]

are you ever just afraid of your parents dying? idk my parents were really old when they had me and ever since i was young i've been scared shitless about them dying soon, especially when they struggle to do certain things because they're aging

oh yeah absolutely dude, i’m terrified of it. my mum has been physically and mentally ill for basically my whole life, and seeing her in and out of hospital when i was a kid really made me hyper aware of her fragility and mortality, so i totally understand where you’re coming from. it’s part of why i’m such a hypochondriac lol. anyway i think it’s extremely natural and almost inevitable to stress about it, because trying to comprehend that you will one day have to live without them is almost impossible, until it happens. it’s scary and painful and a lot harder than most people make it out to be. but it’s one of those things that is just absolutely of your hands, that you will learn to come to terms with as you get older. while it’ll always be an awful thing to have to deal with, it won’t always feel as intense as it does at the moment. your perception of dying and growing old will change over time. literally the only thing you can do, as with all uncontrollable situations, is to look for the controllable variables. you cant change how old your parents are, or the fact that we’re all going to die someday, but you CAN try your best to take care of them while they’re here. encourage them to live the healthiest possible lifestyle, make sure they’re eating the right foods, take them for walks so they get some exercise, make sure they’re going for regular check ups at the doctor, make sure they’re drinking enough water and taking any meds they may need. if they’re in good health, and they maintain it, then i’m sure they’re going to live for a while yet, as the average life expectancy of a person is 78-82. if you make the conscious effort to appreciate them, and to show them you love them, then you’re doing all you can. and you have to try to let it be good enough. it’s very normal to be scared, and it’s okay to allow yourself to process the fear - even to cry and freak out about it sometimes - but always hold onto a sense of rationality and acceptance, or at least attempt to. when you feel it beginning to overwhelm you, look at the facts of the matter. look at what you can physically do in the moment instead of focusing on shit that is going to happen regardless of how you feel about it. which is a lot easier said than done of course, but still somewhat possible. look, your parents will be a constant part of you and of this world, even when they’re not physically here. it’s an absolute nightmare but death is as natural as life itself. though it’s admittedly a very strange and upsetting concept - so if you think you need help coming to terms with it, it may be a good idea to actually talk to your parents openly about it. or to a grief counselor/counselor in general about how to familiarize yourself with it, how to work on mentally preparing yourself for it. but yeah, this is an issue for the majority of people, i reckon. and there is a lot of support available, if you choose to seek it. i really hope you’re alright n that you and your parents stay in good health for a long time to come. let me know if you need to talk or if you need a friend, i’ll be here.

[lil-smolpubby]

Haha so I am once again talking about my Lodak fankid! Things about them is now more put together so I can repost about em and their story

Their name is Anthie, and they’re nonbinary. They use they/them pronouns! They very much enjoy cutsey fashion and also dancing, more so ballet. They enjoy a lotta pastry based and sweets based foods. They don’t eat the healthiest.

Anthie was born to sendak and Lotor. It was a very happy and good thing and they were happy. The few first months of raising their child was pleasant and a dream. Though due to still some resistance among some, Anthie was kidnapped when the two were busying with work, having of course caretakers to care for them. It was a quick mess, and when they were alerted, the child was taken. They were meant to be taken to be held hostage, though other groups managed to track such people down due to other crimes committed. Due to being close to earth at the time, and the news of a child not being out yet due to privacy, they were just seen as a random galran child. They were taken to earth to stay and be raised in an orphanage. While sendak and Lotor did try their best to find them as much as they could, helping with an empire and balancing things can be very tricky as much as they tried.

On earth, despite many years of new ideas and the new empire, view of galra still isn’t the best. It also goes for some other aliens as well. So for certain places who may get away with it, things similar to hormone blockers are used to suppress certain galra development. Originally it was meant in order to help immune systems of younger people to help get used to earth diseases due to different biology. Though some have been taken advantage of to fo that. So do to this, Anthie definitely is more humanoid than they should be. Their biology and hormones are a bit messed up due to the yearly stuff they get w like flu shots, so they are not as detectable due to not developing like they should’ve. As using tech to predict what they’d look like as they’ve gotten older is also used, as well as things to scan what their body would be like. And from far away, it could prove difficult.

Anthie lives at the orphanage and lives in dorm like rooms with their age group. They room w their best friend, and they find themselves to keep to themselves and not really try to bother themselves with others. They often feel isolated from others and lack a sense of belonging, so they stay with one another. The orphanage is connected to the school they attend. And one day, a field trip to the garrison is in order. The two honestly could care less, so they make a plan that when they get there, they’ll stay near the back to where they stray from the group. Then to split and explore the garrison for an hour, and meet back up.

Sendak and Lotor are also at the garrison. Having meetings with leaders and such to discuss important things. And also partly got potential of seeing if their child may be on earth, but mostly for business. Basically Anthie accidentally ends up eavesdropping on the meeting due to coming across it while wandering the halls, but freaks when they realize the emperor and his husband is there. They try to quietly sneak off but one of Lotor and sendak’s guards to standby definitely catches them, and shows them the little ‘culprit’ who was eavesdropping. The garrison official of course recognizes that they’ll probably just a wandering student from the classes supposed to visit today. Lotor and sendak on the other hand find heavy resemblance to the predictions they made in terms of appearance. After a quick scan, there is a joyful and tearful reunion. For them at least. Anthie is very much so confused and honestly doesn’t believe it. After they are brought back, and especially after, they try to talk about it to their friend and process things. It doesn’t help when their two proclaimed parents come to discuss with them more later in the day at the dorms.

After a few days due to dealing with not only business but with orphanage heads and such for paperwork and information and such, they are brought to the ship the two took to go home.

At first it is mainly processing everything, which sendak and Lotor try their best to help them feel comfortable and get used to things. They have to process many things, change in their environments, finding out things about their past, actually having exposure to galra culture more than just vague info in books. It doesn’t help either with their issues with identity and sense of belonging, as they feel like they have more identity issues and stuff to deal with.

Another aspect is learning about the blockers, and dealing with the anger of that. They have to go on what’s basically hormones for get their body back to what it should be and healthier. Anthie has a hard time getting used to and dealing with physical changes. But eventually they start to feel better. Especially with their gender dysphoria and they start to feel a bit more euphoric with their body.

I don’t have to much after that, other than general getting used to royal life and galra culture, and meeting others their age. And as well as soft bonding with their dads.

I’ve considered writing about this but I have no idea sgsndgenheh

[askguyslikeus]

oh shit yall send lots of questions hoo nelly answering almost all of them under the cut ,,, im gunan try and answer more technical ones first then fun ones and ones about the mod later so u dont gotta scroll all the way to the bottom for the good deets

Hi! I'm still kinda new to the blog and I was wondering what are the 'do and do-not' kind question I should do? Because im sure theres always that one ask thats just Innapropiated, like that one of Michael 'taking advantage og high Jeremy' that was just not cool.  i got this ask a lot so ill be clear with yall. im just not a big angst fan? so sending michael asks about his anxiety nonstop and about how he had a panic attack in the bathroom over and over again wasnt that fun. usually if it pertains the musical though you should be find sending an ask about it? but sometimes i get asks that are like “jeremy ur nothing and how does it feel knowing u fucked everything up” like homie how i think its feels? how u think hes gunna react to that? i made this blog to negate a lot of negativity in my own life so i can promise u im going to be answering asks mostly positive always forever. that being said tho i sometimes get asks pertaining to a few things that ive dealt with in the past and these topics make me very very uncomfortable. dont send asks about these topics please. this is the no no list

-self harm, cancer, suicide, rape, parent death, car accidents, sudden death.

What was your inspiration for this blog? hoo boy well,,, ultimately i thought of them rooming together and got emotional and made a huge list of headcanons and was like ,,, why not run an askblog for a bit ill just abandon it after three asks lets have some fun. but somehow im still here and i got sucked in by the complexity of michael and jeremy. i know that sounds kinda silly but just, as someone who is dealing with a lot of similar things, like dependency issues and abandonment issues and depression and anxiety, having these fun functioning character to explore was such a gift for me. i believe honestly thats why im still here and doing this. being able to try and portray a healthy relationship and a healthy way of coping and growing has helped me a lot this past month and given me an outlet i didnt have before. TBH THO the main reason i made this blog if imma be real with u guys id because i didnt like the treatment of a lot of these issues in the fandom. it made me very upset to see depression used as an plot device and michaels dependency issues treated as romantic so i wanted to make a blog that had little to no angst. ANYWAYS somehow im still here ,,, gvrkjvrnkjfd sorry i rambled

honestly I just wanna say first that I love his blog and your art and you're so cool and kind!! a question would be (I'm not sure if you've answered this before or not) but is there like an on going story here, or is it mostly just answering questions with the characters set in this universe? (if that makes sense I'm sorry!) thank you, you're super awesome! ❤️  djrnjg first off thank u so much aaaa,, ive kind of answered this before but its ok its been a while since then! but um i do kinda have a story but how howdy i sure am dragging my feet. the story isn a hUGE OVERARCHING EPIC OF WOE AND THIS PERSON IS UPSET AND THIS PERSON IS MAD AT THIS PERSON its just michael and jeremy getting together. i have a plan and ive talked to a few people on how i want it to happen but ive gained like ,,,, 6,000 followers since then and im kinda nervous BUT ILL DO MY BEST but also please understand that i do this for fun for myself and if i dont get to it im so so so sorry woops

i know this has been said before but i'm really really happy w how you're handling so many aspects of their characters. i.e. michael being trans, michael and jeremy's anxiety, michael's dependency issues, and other stuff i'm too tired to think of. you made the characters have even more depth than they did in the play and i'm rly grateful for the way you're dealing w my favorite boys. (also your richjake is suuuper adorable) ahhhhhh thank u so much? i talked a bit about this on my main but im really glad people are happy with my decision on this blog because im suPER SUPER NERvous anytime i post an ask dealing with these things. (ask hachi or nate i always message them like freaking out and send them my scripts and asks and wait for them to tell me its ok before i post it omg) also like i talked about before i love,,, having these fun stoner gamer boys to explore these issues with. im honestly shocked by how many people also deal with dependency issues because when i first listened to the musical i was so overwhlemed by the song michael int he bathroom because i had never heard someone basically write “dependency issue: the song” and it felt so so so good to realize i wasnt alone in this pit of despair i fall into so easily aha. but im!! glad everyone is ok with this wild ride im on right now (also thank u so much i struggle writing rich and jake but i get so emotional cause they would TOTES call each other babe)

how come you just use sketch form for most of your drawing (sketches and uses sketch for the final result)? im ,,, not really sure what this is asking but i thnk its along the lines of why do i only sketch my answers?? and i do that because dude do u see how often i post and how lONG some of them are. i made this blog for fun and i love doing comics but i hate lineart and coloring and if i tried to churn out finished pics for every post id defs have given up a few asks in,, shrugs

I want to say I love your little comics they're so funny! How long does it take you to make a comic? Are any of them based on your experiences? Ok have a nice day!  thank you! i love my little comics too! it usually takes me anywhere from an hour to five hours if im dragging my ass or talking on discord while im drawing. it can be kinda exhausting but since i took my break ive also been like, starting long comics one day and finishing them another day which, before i would do it all in one sitting then post it hahha. AS FOR EXPERIENCE the first half of the lifeguard comic was based on real life! we were stuck stoned up there for like an hour or two? but we didnt have anyone to help us but we got down eventually!! the wendys comic is also something i did because man!! i need to compliment food workers if they do a good job!! ummmmm just like jenna i also have a friend that said HAHA BYE and moved to cali and she is also lIVING IT UP and doing really well for herself and shes very independent and shes very inspiring to me! hmm i think thats it besides i used to have movie nights with my dad all the time too except we would watch my fave animated movies and sometimes lord of the rings cause my dad loved that

What kinds of things can we NOT ask ? What kinds of things do you WANT us to ask ? i covered the what not to ask in the first question so!!! um if my askbox is open and u want to respond to previous asks ive answered for the boys that would be so so so rad. sometimes im done with a certain ask and i have nothing to add but sometimes ive got more to say but am looking for an opportunity! that being said it made me really happy that i got a lot of asks about pj? shes not going to the main focus of any more asks but!!! i was nervous to introduce her and im glad u guys like her shes fun to write. but overall just general asks i can make a big ol fun story out of so!! dont worry too much about what to ask, if its something ud ask a real person and not like “lol what if ur dad died” ur gunna be fine probably

Hi! Not a question but your blog is so sweet and refreshing! I actually really appreciate that you refuse angst, that stuff tends to rub me the wrong way in fandoms... Keep taking good care of these boys ! gggg thank u!!! it means a lot to me that a lot of people are backing me up on this! i mean if u are an angst fan there are a lot of askblogs that explore that!! so its not in short supply bmc askblog fandoms got something for everyone

Which drawing program do you use?? i use paint tool sai and my tablet is a cintiq !!

this isn't really related to the faq but that bakunawa boy reference was great I LOVE THAT FIC MAN!!! the line was originally a little diff in that ask but i changed it cause ,,,, i could,,,,

an art style question. how do you keep the design of characters consistent from frame to frame? my characters they look a lil different every time I draw em (or a lot different) and it tends to disrupt the flow of my comics/animations ohh boy hoo wee props for doing animations im too scared to give that a whirl but!! it helps that i draw all the panels for an ask on one canvas! so if my next panel is going to be the same character in the same spot just in a diff pose i keep the lower layer on just at low opacity so i can use it as a ref! that helps me a lot!

Sorry if I'm nosy or rude, but are you reflecting Micheal Anxiety, Panic attacks and depence? iii think this is asking if i reflect my own issues onto them boys? and if so then yes i do. i dont place any of my own personality or anything on the boys but i do use them as a way to help me learn how to cope with my own shit and i try to deal with their issues in the healthiest way possible while also keeping in mind they are flawed individuals aaa

what are your pronouns??? and maybe your main blog??  im a cis girl so she/her is good! and my main is squigglegigs! also that being said IF YOU SEE THE USERNAME SQUIGGLEGIGS ANYWHERE JUST?? ASSUME ITS ME?? i have a twitter and an instagram and my tumblr account 

((Hello mod will Michael and Jeremy eventually someday get together. I love them.)) if all goes according to plan yes! if i get overwhelmed and stop having fun on this blog then no! sorry thems the breaks but! i do want them to get together so HOPEFULLY

going off on that confrience on pornogrefy for birds, Im geussing jeremy has played Hatoful Boyfriend. am I wrong? well it wasnt intended as that ref and i dont know anything about hatoful boyfriend but i can see jerm finding it and playing it so, sure homie! the pornography for birds thing is a my brother my brother and me reference! i love that show and them boys so give it a scope!

I'm crying bcuz Michael said he's in love with Jeremy and it's beautiful yeah that boy is DEEP IN love with his bro bro

Any advice for running an ask blog?? (Ps i love this blog keep it up) personally whats worked for me so far is doing just sketches for art. honestly ive been able to work so much more and post so much more often while also trying to work on my expressions and poses! also taking my own experiences and shaping them to fit the characters has been SO MUCH FUN. th most important thing tho is,,, dont overwork urself dude. if ur having a fun time it shows. if ur just forcing urself to churn out material and its not fun? like shit we doing this for free dont push urself? idk idk overall being looser with my art and writing the dialogue before hand has been the most helpful for me for this askblog! ive run a bunch before including @ask-maz and ive run that sporadically for ,, three or four years? its so funny cause u can see my art style juMP AROUND SO MUCH but i love that blog and i only update it like every other month or so but?? i still like doing it and no on likes those posts but it makes me smile so ANYWAYS

~ok from here on its mostly just me replying to nice messages or people asking me personal questions that dont pertain to askguyslikeus so!!~

I just wanted to say I really really love your blog and just your art in general!! Keep up the good work and hope you're having fun! thank u!!! i am having fun and im glad u enjoy it!!

What other musicals do you like? :0  i really like heathers A LOT. i also like doctor horrible i know thats not technically a musical but i just relistened to it and im emotional. i like dear evan hansen but it makes me really sad so i can only take it in moderation! ummm rent? chicago?? music man? now im just naming musicals i was in rip. being in a musical fandom is a new thing to me? i was really into heathers last year but didnt really interract with the fandom at SO THIS IS SUPER NEW?? ive never been into a musical as much as im into bmc and heathers tho

tell us a little bit about urself!! u seem v cool i am squigs or fork!! im 24 and work fulltime as a barista at starbucks! i get high on the beach with my friend gwen a lot and drink wayy to many slushies, my tv shows are brooklyn nine nine and bobs burgers right now! i table at conventions sometimes and sell my art as merch and whatnot and i cosplay as a hobby as well. im pretty boring but i draw a lot and always carry my big sketchbook with me and im pretty sure its given me back issues BUT OH WELL HAHA also i am very not cool THE TRUTH COMES OUT

Who do you most relate to from bmc and why? like ,,, a mix of michael and christine with a sprinkle of jeremy i guess ahaha i relate to michaels dependency issues and overarching positive attitude and love of music, i relate to christines bright disposition and the need to not stick to one set thing? like she loves theater cause she can be sO MANY PEOPLE and like same homie thats why i cosplay. and jeremys need to be likes while also ability to put himself out there is very relatable. i also identify strongly with his dad issues idk idk whats good

Also -- just thank you for how you handled all the panic attack and anxiety attack asks. I used to deal with anxiety attacks multiple times a day and it just was really nice that it was positive and not them having one. Thank you, sincerely. ahhhhhh ur so welcome i,,, have anxiety and it sucks and i deal with panic attacks like everyday at work so i dont really wanna come home and draw someone having one i guess? im glad its helping other people too tho!

Dude- I love your art? Actually so much? It's... I love it. The whole sketch-ish way your art style is, and the way you color, and the expressions! I'm so glad I found your work - you've given me so much inspiration. Keep doin what you're doin and I hope you have a good day! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ANytime any one compliments my expressions i die cause i legit made this blog to help with that as well ,,, like dam

im lvoe ur art style b o i :0 !!!!!!

Mod, I love you so much I love you you have my soul and my love and my eternal gratitude thank you and I love you (This is the guy who was excited about PJ on your ig live stream a while ago and I love you) !!!!!!!!! im so happy u like my content omg and that u like pj im so glad!! shes a good bean

I just wanna say... I'm crying over that post about Michael and his anxiety? cuz I know how it can feel that you're only your flaws and weaknesses, but Michael just tells that to screw off in the most wonderful way and I'm?? thank you so much for that post, I bookmarked it for future times when I can't look past my depression... honestly, that post made my day (along with every other post on this blog), thank you for being such a lovely part of this fandom ,,,, im,,,, im scared of a lot of this fandom tbh but if i can be something good that come out of it and my love of these boys and desire to show them functioning together in a healthy way can help other people its so much more than i ever thought id ever be able to do. i am blown away everyday by the support ive been given on this blog and i might be crying right now because i never thought id be able to touch other people like this and i just. im really glad yall are here with me for all this.

(To the mod: You are a beautiful person that I highly respect. I love this blog and what you set out to do. thanks for giving something that makes me smile and gives me something to look forward to everyday, keep up the good work! ❤ ) hey im still crying from the previous ask aaaaa im honestly so emotional

what are ur true feelings for wendy's??? i fucking love wendys man thats some top tier fast food right there

what fast food restaurant do you think has the best nuggets WENDYS HANDS DOWN

do you have a favorite movie? paranorman makes me very nostalgic and ive seen it like eighty times and used to watch it with my dad a lot and i love it

I would just like you to know that your Wendy's comic prompted me to pull the same thing with a bakery in the town I'm visiting and the baker got so excited and happy, so thank you for making that comic because I made that woman's day. GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE COMPLIMENT ME WHEN IM WORKING DUDE LIKE IM SO GLAD IT MADE U DO THIS!!! IM SMILING REALLY BIG!!

chocolate milk or strawberry milk? or plain? woops i hate milk im so sorry

do u love michael mell with all of ur heart, mod?  i really truly do man what a fucking good ass character

hi squigs i love you! i love your content too and i hope u have a good day pal :>  WHAT A SWEET BEAN!!! THANK YOU?? OMG

I'm just saying that recent ask you did with Michael really hit me hard because I really related to it and I started crying because it made me realize that I've been pining my self worth on everything my anxiety causes and I'm so much more than that. Thank you, so much for that I really needed it because I'm in a really bad place right now. <3 -for the mod i legit cry everytime i get asks or dms like this cause once again the idea that im helping other people is so ovwehelming i love you??? i let myself just be”depressed” for ahwile and by that i mean i just,, let my sadness consume me and i was scared of getting better cause the sadness was all i knew for so long and just. its so easy to think u are ur illness but you are so much more. soooo much more man.

I relate A Lot to Michael so the way you portray him in the blog is really good, and I think it's really awesome you refuse to like?? do terrible stuff and answer bad questions just bc people wanna see that. You run this blog really well 👌  AHHHH THis is the biggest compliment thank u so much ,,, i get real anxious bout this blog soemtiems but then yall send me sweet things like this and its worth it man

Hey mod, just know you're a really cool person. Thanks for running this blog in the first place. Keep doing the great work.  thank you!!!! for ur support!!!! 

not really a question!! i just wanted to say your posts on this blog always brighten my day and you're really an incredible artist and person, keep rockin on my dude!! *clutching my heart* the fuck this is so sweet

1 .I just wanted to say your blog is really awesome! It's very lovely. I also like how you made michael trans and like handled it? (just with how all the characters treat him and stuff its v nice). Your art is super duper! Thanks for running this awesome blog! 2. Hey! This isn't a question but I wanted to say that I appreciate michael being trans!! As a trans boy it's just rly awesome to see something like that casually thrown into an ask blog without making it a huge weird deal :D immm,,, i kinda really love the idea of michael being trans cause a lot of my trans male friends are actually pretty confident in their skin and michael is a very confident character? and u rarely see that with trans representation and its so refreshing to see it portrayed well. im trying to do that here but again if! i do anything wrong let me know!

how did you first get into art? (also i really love your blog, it's amazing!) ive been drawing as long as i remember! ive got mad adhd and wasnt diagnosed until late in ym life so i would just draw nonstop in my classes ahaha i used to read the sunday comics a lot and they really inspired me to try and make comics of my own too!! (and omg thank u) 

someone also asked me if i went to church or was religious but tumblr ate the ask but i used to go to church a lot as a kid but im currently not religious at all aaa

ok holy shit that was a lot but thanks again to everyone i legit cry a lot about how supportive u all are thank u so much aaaa

[mutiemenace]

I know you're going to sleep, but I wanted to ask these questions before I forget. 1. Is their codependent relationship toxic at times? I have a lot of issues with codependency myself, so that type of relationship in others is interesting to me. 2. Please tell me more about Damien and Nehal. I am IN LOVE with the idea of an incubus/human relationship. Especially one where the incubus actually falls in love. 3. This isn't a question but I adore literally everything about your characters.

sleep is for fools, i always say (after this tho im legit passing out but right now im PUMPeD)

1) Yeah it’s really not the healthiest arrangement. They kind of literally depend on each other for a lot–income, food, emotional support because they’re frikkin secret demon hunters and have to lie to 90% of their associates, they share a lot of the same friends, so basically when ever they’re pissed at each other there’s no way to escape one another and cool down, because chances are in the next 24 hours they’re going to NEED one another for something but it’s not the best idea to be together in that time. So that stuff really strains their relationships and builds up over time that results in a vague climax set sometime in their future where they kind of Fuck each other over really really really badly.

Like they love each other so much but they’ve literally never spent much time apart. Mar kind of realizes how codependent they can be and is usually the one who tries to get some healthy distance, but at the same time Jule is worried about Mar and tries to go after her and draw her back in. Jule isn’t like, the unobservant Bad one in the relationship though, because often Mar will see being distant as being rude and mean and will try to make distance by being horrible to his sibling, and so Jule will not realize that oh, they just need some healthy time apart, Mar just seems to be rude and upset and Jule wants to help. 

Their parents kind of established their codependency at a young age too. Demon hunters hunt in partnerships or packs, and so they thought making sure their twin children bonded deeply at young age would aid their future hunting endeavors, but failed to realize how bad that could be when they literally never spent time apart and grew seperately as people. Their parents also had a pretty close linked relationship but it didn’t get so deeply codependent because of factors related to the High Council of Monster Hunting (thats not its name but its like, a good descriptor lol)

2) So basically incubuses have sex with humans in order to live. They don’t usually kill their partners, and they don’t actually have any sort of thrall–they just have some bomb ass pheromones and are sexy as hell. Like, no mind altering tricks, they’re just a 200 on a scale of 1 to 10. It isn’t unheard of for them to form romantic attachments, but it’s usually with other demons and if its with humans, its more of a business relationship.

Nehal has a physical issue that arises where he basically NEEDS to kill his partners in order to live. There’s no way around it, he just needs to do it otherwise he will die. Now demons don’t see humans as special from other animals, mostly as a sentient food source, so other incubuses don’t feel like he really has a problem. At first he doesn’t either, but he slowly realizes he has a lot of guilt that he’s killing the humans he sucks life force from. He sets up a sustainable arrangement of having sex w/ nursing home folks he explains the situation to or sex w/ hospice care people.  (Also, ppl dont like die in bed with him. Its more like within the few days after a human has sex w/ an incubus or succubus, they kind of fizzle out. Like they had some awesome sex and theyre so exhausted after they kind of just…die). 

Nehal gets on Mar and Jule’s radar because he suddenly starts dating Damien when not-about-to-die people in nightclubs and stuff start looking like they’re getting fucked to death. Damien is vague about where they met, and Nehal is kind of obviously a demon to Mar and Jule because they’re so good at what they do (actually its because they get really suddenly attracted to him and they’re the type of people to freak out about wanting to bang their best friends boyfriend so OF COURSE they do a magic check on him to absolve their guilt and luckily for them i guess he’s and incubus) 

Nehal and Damien do not meet at a night club. They meet at a sex toy store because Damien is getting a friend a gift and Nehal is looking for uh, work equipment? Anyway Damien charms the pants of Nehal and Nehal in addition to being smoking hot is actually super nice so they set up a date and well, end up dating. Its starts off with just talking but they get into a physical relationship too, which really fucks up Nehal because he’s kind of like ‘if i forget about my lethal sex powers i might accidentally kill my boyfriend oh FUCK’. On top of that, not feeding during sex is highly looked down upon by incubi/succubi, so when his fam finds out hes having SEX with his HUMAN boyfriend and not KILLING HIM they’re kind of judgey. 

Damien is just such a sweet, sweet dude, I can’t stress that enough. He just has a really big heart and is willing to help out anyone who crosses his path even though he has so many issues to deal with himself like how could Nehal NOT fall in love? And Nehal isn’t like, down with humanity (even though he feels some guilt over straight up killing ppl for food) but he thinks everything humanity has done was worth it if it mean bringin Damien into the world. Damien thinks Nehal is a weirdo but in a good way, and Nehal really likes him a lot which is a new feeling, and he feels guilty for having someone who loves him, flaws and all, and that’s a huge insecurity about it thinking its too good to be tru and ALSO why he feels really betrayed and conflicted and hurt when Mar and Jule say hey, we think your boyfriend might be a Bad Dude….but hey thats a long story for another night when i maybe sit my ass down and actually write this thing