#neurondisorders

[jessicajean08]

I am so excited that my cores getting stronger as is this pose and flow! I am excited to see muscle and fat forming on my body. I weighed in at 109lbs last week. Which is concerning, but i must keep on. Over the summer i had to try on bathing suits...while in the dressing room i was put into shock by my body...my pale, skin and bones body...i began bawling in JCPennys dressing room. My mother open my door and began to cry with me. That was the day i decided to fight! That was the day i realized i want to live! That was the day i literally said "please jessica, please love yourself you have to." yes i begged myself in public to give a damn about my own life. Thats the day i realized i never really had cared about my own life, just others. What good am i to them sick or gone? I wont go down that way. Im a fighter damnit!! ✊👊That day i weighed in at 114 lbs...no muscle. My diet transition caused me to drop the fat i had. I am now on a fruit and nut based diet, minimal greens and seafood. I swear if i hadn't started yoga, gone holistic&organic, or hadnt had #cannabis Id be in the hospital with a feeding tube. The docs told me to give up. To "retire". I'll die quicker if i dont they said. No i dont think i will. Yes i still strugfle with pain beyond belief and seizures here and there. But in general i feel so much better. because i chose to #lovemyself. 😀💪👸✌👍🙌🙆#jessicajeantheholisticqueen #yogaeverydamnday #yogi #yogaislove #yogavideo #iloveyoga #yogaheals #spooniewoman #spoonie #spoonielife #gettoned #health #spooniespeak #spooniesunited #raynauds #erythromelalgia #neurondisorders #mentalhealth #iamcapable #notgoingdownwithoutafight #yogaislife #holistic #healyourself (at Kalamazoo, Michigan)