#not as long as some of my mutuals but I’ve seen some shit 😭

[7rashstar]

this ended up being way longer than expected so i’m putting it under the cut ~

i miss getting tumblr anons/interacting w ppl on this site more. my old blog had almost 2k followers n i got them allllll the time. i had had that blog since 2015 tho and only stopped using it once i made this one, (after being off the net for. a long while) this is the only social media site i wanna use. i mostly just post and ghost though, barely scrolling the dash. i miss being more interactive with mutuals

i partially abandoned that blog because i felt like there were too many eyes on me 😵‍💫 the other part was bc i was really deep in addiction, and on top of all that i had some major creepy anonymous stalkers

i’ve been thinking abt making more diary oriented posts lately bc the weathers been whack n i’m not rly going on walks bc of that, i’ve also been pretty much a full time hermit since new years. i could prolly count on both (if not one) hand how many times i’ve seen my friends. i think this has been a good thing for me though,,,been having a personal renascence the past couple months. drawing every day, playing guitar and making mewsic etc etc

also thinking abt utilizing side blogs again. maybe make one for my drawings. i drew a couple pages of a comic i wanna work on more. mostly oc art and some photo collages.

i also wanna start posting my music. soundcloud or youtube or both. maybe make some vlogs too? part of the reason why i haven’t is because nothing feels finished, but i’ve realized i used to use my old soundcloud to track my progress creating on ableton when i first got it and had no idea how to use the program. coming to terms with nothing needing to be perfect, bc it’ll never get to that ‘perfectly finished’ point. it’s earnest and from my heart as it is. i do think i should start saving up for a new laptop though, mine is pretty old and laggy. i might jus try ripping everything to an external hard drive to clear up space n see if that helps…but a fresh start would also be nice. (plus i haven’t updated my mac since mojave because it would break ableton lol)

i finallllllly saved up and bought a new phone tho. it’s the same one i have right now but it’s from ebay certified refurbished so i feel pretty good abt it. hopefully it’ll come tomorroww, this one is starting to rly shit out on me. my alarms didn’t even go off this morning 😭 ended up being late to work

i miss going to shows a lot and hanging out w ppl. i think i’m finally starting to come back out of my shell, even jus a little bit.

might boot up my pc tonight and upload some stuff (but not holding myself to that lol) i found all of the old SD cards and some flash drives from my youth and some of the pictures are absolute gems

anywayyy long asf post lol but yea!! i hope everyone is doing ok

much loveeee <33

[aimless-aimz]

MAJOR GREATFUL RAMBLING INBOUND BC I GET A LITTLE FUNKY PAST MIDNIGHT

read more bc i don’t know how long I’m going to talk about how much i love you guys

so the reason i’m so happy right now is it’s currently midnight; the start of my birthday and recently i’ve been really unmotivated and depressed but i’ve been talking to my online friends a lot through this and let me tell you- 😭😭

all of my mutuals are the most kind people ever. i’m not naming names but from the bunch i kept from YouTube, near exactly one year ago, to friends I’m making through shared fandoms and being more open.

all of the people i’ve met here are the nicest people ever and i really don’t know what i’d do without all of you guys. I’ve had so much fun with you and I still do, literally smiling so stupidly when i see one of you guys reblog one of my stupid ass posts with tags saying “lfmao” and shit like that. i get so happy when I see one of you guys dm me, either on discord or through tumblr. it’s been a year since I joined the internet- joining on the 20th and turning older a few days later!

if i hadn’t made these accounts i wouldn’t be as happy as i am today. not even close to it. that’s why i want you guys to know how much you mean to me. i literally would commit ATROCIOUS CRIMES to see you guys in person and give you a fucking huge hug.

i’m kinda tearing up?? it’s entirely out of joy though bc it’s just?? it’s been a whole year. i never thought I’d be able to interact with people on the internet because of my (previously) strict parents (they have loosened up considerably lmao)- i had always dreamed of making stupid animations with silly little friends and now i finally have that?? i’m meeting new people every day and i’m just so ecstatic to be here

seriously, thank you all. those who i know personally, or literally just some guy who liked my drawings and hit like. feeling seen and not being judged for what i like is so refreshing 😭

but- yeah ramble over. but just bc the ramble is over it doesn’t mean that this doesn’t stop being true. even for those who i get out of touch with for those who i talk only a bit with, you still played and still play a crucial part in my life. thank you, so so much.

[eoieopda]

Hihi, Jade! Hope you’ve been well and are doing good hehe

I started learning the pre-chorus + chorus to Like Crazy and when I tell you it’s groovy as shit. Like damn. Though, if this doesn’t improve my hip-control, I genuinely have no idea what will 🤡

On another note, I’m meeting up with one of my friends on Monday! We’re going out for coffee and window shopping and I’m pretty excited because I haven’t seen her since the beginning of February of this year, and I’m excited to talk to her face to face (hah see what I did there ;))

I also did a little brainstorming for a story I’ve wanted to write since August of 2020, and I’m hoping it’s gonna help with my immense writers block concerning the idea itself lmfao

I was also wondering, but do you bake? I know it’s a pretty random question but a lot of my friends bake, and I’ve only ever baked once with one of said friends. We made chocolate muffins and, despite them being relatively messy, they actually tasted pretty good! I’m a bit sad we didn’t have chocolate chips though, I would’ve loved to take the famous(?) “you measure that shit with your heart” post as inspiration to make a mostly choc-chip choco muffin hehe.

Do you draw at all, either? I don’t draw much, and when I do I almost always draw exclusively doodles, but I’ve had a couple which came out pretty well. I drew this really tiny dragon a while ago (probably a few years back) which I thought came out pretty well hehet.

By the way, on a less random and softer note, I’ve been meaning to tell you but kept getting shy and insecure about how to say it, but I really appreciate you, you know? I know we don’t know each other super personally and everything, but our exchanges have been a consistent highlight to my everyday life since I’ve become your mutual.

Like, I can’t even begin to say how big of an impact you’ve had on me as a person just with a couple of our (admittedly short) interactions. Your posts brighten up my day, and I really love how full of love you are, and how you’re so unapologetically yourself. It’s really pushed me to become more comfortable in my own skin, which I couldn’t thank you enough for.

I know that probably went from zero (0) to one-hundred (100) real quick, lol, but I thought it was about time, you know? Sorry for putting something like this in an ask, I probably should’ve sent it in a PM but I thought, “I’m here, I might as well do it while I have the courage” ����

Anyway, sorry for all the blabbering xd.

I hope you have a wonderful day (or night, I’m not 100% what time of day you’re at rn)!

I hope this isn’t coming off as creepy as it’s starting to sound in my head 🥹 I admire you a lot is all; sorry if this makes you uncomfortable if it does lemme know pls. Okay bye ily 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

this is quite possibly the sweetest thing i anyone has told me in a very very very long time, and i am — OOF — misty in the damn eyeballs. like, i don’t even know how to thank you for that 😭🫠 i’m a whole mess omg. YOU ARE SO SPECIAL, LIL BABY HAN 😭💓💕💗🫶🏻

now i’m gonna stop wheezing and answer your actual questions and pretend i did not just fully tear up, lmao.

i do bake, but not as often as i used to? i kind of only do it when i’m home with my mom which is rare but will resume soon when i move back to my home state to be close again!! def prefer baking to cooking because there is some ridiculous disconnect in which i can do one fairly well but will burn the shit out of whatever meal i’m attempting and/or burn myself. i do not know why i am like this!!

i draw, but also not as often as i used to 🤪 like, i drew/designed all of my tattoos and used to be really into art, but my brain only lets me have 1-2 hobbies at a time, and this one fell by the wayside 🥲 rip art-phase jade.

and good luck with your wip!!! seriously, tag me in anything you post because i love FFF so much that i would surely love whatever else you write 💕🥹

[bimbosupreme]

(It's me again) I was considering sending multiple asks, but I did not want to spam you^^° Also, thanks for inviting my into your DM's, but I must admit that I have deleted my tumblr account a while ago. I have considered making a twitter since most Douman fans seem to be there, but the risk of people I know irl discovering me there (even if I try to keep personal information to a minimum) is too high and generally creating new social media accounts gives me anxiety. I'm available on Discord tho

FIRST I WANNA APOLOGIZE BECAUSE THIS IS A LONG READ, but it’s only long bc I wanna make sure I’ve covered everything 😭😭

Anon if it’s like, relevant stuff I don’t mind being sent multiple asks lol don’t worry (although I get it bc some people would not like that so I appreciate the consideration)

& ohhh ok ok, the great thing about Twitter is that like tumblr it doesn’t ask for u to put up your personal stuff, actually when I started Twitter I didn’t put up anything other than drawings of smt iv & nothing else regarding personal info (even now all I have is my age and nickname bc I don’t want minors following me) and like some years later I made friends off of that - so it’s worked out great for me

so the “Twitter experience” can be whatever u want it to be, I’ve seen accounts that just retweet art & don’t say anything. So if I were u, I’d make one just to follow all the douman artists out there

I totally get the aversion to Twitter tho there are some WEIRDOS out there but you really have to stick your nose in some replies on some nasty tweets to see em lol but any unwanted negative site interaction is from weirdos that search up specific terms into the search bar, see your tweet that mentions that term, and try to get into arguments with you, and u can just block them easily — I haven’t had this happen to me but I’ve seen it a couple of times , plus like I said u don’t even have to tweet stuff, you can just follow artists and then your timeline should be nothing but fanart

Although my biggest annoyance with Twitter is that if you do decide to start one it’ll be like “add people from your contacts” and it’ll have their Twitter accounts up that u can see— and I would assume anyone on ur contacts list, if they decide to make a Twitter, would be able to see your account —but again I personally think if you put up absolutely no information about yourself (you could even fake a nickname) you should be safe

& yeah no I totally get the social anxiety that comes w making a social media account but my friends that also dislike social media just use Twitter to follow artists or we just dm but that’s it

I hardly use discord bc that involves wrestling with my shit pc if I wanna use the pc version and I hate sitting at my computer for a long amount of time (I don’t have a laptop 😔) and I barely open the discord app on my phone (plus it’s a pain in the ass to want to participate in a chat but have to type on mobile since I’d rather type using a keyboard) buuuut I still have one

Typically most people say “only mutuals add me” but I don’t really care so

DarkMoonBlade#3946

If u decide to a end an invite just lemme know who u are —the thing I wanna stress the most is that I don’t want u to feel pressure to add me or do anything you don’t want to & I hope these came across as suggestions rather than some passive aggresive nudging to do stuff

[domjaehyun]

okay soo… this isn’t a trope but more of a link i don’t like? i’m really not into choking. because i think i’d get scared more than turned on if someone choked me during sex, i would prolly feel a little betrayed.

also acting like a cat/dog etc. 😣 it makes me feel a little sad because i’d feel a little offended that i have to be my partner’s little kitty/puppy just for them to find me sexy and cute. i would try at least once just to make them happy and see if i can take it but i’m pretty sure i wouldn’t be able to last the first time and just apologise because it just feels kinda degrading.

last one degradation/bimbofication. i like them sometimes but other times when you’re just not in the mood or feeling a little sensitive, they just feel awful. like sometimes you have a lot of things on your mind and thoughts about yourself and to hear someone degrade you it makes the feeling a lot worse, i think i’d cry and safeword at that point 😟

JSJFSJJ SORRY I DIDNT SEE THIS LAST NIGHT i got. swarmed w messages

i understand u omg !!! i’ve seen too many crime shows where people have been like. betrayed during sex so if a total stranger tried to choke me i think i’d just reflexively beat the shit out of them 😭😭😭 but i think there’s something sooo arousing about being able to trust someone and know they wouldn’t do anything to hurt you 😩😩😩 i do not have anyone in my life that i trust to that extent but boy does it sure sound nice sjfjsjjd (also note that like. no one—literally no one—should just start choking you without your consent; like if you’ve never done it before or mentioned it they have no right to just choke you and you have every right to react as defensively as you see fit, whether it be pushing them off or smacking their hand away or safewording!!)

ahhh i hear you!! your perspective is valid !! i don’t agree personally but that’s okay! i like the idea of . being taken care of or pampered …. i think that’s fun sjfjsjdjdj also i mean…..ideally you’re not doing things with your partner that you wouldn’t enjoy, yknow? like it’s for mutual enjoyment! i would enjoy acting like a kitten (to some extent) as much as they would enjoy treating me like one!!

and yeah ofc there’s always a time and place for degradation!! i personally enjoy being called brainless/silly/dumb (dumb only in specific circumstances) as long as it’s. meant endearingly……like if my partner called me a fucking idiot i’d absolutely be like PINEAPPLE 😡 but yeah it’s perfectly normal not to be into degradation sometimes/most of the time/all of the time!!

[choidaehoon]

my dearest mutuals and followers i'm letting y'all know that tumblr user authorise is a total weirdo who has been stalking my blog + other socials and plagiarises/steals the stuff i come up with like blog themes, jokes, fandom content, etc. they were still doing it until very recently (both the stalking and the plagiarising) so i confronted them about it after years of letting them off the hook, but instead of apologising to me, or at least owning up to it, they doubled down on it, accused me of being toxic (??????), and told me that i was just being big-headed... like a.) they didn't use to force their way into being mutuals/internet friends with me, and b.) i haven't been aware of their existence for years. i also have a script installed on my blog that lets me see + know my blog visitors so i know for a fact that they regularly stalk my tumblr and i've seen them follow + unfollow me on twitter several times. even on my newly remade account that i didn't tell anyone about save for my close friends and years-long mutuals, which creeped me out so much. i’ve also had to softblock them several times to keep them away from me but they can't seem to take a hint and i genuinely have no idea why they're even doing this but i’m just so tired of not feeling safe and having to see some freak out there assume my online personality

TL;DR: tumblr user authorise has been stalking my social media accounts + plagiarising me but when i confronted them about it they played the victim and tried to make me the bad guy (again, ?????) for not tolerating their nonsense anymore

make of and do with this what you will and i know i shouldn't start any shit at my big age but i'm just utterly sick of this asshole and i needed people to be aware of what kind of person they really are😭