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can i just not be depressed, cmon brain lets get up and do something, you havent turned on your pc in like a week. cmon up get your ass up stupid piece of junk lets go you cant just sleep all the time. lets go up and at em, lets go you piece of shit cmon lets get up and off the bed, cmon you can do it
#the depression hits :/#idfk like im not sad depressed#like the i have no motivation for anything depressed#like nothing seems fun#nothing is giving me serotonin#like idfk#like i sit here and i do nothing#and i can barely force myself to stay awake#idfk#im not really doing bad...but im not doing good#and idfk why#like everything just feels like its weighing down on me#and i feel like im being crushed by the weight of everything#like you know when you are just so overwhelmed that your chest gets tight and its kinda hard to breathe#everything seems so overwhelming recently#i feel like theres always something invisible weighing on my chest...some lump in my throat#i feel like someone else is pulling the strings#like im not fully in control ever#i keep lashing out at people who i care about and it makes me feel like shit#and i really cant have them leave me...#i only have her left and all i can do is be an asshole?!#i cant stand myself#i just want to...idfk...#i want to be ok again#im just kinda tired of being too much but not enough#and theres even more shit that weighs on me constantly#im an anxious mess and i cant deal with talking to people much anymore...but im so lonely...and i need people#i really just want someone who i can sit with in silence and who will hug me#oh shit this is my last tag i can use um...im not ok lmao 😄🔫
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there will come the day when all of us get used to and maybe even tired of Devil's Minion hugs
today is not that day
(also you kinda voted for it)
(can i sketch anything more explicit? absolutely. would i? nope. call me 'ace hugger', that would be alien enough.)
#this gives me serotonin#art is a coping mechanism#fan art#interview with the vampire#daniel molloy#armand x daniel#vampire armand#armandaniel#armand#armand de nothing#HUGS EVERYWHERE#assad zaman#eric bogosian#iwtv art#iwtv fanart#iwtv spoilers#amc iwtv#iwtv#old man yaoi#kiiiiinda
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he cookin!!!
#wanted to feel included when ortega comes over to cook for chen#my art#spoon gives me serotonin when nothing else will#spoon fhr
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thank you dragon age origins mods
#uhhhh zrs? zdf? zevring? sleep until dawn?#love mods that do nothing except give me serotonin#my art#myrith brosca#zevran arainai#dragon age#dragon age origins#zevran#brosca#been replaying dao since i cant play bg3 yet 😔#i am very happy ofc but if only i could kiss the githyanki lady
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guys i can't
this cannot be happening again. the world needs to stop giving me dumbass white men to go insane over or i'll like. actually go insane
i saw a tiktok that mentioned 9-1-1 and i was like oh i've never heard of this show so i looked it up on ao3 and it had 30,000 fucking fanfics so i was like oh- guess i'll give it a watch then
and now i'm here and i've had evan buck buckley for all of three days but if anything happens to him i'll kill everyone and then myself
thinking about him makes me giggle. uncontrollably. last time this happened was with hotch and hotchreid... just thinking about them put me in a silly goofy mood and it's happening again
with 9-1-fucking-1
god fucking damn it
#something's not right up there folks#my wires are crossed wrong or something#because why does nothing in this world make me so happy#give me so much serotonin#as these GODDAMN HIMBOS#RAHHH#i'm critical doc there's no saving me#evan buckley#evan buck buckley#buddie#eddie diaz#911#*sighs like a grizzled detective* i'm in too many fandoms for more of this shit
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good midoyuzu morning i guess ?!???
#this cannot continue.#duck scribbles#doodles#enstars#ive been listening to nothing but relax paradise for the past hour or so it gives me so much serotonin#never been more glad i dont play jpstars and im not about to start i would die#midoyuzu#yuzumido#midori takamine#yuzuru fushimi
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Every year I get at least 1-5 new fake pumpkins (underestimating).
At this rate, by the time I am 50, I will have an entire closet dedicated to nothing but pumpkins.
When I die, said closet will be so full (if it is not fall/winter), that if someone unsuspecting opens it, pumpkins will avalanche upon them and knock them out.
Life goals honestly.
#nothing gives me serotonin like a new pumpkin#i hoard pumpkins and fall decor like a dragon#favorite season#fall#autumn#pumpkins
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that BF stands for "boyfriend material" 😂
I completely fell through the One Piece rabbit hole and ofc I'm in love with these two. They make such a cute pairing and I appreciate every single moment they're on screen together, thank!
#one piece#one piece fanart#frobin#nico robin#franky#i can't believe i'm almost caught up with the anime what will i watch now there's NOTHING on tv#fanart#illustration#they really are my beloved they give me serotonin
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having the time of my life rn
#im just gonna dump this here bc i srsly cant go with this anywhere else cause my veins are about to pop#going on bsky really making me realize that my art simply got carried by the algorithm and not bc ppl actually like it i feel lol#i crawl back to twt bc im so addicted to the notification pop up there at least there i can feel like i actually matter#everyone has been getting serotonin from bsky but for me it was the exact opposite most friends also dont care for bsky so im just alone#maybe its also just the realization that perhaps there is nothing left for me on this earth#i put so much of my selfworth into the stupid numbers online and now im paying the price for it#my mental health is so bad rn i cant go a single day without feeling like i wanna end it today or i wont live past my 30s nor that i even#WANT TO live past my 30s my passions are gone dont have goals in life anymore like whats even the point maybe this really is the final#nail in the coffin for me lol i dont even think anyone cares for me beyond a personal surface level not even my family im so done with lif#im so eaten up by jealousy in every aspect of my life and i have had to bottle it up for so long bc nobody actually gives a shit even if i#openly talked about it to whoever how its making me miserable but its always the “just think about the good in life :)” there is none#i honestly wished for several years i shouldve been dead or at least not exist physically anymore and it was only the clout online that kep#me alive for better or worse but now im starting to believe this was all jsut lies too lol ngl i just wanna crawl into a hole and never ge#back out of it anymore i dont think anyone would even miss me anyways lol
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bankrupting myself by going on a christmas present buying rampage - gift giving is my love language and i'm a slave to capitalism, what's new?
#the serotonin this gives me i swear#it's like nothing else#i should be writing#but instead i'm buying little treats online
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✖ How has Tumblr RP changed since you started?
Munday Meme | ✿
🌸。*゚+. A LOT more graphics and fancy stuff floating around. Before it was more common for people to have just. Plain icons, no borders or anything-- no fancy filters, no answered ask banners, etc etc... But now it's like... almost a weird requirement as an RP blog that you must have some sort of graphics. Mobile banner and promo at the bare minimal. Answered Ask banners were born from when tumblr asks were broke, so we came up with a creative way to post asks again. But then they stayed after it was all fixed.
Which is perfectly fine! I'm just getting at... before it was more common to see the every day RP blog with bare bones plain stuff. Now, you would rarely find an RP blog without some sort of personalized banner for their mobile theme, or people don't take them seriously as an RP blog. And I don't mean like... just any graphic. I mean personalized, as in... it has their URL, their muse, and some sort of aesthetic to it.
So yeah, that's at least what I've observed!
#MUN SPEAKING 🌸 ᴬ ʷᵉᵃᵛᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ᵗᵃˡᵉˢ; ᴾᵃⁱⁿᵗᵉʳ ᵒᶠ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ#I think this is the big one people mention all the time honestly LOL So I might just be a broken record#but it's no less true! I enjoy making graphics and commissioning people for them to be made.#It gives me serotonin seeing pretty things for my babies!!! But that's the extent of it for me.#I don't see it as like... a REQUIREMENT for an RP blog or anything. If you have muses I wanna write with?#And your writing is nice??? I'll follow you. And we'll eventually write together!!!#And it'll be AWESOME!!!!! But like... I don't care if you have zero graphics LOL#Some people take it way too far and have it as a requirement to interact with them.#As though somehow it makes someone a better writer. I wrote with someone who was ALL aesthetic.#I hated their writing. Their muse was boring. Nothing was interesting. It was just. Aesthetic.#HARD PASS BYE LMAO#Anyways thanks for sending this in!!
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OH MY GOD EVERYBODY IT'S HAPPENING?!?!?!?! ONE OF MY FAVORITE COMTE STORY EVENTS!?!?!?!? THIS IS NOT A DRILL MAYDAY MAYDAY MOD IS GOING DOWN!!!!!
#i apologize to everybody for who i will become before during and after this event.#WHY THE HELL DIDN'T MY NOTIFS GO OFF FOR THIS#BETRAYAL. PHONE YOU HAVE 3 DAYS TO REPENT OR ITS OFF THE PLANK WITH YOU#oh my gooododddddddododdddd O M H YYHFUC GODODOSJFDKJFDF#if im catatonic for the rest of the week you will all know why#pls pls pls pls PLS engl ver DONT FAIL ME NOW#please give me that spicy spicy stoic and dutiful mc#and comte reading her for FILTH IN AN INSTANT#GOD nothing is better than an es for him thats just#mc: i dont have feelings#comte: (*performing shakira and beyonce's Just A Beautiful Liar*)#man im so glad i was like '🤔???? wonder what the next event is for the engl ver' and opened it to check#i wont be able to read for a few more hours but ughghghghUGHGHGHGH SEROTONIN I NEED IT#okay minnie just pretend you didn't see it#finish your work and then u can bask in your mans#vampires of ages past give me STRENGTH#minnie mumbles#comte propaganda#fangdad propaganda
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WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT A 'BLACK FRIDAY' IN AN ART SUPPLIES STORE
also yeah, that is the bloody magnolia print i am wearing :3
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July recap! 🏖
#my health has crashed and burned once more but july started off as a strong month that ended wonderfully!!! 🥳🥂🔥💥#like. i got to *finally* enjoy a birthday cafe event after being so jealous of kr and jp fans (since they regularly make one each year)#and someone in indo finally made one! for *the* kitashin too! 🥺🥺🥺🫶🫶🫶 i'm grateful to be warga h*** b*** for once because of this!!!#also my cat SLEPT IN MY ARMS during our morning sit... i fear i've peaked in life you guys. nothing can beat this type of joy 😭😭😭#i also got good quality bed sheets for the first time in ~15 years with a hefty discount... turns out just changing to a brand new sheet#each week gives me extra serotonin boost 🥳💖 entering my room and laying on the bed is a whole new experience and i'm LOVING it!!!!!#and the discounts ended up being pretty big too... i won in life. my bed sheets are all floral and it brightens up my day just looking at it#and look back. oooooh (collapses). i'm still weeping about it so i will talk about that in another post haha :')#also can you guys believe that what it took for me to finish watching an sv playthrough was me being sick JSHSKDJD 😭🤚#turns out not being able to do much means all the attention i can spare is for whatever's that playing in front of me. so i now understand#the sv plot and how it still has spectacular writing + music despite the game's performance... so now you know that i'll be pulling arven 😭#personal
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im bored as hell and burnt out from drawing so here's a random page of nothingbound ch 6 or whatever from forever ago
“Sup.”
“Sup???” you bark back. “Is that all you really have to say?”
Dave lifts a rigid arm up and rubs his palm against the back of his neck. His gaze seems to be focused elsewhere, as if it’s taking all of his willpower not to look you directly in the eye. Regardless of his efforts, an uneasy chuckle escapes from his pursed lips.
“I probably looked like a huge tool just then, huh?”
“And a goddamn weirdo,” you add.
“Uh. Sorry, for creeping on you like that. I just never expected–I didn’t think you’d, uh–that you’d…”
With a sudden sharp inhale, Dave seems to give up completely on whatever he was trying to say and instead attempts to collect himself. You eye him with suspicion, preparing yourself for his eventual strike at you.
Finally, Dave releases a shaky breath and looks at you incredulously. “What are you doing here?”
You fight back another sniffle and attempt to fill your figure, like a camper trying to scare off a curious bear. You equip your furrowed eyebrows and throw Dave a nasty frown. “I don’t know, Dave. Maybe I just figured you should have a taste of your own medicine, and decided that it was my turn to show up out of nowhere and inconvenience you this time!”
You fully expect Dave to defend himself and catapult his own hurtling ball of flame back at you, but he simply watches the ground and shifts his feet back and forth in uncertainty.
“Oh.”
Dave’s silence after that throws you into confusion, but you refuse to let him have the upper hand, in case this ends up being some fucked up trick he’s playing on you.
“What?” you demand, feeling your anger swell up again. “Don’t have a snarky Strider quip for me this time? Ha, ha, color me shocked! I’ve practically done the work for you, and you won’t take this freebie? Look at me, I’m an emotional, gross mess right now! A gold mine of overflowing snot and tears! I know you’re just dying to give me shit for it. Well, go on. I’m ready.”
You spread your arms out in a goading gesture, certain he’ll launch his counterattack this time. Even when you see him frown and avoid your gaze once more, you lie in wait.
But it never comes.
“...Well?” you dare him again.
“Tempting offer, Vantas. But no, Karkat. I wouldn’t…I’m not going to do anything like that,” he promises.
“Oh,” is all you say, parroting Dave’s earlier response. Your body betrays your armored defenses and lets out several sniffles. Dave’s frown deepens. You watch him start to reach out with a timid hand, and in your panic, you shift your body away and fold your arms to avoid his gaze. He quickly clamps it shut and swings it against the side of his leg.
You just can’t stand it. The way he’s looking at you right now. Like…like he pities you. Maybe even more than the way he looked at you back then. You hate it. You hate the way it twists your stomach and the way it makes you feel like you can’t breathe. You hate how vulnerable you feel, and that once again, it had to be in front of him of all people.
But the burst of rage that bubbled up has fizzled out, and you don’t really feel like getting into an argument with him. Not this time. And it seems like he isn’t too keen on it, either. Maybe neither of you simply have the energy for your usual routine tonight. You don’t know whether to be grateful or angry for it.
For once, you’re at a loss for words, so the two of you just stay there, brewing in a strained silence.
#i got my wisdom teeth surgery so i just binged a bunch of movies and shows and some included romcoms and romance shows so#i be in that mood for cheesy shit T-T#ive done nothing but sit with an aching mouth and screaming uterus and heightened emotional stress so i just want to do something to give#me serotonin#nothingbound#davekat
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Sure, we may have gotten the Purvan jokes made in canon for the animated show which is a massive win, but if we don’t get a running gag of 50 "I assume” jokes made when Seeker Assum Emring shows up I’m personally starting a riot. I need it animated and I need it now
#The funniest underrated line maybe in all of campaign 1 off of the top of my head#is when they’ve been slipping in very unsubtle “we have to assume” jokes for the past 10 minutes of intricate battle planning#and they’re giggling as they halfheartedly apologize to Assum#Keyleth says ''we're assuming- sorry'' while she holds out a hand as if to comfort the man#and then Scanlan goes ''but we know that Thordak is a total asshole- sorry'' and its literally comedy fucking gold#i need it animated sooooo badly#theres a lower possibility that raishan is posing as assum considering we havent met him yet formally#but good god he needs to show up for this reason in particular#i want to see vox machina bully more council members pls it gives me a serotonin boost like nothing else#i love my found family but i also love them blatantly acting like assholes#vox machina#tlovm#tlovm spoilers#critical role#critical role spoilers#cr1#seeker assum#assum emring#the legend of vox machina#purvan suul#lovm#legend of vox machina#andis thought geyser
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