Agent Ohio ❌ Sherry fanmix
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this bitch LONG because i am. so obsessed. there is no hope for me. only toxic yuri that has the possibility to become the kind of love that instead transforms a toxic situation into something beautiful. join me.
I Swallowed Shampoo / Soupy Garbage Juice
I can't even explain it's just the exact vibes of Overwhelming Stupidity mixed with Overwhelming Dread and Certainty Death Is Coming
Why Am I in This Room / Soupy Garbage Juice
as above, but with the Overwhelming Stupidity mixed with the Overwhelming Existential Ennui when faced with rotting away in insignificance without any purpose, because it has been decided that your life is so worthless and pointless that's all there is for you, and that decision being made made itself true, simply because a Powerful Man had an "eject bozos" button
Community Gardens / The Scary Jokes
Full disclosure/I am a monster, a creature of despair/Not that that should be a cause for concern/If there's one thing I've learned in all my years here/It's that despair is less abundant in those who understand/How to plant their hearts in community gardens .... The years have been hard on this lonely heart/If you wanna know the truth/There's no more community gardens/So, I guess I'll have to settle for you
seeing two possibilities in front of you: 1) growing "community gardens", both literal and metaphorical, to make the best of a bad situation - or even make it into a better situation than where you were before losing everything - with those you love and take care of each other, 2) dwelling on the despair of your situation and trying to find meaning instead in more fighting, more conflict, because that's all you have been taught can be a Purpose in life, as someone grew up in the era of total war and tried to give themself for humanity to the military. sherry can see the former as possible, but only if vera does, but is increasingly losing hope that vera ever will. vera loves sherry, but can only see the second possibility. the only way she can see herself and sherry together is secret, starcrossed Toxic Yuri TM within this narrative of conflict between the bases she's created, and so that's what she'll settle for.
Climate Crisis Love Song / Nathan Apollo
Skies are grey, grass is brown
Trees are dead, they're burning down
World is ending, look around
I can't breathe
But your eyes look me down
I got nothin' I can say
Yeah, you took my breath away
loving someone fiercely within a horrible, hopeless situation, and not knowing whether that love is the bright spot within it or part of that horrible situation. also, the whole thing is hilariously absurd, because there is always a really slapstick element to sherry and vera's tragedy, on account of 1) the absurdity that there is literally no reason for them to be fighting, and 2) vera is a theatre kid at heart and cannot Be The Villain without treating it like a super hammy role
Psycho / Cloudy June
You're the one that I can not take my eyes off
What's it like to fall for a psycho?
Need another rush to die for
20/20 Sight when the night falls
Better be the one to hunt than to cry for
What's it like to fall for a psycho?
Need another rush to die for
being totally obsessed with each other and just as obsessed with the rush of constantly trying to kill each other as a distraction from thinking about the pointless horror of your situation
Teeth / 5 Seconds of Summer
Some days, you're the only thing I know
Only thing that's burning when the nights grow cold
Can't look away, can't look away
Beg you to stay, beg you to stay, yeah
Sometimes, you're a stranger in my bed
Don't know if you love me or you want me dead
Walls Could Talk / Halsey
Told my new roommate not to let you in
But you're so damn good with a bobby pin
Now you gon' play me like a violin
Hittin' these notes
And we both hope there's something
But we bo-both keep fronting
Super Freak / Rick James
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Super freak, super freak
That girl's a super freak
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
vera is indeed a super freak. they also have super freaky sex. that's all.
Fahrradsattel / Pisse
Du willst einen Ring am Finger / You want a ring on your finger
Eine Gummihand in deiner / A rubber hand in yours
Festgekettet und für immer / Chained and forever
Aber ich will dein Fahrradsattel sein / But I want to be your bicycles seat
vera can't see a committed, normal relationship between them as anything but a sad pipe dream, with them out here, because there's no way to find any purpose without being Enemies. she just wants to fuck real nasty.
Hey Sexy Lady / Shaggy
Hey sexy lady, I like your flow
Your body's burnin', I lost control
Your booty on me, ceiling to floor
Only you can make me scream and beg for more
they are literally just. so embarrassing and cheesy in dramatic sexy hatefucking foreplay. think that one Hark! A Vagrant Comic
this is them all the time
Flip Flop / Yucky Duster
And your friends they kind of blow
They're all jerks I don't know
They're all such jerks! I don't know
You don't even know what you want
You don't even know what you want
sherry and vera at each other: fuck your idiots they shot my idiots
What If Things Get Worse / Kaden MacKay
There is need to fret, though you can bet it'll get better
But probably not yet or ever, so don't hold your breath
Actually, hold it as long as you need
'Cause you locked your own cage, and you'll never be freed
And the only thing that is approaching with speed is your death
You're gonna die!
You're gonna die!
You're gonna die!
You're gonna die!
never forget the underlying existential dread driving every crazy thing they do. because they sure don't! BONUS level of existential dread for sherry: being acutely aware that "you locked your own cage" and things would literally be So Much Less Bad if her and these fuckers she's marooned with could just. stop trying to kill each other. l'enfer c'est les autres.
The Chain / Fleetwood Mac
And if you don't love me now (you don't love me now)
You will never love me again
I can still hear you saying (still hear you saying)
You would never break the chain (never break the chain)
Chain keep us together (running in the shadow)
sherry knows that whatever this relationship is, it's not love (oh, but it's so much worse than that: it is love yet they still do this to each other). but they are obsessed with each other and will never stop.
Problems / DeathbyRomy
Wonder why, when we both got problems
Why won't you help me solve them?
I love you, but you don't and this is how I cope
sherry, screaming into the void and banging her head against a wall: WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS AND ***WHY THE FUCK*** DO I LIKE YOU
Bad Romance / Lady Gaga
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance
I want your love, and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance (oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
Criminal / Britney Spears
But mama I'm in love with a criminal
And this type of love isn't rational, it's physical
Mama please don't cry, I will be alright
All reason aside I just can't deny, I love the guy
see above re: incredibly embarrassing chewing-the-scenery-in-role-of-villain hatefucking foreplay, and dear lord, sherry is into it even though she's extremely aware of how incredibly stupid and cringe it is, objectively. fuck her whole life
Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now / The Smiths
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die?
good news: vera found a purpose! bad news: it is a terrible, miserable purpose she allowed to be given to her by the people who decided she and her friends are too worthless to be allowed to live or even to bother to kill properly.
Come As You Are / Nirvana
Come as you are, as you were
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend
As an old enemy
Take your time, hurry up
Choice is yours, don't be late
despite everything, i love you, and i will whether we choose to be enemies or friends, so the choice is yours: are we going to make our own concept of a worthwhile life and try to find happiness together, or will we live in a fun, blood-and-adrenaline-soaked rush distracting us from underlying misery?
The Killing Moon / Echo & the Bunnymen
In starlit nights, I saw you
So cruelly, you kissed me
Your lips, a magic world
Your sky, all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon
Trigger Of Love / JAWNY
Run, she got the gun
She will pull the trigger on you and the trigger is of love
vera will shoot you both literally and with love for someone (her) that you are SO mad at yourself for being in love with
I Shot Cupid / Stela Cole
I shot Cupid, ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-bang
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love again
Lo-lo-lo-love again
I shot Cupid, ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-ba-bang
'Cause I don't wanna fall in love again
Lo-lo-lo-love again
desperately fighting that trigger of love
Worst In Me / Unlike Pluto
I saw you standing there, and I knew
I'm done for, it's over, I'm through, oh
Playing games from the start, oh
Sinking your nails in my heart, no
You bring out the worst in me, oh
sherry, realizing that she is utterly fucked from how into this crazy asshole she is, and that she's going to keep falling into this crazyness, too
Lover Is a Day / Cuco
I'll take the bumpy road, it'll probably break my legs
As long as I don't show you what's ruining my head
Funny thing about you is you read me pretty well
But you haven't found me yet at the bottom of the well
Annoying you with smoke signals, asking you for help
'Cause your immediate presence lifts me straight away from hell
vera knows that what she's doing is fucked up and irrational, but she's in a fucked up and irrational situation and can't see any other way to be.
you stupid bitch / girl in red
You stupid bitch, can't you see
The perfect one for you is me?
once again, here sherry is, banging her head against the wall and screaming about vera's intentness on making things worse
Crazy Girls / TOOPOOR
I know I can be destructive in the things I do
Will hurt you, and might make you hate me
But I'll still love you
You're my enemy and my remedy
But if you're not gonna bleed for me, go (Go)
vera, once again, certain that hatefucking is as close to a happy ending as they get, and afraid that this isn't enough for sherry and she'll be left all alone
Fall in Love / Android52
Heaven is really not far away
Why can't we fall in love for a day?
I want to fall in love
Baby just for the night
Just for the night
vera's "starcrossed enemy-lovers who must keep their nights together secret from their teams" roleplay she's living in
Daisy / ashnikko
I'm crazy, but you like that, I bite back
Daisies on your nightstand, never forget it
I blossom in the moonlight, screw eyes
Glacial with the blue ice, I'm terrifying
see prev note, but with more of vera hamming up her "i'm a villain now because a story needs a villain and i will not let us fade into narrative meaninglessness" role
Villain / Bella Poarch
I'll be the villain tonight
I kinda like when you despise me after we fight
(Feels so much better when I'm)
Pushin' all your buttons 'til you're crawlin' on the floor
You say you hate my guts, but you're still coming back for more
vera honestly finds method acting as ~sherry's villainous enemy~ so fucking therapeutic. freak.
dumb dumb / mazie
Disappointment takes us by surprise
Even though by now I think we should have realized
Everyone is dumb (dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb, dumb)
I just wanna go from here
Close my eyes and disappear (disappear)
every day sherry is amazed by the depths of stupid they all reach, shooting at each other for no reason etc, and she kinda wishes hargrove had just killed them instead of going through this indignity of seeing that they're all so incompetent and stupid that they'll make their own hell. l'enfer c'est les autres indeed!!
Just Pretend / Bad Omens
I'm not afraid of the war you've come to wage against my sins
I'm not okay, but I can try my best to just pretend
I can wait for you at the bottom
I can stay away if you want me to
I can wait for years if I gotta
Heaven knows I ain't getting over you
I know the pain that you hide behind the smile on your face
And not a day goes by where I don't think I feel the same
they are Not Doing Okay, but they understand that about each other and they love each other no matter how much they hurt each other, so they'll keep this up as long as it takes for them to actually get together and lift each other up
Shameless / Camila Cabello
Right now, I'm shameless
Screamin' my lungs out for ya
Not afraid to face it
I need you more than I want to
Need you more than I want to
Show me you're shameless
Write it on my neck, why don't ya?
they fuck real nasty and real stupid and god sherry wishes she wasn't so into it
Kiss or Kill / Stela Cole
K-I-L-L-I-N-G
Kiss or kill, kiss or kill
Kiss or ki-ki-ki-ki
Kiss or kill, kiss or kill
Kiss or ki-ki-ki-ki
Mixed Messages / Tom Cardy
Mixed messages
Mixed messages
One second, I say you're very pretty (very pretty)
And then I show up at your house and I kick your dog, yeah
Mixed messages
Mixed messages
I pay for the dog's veterinary bills
But then I punch your dad in the dick
Now we're going to a hospital
Just me, you, and your dad in the back of an ambulance
And even with your dad's broken dick
The air is thick with (sexual tension)
exactly this sort of stupidity and insanity and, somehow, in spite of it all, horniness
Fall / The Terrordactyls
Shoot me in the face
I'll shot you in the face
We'll see which one of us
Can shoot the other in the most accurate place
Stab me in the chest
I'll stab you in the chest
We'll see which one of us
Can stab the other in the chest the very best
If you want to die
Give me a call
We'll have each other bleeding in no time at all
My Nemesis / Danny Jacob
My neme'-neme', ooh, my neme'-neme'-neme"
And I feel fine 'cause I've got a nemesis
My neme'-neme', ooh, my neme'-neme'-neme'
My neme'-neme', ooh, my neme'-neme'-neme'
Now I hate him, and he hates me
What a wonderful animosity
Besides his hat, he wears no clothes
Now I have someone to oppose
Yes, I have a nemesis
What Is This Feeling / Wicked The Musical
What is this feeling
So sudden and new?
I felt the moment
I laid eyes on you
My pulse is rushing
My head is reeling
My face is flushing
What is this feeling?
Fervid as a flame
Does it have a name?
Yes!
Loathing
Unadulterated loathing
Shutup You're Stupid / That Handsome Devil
It's the middle of the night
And I'm calling you crazy
While you're calling me baby
I don't wanna close my eyes
Cause I'm here right now
Tryna memorize
Every crack in your lips
Cause I already miss it
You're stupid and I love you for it
You're stupid and I love you for it
(So dumb, literally so dumb, just like so not smart)
I Did Something Bad / Taylor Swift
They say I did something bad
Then why's it feel so good?
They say I did something bad
But why's it feel so good?
Most fun I ever had
And I'd do it over and over and over again if I could
It just felt so good, good
vera is living her bestworst life and insisting on keeping up the act that yes!! she is so bloodthirsty and rogueish muahahaha she totally is having so much fun!!!! not on the edge of despair at all!!!
Shoot All Your Problems Away / LilDeuceDeuce
lol. yeah sure did get passed up for that big promotion and stuck in a REAL shit job with a REAL shit boss huh. shoot each other about it.
Perfect For You / Jennifer Damiano and Adam Chanler-Berat
Our planet is poison, the oceans, the air
Around and beneath and above you
The world is at war, filled with death and disease
We dance on the edge of destruction
The globe's getting warmer by deadly degrees
And this is one fucked up seduction
I can't fix what's fucked up
But one thing I know I can do
I can be perfect for you
Sweet but Psycho / Ava Max
"Grab a cop gun" kinda crazy
She's poison but tasty
Yeah, people say, "Run, don't walk away"
'Cause she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
She'll make you curse, but she a blessin'
She'll rip your shirt within a second
You'll be coming back, back for seconds
With your plate, you just can't help it
No, no, you'll play along
Let her lead you on
You'll be saying, "No, no"
Then saying, "Yes, yes, yes"
'Cause she messin' with your head
have i mentioned just how mad sherry is at herself for being so in love with this asshole and so into these incredibly transparently putting-on-a-show-of-being-soooo-edgy-and-vicious theatrics
Trying to Survive / Colony House
Aren't we all in the same boat?
Taking on water
Yeah, we're all in the same boat
Don't we all share the same space?
Living and dying
We all come from the same place
Tired of trying to survive
Tired of fighting for my life
I'm just like anybody, anywhere
Navigating complicated times
But I'm trying to survive
Yeah, we're all trying to survive
COULD WE NOT JUST ALL GET ALONG. GOOD GOD.
The Great War / Taylor Swift
My knuckles were bruised like violets
Sucker punching walls, cursed you as I sleep-talked
Spineless in my tomb of silence
Tore your banners down, took the battle underground
And maybe it was ego swinging
Maybe it was her
Flashes of the battle come back to me in a blur
good god the drama. please vera stop being such a Theatre Kid for just ten seconds
Judas / Lady Gaga
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh, baby, it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
I'm just a Holy Fool, oh, baby, it's so cruel
But I'm still in love with Judas, baby
sherry is completely aware of how stupid and manufactured the team-vs-team-and-starcrossed-lovers drama is and yet she is just as swept up in the drama of BEING IN LOVE WITH JUDAS OH WHAT A FOOL SHE IS. it just also comes with the hell of being more self-aware about it
Cry About It Later / Katy Perry
I'll cry about it later
Tonight I'm havin' fun
I know tomorrow I'll be love hungover
But I'm ready for a shameless summer
sherry does not respect herself the morning after most of her Bad Vera-Related Decisions but oh god are they ever fun
bad idea! / girl in red
It was a bad idea
Calling you up
Was such a bad idea
I'm totally fucked
It was a bad idea
To think I could stop
Was such a bad idea
I can't get enough
see above!
10 Things I Hate About You / Leah Kate
Five, you're toxic
Four, can't trust you
Three, you still got mommy issues
Two years of your bullshit I can't undo
One, I hate the fact that you made me love you
Nobody / Mitski
And I don't want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I'm a coward
I just want to feel alright
And I know no one will save me
I just need someone to kiss
Give me one good honest kiss
And I'll be alright
at their most vulnerable core, they're just sad and desperately want the comfort of straightforward, healthy love, or physical connection if they can't have that, that most basic need of human connection in this isolated wasteland
I'm Your Villain / Franz Ferdinand
You toss in a word
And I'm your villain
I see the passion emerge
And I'm your villain
I know what I am
And I'm your villain
Oh no, I don't give a damn
If I'm your villain
Combat Baby / Metric
Combat baby, come back baby
Fight off the lethargy
Don't go quietly
Combat baby
Said you would never give up easy
Combat baby, come back
vera will not go quietly into irrelevancy, worthlessness, meaninglessness. she will claw back meaning to her life with combat. and that's her love language with her baby <3
Is This Danger / Bombadil
Is this danger?
Is this true love?
Is this something I can hope to know?
Is this a basket?
Is this my own life?
Is this container to never use?
Is this sadness?
Is this past us?
Is this a moment we did not choose?
I've been holding back on loving you
I've been holding back, I've been holding back
vera in a moment of reflection and allowing herself to hope that maybe, perhaps, they could have something better
You Don't Understand Me / The Raconteurs
You don't understand me.
But if the feeling was right you might
Comprehend me.
And I don't claim to understand you. (Oh...)
But I've been looking around
And I haven't found anybody like you.
And there's always another point of view,
A better way to do the things we do.
And how can you know me and I know you
If nothing is true?
vera, again reflecting. she knows that sherry doesn't understand why she's so intent on making up this conflict for a Purpose, but she's always felt that it's her only choice to survive and cope, to cling to the military way of life and view of herself as A Soldier. now, she wonders if she can accept that the people who told her that combat was what she was good for also told her she was good for absolutely nothing, and if she can give up clinging to that "point of view" and "way to do the things we do"
You Think You're Tough / Hunx and His Punx
Oh god, what have I done?/Oh no, what have I become?/Am I in love?/Oh shit, I hate myself for falling for someone who's tough/I swear I hated you, thought you were gross, now I'm the fool/You were my nemesis, never thought we could coexist/Am I in love? Am I in love?/Am I in love? Am I in love?/Am I in love with someone who thinks they're tough?
spoiler they fell in love concurrently to becoming "enemies". there is no time they thought they hated the other without also loving her... but vera does love pretending to live in her bitter-enemies-to-lovers roleplay with sherry sometimes
The Jail That Sets You Free / Asaf Avidan
Honey, come with me, it's just you and me
Baby, believe it's as simple as can be
I will be the jail that sets you free - I will be the jail that sets you free
I'm shuffling underneath my pillow for the bed-crumbs of my mind
It's hard to look there for a future, when I left it all behind
Please don't condescend and say you've heard this one before
I'm hard to please sometimes - I'm hard to please sometimes
their life together, marooned together, could be the jail that sets each other free. vera starts to believe in this, she wants to believe in this, but it's just so hard for her to let go of the past, of everything she worked for to get to where she was before she left it behind, before she was left behind. she knows she's hard to love and hard to please and she's sorry. just please don't pretend you understand exactly what she feels, sherry.
Your Stupid Face / Kaden MacKay
What are you doing here?
I didn't run away!
It was... it was a strategic retreat
What is there to talk about? It's over—I ruined it
Well, yeah of course I'm sorry, but
No, no, don't forgive me!
Why do you do that?
Why—why give me another chance to mess things up?
Because you—what?
Those three little words
Out of the blue
Completely uncalled for
Especially from you
Don't you dare leave our problems and pain on the shelf!
Because if you don't hate me, I can't hate myself
But that's why I need you
You shatter my fear
'Cause despite my misdeed, you are still right here
Though it's stupid to date me
You're willing to try
And if you don't hate me, then why should I?
Are you sure you don't want to give up on me?
You're a moron
Bet / Rio Romeo
I'll bet on you sweetheart
Like a game of cards
And if I lose my hand I'm sure it's worth the charge
To love and to loss
Is worth the cost
So I'm wagering forever just to be in your arms
I'm playing with fire
In the sense I feel warm
And I swear to fucking God I'll weather the storms
trying to make something better together and letting go of everything they cling to from the past is scary but it's worth it
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