#ooof i ... i hate myself more deeply than i ever have. how can i do this to my own mom???? why am i so useless????

[silenthillbunni]

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[blueymoons]

Hey boo! Here's a bunch of numbers for that music meme: 1, 5, 6, 15, 20, 26, 28, 35, 38, and 50 🥳❤️ Looking forward to your answers, I love your music taste!

OOOoh this is so exciting!!! @kenzthepea...I adore you and I haven’t told you that enough lately. ❤❤❤

OK..Here goes:

1. Current Favorite Song: This is hard...Because I love so many songs. But the one I kept repeating today was Cardigan by Taylor Swift. I like the melody, and the lyrics that are so intricate. I especially love the bridge and I think my brain is formulating a fic with this song...but I have to wait and see what percolates. But it feels like that’s about to happen. 

5. A Song That Reminds You Of Another Time In Your Life: I’m going to with It’s Been Awhile by Staind. I don’t know why...but every time I hear this song I think back to the first guy I fell in love with. It literally never played while we were together, or featured in our relationship at all, and has nothing to do with either of us...but it makes me think of him because I feel him in it. I think it’s maybe that during the time I met him, and fell in love with him and was held by him...I was dealing with some serious things in my home life. My mother was abusive, and I felt worthless and like a complete fuck up...but all of that didn’t matter when he hugged me. None of it mattered when we were talking. It makes me feel the way he made me feel and I love that. Because I still love him. Just differently, though 15 year old me is still deeply in love with him...But I am happily married to a man who adores me, who listens to me, and who makes me feel seen...which is exactly what Daniel did for me all those years ago. We’re still very good friends and we sing karaoke together (not currently obviously) and he still gives the best hugs and he’s still as sweet and dreamy and magnetic as he was the day I met him. And I feel grateful, so damn grateful that the first man I ever loved, taught me that I was worthy of that love, so that I could recognize when my husband felt the same way. That was long...but worth it. And you knew I’d be wordy. 🤣

6. A Song That Reminds You of A Place You’ve Been: I cannot hear the Hawaiian version of I’m Yours by Jason Mraz without instantly being transported to the beach house my husband and I were married out of a little over 11 years ago. That song was played multiple times during our stay, and the Hawaiian version is so much more lovely than the radio version. It wasn’t our wedding song...but it is our unofficial wedding song. So much so that it’s the song my husband set as my ring tone when I call him. 🥰🥰🥰 I can’t seem to find the Hawaiian version but the version I linked is very damn close. 

15. A Song That Makes You Want To Fall In Love: This one was really hard...Because I’m already very much in love with my husband...But I’m going to give you two...by the same artist, on the same album, because both give off some serious sex appeal to me and both would make me ache to have someone to feel that way about if I didn’t already have my Husband-Man. Wolf Like Me by Lera Lynn ft. Shovels and Rope, and Lose Myself by Lera Lynn, ft. John Paul White (you knew he had to be in here somewhere). Both are on her Plays Well With Others album, which was co-produced by John Paul and Ben Tanner (of the Alabama Shakes) at their Sun Drop Sound recording studio in Florence, Alabama and is on their label Single Lock Records (I’m a huge fan of pretty much every artist on Single Lock’s label) and these two songs are just straight up magic. Wolf Like Me is like...a werewolf love song. It’s literally her begging someone to be a wolf like her, and understand her, and I believe its a cover...but I choose to ignore that because I don’t ever want to hear anyone but Lera and S&R singing it. It’s haunting and sexy and just...ooof. So good. Lose Myself is sexy AF as well because it’s a duet with John and they’re basically singing about being in love with someone who they know is bad for them...and it’s just so painfully sexily delicious. I dare you to listen to their voices melding and not melt into a puddle. It’s almost impossible. 

(This damn post is going to be really long...I hope you don’t mind. 🤣)

20. A Song You’ve Listened To On Repeat Recently: Rattle by Penny and Sparrow (I think you already know this one) has been on repeat for me lately. This song has been many things to me...But It’s become my worship song. When I REALLY need to talk to God (I’m spiritual...I hope this isn’t something that bothers you. Apologies if it is...I won’t preach...I promise) I turn this song on and I always feel closer to Him. When I first heard it I heard it as a romantic song. But the more I listened to it, the more I felt Him in it and the lyrics really called to me. “Because I’m not proud, I’m not proud, I’m not proud of me...so how could you, how could you ever be?” really nails me on the head. I feel like I fall down on being a light for God quite a bit. I try, always, to be a beacon of love and acceptance and grace to everyone. I want to understand my fellow humans...and love them despite their flaws and foibles...but it’s hard. And so this song reminds me that I’m not alone, and that I’m not the only one who occasionally feels that I’m not making Him proud...but the last lines, “I'm gonna work on waiting, If it's true you wanna say you love me every day. And I'm sorry (that it took me so long to realize) you've always felt that way”, are a beautiful reminder that God’s love for me is something he wants to give me everyday, no matter how much I’ve failed at being His beacon on Earth. So it’s my worship song, because I don’t go to church, but hearing this song is feeling a wash of his love over me and that helps me on really hard days. (I hope that wasn’t too preachy)

26. A Song That Reminds You Of Your Favorite Fictional Character: GOD SO MANY!!! Like...everyone I’ve ever written a fic about...and there are MANY. I guess the best way to find this one is to go to my AO3 series The Music Made Me Do It

28. A Song That Represents Your “Aesthetic”: I don’t really know what my “Aesthetic” is...maybe uptight, bohemian, plant loving, boy and dog mom, who over thinks everything constantly? Is that an aesthetic? LOL. So i’m not sure how to answer this one. But if “aesthetic” means what I would have playing in the house all the time, no matter what, no matter who comes over...It would be THIS entire playlist. It’s called Relaxed Jams (which is the EPITOME of an original title...I’m not good with titles...leave me alone 😂) and it’s pretty much playing nonstop in my house and car...Unless I’m listening to Hamilton...which is also constantly playing. So...there you go...My “Aesthetic”...Hope that works for you. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

35. A Song That Sends Chills Down Your Spine: In the fall of 2018 I was dealing with the knowledge that my oldest son was planning to move to Florida. And I was NOT handling it well. To be honest...I still am not handling it well. I don’t like my baby being so far away and I miss seeing his face, hearing his voice, yelling at him to clean up after himself...I just miss him like I’d miss a limb. We’ve been together since I was 18 and he’s going to be 20 in a few weeks and so, I’m sure you can imagine, over half of my life has been spent loving him. My two boys are the air in my lungs and the blood in my veins. They are EVERYTHING to me and that’s not hyperbole. It’s FACT. So, the idea of him moving away from me made me feel like I’d done something wrong, something to chase him away. And I was listening to a random Jason Mraz playlist on Spotify when I heard a song of his that I’d never heard before (which, in itself was a fucking miracle). That song is God Rests In Reason (yes...another God song...sorry) and it’s lyrics were so utterly perfect for the way I was feeling that I had to literally pull over on the side of the road because I couldn’t see where I was going for the tears in my eyes. Those lyrics were: “Well your children will not be your children They are the daughters and the sons a beginning They'll come through your womb but not be coming from you They will be with you, but they do not belong to you You can give them your love but not your thoughts 'Cause they'll arrive with their own hearts They're the coming of angels this blessed season Undone they’ll sing, Oh how God rests in reason God rests in reason Isn’t reason enough to prove how God moves through you God rests in reason And thank God you can direct the course of love itself of love itself Directs the course of life Believe not God is your heart child But rather you’re in the Heart of God” And it just SPOKE to everything I felt. I’d been asking myself why my child, who I love beyond everything else, who I’d lay down and die for if he asked me to, would want to leave me. Why would he want to go so far away...and God answered with this song. Because Michael has his own heart...and his heart is pulling him to Florida. And in those moments I started to feel a measure of peace. And I started to cope a little better. I stopped crying and feeling like he was telling me I’d done something wrong, and I started being proud that I’d raised my son to feel strongly enough about his own intuition to follow his dreams and reach for the things he wanted in life. I still miss him. I still hate that he’s gone. But it’s eased. And when it threatens to suffocate me, I go to this song. I realize it isn’t spine tingling in the manner that this question probably meant...but it tingled my spine that a song I’d never heard, by an artist I adore and thought I’d heard everything from, shuffled through my phone at a time that I really needed the message in it. I hope that makes sense...and fills the request.     

38. A Song That You Think Is Underrated: I really think pretty much everything Penny & Sparrow has done is horribly underrated. These two men deserve at least the same amount of accolades that Hozier has. And I’m sure Hozier would agree with me if he’d listened to their catalog. I’m never NOT going to promote these guys and I know y’all are tired of it but they mean a literal shit ton to me and I NEED everyone to know their music and recognize their brilliance. They’re better than Ryan Adams, and all the other sad bastards of folk...and they’re complete and total sweethearts who really give a damn about their fans. I will not rest until I’ve told the entire world about Andy Baxter and Kyle Jahnke and that’s that about that. You can find a playlist of their entire catalog of music songs here. I listed them in order of release...and I recommend listening to them that way. At least for the first listen. But be prepared to be hooked because they’re addictive. 

50. Free Slot! Any Song You Want To Share: I feel like you just had me create a playlist for you...And I’m totally OK with it. But I can tell you that...the song Green Eyes by Joseph will be featured in a forthcoming work of mine...The chapter has already been written...I just need time to finish the chapters before it. I guess this is a spoiler for the fic...but it isn’t really because if you know anything about my #1 ship...you know where I want it to go...and this song, is perfect for it. 

Goodness Kenz...I hope this was what you were expecting because I feel like I wrote you a book. 

Thanks for asking me for all of these songs...You know I love talking about my favorite musics. And I hope there are some songs that you just fall in love with here. I’d love to hear about it if you do. Hope you’re well.

Love you!

[sigurdjarlson]

So, coz I never get tired of this (and because I'm trying to distract myself from being hellishly hungover): What would the Wintermoon girls be like as villains? Say they joined Aszhara, or Elisande, rather than making their own way?

Ooooh interesting question. 

This got extremely long and borders on being a goddamn character analysis essay I’m so sorry

I hope you feel better soon though. Hangovers are hell.

edit: (OOOF  forgot the read more. Sorry to anyone who had this monster of a post take up their dash for a minute there)

Any villain Diily AU I have tends to be one where she loses Alaluria and Ladelia in a very traumatic way and just kind of..snaps. Or rather doesn’t give a fuck about anything but getting vengeance.

Completely disillusioned with everyone, heroes, villains, she doesn’t care. Get in her way and you’re cat food.

A lot of things that make her..her? Would be gone. Compassion being the most notable missing trait. It’s switched off and twisted into something much worse.

I think..cold. She’s all rage but it’s a quiet and cold rage. Calculating. Patient. Ruthless. She’s a huntress after all and she is just..hunting a different kind of prey now.

And honestly cruel because why should she continue to be kind when the world never was to them? Why should she keep giving when all fate seems to do is take and take from her until there’s nothing left.

She’s putting all that pain and rage onto her victims and it makes for..very brutal deaths. Because they deserve it, don’t they? They’re all monsters. All of them. Look what they did. Even those who had nothing to do with it?

The world is cruel so she will be too. She tried being good once and look where that got her.

Such a huge part of her identity is being that sister figure to Alaluria and Ladelia. Her life has been dedicated to protecting them for 10,000 years. And naturally that inherent kindness and compassion extends to the rest of the world too.

They’ve all got some..hm..codependency issues that have been getting better as they get older and branch out, spend time with other people but they do still exist. Ironically I’d actually say Diily has it the worst there. It’s part why her and Alaluria clashed so much. It didn’t mesh well with Alaluria’s own deep rooted issues.

And WERE ABOUT TO GET REAL DEEP INTO THEIR PSYCH because it plays a huge part in how something like this could so drastically change her

GODDDD my Diily. She’s such a mess and full of good intentions that sadly don’t always have the best results. And the saddest thing about her is that she was just as much of a traumatized, terrified child as the other two when they lost their parents.

And she was thrust into that mother role which she was of course not emotionally or mentally prepared to take. She herself is deeply traumatized and trying to cope but none of them know how.

She does know she loves them though. And so, she throws herself in that role completely. They’re her world okay. She loves them more than life itself. I can’t stress that enough.

And another thing that breaks my heart is that in becoming what is essentially their mother as a young pre-teen she gave up everything. None of them had a typical upbringing and a typical adolescence but Diily really had none of that.

She’ll starve herself before she let them go hungry (she’s done it before). She’ll sell her body before she lets them freeze or succumb to illness. (And god she wasn’t ready for that. Not at all. My poor girl.)

She’d tear her own heart from her chest herself if it meant theirs kept beating.

She gives and gives and it leaves her very empty. This doesn’t only stretch to her sisters. She’s very much..a caretaker? But she doesn’t really know how to balance that with taking care of herself. So, she lets them fall or the side because in her eyes? She’s completely unimportant in comparison.

She never got to be a teenager. None of them did but she lost her innocence in ways that she bent over backwards to protect them from.

The worst part she’ll never think she’s done enough. She’s proud of the people her sisters have become but she feels she’s failed them. They didn’t have a normal childhood. They saw and did things no child should have to see and do. (Even while she got the worst of it)

In my eyes, she’s far from perfect but here she did the best she could.  (and someone truly needs to tell her that ugh 3)

They’ve been hurt and she takes them being hurt as a personal failure. Rationally she cannot keep them safe from everything but she blames herself every time. She’s her big sister after all. She’s supposed to protect them.

And that has resulted in well intentioned but ultimately unhealthy patterns of behavior such as her occasionally being overprotective or overbearing. (As she gets older she does get way better about this but there were times as a teenager she naturally had no idea how to deal with Alaluria’s confusing outbursts of rage and Ladelia’s complete dependence on her. And it did result in her trying to protect them in ways that came out more controlling then anything because she’s not an adult she’s just a kid and she has no idea how to be a mother. That and she’s their sister not their mother and it creates really confusing dynamics when Diily tries to tell Alaluria what to do for example. They will never see her as a mother figure. So..there’s some clashing there if that makes sense.

Alaluria saw her overbearing/overprotectiveness as a need to control and it clashed completely with her independent nature. She lashed out. She left. (While simultaneously craving and needing that love and affection and it used to frustrate Diily so much because she didn’t understand. Alaluria unsurprisingly couldn’t articulate what she needed (what child can?) and Diily couldn’t give her what she needed. (She’d never be able to give her everything no matter how much she tries.)

God and you know I can see the rift deepening because Alaluria keeps lashing out and driving her away and simultaneously is hurt when Diily reacts accordingly because Diily doesn’t understand why she’s acting that way. She’s a child herself so her own stubbornness and temper make her snap back which only worsens the situation.

And it results in Alaluria acting out more because Diily is naturally going to well withdraw (and probably pay more attention to Ladelia as a result which wasn’t purposeful or spiteful but its natural she’s put her energy into the sister who doesn’t keep purposefully hurting her) but whatever she does it doesn’t get her the reaction she wants.

(Alaluria doesn’t know what she want. My beautiful ball of contradictions)

Alaluria flip flops badly when it comes to affection. She craves it but will reject it when it comes her way. It’s why she sometimes reacts positively to her sisters being affectionate and other times she lashes out or pulls away. It seems like a contradiction because it is.

And you know I can’t blame either of them. It was just such a clash of personalities and most of all…shitty circumstances. And it’s the fact that they were just kids. Maybe not when Alaluria left but emotionally they’re all kind/of fucked up so it really doesn’t matter.

And on a more personal level Diily doesn’t like herself. Frankly she hates herself. Her self worth is very much dependent on her role as a caretaker and protector. Sadly? The truth of it all is that you can’t be a perfect caretaker. You can’t protect everyone from everything. And it’s something she still struggles to learn. (See: her devastation at what happened to Teldrassil and desperation to make it right) there are other reasons for it too.

Shes..got this need to be seen as strong and put together. (Which is why I enjoy taking her apart so much I think). She wants people to be able to trust and rely on her and her eyes she needs to be strong for them.

Her pain, her needs get shoved down.

She doesn’t think about. She doesn’t want to. So she focuses on others.

And really? All her personal baggage? She doesn’t know how to deal with any of it. None of them have exactly learned healthy coping mechanisms lmao.

She was a scared, hurt little girl who was forced into becoming a mother by horrible circumstance and saw and did things no child should ever have to see and do.

And she’s been trying to pretend she has it together for a very, very long time.

But she has no idea what she’s doing. She was (and still is) just as lost and scared as her sisters but she saw that they needed her and stepped up in a way..she never should have had to.

Kids are supposed to be selfish and immature. It’s a give in. It’s a part of growing up and something they’re taught to grow out of. They’re not supposed to do the things she had to do to keep them alive or give up the things she did.

What else could she do after all? They needed her. There was no other choice,

So what’s the point of the character analysis? I wanted to talk about my girls and got extremely carried away. Losing them would devastate her completely. So much of her would just..shatter. And if the circumstances are right enough it could make her snap in a way that’s really..not a pretty sight at all

She doesn’t have it together. She doesn’t know what to do with these extreme emotions. She doesn’t know what to do without someone to take care of. She doesn’t know what to with without them.

The only beings I can see her not being indifferent to is Wildheart and Brightheart of course. She loves them as loyally and unconditionally as she does her sisters. They’re family

She’s willing to do anything to get her revenge because that’s all that matters to her. The world is as dead to her as they are. Or rather..she’ll make it so it is.

-cough-

Alaluria being the most morally dubious of the three is a bit easier to figure out. It could’ve a similar situation to the above or one where the fel madness takes over. Or both.

If you want the cruelest version of her it would be the last option. Hm..Alaluria is already cynical and disillusioned with the world. Where Ladelia and Diily try to find the good she just sees the bad.

Ex; She’s distrustful while Ladelia is too trusting. Diily throws herself into helping others. Alaluria does the same but does it mainly by fighting rather than the loving, soft way Diily cares for others.

She is not bad in canon though. So let’s talk about my canon girl real quick the same way we did with Dil. 

And her repressed rage issues do come from the frankly massive amounts of trauma the three of them have been through. Rage that completely stems from pain. Diily internalizes her pain mostly. Alaluria takes it out on those she deems guilty. And she’s willing to do ruthless things to achieve a greater good. Her and Illidonk has that in common.

(She was honestly a happy child before everything. She’s always had a bit of a temper but so do Diily and Ladelia lmao. It’s just..a little harder to push them to their breaking points. Unless you know where to hit them.

And what really, really killed any idealism still clinging to her?

The Illidari. Illidan. That whole shebang.

She was still..there was a still a bit of that bright eyed brave little girl in her that wanted to save the world and make it a you know..not shitty place..and that was smashed to pieces when she really saw the reality of things.

Illidan has a part to play in that but no more than the entirety of the situation. Diily blames him for it. I don’t think it’s necessarily fair to blame him too much as she made her own choice to join them and stay.

And sometimes there are glimpses of that little girl, mostly with her sisters. When she’s laughing with them or finds joy in something innocent like a saber cub batting at her tail or finding a really cool gem. (I almost said rock because that makes it sound really funny. “Wow look at this rock I found” “that’s great alaluria”)

Anyway, my point. She’s a deeply troubled woman with barely repressed rage issues and it comes from deep trauma and an all consuming pain and complete and utter disillusionment with the world..yet is she really? She’s still fighting for it. There’s some part of her that holds onto hope that it can be better.

But she’s also managed to stay a..mostly decent person. She doesn’t hurt innocents normally. She has but she feels genuine guilt for it. She might growl and grumble but she does help others. It gives her a sense of purpose that has recently been shaken with the destruction of the Legion. She feels..good. Like she’s doing something good.

The whole point of joining the Illidari was to help everyone. To help fix what she saw as the biggest problem. 

She’s not the monster she thinks she is. She’s just a scared, hurting little girl in a woman’s body. 

And yes, she left Diily and Ladelia but that separation (even though she did it willingly) was very traumatic and devastating for her. She was suddenly on her own for the first time in her life and more or less thrown into a den of wolves. (it says a lot about her that she came out leading the whole pack so to speak. :’) my girls are so strong I love them..why am i so mean to them)

And I think knowing Diily and Ladelia were out there even when not being with them is something entirely different from them being dead.

There was always the chance they would reconcile and I think maybe on a more unconscious level..she always thought/knew they would reconcile. It was something inevitable in her mind. She couldn’t imagine anything else.

I can see her always having this belief that after everything was done. After the Legion was defeated she would be able to see them again. And she’d say it was just to shove it in their faces that she was right but..

The world she so viciously determined to protect? She’s always been very aware they’re a part of it too. Even while she “hated” them she was trying to protect them.

So, I think losing them. Especially after reuniting with them (but even during the separation) would be especially devastating. Another thing ripped from her. More proof there’s nothing good at all in the world.

And you know she idealizes them to some degree. She sees Diily and Ladelia as inherently good and herself as bad. (Regardless of how they try to convince her otherwise)

And so she’s just full of rage because it should have been her? There’s no fairness, no sense of justice in this universe if they die and not her because they were good and kind and she’s a monster.

And they were her sisters. And she doesn’t know what to do, how to function in a world where there’s no hope of ever seeing them again.

And now she doesn’t have any fucks to give.

And an Alaluria with no moral compass is a terrifying Alaluria.

Also it would be extremely easy for the demon creeping around in her head/soul to take advantage of that completely and twist her into the perfect weapon. The weapon part.. It’s kind of what Illidan did but he did it for the purpose of destroying the legion which as an idea is a good thing but we all know his methods and morals are questionable at best (*blows a kiss towards Illidan Stormrage* love ya, you bastard)

A villain!Alaluria would be absolutely ruthless. Full of completely unleashed rage and pain. The world wants to hurt her? She’ll hurt it right back. She’ll make the whole damn thing burn.

The worst part is in this au though?

She becomes what she hates most.

As for Ladelia.

She’s the most innocent of the three. The most idealistic. Diily is kind but she’s also usually rather realistic. Ladelia is a dreamer.

A lot of this comes from Diily trying very hard to shelter her and Alaluria from the brutal reality of the world (this isn’t something she could ever do of course but she did try)

But she succeeded more with Ladelia. Alaluria lashed out where Ladelia clung to Diily. Ladelia was younger than either of them when they lost their parents. She doesn’t have the vivid memories that keep Diily and Alaluria up at night. She remembers bits and pieces but not as much.

And being the baby sister and the sister that was not only tolerant of Diily’s overbearing nature but needed it she was coddled more? Alaluria wouldn’t let herself be coddled. Ladelia needed it. She needed love and Diily is just so full of love.

(Diily never intended to create a rift between her two little sisters but she did and it still shows even now sometimes. Especially because Ladelia has been by Diily’s side when Alaluria wasn’t. That’s not a judgement on her though (it sounded too aggressive) it’s just that Alaluria feels..well, she feels left out when they talk about their adventures or they share an inside joke that she doesn’t understand. It’s a natural feeling and it makes my heart hurt for her. (They don’t mean to hurt her)

I wouldn’t call Ladelia spoiled necessarily but she is babied by Diily (and despite their differences and one sided rivalry Alaluria does baby her too..in her own way) It’s easy to see that whenever she’s in trouble she turns tail and runs to Diily. (And Maybe Alaluria resents that it’s never her that her baby sister runs too. God they’re all so complicated)

She’s become far more independent over the years but she still tends to lean very heavily on Diily which is only natural. And Diily wouldn’t dream of turning her baby sister away but she learned from Alaluria it’s important to encourage their independence instead of try to control it.

But codependency issues aside. Ladelia is a genuinely good and kind person. She has a lot of Diily’s compassion and tends to be more of a dreamer than either of them. It’s why she fell so hard for Jaina (and she hurt so much for her when Jaina lost that)

But she does have a temper. Her chosen element of choice is fire after all. (This says so much about her but I’ll tape down that essay for now. It’s especially notable when you compare her to her sisters who are not fond of fire at all and Teldrassil cemented that for them lmao) She’s..the most immature of the three. More impulsive and she wears her feelings on her sleeve unlike Diily and Alaluria. Ugh I don’t want to make her sound “weak” because she’s anything but. She’s endured horrible shit and still come out good and..soft. that’s..that’s not nothing :’)

But Diily is..generally reserved with strangers. Not aggressive or rude but she isn’t going to let them see her at anything but her best.

Ladelia an adult don’t get me wrong but she is more..immature than them? I’m not sure that’s the right word. Don’t get me wrong she has had the idealism dampened over the years by the things she’s been forced to see and do. War has a way of doing that.

But she clings to this belief that people must be mostly inherently good..because she needs to believe that. 

There’s a deep sadness in her just like the other two but it manifests a bit differently.

A lot of her sadness is aimed at the world as a general thing rather than any specific entity? Diily and Alaluria hate, hate, hate the Legion and focus their rage on them. Now it’s shifted to Sylvanas and Azshara (although Azshara’s part in the Legion nonsense is something they very much are aware of and hate her for)

Ladelia does too but she doesn’t have the memories they do. Her memory is foggy (probably her mind protecting itself really) 

She doesn’t understand why people do such horrible things. She doesn’t know why bad things happen to good people. And she hates that she can’t save everyone. (You’ll see that with both her and Diily)

But a villain Ladelia??

That would be someone who kills in the name of what they believe is good but I could see her sense of good being twisted if she lost Diily and Alaluria. Especially if in her grief someone like Azshara latched onto her.

She’d be very easily to manipulate in that sense.

And she is a very powerful mage. It’s something she is very proud of. Like Jaina she’s so hungry for knowledge. I think part of her thinks maybe if she understands the universe..she can “fix” it? She just has to understand first.

And that creates someone who absolutely excels in a field like magic. She’s very determined, she’s as stubborn as Diily and Alaluria are (it’s a family trait clearly) And she pushes and pulls and picks apart the mysteries of the universe and deep down a part of her just wants to understand so she can help.

And it’s just a desire to understand. She feels better when she understands things. Things aren’t as scary when you understand them after all.

She was an unbearably curious child and still has that curiosity. It’s something Diily has managed to keep alive in her.

She’s ambitious in the sense she’s always reaching for new heights in terms of skill. She takes great pride in her skill at magic. I could see that being a bad thing in certain circumstances. “Knowledge is power..but using it wisely is the key.” “control your power..or it will control you.” etc. So a villain Ladelia might have magic as a corrupting influence rather than a positive one like in..”canon”

So a villain Ladelia to me is one who has become disillusioned with the concept of good. Or maybe one who just has a twisted idea or what is good. She’s passionate and so adamant what she’s doing is right and that? Those kinds of people are some of the most dangerous. Think..Jaina snapping and trying to  murder the entirety of Ogrimmar.

It’s the right thing to do? ..right? It has to be because she doesn’t know what to do if it’s not. And maybe she’s just full of rage and wants to take it out on those who are “bad” in her eyes.

But whether or not those people are truly bad..well, that’s almost always subjective isn’t it?

And maybe part of villain Ladelia knows that.

She just pretends she doesn’t.

She’s good at pretending.

——

NOW for the grand finale which is all three of them as villains together.

I’m wondering what could push them towards something so drastic. Typically it’s the death of the others that is the major catalyst in those au’s so.. (h

I think it would have to be an AU where they’re taken in by some sort of villain and manipulated.

Someone who pretends to love them and these three terrified, affection starved children eat up whatever parental attention they can get unaware they’re being manipulated.

It would have to be someone who can prey on all their individual weaknesses and bring out their best traits and then completely turn them on their head. Twist it for a bad purpose.

Diily’s capacity for unconditional love . Alaluria’s desire for revenge. Ladelia’s idealism and ambition.

I wonder if Azshara could be that person but it would have had to be when they were younger so it would have to be a pretty drastic au. They place a heavy amount of blame on her for the Legion shit. But if they were young she could probably twist it in her favor.

Maybe an old god of some sorts? (Oh dear that’s a scary thought)

I can see the Legion doing the same but through cruelty rather than faux kindness: I think it would be near impossible to make Diily and Alaluria loyal to the Legion after what they did to their home and family.

Ladelia is more..vulnerable to manipulation than them though.

BUT their captor would honestly have to be very good at psychological manipulation.

Using them against one another would be..horrifically successful. It could really work on Diily for example. It’s a very visible and glaring weakness and if someone took advantage of that. You could get her to do anything if you put them up as bargaining chips.

Hilariously I think their…hmmm captor would end up dead with that kind of behavior though. She won’t tolerate them being hurt and vice versa.

Lmao they just completely usurp their captor and..sadly take their role as villain however because it’s what they’ve been taught and groomed for.

Alaluria in particular would be willing if they really played with her arrogance and ambition. The demon in her head tries (and mostly fails since she’s very strong willed) to do that. You can do it better..just get him out of the way..you taught me to be ruthless after all. 

(makes me wonder about an AU where she comes to hate and resent Illidan instead of admire and love him)

Ladelia is the most hungry for love. That’s something you could use against her if you’re an absolutely abhorrent person. She’d want to make their “parental” figure proud and please them so they love her.

Ah it just depends on the captor’s methods. Are they cruel? Are they “kind” to them? You could inspire loyalty and love from them or…hatred and ruthlessness but the latter wouldn’t end in their captor’s favor. However if they went the kindness route they would have three girls absolutely willing to do whatever they wanted.

You know if they wanted to take advantage of three traumatized children (who all have so much potential) and turn them into weapons instead of the people they are in canon (I feel weird calling it canon since obviously ocs aren’t necessarily canon to WoW lore but- nevermind. it doesn’t matter. My canon for them) because my canon girls are deeply flawed who make mistakes but are mostly good people who just want to help and take care of each other okay. 

They have a creator who’s very mean to them

I will say I don’t envy the au where the three of them are villains (or separately but especially together). 

[fearofaherobrine]

Roleplay Server Log #267

“Sleepwalker Sammn, Kraz Revealed and Stev Revived”

[Lie] Yawns sleepily as she heads out the door to tend to her animals first thing in the morning-

[Sammn] (is dreaming) - she standing in darkness, hearing shouts & screams from all around. She can't see, but knows her army is on the cusp of defeat. She tries to command them to retreat, but is unable to speak. She tries to move and finds herself frozen. In the darkness, a figure begins to take shape. -

[Sammn] - (still dreaming) - tries again to move, fails. Figure is closer, but it's nothing but a dark shape. Then a deep voice fills her head - WAKE UP! IT'S NOT REAL, WAKE UP!

[Lie] Notices her dogs crowding towards one side of their pen and goes to investigate- Hello?

[Sammn] - gives a scream and wakes up.

[Lie] - Sammn!

[Sammn] - jumps, and stumbles back - Huh? What?

[Lie] - Hey. it's okay, I think you were sleep walking.  Is everything okay?

[Sammn] - blinks, looking around - I guess? This happens sometimes.

[Lie] - Do you need to sit down at all?

[Sammn] - Na, I'm fine. Sorry if I startled you.

[Lie] - Not at all, were you having a good dream?

[Sammn] - frowns - Don't think so, can't really remember much, except the voice. That's always in my dreams.

[Lie] - A voice?

[Sammn] - Yeah, don't know who it is, but they always tell me to wake up.

[Lie] - Wake up?  That seems more like something that my husband would say, he can manipulate dreams, control them, and trap people in them

[Sammn] - Interesting. So... Why you up this early?

[Lie] - I have to take care of my animals, do you want to help?

[Sammn] - Sure.

[Lie] Smiles and leads Sammn over to the horse pen and shows her how much hay to throw in-

-The horses all whinny and press up against the fence-

[Sammn] - Wow, collect horses? - holds out some wheat.

[Lie] Laughs- A bit.  So how have you been?  Are you doing okay?

[Sammn] - shrugs - Yeah, just been sleeping alot. Looked around some, but got lost. Took me hours to get back.

[Lie] - If you ever need help getting somewhere, just call out in chat, somebody can always teleport you.  But I do remember how easy it was to get lost when I first came here

[Sammn] - looks at her funny - Chat?

[Lie] - You know, the words that occasionally pop up in the corner of your vision?  That's the chat

[Sammn] - Hum... Ok, let's go with that. - turns back to feeding the horses.

[Lie] - If you don't know how to use that, you can always call out mentally, several brines here are psychic so we will be able to hear you

[Sammn] - nods - Someone else told me that too.  Hopefully I'll never have resort to that, but I shall remember.

[Lie] - So do you remember anything from before?

[Sammn] - sighs - Not really. Just more random bits, but little of it makes sense.

[Lie] - I almost envy you

[Sammn] Envy? This... I hate not knowing. It's maddening to know I've forgotten something, or someone.

[Sammn] - That I can't remember anything about myself or the life I may have had.

[Lie] - I willingly gave up any good memories I had from when I lived in the real world, but I have all my memories from when I was first dragged into the game up until now

[Sammn] - Oh, I have to guess they weren't pleasant. In that case, I can understand.

[Lie] - Well, I was originally my husbands victim, a means to the ends of a bet

[Sammn] - frowns - That doesn't sound good...

[Lie] - It wasn't, I was hounded, tortured, sexually assaulted...  You name it he probably did it

[Sammn] - looks down at the ground. Something stirs in her memories, but it's fleeting and gone just as fast.

[Lie] - However it's because I was human that Doc found us.  CP was not the type of brine they would have invited here, but they did so for me, to help keep me safe

[Sammn] - nods absentmindly.

[Lie] - Hey?  Are you okay?

[Sammn] - Ah... I almost remembered something. But it's gone...

[Lie] - It's okay, we'll help you in any way we can

[Sammn] - nods and forces a smile. - So, what critter is next?

[Lie] - The sheep, they need to be sheered to

[Sammn] - Lead the way.

[Lie] Leads them a few pens over where the sheep are grazing, Rosebud trots up to the fence and bleats at them- Hey there Rosebud

[Sammn] - Aw, they're so cute.

[Lie] - A gift from my husband.  She's glitched so she'll never grow up

[Sammn] - kneels down to look better - Poor little thing.

[Lie] - Oh she's perfectly happy.  A baby pink sheep is not a natural spawn, so he had to make her specifically.  She was a valentines day gift

[Sammn] - holds out hand - A gift, but broken from the start.

[Rosebud] Lips Sammn's hand, looking for treats-

[Sammn] - smiles sadly - Sorry little one, I dint have any treats.

[Rosebud] Goes back to nibbling the grass-

[Lie] - So do you have any plans for today Sammn?

[Sammn] - No, not really.

[Lie] - Then why don't you hang around here for today, spend some time with the animals

[Sammn] - Maybe. Sad to say, not like I got anything better to do.

[Lie] - Eh, we can always have quiet days where we don't do much

[Sammn] - Yeah, but I've kinda been doing nothing anyways. - stands up dusting skirt - Any more critters I can help with?

[Lie] - Hmmm, everythings been fed, but if you want to take some of the dogs out to play with them I'm sure they'd appreciate it

[Sammn] - Sure. Let me go find a stick or two, give them something to fetch.

[Lie] - Alright, I'm going to work with some of the horses so if you need me I'll be in front of the house

[Sammn] - nods and heads toward the trees.

[Sammn] - searches under the trees, looking for a couple of thick sturdy sticks.

-They both sit in silence in the desert, NK behind Mix, examining the emerald between her shoulder blades. There's almost a sense of sadness in his eyes as he does. He touches its surface curiously, wondering if a weapon type had been decided. Maybe not yet, too soon for her he decided.-

-NK takes a deep breath, eye glow brightening intensely before he blows deeply onto the gem. The air he exhales is deep, deep indigo in color, almost black in spots. Its speckled with white points of light, like distant stars in the mist. It condenses around the emerald before sparking and then sinking into the gem. Mix breaths a bit steadier now, as her energy level smooths out into a calm output rather than spastic bursts of energy. -

[NK] There, that should do, Mix. Self sustaining now... Now I just need to make sure it's functioning right....

[Doc] Scuttles up to the top of a sandpile and looks back- You ready kiddo?

[Yaunfen] Yep!

[Doc] Just topples over and rolls like an angular log to the bottom, kicking up sand everywhere. Xe scoots over and looks back-

[Yaunfen] Wiggles their butt excitedly before doing the same, tumbling down the much less steep slope their parent made in the sand- WHEEE!

[Doc] Stands up and shakes off hir mane-

[Yaunfen] Bounces around - Again! Again!

[Doc] Gestures with a claw- Go ahead.

[Yaunfen] Dashes back up the hill and rolls down again laughing.

[Doc] Flips hir tail and a big cloud of sand goes flying-

[NK] -Sputters and swats sand off body, getting up and turning to yell at who threw sand everywhere- What the fuck!

[Mix] -Sand covered, amazing. Awkwardly stands up and dusts self off-

[Doc] Hair poofs! - Whoops! Sorry guys. Did I inturrupt something?

[Yaunfen] Starts running up the hill again-

[NK] I was sealing her stone, so no. I'd just finished. Actually.. Doctor, would you like to help us? I need someone to look at the code, make sure it's connected now.

[Doc] Sealing it? Oh, sure! You know I'm happy to help out. - Xe shrinks down to hir human shape and sets up a command block. - Just put your hand here Mix. I'll have a look.

[Yaunfen] Comes racing over and jumps on Doc-

[Doc] Is knocked over completely by their nearly horse-sized dragon child- OOOF! -Xe just lays still for a minute. - Can we save that for when I'm in my bigger shape Yaunfen?

[Yaunfen] - But fun!

[Mix] Just put my hand there? Alright. -Sets hand on the command block-

[NK] Got around to sealing it finally, thank the stars.

[Doc] It's more fun when you can just crawl all over me without making me flatter then a lilly pad! - wiggles out from underneath-

[Yaunfen] Goes over to Mix- We play?

[Doc] Pulls hirself up to the block and looks at the readout-

-The code seems more full now, and the energy source is her Stone rather than any food she might eat. Interestingly enough there's an additional respawn code. Older coding is hidden farther in, broken and barely holding together. It seems to be basis for other newer codes, but never removed. It could probably be put together, maybe?-

[Doc] Tilts hir head curiously - You have some odd files here... it's like you're carrying part of someone else's backup disk...

[Yaunfen] Nudges the command block-

-The readout flickers as it glitches from being shoved-

[Doc] Careful, I'm trying to read...

[Yaunfen] Flops with a huff-

[Doc] Reaches over and rubs Yaunfen gently between their spikes. - No need to be huffy.

[NK] -Slightly guilty look where Mix can't see it- It's probably nothing.

[Mix] Really? Is it-- is that dangerous?

[Doc] I don't think so. It looks like basic stuff. I see some bits that look like Steve-type coding actually.

[Mix] Well I am.. a Steve...? I dunno.

[NK] -Softly increased guilt look-

[Doc] It's not that simple Mix. I- I'll just make some copies and start a new folder on my block.

[Yaunfen] - Mada we play!

[Doc] Hang on sweetie... this is a little odd. There's part of a another personality matrix here. - Gives NK a questioning look.

[NK] -Shies back from the look a bit, baring teeth silently-

[Mix] What?

[Doc] Moves Mix's hand off the block gently. There are only a few files and they're already copied. - Nk... what did you do...?

[NK] Nothing. -That's clearly a lie, no one who did nothing would react like that-

[Mix] -Looks back at NK with a confused look-

[Yaunfen] Digs through inventory for entertainment and pulls out a white flitter to play with that they caught-

[Doc] Doesn't notice the flitter but speaks more openly because of it.  - I don't believe you Nk. What is this?

[NK] ... -bites lip a bit and crosses arms- It....

[NK] -Softly- It's the original.

[Doc] Original what?

[NK] Steve from our seed.

[Mix] What?

[Doc] You copied his memories for Mix to carry?

[NK] No... I didn't. I think it's the same body too.. I don't.. I don't know. It might've been Kraz and hir folk who did all that but I don't.. I don't know! *hunches on self a bit

[NK] I don't know.

[Mix] -Looks a bit winded over this all, sitting down and looking up at them-

[Doc] Why didn't you tell me this sooner?!

[NK] I didn't want too! I didn't think anything remained except memories and chunks of broken code! I wasn't going to ruin a child at the chance he'd come back! She deserved a life too!

[Doc] You don't have to ruin anything NK! You've seen me rebuild people from scraps! There's no sacrifice here! For all you know he's been helplessly watching through her eyes this whole time!

[NK] -taps foot a bit anxiously, looking away- ..I.. I was scared. I don't watch you that often, Doctor. I didn't know. I... You can bring him back? Is-- Is there enough?

[Doc] I'm sure the End going to find out! - Still upset-

[Yaunfen] - Mada?

[NK] He wasn't there through it, Doctor. I know. He was resilient, but not that resilient. Do you want to know what he looked like last I saw him as him? If he was aware this whole time I'll apologize myself!

[Doc] Lets out a long whoosh of air, and makes a sad face. Xe reaches for Yaunfen and gives them a small hug to steady hirself- Yes. I need to know everything.

[Yaunfen] Curls around Doc, batting at the flitter-

[NK] -Deep shuddering breath and looks away-

-Fluttery connection to share memories, He's clearly looking down, and likely crying judging by the drops falling. A person who's definitely a Steve is laying motionless on the ground. A good portion of his face is scorched, and black patches on the collarbone vanish under the shirt. One arm is gone completely just beneath the shoulder, while the other is gone below the elbow. A hole in the shirt over the chest is saturated in blood, and NK was clearly trying to avoid looking at it in the memory. Sobbing is about the only sound in it-

[Nk] I-- It was bad. Real bad..... We... when someone with a spellstone dies, their body stays because it rebuilds. But.. His stone was shattered completely. He wasn't coming back. It.. It was all that monsters fault... *huffs

[Doc] Takes a good look at the face and the damage in the connection before it fades and sets hir jaw. - I'll be the judge of who can and can't come back. And don't lie to me again Nk. Not ever.

[NK] -Softer grumble-

[Doc] Pulls out hir carrot phone and starts making a new player account -

[Mix] -Holding sand in her hands, just, processing everything-

[Yaunfen] Stretches- Mada...

[Doc] Yes?

[Yaunfen] - Snack?

[Mix] So I'm a copy?

[NK] I-- No! No. You're not, you're you, sweetheart. *bend down to smooth Mix's hair- You're you.

[Doc] Here you go - Xe takes out the equivilent of bread on Yaunfen's seed. It's a rather large Snickers type bar, and holds it out-

[Doc] You're not a copy Mix. You're an orginal, but your body has... transplants.

[Yaunfen] Vacuums it into their mouth-

[Doc] Slides off Yaunfen and connects the phone to the command block, there's a faint electrical buzz and a Steve skin forms on top of the block and flops over like a doll.

[NK] -Soothes Mix a bit more before turning to watch Doc and the Steve, nervously-

[Doc] Pulls the limp and empty skin down so it's flat on the ground and connects a wire to it with a bit of statick. - Tell me about this... gem. Can one be made? I mean, I can run a basic Steve as a player with no problem, but still... it would be more accurate that way.

[NK] I don't.. I'm not sure if it's safe for both to have a spellstone.. There's only ever been four....

[Doc] Can we just use one of your basic clear crystals? Then if it's rejected, I'll cut it out myself and sew him up again. If he's supposed to have one, it might adjust automatically.

[NK] Sure.. -Pulls one out of his inventory and gives it to Doc.- His was in his back, Like Mix.

[Doc] Takes it and pushes the skin up a bit to add it in. It sinks into the flat surface and leaves a lozenge of whitish pixels over the blue of his shirt-

-There's some crackling and a faint hum as the files are copied and the player skin accepts them-

[NK] I uh... He... -soft grunt and vague gesture- -slight flush to cheeks-

[Doc] Lays the figure back down flat again and watches intently as it begins to spin up and load. After a moment xe disconnects the wire and crouches beside the prone Steve before checking it's code. - It's fragmented... but working so far.

[NK] -Settles and very gently pokes Doc, wanting to say something-

[Doc] Goes for a little zap to try and wake them up- Huh?

[NK] -Softly- He-- No dick. -embarrassed flush- Didn't have one.

[Doc] Head whips around to Nk-  Do what now?! I needed to know that Nk!!

[NK] I-- was getting to it--- *flustered noise

[Steve?] *Squeak and slight wiggle before pained breath

[Steve?] *blinks eyes open

[Doc] Welcome back? I suppose. How do you feel?

[Steve?] -Just stares up blankly for a bit, head turning slowly toward Doc and NK- ...... What the fuck is between my legs?

[NK] -Embarrassed noise as he covers his face- Sorry

[Doc] Male genitalia, sorry about that... Nk didn't tell me you weren't a basic Steve gender-wise.

[Steve?] .. Oh. Can.. Can that get fixed? I- It's making it hard to focus. *pushes self up to sit quietly, avoiding looking at anything farther than his stomach area

[Doc] How do you want it? Just nothing for now?

[Steve?] A slit. It was a slit. I don't-- I don't know how this happened or where I am, but familiarity is helping. It-. .. It went up to here. *Gestures a bit below belly button

[Doc] Gingerly lifts up their shirt and disconnects their unwanted bits, before making a bit of a dark line where they were, xe stuffs them into the sand so they'll quietly despawn. - You don't have any internal organs at the moment. so that'll have to do for now.

[Steve?] *Soft relieved noise

[Steve?] Thank you kindly. I'm Stev. I don't think we've officially met? -Distant look as partitioning memories that are there in his head

[NK] -Just barely containing himself, watching Stev-

[Mix] I.. I've got to go. -Clumsily stands up and moves off. She's shooked-

[Yaunfen] Tries to snag Mix's clothing- Don't go! We have new Steve!

[Doc] No, I don't think so. I'm Doc. And this is my child; Yaunfen-

[Yaunfen] HI!

[Stev] Nice to meet you... -Eyes linger on Yaunfen for a second.- What an odd creature...

[Yaunfen] I'm a dragon! RAWR!

[Doc] We've got lots of dragons here actually. This is a sanctuary for any who require one.

[Stev] Like the mines... I'm glad others are kind..

[Doc] Mines? Well, obviously we have those here. We have several Steves, and Alexes, and Herobrines too. But I'm not sure what you're reffering to specifically.

[Stev] ... The.. The name escapes me..

[NK]Dark Ice Mines. It was called Dark Ice Mines.

[Stev] Hm... Sounds.. About right. Thank you Darlin'. -Offhandedly gives NK a pat to his hand-

[NK] -Looks ready to be in tears-

[Yaunfen] Stands very still as the flitter lands on hir nose - chuff!

[Doc] Dark Ice Mines? That sounds a bit grim.

[NK] It was an odd place. But it was mine, and I took care of it best I could....

[Stev] Pleasant place.. I think... My memory feels broken... Cycling through what I can..

[Doc] I didn't have much to work with. Only time will tell what comes back to you.

[Stev] The last thing I can really remember is pain.. So much....

[Doc] Well you did die.... It looked like you were either torn or blown apart in some accident....

[Stev] -Turns head to look toward NK, questioningly-

[NK] -Looks away nervously, holding onto Stev's hand a bit tighter-

[Flitter] Bats it's wings lightly and glides between them-

[Yaunfen] Reaches for it with their long whiskers-

[NK] Prince.. ... Destroyed you. ..In.. A fit of rage. -Very softly-

[Stev] .. I.. Oh....

[Doc] Who is Prince?

[NK] Our notch. His spellstone was made from gold. -Referencing the gold bits that had been inside Mix's chest- He was prone to.. fits of rage.

[Stev] -Gently- He was good otherwise... Really.

[Doc] If he was an older NOTCH AI... some of them do seem to be rather... quirky and unpredictable.

[Yaunfen] Sneaking up on Stev-

[Stev] I mean.. He had his troubles, but he was good. He took care of his people..

[NK] -Bitterly- Not always.. Otherwise the Mines wouldn't have been as lively as they were.

[Stev] -Head tilts a bit to look at the sneaky sneaking Yaunfen- What doing?

[Yaunfen] Playing! - Xe gives him a light bat with a paw- You're it!

[Doc] Oh dear... He wasn't running a prison, was he?

[NK] No, No... The mines were my domain. Part of them was in the Nether. That's where those who felt unsafe with Prince stayed most often...

[Doc] It sounds like an iffy situation.  So... what happened to everyone else?

[NK] What do you mean?

[Stev] -Looks down at his other arm almost blankly, like he's registering it before lifting it and reaching for Yaunfen to boop them back-

[Doc] What happened to your seed Nk?

[Yaunfen] Is booped and giggles-

[NK] I... -bites lip- I'm not exactly sure to be honest with you... There was a later stage on the seed? Like coded or something... A.. Parasite I guess is it's analogue? Bad code was what it was for us. .. Some of the memories are fucked up here so I might not remember everything.. We... Well we did what we could to keep the seed together..

[Stev] -Listening while scratching Yaunfen's head-

[Yaunfen] Is petted and starts purrring-

[Doc] I see... Is there anyone else in your group carrying fragments of other people?

[NK] I'm.. Not sure. Kraz is unaccounted for... And I'm assuming Prince is as good as Dead... Unless... -head tilt- Unless MA has the other pieces somehow..

[Doc] What was Kraz? A glitch? A player? Or something else entirely?

[NK] Uhh.. Something on our seed, A Krazoa. Powerful... Thing. Kraz was the head of them all..

[Doc] Thing? Was he some kind of monster?

[NK] Uh... You know uh... Gamemode 3? Spectator? Is that how it's phrased? Where you can go through anything?

[Doc] Oh geeze... I hate that mode... It makes me feel like I'm going to throw up... Even when I'm moving through the ground I can't see that far ahead of me.

[Yaunfen] Mada can go through everything!

[NK] Well all of them were like a weird combination of that and creative.

[Doc] Like ghosts.... That's unsettling....

[Kraz] I dunno, It's just our natural state of being... -Just delicately leans onto Doc's shoulder, looking down with a cheerful smile. They're filtering into view as they do so, expression turning cheeky at NK's spooked face across from them-

[Kraz] I don't get how you can remain solid constantly. So tiring.

[Doc] Legit screams and scrambles backwards, xe bangs into the command block and it spazzes for a moment, reacting with hir statick-

[Yaunfen] MADA!

[Kraz] -Keening laugh, covering mouth with a hand, finding delight in the spooked Doc- Delightful.

[Kraz] -From about the hips down they've got just barely visibly wispy limbs, in a blue purple hue-

[NK] You've been here the whole time, haven't you.

[Kraz] Yep.

[Yaunfen] Runs to Doc and curls around them- Mada? Why you hurt my mada?! Blue meanie!

[Doc] What the...?!

[Kraz] Honestly Just been poking around at everything the whole time! Mix didn't notice a thing. Gee, wonder why this painting moved to the second floor? Where did the painting go?... Clueless. We could've done more putting her together... Kind of in a rush... -Shrugs and regards Doc with a hum-

[Yaunfen] Hisses at Kraz-

[Kraz] Oh shhh.. I'm not going to hurt anyone.

[NK] So... The body...? Are the others Jammed in there or what?

[Kraz] -Exasperated sigh- Yes, they are. 8 says Hi.

[Doc] 8? Are there more pieces I need to revive?

[Kraz] No, Not at all. We're about.. 12 entities in one body. Needed to be to put a spark of near permanent life in a corpse.

[Kraz] -offhandedly- We're good, but not good enough to do it separate.

[Doc] Ah... welll..... I don't think I like the idea of people wandering around invisible spying on everyone. That makes me uncomfortable.

[Stev] -Unconsciously leaning into NK, looking at his hands-

[Kraz] I don't really do that much, boring. You all are pretty normal, almost. I usually just follow Mix around. She was such an interesting experiment...

[Doc] Narrows hir eyes at hir friend being reffered to like that. - Nonethless you are not an admin, and I'm not sure I trust you. So... - Xe does some quick typing on the block behind hir-

-  /effect playersKraz glowing 1000000/ -

[Yaunfen] Glowly blue meanie!

[Doc] Now I can keep an eye on you.

[Kraz] -Spooked jerk as a glowing aura surrounds them, only to panic back up as it comes with- What the-- -They flip around so they're upside down, looking as it continues to follow- I... Wow... That's... Huh... Weird...

[Doc] Just a little light so you have an outline. Nothing damaging.

[Kraz] -Upside down- An interesting punishment, Doctor. -Flips back to normal and examines hand, turning it back and forth before fading it, watching the outline remain- I see..

[Stev] -Soft inhale, eyes widening and his grip on NK tightening-

[Nk] Hmm? -Looks over at Stev, only to tense up a bit- What's wrong?

[Doc] It's not a punishment, you're just on probation. I'm aggravated because I don't like people in here who weren't specifically invited.

[Kraz] I was invited! Mix just didn't know I was there. *shrug

[Stev] -Softly- I remember dying...

[Doc] That does not count! -Turns to Stev - Yes... those last files were mostly complete...

[Stev] -Just quietly clinging to NK, eyes flicking around, probably recalling the memory-

[NK] -running fingers through Stev's hair and rocking them back and forth gently-

[Kraz] I mean, It does? I was part of the group and you invited them innnn.....

[Doc] Flat look of annoyance- I would not have nessesarly refused you. I just don't like people decieving me. You hiding all this time makes me suspicious.

[Kraz]  But there was no deception~ If you don't check for extras, it's your fault. Not mine.

[Doc] Nk? Stev? Will you vouch for this entity? If not, I'll boot his ass out.

[Stev]-Still in memory hell-

[NK] -Looks up- I... I guess I'll vouch for them. They're not harmful, and it's not like they have anywhere to go anymore...

[Doc] Then I'll be satisfied with that.

[Kraz] -Just nods a bit.- I'm going to go check on the science nugget then, my spookage is done here... -Fades, but the glow is still there. Outline shifts and looks down before shrugging and going off-

[NK] Gangs almost all here.. And I'm fine with prince being a dead motherfucker... Affections be damned. *soft growl, only to stop as Stev shifts a bit, sniffling-

[Doc] If he's nasty to Mix, let me know. I'm sure I could figure out a way to keep him from constantly shadowing her.

[Yaunfen] Don't cry Stev... - sad eyes-

[NK] I doubt they're nasty to Mix.. They wouldn't have gone through the.. effort to make her, if they were going to be rude to her. ... Can.. You help me get Stev somewhere comfy? -Awkwardly scoops Stev up, tucking the Steve to his chest-

[Doc] Of course, You know my house is closer - Xe scoops up hir command block and puts it away before making a small roll backwards into hir dragon shape again -

[Yaunfen] Prances to hir and buts against hir happily- Mada...

[NK] -Shifts Stev carefully, checking on him before nodding- That'll do.

[Doc] Slides undrground and comes up softly under them so they end up on hir back. Xe starts walking gently back to the castle as Yaunfen runs ahead-

[NK] ..... Thank you, doctor.

[Doc] You're welcome Nk. Just don't be hesitant to ask for my help in the future. Okay? - Xe trots onto the grass and down towards the horsepen.

[NK] I'll.. Keep it in mind.

[Doc] Slips down the stairs and into the ground again leaving them by the side entrance.

[Yaunfen] Changes into their kid form and opens the doors. There's a bed and the fridge just visible inside. -

[NK] -Steps inside=-

[Doc] Comes back normal again and helps Nk get Stev in and onto the bed Endrea once occupied with Ashe.

[Yainfen] Hits the button on the fridge a few times and theres suddenly a scattering of cooked pork chops, apples and potatoes in the vicinity. - Awwww.....

[Doc] It's okay Yaunfen. I'll get you some food. - Xe opens a trunk and gives the child a huge candied apple and a couple of donuts.

[Yaunfen] Tucks in-

[Stev] -Curls up on the bed, holding onto one of NK's hands-

[Doc] Pulls out one of Steve's kitted blankets and drapes the gaudy thing around the new Stev's shoulders-

[Stev] -Softly- Thank you...

[Deer] Comes up the stairs- Love?  Do we have visitors?  I felt you doing stuff

[Doc] Yes... I found some odd code and extracted it. Mix was carrying part of a Steve...

[Deer] - Oh!  Is this them?

[Doc] Indicates the cozy couple. - This is Stev... and Nk, of course.

[Deer] - I see, and now what about the person who's constantly glowing?

[Doc] Mix was also carrying another entity... someone who snuck in with her party. They're partly in spectator mode. I don't like the idea of someone invisible sneaking around.

[Deer] - Ah, well that will take some getting used to...

[Yaunfen] Hi mama. - Goes to hug her-

[Doc] Is it causing a system issue?

[Deer] Picks them up into a snuggly hug- Hello my sweet little one.  Did we have fun today?

[Yaunfen] Yeah! I had candy and rolled in the sand and Mada made us a new Steve!

[Deer] - Good for them, but I bet your a bit dirty now, should we go take a bath?  Maybe we could use the big tub in the lab?

[Yaunfen] Okay!

[Deer] - And maybe Mada will have to join me later~

[Stev[ -Looks up at Deer-

[Deer] Glances back at Stev and smiles warmly- Welcome to the server-

[Stev] It's.. Nice to be here? I... think...

[Doc] Heh. I presume it beats being in limbo slash dead?

[Stev] Yeah... Definitely... *Grimaces a bit and leans into NK slightly

[NK] -Rakes claws through Stev's hair quietly- Definitely..

[Stev] ... -Blinks a bit before tilting head to look up at NK- ...If the seeds gone, does that mean my toys are too?

-Mildly flustered NK noise-

[Doc] Toys?

[Stev]... -Turns to Doc- Sex toys...?

-Even more embarrassed NK noise-

[Doc] ... What did you have in mind?

[Stev] Something that vibrates? Usually.

[Doc] Well you currently don't have any internal organs besides your hearts... but I can arrange it for when you're fully regenerated. Do you need a specific shape?

[Stev] I'm fine waiting... Something Egg shaped, maybe..?

[Doc] Remembers the big slit - Ah... I'll make it happen. You just rest for now.

[Stev] Much thanks..

[NK] -Highly red faced-