#ooofff

[ninyard]

how do you think andrew and aaron’s relationship changes after the trial?

(i’m so annoyed i wrote a really long detailed answer for this and then stupid tumblr mobile got rid of it so lemme try again)

i think that after the trial andrew and aaron’s relationship changes for the worse, for a while, until both of them are in a place to make it better.

aaron disappears for a while after the trial - he goes away with katelyn, maybe staying with her parents or in some hotel in a state far away from south carolina. they spend some refreshing time together without the crushing weight of the trial haunting their every second. he cries a lot, that week or two, every now and again hit with the relief of freedom and the guilt of knowing he did kill someone, at the end of the day. he may not be guilty, he may be free, but a man died by his hand. it’s so fresh as well, everything having been recounted over the past week and a bit. but it’s the first thing they do when he gets home after they receive his not guilty judgement; they leave, and he doesn’t talk to anyone other than her for however long they go for.

before that, during the trial, aaron breaks down after andrew’s testimony. he knew it would be hard but hearing it out loud, so detailed, so monotone. andrew doesn’t fuck around with the lawyers. he says it like it is, he states the facts. aaron was expecting him to be a nightmare on the stand, but no, he’s perfect, he’s telling them everything, oh god he’s telling them everything. it destroys aaron. he’s wrecked with guilt, thinking about how much andrew has done for him in his life, how little he feels he’s given him in return. and he can’t stop thinking about everything all at once; remember the way andrew sleeps? with his back to the wall and a knife under his pillow? how he can’t stand those certain words, how he can’t be touched? how he was when you met him for that first time? how he was when you started living together?

it reframes his entire relationship with andrew, his entire view of him as a person, and it kills him to think about how his brother actually went through this. he’s not lying because he thinks it’s funny, he’s telling the truth. after andrew testifies, until the end of the trial, aaron is a numb emotionless mess. every second of his days are spent thinking about andrew andrew andrew. the guilt he feels over causing this, causing andrew to talk about his past, the past he kept well hidden for an obviously good reason. he can’t look andrew in the eye, not because he necessarily views him differently, but because it hurts him so badly to remember the words that left his lips on the stand.

andrew is the same, in some ways. he already isolated himself for a week before the trial, staying in wymack’s place, not talking to anyone for fear the sickening feeling in his stomach would escape. he takes to the stand, and he’s shaking, but he can’t look at anyone other than the lawyer. he can’t look at aaron, who sits with his mouth ajar beneath a hand that covers it in shock. he can’t look at neil, on the right side of the room, trying his hardest not to react to the excruciating details. he can’t look at cass, on the left side of the room, her husbands hands intertwined in hers, a tissue in her free hand blotting the leaky eyes she’s had since day one. he can’t look at the jury, judging him for his criminal record, for his mental health, for his sexuality and his past.

when he leaves, he doesn’t even talk to neil. he gets in his car, he drops them all off at fox tower, and he immediately drives to reddin. he doesn’t say anything to betsy, either, but he sits next to the window in her office and smokes his way through a packet of cigarettes for an hour or two before he’s able to bring himself to leave. he still goes to the rest of the trial for aaron’s sake, but every time he hears a whimper from cass on the other side of the room, he feels sick. everytime he hears drakes name, he hears the lawyers trying to pin a murder charge on his brother, it twists him up inside. he has as much anxiety about the verdict as aaron does. he feels guilty about what he has caused, too, fearing aaron going to prison because he was protecting him. because he killed the man andrew had been dreaming of killing for years.

the trial ends, and andrew stays with wymack for another few days until he’s ready to return, and he speaks to betsy in some manner every day for a week or two, whether it be via a phone call or an emergency session.

when aaron comes back, they avoid each other unintentionally. mostly unintentionally, anyway, but neither have anything to say. there’s no words that’ll be enough. aaron cancels their next few sessions with bee, and andrew doesn’t seek him out at all. i think for a while after the trial neither of them can stomach looking the other in the eye, and it’s not just because of andrew’s testimony, either, it’s everything altogether that causes this terrible drift they’d been working hard to repair.

the first time they talk to each other again is six weeks later in bees office, where andrew finally looks at aaron and says, i’d do it again to keep you here. and aaron loses it. he sobs, apologising and melting down, and andrew hates it, but bee steps in to stop him from stopping aaron. it’s not enough, it never will be, nuts it’s the first step on a looooooooong road they have together. but they understand each other that little bit more, and in the end i think it makes them closer. it just takes a very, very long time to get there.

[ooofffmatures]

Ooofff!!! 🙌

[jumjum-crafts]

For everyone to see....

Them

[911abc-confessions]

say what you wanna say about eddie. but only a truly trapped soul would understand him and his actions. he only ever realised he could never be what his love interests would want him to be after getting together. because all he could think of was finding christopher a mother, not about getting a life partner for himself. because he keeps denying every single joy for himself in the face of being a good dad to his son unlike his own father.

this does not mean he wasn’t a bad boyfriend. he absolutely was. and that’s because he never had a role model on how to be a good fucking partner!

any fan who would defend that behaviour is just a superficial fan who can only love eddie diaz skin deep. so fuck you to all those people who can’t accept that eddie diaz is a flawed human by making his wrongs right. and another fuck you to eddie diaz haters who can’t accept that he is also a beautiful soul.

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[musette22]

one of the sexiest things he's ever done tbh

https://x.com/stateofcevans/status/1890985542101168296?t=h8c6ec-Gi0gPrBJwoXA4Kw&s=19

TRULY 🥵🔥

[maliktomlinson]

remember how louis sang, see they wanna buy my pride *electric blue eyes looking straight into the camera* but that just ain't up for sale.

chills!! literal chills!!

[i-used-to-wear-the-fedora]

In light of the Oscars, gotta say, a movie about the worst architecture style winning so many awards, including best actor with one of the worst acceptance speeches I've ever heard....I'm not surprised. I'm just disappointed.

[tothesolarium]

Oh no I’ve returned to hating my story

[lemonandhugs]

Sorry but this is the hottest thing I’ve ever seen🏹🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥❤️

[prideandperdition]

You could tell me things are okay a 100 times and I'd still wanna hide myself for a year after pouring my heart out.

[ayzscream]

[kaktusaufbalkon]

Jfc the old woman with cancer speeding up her death and calling 911 so her daughter isn't alone - that hits home and I a sobbing

[ooofffmatures]

Ooofff!!! 🙌

[chaosandwolves]

Well I finished watching and....

It's worse than I thought.

Azi not deciding for them hurts so much oh man

[itsnotreal]

If 1d was doing a one night only reunion show, what would your ideal setlist be?

Okay, first things first thanks for this ask (: secondly, they will not be doing a one night only because if it is only one night I will have to commit murder 🔪 okay now on to the list.

Let’s assume they do 28 songs bc larrie 💚💙 also im only gonna pick 1D songs bc holy shit if I included their solo stuff it would be SO many to choose from. So I’ll knock it down to 23 songs so they can each perform their own song of their choice (yes Zayn will be there thanks)! This isn’t in any particular order. I started with my personal favs and then just went through the albums 😌

1. WMYB (for obvious reasons)

2. Home 💚💙🩷💜❤️💛🧡

3. Temporary Fix (I need to hear Harry’s scream/moan)

4. Long Way Down (she’s my fav)

5. Last First Kiss (my beloved)

6. Magic 😌

7. Nobody Compares

8. Little Things (YOU SING)

9. Midnight Memories (big ass party)

10. Happily 💙

11. Strong 💚

12. DFWYB

13. Something Great (solely for Louis’ heartbreaking solo at the end)

14. Better Than Words (fucking ICONIC)

15. Alive (with he/him pronouns)

16. Ready To Run

18. No Control (DUH!)

19. 18

20. Fireproof

21. Never Enough

22. What A Feeling

Aanndddddddd

23. I Want To Write You A Song

[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

Goodness gracious Ruiza sure experimented in his latest album. The moment he started going crazy in Naraku I was like YES but then Seth started singing and I started panicking cause his voice doesn't work for me but thankfully this is way better than his other tracks with him. However I'd love this song instrumental too. And Tsunehito's solo-damn. Goodness gracious Ruiza must write more songs with bells and choir and stuff...make it sinister my dude, you're still a massive goth inside. xD Oddly enough though I got to say, Naraku is the most D-coded song he's ever written outside of D. Maybe because Tsunehito was working with him too I dunno.