#op their smiles!! they look so happy! 😭😭💕💕💕💕

[angel-of-death-2015]

OKOYE AND ATTUMA MADE UP IN HUGS. FISH MAN MAY AS WELL BE TREE MAN TOO.

Alex was so NICE and COOL to talk to! We our chemistry hit it off when I met him at his booth in my Okoye cosplay! Ya'll, his face lit up like a Christmas tree when he saw my cosplay and gave me the Wakandan salute and I gave him the Talokanil salute in return. I told him how so many fans admire him online and how because of him, the cast, and movie, so many black and brown fans came together through the representation. He looked so touched about it 🥺 But ya'll, he not only signed my fanart of Chibi M'Baku and Attuma chilling in a box as a meme redraw from Spongebob Squarepants' "The Idiot Box" episode, he saw the timelapse for it and even asked how I drew it because it amazed him that someone actually drew art of him in that style! He even noticed the chibis swapping clothes! Ya'll, I gave him a copy of the chibis for him to keep and he was so happy about it, HE LEAPED OUT OF HIS CHAIR AND GAVE ME A TIGHT BEAR HUG. WE ROCKED BACK AND FORTH A BIT AND JUST LAUGHED TOGETHER 😭😭😭😭😭😭

I met up with him again two hours later for this photo op and he gave me another bear hug AGAIN before we took the pic! He said it was up to me to do the pose and I said to do a hug and he was down with it 😭😭😭😭 Everyone with us were just all smiles and laughing together 🥺 He gave me ANOTHER HUG before I left out! And he was the guest judge for the cosplay contest for the night! If ya'll saw his face journeys of being impressed and surprised by the detail and effort cosplayers put into their costumes 🥺 And before we fully left for the night, he gave me a goodbye hug before I see him the next day 🥺🥺🥺🥺

This tall tree nerd is such a ray of sunshine! I would legit just talk with him on a deck and have a drink with him all night. That's how much of a cool person he is 🥺 And yes, his hands are HUGE. THEY LITERALLY COVERED MY ENTIRE HAND. AND THAT MAN IS PURE MUSCLE. HE MAY AS WELL BE A FIRM MATTRESS 😭😭😭😭 I hope Alex knows how well-loved he is and I wish so much more for him in his future! 🥺💖💕

[count-alucard-tepes]

Howwill op hotties reaction on their s/o having a miscarriage?

Aww the feels my hotties go through 😭

Kizaru ✨: he immediately would make sure he was there for his S/O and put his feelings aside just to be strong for them.

Akainu🌋: he would grieve with his S/O as he was looking forward to having a child. He knew he had to be strong for both of them but he would take some time to let out his emotions with people he trusted.

Ryokugyu 🌱: he is troubled by the loss of his child even though he never longed to be a father, he got over it and imagined it more and more with each day. He was crushed and would find himself pulling away from his S/O during this time to deal with it all.

Fujitora 🐅: it hurts him greatly but he knew that he needed to be there for his S/O emotionally and physically than see to himself as they needed the support more than ever.

Sir Crocodile 🐊: it takes a lot out of him, he often finds himself sitting in silence when his S/O is asleep in the nursery they made for their child. He’d let out his emotions without his S/O knowing because he wanted to be strong for them.

Doflamingo Donquixote 🦩: he becomes defensive about it at first because he lost another family member that he was looking forward to. It soon sinks in that this isn’t about him and he needs to be emotionally available for his S/O.

Benn Beckman 🔫: he makes sure his S/O is physically well before helping them go out a little more to have them heal emotionally too. He’d do anything to make them smile.

Katakuri Charlotte 🍡: he takes time to be there for his S/O emotionally and physically and he isn't afraid to show his emotions. He knows they could try again and had to be realistic.

Killer🔪: he's an emotional wreck about it and he can't contain himself a lot of the times but he supports his S/O through it all, he loved them too much to tear himself away.

Kaido🐉: he sobers up to take care of his S/O and they often are secluded together for days on end just to comfort each other.

King 👑: he's very hurt by the whole situation as he was looking forward to being a father but he knows he cannot think about himself at this time. His S/O's wellbeing was the most important thing to him and for him to support them as much as he could.

Queen👑: it takes him a while to digest everything but he soon helps his S/O get through his as he doesn't want them to be unhappy.

Izou🔫🔫: he wants to be the only source of his comfort his S/O needs and makes sure to be there for them in every way possible. He loves them and wants to make them happy again.

Dragon D Monkey 🐉🐒: he tries to be there for his S/O but he often feels like he isn't doing anything right to support them and then starts to withdraw.

Oven Charlotte 🍞: he's shattered at the loss of his child and often is emotional about the situation. He cares about his S/O and supports them but he needs his siblings to help him get through this too.

Buggy🤡: he's hurt but he knows his S/O is hurting even more and supports them as much as he can. He does everything in his power just to see them smile again.

Marco the Phoenix 🦅: he's emotional about it but he also knows he needs to take care of his S/O emotionally and be supportive during this time.

Eustass Kidd🤘🎸: he takes a passive role when he finds out and comforts his S/O but he's hurting a lot inside. He doesn't wish to show it though.

Rosinantè Donquixote aka Cora-San💕: he immediately is there for his S/O, they would cry together and heal together. He wanted to them to know he will always be there for them.

Who’s Who ❤️‍🔥👹: he smokes even more than usual and starts to drink a little more to ease his pain. He finds himself working more too just to push what had happened away from his thoughts.

Gecko Moria🦇: he’s surrounded by death so he was somewhat used to it though it hurt seeing his S/O shattered by the news of their child and that made him breakdown in secret. He wants to see them happy.

Iceburg💜: he’s devastated by the news but he knows he needs to support his S/O during this time and takes a few days for them to recover together emotionally and physically.

Gild Tesoro⚜️🏅: he’s heartbroken by the entire situation and blames himself that he didn’t take care of his S/O enough. He’s takes sometime to heal before being there for his S/O.

Rob Lucci🐆: he’s hurting inside but he has to conceal his emotions in order to be strong for his S/O…even though his world was falling apart.

[elliesdeadite]

Here I am again, requesting that you continue to gay ramble about your experience meeting Alyssa! 🖤

I am going to be meeting Maggot Mommy in November, so I need to mentally prepare myself. 🥲

Tell me everything! I want all of the details! x 💖

ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE

okay so ...

her line gets really long because she's very, very talkative, she WILL talk your ear off if they let her. she genuinely wants to hear about you and cares about what you're telling her which made my heart go 🥺

she was genuinely concerned for my well-being when my back started acting up, she very sweetly asked me "oh my god, are you okay?" when she heard I had scoliosis she thanked me for waiting in line to see her to which i said no you.

oh god her accent! SWOON .

genuinely kicking my feet and squealing as I'm typing this up just thinking about her again 🥺💕

she's such a good sport about everything too, like by the time my photo op came around she genuinely looks so tired and so so hot, especially under those lights, but once again she was delighted when she saw me, saw everyone, who came back to see her. i had told her I'd see her later and I delivered, which I think made her very happy.

she's very funny too, almost without trying, she made me genuinely laugh a million times, and having been so down lately I needed it, there was a moment she stopped and had a mini panic attack bc the poster this guy brought was bigger than she was, my sweetest girl 😂😭 she really struggled getting the paint markers to work which got everyone laughing, again, she's just an awesome sport.

watching her flip her hair for every selfie and photo made me 10x gayer, idk if it was a nervous tick or just a habit but it's adorable and I am weak kneed for her because of it.

if you walk past her in the halls or catch her during a break and say hello and she's paying attention, she'll always say hello back. I bumped into her by accident twice lol

i gave her complete control over my autographs, it didn't matter to me what she wrote tbh and mine both say "with love" which makes me smile, she seemed genuinely at a loss when I asked her to pick her favorite color.

if you've ever watched her in vikings, she will love that ! my sister mentioned having watched it in hs and she leaned over my hand to talk to her about it for a minute, meanwhile I'm sitting there doing that little gay laugh we all do .

i was cosplaying ellie and she looked at me and said "you look a bit like ellie!" which coming from ellie herself is high praise, especially because I have such shit self-esteem and tend to overthink and over analyze, that lives rent free in my head

you're going to love meeting her so much ! tell me all about it ! I hope you have an awesome experience like I did, but with Alyssa that's very likely, some people who go to these things have a bad attitude about it, that is so not her, she's upbeat and happy to be there. you're going to love her so much !

my favorite maggot mommy 💕

[buckysmith]

Hi! If you're still doing mw2 matchups could I get one? If not totally disregard lol

My name is Violet but just about everyone calls me V. I'm 5'9 with dark red (auburn?) hair and green eyes. I have a lot of freckles and a white scar across my whole right cheek that I'm pretty self conscious about but those are my only identifying marks because I hate needles with a passion. I've been told I look friendly but I'm generally pretty quiet because I don't like my accent when I speak English (my first language is Dutch.) I'm 1000% addicted to coffee because I decided to torture myself and study ancient world history 😭 I love talking about history anyway though and probably could do so for hours. When I do get spare time my hobbies are baking and listening to music, especially oldies. I have a tremor so my hands always shake which makes baking kind of difficult but I will always power through for some fresh bread lol. I'm not the touchiest person but I don't mind when people hang all over me or demand my attention since I'm usually doing multiple things at once. And I think my love language is acts of service because I love doing things for people I care about. That's all there is to me I think 😂 thank you!! 💕

Howdy V, thanks for your request and ofc you’re getting an matchup :3

Hmmmm who am I gonna match you up with, mhmmm- SOAP

Soap absolutely adores you and every single inch including the parts you hate/don’t like about you. Your face especially, he loves to pepper you with kisses all over your freckles and especially your scar. (Ofc only if your comfortable with it)

You can’t even count the times he told you how good you look and how beautiful you are. He absolutely doesn’t understand why you hate that scar so much, but believe me he would do anything to show you that it’s just another beautiful piece of yours, making you, to yourself.

To needles, he always takes your hand if you need something that includes needles (OP here, I absolutely feel you with that, I could pass out the moment I see a needle) he would make sure to get your attention so that whatever you need that hellish thing for goes easily without you getting all worked up.

To you studying ancient history would completely fuck him up, he tries to follow your sentence but- are you sure you speak English because he doesn’t understand shit. He was never the kid that had good grades in history, mostly because his teachers always made it boring and because he had better stuff to do anyways. BUT that wouldn’t mean he doesn’t love to listen to you, he doesn’t understand anything but to see you talking about something you love makes him incredibly happy. He could sit there for hours, listing to you, smiling about how your eyes are sparkling while you talk about history.

He’s more on the cooking side than the baking, so to have you making fresh bread would be an absolutely game changer. He would love to help you with it ( if you allow him).

He would randomly take your hands, kissing them and then doing whatever he was about to do.

He needs attention, be it physical or just you listing to him talking about whatever is on his mind

He has quite a lot Love languages, physical touch are on of it but also gift giving words of affirmation and acts of services

So expect a fucking ton of affection, be it a ton of gifts, words of affirmation or that he randomly renovates your fucking kitchen to get you a better one so you can make bread… he’s quite cute isn’t he

[itzymidzy]

240504 Twitter: itzyofficial: Madrid Ryeongee here! I'm here in Madrid

I'm going to go get ready now, bye bye 💋

👤: you are the best ❤️❤️

🦊: Meeee?? 🙈

👤: I love you so much, Chaeryeong! I hope you have a fun and wonderful concert day in Madrid today 🥰❤️

🦊: All right!!

👤: Chaeryeong, no matter what happens, I want you to know that there’s still me and Midzy. I promise to love you forever. My beautiful Chaeryeong ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

🦊: Thank youuuuu 💋💋

👤: Ryeong’s concert today is also a highlight!!! 🫶✊ 

🦊: Ugh hi-thing! 💕

👤: Hello my love have nice day today!❤️

🦊: Have a good day my love 💕

👤: Chaeryeong, are you happy? Your smile is so pretty 🩷

🦊: You make me smile ☺️

👤: Ms chaeryeong i really love your soloo

🦊: Thank youu💋

👤: Ryeong… Chaeryeong’s Instagram sensibility is so cute. May it continue…

🦊: Let's keep watching 🫶🏻

👤: Chaeryeong, see you at our concert 🥺🫶🏻

🦊: yep!

👤: RyeongChae!!!🥹🥹🥹 Why are you so cute!!!😭🤍

🦊: I don't know why 🙈

👤: Did our pretty and cute Chaeryeong have a good time in Madrid?

🦊: yessssss😎

👤: this girl is so hot and pretty i wonder who she is 🤭🤭🤭

🦊: OMG who's that girl?? 🫣

👤: Why are you always cute? 😫🤏🏻

🦊: Am i cute??? 🤭

👤: your « je t’aime » was the cutest

🦊: je t'aime💋

👤: What‘s your favorite animal right now?

🦊: chaeri chaeso...

👤: Why are you so cute?

🦊: Mola Babuyang

👤: chae, was that bear that you took photo with scary?

🦊: It wasn't scary...I was ..just ..surprised🥲

👤: What are you going to do with your hair in our pretty Ryeongchae Madrid?

🦊: Guess 🙂‍↔️

👤: It was so cute trying to read all the messages in Amsterdam ㅜㅜ It was so quick but I hope you felt our love 🫶🏼🫶🏼💋💋

🦊: I felt it enough ☺️

👤: Chaeryeonggggggg!!!! (op posted a pictures, saying "marry me please")

🦊: hahahahaha....

👤: Ryung, is the can still empty?

🦊: What do you mean...a tin can?

👤: I miss you... ;; I'll go see you right after the exam!!! Could you please wait until next year? 😿😿😿

🦊: Of course~ I'm always here🤗

👤: Thank you for your hard work over the past month ❤️👍

🦊: Thank you

👤: I hope Ryeong ends the stage happily and healthy today too!

🦊: Jjaljup!

👤: When is blue Chaeryeong coming back 🥹

🦊: Someday....? 💙

👤: What is your favorite character?

🦊: You

👤: Look what I've done! what do you think?

🦊: Look pretty!

👤: I love you cherry 🧡

🦊: love u too

👤: hi chaeryeong!!!!!!!! from my dog

🦊: Hello puppyyyyy💕

[1-800-iluvhockey]

thinking random thoughts in honor of harry day yesterday and today…maybe like a blurb or insta edit of going with one of the boys to hslot?? (maybe briss or mark cause i’m really in my feels for them rn) (ik there isn’t very much to this idea…but leaving the creativity to you…and yk me and my scatterbrain🙃)

@studsccsnackavoybambi HEY BESTIE !! I love this idea OH SO MUCH

and I decided to expand on this and made it a group just for funsies …….. this is just going to be the frosh and some sophomores !! :)

this was super fun and I so listened to Sunflower Vol.6 while making this!!!

(all pictures are not mine, and the storyline is fiction!)

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yourusername - hslot detroit !!!!!!!!!! 🍒cherry pit success‼️ all because of the boys !! get you a friend group like mine… but don’t steal my hockey boys 💞💕💘

tagged @/ hslot & harrystyles

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markestapa - sorry that you didn’t get to hear medicine :(

brendan.brisson - glad you liked it <3

thombordeleau - cherry pit tickets for our cherie 😉 (but that outfit 10/10)

↳ edwards.73 - no like she was a STUNNA🤩

↳ yourusername - I got advice from the style king of @umichhockey …… that’s why I look so good 😋

brendan.brisson - expensive as hell but seeing my best friend smile was WORTH IT (and Harry looked at us)

↳ yourusername - you guys are truly the best (and thank you @brendan.brisson for the tickets❤️‍🔥)

mackie.samoskevich - cannot believe that you got hughesy’s antisocial self to dance with you to TPWK in the pit

↳ lhughes_06 - do or die for y/n/n

dylanduke - had to be body guards for y/n/n for while though because LOOK AT THE OUTFIT 🤩

↳ yourusername - everyone besides OP liked it LOL

owenpower_ - red is your color but still ‼️

↳ yourusername - it’s okay, I understand …… and I had you! mr. owen BIG DOG power to protect me…. and film most of the concert because you are so tall 😂 @owenpower_

↳ kent.johnson13 - you can hear him cry to cherry in the background LMAO

brendan.brisson

brendan.brisson

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brendan.brisson - swipe to see the adventures of hslot detroit with my favorite girl & best friends (Harry looked our direction and laughed at y/n’s sign…. and the second picture is the aftermath of the concert and Thom reminded her of the moment)

tagged @/ harrystyles, hslot & yourusername

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yourusername - I couldn’t handle that AT ALL (thank you, I love you bestfriend💘)

thombordeleau - I haven’t seen y/n/n cry that much since……

↳ yourusername - WE DONT TALK ABOUT ****** & at least it was happy tears this time :)

brendan.brisson - it was so fun to see harry smile at y/n and see her face light up (during lights up) and F N**** D***

mackie.samoskevich - it was worth the hours on the computer trying to scavenge for like 10 cherry pit tickets 😂

↳ edwards.73 - @mackie.samoskevich was a G for that 🤩

umichhockey - you guys spent SO MUCH on merch 😭

↳ owenpower_ - brendan is bad at math and numbers……. and obviously would do ANYTHING for Y/n

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yourusername - one last photo dump (but this time it is a collection of pictures taken by the boys of mr. harry edward styles) 🍒🍓🍉🥝🌻

tagged @/ hslot, harrystyles, brendan.brisson, thombordeleau & lhughes_06

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lhughes_06 - y/n/n……. your caption is a lie because the first picture is the one you were talking as you held up your tequila sign for Styles 😭

↳ yourusername - @lhughes_06 okay caption pooper…… I couldn’t just NOT use that one

brendan.brisson - we had such good tickets (I still cannot believe that we accomplished this)

mackie.samoskevich - everyone say thank you to me for staying online and searching for tickets

↳ yourusername - thank you m🥰🥰

↳ brendan.brisson - IT WAS MY IDEA TO TAKE HER !!

↳ edwards.73 - MINE AND BORDS IDEA TO CRASH

↳ lhughes_06 - the rest of us got dragged along LOL

yourusername - and I’m grateful that I had my best friends with me to experience the concert of my dreams 💘💖💗

umichhockey - sad that the whole team couldn’t come but then our budget would have SIGNIFICANTLY gone down 🤣

↳ yourusername - they were there in spirit :( and I made sure for @owenpower_ to record almost the entire concert LMAO

↳ owenpower_ - my arms are so sore now 🥲 @yourusername

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[pastelpaperplanes]

Hey I just want you to know that the autobot crusade au has been stuck in my head for like. A solid month and its devouring my motivation to write the actual stuff I need to write for uni. Look at them. Baby

I love the original version as well but I'm really vibin with the idea that once they meet their sire they can FINALLY unwind and act like a kid away from the Senate's influence and then when op arrives he can also chillax a bit. Get this man some hot chocolate

omg I’m SO happy you love the little Autobot Crusade derivative AHHH I do too there just. so much angst and healing that can go along with it UGH 😭💕 so glad you’re liking it!! Good luck w uni

not gonna lie, Crusade being quite literally tossed into the care of dear old Sire—the “crazed, infamous bloodthirsty warmonger who probably eats protoforms for BREAKFAST” called for a less than ideal beginning for Megs and poor Crusade’s relationship, but once the dust settles and the two get a little more used to each other oh believe me. Megs is gonna have a ball showing a young teenage Crusade all the joys of their blessed warframe talents

don’t let Megatron see that wobbly smile >:3 he might think you’re actually warming up to him

the fins give it away he knows

[theyarebothgunshot]

if you need a reason to smile hopefully this helps 💕 — twitter. com/ judithandronic1/ status/ 1449895068567965700?s=21 (probably one of my fave cockles ops i’ve seen from dencon)

lovely! and thank you <3

some more after the cut

Not entering into the discourse, so my take-aways from the weekend: 1. clearly Jensen and Misha absolutely adore each other, 2. seriously, the body language is LOUD (thinking about when Misha crashed Jensen's panel and after the double take, Jensen looks him up and down while leaning back and spreading his legs open and positively grinning), 3. other body language is also loud (ahem Jensen high-tailing it out of the J2 panel, clearly pissed as all hell), 4. Angel. Plushie!!! - Honeymoon Anon

absolutely agreed on all parts. in conclusion: angel plushie!!

this angle tho — twitter. com/ judithandronic1/ status/ 1449793798184177667?s=21

yeah honestly the way his mood changes is palpable

Can we bask together in the double-take-and relax-moment please? It was perfection, the way his face just lit up kills me dead. I love them together. I wish we’d got more but I’m happy we were able to at least see that little moment of happiness. Misha saying “I don’t really know what I’m doing up here” and Jensen offering up his seat 😭 I’m just gonna live in that comparison gifset for a while… and ignore the drama. Saw some of your tags earlier I hope you’re doing okay, sending you love and good vibes. I hope you sleep better tonight 💙

ngl i think i'm probably gonna rewatch that 10 minute cut a lot because it's just. so wholesome. i missed seeing them on stage so much. and thank you! <3 i did sleep a little better and i'm taking things easy. feeling a bit better today.

oh 🥺 — twitter. com/ casisloved/ status/ 1449697672546377728?s=21

so true twitteruser casisloved <3

no thoughts, just this.

yeah.gif

Personally this wasn’t my favorite Misha outfit, but do we think Jensen dressed him? The unfitted red pants give me early Misha fashion “choices” vibe vs later JIBcons when Jensen was at the helm with layers, rock tshirts, leather jackets.

🦤

no i def think he dressed himself sdhfshfhsfd

oh okay 👀 @ jensen: ”it’s no secret that antony/homelander’s suit is quite muscly and built out” misha: “in allll the right places”

lmao i laughed so hard at that. good for you mish, thirsting as always

OK but after tonight I'm 100% sure j2 are not over their fight, jensens face says it all rip

honestly it did feel very tense...

tbh i think misha's headcanon for post finale cas has a lot to do with how misha has been feeling personally since the show ended. :( i can't blame him, he's always been treated like crap by the execs and the ending was no exception. cas is clearly very important to misha and i get the bitterness.

however i'm super glad him and jensen are still smiley and lovey dovey and close around each other so that's what i'm choosing to focus on :) (and im sure he is too lol)

maybe... someone else also said that it does make sense that this is his "headcanon" because he is working off of what was in the script, and not necessarily making his own headcanons like we do, and that also makes sense.

Cliff seems to be more of a bodyguard for Jared than Jensen tbh? Like I’m sure he was originally for both but after that question, which was gross I feel like he spends way more time with Jared than he does with Jensen and same presumption can be made with his Twitter account (promoting walker etc).

i honestly wouldnt know cause i don't follow either clif or j*red on social media. i don't need that kind of headache.

[taeyungie]

em baby :(( don't you DARE think ure gifs arent good :( imo ure THE BEST tae centric giffer out here.. i mean youve really got some real talent and i swear im not joking when i see tae sets in my feed and go like "okay wow these are fucking fine" and then see that youre the OP. its alright, take your time.. no pressure. but i can promise w/o a lie that we LOVE. SEEING. YOU. ON. THE. DASH.

and look, its hard to stay motivated when everyone has shitted outta tumblr and the whole notes saga and like dislike ratio and everyth, but genuinely, i said this a few months back, and im saying it again, u giffers really dont understand how grateful we are when u gif thos exact moment we wanna play on repeat bc its smooth like butter.

look things are hard sometimes, i get it, as ive said a mil times before im going thru the same to.. but i still believe that one day my sun will shine and i truly will be happy w/o any regrets. and i know that there is a morning awaiting for each good soul like you.

and i know i always type u these big ass para, and idk i just, feel like doing it bc i genuinely feel heartbroken, literally, when i see someone so upset over certain things... i just feel like i should make them feel better bc this world sucks but its really a beautiful place if you could focus mostly on the good part.. do i make sense?

emily udek how much of an angel u are... like again, we've had limited interaction but your asks and all that ive seen says a LOT. its not ordinary for a person to receive so much respect on a social media platform and def not easy. and i really like that and thas what made u so approachable to me when i was new here hehe

i promise u it will get better. just start believing in good things for yourself. you deserve the world, dont settle for just petrichor.

idk when i stopped making sense but i really hope u dont believe in what u had posted. believe me when i say youre the finest creator here. dont let petty things get to you <333

and u also dont have to reply to this.. i just want u to believe in the fact that u deserve to be happy. while its human to feel so at certain times, its not permanent. ull get better <33

and also, i feel yo ppl are giving u space.. its aight. hang in there. ull live yo ultimate dream very soon.

anddd lastlyyyy huh. ik its easier said than done, but pls pls try not to let those thigs get to u. we'll make it <333

so SO MUCH LOVEEEE

me @ u

ps. look at our mans lookin all sexy for our prom date sdjbbs💖

LOVE YOUUUUUU [if it wasnt obv enough hehhe]

HOW ARE YOU REAL ISTG 😭😭😭 you're the sweetest human being ever. i don't even know what to say because i'm so overwhelmed with your love and appreciation 😭 everything you said is so sweet and cute and honestly i don't deserve you 😭 and all those pictures 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️ i could comment on everything you said but i just :( my heart is so filled up right now and i just wanna cry, your message made me feel so happy and loved :( i'm really glad to know that you think all that about me, i didn't wanna sound like I'm whining for attention because I'm really not but i just can't help feeling that way, pushing aside tumblr and activity and notes because it really isn't my issue here and I can't complain about that - just thank you, your message made me smile ❤️❤️❤️❤️ and the pictures make me wanna cry istg 😭💕💓💗💝💗💖💓 thank you soooo much lovely, I really can't express how thankful i am for what you said, and i hope for the best for you too sweetheart, you deserve everything what's the best and thank you so much for being such an angel!!!! 😭❤️

[ithinkwehitametaphor]

First of all, that picture is amazing and I'm sorry you feel that way. It is okay though if you're just ... by you. But, yeah, it'd be nice to have some appreciation. Idk what I'm here to say but I suppose, I do know what it can be like to want company. Perhaps, not in the same way. I haven't slept so I can't focus on what I wanna tell you but don't be too sad, ok? But it is also ok if you are.

Your posts made me happy when I was very depressed and angry last year. I watched Narcos when I was alone, then after I'd drink and be alone and watch the stars through the window and then I'd see the posts you had made and they made me smile. Really. Sometimes I am like has OP stopped making them, do they still make them and I will scroll through my Following list to see if you still have the same URL but sometimes I don't remember it - terrible memory I got - but then some other day I'll be idly scrolling through the dashboard and come across your posts and I'm relieved. Hey, the person whose stuff I liked and made even for those few moments happy is still around, is still creating stuff and it makes me smile and continue to scroll. Sometimes I Rb it, sometimes just Like them, sometimes maybe nothing but hey, there's someone out here appreciates your online presence. Just want to let you know.

Also, that rooftop picture is damn nice. Really. Can I save it?

First of all: Thank your for your kind message, honeybee. 😭 💕 *hugs* I hope you are well and much better these days. 💕 And yes, of course, feel to save the photo! 😊

The thing is, I'm not even really alone. I'm surrounded by people. People who like me. I talk and I laugh and I drink and eat. And I do everything the others do. But there's this little part of me that fails to connect. A little splinter that whispers bad things and makes part of me numb. It feels like I can never be satisfied, nothing is ever enough. No love, no laugh, no enjoyment. I always need more. And it makes me sad. Somewhere inside where I cannot quite reach.

I don't know if that explains anything. I'm that kind of person that is surrounded by loving friends, the person who laughs and makes jokes and still feels lonely somewhere inside in the shadows.

So when the laughter dies down and I sit and stare into the candles, I realize something is wrong with me. That somehow I am still in some sense disconnected. And I want and I crave and I know not exactly what. So when I go to bed I am suddenly so sad, for myself and for everybody who has to deal with me.

I wish I were whole but I am not. Nothing will ever make me whole. And I fear if people realize that, they will leave me or not talk to me anymore.

So I constantly need someone to tell me they like me, that I'm okay, that I'm not horrible to be around. It's exhausting for the people who love me. Sometimes I just yell these thoughts into tumblr to get them out of me. Far enough away to look at them but not feel them so badly anymore.

I think about this quote a lot:

“Imagine that human existence is defined by an Ache: the Ache of our not being, each of us, the center of the universe; of our desires forever outnumbering our means of satisfying them.” Jonathan Franzen