#or maybe people will block me for iy

[ventingbit]

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[sesshmom]

The one TINY silver lining of the cashgrab fanfiction show to me is that more people, even if they didnt ship it before, are finally acknowledging the romantic subplot Sesshomaru and Kagura had in canon. For years a lot of people in the fandom acted like the Sesskagu dynamic wasn't important, wasn't romantic or just flat-out ignored it even though it's a major part of both their arcs (especially because they're supporting characters and have sporadic chapter appearances compared to the main cast). An incarnation of Naraku developing feelings for one of Naraku's sworn enemies? That sworn enemy feeling true grief and compassion for the first time because he lost her? Their relationship is still so underrated, but it's nice to see some more people appreciating it and talking about it so long after the series ended because it was always one of my favorite things from the manga

It took me a while to answer this because I was not sure if I even wanted to. As far as I am concerned Yashahime is dead and buried. The Only - and I mean ONLY - part of that show that I acknowledge is Moroha and nothing else. Never mind the fact that I block any Sessrin blog that comes up under the IY tags almost as fast as I block inucest.

But as for the shipping question...

I don't think it's necessarily right that Yashahime made more people acknowledge the idea of shipping Kagura with Lord Fluffy. Instead I think it's due to the show's damaging portrayal of sessrin. People who were once indifferent to the ship suddenly became grossed out. It's one thing to occasionally hear about a bunch of people online going gaga for what sounds like a pedo ship. It's entirely another to actually *SEE* that pedo ship on TV.

Then, there are the people who originally enjoyed the ship but now have to deal with a toxic shipping community. Which I've heard has potentially progressed into a cult since Yashahime. I can understand how that will turn fans off from the ship.

As far as my opinion about the relationship between Sesshoumaru and Kagura, I feel it's very complicated and would be way to long of a dissection to put on this post. Maybe I'll post it separately.

[ghost-in-the-stalls]

I'm pretty sure u dont like kevin so I can say this here, I deadass wish Andrew had just choked Kevin to death. Ppl would probs be even angrier but at least nobody could say andrew apologizes to kevin

Ahajsmfgllhjahsjfkhhla okay thats a bit extreme imo xD

Youre correct that I don't like him that much tho and I do think people fixate on that scene in a very hypocritical way. Like I personally really don't like Kevin so the scene doesn't bother me the way it does others. I get that for fans of the character it might be upsetting.

But even if I'm looking at it from an objective standpoint, there are. So. Many. Shitty. Things. These characters have done to each other. Specifically Andrew and Kevin. They treat each other like shit (in very different ways) in addition to them both being assholes who treat everyone ELSE like shit as well.

Like I absolutely understand and frankly agree with the fact that it was a breach of trust and breaking the promise on Andrew's part but like...... there's also so much other shit between them. Kevin treats Andrew like less than a person. Andrew treats Kevin like a useless incapable coward. Neither of them are helping each other grow and, imo, their relationship is actively harming both of them in very subtle but intense ways. The choking was not particularly out of character or surprising or anything. Nor was it any worse than the scene where Kevin choked Neil or when Andrew choked Allison (both of which were actually witnessed by and described to the reader).

Idk like even when I recognize that I am personally biased against Kevin... even when I take a step back and try to look at it from a characterization standpoint alone... it doesn't make sense for people to be so up in arms about that scene specifically compared to all the other shit in the books.

I do feel that if Andrew and Kevin ever were to like... talk through their shit while growing as people (which isn't really the route I see them taking so much as I see them just... both being better and quietly calming down) then yeah this would be a situation that Andrew would look back at and have to own up to. Just as I also feel Kevin would have a lot of shit he did to andrew that he'd have to own up to.

This is so long but my point is that there's a lot of beef between Andrew and Kevin and they're both at fault for the absolute mud their relationship has rolled through. There isn't the Andrew-over-Kevin power difference people act like there is, nor is one of them more abusive than the other.

[minecraftsz]

The thing i feel is that, build is a bad game *for some people* and a good game for others.

So like, people like dream who say its bad bc they feel useless when playing or because they get stressed by it or its confusing to them etc. etc. can have their own opinions n shit but they have to recognize that their experiences of the game is not universal, you know? Bc some people will thrive in those games and have a great time.

I feel like thats the part the frustrates me a little when people say "oh this [random mcc game] is objectively terrible because i did horribly and i didnt have fun" because, while it sucks that the game lowered your spirits and you didnt enjoy playing iy, youre still just, like, 1 review among many

Idk, maybe im just thinking to much about the funny block game again but i just wanted to say this. i doent even know if this makes sense oof

i wouldnt care if dream was like 'i do not like this game because (reasons)" because EVERYONE says that and its funny, but because hes like "this game is OBJECTIVELY BAD because (reasons)" it is SO IRRITATING like you hit the nail on the head... your experiences are not universal...

[capriciouswrites]

wips meme

tagged by no one, but I saw a few people with it across my dash and said fuck it. It seems in the spirit of fictober too, and maybe it’ll help me drag something out I haven’t looked at in a while. ​

Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and i’ll post a snippet of it or tell you something about it!

I am putting them under a cut because I have...a lot of WIPS, like...over 60 of these bad boys. We are ignoring that some of these documents have multiple fics in them, okay? okay. 

arrow names

arrowamnesia

atla unsure

Biospec AMY birthday 18

Biospec Are you thinking what I’m thinking

Biospec attempts to cheat writing block

Biospec every bodys looking for something remix

Biospec every little thing

Biospec framework

Biospec hive!simmons

Biospec incentives

biospec modern magic shorts

Biospec morocco

biospec rescue jemma

Biospec rockband

Biospec shirtless fan service

dusk to dawn

eureka

GOT be unbroken sequel

GOT dragons

GOT labby2

GOT Sister bond

got sleep potion

GOT soulmate2

hp black jewels

HP Hades/Persephone

HP Hermione Veela 2

HP Hr/Bz

HP Marriage law multi

HP marriage law snakes

HP Marriage Law Viktor

hp time accident

HP time on purpose 

HP Veela Draco 

IY Soulmate

iy time

mult ideas

mult new prompts

mult other drabbles

mult probablymistake

mult prompts

multi halloween other

Nat 2012 au time my friends

Nat and sif

nat buckynat

Romy rog

Sa - double date

Sa - Kidnapped

Sa - Meds

Sa - Revenge

Sa - sas

sa/ga

sakura anbu

sakura hair

sakura immortal

Sakura Soulmate Mina

Sakura Suigetsu

Sakura time

Smog

soriku

soul

vexleth reincarnation

I am tagging: @shineyma, @ilosttrackofthings, @mhalachai, @sapphireglyphs, @thestarfishdancer and anyone else who wants to play! 

[pbandjesse]

Im feeling really low right now. I'm going to try my best to perk up but I'm feeling really bad right now and that sucks.

Im just really tired. I had to wake up really early this morning because I had to go to jury duty! I woke up at 7 and felt pretty good. My face has developed a rash that hurts. But im doing my best to take care if it but it hurts. Sucks.

James made me an egg sandwich and I left a little before 730. I biked to the courthouse, and yelled at a car for trying to run a red light. But i figured out where the door to go in was and that was half the battle.

I had to stand in multiple lines. The line to get scanned. The line to check in. The line to wait. The line to get your lunch pay. But i had my podcast and it wasn't a bad wait.

I sat upstairs in the quiet room. They put on the movie "Hidden Figures" which was excellent. I only got to see the first half but I enjoyed it very much.

I only got to see the first half because after 4 rounds of numbers being called I was up! It was about noon when they finaly called my number.

All about 40 of us that were called went as a group across the street to the other courthouse building.

This was the first time I've ever been called for jury duty and the whole process is very interesting. We all went up to a courtroom. This building has a bunch! I dont know why i didnt think it would have so many. They asked us a bunch of questions. And that helped them decide who got picked.

And that's how i becsme juror nunber 2! I cant talk abouy the case. But court is a lot emotionally. Deciding the fate of someone else. I wrote 14 pages of notes and there is one more day of this. I learned a lot about the process. About how people are all fallible. I am very curious how this whole thing will pan out.

Once we got picked and got instructions we took the lunch break. I had subway and walked around the block a few times.

We finished for the day at 430 and I biked home. I was very tired when i got home. Took a shower and changed snd James got home soon after. And i just kind of fell apart.

He made me rice and chickpeas. And it was good but i felt bad. And it just got worse and worse. He told me to go lay dowb so I did. And that was a mess. I fitfully slept. He was pkaying guitar,in the othe room snd iy kept waling me uo but I was to dizzy to get up and ask him to stop. So I was just laying here getting more and more upset.

Im trying to shake it off. Im going to go wssh my face and get a drink. Maybe well play a game and I can shake off my upset. I go back to thr courthouse tomorrow but they said we should be done by noon. Well see how it goes. I don't know how they pick the foreperson. But I kind of want it because i want to be in charge. I have taken the best notes. Buy I don't really know how that works really. It was very cold in there though so ill bring a sweater tomorrow.

I hope you all have a nice night. Sleep well. Be happy.

[thewoodbine]

Hello, I love you, and you should love yourself ❤️❤️❤️

Can I be real with you guys?

Because I think Im going to just unload a little. I think I need to.

~Teary Emotional Unloading Incoming~

I'm having a hard night, a hard time. Finding out that J (my boyfriend for you newcomers) had been with a girl I worked with during our break crushed me. My home, my life, my sense of reality, of my sense of self, my work, my friends, my heart everything felt so violated and crushed. I thought we were getting better. I thought he was happy with me and we were working things out together. When I was all hopeful and rosy cheeked proud of him for telling me he was going to the park for some space and proud of myself for feeling no urge to try come with or make him stay- he was going to see her for a blow job. I told myself "learn to give him space! Nothing bad will happen, you can let go of your paranoia and trauma" but the worst thing imaginable was happening. Some of iy within the terms of our break (we could see other people, but we had to be open about it and not bring them around the house or places we frequented and no one I knew) but I could have never imagined the deep pain and agony that came with discovering the scandal months after we had gotten back together. To know she was in my home, to know he was telling her how much better she was than me. It doesn't help to know that he was lying to her to see if he could feel anything for someone other than me, or that he called it off when she asked to have sex because he realized I was "the one". It doesn't help his personality and way of thinking is almost polar opposite of mine. It doesn't help that he has autism and genuinely was struggling with reality and social rules or that because of this it never crossed his mind what effects it would have. It doesn't help he thought he was within our terms. It doesn't help that he got with her to see if he could spend forever with me.

My life is absolutely in shambles and I'm trying to glue back together what tiny fragments of myself I can find. I could use magic. I could fix this all with some spells or divination. But I want to face this, head on no tricks or calling in favors.

I want to over come this and come out on the otherside made of steel but with all the capacity to feel and love and hope and trust. But its fucking hard. Healing is easier said than done.

No one can question he loves me. No one can question what he did was a horrible horrible mistake. Next to me, no one is as torn up or furious as he is over what he did. Hell, he might be more broken hearted and enraged by what he has done. I have come home or woken up to him sobbing on multiple occasions. He hasn't once made an excuse for himself, he still expects every day to wakeup and I'm gone. He does everything he can to show me love, support, and patience. His personal motto that he repeats every day is that he wants to become the man I deserve and have deserved all along. Not just for myself but for himself too. He is ready for deep and genuine change. Our relationship is healthy and genuine.

But I want to block him out. I want to push him as far away as possible and run from the pain. Ive tried pushing him away multiple times or to get him to do anything to give me a reason to leave. I want to hate and wallow and stop feeling.

But I refuse to let myself do that. I want to love myself. I want to face my childhood terrors. My father told me I'd be cheated on if I didnt make my man happy, so I was super girlfriend- and it still wasn't enough. My sense on reality feels cracked and jaded and often I really question who am I to be helping you guys when I am such a failure that I didnt even see what was going on under my own noise, the lying and deceit, because I was so optimistically in love with humans and believed they were all good at heart. He could never, she would never. I defended them both. The day he called it off he had been pushing me to leave early because I was going to cook for my grandparents and then volunteer at the soup kitchen in their town. And the second I left he told her to come over. It was only when she got up to go to the bedroom he realized what he had done. That at the cost of finding out that he was ready and wanted to be with me forever, he had done the one thing he knew haunted me since childhood and was at the core of all my fear. He kicked her out, called it off, and spent the rest of the day in the shower scrubbing himself and sobbing. When I came back he was a new man and acted so differently to me and I had no idea why. I was just glad his holiday went well.

I watched an unfaithful lover destroy my mom and my life, I wont let it do the same to me. Especially when doing so would mean throwing away a human being who is trying harder than I have ever seen a person fight in my entire life. I mean I have truly never witnessed someone feel such deep remorse, and yet work so tirelessly to fix it. He is absolutely determined to see me be happy and be whatever support I need. To the point where he said if I decided I wanted to leave him that he would help fund me while I got set up or sleep in his car and let me have the new apartment. He wants to see me happy at any cost to him, even if that means he's out of the picture. Ive never had anyone care about me or fight for me like this that I at least want to give him a chance. I feel so bad for not being able to just forgive him or just understand. I want to see it in a logical light and not let the past ruin my future. But I just can't seem to shake this!!!! And right now he is acting more like a friend, giving me as much space as I need and showing love from afar like making sure the house stays clean when I'm too depressed to do my half.

But even with help from him and friends...right now its really really hard. It is so goddamn hard! So fucking monsterously impossible! And the only thing keeping me in the game is little things. I have to make it to tomorrow because I want to go try out the new boba place by M's apartment.

Right now I'm finding little things to keep crawling on inch by inch. And tonight I'm crawling for boba. Many nights I crawl for you guys. And maybe one night I'll get to the point where I can crawl for myself.

Edit: I should have thought to add this but before it happens I'll stick it back in. Do not just tell me to leave him or that I shouldn't stay or whatever. Please. Its really not your choice and I have heard this so so so much and every time I get shamed for staying it just makes it worse. I dont know what Im going to do yet, but Im trying to figure it all out and I promise that I know you'd probably mean well but I have to decide for myself and you do not have all the info, thoughts, or feelings that I have to make this call.

[little-known-artist]

20 Question Survey

I was tagged by @sassybratt9723 a super long time ago!

First story you ever wrote: The first one I ever published was The Haunted Mansion for Kyoukai no Rinne. I was 16, it was horrible, but I wrote it. First for IY was These Things Happen and it was equally terrible, although I don’t have the excuse of being a high-schooler then.

A story on which you have been flamed: I don’t recall any flames, per say. I know I’ve gotten some upset reviews for the turn of events in a story, or ones where people were utterly confused because I was being way too vague, but I haven’t yet gotten any flames.

Your favorite story that you have written or are writing: Well, but gut instinct is Honey but I also love this little drabble Nothing Was The Same because as pointless as it is, I am fascinated with the time between Inuyasha waking up from the tree and then learning to trust Kagome. Maybe it’s because I enjoy angst, but Inuyasha just having a lot of feeling about everything that he tries to keep bottled up is really interesting to me.

Favorite story on a fanfiction site: I can’t really say I have a favorite at the moment. I love @sankontesu‘s Urgent and Hanyou’s Heart by the Chevalier but I can probably list 8 more favorites if I thought about it.

Why you became a fanfiction writer: I have no earthly idea. I had stories. Stories I decided to get down to a Word Doc.

Favorite media to write for (i.e. Pokemon, Naruto, etc.): Inuyasha, of course!

Story you’ve reviewed the most: Oh man, this involves checking. I’ve left 5 reviews each on @artistefish’s/ @bloodhoundandkitten‘s  Freak Attraction and To Summon A Mate (I’m sure she has a tumblr I just don’t know where to look).

Your most popular story among readers: Little by Little, definitely.

A story on which you have/had writer’s block: I have a neverending writer’s block on Little by Little. It has more to do with time management now that I’m getting serious about my major and motivation than making the words go on the document.

A story you deleted and then resurrected later: The only stories I’ve deleted I’ve kept deleted for the most part. I did put a few chapters of Separation back up, and I un-hid my unfinished SessKik fic, Crimson and Pearl on dA, but the rest you shall never know about. They look like they were written by a very intoxicated monkey.

Longest private messaging conversation and with whom: All of my PM’s tend to have 2-3 responses so I don’t ever have long conversations though the FF.net messaging feature.

Favorite genre (i.e. fantasy, adventure, crime, etc.): um…fantasy I guess. The kinds of books I always read as a kid counted as adventure and/or fantasy, but I was always very picky about what I liked. Two examples are Cirque du Freak (middle school mainly) and The Count of Monte Cristo.

To Write in? I can’t manage anything more than angst or slice-of-life but I Envy those who write adventure.

Your favorite lesser-known pairing: SessKik, though with me always bringing it up, I hardly think it’s lesser-known by now.

Your biggest qualm when reading fanfiction: Tone and voice. Like, at this point in life I can excuse minor grammar issues and spelling problems, Lord knows my stories are riddled with them, but if the tone or voice is lackluster, I’ll move on to something else. Same with if the voice doesn’t match the scene, or the character’s reactions. Basically everything my best friend writes. Love the girl, but she still writes (at 23) like she wrote My Immortal, which I am thoroughly convinced she wrote by way of time travel.

Your biggest qualm when writing fanfiction: Emotional scenes. As much as I like angst, writing scene that I know would upset people, if they’re anything like me, is hard. I often end up throwing out the scene or procrastinate writing it. One part I did manage to write in LbL, I had a girl I care about come to me afterwords and say she couldn’t read the story anymore, which I thoroughly understand and respect.

A story you didn’t expect to get popular: Any of them. Little by Little was supposed to be pointless smut, with a little bit of buildup and all of a sudden I had 20 reviews on it and I had to lie down for a few days because holy carp. I don’t even. I can’t even. Now I’ve written in building up trust, establishing comfort in the relationship, talking about family and it’s honestly gotten a little out of hand.

Your favorite reviewer: @grapefruitwannabe She has left so many of the long, detailed descriptions that I really love getting. I remember turning bright red sitting in the Cyber Café after she had left me like 4 in a row the first time and just getting so embarrassed and being so flattered that someone would do that.

Your favorite author: Sorry to say, but I don’t really have one. I love so many, @stoatsandweasel’s sense of humor, the sheer number to choose from for Splendentgoddess, @sankontesu‘s timing and tone, and loads of others I haven’t mentioned.

This was fun! I tag anyone else who’d want to do this! ^.^

[adorableears7]

20 Question Survey

Thanks for tagging me @mustardyellowsunshine

 My penname on FF.net is actually Michi4. Sorry for all the run-ons and poor punctuation. It’s late and I was excited to do this. LOL

First story you ever wrote: It’s Just (Han)you XD Pun originally >///<  “It’s Just You”” now. Anyway, it was a very basic one shot of the IY gang traveling, getting attacked by a demon and some InuKag fluff at the end. It was so innocent despite what I was reading at the time. LOL. (I’ll Have a Lemonade and its sequel was like the first lemon fic I ever read)

A story on which you have been flamed: I’ve never actually been flamed. “A New Addition” recently got criticized, though. It sent me into a spin for half a day LOL I wanted it not to bother me. But, once I got over it, I think it will help push the fic in the right direction. So, I ended up thanking the reviewer personally for it!

Your favorite story that you have written or are writing: I have three that I’m working on, so they’re all fun in their own way. I guess I have to pick “Broken Paradise.” I think I finally have a good understanding of the characters and it didn’t go straight to smut, so I’m really taking my time and having fun fleshing it out. It’s a self-indulgent road trip fic. I have some one shots in the works, too. Writing for @inukag-4ever for Secret Santa was pretty great!

Favorite story on a fanfiction site: I’m reading quite a few at once. But, I have to go with ones I really enjoyed that got the most reaction out of me that I would re-read: Phony Digits for its wit and humor and InuKag fluff; Freak Attraction and its sequel Seven Man Circus by @artistefish cuz of the characterization, storyline and mostly cuz of the superb writing quality, very descriptive. MY ALL TIME FAV that never got finished: Our Love Affair by Cataluna, but really it’s what inspired me to write. (I’m not a SessKag, but it’s salacious that IY and Kag have like a forbidden love LOL In all seriousness tho I do not condone cheating!)

 Why you became a fanfiction writer: I wanted more and more of Inuyasha waiting week to week for it to air and I was obsessed (still am). I couldn’t get enough. I write what I want to read or don’t get from the fics I read even though we have such talented people in the fandom. I guess I didn’t realize I was sexually attracted to him until I discovered lemons LOL But yeah, the quality writing of the fanfictions and sheer amount of them delighted my 17 year old heart and here I am 31 (3 days away from being 32), finally confident enough to write smut LOL but also understand the characters more and continue to write my own to develop my writing.

 Favorite media to write for (i.e. Pokemon, Naruto, etc.): INUYASHA. He’s a goddamned HERO, flawed, but he just grows so much and makes friends and a life after he thought it was all over. He continues to fight and doesn’t give up! He’s a warrior. He’s my spirit animal.

I had a few Vampire Knight ones, but it had been too long since I’d updated and have no desire to continue despite that it’s one of my top mangas. I’m a ZEKI fan and hoped I would get back to their fics, but haven’t what with all the Inuyasha out there. 

Story you’ve reviewed the most: Whatever I’m reading. I ALWAYS REVIEW cuz I want the author to know and as a writer I know.

 Your most popular story among readers: According to my stats it’s “A New Addition,” which has been running for a decade so that makes sense. LOL. It’s the sequel to “In with the New” and is about Inukag and Mirsan navigating married life with kids....

 A story on which you have/had writer’s block: I deleted my writers blocks. LOL. Those Vampire Knight fics and one Inuyasha one about their future daughter “transcending time.” Now, I’d have to say it was “A New Addition.” I hadn’t updated for like 6 years and if not for that critique I would be stuck even now…… Trying to keep with those monthly updates, but you can’t help when the muse strikes.

A story you deleted and then resurrected later: None. You shouldn’t bring back the dead. LOL. But, I’ve been thinking of bringing back Transcending Time maybe cuz it had one chapter to go, but I was just unhappy with it overall....

Longest private messaging conversation and with whom: 

@queenxolivier, @grapefruitwannabe, @what-makes-you-different and @inukag-4ever

  Favorite genre (i.e. fantasy, adventure, crime, etc.): InuKag.  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

But, fantasy, adventure, science fiction, thriller, action, crime, mystery….

 Your favorite lesser-known pairing: RinxKohaku *shock*

Your biggest qualm when reading fanfiction: Characterization. AUs to me are just putting our beloved characters in different situations, but they’re still themselves. If even I write them OOC then I want to know so I can fix it! Otherwise it may as well just be someone’s original fiction, which would be great in its own right. The other thing is I’m willing to read a “trash” fic if they’re in character enough. But, if Inuyasha says “wench” I’m turned off! I might still power through if I like the author or it was recommended to me. I’m reading fanfiction to fantasize/imagine the Inuyasha characters as I read. It’s nice cuz we all are so familiar with them, so we should be able to enjoy the lemons and plot of a story like just being indulgent cuz we know what/who we are picturing.  I’m reading IY in @richardiancox voice in my head, you know what I mean? LOL.

 Your biggest qualm when writing fanfiction: I doubt myself! Like is this worth someone’s time and sharing it. What if it’s not going anywhere? What if they’re OOC? WHAT IS THE POINT. LIKE WHY. Then trying to describe/write dialogue without repeating Kagome, Inuyasha, Kagome, Inuyasha (like the show it works LOL they scream each others names for 20 minutes) but with a different synonym for said. XD

A story you didn’t expect to get popular: I wasn’t expecting “In With the New” to do as well as it did. Especially re-reading it, GOOD LAWRD it’s like a DIARY of my 20 year old self right down to working in a restaurant and living in a house for students. YUP. Based on MY real life events minus hooking up with my roommate LOL Nope no man like Inuyasha in my life….

 Your favorite reviewer: I honestly deeply appreciate everyone who leaves me a review. 

 Your favorite author: I just have this feeling it’s gonna be @artistefish, but @gypsin is also amaze. I’m basically gonna read everything they’ve written if I haven’t already. So really though everyone in this fandom really does have talent! I have a long list (thanks to @grapefruitwannabe) of fics I need to read. I’ve found joy in @keizfanfiction. One of her fics actually made me cry, so….

 I’m tagging some other writers, because I wanna read their answers! Anyone else please feel free to do it!

@queenxolivier @kuddle-cakes-writes @sankontesu