#our good friend Jonathan is in a conflicting head space right now I think perhaps

[see-arcane]

If Jonathan were there to hear that you know he’d do a repeat of Oct. 3, hugging her tightly and reminding her that none of it is her fault, probably cursing out god for making her feel unwanted. Just… maybe silently, this time. Mina and Van Helsing don’t like him doing that.

Oh, absolutely.

Just as he is without a doubt still carrying on an inner, 'God, You're on thin ice here, I am THIS close to going full Faustus,' diatribe no matter where he is or what he's writing down. He knows Mina was still in a fit of despair and self-loathing since October 3rd and that this mindset hasn't changed--even with the mental hoop-jumping that was her demanding the boys double-kill her; you know, just in case Good and Hallowed God (Who rightfully hates/hurts/has abandoned her! No big deal!!) decides to fumble her rescue and leave her as the damned undead for...reasons. (You know. Like He did with Lucy. Ha ha.)--because this girl is a master at martyr-level justification for her own pain.

Jonathan has not, does not, and will not ever be on board with that. Yes, he drops the odd prayer into the matter every now and then; he still has very Christly Christian companions and there's a chance Mina will read his journal after the mess...if there is an after.

But internally? Our boy has all kinds of blasphemies locked and loaded for the worst case scenario of God failing yet another innocent life--the most important life in the world to him!--because He allows an overpowered petty undead bastard to get what he wants. Again. Just as Vlad has had nothing stop him in over 400 years of murdering and tormenting victims.

Jonathan, on paper: We are in God's hands!

Jonathan, internally, wanting nothing more than to be embracing Mina with one arm and using the other to dice Dracula into cubes: What's with the lag here, O Almighty? Why does my wife have to make excuses for You and suffer because this ye olde self-made demon has gotten to party unimpeded for centuries?? Why does Your holy Christ cracker get to burn her for the equivalent of an infection incurred by a literal physical assault while her soul remains pure as anything??? PICK UP YOUR PHONE, GOD, I JUST WANT TO TALK--