#planets and gods aren't exempt

[mayasaura]

This might be the most "well duh" statement in history, but something I'm really looking forward to in Alecto the Ninth is.... Alecto.

We've seen little glimpses of her here and there, through the Body and through Nona, and the picture I see them painting is definitely of someone who has been hurt very badly, and who is very angry about it, but there's more to it. She's more complicated than that.

She's conflicted about necromancy itself:

It's not that she hates or fears necromancy—it "feels nice", she has positive associations with it, but it also makes her sad that Palamedes is capable of doing it at all. Is that regret? Does Alecto regret having introduced necromancy into the world? Does she consider herself to share in responsibility for the consequences?

Does that have to do with why she's frightened of herself, and of who she thinks she'll become if she remembers herself? She's understandably afraid to remember what was done to her, but she's also afraid of the person she'll be once she does. She thinks that person—Alecto—is incapable of love.

And it could be that her fear is only of being a person who has suffered. That she doesn't want the pain. But this series has never been shy about complicating that narrative. No one in this story is a perfect victim. Very few characters have avoided suffering terrible and undeserved harm, and few have avoided causing it.

I want to know who Alecto is. Why Nona thinks that Alecto, who is defined by love, whose final words were "I still love you," is incapable of loving. Even more, I want to know why Alecto's later actions make that fear seem kind of.... reasonable. Why the Body—who was never anything but gentle and kind to Harrow—hurts Harrow on waking, and seems to not even understand hurt has been done.

Who else has Alecto hurt, and how does she understand it? What harm has she caused, and how is she going to face up to it? What role will Harrow and her relationship with Alecto play in that?

I have some ideas, but I don't really know. And I dunno. I'm pretty stoked to think we might find out.

[phantasmsinsideme]

Aren't starseeds fun to talk about and to listen to those with information about them? Well, having been on either side, a lot of you have a lot of misinformation about it, including ableist beliefs that only deem to harm the people that you cater to.

What do I mean about that, of course? I am saying that most people who are starseeds or "star children" are neurodivergent of some kind, and that a lot of information about starseeds is susceptible to cults.

Any mention of god or angel is religious. You don't even need to look, places like the ascension gallery are a fucking cult, and you are not immune to propaganda. I understand people connect to both deities and archangels, but it is not safe information if you are just putting anyone up who is enlightened and pure, and you are shitting on people with lets say, a "lower vibration" than you. Also, eating essential oils will kill you, anyone who believes in consuming poison is clearly being brainwashed and manipulated. I know most of you don't eat essential oils, but you understand my point when I say that.

Also, people like Doreen Virtue, is a fucking racist bitch that you should not put your faith into. Also The Secret, a book about the law of attraction, was also made by a cult, I'm pretty sure it's fucking scxxntxlxgy. Censoring because I hate those guys.

Oh by the way, lizard people, middle earth and a lot of alien theories are antisemitic. I really do not need to tell you twice that a lot of stuff in the new age spiritual community is nazi rhetoric made to sell you white supremacy.

So, now that I have most of you mad here, let's talk. For fucking real. A lot of starseed stuff is bullshit, but not all of it. Like, noone is an animal person, except maybe the mermaids, but your planets by stars, are just filled with different looking people, people with different feelings and connections. But no, they're not human. Humans are vessels who exist in the physical plane, that hold souls, often reincarnated from different places. But new souls can be born, it's just much harder. But most souls here are not normal people, and its insane that most of you think you're different or exempt. Just because you were born on a different planet doesn't mean you're better than anyone else, or less likely to be a person. Sorry buddy, but if you inhabit a body on earth, you're going to have to deal with the bodily functions of a body on earth. Like, I get it, you miss your past lives, but you're meant to experience shit here, get over it already.

So, with that out of the way, let's talk about me a little, my past lives, my story.

Well, in my very first life, where part of my soul essence came from a star, I was a fey in Lyra. And this was before Earth existed. Where my world would soon come to a close, as a new world was soon to be born. Fey are magical creatures, the sidhe, they are born from magick, the stars essence and named after the stories of those stars. They have a humanoid form and an animal form, and they have elemental magick. Mine was lightning and water, a storm from where I was very born. And while in prophecies, I was a blessed child of light, I was going to be trapped in a place that I helped create. Hope is the harbinger of world's end, but those are the stars in the sky after chaos is pushed, darkness after, and then night falls. The beginning and the end.

And the thing of all of it is, my family was torn from me, at the start of this new earth, the one that was birthed after the beginning of the end for my home. And the people who say they created this world aren't the ones who did. It's funny that you guys say that you're starseeds made to help this world be better, but you forgotten your history. This world was made by starseeds, made by the fey, made by nature, made by the stars. We were here from the beginning, and you guys don't fucking know that. We were here since the start and you guys were made to forget.

So let me tell you this, the problem isn't jewish people, the problem isn't disabled people, the problem isn't black people, the problem is the fact that you guys are made to think people born here are the problem. The problem is that you guys were made to think this world is "low vibrations" and "3D" and "boring" and "bad". What do you even fucking say? To the people coming here, being called here, being asked to make this place better, when it was ours in the first place?!

I know you guys think that humans are stupid, or unmagical, or whatever. But listen to me, why did you even come here in the first place, why are you here, why do you feel called to nature, and looking up at the stars, and the smell of the sea, why do you feel so close with mother nature, if this isn't your world?

I know you guys miss your home planets, I know you guys miss Sirius and Pleaides and Andromeda and others, I know you miss your homes. But my home was destroyed by people who want to control and destroy Earth too. So stop like, drinking poison, stop pretending anyone who consumes energy is bad, stop acting like you hate this place, just because they're trying to kill you. This was made to be your home too, stop being the end of your own damn world.

Lyra was the start, the beginning, and Earth does not have to be the end. Stop killing yourselves just because you find it hard. Protect Earth, listen to Earth, be kind to Earth, be gentle with your damn body. It doesn't fucking matter if you were born in Lyra, it matters you're here on Earth.

And go fuck yourself if you think it's okay to demonize anyone who isn't pure and holy. Look at who you're demonizing and tell me that it wouldn't be you if you lived through that. Earth is your home, treat it well.

TLDR: Calling Earth a 2D/3D un-ascended, unenlightened, and "low vibrational" place is propaganda. Earth has always been your home, and made by people of the stars, it was just taken from us. Humans are not bad, "low vibrational" people either. Every single one of you is human. Treat your fucking body well, and this damn place. Stop listening to culty ass rhetoric and protect Earth. It doesn't need fucking ascending, it needs protecting.

P.S. Stop trying to "let go of your ego" you aren't a fucking martyr for the cause. Desire, intention, magick, is what makes you human. Stop listening to people who say Earth is boring or bad. It's only bad because you're hurting it and you're hurting yourself.

[menstits]

Everything about being gay and trans is so alienating oh my god. Like i constantly feel like i can't keep both aspects of my identity like i have to choose which one i'm "allowed" to claim which might depend on the situation but it's never both at once. Like if i try to claim the fact that i'm trans cis people will immediately tell me i'm faking it because a Real trans man is attracted to women and wants to transition so he can fit into a relationship that can look cishet to outside eyes. And if i try to claim my attraction to men people will tell me it would just be easier for me to be a girl instead and that people would like me more if i was a cis girl. I've had people tell me both of these things to my face before btw. It's incredible how cis people (of any sexuality like cis lgbs aren't exempt from this lmao) just. Refuse to consider the fact that trans people's sexualities can be as varied and complex as theirs like ofc they're familiar with other cis het or cis lgb people but when they think of a trans person they automatically default to some horrible caricature-esque mental image of a trans person who lives for cis approval 😐 like i seriously hope every single cis person on the planet dies i'm not joking literally none of you know how to act