#platonic hotchreid

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Criminal Minds is such a good comfort show for those who crave platonic love and a supportive family dynamic. I understand why people love to ship, but I just struggle to see any sort of romantic chemistry between ANY of the main characters. They are all siblings/parental figures to me

[tobias-hankel]

I'm taking Hotchreid drabble requests in honor of the Hotchreid Zine release.

For more information about our Hotchreid Zine, make sure to check out Tumblr - all proceeds go to SharedHope, a charity to combat sex trafficking.

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CM Office Party Fics ����

Hey everyone! Thank you so much to everyone who participated. I am so happy to share everyone’s hard work. If you have a oneshot or masterlist you’d like me to add, please send me a message - new additions are always welcome.

SFW Spencer Reid/Fem!Reader

Inexperienced by me: Virgin!Reader has a secret no one expected, least of all Spencer. She’s a virgin… in every way.

Dancing with the Doctor by @smalltownbeautyqueen: After hearing the BAU's prom stories, Garcia decides to throw her own BAU prom.

Gift Exchange by @ssahopelessly: It’s time for the Secret Santa gift exchange at the BAU.

Secret Santa by @c-m-stuff: Reader and Spencer are together for Secret Santa.

Better for You by @incognit0slut: Spencer spends the change of year with a new resolution as he starts looking at his rival differently.

Clue by @pathologicalreid: A fic in which Penelope hosts a NYE party with a murder mystery theme.

Mistletoe's for Two by @andiebeaword: At the annual Christmas party, Spencer gets caught under the mistletoe by the woman he didn’t want to kiss.

More ratings and pairings below!

NSFW (18+) Spencer Reid/Fem!Reader

Prom Night by @foxy-eva: After everyone shared their sad (or non-existent) prom stories, Penelope decided to host a BAU Prom, giving Spencer the perfect excuse to finally ask out Reader.

Funhouse Mirror by me: SSA Reader promised Spencer he’d be surprised by her costume of the Doctor for the Halloween Party. He definitely was.

Kiss ’n Tell by me: Reader gets drunk on a night out with the girls and accidentally mimics her boyfriend’s habit of oversharing.

Unhappy Holidays by @reiderwriter: Reader runs into Spencer at holiday celebrations four years in a row, including this NYE.

Always Bet on Black by @reidmotif: Reader realizes she has an advantage at the Bureau's Casino Night, when Spencer can't seem to take his eyes off her and her dress.

Never Have I Ever by me: After a case involving kink culture, Spencer is assigned to judge the girls’ game of Never Have I Ever. Later, him and Reader compare scores.

Other/Fem!Reader (SFW)

Somewhere I Belong by @0and0its0doctor0: (Hotch) Hotch has a little liquid courage and breaks the rules.

When Snorter Does the Unexpected by @alluring-andrayav: (Derek) It's Derek's birthday, and he receives an unexpected gift.

Other Pairings & Gen Fic (SFW)

All is Bright by @masterwords: (Hotchgan) After a long series of failed dates, Hotch and Morgan finally come to their senses thanks to some well-placed mistletoe.

Talk of the Town by @/masterwords: (Hotchgan) Hotch has an invite to a Christmas party at the White House and he's asking Derek to be his plus one.

October by @gaelic-symphony: (Temily) The couple spends Halloween together.

November by @/gaelic-symphony: (Temily) The couple spends Thanksgiving together.

So Just Keep Kissing Me Under the Mistletoe [AO3] by @starzzyeyed : (Hotchreid) Spencer's dreading the BAU's christmas party for many reasons; not least because it means spending time off duty with his boss.

Happy Hotch Day by @codename-mom: (Platonic) Penelope wants to cheer her boss up as he still suffers from what Foyet did to him. The team prepares a surprise for him.

It's a Piece of Cake by @/codename-mom: (Platonic) Jack is turning six and Penelope wants to do something for the occasion.

The Sweater Case by @/codename-mom: (Platonic) The FBI organizes a gala with all the agency directors in the country. Hotch doesn't want to go.

Happy Reading!

[airisu25]

HotchReid the narcissist conversation

By the time of season 2, Hotch and Haley's fights had been a regular thing. Jack's one then, they started to need more bonding activities for the kid besides eating and bathing. Meanwhile, the team was struggling after the fisher king case.

Hotch and Reid had always hit off since the beginning. He was Spencer's mentor, senior, role model in many perspectives. But they also shared dry humor, nerd culture, old souls, and just overall respect and admiration for each other. That led to the many many debates and arguments just for the sake of knowledge and entertainment between them.

In one of the fights, Haley accidently called Hotch a narcissistic because his devote for the job and the title hero (she later then apologized because we all said horrible things in a fight, but the deed was done).

He couldn't let it go and it came up in a psychology discussion with Reid. He didn't out right say it, but Spencer could read between the lines that Hotch was seriously considered he was saving people for his own ego.

To Reid, Hotch was one of the most selfless people he'd ever known including Marie Curie. He just went out of his way, using all the data, statistics, observations, interactions he had of the man to defend Hotch against, well Hotch (he was too angry to track down where this thought had came from). He even dared to bring up the religious household and bottomline abusive childhood due to the outburst emotion. He did that with such passion, anger, and protectiveness Hotch had never witnessed in the past 5 years they'd worked together. Remember in the early seasons, Reid always approached the victims and suspects with this soft young innocent kind way of his, not the passive aggressive and confidence he's gained within the next years.

So at this point their relationship was still platonic and professional with a healthy dose of trust and connection. Therefore, they both was surprised by the blatant deep adoration Spencer just showed. While Hotch didn't know what to do with the butterflies set free in his stomach, Reid was confused and embarrassed. Let's say it's a strangely important moment for both of them. And that's how Reid was so sure Hotch would remember it and get his message. All that trust and hope ended up with the shortest hug Reid has had with the team throughout the 15 seasons but also the first he initiated.

"I knew you would understand."

[reasonablerodents]

Just in case it breaks your writing dry spell, there's been a terrible lack of NYE hotchreid fics, and I'm here to humbly request that you fix this with a short nye bau party/night out and everyone paired up for their nye kiss except hotch and spencer…

This is very true!!!! And somehow this DID break my writing dry spell bc I’m somehow actually happy with how this turned out???? (And okay….It’s not short)

Thank you!!!

Good Fortune (G)

Aaron Hotchner/Spencer Reid, Fluff, New Year’s Kisses

They’re all partnered up these days. Penelope has Kevin, Emily and JJ have been together for God knows how long, Derek’s in the early days with a woman named Savannah, and Dave? Well, he may not be officially dating anyone, but he met a woman at the bar a few hours earlier, and the two seem to be getting on very well.

That just leaves him and Spencer.

If Aaron was a braver man, he would have asked Spencer out years ago. But his head is too full of regulations and boss/employee power dynamics and- okay, the main reason he hasn’t done anything after all this time is because he’s scared. Rejection always hurt, but being rejected by Spencer would surely feel far worse than if it was from anyone else. Besides, they already had a perfectly good- albeit platonic- relationship; there was no reason to ruin it by acting inappropriately.

Aaron sneaks a glance to the left, where Spencer is stood next to him and staring into the crowded bar, one hand idly gripping a half-finished drink. He seems to be people-watching, and Aaron can’t get over how beautiful he is like this; unknowingly poised like a painting, the dim light softly illuminating the curve of his lips and angular planes of his face. Spencer’s eyes are wide and glittering, drinking in the revelry instead of his cocktail.

“Not long until midnight, pretty boy,” Derek laughs as he and Savannah pass by on their way back to the bar, playfully tapping Spencer on the shoulder to get his attention. “You’ll have to be quick if you wanna sort out a New Year’s kiss!”

Spencer makes a move as if to splutter an indignant reply, but Derek’s already turning to Aaron with a trademark smile. “You too, man. Even you’ve got to let loose a little on New Years. I’d offer my services to you both, but I’m really hoping Savannah will give me the honour tonight.”

Savannah giggles, wrapping an arm around Derek’s waist. “Well, we’ll just have to see what happens come midnight- your chances might be better if you get me the drink you promised me, though.”

“Anything for you,” Derek replies, gently lifting her free hand and pressing a chaste kiss to it like a Victorian gentleman. “Forget a glass of wine, I’ll get you the whole bottle.”

“I’m holding you to that.”

With that, they depart. Aaron watches them a little wistfully as they squeeze their way through the crowd, always keeping a hand on one another. He’s nothing but happy for Derek’s budding romance, of course, but he can’t help but wish that he could have something like that as well.

“I’ve never had a New Year’s kiss.”

Spencer’s soft voice from his left makes him turn back around.

“No?” Aaron says, trying and failing not to think too deeply about Spencer’s lips.

“No. Relationships haven’t historically been my strong point, so there’s never been anyone around to offer me one. I suppose I could find a random person, but if someone’s going to be orally swapping bacteria with me, even for a few seconds, I’d prefer to know them a little first.”

Aaron takes a sip of his whisky. “I haven’t in a long time, so you’re not alone.”

“I know. I’ve spent the last four New Years with you,” Spencer replies matter-of-factly, before darting off on a tangent. “Did you know, kissing at midnight is actually an old Scottish tradition? Hogmanay was introduced when the Vikings invaded, and one part of the celebrations involves welcoming friends and strangers alike, which apparently involves kissing them.”

“No, I didn’t. I guess I’ve never thought about where it came from.”

“Another tradition is First-Footing, although it’s definitely not as commonly practiced around here. The first person to enter the house should be a dark-haired man to ensure good luck. He’s supposed to bring gifts with him, such as coins, coal, or whisky, it can vary slightly regionally, I think. You’d be a good first-footer, I reckon- I mean, you’ve already got the whisky.”

“And the hair, I guess.”

“Mmm. Tall, dark, and handsome.”

Aaron’s glad he hadn’t just taken another sip of his drink, because after hearing Spencer use those words to describe him, he certainly would have spat it out in shock. He can feel his cheeks growing warm, and is incredibly glad of how dark it is in the bar. Spencer's very observant though, so it’s almost certain he’s already noticed Aaron’s flustered reaction however much he tries to hide it.

Before he can work out how to reply to that, a deafening shout ripples across the room.

“Ten!”

Spencer’s not just looking at Aaron in general any more, he’s looking into his eyes. His gaze flickers downwards as the countdown continues- oh God, is Spencer looking at his lips? Aaron finds himself setting his glass down as he unconsciously inches closer, barely daring to breathe.

“Six!”

Is this going to- surely not? But Spencer’s own lips are slightly parted now, his glass abandoned as well.

“Four!”

It’s only seconds, but each one feels like eons. The countdown fades slightly as Aaron’s heartbeat fills his ears.

“One!”

Aaron takes a deep breath, and before he can even make a move, the clock strikes midnight and Spencer leans in and kisses him.

It feels exactly like the fireworks that are going off outside.

[frilledshark-enthusiast]

how I feel about criminal minds ships

hotchreid 4/10 I’ll read it if I like the rest of the fic but I’d never seek it out

moreid 7/10 same as HotchReid but I like it more and think it’s cute, still wouldn’t read an entire fic about it

Garcia x morgan 2/10 I like them as platonic/as they are in the show

Morgan x hotch 1/10 I don’t like it or see it at all but that probably because my favorite character (hence the character I’m hyperfixated on) is Spencer and everyone else is just a background character to me

hotch x emily 1/10 don’t see it at all and think Emily is a lesbian

Jemily 8/10 cute and I like it but not as a long term actual relationship, I know people hate it but I actually like how it turned out in canon. Ya know, both mourning what could have been but still happy with the outcome jj x will 8/10 vibe, I think there cute and in a pretty happy/healthy relationship no complains except wills stupid fake accent

Reid x elle 9/10 love the dynamic, love the hc’s, no notes, would and have read a fic about just them being in a relationship

reid x meave 10/10 ahhhhhhh omg love it so much they did him so dirty love reading fics about happy endings to this relationship absolutely my favorite ship

ralvez 8/10 think it’s really cute and like it but wouldn’t read a fic about just that ship

reid x garcia 5/10 autism to autism communication ant see it as a serious ship but it’s cute I guess

[birdclowns]

get to know your fanfic writer

thank you for the tags @inflarescent && @bonheur-cafe <33 mwah

When did you post your first ever fanfic?

july 22nd of this year<3 i hadn't written anything for fun since english class in high school / essays in college lmao

First character(s) you wrote for:

i wrote pjo and supernatural fics in high school LMAO. specifically did an mcu x spn crossover and i wish i could find the entire fic, because its WILD. the drama, the angst. the bad writing.

Main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

TK and Carlos! i think they're so fun and i love to make them suffer<3

Character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

I want to do more TNT trio. i love their dynamic SO MUCH. and paul, carlos and tk. the queer men of the 126 beloved

ALSO. criminal minds. i really need more hotchreid fics in my life. unsub!hotchner i am fucking coming for you [a threat]

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

911 lone star! no other fandoms hit quite as much as ls rn

Platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

nancy and tk beloved. there's a scene in the kidnapped fic (your gentle hands are covered with the blood of anothers) with marjan. tk and nancy and they make my heart so full. him and his girls

Romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

tarlos <33333

Your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

hurt/comfort, angst with a happy ending, tk strand needs a hug

Your current platform where you post your works:

ao3, with snippets floating around tumblr.

Snippet of the wip you’re currently working on:

little ch1 sneak peak before it posts next week>:^)

Denton looks down at the photos, rubbing a finger gently down the side of the latest victim’s face – it’s the last picture he had posted to his Instagram, weeks ago. Jonathan is smiling wide, unaware of what fate had in store for him. It’s sad, seeing the life in his eyes and knowing that  that would be the last picture of him alive, the last picture of him in one piece. Carlos resists the shudder that runs through him.

“If I play with them, detective, they’re my toys.” He looks up at Carlos through his pale eyelashes, before back down at Johnathan’s smiling face with a pout. “I made him scream, he wanted to play so badly. Unfortunate we couldn’t finish the game and I was having so much fun.” 

“Finish the game. Tell me where he is.” Carlos slaps his hands down, standing abruptly, the chair falling to the ground behind him with a loud clatter that echoes. “I’m not fucking playing, Miller.” He pulls the folder back, shaking off Denton’s hand when he tries to grip on to it and slamming it shut. “Where is the body?”

Denton’s eyes trace the expanse of Carlos’ body that is no longer hidden behind the table, dragging their way up to make eye contact. His smile is soft, hand reaching up to hook a finger around Carlos’ necklace, batting the crucifix back and forth with his thumb. “Are you not having fun?”

im sure everyone has done it but uhhhh; @mooshkat @thebumblecee @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @paperstorm && you! if you havent done it yet !!

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In celebration of my first ever multi-chapter fic boundless having been completed, I am dedicating the month of October to fulfilling fic prompts/requests: Promptober!

Submit your prompts and I'll write a blurb/short one shot—It's a request extravaganza, folks!

Rules: Send in your prompts (so as long they follow my request guidelines) and I'll write them. Simple as that! Deadline: Last day I'll accept prompts is October 31st

I'm attaching my request guidelines below the readmore as well.

Happy requesting! :)

Favorite things to write are in italics things i will write:

ships: i'm open to most ships but here are some faves: ralvez, penemily, temily, tenelope, jenelope, jemily, moreid, hotchreid, spencer x reader, penelope x reader, emily x reader, tara x reader. willing to consider garvez and morcia. i will also write gen!fic and platonic requests for all characters :)

subjects: fluff, hurt/comfort, angst w/ a happy or bittersweet ending

things i will NOT write:

ships: hotchniss, jeid

subjects: pregnancy, engagement/marriage, dad!spencer or any other parent!character (unless they are already a parent eg. hotch), major character death, relationship with a minor, age regression. i am currently NOT accepting smut prompts

disclaimer: i write for myself first and foremost. while i love receiving prompts and do prioritize answering them, i reserve the right to not write blurbs/fics for any prompt or subject that makes me uncomfortable for any reason.

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My Hotchreid heart <3

[hotchgan]

AARON HOTCHNER & SPENCER REID — 10.11 “THE FOREVER PEOPLE”

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requests are open.

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Criminal Minds Fic Rec Masterlist

Hey everyone! I've noticed that people have a hard time finding my Fic Rec Lists in my pinned post, so I've compiled them all here!

If you have any fics that you would like me to add to any of the following lists, please send me a DM or an ask (with a link to your work and which list you'd like to be added to). Also, if you have a relatively niche trope that you'd like me to make a list for, let me know!

Spencer Reid/Reader Specific Lists (for now)

Reunions: Fics including a reunion between characters.

Fantasy AU: Fics including a magical aspect.

Fake Fiancé: Fics including the fake fiancé trope.

Poker Games: Fics involving poker (strip & regular).

Autistic!Reader: Fics where Reader is Autistic.

Reader's B-Day: Fics where it is Reader's birthday.

Spencer POV [Fluff], [Smut]: Fics from Spencer's first person POV.

Post-Revelations: Fics following Spencer's abduction and torture.

Love Triangle [Maeve]: Fics involving a love triangle with Maeve.

Secret Relationship: Fics including a secret relationship.

Post-Prison: Fics following Spencer's time in prison.

Assorted Character Lists

Unsub!BAU: Fics where a BAU Member is an Unsub (includes Spencer and Hotch).

Roommates: Oh my god, they were roommates (includes Spencer, Emily, Hotchgan, Hotchreid, Temily, Ralvez, and MGG Characters Lesley and Wes)

Family Challenge/Father's Day/Kid Fic: Fics involving family dynamics (includes Spencer, Temily, Hotchgan, Garvez, Blake, Haley, Emily, JJ); fics where a member of the BAU is a father to Reader or OCs (includes Spencer, Luke, Ralvez, and Hotch); fics involving a child/pregnancy (includes Spencer, Hotch, Emily, Temily, Moreid, Ralvez, Gen)

Trick or Treat: Fics involving Halloween/Samhain (includes Spencer, Moreid, and MGG Characters Caleb, Thorn, and Wes)

Only One Bed: There was only one bed... (includes Spencer, Hotch, Ralvez, Ethan/S.R., and MGG Characters Franklin, Lesley, Chip, Raymond, and Kyle)

ADHD!Reader: Fics where Reader has ADHD (includes Spencer, Hotch, and Luke)

Disabled!Reader: Fics where Reader has a physical disability (includes Spencer, Luke, and Hotch)

Forbidden Love: Fics including the trope of forbidden love (includes Spencer, Hotch, Luke, Ralvez, Reidams, Temily, and Helle)

Enemies to Lovers: Fics including the enemies to lovers trope (includes Spencer, Hotch, Derek, and MGG Characters Kyle, Wes, and Franklin)

Winter Wonderland: Fics involving the Winter season (includes Spencer, Temily, Emily, Caleb, Luke, and MGG Character Wes)

Amnesia/Memory Loss: Fics where a character loses their memory (includes Spencer, Hotch, Luke, and Hotchreid)

CM Discord Fic Swaps (One, Two, Three, Four, Five): Fics written lovingly by my friends, for my friends. Includes a plethora of characters

Weddings and Proposals: Fics where characters get married (includes Spencer, Hotch, Emily, Alex, Garvez, Jemily, Temily, Moreid, Hotchreid)

Comfort Fics: Fics where a character is comforted (includes Spencer, Tara, Emily, Hotch, Luke, Penelope)

Valentine's Day: Fics involving Valentine's celebrations (includes Spencer, Emily, Hotch, Temily, Hotchgan, and Ralvez).

Damsel/Dude in Distress: Fics where a character is in distress (includes Spencer, Tara, Spencer, Hotchgan, Hotchreid, Gen/Platonic).

Summer Sunshine: Fics that take place during Summer (includes Spencer, Hotchgan, Temily, Penemily, Gen/Platonic).

Office Party: Fics that include a party attended by BAU members (includes Spencer, Derek, Hotch, Hotchgan, Temily, Hotchreid, Gen/Platonic).

Meet Cute: Fics that involve a first meeting (includes Spencer, Hotch, Emily, Derek, Hotchmontagne, Gen/Platonic).

New Beginnings: Fics that involve a new relationship, starting over, etc. (includes Spencer, Hotch, Emily, Derek, Hotchreid, Temily, Gen/Platonic).

[glowingspence]

Can I request a part two of the moreid one with Hotch's reaction please (it was prompt 26 i believe)? It was so good :)

(Thank you <3)

Part 1

“What happened?” Worried Hotch looks at Derek when he sees the blood on his hand, “Where is Spencer?”

“In the kitchen” The older man passes Derek and hurries down the hall, finding Spencer hiding in the same spot he was in when Derek called him, still holding the piece of glass.

“We are gonna put that away okay?” Without hesitating long, Hotch grabs Spencer’s wrist, putting pressure on it until he let’s go of it and let’s it fall to the ground, the glass breaking ones more, blood dripping from the cut in his hand on it. “Thank you, is it okay if Derek gets something for the wound?”

Immediately Spencer starts panicking again, shaking his head and trying to fight Hotch grip, “Okay then we aren’t doing that. It’s okay, it’s okay, Derek can’t hurt you, I am here.” He pulls Spencer closer towards him and Spencer’s hand down to his hip where he can feel the cold gun sitting in its holster, “Whoever hurt you, he is not gonna get to you again okay? I am here, you are safe.”

“I did” Derek dares to speak up, hoping that will help Hotch find a way for Spencer to calm down, “I pushed him in an argument, he fell against the shelf.”

“Then get out of his sight.” Hotch leans over and grabs a kitchen towel from the shelf and uses it to wrap it around Spencer’s hand, who’s sobs slowly turn into quiet sniffles. “I know that you are scared right now but he can’t hurt you again.”

Hesitant Spencer nods and grabs Hotch’s shirt with his uninjured hand, pulling him close and Hotch gets the hint and let’s him hide in his arms while he calms down, “Can I ask you a few questions? You tap me one time for yes and two times for no okay?”

One tap.

“Did this happen before?” - Two taps.

“Did he ever hurt you?” - Two taps.

“Do you want me to send him out of the house while I ask you these kinds of questions?” - Two taps.

“Is it true what he told me? That he pushed you and that you fell against the shelf.” - One tap.

“Did he hurt you otherwise?” - Two taps.

“Do you want me to call the police?” - Two taps. “Then I am not gonna do that okay?” - One tap.

“Do you want me to stay with you?” - One tap.

“Should Derek be there too?” - Two taps on which many more followed, “It’s okay, it’s okay, he won’t be with us tonight.”

“Do you want to come home with me?” - One tap.

“Then he stays here, is that right?” - One tap. 

“Is it okay if I send him up to get you a couple of things?” Spencer sobs in his arms before tapping him multiple times and then moving out of his hold, “Okay, then I will send him out for an hour and in that time we get your things for a night at mine.”

Spencer let’s Hotch wrap up his hand properly, lets him convince him that he is allowed to take pictures of his face for evidence in case this will ever become relevant before they pack a bag together, “You want me to finish packing?”

He asks when he sees Spencer just looking down on his bag, shaking like a leaf, “Okay, it’s okay, we don’t have to pack much we will just get back when you are ready.” He grabs Spencer’s favorite book from the nightstand, his comfort blanket from the bed and continues to grab his hand, collecting Spencer’s credentials and gun from the dining table before walking outside with him.

“There you go.” Hotch opens the door to his bedroom, “The bathroom is behind that door, make yourself feel at home” He places his things on the end of the bed and watches Spencer sit down on the bed, struggling to get his shoes of before Hotch walks over and kneels down in front of him, taking his foot on his thigh and opening the shoelaces, slowly taking the tight converse of him, revealing the colourful frog socks, “You know, it’s perfectly okay that you reacted the way you did but something tells me that this reaction wasn’t all caused by Derek’s push” 

Tiredly Spencer signs, “Mom”. He did it so quickly, Hotch had almost missed it. 

“Did she do that too?” Hotch asks with sympathy and pain in his voice, he had assumed it for a long time but was never sure. He never wanted to be, and never wanted to really have confirmation that their childhoods weren’t all so different, “I am sorry she did that. And I am sorry for what Derek did.” 

He gets up from the floor and presses a kiss to his forehead, “You are safe here okay? I am just next door, hit the nightstand or something if you want to catch my attention over the night”

He was just about to leave the room when Spencer hits the bedframe and points at the empty space beside him, “You want me to sleep there?” He nods and the moment Hotch lays down he presses himself against him, signing the word “Dad” again.

“I am here, i am not gonna leave”

[reasonablerodents]

idk if you ship but could be platonic but spare some ralvez..? perhaps some angst.?

I’ll admit that I’m basically only a hotchreid gremlin, however!!!! This entire thing is so I can try new things and give people what they’d like to see- any ship’s on the table, and I’ll do my best to deliver!

Here’s some kind of angsty post-prison Ralvez for you <3333

Don’t Ever Let Me Go

Luke Alvez/Spencer Reid, Love Languages, Physical Touch

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A comforting hand on the shoulder. An arm thrown around the waist. Feet knocking against each other under tables.

Luke knows that he needs physical contact in a relationship, but most of all, he knows that Spencer does.

When they hold hands, he squeezes back rhythmically, sending messages in morse code to make sure that Spencer always knows Luke’s here for him, even if words fail them both.

I love you. You’re safe. I’ve got you.

Luke plays with his hair when they curl up on the sofa together, softly working through the mats that form when his boyfriend’s having a particularly bad week. Roxy always likes to join them, snuggling up next to Spencer on Luke’s lap as well and demanding the same attention. She licks Spencer’s face as he laughs, and between her and Luke, there’s no way he could feel like he isn’t loved.

Every night, Luke clings on to Spencer like he’s going to be ripped away again any second.

[hotchley]

For your 500 thing: 4 from the angst list with Hotch and anyone else, platonically? I like the prompts you've chosen too. Very angsty haha

Hehe thank you! I chose Reid, because it worked so... yeah. This is not to be seen as me infantilising Reid or as H Crit because it's not. People say things they don't mean when they're hurting. There will come a time when Reid doesn't hesitate and Hotch forgives himself. It's just not written here.

It went over 1.5k... let's just ignore that. Umm... Set sometime between Nameless, Faceless and Haunted. There's no real comfort.

4: "shut up! please. just shut up."

Trigger Warnings: past child abuse, intrusive thoughts, references to canon-typical events and violence

read on ao3!

With hindsight, moving Spencer to the same hospital as Aaron was not the smartest idea the BAU had ever had. Not when traumatic and painful events caused them to react in opposite ways. When Spencer was hurt, he didn't stop talking, so terrified that if there was even the slightest indication that he was weak, everyone would leave. And when Aaron was hurt, he completely shut down, still scared that making his existence known would lead to hurt.

But at the time, they had only been thinking of Derek. He had been running himself ragged, trying to manage the BAU in Aaron's absence, and caring for both his teammates who were in different hospitals, because he was coincidentally, the only person that either of them would listen to.

Perhaps they were more alike than anyone gave them credit for.

So Spencer was moved into the same room as Aaron, because when the team came, they came to see both of them, and it was apparently good for the two patients to socialise with each other and try to maintain their bond. At least, that was what everyone said to them. In reality, it was just easier to only have to have certain conversations once. Especially the ones about Foyet.

Because even though both of them would be out of the field for a while, and had lost so much of the independence they prided themselves on, the situations were not the same and they never would be. Spencer had been shot in the leg trying and succeeding in saving a man, and the perpetrator had been arrested. He had gotten justice.

Aaron had been stabbed nine times in his home, the place he had a right to feel safe in, by a man so evil that there was no chance of ever reasoning with him. Foyet had gotten away, and he'd taken Haley and Jack with him. The only people Aaron seemed to live for, were gone. He hadn't gotten any sort of closure. Nobody seemed to understand that, because everyone kept saying him and Spencer could relate to each other. But they couldn't. And he was sick of hearing it.

But he tried to hide that bitterness. Spencer wouldn't have been shot if he had been there. He would have been the extra set of eyes needed to finish the letters, and they would've worked it out sooner. They would've all been fine, if he had done anything other than frozen when the bullet wedged itself in the wall beside his hair, close enough to make his ear ring painfully. His anger was irrational, and the result of trauma. Everyone else understood his emotions were all-consuming and overpowering, but he didn't. To him, the anger and resentment were just another sign he was becoming his father.

He wasn't. But he would never allow himself to believe that.

Spencer knew that his and Hotch's situations were different. That Hotch blamed himself for what had happened to Haley and to him. That Hotch was hiding how he truly felt, probably to protect him. That things were going to explode sooner rather than later. He just didn't know how much sooner than expected it would end up being.

Rossi had swung by in the morning, and that visit had set Aaron on edge. Rossi was trying to help, he was, but his method of doing it wasn't helpful. It never had been. Not for someone like Aaron, who needed something that was not his best friend telling him how the BAU had been fine without him. Or how the children seemed to be fine. Or how victims could recover.

When Rossi left, Reid took the crutches beside his bed and hobbled over to sit in the chair that he'd vacated. They had both been encouraged to try and be mobile without going beyond their limit. Only Spencer had listened.

"If you want him to stop talking, you can always tell him," he said gently.

Aaron turned away. "He's just trying to help."

"But he's not. I think we can all see it."

"Spencer, I don't know what you're trying to do but-"

"I don't care if you resent me. I care that you're lying."

"I'm not lying."

"Really? So if I asked you whether or not you resent me, you could look me in the eye and say you don't? If I asked you whether you blame yourself for my injury, you would say no, and mean it? If I asked you who was responsible for Haley and Jack going into WitSec, you would say Foyet? If I asked you how you feel, would you say hopeless and angry? Would you?" He snaps.

Aaron stares, and Spencer feels the heat rise to his cheeks. Hotch is still his superior.

"I'm sorry, that was out of line."

"No, it's- you're right. I am lying. But-" he swallows, unused to being so vulnerable, especially with someone like Spencer, "I have to. Lie that is. I can't be honest. Not about this. Not with these feelings."

"Why? You've been put through horrific trauma. I think you're entitled to feel like shit. I feel like crap."

Aaron looks at Spencer, in all his hopeful innocence, and understands the subtle invitation to be honest for once in his life. To let someone else save him. To have a normal conversation, with no ulterior motives or secret conditions. To have someone just care for him because they love him, not because they want anything in return. It's that final realisation that makes him take a leap of faith.

"Because if I let myself feel the anger, I will never stop, and then I will never be any better than my father." The words taste like failure, and he hates himself for saying them as soon as they leave his mouth. Who is he, to do this to a subordinate? To make someone else take responsibility for his issues? He wants to take the words back as soon as realisation dawns on Spencer, but he can't.

All he can do is close his eyes, and pretend he is somewhere else where whatever comes next cannot touch him.

"You know those thoughts don't determine who you are," Spencer says, and nothing about his tone has changed. He still cares about Aaron. Aaron, who has to blink back tears because he always forgets how many terrible things this boy has seen.

He tries to tell Spencer to stop, that he doesn't deserve to be called a good person, but the words won't come.

"I can tell you don't believe me. Well let me tell you a story. Once upon a time, there was a FBI agent that panicked so much during their gun qualification that they failed. And the man that had been practicing them, who had every right to lash out, just nodded and asked if it was his fault. If there was anything he could do to help. And then he trusted that agent with his life. Without hesitating," Spencer said. It felt like he was talking to Henry.

Aaron needs him to shut up. He cannot hear this story. It is his life, so he knows how it ends, but he cannot hear that ending right now. Not when the loss of his family is still so raw and painful. Not when it consumes his every waking moment.

"And after the case was over, he raced to the hospital, and he stayed in the waiting room until his son was born because he refused to leave his wife for a second longer than necessary, even though she had given her blessing multiple times for him to go save people. She said that he changed more nappies during his paternity leave than most men do in their lives."

"Spencer-" Aaron manages to say.

"Abused children can break the cycle. They have broken the cycle. They continue to do so. You said that once. Do you remember? You told Vincent Perotta that not every victim goes on to become a killer. Because some grow up to catch them and you are one of them, you just-"

"Shut up! Please. Just shut up." He doesn't mean to shout. He doesn't mean to make Spencer flinch. He doesn't mean to sound angry. He doesn't mean to say the words. He doesn't mean to do any of those things, but he does, and he won't ever forget how terrified Spencer looks.

He did that. He did that, with nothing more than his words, and he cannot believe what he has done, but he has, and it's a terrible thing. And everything Spencer just said has been disproved. Everything.

"I'm sorry," Spencer whispers, turning away.

"No. No, please don't be sorry. You've not done anything wrong. Spencer, look at me. Please. I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I didn't mean-"

"Yes you did. Don't lie to me."

And Aaron has lied about enough. He won't lie anymore.

"I am sorry," he says, even though it won't ever be enough.

Spencer smiles slightly, but then he goes over to his own bed. He closes his eyes, and pretends to sleep. He carries on pretending when Aaron walks over for the first time in three days, and kisses his forehead, much like he always does for Jack. He carries on pretending as Aaron sighs, and whispers an explanation too honest for repetition.

Aaron truly is sorry. Spencer truly does forgive him. The words are never said again, not to him, but that's the worst part. No matter what either of them do, Spencer will always remember and hesitate, and Aaron will never forget or forgive himself.