#polteergeistt note to self

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People often say to journal and note down things when something bad happens, except that we don't really know how to do it. I came up with a plan that can work for pretty much anything.

Vent : release of emotions (anger, sadness, fear, grief, etc). You try to put your feelings into words and sentences or drawings. This part is purely to calm you down or at least be less emotional so you can be more logical about the rest. Take all the space and time you need for this one.

Explanation of the event : subjectively re-explain the event. Tell what happened as if you were looking at it from the outside without having any opinion on it. After that, you can write what it made you feel, but don't forget to take everybody's perspective even if it doesn't match yours. This part is simply for informations so you can look back at the event and study every aspects of it to understand it better.

Coping : Write down all the things you can do to feel better about the situation and all the things you want to express about it. Write the things that can be done if it happens again so things go smoother. Remind yourself of your worth and what you deserve and that everybody around you as well as yourself deserve respect. This part is to process the event and to find healthy ways to deal with the situation at the moment and when/if it happens again.

I found important to communicate with myself first to figure out when I want, what I deserve and what others deserve (if the context includes other people) before expressing myself to anyone else and this technique seem to be a good start.

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"Love yourself" WRONG ‼️❗‼️ LOVE THE THINGS YOU HATE YOURSELF FOR THAT YOU FIND IN OTHERS ‼️❗‼️❗‼️⁉️ THEN YOU WILL REALISE YOU CAN BE LOVED TOO ‼️‼️❗❗LOVING YOURSELF IS HARD AND IT NEEDS THIS EXTRA STEP TO BE ACCOMPLISHED ‼️‼️❗‼️‼️❗

Examples below

The way the shape of their body feels and fit so nicely in your arms when you hug them.

How bright their smile is despite their loathing for their not so straight not so white teeth.

How kissed they deserve to be even if their skin isn't crystal clear.

Eyes. Eyes are pretty by default. Easy go-to and honest compliment.

Also laughter. This goes with smiles and smile lines. Any manifestation of happiness is to be cherished.

Any form of art to be honest. Art is so cool and even if it's not aesthetically pleasing or meaningful to everyone it's so good to make so. Love that too.

This list is a WIP so feel free to add to it ‼️

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Damn. Intro.

Hi. It is I, the poltergeist of your dashboard. I am here to spread mischief and cause mayhem upon ye. You may call me William or Will and my pronouns are he/him. My first language not being English, my wording can be a bit whacky but corrections are welcome. I like to call people various names, which are all meant in good fun and platonically. If I make you uncomfortable, let me know.

This blog mainly consist of Sleep Token content, but I also like other things such as :

The band Ghost

Insanity and Yearning

LGBTQ+

Marine biology or anything about oceans

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By @taka-chan ♡

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I found this on pinterest and. Yes.

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Sometimes you just need to stim in the dark with music really loud

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This is a message from december me to june me :

DO THE FUCKING GIG GO ON STAGE AND PLAY GO PLAY THE GUITAR YOU WILL LOVE IT AND IF YOU MISS IT'S OKAY THE HANGING AROUND GIRL WON'T BE ALONE ANYMORE

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I low key just recreated my most ancient memory and euclid started playing. I think everything in this world is real, even what isn't.

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Note to self : YOU CAN'T STAY ALONE YOU NEED YOUR FRIENDS YOU NEED A FAMILY YOU NEED PEOPLE AROUND YOU CAN'T LIVE LIKE A HERMIT YOU CAN'T STAY ALONE ALL THE TIME YOU GOTTA SEE YOUR LOVED ONES THE REAL LOVED ONES

Note to self : BE YOURSELF BE YOURSELF BE YOURSELF YOU CAN'T BE HAPPY IF YOU'RE NOT YOURSELF JUST PLEASE LOVE YOURSELF MAKE YOURSELF LIKE YOURSELF JUST PLEASE ALLOW YOURSELF TO FEEL NICE ABOUT BEING YOU

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Note to self : it's silly but practice does wonders.

Note to self : those days were you can't do shit and feel like shit, what others may call depressive episodes, are but rest days. It's a call from your body for self-care. You may heal with a piece of cheese and medias of choice.

Note to self : you don't enjoy being inflicted pain that much, on the moment. You enjoy the signs of it. You like being able to say "yeah i went through that" . The pain you make yourself go through is very different.

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I was so into this mindset of needing to be someone else and looking up to certain people and having models that I forgot that no one can be like those people other than themselves, and I can't be someone I'm not, and my greatest model will forever be myself.