#polyphagist

[kxllerblond]

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Send me a  🎃 and I’ll tell you what kind of candy Clark would give your muse for Halloween / not accepting  

[ebonyforged]

@polyphagist​: “You come here often?”   (bc he wouLLDD LOL) || a meme but don’t ask me which one </3

   Maybe there’s a small, helpless uttering of jesus christ or something similar, or maybe that’s just static from the bar’s television, which is only barely getting a signal and shows more noise than anything else. No one has done a thing about it, the place is too dead for anyone to bother, not exactly the place she came for company.

   “Yes, I do.” she still says, despite all that, because even the worst company has to be better than nothing at all. Ebony leans her chin in her hand and looks at the stranger. There’s something off about them and the energy surrounding them, but it’s easily written off ass her buzz finally hitting her. “Now what? You’ve thrown the most basic of pick-up lines at me, you’d better have something to actually follow it up with.”

[normaltothemax]

@polyphagist​

It’s all very sudden in the way that it happens-- and yet-- sudden as it may be, there is a certain... languid fluidity to the movement. As though this were a natural thing to occur. Natural, for him to trail off mid-sentence, and natural, for him to oh-so-gingerly turn, and reach out to place his hands on her waist, and walk her backwards the few remaining steps to the brick wall of the building they’d idled near. His voice is quiet-- not alarmed or even bothered per say. But rather as though he were... simply mildly inconvenienced. 

A bit of a noise escapes him, and he’s got one hand on her waist and the other resting on the side of her neck. “Follow my lead for a sec.” he murmurs, and that is the only warning she gets before he’s locked his lips with hers in a unexpectedly.. quite passionate kiss. And he sells it. It seems almost genuine, the way his mouth moves against hers-- a socially unacceptable thing in public, certainly, but surely it wasn’t so odd (not that he cared about that). Especially with darkness so quickly falling and night-goers of all sorts milling about.

He lingers for a moment or two, noses near resting against one another’s as he.... listens. Does not look. Not yet. And only when he’s certain (don’t worry about how) that the coast is clear does he raise his head, and take a breath. His hand still absently rests at her waist, and glances to the side in a smile-less way.  

These people were going to be a problem for him.... weren’t they? Hm.. He’s sure that he knew what they wanted. And it was nothing good. Nothing fun. Quite bothersome, actually. He’d have to do something about that. Well.. yeah. Actually, he would in fact, he decides then.  He doesn’t like being sought. He’ll do it later.

Byron takes a step to the side, letting her go from the impromptu embrace. And only when he looks back at her, those odd eyes regaining a flicker of light in them, does that trademark lazy little smile of his melt back into his expression. “Thanks.” he simply says. That at least is genuine. 

She didn’t shove him away or anything-- so she’d helped him with that alone. No apology for it though; he didn’t really see it as a bad thing necessarily. And no explanation either (not that he purposefully withheld that information. It just.. didn’t occur to him as important to share). 

“We should probably move on outta here... you know?” he says, kinda... staring at her a little. “It’s getting dark.”

Max had no idea what the hell just happened. They’d been having a nice time, out for a walk, talking about...well, quite frankly, she couldn’t remember what they’d been talking about anymore. But they had definitely been talking, she knew that much. Byron had stopped in the middle of whatever-he-was-saying and, in seconds, had pressed her against a wall and was kissing the ever-loving holy hell out of her.

She’d never been religious before, but that...that was an experience. She was pretty sure she’d seen god himself, in that moment.

At first, her eyes had widened in shock, hands moving to his chest to push him away---yes, she’d planned on pushing him away like an idiot---but her hands (traitorous, terrible, blessed, smarter-than-her hands) instead curled their fingers into the fabric they found there and pulled him closer, her eyes fluttering shut. She’d gone up onto her toes, one arm looping around his neck, the other refusing to let go of his shirt. 

She would have to remember to be embarrassed about the needy little whine that’d escaped the back of her throat later.

Face red and pupils blown wide, she panted, gasping desperately for air, once he pulled away. That had been one of, if not the best kiss of her life. And he was just...pulling away with a “thanks” like she’d passed him a freaking salt shaker?

“Yeah,” she managed to get out, still fairly breathless, and definitely dazed. “Yeah, no...no problem. Totally. Yeah.”

He was staring. Why was he staring? Her face felt impossibly warmer, but she couldn’t look away from him, eyes flickering to his lips as her tongue ran over her own. Christ, this was bad. “Dark. Mhm. That’s...we should...do that.” Honestly, he could have said anything and she would have agreed---she was still processing the kiss.

[entreldolorylanada]

@polyphagist​ || From HERE

“S-sorry... I didn’t want to offend you...“ It was hard to explain, but for Roque, everything was different about this guy, how he moved, how his voice sounded, even how he smelled. And it probably wasn’t even because of his own difference from other humans, it was just his hypersensitivity that turned on all the red bulbs when the other got closer. Not enough to panic, though, but enough to feel alert. And then there were his eyes. Roque saw them just for a second before averting his stare, but he had enough time to notice that their shape, or rather the shape of the pupils wasn’t right, too. Not round enough, as though someone was drawing them with black ink, and it had spread. “I’m not going to tell anyone...“ he reassured softly, “You don’t... don’t have to worry.“

[elencr]

@polyphagist​ sc.

* .  ♡                                                     “ hey... ” it’s whispered to the left of her. the five dollar note kept sliding in and out of the vending machine. “ do you have another note i could borrow ? ”

[twcheaded-a]

If you could recommend at least five blogs to your followers, who would they be?

This was a hard question purely because all of you are amazing and talented! Even tagging ten isn't enough 😭 That said, here are ten that come to mind: @sunbentsky (ik you asked but it's true!) @pessimistics @frstwomn @lasraichean @bastardsculs @polyphagist @unphantasmal @coinquinatvs @engodly & last but not at all least 💖 @trapped-with-nightmares !!

MUN ASKS: RP EDITION

[kxllerblond]

@polyphagist​ ASKED:  👁️ EYE - what colour are their eyes? do people notice their eyes? is there anything special about them (shows emotion easily, literally magical...)? , 💥 COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?, 😨 FEARFUL - when scared, do they go into "flight" or "fight"?, 🎭 MASKS - do they act differently around certain people? what's different between the way they act around friends, family, strangers, etc.?, & ❤️ RED HEART - their love language(s)?

👁️ A pretty light blue. I’d say they’re that light enough blue that he might get a compliment here and there. When he’s out fake charming people, his eyes and smile are probably the biggest things that draw people in. His eyes are typically the only show of emotion you’ll get so I’d say they can be pretty expressive. He’s also got those spooky black demon eyes that show up during extreme emotion (which is yet another reason why he pulls an Elsa and conceals, doesn’t feel)

💥 Anger, hurt. His anger gets him in the most trouble and his inability to handle hurt and grief and loss were the main reason he initially died. Clark likes to say he’s got a handle on it all now but he’s just better at bottling it and hiding it.

😨 Depends on the situation. Verbal? He tends to fight. If he feels scared or hurt, he tries to hurt back. Physical? He likely takes flight. Clark’s never been one to take unnecessary physical battles whether he’s scared or not.

🎭 Absolutely. He’s a chameleon. The more charming he is, the less likely he probably cares for you or likes you or acknowledges you as someone of worth. The more ornery and intolerable he is, the more comfortable he probably is around you. If he’s flustered, unsure of himself, etc then you’ve probably managed to reach behind those pesky walls of his.

❤️ Time and acts of service. He’ll fret over someone, cancel his plans, etc. Gifts as well but that tends to be more in a tie in to time and service than a primary language on its own.

[taiinted]

WHAT KIND OF VILLAIN ARE YOU?

ACCIDENTALLY EVIL. you didn't mean to. it was honestly an accident, but who would believe you? you need to watch your back now, because everyone is after you. why wouldn't they be? for all they know, you did it on purpose. when you die, it's from finally being caught by the wrong people. you die afraid, and still running. unbeknownst to you, you are swiftly avenged. your unnecessary death does not go unpunished.

tagged by. @strifeincarnate tagging. @demcnsinmymind @monarchdream @darisam ( Damaris ) @ofwondersandhares ( Sean ) @polyphagist @touchedsky ( Karter ) @demonstigma​ @hebled  @haaldyrn​ @korinthiakos​ @sxmebrxs​ ( Alcide ) @seesgood​ @malka-lisitsa​ @iwntmore​ @dieangelo​ and anyone else who sees this. 

[hjemve]

Hello, my name is Emory! I’m 25+, Canadian, use they/he, & have been RPing on tumblr since est. 2012. This is a highly selective, low-activity roleplay blog for my original character, "The Vagrant". An exorcist wanderer with mysterious, otherworldly powers. Set in medieval fantasy. Ex-villain. Follows from @bcneheaded. Heavily Dark & Religious themes will be present. Please read the info and rules page before following! (This blog uses the beta post editor!)

HELPFUL LINKS:

✦ Prologue. ✦ Memes ✦ Opens ✦ Interest Tracker ✦ pinterest board

OTHER BLOGS YOU MAY KNOW ME FROM

✧ @polyphagist / @boarish / @aeipcthy / @ccnfessional

✧ mobile friendly rules + muse info under the cut ✧

RULES:

➤ Well hey! My name is Emory; I’m 28 (they or he please!). Thanks for coming to read this! I’ll try to keep it as brief as I can. This is a highly selective, low-activity blog for an OC of mine. Created, developed and loved by me! :) Please note that interactions with this character will ALWAYS take place in some kind of past or fantasy world unless discussed otherwise beforehand.

➤ When sending memes/asks/liking for a starter, please try to specify a muse that you're interacting with if you're a multi-muse blog, otherwise you may be ignored, or I may prioritize others before you

➤ I work a full-time job, and often struggle with my mental health, as well as deal with chronic pain – I may take a long time to respond both ooc and ic because of this; I apologize in advance. It’s not because I don’t want to write or talk with you, I promise! I’m also quite forgetful, so don’t be afraid to nudge me if I haven’t gotten back to you in a few days time; but on the same breath, please don’t hound me for responses.

➤ This blog is Mutuals-Only. Plotting and dms are reserved for mutuals only (ie. if you follow this blog and in turn are followed by @/bcneheaded), but ask memes and open starters (unless tagged “mutuals only”) are open to anyone. Mutuals will be prioritized though.

➤ I’m not follow for follow, so that means I only follow those that I’m interested in writing with! I also read everyone’s rules and character information before following/interacting, and expect the same from others. I won’t follow those without a rules page or a finished (or mostly at least) character info page; I like to know who I’m writing with! I also follow from @bcneheaded as that is the main blog this one is attached to. If I follow you there, it's safe to assume I'm interested in interacting here as well!

➤ Triggers will be tagged as trigger tw. Things I need you to tag for me are ped*philia, and emetophobia (irrational fear of v*mit** For me, in example… Saying you threw up is OK, but do not discuss or describe it any further than that please. Thank you.] ) If you deliberately ignore or frequently forget this rule, you will be blocked and anything we have will be dropped.

➤ Quality over quantity! But of course, please don’t give me a sentence in return for a couple paragraphs. On a similar note, I have the tendency to ramble. So please don’t feel the need to match my length if I’ve gone off and made the thread quite long. I’ll be happy with just about anything you give in return!

➤ Ships will be based on chemistry, and are possible here. Though given the nature of the muse, it may be a very long game, or a difficult thing to initiate. Discussion for pre-established relationships of any sort are super welcome and encouraged.

➤ I love continuing ask memes as threads and I definitely encourage you to do so if you’d like to (though it’s not necessary!) as it’s a great way to break the ice and start something in general. If you do though, I only ask that you do so on a new text post, @ my username, and possibly put it in the tags as well. I’ll like the post to let you know I’ve seen it, so if I don’t, don’t be afraid to ask to see if I have or not; we all know tumblr’s a little (a lot) funky, so I may have missed it!

➤ I don’t do drama, so please don’t involve me in it. Any passive aggressive or hateful asks or messages will be ignored and whoever it is sending it will be blocked. The anonymous feature is a privilege, please don’t abuse it.

➤ NSFW content of sexual nature might appear on this blog, but probably not often as I don’t often participate in those kinds of threads/they don't last long if I do. But if I do, it will be tagged as “ ( nsft ) ” and will only be done with people I’m close with or have discussed it with beforehand. NSFW themes may be more likely to appear in terms of DARK themes, as this muse is horror based. (depictions and mention of torture, existentialism, death, abuse, demonic imagery, religious themes etc will all appear here.) But these will be tagged as such. The catchall tag will be “ ( horror tw ) ”

~ These rules subject to change over time, but if/when they do I’ll be sure to make a post about it to let ya know! Thank you for your time; it’s appreciated!

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General Information:

- Name/Aliases: "The Vagrant". "Crow Caller", "Wanderer" - Age: 30-40 - Family: None - Place of Birth: The Kingdom of Amaran - Gender: Cis Male - Current residence: Thread dependent. Everywhere. - Personality/Attitude: Melancholy, quiet, impatient, violent, reckless, secretive, cold, sarcastic, wrathful; generous, determined, calm, loyal, diligent, dauntless, resourceful, empathetic, witty. - Abilities/Talents: >*Exorcism (the ability to weaken, expel dark entities from a person, place, or thing, and send it back to where it came from). > Annihilation (the ability to completely destroy dark entities.). > Puppeteer (ability to control darkness and/or dark entities.), > Necromancy (the ability to raise corpses or call upon spirits.), >***Demon's Essence (he is the product of a disaster that merged his human soul with the essence of a demonic lord; he has almost all of it's abilities. He just needs to discover and hone them, or eventually be consumed by it. Because he is spliced with a powerful demon, lesser dark entities may be forced to obey him if he wills or commands it.) , > "Crow caller" (can summon and command any number of crows. Act as a hive minded entity if more than one is summoned & have otherworldly abilities. They behave like normal animals.) >*Enhanced senses (has the ability to detect life signs, see in the dark, & has overall enhanced senses, mostly but not exclusively in the portions of his body that have already been consumed by the demonic essence). >**Human Soul (because he still possesses his humanity and soul, he is largely unaffected by holy items [such as crosses, holy water, etc] prayers or holy phrases or passages [cannot be banished/exorcised], and can walk unharmed on consecrated grounds. Can also use Light/Holy based abilities due to the human portion of his soul, though at the cost of his stamina.), >"Leech" (has the ability to draw power from consuming the blood of other powerful creatures at no cost to himself), >Magical resistance (is resistant to most forms of magic, but is generally invulnerable to most forms of fire.) >*Immortal. (he has lost the ability to die of natural causes such as illness, poisons, and age, making him effectively immortal unless destroyed.) ++ more undiscovered / unlisted - Weaknesses: Using his own abilities worsens his condition (every time he draws purely from the powers from the demonic essence, it consumes his soul and body a little faster. Consuming demon/monster/etc blood for power slows the rate of decay slightly), Holy fire (the only fire, along with fire summoned by fae, with the ability to harm him), Has magical resistance, but isn't invulnerable, Weak against ice and electricity, It's very likely he'll eventually be consumed by the demonic essence if he cannot control it (or dies), and the demon he was spliced with will return to life (&likewise with all of the vagrant's abilities and knowledge) but in this realm instead of its own... it is crucial he does not die, lest the rest of the world end up like Amaran. - Fears: The demon essence, demonic gods/lords, the underworld (hell), his identity being discovered, loss of control, holy entities, ... deep water.- Hobbies/Interests: travelling, drinking, sex, meditating, training, reading any books he can get his hands on... not much else. - Religion/Beliefs: Faithless. Uncertain what to believe in anymore. - Sexual Preference: Pansexual. - Occupation: traveling exorcist / none / a vagrant

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Backstory:

(Prologue.**)

A traveling exorcist, of sorts. He was once a well-respected advisor to his monarch in a kingdom once known as Amaran. But that was before The Blackening... The evil that scorched the very brick and earth itself, tainting the soil permanently and taking the lives of all in the kingdom walls unfortunate enough to be trapped within, leaving nary a trace of what once was, save for an unmistakable aura of some since-passed, lingering darkness of what occurred in that unfortunate land. No one knows who he is for he wears a mask and never reveals his truth... His truth? He caused it. He was the villain that took the lives of his entire, beloved kingdom. All in the name of what was for the best... for the greater good of the kingdom. In the name of prevention of invading forces, in the name of paranoia and fear - well placed, but unnecessary and unwanted. He went against his kings wishes, arrogant enough to think he knew better, and he continued to dabble in magic of the hells and darkness, muddying his own soul in the process. The ritual he conducted in a desperate attempt to gain the upper hand to the rivaling kingdom succeeded, but then... failed. The spell splintered, fractured and became corrupted and in the end... he wound up conjuring forces beyond his control, but because of the twisting of the dark magic, it instead took the souls of all within the kingdom's walls, sapped the life of all plants, people, animals, everything until it was naught but husks and dust and blackness, and his soul became entwined with the very being he sought to control and send to destroy his enemies. His human soul became warped, tainted, and broken in irreparable ways... and now he, the sole survivor and misguided villain of his story, wanders far from what he has done in search of some kind of purpose beyond his unforgivable deeds. The melding of his mortal spirit with the essence of that great demon he sought to summon caused catastrophic damage, and now he must live with it, unable to die by conventional means, and too afraid of what he will turn into if the power he holds on a taut leash becomes untethered from his corporeal body. In short? He is, again, a traveling exorcist now, with those extraordinary otherworldly powers, a monster hunter at times, and a vagrant... The Vagrant. He does not go by his own name and has abandoned all that he once was - unable to face his own truth, let alone the judgement of others. He hides himself in plain sight, nothing but a lone wanderer with a stoic, bitter attitude that never stays in one place too long.

[normaltothemax]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐑 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐋 ?

Your soul is... Bright

It glitters like a winking star... Occasionally it must be covered with a tarp, so that guests do not lose their vision to its splendor. Many wonder what causes it to behave in such a way... but your collector has no straight answer; even they are unaware. Are you grinning? You can not tell... You lie coiled there in your display, revealing every facet of yourself to marveled onlookers... Your face aches? Why does it ache? Are you grinning?

tagged by stolen from: @polyphagist​ tagging: whoever wants to do it

[siriseen]

IC STATS TAG .

BOLD .  All that apply     ITALIC .  Leaning or former

Tagged by: @sohelish Tagging: @lykaiia @duefaith @idnull​ @polyphagist​ and you! Say I tagged you!

WEALTH .

$ Financial : wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty

$ Medical : fit / moderate / sickly / disabled  / disadvantaged / non applicable

$ Class or Caste : upper / middle / working / street trash / unsure

$ Education : qualified / unqualified / studying / other*

$ Criminal Record : yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no / has committed crimes, but has not been caught yet

FAMILY .

☀︎ Children : has a child or children / has no children / wants children / verse dependent

☀︎ Relationship with Family : close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased / (it's complicated)

☀︎Affiliation : orphaned / adopted / disowned / raised by birth parent / not applicable

TRAITS / TENDENCIES .

▲ extroverted / introverted / in between

▲ disorganized / organized / in between

▲ close-minded / open-minded / in between

▲ calm / anxious / in between

▲ disagreeable / agreeable / in between

▲ cautious / reckless / in between

▲ patient / impatient / in between

▲ outspoken / reserved / in between

▲ leader / follower / in between

▲ empathetic / unempathetic / in between

▲ optimistic / pessimistic / in between

▲ traditional / modern / in between

▲ hard-working / lazy / in between

▲ cultured / uncultured / in between

▲ loyal / disloyal / in between

▲ faithful / unfaithful / in between

BELIEFS .

★ Faith : monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic / it’s complicated

★ Belief in Ghosts or Spirits : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

★ Belief in an Afterlife : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

★ Belief in Reincarnation : yes / no / don’t know / don’t care

★ Religious : orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious

★ Philosophical : yes / no

SEXUALITY & ROMANTIC INCLINATION .

❥ Sexuality : heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual / demisexual

❥ Sex : sex repulsed / sex neutral / sex favorable / naive and clueless

❥ Romance: romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favorable / naive and clueless

❥ Sexually : adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious / inhibited

❥ Potential Sexual Partners : male / female / agender / other / none / all

❥ Potential Romantic Partners : male / female / agender / other / none / all

ABILITIES .

≡ Combat Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none  

≡ Literacy Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

≡ Artistic Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

≡ Technical Skills : excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

HABITS .

♠︎ Drinking Alcohol : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Smoking : trying to quit / never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Other Narcotics : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Medicinal Drugs : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Indulgent Food : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Splurge Spending : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

♠︎ Gambling : never / sometimes / frequently / to excess

[elencr]

how does your muse carry emotions?

rules: please repost, don’t reblog! bold and italicize what applies accordingly.

ANGER: jaw clenching, hands balling into fists, teeth grinding, yelling, going nonverbal, stuttering speech, rushed speech, slow concise speech, rambling, quiet, arms crossing, shaking head, tearing up, animated, expressionless, projects, internalizes, vents, withdraws, passive aggressive, direct, physical outbursts, verbal outbursts

JOY: easy smiles, fighting back grins, suppressed laughter, loud laughter, giggles, chuckling, smirks, whole body laughs, covers mouth when laughing/giggling, throws head back when laughing, slaps leg, touches people around them when laughing, looks down when laughing, looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes, bubbly happiness, quiet subtle happiness, obnoxious happiness, wants to spread joy, quietly savors joy

SADNESS:  crying, bottling it up, seeks distractions, wallows, meditates and processes, avoidance, seeks out comfort, withdraws, talks it out, internalizes it, sad smiles, depression naps, uses alcohol, uses drugs, seeks out sources of joy, fidgets with sentimental item, sits in silence, broods, gets moody, wants someone to share the misery, tries to hide negative emotions, nurtures others to make themselves feel better

EMBARRASSMENT/SHAME:  blushing, looking away, rubbing at back of head, covering face, laughing nervously, laughs it off, overthinks, lets it go, self deprecating humor, deflects, gets irritated, smiles, withdraws, crossing arms over stomach, crossing arms over chest, hands in pockets, shoulders sinking, shrugs, falling into silence until comfortable again, talking a lot to compensate

GUILT:  avoiding eye contact, shoulders sinking low, head hanging down, crying, chest aches, lashes out, internalizes, apologizes, deflects, communicates, withdraws, grand gestures for forgiveness, accepts fault easily, punishes themselves, martyrdom, victim complex, guilt complex, healthy conscience, internalizes even after forgiveness, seeking redemption, moves on easily, denial, lack of guilt/conscience, sorry they got caught more than caused harm, can’t handle knowing they hurt others

FEAR/ANXIETY:  trembling, crying, sarcasm/sass to cope, rambles, goes silent, gets angry, fidgeting, clenching jaw, picking at nails, chewing at lip, pulling at clothes, adjusting jewelry/clothing, swallowing thickly, eyes widening, over-reacts, under-reacts, calm, logical, panic, irrational, overthinks, carefully analyzes, talks to themselves, breathing exercises, flight, fight, withdraw, fawn

Tagged by: stole it from the babe @polyphagist​

Tagging: everyone all of you. tag me if you dooo !!

[therelentless]

{ @polyphagist​ ;;

“If you ever need help, just call me! I’m not going to lie to you, I’m not going to show up, but now you know that my intentions were there.”

[lilaxwinemoved]

Jean Vicquemare

How does your muse carry emotions?

Bold always applies. Italics sometimes applies. Strikethrough never applies.

𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒. being unable to stop smiling. laughter. bear hugs. happy tears. waving arms around. dancing. contently sighing. eyes twinkling. laughter lines. childlike playfulness. skipping. talking more. affection. cracking more jokes than usual. gesturing more when talking. higher pitched voice. squealing. jumping around. clapping.

𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒. tearing up. self-hugging. one-arm cross. an aching chest. scratchy throat. a runny nose. turning away. deep breaths. quivery smiles. crying. infantile sobbing. hands gripping each other or an object. covering mouth. puffy eyes. eyes appear red. voice breaking. a distant or empty stare. monotone voice. asking for comfort. faking a smile. crumbling. shaking. whimpering. depression. abusing an unhealthy habit. withdrawing from others. big teary eyes. doing something even if it could hurt them.

𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑. furrowed brows. baring teeth. passive-aggressive comments. avoiding eye contact. sarcasm. headache. sore muscles. hiding clenched fists. irritability. jumping to conclusions. raising voice. going silent. demanding immediate action. keeping it all in until exploding. body tensing. making risky decisions. middle finger.

𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑. wanting to flee or hide. what-ifs. images of what-could-be flashing in mind. uncontrollable trembling. rapid breathing. screaming. a skewed sense of time. irritability. keeping silent. denying fear. turning away from the cause. pretending to be brave. nail-biting. lip-biting. scratching skin. a joking tone but a voice that cracks. fainting. insomnia. panic attacks. exhaustion. substance abuse. tics. rushing adrenaline. face draining of color. hair lifting on the back of the neck. feeling rooted to the spot. making body as small as possible. staring but not seeing. crying. a shrill voice. whispering. gripping something or someone. stuttering. flinching at noises. pleading.

𝐄𝐗𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. constantly yawning. blurring words together. dark circles or lines under eyes. mood swings. hallucinations. calling people by the wrong name. dizziness. denying they’re tired. slow blinking. trouble concentrating. stumbling. leaning on a doorframe for support. sluggish movements. falling asleep someplace that isn’t a bed. becoming irritated by the smallest things. “i’m awake, i’m fine.” shaking so bad they spill their drink. fall asleep in their clothes. lay their head on the table because they’re so tired. passing out.

Tagged by: @voltadcmar

Tagging: @polyphagist @of-the-dalish @blackcatscorner (Bishop and Jericho) @coinquinatvs (Henry and Miller) & anyone else who wants to!

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[kxllerblond]

cont. @polyphagist (x)

Byron isn't WRONG. The personal lives of others could very well be the most interesting parts of them-—never mind how information bountiful they could be. But not this particular individual. His brows knit as if perplexed that the other just doens't simply GET that. 

The question makes him uncomfortable in a way he can't place. It makes his stomach knot, his shoulders tense. Perhaps he had just THAT intense an aversion to having things turned on him, having someone pry for information just as he pried from them. ❝ What I find interesting is what I find interesting. ❞ he replied vaguely, stubbornly in a way.

❝ Why does it matter I don't find every hunk of meat on this planet worth my attention? Some of us have standards, you know. ❞