#polyramble

[gonnabeapolyglot]

Okay I dont have much to actually say since its mostly AAA but it does irritate me (within the show, not with the writers or whatever) that Stolas has so much control over the situation still.

Blitz took the confession as a joke as a defense mechanism/as denial because it was impossible to be actually true, and Stolas took it as a slight and just. Shut Down any shot Blitz could have had at, like he said, having a minute to think.

Especially for someone like Blitz, someone's instant reaction isnt always their "true reaction," because sometimes first blush is a result of experience. His first response is to be Disingenuous. Cover his ass against other people seeing him, not to have his heart on his sleeve!

Then Stolas walks away, controlling where and how the conversation happens and making Blitz have to chase after him to even TRY to state his case.

Finally, Blitz speaks harshly about Stolas being a 'rich entitled asshole,' which hurts Stolas's feelings. Instead of talking it out, hearing where Blitz is coming from, wondering if Blitz is willing to work that out (Lets Go!! sounds like that may have been the case, by the way) or anything really, he kicks Blitz out. You hurt my feelings, end of conversation.

to be fair, BACK ATCHA, BLITZ. But like. I have reacted to people like Stolas did to Blitz, so I get where he's coming from which makes it annoy the shit outta me lmao. WHICH MEANS IT COMPELS ME!!! But it gets to me really tough hahaha

Anyway Fun!! See y'all next month

[polyamorous-fat-witch]

Sorry, personal rant, I have no idea how to put the see more thing in on iPad so, tfw for self harm and self hatred. Polyamorous stuffs too _______________________________________________________________________

Im so disappointed in myself right now, I feel so stupid… My ‘partners’ turn out to not be my partners at all…/their/ relationship. Not mine. Apparently I’m just the friend on the side they can get off to once in a while. “We want you as a friend and we love you” They want to build a life with me and want me to move from the uk to the us to be part of their family. But nothing more. I feel lied to, but I guess that’s what you get for assuming.

I will remain close and still be her mommy, forever and always. He is still my big brother. But I have to accept that is it. And all it ever will be. I need to look for love in another place.

I self harmed and had to apply butterfly stitches to my arm, my mother knows and is upset and disappointed. I’m snowballing down a hill of mental breakdown again. I keep trying to make art but am constantly unsatisfied. I’m slipping into that space where I want to drink heavily again. I hate myself, who I am.

I don’t know what to do, I am lost.

[journalgen]

Galician Bulletin of Lesbian Polyrambling, Astrocensorship, and Carpet Studies

[gonnabeapolyglot]

okay i just did the math and ive spent 289 hours watching d20 for the first time

considering rewatches of Acofaf and some of Burrows end and most of Starstruck odyssey uh. more than once

[gonnabeapolyglot]

nothing reminds me that the 'split attraction model' (romantic and sexual feelings arent inherently intertwined) isnt a commonly accepted thing than the 'are bert and ernie gay discourse'

"why do we need to know their sexuality?? theyre puppets they dont have sex!" I DONT GIVE A FUCK!!!!! THEYRE IN LOVE BRO!! WHATS SEX GOT TO DO WITH IT??

[gonnabeapolyglot]

EVERYONE GO WATCH NORTHERN EXPOSURE ITS AN EARLY 1990S SHOW AND ITS SO CHARMING AND GENUINELY FUNNY

it DOESNT TAKE ITSELF TOO SERIOUSLY ITS ABOUT AN ALASKAN TOWN WHO WORK TOGETHER AND CARE FOR EACHOTHER THROUGH THE YEARS EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE DIFFERENCES BUT ITS TONE UNLIKE ANY IVE SEEN

tHE TOWN HAS A TLINGIT POPULATION THAT IS A PART OF THE SHOW AND ARE TREATED WITH RESPECT AND AS THEIR OWN CHARACTERS AND THEIR TRADITIONAL MEDICINE AND MEDICINE MEN ARE TAKEN SERIOUSLY BY THE BIG TIME NEW YORK DOCTOR WITHOUT ANY EXPLAINATION OR FIGHT

ONE OF THE BEST MAIN CHARACTERS IS A HALF-TLINGIT GUY WHO JUST HANGS OUT END IS FRIENDLY WITH EVERYONE AND HAS A FASCINATION WITH MOVIEMAKING AND POP CULTURE!!! AND THERES A SPIRIT CALLED ONE WHO WAITS (who i love!! hes not OooOoo! I am an all knowong appirition!!! hes just like hey man. oh times have changed alot, huh? well, Im here because I want to help you, here, lets ask the river and the wind. but im not sure well get an answer but we can try) AND HE IS TRYING TO HELP FIND THE GUYS FATHER (who abandoned him and he was found by the river) JUST THERE EVERY FEW EPISODES.

they THIS COUPLE WHO'RE LIKE 19 AND 60 BUT THEYRE GENUINELY GROUNDED AND GOOD AND ARENT ONE SIDED

THERES A MILLIONAIRE WHO LIVES THERE WHOSE KINDA A FRANK BURNS BUT THE SHOW USE HIM AS A TOTAL PUNCHING BAG ITS NICE

THE TWO MAIN LOVE INTEREST CHARACTERS ARE THE NY DOCTOR AND A BUSH PILOT WHO HAS A HISTORY OF EVERY BOYFRIEND DYING AND THEY HATE EACHOTHER AND ITS ENEMIES TO FRENEMIES TO ?? CAUSE IM ONLY IN SEASON 2 BUT THE WRITING IS SO FASCINATING

THEY HAVE THESE DREAM SEQUENCES??? ALOT AND ITS THEYRE SO PLAYFUL!! THE WRITERS ARE HAVING A GOOD TIME THE ENTIRE TIME

therES THIS DUDE WHO RUNS A MORNING RADIO SHOW WHO HAD A ROUGH LIFE IN A LONG LINE OF PEOPLE WHO LIVED WITH ADDICTION etc. IN A TRAILER PARK AND HES THE CHILLEST MOST WELL ROUNDED CHARACTER PHILOSOPHICALLY AND IS KIND TO PEOPLE BUT HES NOT A 2D PUSHOVER OR LIKE. A HERO TO SAVE THE DAY?

AAAaAaaAaAAAaaA I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS SHOW I REALLY WANT YOU TO SEE IT!!!

[gonnabeapolyglot]

its so wild to look at my tumblr feed and theyre like neat art :) my favourite character! and its like DONT YOU KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING??? THE STRESS WE ARE UNDER????

[gonnabeapolyglot]

wait ive been seeing :0) and thinking people arent finishing a '(:0)' it JUST OCCURED TO ME that its a big nose.

(._. ')

[gonnabeapolyglot]

listening to historical sexism and about post-war policies like firing married women and des 'instituts familiaux' and the 'ideal wife' and 'destroying femininity' and the 'moral purity of females' from the fifties makes me want to commit unspeakable but nonlethal violence upon my mortal form. skin crawling fucking bullshit

[gonnabeapolyglot]

I made a muppet/sesame st. sideblog called @gonnabeamuppetfan so if anyone's interested, hit it up jdhdjdjk

[gonnabeapolyglot]

someone tell me why i haven't posted fanfic or written more than a 300 word drabble in 10 years but suddenly fucking S/ame Street is making me write an already 500 word 1st chapter to what may be a short fic or a long oneshot about a platonic hanahaki reader insert. let alone 150-300 word drabbles that could absolutely be extended into more oneshots??

And making me consider actually posting it on an Ao3 account I made LAST pride month and then didnt touch????

[gonnabeapolyglot]

hey just watched brokeback mountain

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou dude(affectionate)(betrayed)

[gonnabeapolyglot]

I have to make a muppet/sesame street sideblog i am falling into it at a rapid rate the brainworms are developing

ive hardly puppetposted here except for welcome home but jim henson suddenly has me in a GRIP

i mean ive always liked the muppets and sesame street but now im watching as an adult and A. So. yeah

[gonnabeapolyglot]

Hey. Elsbeth is an awesome show

i love her sososo much shes a fun lady a genius lawyer and a scary investigator shes so oh man

[gonnabeapolyglot]

goes into the hel.uva b.ss tag and immediately regrets it

[gonnabeapolyglot]

I always way overdo smiles on photos for other people or way under do smiles for myself. i feel like im smiling but i just look. tired. straight face darkened eyes lol. What do I blame for this

smiling properly really does take practice