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senselessalchemist · 4 months

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apparently I preordered an audiobook when I had a free one from audible (yes I know but if they want to give me a poor person an audiobook I am too weak to resist, also it's how I get my stormlight archive fix every few years) and I don't know what it is and I am also afraid to check because I am a very weird coward with issues about notifications

#what could it be #i know its not stormlight archive 5 because i would be having way more an excited fit if it were #them fuckers are my number 1 comfort books to listen to and it would be cool to have a new one #sighs #last time i checked everyone was theorizing kaladin would die in 5 #which i will accept with dignity but it will make me very sad because (sincere moment)#kaladin stormblessed being his depressed and traumatized and extremely ill self and both continuing anyway #but also recognizing that he couldnt continue in the same way #have helped me get through some real tough shit #also navani strangely enough who i was like okay with up until RoW #but then getting more of her experience while i was being severely emotionally abused kinda... yeah #but yeah my new audiobook isn't stormlight 5 so #maybe if i force myself to check it'll be a fun reveal #and then i can listen to a book i was apparently into enough to preorder #last new book i read was in august 🙃#and i feel such pressure to read so i can be a better writer #but i dont waaaaant toooooo because emotions can be painful and i don't want to hurt #sincere moment over #positively i have written 26kish words and i kind of have an idea of how things fit together #just gotta clme up with the overarching structure for this one #the present-past flip-flop was an accident that came from the fic starting out as a one-shot and then getting Too Fucking Long #and then i decided i liked it and had a little fun time trying to tie each part to the next with some specific imagery or theme or event #this one can't do that... or at least not in exactly the same way #i have a couple of ideas and i guess ill see what works #i like gimmicky bullshit too much and i apologize #but luckily no one has to read my fics so they can't complain that im gimmicky #on thursday i have a dreaded dentist appointment but on the plus side i have often written the best in medical waiting rooms #fingers crossed #(also on thursday i am getting a pakige with stuff that will let me set up a 2nd monitor and that is exciting)

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