#ppl can find happiness in the worst conditions sometimes

[dokyeomini]

tbh I can't stop thinking abt smth sb said idk who that the world has been shitty alway but but people have always found ways to be happy even when it's all shitty

[princeanxious]

New au idea just dropped: abducted by aliens + found family; familial anadukeceit addition with a twist:

tw: minor abducted by aliens, mentions of illegal scientific experimentation on a minor, general au theme following the rescues of ppl getting abducted, those are the big ones, lmk if i missed anything!

Virgil and Remus are normal adult humans that are part of a galactic crew that specializes in rescuing aliens that were abducted for black market trade and experimentation purposes and rehabilitating them

Janus is a young teenage human who'd been abducted and experiemented on for two years before his rescue, leaving him half-covered in abnormally healthy scales, sharp fangs and coldblooded-like qualities, and without a way to talk like he used to.(he can growl and hiss and whine ect., but they mostly ruined his ability to mimick sounds without it being painful and thus he cannot actually try to speak without pain.) He's not seen another live human in years, and is way too young to know how to cope with it, so he doesn't trust anything anymore and often comes off as extremely violent because he doesn't know whats a threat and what isnt, and isnt honestly sure hes not experiencing a vivid nightmare half the time.

Cue this team getting a report from a different rescue group about requesting help for a specific rescue from their mostly human rescue team, this time its about a small earth-like dealthworlder that had been discovered and rescued as one of the few surviving aliens from an illegal testing facility.

Report lists it as extremely volitile and hostile, but only when provoked(see: any attempt to interact with it). If left alone, it simply cowers in a corner and cries. There have been efforts to get it to eat that have only been semi successful due to the poor thing seemingly not being able to digest certain foods, and they worry it will simply die of starvation, or loneliness, if they cant get it's condition stable.

The reason theyre requesting Virgil's team is because the original rescue has never seen this kind of alien before, but it looks mostly human and thats the assumption. Humans are known to have high-packbonding instincts, and that persistence for kinship is pretty much this rescue's last hope.

To the humans, its a bit of a far leap seeing as they arent provided with any clear pictures of the thing, but its their job and theyre getting paid to do it, might as well try.

They.. They arent prepared to arrive to the sight of a child. Well, sort of child. A teenager? Whose regardless way too thin and quite too small to look anything but vastly unhealthy.

From his one side of his ribs curled up all the way around one side of his face and down that arm are rich yellow scales, that perhaps look like the healthiest part of him.

He wears a blindfold from his previous containment, and word has it the first alien to try and take it off was met with the worst lash-out yet and was still in recovery. They had kept it on him because he wont let anyone near take it off. It keeps him calm to be sightless, and its unfortunately all they can do to keep him that way.

And well, while Remus has always been the best at taming some of the wilyest deathworld creatures, its actually Virgil who has skill in taming those few labeled 'deadly.'

He sees this 'dangerous' behavior for what it really is.

Fear.

This is a child who is scared, terrified, and lashing out at anything that doesn't feel safe.

So you can imagine the brief uptic in nervous alien chatter from the main observation room when Virgil decides to walk straight into the containment room with no gear, no food, nothing but himself and his jacket.

Its a little jarring to hear a teenager hiss angrily at you, but Virgil used to Be That Teenager, so he doesn't really react. And he can see it when he speaks, using a soft and comforting voice, the way this kid freezes at being spoken to. In a langauge he understands.

"Hey buddy."

There's an immediate growl of uncertainty, pressing himself further away. Disbelief. It cant be, right? It's been 2 years since hes been in a room with another living human, there's no way.

..Right?

"Cmon now, none of that. It's just me here right now. My names Virgil."

He doesn't really want to believe it, that hes hearing another human. But he cant help the instinctual need to turn and hide the scales, the thing that makes him a freak of nature, no human would want him after what had been done to him.

Its a slow back and forth, really. Virgil asking a mundane question and getting some cautious hiss or growl or click in reply. But slowly, ever so slowly, the boy is relaxing.

"Can I reach my hand out? I wont touch you, okay? I want you to reach out too, if you're okay with that. We can move at your pace, okay?"

And maybe he gets a slightly petulant whine, but theres no aggression. Just. stress.

He holds his hand out, palm down, and waits. And is rewarded with an extrsmely shaky hand reaching out and grasping his own with a little fumbling. And then theres a pause, where the boy is taking thw time to register the hand.

Human.

And then the boy is all but flinging himself forward, blindly reaching out with a sob. Maybe some aliens in the observation room tense, but the humans in the room remain completely calm.

And now Virgil has a lap full of entirely too distraught child and no say in the matter, but thats fine. Hes content to just hold the poor thing and let the kid cry it out, god knows he needed this.

They learn this kids name, Janus, through some shake tracing of fingers on skin, then pen to paper. He's barely 16, and was abducted at age 14.

They learn one eye had been tampered with as well to match the scales, but all that was successful was a color change to yellow. It fortunately affects Janus's sight very little, except when hes tired and finds himself with migraines from his eyes being tired.

Janus is a special case, because he cant go back home, not with the things hes seen and experienced, as the galactic rescue is still a bit of a secret to earth. But hes a minor, so he cant very well join the rescue yet, even if he wanted to.

So, Virgil and Remus adopt him. Janus is more than happy about it, despite his struggles to show it.

They have a number of humans and humanoids on their team, one of which is a therapist named Emile(human), and another who is their navigator and unofficial translator named Remy(half-human).

Janus p much gets unofficially adopted by them as well, standing in as the cool uncles most likely, but through them he learns to deal with his trauma, and gets to learn how to communicate via galactic hand-sign language.

Sometimes a family can be a Team Rescue Group Leader, his Danger Tamer Chaotic Boyfriend, and their Half Danger-Noodle Half-Sassy Human Son, and two fun uncles who collectively know how to heal trauma and 47 different ways to say 'fuck you' in alien.

[littlebabycrybtch]

anyways, autistic adult here going out to all the autism parents out there;;; stop fucking bragging about abusing your autistic kids. i lived through my autistic childhood, you havent, you need to hear me out. stop posting your horrible ‘inspirational stories’ about how happy you are that you ‘pushed through’ and did something awful and distressing to your child in an effort to make them normal. it is so harmful and so disgusting for autistic people to have to hear about. those stories make me wanna gag. they give me physical discomfort, the way these people are so... Proud of themselves, for thinking they are ‘eradicating’ these evil autism symptoms, like the symptoms arent just an inherent fucking PART of their child they destroyed out of blind ignorant ‘care’. fucking listen to yourself. you did not help them. i dont care that they learned some new (usually unnecessary and performative) neurotypical skill you had been pushing on them for years. i dont care how fuzzy inside that makes you feel. i dont care about whatever you come up with that proves their ‘progress’. no. you were projecting your frustrations. you were pressuring them into smth they didnt need. you didnt Fucking help them. you made them Conform. you Hurt them to make them act like everyone else, bc you let yourself become that convinced that their autism is whats damaging them, and not the outside world that tries to dismantle what they are on the daily, for no fucking REASON besides irrationally projecting your own standards and ideals onto them. the ‘cure’ for autism is not ‘acting normal’, for gods sake. you Punished them for being autistic instead of accepting it and accommodating them. frankly, no matter your real intention, its selfish.

like. im sorry but im livid, i am TIRED of seeing this kind of shit encouraged everywhere. forcing your kid into meltdowns unless it is a 110% safety concern, is abuse and disability discrimination, especially when you are trying to force them to be ‘normal’ by punishing them in these awful prejudiced ways until they meet YOUR idealized standards of functioning and ‘quality of life’, which is self centered for gods sake! like! nah man actually im totally fine with some of my symptoms if you people would just leave me the fuck alone about it??? i like stimming, i like special interests, my ‘sensory issues’ can become blissful when i find the right sensory experience, my struggle to communicate has given me so many beautiful Alternatives and connected me with so many people. im fucking fine, i dont always need to bend to you, you can bend to me sometimes, okay? like. smh, neurotypicals/abled people, society revolves around you, sure, but that doesnt mean someone being Different from you makes them the wrong or unhealthy one... they can be Perfectly happy even though they dont live the way you do, and to think otherwise is again, just really self centered. why are you the default? why is YOUR HAPPINESS with YOUR LIFE the default standard??? someone being different from you doesnt always mean their existence automatically Pains them, or that its Lesser or Worse. accommodation and understanding does a hell of a lot better for somebody than trying to just force them to act how you do under the ignorant assumption that it Must be inherently better for them and their existence. “but- things would be easier for them if they were normal right! thats just how the world is!” cool. but they arent. listen to me. They Arent. just fucking accept that, and focus on fixing the obviously bigger issue, the whole ‘WORLD’ part that rejects everything abnormal, jesus christ. like honestly, thats the worst part about being ‘abnormal’, how the outside world fucking treats you. its how they wont fucking let you exist and wont get off their ass to try and understand or support you, without conditions that include ‘copy me as best as you can so its easier for me’. the worst part is that the people who ‘support’ you view that support as wittling you into something less difficult for them to ‘help’ at the expense of your fucking basic comforts or happiness, and they still think theyre doing you a noble favor by making you like themselves. ffs. guys. stop abusing your kids. stop.

“well guys, my autistic kid wouldnt stop pissing themselves so i just stopped buying diapers and made them sit on the toilet for 6 hours, and guess what, they use the toilet the Right way now! :)” “my kid wouldnt hug me or say i love you, so i held them down on the bed till they stopped fighting my affection! now we hug all the time!” “i took away my childs favorite item until they were able to verbally ask for it back. now they know how to say “please”. they must be SO much happier!” i need for you to listen to me right now. you are not fixing them. you are not HELPING THEM. you are breaking them into your neurotypical life like a pair of fucking tennis shoes. its for you. you are conditioning them, with trauma. the fact that you dont see that is a Disturbing display of how little you actually are trying to understand about your child’s life, or frankly anybody elses experiences besides yours. Leave them the fuck alone. you really wanna help your autistic kid fit into the world? dont punish them for stimming, tell ppl in public to stop fucking staring, bc it is their fucking problem. dont force your type of affection or communication, pay some fuckin attention and you’ll start noticing the ways in which THEY communicate with you, which is just as fine. and for the love of god my dude! buy diapers! they exist for a reason! just buy your fucking child their fucking diapers. ill kick your ass oh my God, 

[tellywoodtrash]

immj2 08 + 09.11.20 lbs

08.11.20

lmaoooooooo i really love the ice cold way siya operates in. truly a raisinghania sib!

“siya chal sakti hai!!!” behen, iss ghar mein tumhare dimaag ki alaava sab kuch chalta hai.

dadi trying to cheer raja band baja hua beta up with his favt. chole bhature. he doesn't seem like the kind who'd eat that kinda food, but ok.

CHOLE BHATURE ARE NOT CHEERING HIM UP. MATLAB MAAMLA SERIOUS HAIIIIII.

lmao he's literally twisting and turning in place like kids do when they have a tantrum. i mean, i like it. it shows a more human side to the character, ki just how much anguish and helplessness he's feeling.

dadi like babe, you can't control everything in life, stop being such a bloody control freak ki things not going your way turn you like this.

blah blah anguished rant on how he lost something so important to him.

dadi giving cliche ~~~if it's meant to be yours, it'll come back to you~~~ advice. which is kinda working on him. huh. all kindsa out of sorts behaviour.

“jab tuney kisi ke saath galat nahi kiya hai, toh tere saath galat kyun hoga?” uh okkkkkkkkkkk, that's not how life works. bad shit happens to good ppl all the time. also, he's done lotsa galat shit ok. what did riddhima do for this fucker to paralyse her huh?????? YEH SAB USSI KA NATEEJA HAI. BHUGAT AB.

carbs therapy. BEST HAI. ALWAYS WORKS. IT'S SCIENCE, BITCHES.

dadi saying why don't you talk to riddhima about your issues, and lol he's whining about she dgaf about him coz she left him alone last night when he asked her not to.

dadi left praying ki hey bhagwaan these two fucks’ relationship is in your hands now, this is beyond human interference.

kabir being informed of new developments and accusation of kidnapping ragini is being heaped on siya. BASED ON WHAT EVIDENCE YOU STUPID TWIT??????? THAT SHE CAN WALK??????? SO CAN EVERYONE ELSE YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!

“mujhe usse vansh ke aage expose karna hoga.” LMAO BITCH EXPOSE YOURSELF FIRSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

“tum kya mujhe expose karogi? expose toh main tumhe karungi!” YES SIYAAAAAAAAA FUCK  HER UPPPPPPPPPP

NOICE. WE LOVE A FIERCEASS SISTER WHO’S READY TO KILL FOR HER SIBLINGS. ESP. WHEN IT’S THE SCARY BIG BROTHER WHO’S EVERYONE’S PROTECTOR.

siya saying she just miraculously got cured a few days ago, and was waiting to surprise everyone. sounds sus, but whatever.

but also what kinda terrribleasssssss physiotherapist is riddhima that she didn’t even identify her patient’s progress?????

LMAO SIYA POL KHOLING OF VANSH BHAIYYA SAYING HE MADE HER DO ALL THE SHADY MASK SHIT. “TO KEEP RIDDHIMA SAFE”. haaaan behen, khooooob safe rakha tumne, baar baar behosh karke. pehle se hi iska dimaag nahi chalta, now you’ve managed to give her some kinda degenerative brain disease.

i love how vansh didn’t bother to ask siya how she stopped riddhima’s plans and knocked her out multiple times if she’s in a wheelchair. there’s literally only one person in a wheelchair in this house?!?!?!!!!!! wouldn’t riddhima KNOW who the person in the mask is???? god vansh. you’re such a dumbass.

lellllllllllllllllllllllllll i am livingggggggggg for siya reading riddhima to filth with a knife in her hand THIS IS THE BEST SCENE OF THIS SHOW YET. esp in her small, child-like voice, it’s fucking amazing.

riddhima admitted to being a spy, AND SIYA RECORDED IT ALSO. OMFG SHE’S MY NEW FAVE CHARACTER I LOVE HER THE MOST.

i wish vansh was the person he is to siya, instead of the fucker he actually is. she literally thinks the worldddddddddddd of him. ugh, i am so soft for this relationshippppppp.

but i also wanna know what the ishani/siya relationship is like? we hardlyyyyyy see them interact. like, we even see aryan push her wheelchair around sometimes, but ishani neverrrrrrr interacts with siya. why????

ugh riddhima managed to convince her that she really cares for vansh and is trying to do the right thing. she’s literally asking her to kill her rn if she doesn’t trust her. baby sis you’re farrrrrrrrr too trusting.

“mera dimaag tumpe trust karne se rok raha hai, riddhima, par jiss dil ne tumhe bhaabi bola haina, woh tumhe ek mauka dena chahta hai. ek aakhri mauka. iss baar mera bharosa mat todna. 24 ghante hai tumhare paas. apni taqdeer badal sako toh badal lo warna yeh audio main vansh bhaiyya ko suna doongi.” SERIOUSLY, WHERE WERE THEY HIDING THIS MOST SAYAANI CHARACTER OF THE SHOW TILLLLLL NOW????????!

riddhima has a condition for siya too. i think i know what it is.

omg vansh IS COLLAR PAKADKE YELLING AT ANGRE IN THE WORST WAYYYYYYY POSSIBLE. god vansh, you’re honestly the fucking worstttttttttttttttttttt. angre you need to take up work with someone else, istg, you don’t deserve this shit. kabir treats his sidekick so much better. yet another point in the kitty for kabir >>>>>> vansh.

seriously, why would you wanna blindfold this dude when he’s in THIS mood????? save it for the bedroom, sis.

empty wheelchair dekh ke he’s yelling at everrrrrrrryone ki how could they leave siya alone somewhere. god. i can’t imagine having to live with such a toxic personality.

everyone in the house is soooooo happy for siya. like, aryan’s not beaming as much as the others, but he does look kinda pleased. BECAUSE SIYA IS BEST CHARACTERRRRRRR OF THIS SHOW EVERYONE LOVESSSS HERRRRR.

oh my heart, i am so softttttttt for sibling shit like this. he’s hugging her with suchhhhhhhhhhhh fierceeee affection, i’m crying happy tearsssssss.

heart eyes for riddhima who supposedly cured her. pls. she did nothing. jo bhi karna tha, siya ne khud kiya hai. iss ridhimma manhoos ko jasoosi se kab fursat mili to do PT with siya and cure her???

siya being gracious and giving credit though. ugh, honestly, this show and this family don’t deserve siya.

lmao she’s saying vansh brought riddhima in though, so actually allll the credit goes to bhaiyya for intimidating this poor woman into treating his sister against her will.

THE AFFECTION. THE SHEER MAGNITUDE OF HIS LOVE FOR HERRRR. I CRIEEE. THIS IS THE ONLY RELATIONSHIP THAT MATTERS TO ME IN THIS GODFORSAKEN SHOW.

anupriya giving some fakeass congrats. i hope siya tells vansh that she was the one who pushed her down the stairs a while back. aur kuch nahi toh just for that vansh is gonna kill her dead.

riddhima and vansh still all tense and sad about the ragini thing. OUFF JUST LIVE IN THE MOMENT YOU FUCKS.

I LOVE HER. I FUCKING LOVE HER. BEST RAISINGHANIA HAI YEH.

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09.11.20

riddhima back at kabir’s to try and find ragini. ughhhhhhhhh i’m just so done with this nonsense. we already KNOW that kabir and anupriya still have her based on the precap from like 2, 3 days ago.

lol kabir is so pissed at riddhima and her dimaag chalaana. a mood we ALL share.

kabir trying to turn riddhima against siya and riddhima’s like NOOOO SHE COULD NEVER, “USKI AANKHEIN USKI AWAAAZ SAAF SAAF KEH RAHI THI KI WOH SACH BOL RAHI HAI!” uh huh, yeah, like kabir’s are rn????? and vansh’s were before he paralysed you? just a suggestion i’m throwing out there: is it possible that perhaps, just maybe, you’re just very fucking stupid, riddhima, and tend to trust people too easily????

OUFF I’M SO BORED WITH THIS SCENE. we already know from the precap that ragini will knock down a vase but riddhima will never find out what caused it and kabir will make some lame excuse she’ll believe. FWDING TO NEXT.

JESUS CHRISTTTTTTTT, SIYA IS JUST WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE RANDOMLY LISTENING TO THAT AUDIO CLIP OF RIDDHIMA’S CONFESSION. AND SHE WALKS RIGHT INTO VANSH, WHO’S LIKE HUH, WHAT’S THAT RIDDHIMA IS SAYING?????

siya brushes it off saying its exercise stuff for her PT. sure. uh huh.

OH MY HEART HE GOT HER HEEEEEEELS, WHICH SHE’S ALWAYSSSSSSS WANTED. THIS BHAIYYA-BABY RELATIONSHIP IS GONNA TAKE ME DOWN GODDAMNITTTT. ITNE DIN BAAAAAAAAAAAD ITNI ACHCHI SIBLING FEELS MILI HAI ITV SEEEEEEE.

bhaiyya knows baby enough ki she’s hiding something from himmm. oh noeeeeeeeeeee.

damn, siya a real one. didn’t give out riddhima’s secret coz she wants to give her a fair chance. again, this show does not deserve this character. she’s too good for it.

she says she just believes in him and knows he’ll find whoever murdered mom. 

SOFT. SO SOFT. MY HEART IS SO FULL WHENEVER THESE TWO SHOW LOVE TO EACH OTHERRRRR.

idhar ragini ki marammat shuru. y’all are just exhausting me with this bs. isse maarna hai toh maaro already. ainvayi mein time waste.

oh dangggggggg, ragini batting for riddhima. saying i know she’ll fuck y’all up. dang, we love the sisterhood feels of this episode!

“aap ke liye SPECIAL INTEZAAM kiya hai maine.” said with the most polite customer service obsequiousness. I LOVE THIS PSYCHOPATH THE MOSTTTTTTTTTT.

ragini warning them that once vansh finds out everything, they’re as good as dead. wow, spunky!!!! dude i like her as a female lead better than stupid fucking riddhima. 

“hmmmmmm, you’re right. lekin usse batayega kaun???” honestly, why do i love his deranged ass so much????

anyway mishra has been delegated the task of stashing her somewhere else i guess. so it’s settled that mishra knows he’s not working for the CBI or whatever and is just a hired goon.

dadi is organizing YET ANOTHER POOJA. lordddddd.

this riddhima and her dumbass mandir jaana excuse that she uses constantly.

“bhagwaan tum jaisi bahu sab ko de!” OMFG DADI PLS, GOD FORBID. ISSE ACHCHA AAPKE BETE KUNWAARE MARR JAAYE!

ugh dadi your bloody pota needs a fucking therapist, it isn’t in riddhima’s hands to fix his 1001 mental issues.

great, mangalsutra almost broke. foreshadowing.

ughhhhh mummy managed to steal the memory card from aryan. FUCKING IDIOT I THOUGHT YOU HAD PUT IT IN THE BLOODY BANK ALREADY, BUT NO. HE WAS STILL HOLDING ON TO IT AND TALKING ABOUT IT LOUDDDDDDDDLY ON THE PHONE. jesusssss, why he so fuckinggggg stupid????

oh now vansh is exclaiming GREATTTTTTT JOB ANGREEEE as if he didn’t tell him to GTFO, THE VERY SIGHT OF YOU DISGUSTS ME yesterday. fuck, i really hate vansh as anything but a brother to siya.

aaaaaaand riddhima was standing behind him and he turned around and in a veryyyyyyy contrived move got his watch caught in her mangalsutra and broke it.

sis freaking about THE APSHAGUN!!!!!!!!!!!

he’s like arre nahi achcha shagun hai, angre got the cctv footage now i’ll know who kidnapped ragini! and sis is like OH GOD NO THE BAD LUCK IS STARTING ALREADY I’M SO DEADDDDDDD

“toh main tumhe kho dungi.”

lmao his face. literally the white guy blinking meme.

god she’s having a freakout about how their shaadi and rishta is in khatra. BITCH THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MS AND INSTEAD THE MOUNTAIN OF LIES YOU ARE SITTING ON AND YOUR EK DARJAN KE INCOMPATIBILITY ISSUES AS INDIVIDUALS.

”tum jaanti ho riddhima, tumahra ek ek aansoon mere liye kitna keemti hain? aisa lagta hai jaise mere dil ke ek tukde ko tod ke alag kar diya ho.”

OH YEAH????? DIDN’T FEEL ANYTHINGGGGG WHEN YOU PARALYSED HER HUH????????? IT’S GONNA BE A LONGASSSSS TIME BEFORE I GET OVER THAT, BITCH BOY.

yeah yeah ok this is a nice moment and all. WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS DUDE, HUH?????? WHY’D YOU HAVE TO RUIN ALLLLLLLLLL THE GOOD WILL YOU BUILT UP BY KARWA CHAUTH IN ONEEEEEEE MOMENTTTTTTT?????? fuck, i hate you tellywood men and the shit they put my stupid heart through.

only bappa ki aarti shall fix things now. based on the promo and BTS i’ve seen, things about to get reallllllly realllllllly bad but............ lol let’s wait and watch.

ragini managed to sneak mishra’s phone outta his pocket. SEE????? SO ENTERPRISING!!!!!! I LIKE HER SO MUCH MORE THAN RIDDHIMA. GOD VANSH, THIS IS THE GIRL YOU SHOULD HAVE MARRIED. SHE’S REALLY THE ONE WHO GOT AWAY.

she’s callllllllllling vanshhhh. BUT AARTI KI WAJAAH SE HE CAN’T HEAR THE PHONEEEEEE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

here, have some dhaarmik #couple goals to take the edge off the anxiety till the next episode.

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precap: omfg ragini got through to riddhima and she almost told her that kabir is behind kidnapping her, but kabir got to her and attacked her from the back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOUBLE OMFG SIYA OVERHEARD MUMMY ON THE PHONE BRAGGING ABOUT KILLING THEIR MOM AND CALLS VANSH TO TELL HIM ABOUT IT!!!!! LIKE SHE TOLD HIM THE NAME ALL CLEARLY AND THAT SHE HEARD IT FIRSTHAND!!!!!!!! VANSH SEEMS TO BE GIVING NO REACTION THO????????????

TELL ME THAT BOTH THESE PHONE CALLS WERE NOT MADE ON SOME FUCKING GHATIYA NETWORK LIKE IDEA AND THE REQUIRED PPL HEAR EVERYTHING THEY NEED TO!!!!!!!! (high hopes, i know. 😔😔😔)

[hcllenic]

(DOUGLAS BOOTH, CIS MALE) - Have you seen APOLLO DEMETRIUS BLACKTHORN?  APOLLO is in HIS SENIOR year. The HISTORY MAJOR is 23 years old & is  a SCORPIO. People say HE is CREATIVE, INDEPENDENT, CALLOUS and CYNICAL.  Rumors say they’re a member of CALLOWAY. I heard from the gossip blog  that HE IS NOT HIS FATHER’S BIOLOGICAL SON.

content warnings for death, drug use ?? i think thats it

he’s cupid’s brother

from a very wealthy family that rose to prominence around 1921, taking power in a variety of places. kind of like the kennedys. likely cursed. apollo claims he doesn’t believe in said curse, but the truth is more that he doesn’t want to believe in the curse.

moves from highs to lows really quickly – one week he’s extremely extroverted and ready to fight god and the next he’s alone in his dorm ignoring a paper in the name of wondering if he actually has an identity beneath the one that seems to just have been formed to get his family’s attention / approval / warmth

is honestly very defensive – i don’t mean in arguments, but rather when it comes to relationships. he’s the first one to cut and run because he tends to anticipate the fall before it happens. he tells himself he doesn’t care about his siblings because he’s honestly convinced they would sell his soul to satan for one corn chip.

nothing is eternal and he really knows this – he’s constantly waiting for death to come ‘round the corner. or something else, equally dramatic.

bit of a morbid sense of humour that not everyone appreciates.

almost has this idea that the rest of his siblings are gonna have to die if he wants to end up happy and successful which he KNOWS is absolutely wrong and not productive at all but like.... that shitty luck <3

grew up, for the most part, at his parent’s estate in romania but he really liked to travel and would do so often, after he turned sixteen

he thought he’d found a loophole around the curse / bad luck / whatever u wanna call it by simply not dating but this girl he was like FULLY in love w died in a hunting accident when he was fourteen over summer break (they’d met at boarding school) and he was like. hm. fuck. could be unrelated but.... hm.

so now if he has feelings for someone he just panics. he figured out he was bi and doesn’t really have that much internalized homophobia but he DOES have internalized cursephobia. if he thinks he’s into someone regardless of their gender he’ll ghost them or start a fight w them intentionally or start deliberately trying to notice their flaws

found out he wasn’t his father’s son bc he found a letter his mom wrote to his actual father which was never sent

he burned the letter because, at the time, he was terrified of anyone else finding out. he’s pretty sure it was the only evidence.

SUCH a hedonist. he will do whatever he thinks is the most entertaining until a deadline shows up at which point it’s time for apollo to take a ridiculous amount of adderall and finish a ten page paper in three hours. they’re often riddled with spelling mistakes but they have made some good points. he HATES making up his works cited tho its like pulling teeth w him

relatively responsible driver by day but smth about the night makes him REALLY wanna speed. prone to road... exasperation?? its not rage idk

he has like... contained anger issues like he’s never directed them at anyone he just wanders off to have a fit and then returns. hnstly pretty sure he works out to let off that steam

he’s kind of intelligent but he’s also such a fucking idiot. he had no idea how to cook / do laundry / do ANY of that at all until he was alone at university and, after a week of literally just buying new clothes instead of washing the ones he owned, finally googled how to use a washing machine

absolutely not a monogamist and you should not trust him <3 that said i feel like he’s not secretive about that one particular aspect of his personality like he’ll let people know that if they want a relationship he’s not the person to be approaching which tbqh is probably there to mask how deeply he actually would love to be in a fully monogamous and faithful relationship lol he’s a secret romantic just like... doesn’t wanna get hurt. and he CLAIMS he doesn’t believe in the family curse but that’s kind of bullshit. he does. a potential simp pretending he does not have the capacity to simp

can be awful at taking advice. he’ll listen to it and understand it but he’ll disregard it anyway

very bad at being optimistic. he does feel a bit cursed, again, even if he claims he doesn’t believe in said curse. the blackthorn bad luck always feels like its nipping at his heels.

he can be sooooo dramatic. he’s obnoxious <3

but he’s also like..... relatively independent? he doesn’t like asking for help and he feels like leaning on people too heavily is a shortcoming on his part so he just. will not.

really good at group projects like for some reason he feels too guilty about not actually giving them his all and will actually put effort in whereas when it comes to his own individual projects he’ll just say fuck it (unless he’s genuinely interested)

studying history w an economics minor because he figured he should go for something more or less related to capitalism to soften the blow of running to academia

a bit sensitive about the fact that he’s not actually related to his father by blood. it makes him think about all the conflicts he’d ever had with his father post finding out about his real parentage and like... when he thinks about all of that i think he realizes that his family’s love may very well be entirely conditional and he’s afraid of that. which might be why it almost seems, smtms, like he is actively trying to push them away because he thinks if he leaves first its Fine :)

rlly likes creative ventures he just LOVES working w his hands its so soothing to him. will often be in the pottery studio after dark. he can play piano

wanted connections:

close friends (or as close as he can get) – he seems a little detached and there are def moments where he just vanishes without a trace for a week but they seem to be okay with this and he loves them for it. never feels suffocated by them at all. is occasionally afraid his luck will negatively impact them but so far, so good.

they hooked up a few times then he ghosted them and now its AWKWARD

enemies. please !!!! its unrealistic that he wld be able to exist without ppl hating him

and maybe enemies to friends / enemies to lovers tropes can happen like... i love that.

they’ve known each other for a long time and neither of them trust the other but they have spent many nights together and would probably call each other friends if asked.

they’re similarly chaotic / detached / miserable and sometimes they lean heavily on each other because they don’t really have anyone else who gets it.

they committed a crime together once

they’re attracted to each other but he goes out of his way to avoid them bc he’s like . that seems like the WORST idea. it rlly seems like he actively hates them

classmates

and they were roommates (oh my god they were roommates)

someone he literally just argues with all the time. like thats the whole relationship

someone as obsessive as him who is willing to accompany him down history or science or whatever related rabbit holes and procrastinate with him. he wld die for them <3

[simprising]

50 questions you’ve never been asked tag

i was tagged by @soleilsim​ tysm <33

1. what’s your favorite candle scent? i actually have no idea i’m not really a fan of candles??

2. what female celebrity do you wish was your sister? rydel lynch because she is an amazing sister <33

3. what male celebrity do you wish was your brother? idk i love my brother too much to think about it lol

4. how old do you think you’ll be when you get married?

well considering myself rn probably after 30

5. do you know a hoarder? no!! 

6. can you do a split? i can’t!!! i’m your less supple friend you can make fun of

7. how old were you when you learned how to ride a bike? i was 5!! i remember going to school and telling everyone i could ride a bike lmao (what a show off!!!)

8. how many oceans have you swam in? only one yo

9. how many countries have you been to? 2!! uk + spain

10. is anyone in your family in the army? yes

11. what would you name your daughter if you had one? morgane i think

12. what would you name your son if you had one? I SUCK AT BOYS NAMES god

13. what’s the worst grade you got on a test? 4.5/20 it was for my blank maths exam lol rip me

14. what was your favorite TV show when you were a child? it was tyler's adventures of totally spies

15. what did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight? i’ve never celebrated halloween bc my parents always hated it

16. have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series? yes!!! (only hunger games tho)

17. would you rather have an American accent or a British accent? british bECAUSE ITS HOT

18. did your mother go to college? yes she did!! :-) and she recently got back to studying to get a new job i’m so proud of her <3

19. are your grandparents still married? no

20. have you ever taken karate lessons? NEVER it’s scary

21. do you know who Kermit the frog is? yes i do hehe

22. what’s the first amusement park you’ve been to? disney land paris :-)

23. what language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in? maybe russian????

24. do you spell the colour as grey or gray? grey??? i didn’t know there was 2 ways of writing it

25. is your father bald? no and it’s funny because his brothers almost are lol

26. do you know triplets? i don’t

27. do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook? titanic bc i’ve never watched the notebook

28. have you ever had Indian food? yes but i didn’t like it

29. what’s the name of your favorite restaurant? my favorite is probably “la villa” just because of its chocolate mousse

30. have you ever been to Olive Garden? no

31. do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ’s, etc.) no!!

32. what would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender? they never thought about any boy’s name bc they knew i was a girl

33. if you have a nickname, what is it? ppl call me célinou some time to time but you can’t make a good nickname from my name

34. who’s your favorite person in the world? my cat (currently waiting to have a best friend to put their name right here)

35. would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs? in the suburbs!!

36. can you whistle? sometimes yes sometimes no hehe idk what’s going on

37. do you sleep with a nightlight? no because i can’t sleep with any light on 

38. do you eat breakfast every morning? yes it’s very important!!

39. do you take any pills or medication daily? no

40. what medical conditions do you have? none

41. how many times have you been to the hospital? around five times i think 

42. have you ever seen Finding Nemo? yes!!!! love the seagulls

43. where do you buy your jeans? zara or mango (the only places i trust)

44. what’s the last compliment you got? “you’re a genius” from a friend i just helped lol

45. do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? i do most of the time :-)

46. what flavor tea do you enjoy? i don’t like tea hehe

47. how many pairs of shoes do you currently own? 5 but i only wear one atm

48. what religion will you raise your children to practice? i’m not religious so i’ll raise them without anything to do with religions

49. how old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real? i was 6, friends made fun of me bc i thought he was real lol exCUSE ME MY PARENTS WANTED ME TO STILL BE HAPPY BELIEVING IN SANTA FOR A FEW YEARS NOT LIKE YOURS

50. why do you have a youtube? to watch videos lol and subscribe to channels!!!

[nisitime]

Random personal cause im bored

1. Name: Just call me Nisi <3

2. Birthplace: Portugal

3. Ancestry: nhé

4. Zodiac Sign: Gemini

5. Biggest fear: the dark

6. Strength/Weakness:im super patient / i cry easly

7. Worst habit:mumbling

8. Favorite holiday: hmmm...x.mas? idk i like free days in general

9. Ever been in a car crash:nop

10. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher: yes

11. What do you do as soon as you walk in the house: take my shoes off

12. Age at first kiss:14/15??? dont really remember CAUSE IT SUCKED

13. When did you fall in love for the first time: school

14. Who Is Your Longest Friend & How Long: PFFF longest friends ahaha

15. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: getting my sale site to work

16. What were you doing at midnight last night: working and talking with friends

17. When was the last time you laughed hard: right now

18. Who was the last person that told you they love you: my bf

19. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up yesterday morning: text bf

20. Where did you go for your first date and who was it with: hmmm walk in the park i think with my 1 bf

21. Who’s wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen: never was but i loved my cusin’s wedding <3

22. Who did you see in concert first:my bf? idk

23. Who was your favorite teacher:UFF i have too many? but i like my actual museum teacher <3

24. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day:my bf

25. Who do you think about most: my bf (fuck)

26. Is your ideal occupation? drawing memes

27. Beer, wine, or liquor? liquor

28. Favourite restaurant? the restaurant dont my street its called Pana Cota

29. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? ALL OF THEM but maybe coffee

30. McDonlads or Burger King? Mac

31. Fantasy dinner guest(s)? Rock Lee and Nico (oh god)

32. Have you ever been drunk? When was the last time? never

33. What is the most embarrassing thing you have done drunk? nothing

34. Wonder Woman or Cat Woman? Diana <3

35. How many pets do you have? none

36. What would be the first thing you bought if you won the lottery? i fucking credit card

37. When was the first time you smoked? never

38. Who last sent you a text? my bf

39. Who did you last send a text to? my bf

40. What 4 things would you take to a desert island? a boat, a map, food, those light guns for s.o.s

41. Name the 3 most important people in your life? my mom, my bf, my brother

42. Favorite song? dont have one but im super into Ken Ashcorp

43. Favorite movie? hmmm Spirited Away maybe? nostalgia is a fucked up thing

44. When did you last cuddle someone? yesterday

45. When did you last have sex? yesterday (making love tho)

46. If you woke up tomorrow with no fear, what would you do first? TURN OFF ALL LIGHTS

47. What was your biggest worry five years ago, do you still feel the same about it at this minute? not being ok anymore, i dont cause everything passes with time <3

48. If you could change one law of your country, what would it be? i dont know most of them :V

49. What relationships have ended? But you can’t let go? my ex friend that still fucks with my head

50. Where would you take a road trip? hmmm Porto

51. How do Mondays feel for you? nhé dont bother

52. If you could spend ten minutes with your ‘hero’ alive or dead what would you ask them? DUDE HOW CAN U BE SO AMAZING

53. Do your practice ‘self love’ or ‘self loathing’? buddy u ok also u cute and ull be fine <3 dont worry about your legs cause damn thighs

54. What’s your greatest achievement to date? being ok with myself

55. What scares you about your future? not finding a stable job, not getting a house or any money :c

56. Why does pizza come in a square box? cause square boxes are easier to make?

57. What would happen if you knew you could not fail? i would do everything

58. How does it feel to be photographed? if i allow its amazing if not its awkward and upsetting

59. If you could erase an event from your mind, which one would you choose? the ones i crawled for my ex like a dog

60. Do you want your children (if you have any) to be ‘just like you’? no, im to stressfull and have too much anxiety

61. Do you stand for what you believe in or are you pleasing others? first one

62. If money were no concern, what would you do for the rest of your life? be happy on my own house and drawing for fun <3

63. What are you thankful for, this moment? being happy and appreciated

64. Do you have same sex fantasies? not really ?

65. If you have had sex in a public place, where? i didnt

66. Have you ever cried during/after sex? yes before and after

67. Who is the oldest person you’ve had sex with? my bf he is only 4 months older tho

68. Who is the youngest person you’ve had sex with? my 1 ex with 6 months difference

69. Would you rather be in a relationship with a totally submissive partner or a totally dominant partner? none! but dominant is cool

70. How tall are you?  1.73M 

71. How much do you weigh?  60k  

72. What color is your hair naturally?   Dark brown

73. What size jeans do you wear?  40 and 42 (big legs and butts) 

74. What is your favorite color to wear?   to wear i like dark red or yellow but i love purple 

75. Do you have any piercings?    i wish

76. Do you have any tattoos?    no

77. Do you care how other people see you? alot   

78. Do you like sports?    i do

79. How do you feel about age differences in relationships?   if its not astonomic its ok

80. How do you feel about race differences in relationships?    i dont mind i love everyone <3

81. Do you believe in karma or fate?    i do

82. Do you keep a journal?    not anymore only when i was depressed

83. Describe the last dream you remember:   nazis bombing the place i was ...

84. Describe your favorite dream: i like those calm ones where im just chilling  

85. Where are some places you would like to visit?    japan and italy and france

86. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?    fucking gorillaz but they dont come to portugal for 15 years

87. What music do you listen to when you are happy?    all kinds of music tbh

88. What music do you listen to when you are mad?    all kinds? im never mad

89. Do you like to burn candles or incense?    nah, they make my nose weird

90. What was the last alcoholic beverage you consumed?    hmm champagne?

91. What are your favorite alcoholic beverages?    i dont really drink so i think i dont have one

92. Do you smoke cigarettes or cigars? What about marijuana? none im an angel

93. Who is your number 1 friend and why is he or she there?    my bf cause he’s super happy for me to be me

94. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?    yes

95. Is there anyone of your friends that you would ever consider having sex with?  oh god no! only if single

96. Would you ever have sex in the shower or the bath? on both

97. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex? i wish

98. Do you think your last ex still wants to be with you? nop

99. Ever wondered what it would be like dating the same gender as you? yes

100. What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual people? everyone is ok <3 i love everyone

101. How often do you brush your teeth? everyday

102. How often do you shower?  When was the last time you had a shower?day yes day no, yesterday

103. How often do you shave your legs? when i have to

104. Political affiliation? nop

105. Opinion on abortion? if ur not in condions to have a kid then do it

106. Opinion on immigrants/ immigration reform? if u need do it, just be nice to ppl

107. Should prostitution be legalized?    sure?

108. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? i would ask

109. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? sometimes we do stuff we dont like to achive something good!

110. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? no more war pls

111. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? drawing and hugs

112. Would you break the law to save a loved one? yes

113. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? porto maybe!

114. Why are you the person you are? i dont fucking know!

115. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? yes

116. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? different conditions prolly

117. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? fart in public

118. Were you happy when you woke up today? i guess?

119. What’s a fact about the last person who text messaged you? he loves me?

120. Want someone back in your life? yes

121. What are you excited for? new upcoming anime conventions

122. Are you scared to fall in love? nop

123. When is your next road trip? this friday to monday

124. What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? eat

125. Do you like to cuddle? yup loads

126. Have you ever kissed more than one person in 24 hours? nop

127. Plans for tomorrow? school and work

128. Do you care too much/not at all/just enough? too much unfortunatlly

129. How is life going for you right now? great yet stressfull

130. If you were offered a shot of whiskey right this second, would you accept? sure?

131. This time last year, can you remember who you liked? my bf

132. Could you stay in the same relationship for over a year? doing it for 2 years now

133. If you could have one super power what would it be? supa fast so i could finish the fucking essay

134. Background on your cell phone? yes scott pilgrim foto

135. What are you thinking about right this second? about responding this

136. Last book you read? How was it? harry potter the number 6 loved it

137. What is the last thing you bought? food

138. Do you live with your parents?  yes

139. Have you ever been caught sneaking out? not really

140. Have you ever met a celebrity? yes

141. What are you like when you’re drunk? i dont get drunk

142. What are you like when you’re high? i dont get high

143. Do you want children? yes

144. Do you want a church wedding? no

145. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1

146. Have you ever been scuba diving? no

147. Who was your first real crush? a stupid guy

148. What are you allergic to? spring in general

149. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? yes gonçalo,henrique,mariana

150. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? either is fine <3

151. How did you get your name? mom chose

152. Name one thing about your body you love? my cheeks and freckles

153. What is your biggest goal in life? getting money to live without help

154. Do you still have feelings for your ex? NOP HE WISHED

155. Do you think aliens are real? yes

156. What age did you start drinking? I DONT DRINK! its only on special ocasions

157. What do you think of President Obama? he cool and sweet

158. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? yes

159. Describe your dream girl/guy? girl-smaller than me or same high, short or medium size hair, dark brown hair (or ginger)and eye color, a lil curvy/chubby guy- talelr than me, big! like a bear! dark hair and eyes

160. Story of your first kiss?

he asked me if i kissed before and i lied saying yes we kissed LOL

161. Story of the first time you made out with someone? SAME THING

162. Story of the first time you had sex?

mutual concent with my bf at the time and we did it but as soon and i bled we stopped

163. When did you first have sex?

age 16? I THINK i dont remember dates!!!

164. First time you gave/ received oral sex?

same age

165. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to?

no

167. Favorite fictional character (movie, book, tv show)?

rock lee still best babe

168. How many followers do you have on tumblr? What about twitter/ instagram?

175 tumblr and 200 and something on twitter i think

169. Are you friend with your parents on Facebook?

nop

170. First time you thought you were in love? When did you realize that you weren’t actually in love with that person?

11º grade

171. Do you talk to yourself?

all the time

172. How old will you be on your next birthday?

21

173. How did you meet the last person you kissed?

twitter and memes

174. Do you have any hickies? not right now

175. Turn ons? gentle touches

176. Turn offs?stupid  jokes in the middle

177. What qualities did you get from your mom? nose up is my moms, im caring and loving and defend my loved ones

178. What qualities did you get from your dad? didnt had the chance to know but..im tall?

179. How many siblings do you have? 1 brother

180. Have you ever taken anyone’s virginity? yes