#rain.dreams

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i was in a full 2010s romcom in my dream last night lmao. i was in some sort of school and this boy started talking to me about the? idk i think it was swordfish figurines i had? i think they were supposed to be snails. anyway he said they were cool and i was cool and long story short i got a boyfriend. i was my middle school self btw and i couldn't believe someone actually liked me and i was vibing with this boy so much, he was sweet and funny. and then one day i was on the bus and the only seat left was next to my middle school bully and her pack of mean girls. so i sat there and tried to ignore them and i was texting my boyfriend and of course they all started reading over my shoulder. and then they all started laughing and i was like what. and they told me they had asked the guy to pretend to be interested in me to humiliate me. he never actually liked me, he was dared to talk to me and date me and how could i think anyone could actually like me etc. it was all them, they just hired this guy to mess with me for fun. so of course i was devastated and confronted my boyfriend when i got off the bus, and he admitted he'd started talking to me as a dare at first but he'd grown to genuinely like and even love me, and he begged me to forgive him etc. but of course i didn't. i told him never to talk to me again and i was soooo hurt like i remember crying so much in my dream because i genuinely liked and even loved him, and i'd trusted him. anyway he tried everything to get me to talk to him again, he'd send me cards and messages and try to get us into situations where we'd have to talk to each other like getting us partnered up for art class etc, but i always refused to engage. until one day sjonnie my beloved @castielsprostate was texting me and telling me about his day and how he was at a party for his friend ils who had just gotten his degree in like engineering or something. and sjonnie said oh btw your boy is here. and i was like my boy? and he said yeah your ex. he's here. and i was like tf is he doing there why is he in the netherlands hello?? and sjonnie was like idk apparently he has family here and he's been talking about how he hurt someone he cared about and he needed to get away and find himself or something. and idk i guess i was moved by that and i finally decided to drop my wall and reach out to the guy. so i answered his latest text, and he was so happy i was talking to him, and i asked him what he was doing in the netherlands and he said how do you know i'm there?? and i was like you're at a party with my friend. apparently you both know ils who's passed his engineer exam. and he was like omg ils brought us back together??? i'm gonna kiss him!! and yeah anyway we started talking again and i said i just wanted to be friends, i needed to get to know him and trust him again. so we did that but of course i still loved him, and we eventually ended up back together and lived happily ever after the end

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i think my brain should be studied i'm being fr

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ok couldn't find a post about it, maybe i never made one, so here's screenshots of the dream as described to isaac right after i woke up