#raysidk

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love is a choice not a feeling because every day i wake up and make the decision to love the female character that was written by misogynists but could have been so good and had so much potential

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to all of my dear ao3 authors: if you are insecure about the hits to kudos/bookmarks/comments ratio, you are interpreting them wrong. notice how on social media, you usually can't see how many people viewed your textpost? on ao3 you can, because it's not a silly shower thought. it's literature. you are writing a piece of art and publishing it; and if it got 300 hits and 50 kudos, that means 300 people bought your book and 50 of them bothered to go leave a review with a thumbs up on the shop's website. it doesn't matter that only 50 people did that: what matters is that 300 got so interested that they read your work, invested their time and energy into it, and, even if they didn't leave a kudos, even if they didn't get to the end, you probably managed to get your message across and a memory of your work is now in their head. isn't that the point of writing? leaving something in people's thoughts. you are doing a great job just by creating something, remember.

but to my dear ao3 readers: do leave kudos when you like something. it's the nice thing to do.

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need a second more agressive reblog button that has like flames and a screaming skeleton on it that makes the post i just reblogged explode into duplicates everywhere and get reblogged to ten more blogs minimum automatically

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me, a normal person, talking to myself: two weeks ago i picked a dark blue notebook for my age psychology notes because the color seemed like the most old-looking one to me. i thought that by using this association, i could make finding the correct notebook easier. what i didn't think about, however, was the complete lack of factual backup of my perception of the color; in fact, blue is one of the newest colors from a historical and linguistic point of view. the mistake i made will now bother me forever because my now color-coded notebooks are color coded in the wrong way. furthermore, it's not just the one notebook - if i had picked a different one for age psychology, this one would have had another subject in it, and my other choices would also be affected by this one; therefore, i can't just throw one notebook away and buy a more appropriate one. i will now be suffering for the entire semester, as i deserve after my foolishness

the raads-r test: 208

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ace attorney feeds you the most complicated horrible soaked-in-trauma family dynamics for three games in a row and then you have the wrights who are like "my daughter is my light:) i understand her and she shares her feelings with me" "yeah i love my dad:) he has been busy lately but he's always there for me:)" so you obviously have to be unwell about them for like. your entire life

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NEED a fic where he does attempt to learn piano on his own with some horribly old video guides and edgeworth ends up sitting down beside him with a long-suffering look on his face and goes "this is impossible to listen to, i took lessons as a child and i remember some basics, pay attention". dark-lit room and hand holding and phoenix character study and slow burn and everything. it must be out there somewhere right

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planning a comic page: terrible and painful, takes an unnecessarily long amount of time, you redo it 204 times

lineart: a blessing. two lines and you have a hand on the first try. expressions have never been easier

making coloring decisions: terrible and painful, takes an unnecessarily long amount of time, you redo it 204 times

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does anyone want to see my small and sinister jelly-like care bear

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turnabout trump feels like two divorcing parents trying to make their child take each parent's side and i will make an actual serious post about how calculated phoenix's and kristoph's influences on apollo are but for now this is a divorce situation and a divorce situation only

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nothing more terrifying than seeing this in narumitsu fanfic tags

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i did not just hear my professor say that lesbianism is a result of childhood sexual trauma. i did not just fucking hear that in a lecture. did i.

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had to stop doing everything i was doing because of how distressed i am about not being in the waters right now. can the ocean please take me i want to stand there and feel the embrace of the waves please please please

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all of you people are too busy worrying about being cringe. i just sent my philosophy professor a meme about revolutionary girl utena and he loved it. free yourself

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everyone is telling me i'm funny because they don't know about the chess joke in my notes app i wrote genuinely giggling

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looking at the drawings i made months ago with feelings of pure horror. like what the hell was this and how did the jump from february to april even happen

i'm glad it happened and i still see a lot of flaws in what i do now. but still. what. did playing through aa4 do this to me

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had a dream phoenix was in a very bad kidnapping situation and the kidnappers planned to kill everyone they kidnapped in their preferred way so he just asked them to set him on fire. the dream became incomprehensible for a moment and then the entire building was on fire but phoenix was very much okay. everything about every other character was canon-compliant except for miles edgeworth who was a vampire and had been to jail before (???)