#right back to the idea that they wont be sweet and affectionate without him earning it first

[qoldenskies]

Leo not having the scars he got from Kitsune means the animatic could be set during the crossover comic thingy

that wouldnt work because raph doesnt have his kraang scars (because he doesnt get taken in cc) its just a genuine mistake but also that's so funny im accepting that now

[lubdubsworld]

chapter 4

Jamie stands in front of the mirror staring at herself. She's tired and it's a little past one. But this was her Min Yoongi time. Over the past five years she's spent countless hours in front of the mirror staring at herself and wondering why she can't get him out of her mind once and for all. She's afraid that she's crazy. What she feels for him is so strong sometimes that she wonders if she's obsessed. But no, it isn't an obsession. An obsession stops you from functioning. It stunts your development and makes you less human . But Yoongi did just the opposite. He has made her want to be better.

She lightly traces the side of her waist. He hadn't noticed but his thumb had grazed the soft skin between her shirt and her skirt when they'd fallen like that. It was the lightest, barest of touches and yet she had felt it through the entirety of her body. it had made her nerves sing in delight and she shuts her eyes in despair. It isn't right because she's an idiot.

She should have spoken to him. All day today, she has spent avoiding him scared of making a fool of herself in front him. Scared of saying the wrong thing.

Scared of being rejected.

Sighing, she sits on the bed. She's lost weight now and it shows in the slimness of her waist and the slightly gaunt look on her face. She likes it. It makes her look a little less like a love struck teenager and more like a woman. She laughs at that, rather bitterly.She's no woman. She's still very much the fourteen year old who had fallen hopelessly in love with a captivating stranger.

She thinks of him jumping in to protect her and she cannot summon up any pleasure at the thought. He doesn't know it, but a part of her had died when the equipment had crashed into him.He'd been hurt and the pain in his face had sliced her deep. She bites her lips as she remembers how badly it had affected her. She had wanted to burst into tears right there. She ended up avoiding him for the rest of the show simply afraid that her facade would break and she'd do something stupid. Like fling herself into his arms.

She falls back against the bed and shuts her eyes. She should sleep. She wont be seeing him for another seven months at the least.

She should sleep a bit.

It was a long wait.

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"We're going to the JYP office today." Both Jimin and Taehyung look unnaturally innocent as they stand in front of Rapmon and Jin and Yoongi smiles a bit as he watches Rapmon's eyes narrow in suspicion. He thinks it's fair because Jimin and Taehyung are reckless on their own and put them together it was a recipe for disaster.

"You shouldn't be out on your own. Jin hyung and I have schedules so we can't go with you. What do you want to go there for anyway?"

"Lunch with GOT7." They say in unison and then look away in embarrassment. Yoongi hesitates. He's not sure he wants to interfere but he thinks the guys are fibbing. Jin however is a lot more perceptive than any of them.

"Is this about that MC from ASC?" He says sharply and both Jimin and Taehyung look guilty as hell. Yoongi tries to remember who they're talking about. They haven't been on ASC for a while now and he has trouble recalling the girl who'd been the MC. Jemmy?

Jamie?

"She's underage. If you get into trouble that'll be the end of our group." Rapmon says bluntly and they immediately jump up to defend themselves. Yoongi is busy trying to recover from the shock that Jimin and Taehyung were fighting over the same girl. It's beyond ridiculous. They have the most fangirls after Jung Kook and really could have any idol they want. He remembers her vaguely, he supposes. He'd been disturbed by her flippant treatment of him but then his commitments had pushed her out of his mind. Now, thinking back he can't remember much either.

"We'll be good." Taehyung says and Yoongi rolls his eyes.They were devils, the pair of them. He tries to catch Jin's eye , tell him to not trust the little troublemakers.

"Alright. But be back before four. We need to go over the choreo." Jin says sternly.

"You guys do. Not us." Taehyung grins and earns himself a whack from the leader.

The moment the two disappear into their room, Jin looks at Yoongi with a pleading look on his face. Oh, hell no.

He knows what's coming and he wants to die. He cannot babysit the two most hyperactive, hormonal creatures on the planet today. He just cannot. He has about twenty hours of sleep to catch up on.

"Come on Yoongi-yah. You know I can't go with them. Just for a while . You like JB don't you? You can spend time with him and just keep an eyes on those two. Like I said, she's underage." Jin says nervously and he sighs in defeat. He's used to doing things he hates but this was just a bit too much. Yoongi is anti-social. He hates meeting people and Jackson is the kind of person he avoids like a plague because he's just too flippantly happy .

Yoongi can't believe the things he ends up doing for his bandmates.

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He wants to kill someone.

Yoongi grits his teeth and smiles listlessly at the boys around him . They're friendly and funny, even but he's just tired and angry. Jimin and Taehyung are off to his side, flanking a rather flustered looking Jamie Park who keeps sneaking glances at Yoongi. She looks like she wants to be rescued but Yoongi is all out of Prince Charming coupons. He wants to be rescued just as much, if not more, as her.

She laughs drily at something V says and Yoongi wonders what .

Then she turns to him.

"What about you, Yoongi...ssi.?" She says with a smile.

He hesitates because a.) he has no idea what she's talking about and b.) she calls everyone oppa except for him.

He's saved the trouble of replying when Jimin distracts her with some other question and she glances at him a couple of times.

He feels curious and a bit surprised. Sure , women did stare at him, a lot, but Jamie was ...so far removed from his idea of a woman. She's funny, vibrant and chirpy. Outspoken and rather reckless with her words. He's not sure he's ever met someone quite like her.

He's not particularly good with the female sex, even though he's twenty three. He's got no time for relationships and well, he knows that his personal baggage is a bit too much for one of these idol girls to tolerate.

He's not a romantic lover. He's just..him. He wants to get married someday, of course but he hopes it will be to a mature young woman who can understand his need for space. He's not affectionate by nature and he doubts he can be sweet to save his life. He wants a girl who can accept him for what he is.

Who wouldn't be mad when he spends days on end holed up in his studio. Or napping on the couch.

He smiles at her when she glances at him again and fully expects her to blush away like the last time.

But she doesn't.

Instead she smiles at him , her lips quirking a bit in some secret amusement that he finds enchanting. She lights up the space around her, he thinks, shaking his head in amusement.V leans in a bit close and he looks at the younger boy's face for the first time. Jin's warning to make sure he doesn't get carried away flashes through his head.

He thinks it's too late .

Kim Taehyung looks smitten. Yoongi thinks they look rather good together . Sure, V was a bit insane but it was a good kind of insane. An entertaining insanity. Jimin on the other hand was glaring at Taehyung like he was plotting murder. Of the two, V invariably would have the better chance. Simply because Jimin was a bit too... what?

Yoongi shook his head in defeat. He's not fond of analyzing his dongsaeng's love lives. They were both welcome to fight over the girl, as far as he's concerned. He just wants to go home.

When they bid goodbye to GOT7 , Yoongi finds himself face to face with Jamie Park.

"Can I..call you oppa?" She says stiltedly and he wonders if she'd asked the rest of his band mates the question. He somehow doubts it. He wonders why she thinks she needs his permission. Everyone calls him oppa. Fangirls, idol groups .

"Of course. " He smiles and her eyes flicker to his mouth for a fraction of a second. He feels uncomfortable all of a sudden and makes to move away but she grabs his hand.

The touch sends a shockwave of awareness through his body and he goes still . She looks like she's felt it too because she drops it like it's a live wire.

"I never thanked you for ..helping me that day." She says awkwardly and he needs a moment just to get his head back on straight. His body is tingling and his head is starting to ache.

"Oh..  don't worry about it. I would've done it for anyone. Don't mention it again. " he says without thinking.

It's quite possibly the rudest thing he's ever said to a girl. She looks taken aback and flushes and he wants to kick himself because...really? And more importantly his statement isn't true at all. Yoongi isn't like Rapmon. He doesn't carelessly throw his body in front of things for anyone.   In fact, if he'd stopped to think the other time, he probably wouldn't have done it for her either. But she was making him feel uncomfortable and he wants to end this conversation and leave.

"Of course. I.. Of course. But thank you, anyway." She bows hesitantly and there's an edge of hurt in her gaze as she turns away.

And he realizes that he's an idiot who shouldn't be let within a mile of pretty young girls with kind smiles.

Groaning to himself he leaves with his band mates.

Hopefully, he wouldn't have to run into her again .

[ixnova]

nsfw about my oc and a friends oc, posting here so he can read it easily

The door to the hotel room swung open as the pair of men half stumbled in, making sure the door was closed behind them before continuing. They smiled at each other, quickly stealing a kiss, and then falling into another affectionate session. The taller of the two pulled back, leaning against the door, slipping slightly and smirking back at the caramel skinned man who also was eying him. He chuckled. "I can't believe they let you walk out with that." He stated, referencing the half full wine bottle in the albino's hands. "Well we payed for it, so why not?" The albino replied with a chuckle, walking over to the bed and nightstand now, placing the bottle down. "Good thing you decided to walk to dinner though, and get a cab back." "Dinner was good, but I had a feeling you'd go over on the wine, tonight." The dark skinned man replied, following the other to the bed. "Tonight's a special night... I think I'm allowed to enjoy myself a bit more than usual." The albino laughed. "Besides, Slade, even you're a bit tipsy tonight." "Heh, yeah I am... as you said, tonight is a special night." Slade replied, crossing over to the albino's side of the room. "Don't get used to it though, this wont happen too often, if at all again." "Aw, c'mon... you're cute like this." The albino stated, bringing a hand up to take Slade by the cheek. "Not as cute as you are all the time, Xavior." Slade shot back, placing his own hand over Xavior's. "I love you." "...I love you too." Xavior replied, tone going softer and pulling back now, sitting on the side of the bed. "God, is that the time?" "Well we were one of the last ones to leave." Slade explained how late it was. "But, it's still not even midnight, yet." "No, its not... today just seemed so busy and long." Xavior replied. "It seems like ages ago now since we stood together and..." Xavior trailed off, smiling, his hand falling to clasp over a new golden band around his ring finger. "I wish it lasted longer." Slade smiled, sitting down with Xavior now on the bedside. "I would relieve those hours constantly if I could." "They were... pretty great hours..." "Yeah, they were."

"So what now?" Xavior questioned, looking back at Slade. "Where do we go from here?" "What do you mean?" Slade questioned. "I mean, what's our new plans? Our end goal was marriage, now that we reached it... what's next?" "Life, I guess." Slade shrugged. "We're officially sharing it with each other now." "Hmm... that's true." Xavior chuckled slightly. "I guess there is some things to focus on, such as legally listing each other as spouses, merging bank accounts, sharing other stuff, not to mention getting a legal name change." "We do gotta do that, don't we? Unless you don't want to, cause we can still be married under different names." Slade replied. "I can live happily being Dick LeFléchè." "Seriously?" Xavior looked at Slade lop sidedly. "You seriously think Dick LeFléchè sounds better than Xavior Grayson?" "I-I mean... you..." Slade started to blush slightly. "You were plannin' on taking my name this whole time?" "I've been planning on it since you first proposed to me... excited about it even. It was one of the many things on my mind today that I was looking forward to... I wanted to be known as Xavior Grayson, because I'm yours now, Dick." Slade blushed more, looking away and rubbing the back of his neck. "Xavior..." "I mean... if you don't want to then-" "No! No..." Slade chuckled slightly. "No. I want to, of course I want to. I'd love to share my name with you." "Good... I'm glad." Xavior responded, placing his hand over Slade's hand that rested on the bed. "This is us now, our life... we're officially stuck together."

"I wouldn't want to be stuck with anyone else but you." Slade said, taking Xavior's hand now and holding it. "You're the worst, best thing to ever happen to me." Xavior replied, looking back into Slade's eyes, but then then suddenly sighing and breaking away again. "I just... I just hope I'm able to pull my weight in all of this..." "...Xavior?" Slade questioned his statement. "...Y'know I have issues... You know what I can get like... I'm difficult sometimes, I won't lie..." Xavior started to explain himself, shifting and looking down now, gently pushing back a few stray stands of hair out of his face. "I can be annoying, and hard to care for... I can get in the way at times and some days I'm just completely useless..." "Hey, don't get on like that... don't even think about it. Tonight's not about that." Slade replied, taking Xavior's head and forcing him to look back up at him. "Tonight is about us. And I don't care about all those things Xavior, I'll deal with them, because all those thing are a part of what makes you, you, and I love all of them. I vowed today that I would stand by your side through all of that, and that's exactly what I'm going to do." Xavior smiled at Slade, letting out a small laugh. "God, I don't deserve someone as good as you." Xavior said. "But I'm lucky to have you." "Damn right you are." Slade smirked and pushed in for a well-earned kiss.

Xavior pulled back again, his arms now wrapped around Slade's neck, pulling him foward with his weight. "Hmmn, so, where do we go from here?" "...I can think of a few ideas..." Slade replied, reaching forward and grabbing at the buttons  that kept Xavior's white jacket closed. "Oh really?" Xavior questioned. "Care to elaborate on some of those ideas?" He gently pulled at Slade's tie in response. "I can show you..." Slade stated, pushing the Jacket off and allowing Xavior to take his tie. Slade shoved off his own black jacket and removed Xavior's tie for him as well, then starting to work on the buttons of his dress shirt. "I think I like where this is going already..." Xavior cooed, reaching up and running his fingers through Slade's messy hair. "C'mere." The pair met for another kiss, parting once more afterwards. Slade leaned in close to the Albino's ear, hot breath falling on his neck as he whispered a few words of sweet nothings followed by the opening of Xavior's shirt and exposer of his neck. Slade quickly shifted and latched onto the section of skin between Xavior's neck and collar bone, licking and then sucking.

Xavior's breath hitches as his heart rate sped up. That was one of his sweet spots and it was near impossible to not react to it. He let out a soft sigh as he pulled Slade down onto him fully now, his hands starting to explore the rest of Slade's body now as well. Before things got too heated, though, Slade pulled back. He had a look of worry on his face as he looked back down at Xavior, trying to move away slightly. "I-I'm sorry I-" "Dick?" Xavior questioned him. "Something wrong?" "I shouldn't be... Doing this to you, not now." "I'm not... following." Xavior gave Slade a confused look. "I can't... I want to fuck you right now but I can't."  Slade replied a bit disappointed sounding. "Why can't you?" Xavior continued to question Slade, trying to understand why. "It's not like we need a condom or anything, Christ, we haven't used one of those since way back when-" "It's not about that." Slade stated. "Well then, what is it? No Lube? Check the nightstand, Hotels usually stock up on-" "It's not that either!" "Well then, what is it!?" "You're drunk! I'm drunk! We've been drinking. You're not in your right mindset... I can't go down on you without your full consent, I don't want to-" Slade started to freak out a little, before Xavior reached a hand up and cupped his cheek. "Fuck, you really are something else... first of all we're not drunk, far from it, just a bit tipsy cause the alcohol's in our systems, we'll both remember this night tomorrow 100%, so we're not drunk." Xavior started to lay down the truths for Slade. "While consent is important, yes, I'm not impaired enough for my consent to be mistaken, nor are you impaired enough to not know the difference." "Yeah, but what if I-" "No buts... Slade, there's a different set of rules around these things when it involves a long term partner, and they change even more when it's a lifelong lover." Xavior continued. "I've had sex with you more than once when sober, I enjoy having sex with you, and I have never regretted it. Even if I was smashed out, and woke up the next day and found out we had sex the other night I couldn't remember... my reaction would be along the lines of "Nice." He paused. "Dick, we're adults, we're fucking married now, committed... a little bit of wine never hurt anyone, and I think it's safe to say at this point we're allowed to have a little bit of fun with each other without it being wrong or harmful." "...Damn, you do make a good point, don't you?" Slade sighed, "But what if I hurt you, Xavior?" "You're not going to hurt me, and you know that." Xavior stated. "You won't allow yourself to do that."

Slade hesitated for another moment, before deciding Xavior was right, and also the fact he couldn't stand this position anymore. He shifted again, moving off of Xavior, smiling at him. Xavior smiled back, knowing that things were cleared up and now they could have fun. Xavior sat up now and helped Slade undress, both of their hands desperately searching for the other. Clothes were starting to be tossed carelessly onto the floor in piles as they removed each piece. The pants were quick as well and now the fun pat was dealing with their underwear. Slade pushed Xavior back down onto the mattress, their bare skin rubbing against the other's as thye shifted to a position. Slade pulled Xavior in for a kiss as he curved and ran his hand down Xavior's thigh, slowly caressing it and snaking his hand up to rest on the waistband of the purple boxers. Those were something that always did surprise Slade, turns out Xavior hated briefs, and only wore them when he absolutely had to, opposed to Slade for normally wore them and really didn't care for boxers himself. The underwear didn't matter much now though, as it would soon be coming off. Xavior's heart picked up speed again as Slade caressed his body. It was already twice as fast as it started out, and Xavior could tell by slade's actions that he was getting excited as well. Xavior wanted to get things moving, so he reached his hand back as far as he could, locating slade's waistband and slipping a hand in under it. He took the hint.

Slade drew his tongue down Xavior's neck and over his chest, stopping at the nipples to give them some attention. This got a reaction out of Xavior who let out a sharp, surprised gasp and sigh at the same time. It felt good to him. Pretty much every touch could always get some sort of reaction out of Xavior, he was pretty sensitive... and Slade loved it. He continued to leave a trail of kisses down Xavior's torso as he moved his hands and took hold of the elastic of the boxers. He pulled them down, kissing in between Xavior's thighs as he went, causing the albino to hitch his breath, and squirm slightly with sensations. Slade pulled the underwear off completely and threw them aside with the rest of the clothes pile. Xavior was completely open to him, and in full bloom. Xavior blushed looking back up at slade, who loomed over his body and smiled hungrily."Can... can you just get on with it?" He asked, sounding slightly desperate in his tone. "Oh, eager are we?" Slade smirked, placing his hand back against Xavior's cheek. "Well, this is a special night, so I suppose I can spoil you, jus this once." "Please do." Xavior replied back. "As I said, I'm yours now." "I know." Slade him self started to feel the tension building as he shifted again to take off his own underwear, again throwing them aside. He took Xavior's advice and leaned across him to get at the drawer of the night stand. Sure enough, sitting right there in drawer, a complimentary bottle of lube. "Heh, I told you." Xavior said, watching as Slade sat up more, and popped the top on the bottle. "You did." Slade replied, squeezing the contents out onto his hand and coating his first few fingers with it. "Ready?"

"Mmn." Xavior felt himself twitch slightly as he shifted to give Slade a better angle. Slade moved closer and took Xavior by the hips, pulling him up and sitting his bottom into his lap as he slowly ran his fingers around the outside of Xavior's entrance, spreading the lube around before sticking a single finger in, then puling back out, then going in again. "Anghh..." This triggered Xavior's first real response of the night. He moaned slightly as Slade continued to work his fingers in and coat Xavior with the cold contents, causing him to shiver slightly at first. "That's it... relax..." Slade stated, watching as Xavior title his head to the side, laying back and allowing Slade to work on him. "Nice and easy..." He continued to massage his way in further. "I..I'm ready." Xavior announced after about two minutes f these actions, hands covering his face slightly trying to hide the amount of blushing he was doing. "Alright, hold on..." Slade replied, grabbing the bottle again and taking his hands away. He put even more of the lube into his hand now, bringing it down to himself and spreading it over his shaft. He made sure to use a lot and coat them well, his previous worries popping up, and he wanted to make sure he didn't hurt his white jewel. After a few more strokes, aiding himself to get more stiff, he was ready too. He shifted, moving Xaviors legs apart as he sat between them. He hoisted his body up, kneeling now over Xavior, as he looked down and tried to line himself up with Xavior's rectum. He was still slow and careful about everything, gently rubbing the outside with the tip before pushing in slightly, waiting for Xavior to respond.

"Ah-" Xavior gasped again, arms gripping to the bed sheets a little bit as he prepared himself for entry. Hearing no major denials, Slade pushed on, edging himself a little deeper, more moans and reactions coming out of Xavior each time. Truth be told Xavior was extremely loud during intercourse, he just couldn't help it, it was the way he was. Being so senstive and vocal mixed well for someone like Slade, given the fact he bloody loved to hear Xavior's voice during times like this. It could help him figure out of it was going well or not, if he was doing something wrong... or if Xavior was fucking loving it as much as he was. "...Slade..." Xavior quivered slightly, gasping his name and wrapping arms around Slade's neck. "Shh..." Slade hushed him, bringing arms up around Xavior's back and supporting him better as he finally made his last push in. "Oooh~!" Xavior groaned, as Slade pushed in and landed up against his inner walls. It only hurt for a second, but Slade stopped moving and let Xavior adjust himself before continuing. "How's that?" Slade asked, leaned in close to Xavior's ear. "You doing alright, love?" "Mnnmn." Xavior vocalized, pulling Slade for a kiss once again. Slade pulled back and started to move now, holding Xavior tightly as he pushed in and out of him. It was slow at first, with only the odd moan and feel good reaction here and there, but as Slade picked up speed, that quickly changed. It wasn't long before Xavior was clinging to him, grabbing at him, and unable to keep his mouth shut. Slade just felt so good to him. He wanted to moan his name as loud as he could, arching up against Slade's body, a growing stiffy between them. Slade felt good about it too, he enjoyed getting it on with Xavior, eating up his screams between kisses. "S-Slade... Slaaade!" Xavior whimpered, nails uncontrollably digging into Slade's back as Slade continued to pound into him. Slade made sure to finish leaving his mark on the Albino's neck region, which e'd already done five other times, before responding to the Albino. "mmmn... what is it?" "Slade, I'm g-gonna... gon- AaaaahHHHHhhmmmnft~" Xavior was pushed over his limit and that scream was all it took for Slade to go off as well, diving in and eating up that wonderful sound. The both of them switching and feeling sparks as they built up and slowly came down off of a high, panting heavily. Slade pulled out with Xavior still clinging to him, trying to catch his breath and face buried in Slade's neck. Slade softly chuckled as he sighed contently, reaching over for the bedsheets to wrap them both up in. He shifted to place Xavior on the pillow beside him now, detaching his clinginess for now. He looked at Xavior, loving the cute look he got from seeing Xavior all flustered and red faced like that. "Id say you enjoyed yourself." "Y-yeah-" Xavior huffed. "God, I love you." "I love you too... you're wonderful." Slade smiled, moving to get his arm around Xavior and let Xavior cuddle into his chest. "...Fuck, I love you..." Xavior repeated, but now his tone was starting to change. "I know, you already said that..." "I know I just..." Xavior's voice hitched, he tried his hardest to hide his face from Slade. Slade caught on instantly that something wasn't right, so he sat up again, forcing Xavior to sit up as well and look at him. "H-hey, what's wrong? Oh god, don't tell me I hurt ya.." "No... no I'm f-fine I just..." Xavior covered his mouth with his hand, unable to stop some tears from flowing. "J-just what? Xavior what's wrong." "Nothing... nothing's wrong... everything is just... p-perfect!" Xavior exclaimed, looking back at Slade. "Reality is just hitting me." "Why is it doing that?" Slade questioned. "Are you sure you're okay..." "Dick I just...I just h-had sex with my HUSBAND... you're my husband, Dick... We're married, we're living life together.. .we're here on our goddamn honey moon... we're a part of each other now..." Xavior smiled through his tears. "I lived a shitty life, came to mann co expecting a shitty life of crime, told myself I wasn't ever going to be... accepted by anyone.. wanted by anyone... told myself I didn't matter in the world... and then you came along and... Go I owe you much Slade... You cared about me, showed me so many things I needed to see, told me so many things I needed to hear... I knew you were the one for me that night you carried me in your arms to the emerncy because I tried to kill myself and you wouldn't allow it... You saved me that night in more ways than one...I just... Thank you..." "B-but why the hell are you crying?" Slade asked. "I'm happy, Dick... I'm happy and I don't know how to handle it honestly cause its just so rare for me to feel this way but... you've made me feel this way... you've made me the happiest man on earth tonight... and I'll never forget that..."

"Aw hell, c'mere..." Slade pulled Xavior into a tight hug, smiling now himself, feeling the same feelings Xavior was feeling... happiness. "I owe you alot of things too, y'konw. You changed my life for the better... I'm happy to be with you tonight, or any night for that matter. The time I'm at my best is when I have you by my side or in my arms... I love so much Xavior, more than I think you'll ever know..." "Oh I know..." Xavior replied. "Trust me, I know... I love you too." "I'm glad we're on the same page." Slade stated, running a hand past Xavior's eye to wipe his tears away. "Now, stop crying, or don't, you're still cute either way. You'll be even cuter with some sleep too..." Xavior chuckled, nuzzling up against Slade. "Goodnight..." They kissed once more. "Goodnight." Slade Replied, more than happy to look forward to spending the rest of his nights like this for the rest of his life.