#robbyBarnes

[robbybarnes]

~DUSKWOOD~MEME~

Jessy: hey Dan, I'm cold.

Dan: oh baby, come in my arms.

Phil sees that and smirked approaching MC.

Phil: Hey MC, i'm a little cold too.

MC: oh Phil-

Jake appeared behind Phil holding a petrol can and a lighter.

Jake: Say no more.

[artic-willow]

Duskwood AU "Criminal On The Loose."

Chapter 1 (M) "Feelings."

Taglist: @jakelogic @crow-chaos @i-desire-jake @jakeismylover @digital-corruption @pennyl4n3 @saddah-mo @booklover-01040 @rw47vr-key7vr @red-writes-stuff @layanasstories @zmayadw @hacked-by-jake @spookycolorpeanut @leverageduskwood @lyricsofravensong @juan-nonetheway @robbybarnes @lois-carroline @captainwanderlust78 @jake01040-duskwood @silentblogsstuff @youngphilosophertragedy @slow-hazel @sasnayaandra  @lem-onchan  @futaba-01040 @duskwood-fandom @aisling-things @oceanipebble @withjake-blog @duskyducky @roxiuuu @duskwoodx @miraculous-duskwood-girl @riaduskwood @nala-raines @lyon-amore @justubi @renneiscent

!TW: Bad words, Medical drugs/Drugs and mention of Self-Harm (Flashback)!

*Jake’s POV*

I'm in the car, with a cigarette in my hand, parked in a parking lot. Disgusting.

I'm dirty, my mouth is just sticky from the smoke. Adorable. My hoodie is dirty with smoke residue. Disgusting. My mind cannot forget about my past. Again, disgusting.

I feel like one of my fathers, who takes drugs until he has lost all consciousness and sees reality slip out of his sight. Because he is, he has spent his life smoking as if it is the only escape and a band-aid from all pain.

...That's it, sort of. In fact you know what it does, the dangers of only consuming one cigarette.

But, I just do it. Why? Just two words, life sucks.

No, not always. Only those who see life as lousy live it as lousy. And because of that, I don't have a good life. Because I passed it only as if I were the spectator.

Yet when I was a little boy I couldn't control my emotions, so I couldn't do anything other than impose pain on myself. Scratching until I felt a bittersweet in my mouth. 'A quick remedy' in fact.

Poor little boy, emotions hurt, huh? This is why I have learned to ignore them, not to take them into consideration. If I do, will I suffer? Yes, as always. I can't let emotions win. Yet emotions hurt so much but they are indispensable, because if you don't listen to them, everyone automatically considers you a robot. Without emotions and to be thrown away.

Why does no one understand why I don't listen to my emotions? Easy. Hating a child is automatically being emotionless.

Yet that little girl is the result of an infidelity, the mother and father confirmed it. As my parents did more than once.

Even though my emotions tell me to get close to her, it looks like that little girl is pointing a gun in my forehead.

Disgusting.

She just has to be alone from me.

Without thinking I smoke again, now the smoke comes out of the window while I am in a state of 'Your wound is healed, for now!'.

From just one breath, they become five and so on.

I can only do one thing, hold a piece of paper in my fingers, not a normal piece of paper, a letter.

Jessy gave it to me. Best friend of that bitch.

As soon as I read and reread the last line, I just wanted to throw up from all the emotions I had in my body:

—

Dear Jake,

I wanted to end it, I already had the pills in my hand in my room. I just wanted to forget the pain, but it seemed too much to ask. Still, I was in front of the bar.

Needless to say, to forget the pain, I turned into a doll for him. He could bite me, he could slap me, I didn't care. It was nice.

And when it's done...It's done. Perfect, thanks phil! We will not see each other again, because I am no longer anything to him but only a sex toy...But that's okay! Bye!

But...Oops, forget about the protections.

We're running away from the government, needless to say they found out about me being pregnant. I had feelings for Jessy, but oops she told the group. Answer? Only for my protection and baby's.

And phil? Straight to jail, the group served him to the police on a silver platter. He was just a traitor to them.

But...Now I don't have a husband and a baby in my arms. I gave birth in very bad conditions. I give birth on the ground and almost die.

She's a little girl, I call her Azure. Yet I don't want her.

To recap...I have a little girl in my arms that I don't want, the hypothetical father is in prison, ‘my’ group and I are wanted all over Duskwood and at the moment we manage in a Bunker.

What should I do? Obviously run away and leave the child to the group. I spent my whole life running away from problems, like you. I've spent my entire life with a classic: 'Oops.' Just like you.

Yet I can't raise my finger at you, because you were in prison and maybe even dead.

So, we are tied. Traitor. :)

- Summer

—

I just wished the emotions at that moment hadn't left me, worse than believing what I read.

What the fuck?

She can't really have said that... 'All a misunderstanding' like she seems to be saying this, or like she is spitting in my face that everything she is doing is justified because I did it too when we knew each other as children.

No, she is not a child anymore. Grow up arrogant bitch.

Yet why does she seem to not give a shit but act like a goddamn selfish person?

I literally slide off the seat, I only feel my dry mouth with the letter between my fingers.

Damn it.

Although it is pitch dark, I see a silhouette in the shadows.

Jessy?

I see Jessy climb up and open the car door.

Wait...How long have I been here?

-"Jake! It's full of smoke in here!" She exclaims as she coughs.

He steps aside, just to let the smoke out.

I didn't know what to do. I bow a little and rub my eyes without thinking.

-"What were we doing before?" I asked. Fuck how stupid I am.

She frowns. -"Excuse me? We've been here for hours!" She gets in the car and with a bang closes the door. -"We are on a mission!"

-"Oh. Right." Respond by looking at her, although I don't have a mirror with me I can imagine my gaze darkening.

She looks at me confused, -"What happened?"

-"Is irrelevant." I answer.

-"Jake." She begins, in a slightly sarcastic voice. "I don't know you well, but you understand that something is wrong."

I sigh.

I see with the thing in the eye her looking at the paper between my fingers, I was so concentrated that I have completely forgotten about the paper.

Quickly, she takes the paper.

-"Jessica!" I exclaim and try to snatch it from her hands.

Despite this, I somehow manage to pick up the sheet. We looked like two children.

-"What is that??" She faces the letter with a lot of curiosity.

-"A letter, but it's none of your business." I rolled my eyes.

-"It's not from..." She slowly pulls away from my arm. -"...About Summer?"

I look at the void. -"Yes."

She doesn't say anything. -"I left you the letter..." She begins, "I was hoping you wouldn't find out."

-"What?" I raised my voice.

She looks up, completely scared. She gets defensive and mumbles something. -"Wait! She betrayed me too!"

- "This does not mean that you have to make me unaware of everything!" My hand slowly turns into a fist.

-”I’m sorry! But I thought you might want to look for her...You were on time!" She tries to justify herself, as if the light is now the dark.

-"Much worse!" Growl, how the fuck does this bitch afford?

I approach with a stiff fist, she takes my sweatshirt with one hand and squeezes it. I sharpen my eyebrows and she seems to be asking for mercy only with her eyes.

-”Jake! Stop! She never loved you!” What she says is a fucking sword of truth in my heart, fuck it.

As soon as she says those words, my heart punches itself. It is frustrating, it is true but above all I have never had hope with her and Jessy knows it.

I sit on the half-broken seat, a tear falls from my eye and I cover my face with my hands like a hedgehog.

-”What…What did I do wrong…She never loved me even if I wanted her heart too much…I did a lot for her…?” My voice is completely broken, like a glass jar. It echoes throughout the car even if it is extremely low.

Jessy never seems to have seen a boy cry, my dad would be disappointed in me. I look at her, her pale green eyes lightning mine.

She hugs me.

-"I'm sorry, Jake." She whispers in my ear and squeezes her arms in my neck.

I tried, tried a lot but my efforts were in vain. She never loved me, and she didn't hide it as she hid on her prairie when we were little.

I close my eyes, my throat is completely dry but I still try to let go of the stress.

As I always did when I was adolescent, but I cut myself and sometimes I still use it...I did it because the stress was deadly and I couldn't deal with it. Maybe I'm happy to be an adult, or maybe not.

Even though I am now known as a criminal, with a gun in his hand and a heart at the bottom of his body. I accept destiny, like a child without parents in a street...Without a home and a destination, but maybe the destination I want to reach comes from my heart.

The love that has not been returned, and never will.

[shadowoftheforce]

10 Characters, 10 Fandoms, 10 Tags

I got tagged by @rajalagang 😘 This was harder than I first thought!

The blorbos from the shows:

Zhou Zishu - Word of Honor

Eddie Diaz - 911

Kaz Brekker - Six of Crows

Obi Wan Kenobi - Star Wars

Christina Yang - Grey's Anatomy

Charles "Trip" Tucker III - Star Trek: Enterprise

Jung Jae-Heon - Sweet Home

Shen Wei - Guardian

Catherine Morland - Northanger Abbey

Alec Lightwood - Shadowhunters

I tag some of the lovelies I always see around: @looking4dreams @ladymusashi @hysieme @moriquendis @thelovabletigress @wanderingfandoms @robbybarnes

[hacked-by-jake]

Hiiiii dear ^^

Have you ever seen a place so beautiful it take your breath away? (Like a mountain,sea or city landscape?)

Have a great day :)

Hey, lovely! Nice to see you! <3

Yeah, actually, I can think of two moments.

The first one was actually a huge lake, I’ve never seen such a big lake before, and it was beautiful. It really looked like a location in a fantasy movie and the next moment a fairy comes and offers me tea and cookies, so it looked like. It was breathtaking.

And moment two is when I stood in front of Cologne Cathedral for the first time at night. It also took my breath away, it was so impressive and beautiful, I loved it.

Not my picture

Thank you so much for your questions! I hope you will have a wonderful day/evening/night! Take care of yourself and stay healthy! 💚🌹🎭

Send me "have you evers" and I'm gonna answer with yes or no

[rw47vr-key]

Hello dear 😊❤️ how are you?

Maybe I'm a little out of the box,but I prefer Phil to Jake. I think I would take him to one of my special places: for example to the sea (a small bay that forms only at low tide),in the mountains (between a lake and a frozen river for ice skating) or on an excursion to the woods (outing and fishing). I like things like this, but also a nice place with background music and comfortable sofas ^^ I'd agree to go out with Phil just to get to know him,nothing serious...a good friend is hard to find and,of course,I'd leave our fate to destiny. If it is meant to be!

Have a wonderful day 😊❤️

Hello dear!! @robbybarnes ☺️💜

I'm good , thank you for asking💜 How are you doing?🙂 And I really hope you've managed to defeat your cold👊😉

Let's get in😉

No!, you're not out of box, he is our Mr.Aurora of duskwood right?🤭And you may not be the only one who prefers him😌💜

Ah! I love your sweet preferred spots!!✨A lovely natural adventure covered by green and blue!😌💚💙

I know this gif is somewhat different from your description, sorry D:

And listening to music in a calm place and comfortable sofa sharing the same earphones😌🎧(does it make sense,sorry I'm bad at English 😅)

Phil will totally a new experience. Good for him😌👍

Enjoy your date dear!!😉

Thank you for sharing your thoughts dear! And you too have a great day/eve/night!!❤️

[yuvon-augold79]

Thanks for tagging me, @noface8834 and @robbybarnes! Making a separate post because the other was a bit long XD

I was asked to put my three favorite songs at the moment, so here ya go.

1. Sleepless Lullaby  (This one probably shouldn’t surprise anyone who’s hung around my blog long enough XD)

2. To The Ark

3. Everything’s Alright

[hacked-by-nymos]

[digital-corruption]

MC: Hey guys! I finished my painting!

Image uploaded.

Jessy: ...

Richy: ...

Lilly: ...

Cleo: ...

Hannah: ...

MC: OMG! You guys! Say something!

Jessy: Um, MC, I thought it was a paint-by-number painting? 🤔

MC: Is it that bad? 😳

Cleo: No, no... it's just... how do I put it?

Richy: You went a bit outside the lines, don't you think? 😅

MC: Oh, yeah... I was feeling a little creative and I don't know, I guess I just got so caught up!

Jessy: A little? 🤭

Jake: I think it looks good! :)

Dan: Of course you would 😒

To view the image, click the link below.

Lilly: Well I think it's very... what's the word I'm looking for?

Hannah: Inspired?

Lilly: That's the one! Inspired!

A/N: Painting by @robbybarnes, image edited by yours truly! Inspired by Robby's dedication to paint-by-numbers. 🤭

[everything-nothing-black-hole]

Hey jake ! Can you guess me ?

If not then it's okay :)

Love youuuuuuuuu

Your dear -

;)

Hello.

I'm going to try my best to guess who are you.

But please, dont be upset if i'll guess wrong.

@robbybarnes

I'm very sorry if its not you .

Please dont be afraid to give me more clues dear.

[zusy-hunter]

Thank you so much for tagging @robbybarnes, @duskwood-disco, @justubi and @zmayadw, sorry for beeing so late, it's been a tough weekend. But I didn’t want to take it away from me yet to answer :)

Since I'm so late now, I don't tag anyone, but it was still a lot of fun

[robbybarnes]

~Duskwood~Memes~

MC and Lilly wandering around the streets of Duskwood.

Lilly: I give up. How can we possibly find Jake when even the Government is still looking for him?

MC: *pouting with her arms crossed*

Lilly: *rolled her eyes* okay FINE! You can try that but it's not going to work...he's not a dog.

MC: *started to wistle as if she was calling a pet* Jake! Come to mommy boy! Come, come!

Lilly: *facepalming herself* oh god...this is so-

Jake: *peeking from the corner of a near building*

MC: *grinning to Lilly and waving a dumpling for Jake* Good boy Jake.

[artic-willow]

Duskwood AU "Criminal On The Loose."

Chapter 1 (L) "Crying won't protect me."

Taglist: @crow-chaos @i-desire-jake @digital-corruption @pennyl4n3 @saddah-mo @booklover-01040 @rw47vr-key @red-writes-stuff @layanasstories @zmayadw @hacked-by-jake @spookycolorpeanut @leverageduskwood @lyricsofravensong @juan-nonetheway @robbybarnes @lois-carroline @captainwanderlust78 @jakey-girl01040 @silentblogsstuff @char-lotta @youngphilosophertraged @slow-hazel  @sasnayaandra  @lem-onchan @futaba-queen @duskwood-fandom @aisling-things @oceanipebble @withjake-blog @duskydusky @roxiuuu @duskwoodx @miraculous-duskwood-girl @riaduskwood @nala-raines @lyon-amore @mrujaa @aroacersonist @03patrickstar

Genre: Sad, angst

Character(s): Jake, Dan, Azure, Nuna and Charlie.

!TW: BAD WORDS!

*Azure’s POV*

As soon as I no longer felt that terrifying cold of the handcuffs, it felt like a freedom I could never breathe again.

-"Dan still looks angry, we better stay away from him." Charlie sighs, probably because he can't stand it when Dan is angry either. Perhaps because many times Dan has been angry with him and he seems to have not yet dozed off the pain.

-"I agree." Nuna looks down, she too gets very scared when Dan is angry.

I can not blame them, Dan is like the devil and we are the victims. Still, we are in the hands of the devil but we have to stay there.

Yet it seems that the goosebumps have not gone...Who comes on a mission?

-"Who comes on a mission?" I ask, like some mucus in my throat. I couldn't help it, what if Jake comes?

-"Ehm...All of the group." Charlie helps me to get up.

I feel the nails in my back, but not just for the pain of getting up, but for the people who will come on this mission.

Jake scares me, but it almost feels like I have to be close to him... It's like he's the master and I'm the helpless puppy who has to stay close to its master if it doesn't want to get lost.

It's for the weak.

But...He hates me. And it's as if he throws me into freezing water.

It's not my fault...It's not my fault...But…What If it is?

—

It's lunch time. 

You should never go on a mission on an empty stomach if you don't want to pass out in the middle of a shooting. That’s what Cleo said, maybe she said that just to make us eat her food…What if we don’t eat and we are still okay?

-"You better eat..." Dan looks at us horribly, as if he has now turned into the devil.

We nod, I don't want to say anything especially for what just happened.

He sits me down at the table, it's cold.

And even worse, I see Jake sitting in front of me.

His gaze is now ice. It makes me shiver in the chair.

Food arrives. Some trivial soup. I just hope I don't find a dead mouse inside. But at least they are feeding us.

And it seemed that with every spoonful of my food, he looked at me.

And I know what it is. After living most of my life with people who hate me I can say that the only thing he wants to do is make me feel embarrassed. Marking every mistake I can make.

That’s cruel.

Each bite is a punch to the stomach. Only if I drink or wipe my mouth with a tissue is a laugh from Jake.

It's just heartbreaking.

It's not the first time this has happened, but even if it seems like I'm getting used to it it's still a hard blow and difficult to parry.

Charlie seems to have understood Jake's intentions. But nothing. He doesn't do anything. And that's another punch to the stomach.

Ouch.

It seems that my eyes are filling with water and that I am going to cry at any moment.

Although I try to cover the tears with my hair or just by lowering my head I feel the tears come out.

-"Stop." Charlie passes me a handkerchief. And it's clear that he doesn't care.

Or maybe he cares, but it's weak to cry. Too bad I can throw in his face the situation where he cried during a mission, which is weak following his speech.

I hate him. No, I hate when he does this. It’s so…Heartbroken…Why can't I cry? Why does everyone hate me in this group? Why can't I live normally like the other kids??

I’m just tired of living like this…But die seems not to be the solution…

It’s just so damn difficult.

I feel my face almost come apart to be able to make a face, only to cry. That's disgusting.

I would like to cry. But I can not. The only thing I can do is focus on food.

I start to eat. Quickly to get my whole mouth dirty. I don't want to think. I just want to eat.

Each bite is now like a kiss on the hair, however comforting. However, it is not the solution to the problems.

As soon as I'm done, I haven't even calculated what Jake is saying, not even Charlie. He can't say anything, because I didn't cry.

I throw myself on the ground so that I can touch my chest, it hurts. It hurts because I didn't cry. All my life I've always had a safe place to cry but it's gone.

The best place that used to be in someone's arms is now gone. Now nothing makes sense anymore. It’s heartbreaking. Again.

I can't cry.

So what does it mean?

Crying won't protect me.

[hacked-by-jake]

Uoooppps! Sorry if i'm late...sooo,the first clue didn't help you. Okay okay,don't worry ^^ i guess you,dear Detective,know so many people🤭🤭.

So the first clue was🧐:

-One of my DW memes became real thanks to a lovely person who make it a beautiful and hylarious drawing.

The second clue is🧐:

-Jake didn't know that MC likes tuna and artichoke sandwitches 🤭🤭 but i make it clear enough that we (MC) liked it.

Ahhh! Hello, love! 🤭

Ahhh! You! Omg! I really thought about it, I was just unsure and didn't dare!😫😂

I think you forgot to put on Anon. But that’s not bad because I probably still wouldn’t have dared! 🤭

But aww! Your messages are really sweet! I’m happy to see you here!🥰

Ahhh! I remember the tuna and artichoke sandwitches!😂

Well, the second tip definitely made it easier for me!

I’m glad you joined the game, I’m just awfully bad at guessing. I'm sorry! 😅

But thank you very much for your time! I'm really happy about it!💚

I hope you will have a beautiful day/evening/night! Take care of yourself and stay healthy!💚🌹🎭

[rw47vr-key]

For the guessing game:

You are an undercover FBI agent🧐🧐

A very kind and sweet undercover FBI agent!

(🤣🤣not so good on guessing,but on the kind and sweet i can't be wrong)

😊😊big hug

Hello love!❤️

Another detective jumping into my asks😱 Jake if you're reading this please note down and be careful, detective Robby Barnes of yyyy city,.....

It's not almost true but also definitely ain't false 😉😂

Ahhh I don't know how to react to such compliment 😭❤️ Thanks a lot angel❤️✨ You're way too amazing and sweet ❤️💙

You and all fandom's sweetness is contagious 🤧❤️

Thank you incredibly so much for stopping by dear!!❤️A (random)quote for you and those reading 💙

Sometimes when you’re in a dark place you think you’ve been buried but you’ve actually been planted.”

– Christine Caine

Take care of yourself and a very big hug to you love!❤️💙

[robbybarnes]

~DUSKWOOD~MEME

MC: "Hey can you give me a couple of minutes? I have to go to the bathroom real quick."

Cleo: "Yeah sure, no problem...wait, what for?"

MC: "...to open the chamber of secrets, WHAT DO YOU THINK?"

Cleo: "...in my defense, last time you asked me a normal question you came back after 5 hours with two bodies in the trunk and a drunk Jake singing La Bamba..."

Jake: "She's got a point..."