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Her full profile is finally here! Seven pages of information! I may have gone down the rabbit hole just a tiny bit! 

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St. Cecilia Jameson

Gender: Cis female

Status: Alive

Occupation: Singer for British rock band Stiletto ("Like the knife or like the shoe?" "Yes.")

 Family: Elizabeth Robinson, née Wallis (Mother), Bryony Robinson (Older half-sister), Esme Robinson, née Davies (Grandmother, deceased), Herakles Zafeiriou (Biological father, though she's never met him), Evander Zafeiriou (Older half-brother, who she's also never met, though they've exchanged family photos and stories via email)

Voiced by: Florence Pugh (Speaking), Lzzy Hale (Singing)

Age: A few months younger than Pickles

Date of birth: December 15 (Sagittarius)

Place of birth: Oxford, England

Birth name: Felicity Robinson (Initially, only Sammy knows this, though the rest of SnB learns it at Esme's funeral)

Nicknames: Ceelie (By Pickles and Sammy, mostly, though the Dethklok boys pick it up eventually), Star (By Magnus), princess (By Skwisgaar)

Ethnicity: Half English, half Greek (Though she's unaware of the latter for most of her life)

Height: Five-foot-one

Sexuality: Bisexual

Relationship status: It's complicated. It's always complicated. She's unlucky in love. 

Current location: London, England

Appearance: St. Cecilia is a petite woman (She's half a head shorter than Pickles!) with golden skin and long white-blonde hair, which she wears in a high ponytail. She has thick, dark brows and bright brown eyes (Skwisgaar says she has "wolf eyes"). She has three white marigolds tattooed on each shoulder, a labret piercing, and a vertical collarbone piercing at the hollow of her throat. Her ears are pierced three times each, in which she wears two silver hoops and a silver stud on each side, and she has a small black star beneath each eye. She has a Christina piercing, nipple piercings, and a belly button piercing. She has a No Time For Antivenom tattoo on her sternum, and a European robin tattoo at the back of her neck. Along her spine, she has a tattoo reading "to thine own self be true." She has a shitty stick-and-poke crown tattooed behind her right ear. She has a pear body type, with wide hips, a small chest, and an even smaller waist (Nathan can encircle her waist with his hands). She typically wears a black muscle shirt, ripped dark jeans, heavy boots, black driving gloves, and a studded black leather collar with a D-ring at the front. She also wears a Gibson pearl guitar pick on a necklace, which was given to her by Pickles when they first started dating in the 80s. She wears a silver cuff on each ear, and her tongue is pierced with a simple silver stud. 

During flashbacks to the Snakes N' Barrels era, she's shown with darker blonde hair cut in a mullet style, and only her labret and ear piercings, plus one on the right side of her nose. She wears a cropped white tank, with high-waisted jeans and black Converse sneakers. She wears mismatched armbands, one black, one striped, and the same collar she wears in the present.

Her more casual look consists of a black button-up shirt with the sleeves pushed up, which she wears tucked into a pair of leather pants. She wears pumps instead of boots, and her hair is twisted up in a clip. She keeps her collar, but doesn't wear the pick necklace or her ear cuff, and she switches her hoop earrings for studs. She doesn't apply her stars.

For fancier occasions, she wears a black dress with spaghetti straps and a very short, flared skirt, black opera gloves and black strap pumps. She, as always, wears her collar with it, and she pulls her hair into a high bun. 

Personality: St. Cecilia is cocky, witty, and teasing, but ultimately good-natured. She's a bit selfish and stubborn, but she does everything with 110% effort, hoping to impress people, even if she winds up getting hurt in the process. She'll do literally anything for validation. To say she's vain would be an understatement. She's something of a coquette who flirts with both men and women, and is she has a tendency to "think with her dick," as Tony once put it. She's slow to anger, but quick to jealousy, and she holds grudges for far too long. She's the playful type, but it's largely in a chill way. She's an obvious extrovert, and the role as frontman for Stiletto came very naturally.  

Skills & Hobbies: St. Cecilia writes good poetry, great song lyrics, and terrible erotica. She likes plants and is quite the chess player (Though she hasn't managed to beat Charles even once), which she learned during her school days. She also learned to fence, ride horses, and speak fluent Latin there.

Musical Talents: She's a classically trained singer (When she was little, she was part of her church's choir), and she writes most of the song lyrics and some of the music for her band, Stiletto. In Snakes N' Barrels, she played lead guitar on a white Jackson Pro Series Rhoads RR3, but during their reunion concert, she plays a more modern Gibson Explorer '76 Reissue 2010 Cherry. She took piano lessons for several years as a child, and she's still pretty good. Nothing outstanding, but if Stiletto needs to incorporate a piano into a song, she's perfectly capable of playing it herself. 

Relationships: 

-Pickles the Drummer: Their relationship is a complicated one. They've known each other for ages, and they've been together through the highest highs and the lowest lows, all the way down to rock bottom. She partially blames him for her late teens and early twenties being the fiasco they were, and she cut off contact with him for a long time after the SnB breakup. During the run of the show itself, the two reconcile somewhat and even become more or less friends before Abigail shows up and things start to crumble again. They have a hard time admitting it, but there's love between them, and there has been for a long time. They're both afraid to try getting together again, though, as there's a mutual fear of the relationship ending as it did the first time, with them hating each other again. They're back together at the end of Doomstar, but there's no way of telling if the love between them is enough to keep them together or if they'll just fall apart all over again. 

-Magnus Hammersmith: They were more off-and-on than anything, but they were together for years, even though quite a bit of it was long-distance. It wasn't supposed to be a serious thing. It was just supposed to be a quick fuck. Then it was supposed to be a performance to annoy Pickles, but Magnus quickly realized that St. Cecilia's feelings for Pickles were too strong for her to be any use to him in his revenge plot. The basis of their bond formed because they understood each other on a level they've never known with anyone else: Former Snakes N' Barrels guitarist St. Cecilia Jameson and former Dethklok guitarist Magus Hammersmith both understand on a fundamental level what it's like to be left behind and forgotten. Magnus caught a bit of feelings, and when Roy Cornickelson's funeral came around, Magnus warned St. Cecilia not to attend. It was their last interaction, and it forever cast him in a positive light for her, even after she learned what he was doing with the Metal Masked Assassin. 

-Nathan Explosion: They get along pretty well. Their first meeting was at a singers-only Crystal Mountain party, and they ended the evening with a quickie in the coatroom. He wrote a song about the encounter, but Pickles never figured out that it was about St. Cecilia, which Nathan thinks is just the funniest thing. He mostly sees St. Cecilia as one of the guys once she meets with Dethklok again for the SnB reunion. It's a "been there, done that" kind of deal. She's not brutal, but she's funny and she's fun, and goddamn, is she pretty, and they would absolutely hang out if they could get their schedules to line up.

-Skwisgaar Skwigelf: St. Cecilia is nothing short of enchanted by Skwisgaar. It's not a crush, exactly, but she has a huge amount of admiration for him. They've practiced together a time or two, but she's a little rusty and winds up with her fingers bleeding because her calluses have gone soft. He tends to tease her over her soft hands. A guitar god, he tells her, can't have hands like a princess. His calling her “princess” becomes a bit of a thing for them. The two of them often have brunch together, talking shit and drinking. She's good for him; He's never had a female friend before.

-Toki Wartooth: Within the series itself, St. Cecilia hasn't given Toki much thought. He's cute, but he's just sorta there. His incident during the SOBERTOWN USA concert really scared her, and she more or less avoids him after that. Post-DSR, though, their relationship changes. He, like her, was hurt by Magnus, and even with him dead, Toki misses him terribly. St. Cecilia misses him, too. As sad as it is, this becomes their common ground. Their other connection, odd as it sounds, is pole dancing. St. Cecilia does it for exercise, and Toki did it for money, and they often compete to see who's better on the pole. 

-William Murderface: St. Cecilia actually has a begrudging fondness for Murderface. He's awful, but he's also pretty funny, and she likes to hear him talk about knives and medieval weaponry, as her family home is full of such things. They clash over things, of course, but she likes being around him more often than not.

-Charles Offdensen: St. Cecilia really likes Charles, actually. He's basically the only person on the show who's really "on her level" class-wise. He attended Harvard, and she attended Oxford, so they have a great deal to talk about. They play a lot of chess and fence on occasion, and if it weren't for her feelings for Pickles and his obligation to the Church, they just might have gotten together.

-Dick Knubbler: They're friends, in a way. She thinks he's kind of a weirdo, but he knows how to have a good time, so as long as he isn't hitting on her, she likes being around him. 

-Abigail Remeltincdrinc: They became friends mostly due to the fact that they were both women in the music industry (And both working for Crystal Mountain) and supporting each other seemed the right thing to do. Abigail getting involved with Dethklok and catching Pickles's attention quickly became a sore spot, and they drifted apart after that. After DSR, things got even worse. Abigail, naturally, is glad that Magnus is gone, while St. Cecilia is devastated by the loss. They had something of a falling-out over it, and they haven't really spoken since. 

-Edgar Jomfru: Despite being very different people, St. Cecilia really enjoys Edgar's company. He merely tolerates her at first, but she grows on him, to the point where they're legitimately friends come Doomstar. The two of them often have lunch together on the roof of Mordhaus so they can get some fresh air. 

-Family: St. Cecilia's family consists of her mother, Elizabeth, her older sister, Bryony, and her now-deceased grandmother, Esme. St. Cecilia has a very formal, cold relationship with her mother, and she has no desire to change that. As far as she's concerned, her mother doesn't deserve to have a good relationship with her. St. Cecilia adores Bryony, though. Though Elizabeth brags about her, Bryony remains modest and is very close with her sister because of it. Though there's seven years between them, they may as well be twins. Esme, who passed away in 1993, was more of a mother to St. Cecilia than Elizabeth ever was, and St. Cecilia still misses her terribly. She was a big part of getting SnB off the ground, and the boys even came to her funeral.

-Snakes N' Barrels: St. Cecilia adores all the boys, of course, but Sammy is the only one she really kept in touch with after the breakup. He was her favorite long before Pickles joined. There was a pregnancy scare not long after the band took off that somehow, against all odds, brought the two of them even closer. Sammy was St. Cecilia's first love. Her relationships with Tony and Snazz were much more professional, though none of them were anywhere near professional. The crown tattoo behind her right ear was done by Tony on a drunken night in, and it was too good a night for her to even consider covering it or getting it removed. 

-Stiletto: She gets along with them all quite well! She's known Niamh McLoughlin, their bassist, the longest, and their friendship dates back to their school days. Lex Clarke and Priyanka Dayal, the drummer and the guitarist respectively, came as a package deal, as they've been more or less married for years. St. Cecilia adores them and the sweetness of their relationship. She's a little envious of them, actually, though she would never say so.

History:

-Childhood: St. Cecilia was born in Oxford, England to Elizabeth Robinson. She was raised more or less at her family's girls-only boarding school, away from her mother. When she was fourteen, she fell off a horse during an equestrian class and badly injured her shoulder. She was one of the popular girls during her school days, up until she hit fifteen and decided that she was no longer a child and had a right to demand respect from her emotionally distant mother. She quit the piano lessons she had been taking for several years and took up the guitar, though it aggravated her injured shoulder and even as a teen, she developed a dependence on painkillers. This rebellious period stretched until she was sixteen and ran away with the help of her grandmother. St. Cecilia was given her name just before she left, so it would be easier for her to hide, as well as a hefty sum to tide her over until she could get herself settled. She was only in LA for a few weeks before she met Sammy at a bar where the SnB prototype band was playing. Naturally, Snazz and Tony weren't thrilled with the idea of Sammy's kinda-sorta-girlfriend trying to become their lead guitarist, and when Snazz disparagingly referred to St. Cecilia as Yoko, she broke his nose (How could he have not expected violence when a Beatles-loving British girl was called such a horrible thing?). This earned their respect and is an event that they laugh about to this day. 

-Snakes n' Barrels era: St. Cecilia stuck with the band for several months before they found Pickles, and she was smitten with him the moment she heard him sing. Esme was an important source of financial support during their formative years. The band made it big after not too long, and they all grew quite close. St. Cecilia ended up in an ill-fated off-and-on relationship with Pickles as time went on, and to this day she doesn't remember the first time she told him she loved him. It wasn't long after his first OD and his following stint in rehab that she told him, and they were both drunk in celebration of his release. His tolerance, even post-rehab, was far higher than hers, though, and he remembers, though he sometimes hates that he does. Though there was genuine love between them, the stress of the band and both of their substance abuse problems drove a wedge between not only the couple, but also the entire band. Coupled with Pickles fucking groupies behind St. Cecilia's back and St. Cecilia's becoming a rather serious Vicodin addict to combat the pain in her injured shoulder, the band was doomed. Pickles came to see St. Cecilia off on her flight back to England, saying he would meet her there when his next residuals check came in, but he never made it, and they didn't speak to each other for years afterward. It hurt, but St. Cecilia supposed it was for the best. A clean break, and all that.

-Preklok: After SnB broke up, St. Cecilia returned to Oxford, staying with Bryony in their mother's guest house as she tried to figure out her next move. Despite her gift for writing lyrics, she had no talent for writing books, and that idea quickly went down the drain. She still received a large amount of money in residuals, but she was reduced to a mere socialite, though it mostly agreed with her. At her mother's insistence, she attended a few classes at Oxford University. She absolutely loved it. In 1992, Esme passed away. St. Cecilia only told Sammy about it, but he took the initiative and brought Pickles, Tony and Snazz with him to the funeral. St. Cecilia was initially pissed, but she really appreciated the support. That was the only time she saw Pickles between SnB's breakup and their reunion concert. He was devastated when her parting words to him were "I love you with everything I am, but I never wanna see you again." In the mid-90s, she posed for an issue of Playboy, and Pickles has a copy of the issue tucked away somewhere. It wasn't until 1998, when she moved to a little flat in London, that St. Cecilia reunited with her school friend Niamh and the idea of Stiletto came about. They found Priyanka and Lex at an open mic night at one of the local clubs, and they hit it off, both as friends and as bandmates. They played at many clubs and pubs, and they were soon found by a scout at another open mic night. They signed with the UK branch of Crystal Mountain Records and were assigned the surly but efficient Melinda Glasscock as their manager, and within three years, Stiletto was huge, due in part to St. Cecilia's residual fame from Snakes N' Barrels. Their first tour was through Europe, but the second came to America, where St. Cecilia met Magnus in a bar post-show. They got on really well, and she invited him to her hotel room for the night. They exchanged numbers and got quite close over time, with her even flying him out to London from time to time so they could hang out. Magnus knew who she was from the start, and while he planned to use her feelings for Pickles to get her on his side, that soon faded and he came to genuinely like her. She wouldn't learn who he was until later on. A few years before canon, she had a quickie with Nathan in a coat room at a singers-only part at Crystal Mountain records, and he used the fact that she couldn't fit her mouth around his dick as inspiration for Dethklok's infamous song "Glasgow Smile."

-Season 1: 

-St. Cecilia's first mention within the confines of canon is during Performance Klok, when Pickles mentions he hasn't been in a serious relationship since the '80s despite the fact that he would certainly thrive under such attention. 

-She first appears in Snakes N' Barrels, during the documentary the Dethklok is watching. The guys are a little critical when they (Save Nathan, who's known for a long time) learn that part of SnB's downfall was due to Pickles's failed relationship with St. Cecilia. There's some comedic nonsense talk about fucking one's guitarist before Pickles goes to speak with Charles. Though St. Cecilia is working on an album with Stiletto when she's asked to go the reunion, she manages to push through and finish in time, though she arrives nearly late. She finds Pickles backstage, and when he sweeps in to kiss her, she pulls away a bit, saying they can't do this, as she's spoken for. She lets him hold her close, though. The rest of Dethklok finds them like that, and St. Cecilia excuses herself to go find Sammy, Tony and Snazz. There's some talk about Pickles not leaving Dethklok, which he says he won't, but they're rather worried after catching him with St. Cecilia in his arms. Meanwhile, she manages to find the boys, and they meet with Pickles backstage. While the boys partake of the Totally Awesome Sweet Alabama Liquid Snake, St. Cecilia doesn't, as she once humiliated herself by passing out on stage and doesn't wish to repeat the incident. She presses a kiss to Pickles's palm before they go on stage, an old ritual that they were never able to shake. What happens is far worse than someone just passing out, and she and Pickles leave the stage amidst the chaos while the medical Klokateers take care of the boys and see them off to the hospital. It's a disaster. She's embarrassed and angry, and she turns down Pickles's offer of a ride home and calls someone instead, as she didn't get her money converted and can't pay for a cab. This someone turns out to be the man who's claimed her, Magnus, and Pickles is none too happy about it. He tries to stop her from going with him, but it doesn't work. 

-She isn't seen in Dethkids, but she is mentioned. When Pickles starts drinking harder than usual, he finally gives in to the urge to call her, to talk about how Sammy and Snazz and Tony are doing, and to tell her that she should steer clear of Magnus. He's so drunk, though, that she barely has even an idea of what he's talking about. 

-Offscreen, but somewhere between the two SnB episodes, Magnus and St. Cecilia abruptly break up. She has a feeling something was going on with him, but his sudden disappearance really hurt her. They had been together off and on for years, after all. A few weeks before he left, he bought her a little pink knife and showed her how to use it, just in case he wasn't around to protect her. When he left, he left his guitar behind, and she still has it as of Doomstar. 

-Season 2: 

-She's mentioned by Seth in Dethwedding, though only as "that British chick" he thought Pickles would eventually have married. Pickles nearly decks him for even mentioning her.

-St. Cecilia's next appearance is in Snakes N' Barrels II. In part one, during the advertisement for the SOBERTOWN USA concert, she's missing from the band lineup, and Pickles is both relieved and a little concerned by her absence. 

-In SnB II part two, Nathan, Skwisgaar and Toki find her among the crowd at the SOBERTOWN USA concert. Nathan asks if she wasn't invited to play, but she says that she was: She just didn't think it was right to play without Pickles. Realizing that Pickles is sneaking around backstage, she leaves to go find him and try to keep him from doing something he'll regret. She only finds him just as Tony, Snazz and Sammy start freaking out, and she only just manages to keep Pickles from killing Rikki Kixx, though she honestly doesn't mind the thought of him dead. She pulls Pickles away from the stage, where he calls the Klokateers to take care of Sammy, Snazz and Tony, and she sets to icing down his bruised knuckles. She tells him that she and Magnus broke up, and he's thoroughly pleased about it: She's too good for him, anyway. That irritates her a bit, but she tells him to call her sometime, though she insists he do it when he's not drunk off his ass. 

-Season 3: 

-Ironically, when Pickles calls her in Dethhealth to inform her that he's dying, he's in fact drunk again. She wants to go to Mordhaus to see him, but he tells her to stay where she is, as he doesn't want her seeing him like that, though she's seen him at rock bottom as it is. At the end of the episode, he's drunker and higher than ever, but he calls her again to let her know he's all right. She can't understand him, though, so he puts Nathan on to explain. She’s thoroughly relieved, but she’s still considering going to Mordhaus to see him. She implores of Nathan, "Take care of him, all right?"

-Offscreen, in the time between Dethhealth and Dethmas, Pickles goes to London for a while to appease St. Cecilia, and to their mutual surprise, it's not really all that different from how it was when they were actually together. There's lots of cuddling and kissing and great sex and just... Hanging out. It's easy for them to be together. They have their share of problems, but the old spark between them is still there. Pickles is honestly a little scared of that: What if he falls for her all over again just for her to break his heart like she did last time? The fact that she has Magnus's guitar makes him doubly suspicious. He starts drinking harder than ever to drown out the thoughts of her. 

-In Rehabklok, when Pickles's drinking is brought to the attention of the band and he's sent to rehab, he tries for a while to blame it on St. Cecilia. She broke his heart, and he drinks to cope. It makes perfect sense, until he starts to really think about it and realizes that he's equally at fault for how their relationship (And also SnB) fell apart. He realizes, after many years, that he hurt her as badly as she hurt him. And that makes him feel even worse. He talks the doctor into letting him call her to apologize, but it doesn't go well: She's a little offended that he would even consider blaming her for his drinking, given he was a drunk long before they met. "Is that what I am to you now? An excuse to get drunk and act a fool?" Not long after that, Pickles realizes the real cause for his drinking.

-Just before Charles goes to speak to the UN in Doublebookedklok, he calls St. Cecilia and cryptically asks her if she speaks Latin. She owes him a favor for getting her out of some legal trouble, so she can't really refuse. Several months before, she punched a scummy paparazzo who called Magnus washed-up, and Charles used his reeducation program to keep those involved from pressing charges or damaging St. Cecilia's reputation. 

-Season 4:

-In Fanklok, before Charles meets with the band to discuss Klokikon, he welcomes St. Cecilia to Mordhaus and presents her with an ancient-looking journal that belonged to Aurelius Isambard, one of the original prophets of the Church of the Black Klok. She's taken down to the basement, where she's introduced to Edgar Jomfru, and gets to work. 

-In Diversityklok, after he's spoken to Edgar, Charles speaks to St. Cecilia. He finds her engrossed, but thoroughly worried. She asks if this is real, and she's even more worried when he tells her it is. 

-Offscreen, St. Cecilia has been hard at work translating the journal, and she's come to a passage that seems to describe the growing tension between the band. It also mentions an approaching star, and she takes to sitting on the roof at night to observe the sky. 

-In Prankklok, when Pickles tells Nathan that he's not allowed to drink any tequila during their friender-bender, Nathan tells him he can't visit St. Cecilia when they stop in London. Pickles reluctantly agrees. Not long after, we see Pickles on his phone, though, debating on calling her just before he notices the storm warning.

-Offscreen, St. Cecilia approaches Charles about a phrase repeated over and over in the journal: Fata sidus oritur, the star of fate is born. 

-After Charles breaks the news about Ice Festival to Skwisgaar in Bookklok, he goes to speak with St. Cecilia and Edgar in the basement. She's tacked two star maps to the wall: One from the previous week and one from the previous night. There's a spot near the center of the first map that seems bigger on the second one. She looks like the world is ending when she tells him it's the Doomstar. It's real. It's coming? When? Soon, she says. Far too soon.

-When Charles tells the boys he's going out of town in Dethcamp, it's to take St. Cecilia to an observatory, where they meet with Ishnifus and spend a few days tracking the Doomstar's movement as it comes closer and closer to Earth. 

-In Going Downklok, when Pickles shows up all decked out for his meeting with Abigail, Nathan is quick to ask, "Don't you have a girlfriend?" Pickles insists he doesn't; He and St. Cecilia was hurt and angry the last time they spoke. On top of that, he believes she's all the way in London, and Abigail is right there. 

-Offscreen, between Dethdinner and Breakup Klok, St. Cecilia is tagged in the video of Pickles leaving Dethklok by a drunken Toki. She's incredibly hurt. Pickles has nothing, he said. She, apparently, is nothing.

-In Breakup Klok, Pickles tries to call St. Cecilia to invite her to his wine tasting, but she refuses to answer and sends him straight to voicemail. Towards the end of the episode, after the escape from Salacia, Charles requests a check-up on Edgar and St. Cecilia back at Mordhaus, and Pickles is stunned and angry to learn that she's been more or less within arm's reach for months. Had he known, he's certain things would have been different-- He wouldn't have tried to make a move on Abigail and he wouldn't have fucked up his chance to get back with St. Cecilia again.

-Offscreen, St. Cecilia speaks to Charles about staying at a hotel for a few days, just until Roy Cornickelson's funeral, after which she'll return to Mordhaus and her translation work. The day of the funeral, though, she receives a call from Magnus telling her she absolutely cannot attend, as he can't guarantee her safety. It's the last time she has contact with him before his death. We also see her watching the news about Dethklok's breakup and the insinuation that Abigail caused it, and St. Cecilia chucks a bottle at the TV, mirroring Pickles's actions in SnB II.

-In Church of the Black Klok, St. Cecilia is fetched from the hotel by Klokateers and taken to the Dethsub, where she meets with Charles, pointedly ignores Pickles, and goes to work with Edgar instead. 

-The Doomstar Requiem:

-In "One of Us Must Die," St. Cecilia can be seen on one of the slides, staring up into the sky with Isambard's journal held to her chest. Towards the end of the song, reading from the book, she sings, "Dethklok, they must be rejoined/Evil, it must be destroyed/No more apathetic stoics/They can learn to be heroic/Write the song that will be our salvation..."

-In "Training," while carrying the journal, she sings the lyrics, "As the prophecy foretold, the Doomstar has been born/And you all will be endowed with a power known to none." Nathan, Skwisgaar and Murderface are looking at the art of the Prophecy, but Pickles is watching her. Ishnifus places a hand upon her shoulder, and they sing together, "The Deth lights are within you all waiting to be woken/And when the five are united, the evil will be broken," in a show of solidarity.

-In "En Antris et Stella Fatum Cruenti," just after Ishnifus is killed and the Doomstar goes red, we see a shot of Charles, Edgar and St. Cecilia at the Church, watching the sky. 

-In "Morte Lumina," in a mirror to Nathan and Abigail's kiss, we see Pickles approach St. Cecilia, and she presses a kiss to his palm (Which is a really significant gesture between them) before he pulls her into his arms. 

Trivia: 

-The stars on her cheeks are actually a makeup trick, as she's afraid to have a needle so close to her eyes. 

-She smokes Honeyrose Cherry cigarettes (Which have roughened her voice a bit), but she doesn't drink to excess, save when she's with Pickles. He's a terrible influence on her, but she adores him just the same. Considering him and Magnus, she has rather bad taste in men.

-Her signature scent is Estée Lauder's Cinnabar, which features notes of jasmine, orange blossom, cloves, and patchouli. She uses a cinnamon body oil when she wants to get Pickles's attention. It always works.

-She wants nothing more than to be loved, but she's keenly aware of the fact that most of the people who "love" her only want to coast on her fame. It's resulted in her having a hard time trusting people. The fact that Pickles and the rest of Dethklok don't need to coast off her is part of why she likes them so much.

-She's an iced coffee addict, and she prefers chocolate, caramel, or hazelnut varieties.

-She was raised Catholic, and while she lapsed a long time ago, she has occasional bouts of Catholic Guilt. Her name is related to her religion, as St. Cecilia is the patron saint of music.

-Her preferred alcohol is Bombay Sapphire gin, though she also likes white wine and champagne.

-She's a plant mom. Her flat is full of plants, including a little devil's tongue cactus she bought at a farmer's market in LA when she first came to America. It's traveled the world with her! It lived in the cupholder of Snazz's van for several years, and now it lives in her kitchen, perched on top of the microwave.

-She has a pretty serious oral fixation. She's always got something in her mouth: A cigarette, a pen, a popsicle, someone's fingers, a dick. Depends on her mood. Getting her tongue pierced helped a little, as she can play with the stud, but some habits just can't be broken.

-She and the rest of Stiletto own a condo building in London together, and she naturally has the penthouse to herself. It's very airy and open, with lots of mirrors and plants and exposed brick. One corner of her living room is just a huge window that looks out on the city. It's her favorite feature. Magnus is too nervous to go near it.

[mz-elysium]

Wow. That was a lot longer than I planned. Do we even do comic sans wip posts anymore? It it cool? Am I cool? 

Photo ID below the cut because this is already way too fucking long of a post. And this ID, bc of it, is so so long.

Photo ID: a 13 slide Comic Sans font powerpoint about an original WIP. All slides but the first are white, black text, all font being Comic Sans to follow the meme.

Slide 1: black background, white text. Titled with red shadow: The City of Fallen Angels: (2) Hitaeth. Definition below: hiraeth: homesickness or nostalgia, an earnest longing for an idealised past, or a sense of regret. Around this title are a bunch of floating descriptors about the WIP: vampires, gothic-punk, regrets vs forgiveness, dark urban fantasy, historical 2003, 4 POVs, secrets, political intrigue, slice of life, compassion vs selfishness, vampires playing Game of Thrones, grimdark and also hopepunk. A Vampire the Masquerade canon divergent original novel.

Slide 2: Worldbuilding, about the Vampire the Masquerade world. Titled: The canon sects but like a little more nuanced. Three columns of bullet points follow. 

The first is the Camarilla. 

neo-feudal lords and princes

rule most of the world

want to rule the rest of it

scheming, old elders who don’t give a shit about anyone else

will kill your family to make a point

BUT ALSO.

stable domains; due process

clan culture, history, tradition

connected to wider vampire society

play their game and you can live as a peaceful peasant (mostly)

The second column is the Anarchs.

rebellious neonates/ancillae

in their Free States, there’s opportunity for power and to live your own life

neonates can actually own land??

ALSO

literal anarchy

no real oversight or leadership

can and will be killed by another gang

“if you can hold it, you can have it”

Third column is the Sabbat

worship Caine as the First Murderer (first vampire)

take “vampire” too literally

inhuman monsters

war cult readying for Armageddon

ALSO

profoundly religious

strict code of honour

accept their inhumanity (no angst)

tight-knit family-like packs

heroes/crusaders for their ppl

Slide 3: Titled: Have a shitty map. A Google map screenshot of Central Los Angeles, with highlighted sections in different colours, clearly done in Paint by a child. Seven sections are highlighted, explained on the next slide.

Slide 4: The lands are divided by the sect who control it.

Anarchs:

Angels Wasteland: remains of the #peaceful Barony of Angels. With Salvador Garcia’s death, it’s a shitshow chaotic warzone. 

Tinseltown: Isaac Abrams, movie baron, just wants to be left alone.

East LA: ruled by loyalists of the Old Guard Anarchs, who are all dead/gone. Sabbat from further east are smelling weakness.

Downtown: technically “no baron” but also nines is baron. Typical Anarchs, shooting each other, living rough, living free. OR ARE THEY???

Camarilla:

The Valley: a praxis backed by legendary elders, who are propelled by faceless masters, using unwilling Prince Barty Vaughn as a pawn

Westside: greedy and ambitious LaCroix goes “hmm. la looks like shit. probably wanna get in on that” and calls up his contact, Therese Voerman and says “yo. u got a barony, huh? wanna be my seneschal?”

“Independent”

Silver Lake: a desperate grab by Monroe and co to build their own “utopia” … sorta like the Anarchs 60yrs ago… and look how THAT went. Monroe ate the last Old Guard Anarch.

Slide 5: Titled: Monroe’s POV, with a subtitle of The Captain. On the left, a photo of half of a man’s face in shadow. He has dark hair, pale skin, blue eyes, and a hard expression. Bullet points describe him as Matthew Monroe, Clan Ventrue, Embraced 1873, Humanity 5, age 28. On the right, a series of bullets describe his POV’s story.

this is a dude drowning in an ocean of Problems and his catchphrase is “I’ll figure it out”

he owes a life debt to the enigmatic powerful archon in the Valley (Jan Pieterzoon), who seems to respect/honour him more than most of LA.

he used to be besties with the Valley Prince (Barty Vaughn), who he can’t trust but seems? the same?

he turned his ghoul and secret love into a vampire (Hawthorne), against her wishes, and now she hates him. monroe: u kno what? that’s fair.

Silver Lake is held together with duct tape. monroe’s right hand (Ashley Swan) is a nightmare and untrustworthy. his people try to kill each other.

he’s got a lot of unresolved trauma/grief/abuse/anger and vampires sort of have “The Beast”, a spirit that haunts them with evil

and oh yeah, LA is about to explode

Slide 6: Titled: Monroe’s supporting characters. Four characters, each of them have a photo, a title, and brief run-on description.

First, a photo of a very pale man with purple eyes and a lock of ice blonde hair. Ashley Swan, the Thorn, Clan Toreador. Monstrously cruel, sarcastic, hedonistic, aggressive, sadistic, can’t be trusted, doesn’t wear shirts. Bisexual transman.

Second, a photo of a dour woman with dark hair. Audrey Hawthorne, the Lovechilde, Clan Ventrue. Blinded by the Embrace, furious, frustrated, grieving, snarky, over accomplished, creative, passionate.

Third, a man in a black suit looking over a ballroom with a crystal chandelier. Jan Pieterzoon, the Kingmaker, Clan Ventrue. 300 year old, archon, elder, sire is Camarilla big-shot, dignified, mysterious, chessmaster, honourable, elite.

Fourth, a man in a dress shirt, sleeve rolled up, hand extended with a cigarette and bloody palm. Barty Vaughn, the Valley Prince, Clan Ventrue. Former Anarch, Prince of San Francisco, now reluctant Prince of LA. Smokes like a chimney, lives to fuck Tremere and have fun.

Slide 7: Titled: Zari’s POV, with a subtitle of The Black Rose. On the left, a photo of a beaming dark-skinned Black woman with bouncy coily black hair. Bullet points describe her as Zari Adeyemi-Swan, Clan Toreador, Embraced 1973, Humanity 6, age 27. On the right, a series of bullets describe her POV’s story.

life sucks, it’s cruel, and there’s no point thinking on the past, even when the past comes to haunt you

she fled her foster sire and once-lover (Ashley Swan) for his cruelty to others, but now he offers maybe?genuine? amends.

thirty years ago, she left her human children. her daughter (Aisha Adeyemi) has been Embraced and brings bad news

her main way of #coping is working and distracting herself. she throws herself to infiltrate the Westside Camarilla court (Sebastian LaCroix), against all good advice.

soon after she arrives, she finds herself having a secret admirer (Mercurio), who reminds her how precious it is to be loved, held, and cared for — but they need to overcome their own instincts to accept what they could have

The Voerman sisters are in the thick of it all, making perfect cautionary allies and, if she can overcome her preconceptions, friends.

and oh yeah, LA is about to explode

Slide 8: Titled: Zari’s supporting characters. Four characters, each of them have a photo, a title, and brief run-on description.

First, a photo of a white man wearing mirrored sunglasses in front of orange-pink neon. It casts his face and smile eerily. Ashley Swan, the Foster Sire, Clan Toreador, monstrously cruel, charismatic, loyal, thorough, too clever, pleasurable. Bi transman.

Second, a photo of a white man in a suit, adjusting his cuffs. Sebastian LaCroix, the Westside Prince, Clan Ventrue, opportunistic benefactor, greedy, ambitious, petulant, ruthless, degrading.

Third, a white man in a paisley shirt, gold necklaces, putting a hand to a tattooed and exposed chest. Mercurio, the Admirer, LaCroix’s Ghoul, resourceful, sweet, empathetic, capable, romantic, salt of the earth, former Mafia hitman.

Fourth, a white woman in a black suit with delicate gold jewelry. The Voermans, the Mirrored Sisters, Clan Malkavian; one is brutal, calculating, patient, reckless, the other is seductive, fun-loving, innovative, insightful.

Slide 9: Titled: Charlie’s POV, with a subtitle of The Moonchilde. In small text, a line says “a.k.a. Me processing grief over my mother #coping. On the left, a photo of a sad-faced white woman with freckles, black eyeliner, and frizzy brown curls. Bullet points describe her as Charlie Bradley, Clan Malkavian, Embraced 2003, Humanity 8, age 20, lesbian. On the right, a series of bullets describe her POV’s story.

life is getting back to normal? well, “new normal”

as a new adult, she has a good ol’ fashioned “start of life” crisis: who am I? where do I fit in? complicated by her mother’s death a year ago. what sort of woman am I? how does this figure into my attraction to women?

maybe. maybe. maybe monroe is cold and distant and ruling a vampire kingdom, but he wants to look after me. maybe i should let him.

also, hey, you (Jesse Harper) get it. and you’re hurting. let me help, let me be your soft place to land. wow, okay, this is kissing.

she didn’t mean to ruin her sire’s (Rhys Wilson) life. but, she did. she killed his mentor. SHHH! secret! she feel bad. maybe friends? uh, okay, weirdo. maybe D&D.

she’s learning to deal with feeding on scumbags and giving what people got coming to them. and the Cobweb, supernatural psychosis

WHY ARE VAMPIRES LIKE THIS? WHY CAN’T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG? FFS

and oh yeah, LA is about to explode

Slide 10: Titled: Charlie’s supporting characters. Three characters, each of them have a photo, a title, and brief run-on description.

First, a white man in the middle of screaming, his head swaying back and forth so it looks like he has three heads. Rhys Wilson, the Sire, Clan Malkavian, weirdo, prime D&D fanatic and DM, just wants friends, and vengeance, pulls pranks to teach lessons. Gay.

Second, a very strong white woman with her arms crossed, a tattoo on one, and a t-shirt that is obscured but clearly says “The future is female”. Jesse Harper, the Darkness, Clan Lasombra, former vampire hunter, reluctant vampire, brooding, mysterious, sullen, black trench coat, buff as fuck, brave. Lesbian.

Third, a pair of clasped hands, male over female. Monroe, the Stepsire, Clan Ventrue, fucking old, inhuman, kills too easily, sincere, honourable, intense, gives good advice but really should shut his mouth hole.

Slide 11: Titled: Jack’s POV, with a subtitle of The Lone Wolf. On the left, a photo of a sad-faced strong Chinese man with a shaggy and tufted mullet. Bullet points describe him as Jack Shen, Clan Gangrel, Embraced 1955, Humanity 7, age 25, gay. On the right, a series of bullets describe his POV’s story.

why does he always end up alone? people leave, people die, people drift and change, but the good times were worth it

he’s always had a rocky relationship with his lover (Ryuko Saito), but now the dumbass has found a cult promising power.

he hasn’t lost him. he hasn’t. him and ryu just take time apart sometimes. but it’s been a long fucking while. and jack isn’t sure who he is alone anymore. a new human friend (Dustin Cohen), working at his animal hospital gives new life.

his former best friend (Damsel) has dove deep into Downtown and managing as Nines’ lieutenant, bringing him more and more dirty work to clean up

monroe relies on him to reign in the chaos of vampires trying to live without killing each other.

and oh yeah, LA is about to explode

Slide 12: Titled: Jack’s supporting characters. Three characters, each of them have a photo, a title, and brief run-on description.

First, a young white woman with dyed fire-engine red hair and an Iron Maiden t-shirt. Damsel, the Lieutenant, Clan Brujah, naive, brash, physical, loyal, loud-mouthed, smart.

Second, a skinny man in an ill-fitting Hawaiian shirt and jeans. Ryuko Saito, the Orphan, Mage, power-hungry, desperate, proud, ruthless, loving, isolated, crushingly lonely, gremlin, old and chronic pain, hides and “treats” it with magic.

Third, a white hand extending a hummingbird to fly free. Dustin Cohen, the Receptionist, Human, understanding, the best of Good Dudes, empathetic, kinda lame outsider

Slide 13: Titled: also. A moodboard on the right side includes two weeping stone angels, one at sunset, one in darkness between a tarnished and broken silver crown; a gas station in LA as seen through a rainy car window; grim-looking downtown city buildings; and a sidewalk curb with neon lights reflecting off a puddle and a plastic bag of takeout garbage strewn across.

On the left, bullet points follow.

about 100 million other characters. I legit have a spreadsheet

Everyone is capable of evil

Sins of the sire (father)

Never too late to start being a good person

Takes place  about 6 months before Vampire the Masquerade Bloodlines

At least one more novel in the works

Subheading, 22/55 chapters written. Gonna start posting September 28.

End ID.

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Lost Boy Chapter 10: Heartbreak

Summary: When his family moves from San Francisco to the town of Shadyside, T.J. thought his life would change. And it did. He just didn’t think it would come in the form of the ghost of a boy who haunted his new bedroom.

Prologue

Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9

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A/N: I’m so incredibly sorry for the delay! A lot of things came up in my personal life and so writing became pretty impossible. 

So, I bear some sad news... this story is coming to a close. This will be the second to the last chapter and there will be an Epilogue as well. I just want to thank everyone for their support of this story! There were some bumps and hiccups along the way in terms of writing and although this isn’t my best work, I still enjoyed writing it very much and mostly due to everyone’s support and enthusiasm! You, guys, are the best!

Now, on to the chapter!

...............

The seasons changed, quickly. School kept everyone busy. There were trips to the hospital almost every other week. 

Despite his sister’s disapproval, T.J. continued working on his side project, doing research and secretly talking to psychics to ask for their opinions and suggestions. 

Meanwhile, Cyrus’ spirit continued to haunt his bedroom. He didn’t seem to mind it all that much, though. In fact, he seemed perfectly content to just greet T.J. a “good morning” each day, wish him a fun day at school, and then welcome him back home in the afternoons. But, sometimes, there were hints of sadness and longing in his eyes whenever T.J. would talk about their friends. 

When T.J. wasn’t out with the others, he stayed home with Cyrus and they would spend the day watching movies or laze around. Sometimes, Cyrus joined him on his early morning jogs and they would take advantage of the empty park to swing a little on the playground. (The little ghost girl, Victoria, never looked their way. Not once.)

Soon, Fall turned to Winter. 

And just before school let out for the holiday break, Andi decided to throw a party and invited everyone she knew.

So, here was T.J., stubbornly trying to tie a tie around his neck but failing.

Sitting cross-legged on the bed, Cyrus excitedly rambled on and on about the last party Andi had thrown that he had attended. Apparently, there were dance battles, rainbow wigs, Andi in a suit that glowed in the dark, and Andi’s mom as the DJ.

T.J. finally gave up on the tie and decided to go without it. He threw it on the bed and turned back to his mirror to fix his collar.

“How do I look?” He spun around to show Cyrus.

The ghost’s mouth fell slightly open, his brown eyes silently scanning T.J. from head to foot.

“You look great,” he breathed, getting on his feet and walking over to him. “The color brings out your eyes.”

T.J. blushed but silently thanked Amber for her help in choosing the light green button-down. And even though T.J. had done so already, he allowed Cyrus to straighten his collar and brush unseen dirt from his shoulders.

“You’re going to be the Belle of the Ball,” the ghost continued, smiling.

“Isn’t that something you say to girls?” T.J. teased.

“Well, I’m saying it to you. You look very handsome, T.J.”

T.J.’s lips quirked. “Thank you.” He paused, hesitating, before asking, “You sure you don’t want to come along? I’ll bring my headphones and pretend to talk to you on the phone.”

Cyrus bit his lower lip, appearing to seriously contemplate. “Tempting. But, I think it’s best that I just stay here tonight.” He looked pointedly at him. “But, you should have fun, okay?”

T.J. nodded. “Okay.”

Leaning forward, he wrapped his arms around Cyrus in a tight hug. The shorter boy returned it, going on his tiptoes so he could tuck his head on top of T.J.’s shoulder.

T.J. wished he would come, if only to see him smile wide at the sight of his old friends.

It wasn’t that Cyrus was sad, exactly. More resolved and settled. He still didn’t approve of T.J.’s side project to send him back to his body, but he didn’t fight him much on it either. He still accompanied the group when they visited his body at the hospital.

But, there was  wistful tone about him, lately. He seemed perfectly content to just watch his friends from a distance.

“T.J.! Are you done yet?!”

Amber’s voice and her insistent knocks on the door interrupted their hug. And, though T.J. was loathed to do so, he pulled away.

“I swear, you’re worse than a girl when getting ready!” Amber continued from behind the door. “Your hair doesn’t need that much hair gel, you dolt!”

T.J. groaned.

Why did Andi have to invite her too?! Apparently, his friend had gotten close with his sister as the artist spent most of her afternoons at The Spoon alone sometimes and Amber started giving her free milkshakes and chatting with her during breaks.

“Give me a minute!” he yelled back. “God! Just put on more lip gloss or something!”

He heard his sister huff before her footsteps echoed away.

“Sorry,” he apologized to the ghost but Cyrus just shook his head, fondly.

“It’s fine. She’s right, you should go so you don’t miss out on all the fun! And I promise you, you are going to have tons of fun! Andi throws the best parties!”

Cyrus patted his shoulders before stepping back.

T.J. bit his lip. “Cyrus, I…” He trailed off, his words stuck in his throat once more.

“Hmm? What is it?”

As the ghost looked back at him with innocent doe eyes, T.J.’s heart twitched and his stomach churned with nerves.

Instead of saying what was on his mind, he simply grabbed his coat from his closet and put it on.

“I’ll be home before ten,” he promised Cyrus.

Unaware of the turmoil in T.J.’s head, the boy chuckled. “I’ll be here.”

They bid each other goodbye before T.J. left his room and met up with Amber and his mom downstairs.

……......

The party was as impressive as Cyrus’ stories, if not more. Bright fairy lights and shining streamers lined the walls. Andi’s mom was at the DJ booth while her dad’s band played live music. There were feather boas, giant sunglasses, and colorful party hats for everyone to accessorize with. The halls, living room, and dining room were filled with his dancing classmates.

T.J. found himself by the long table of snacks, munching on nachos and drinking sugary soda. A party hat was on his head, stuck there by Amber earlier before she went off to dance with Andi and Jonah.

He had chatted earlier with some of his teammates who were in attendance but they, too, eventually left him to take part in other party activities.

“Hey, Kippen.” Buffy sidled up to him, a purple feather boa around her neck and a red cup in her hand. “Enjoying yourself so far?”

T.J. grinned. “This dip is fantastic! Bowie made it?”

“Yep! Old family recipe, he says. He’s very proud of it.”

T.J. nodded. “It’s great.” He looked around. “Where’s Marty? Thought you two would be slow dancing or something.”

He smirked when Buffy blushed, looking embarrassed.

“Weirdo! The song’s not even a slow dance song! And why would I slow dance with Marty?!”

Cyrus had told him that the two had been dancing around each other since middle school. They had a brief falling out but Buffy had sought out Marty’s company again after Cyrus fell into his coma. Their friendship had rekindled but no more than that.

And T.J. didn’t understand why they hadn’t gotten together yet.

“You two just seem close,” he stated before taking a sip of his soda. “Everyone else can see that he’s crazy about you. And no matter how much you hide it, you are, too.”

“S-Shut up, Kippen! We’re just friends!” Buffy looked away, her cheeks still red.

“If you say so,” T.J. sang, his grin wide and teasing. “But, I’m just saying. If you don’t make a move now, you might regret it later.”

Buffy huffed. “Whatever.” Then, she turned to him with a sly smile. “What about you? Any girl caught your eye? Maybe someone here?” She nudged with him with an elbow. “Lots of pretty girls.”

T.J.’s stomach flip-flopped and he put the plate of nachos down and took another nervous sip of his drink. He hadn’t come out to them yet. There hadn’t been a good time to do so. He knew they would accept him, though, since they did love and accept Cyrus. But, the nerves and doubts were still there.

Swallowing the lump in his throat, he gathered his nerves.

“Actually… I’m not into girls,” he said as casually as he could despite the fact that he felt like throwing up.

Buffy’s grin diminished a little as she comprehended his words. Then, her eyes widened as her mouth fell open.

“Oh,” she said.

With his heart thumping hard against his chest, T.J.’s body was on high-alert, an excuse ready on his lips and his legs about to bolt.

“Okay, any guys then?” Buffy asked, smiling sincerely.

And just like that, T.J. breathed, his heart calming down.

“Oh! Maybe Jonah?” Buffy teased, wiggling her brows. “He’s pretty cute. Everyone likes him.”

T.J. let out a laugh. Oh, he knew that, already. There was just something about that boy that drew everyone to him. Maybe it was the dimples. Cyrus did write a good page and a half about them in his journal.

“Yeah, he is,” T.J. agreed. “But, not my type. I don’t think he’s into guys like that, anyway.”

Buffy hummed. “Marty then?” she suggested with a slight edge to her voice.

T.J. laughed. “I’d never take him away from you, Driscoll.”

“Oh my god, stop!” Buffy kicked his leg but at least she was laughing now.

T.J. felt lighter… much lighter. It was a feeling that followed him every time he had come out to someone he cared about. One less secret to hide. One step closer to being true to himself. Though, he didn’t know if he could ever tell anyone else about his ability to see ghosts, at least they knew this other part of him that was just as important.

And, furthermore, he didn’t know if he could tell Buffy or the others about his crush on Cyrus, their comatosed friend whose spirit T.J. could see. Like that would go over well...not.

Something must have shown on his face because Buffy nudged him again.

“But… there is someone?” she asked, gently this time.

T.J. let out a staggered laugh. “Yeah… kind of.”

“Who is he? Is he here?”

T.J. shook his head. “He… uh… doesn’t go to our school.”

It was kind of true.

Buffy made a soft noise of disappointment. “That’s too bad. I would have loved to meet him.”

“To scare him away from me?”

Buffy snorted. “I wouldn’t do that!”

She might if she knew who it was. After all, she was quite protective of her friends.

Sighing as his mood dampened, T.J. shrugged. “It doesn’t matter. I don’t even know if he feels the same way.”

“He’s not gay?”

T.J. hummed. “He is. Just… he probably just sees me as a friend. A really good one. Who occasionally flirts with him.”

“You can flirt?!”

“Shut up!” He nudged her elbow as she cackled. “I don’t know. I want to tell him but… I’m scared of rejection. I mean… he’s so smart and nice and great and I’m just… me.”

For a moment, Buffy only looked at him, lips pursed in thought.

T.J. never thought the day would come when he would end up talking about a crush with someone other than his sister. And he was well-aware that Buffy was, in a way, allergic to talks about relationships and feelings, but he appreciated her listening to him, all the same.

“Well, here’s some advice someone else gave me,” she finally said, flashing him a pointed look before smirking. “If you don’t make a move now, you might regret it.”

T.J. rolled his eyes at her antics. “Gee, I wonder who said that.”

Buffy laughed. “If it works out, let me know. Maybe I’ll do the same thing.”

That was surprising. Yet, T.J. couldn’t help but feel grateful.

He and Buffy spent the rest of the party talking until the girl was pulled away to dance with Andi and Libby. Eventually, he, too, was enticed by their high energy and ended up awkwardly dancing along with them to zero judgment.

Cyrus was right. Of course, he was.

T.J. really did have a ton of fun.

….......

When he and Amber arrived home, he not only had a party hat on his head but also a feather boa wrapped around his neck. Amber was decked head to foot in glitter and sequins, a plastic tiara on her head. She bid him goodnight in a sing-song voice before dancing to her room and shutting the door behind her.

He stared after her in confusion before shaking his head and entering his own room.

Cyrus was sat on his bed, reading one of his books. He looked up when T.J. closed the door and grinned at his get-up.

“Oohh, you look festive! How was the party?”

T.J. sank down on the bed next to him, the fatigue of the party catching up to him.

“Tons of fun,” he replied, taking off the hat and feather boa before lying flat on his back and closing his eyes. “You were right. Andi throws the best parties. I think I probably danced more than I’ve ever danced in my entire life. I’m so exhausted.” He opened his eyes and saw Cyrus watching him with a fond smile. “I wish you were there. You should have come.”

“I could have,” Cyrus admitted with a nod. “But… it’s not like I can talk to anyone else aside from you, right? And, it would be a waste to show off my cool dance moves if no one else can see it.”

“Maybe at Andi’s next party.”

Cyrus sighed and looked away. “Yeah. Maybe.”

Even if he wanted to continue lying down and possibly just go to sleep, T.J. pushed himself up.

“So… I came out to Buffy.”

Cyrus’ head snapped over to him, eyes wide. “Really? How did it go?”

“Good. Really good.”

Cyrus smiled. “Buffy is one of the most trustworthy people I know. When I came out to her, she didn’t make me feel like I was different.”

T.J. had felt the same way. In fact, she left him thinking quite a lot about him and Cyrus…about how he felt about the other boy.

“I… uh… also told her about… the guy I like,” he said as casually as he could, taking a peek at the ghost from the corner of his eye.

Cyrus seemed to have stiffened, his smile diminishing a little. “Oh? You like someone? Y-You…” His voice cracked and he quickly cleared his throat. “You didn’t tell me that you… like someone.” He cleared his throat again. “Who is it? If you don’t mind me asking.”

T.J.’s heart thundered in his chest, he could practically hear it booming in his ears. He wondered if Cyrus could hear it. His cheeks felt pretty flushed too and his palms were suddenly sweaty.

He wiped his hands on his jeans.  “I don’t mind… you asking, I mean.”

He swallowed, wracking his head to find the right words. He had never confessed about his feelings before. People made it look so easy in movies and T.V. shows. They never said anything about feeling like you were about to throw up.

“U-Um… So… this guy… I met him, recently,” he began.

Cyrus wasn’t looking at him, choosing instead to stare at the wall across from them, but he leaned close to T.J., intently listening.

“He’s really cute,” T.J. continued, unable to resist the smile tugging at his lips and the little chuckle that followed. “And smart and kind and he makes me feel… like I can do anything. Because of him, I’ve made friends and I’m not as… lonely as I used to be. He made me see parts of myself that I thought were bad things to be good things. And he makes me want to be a better person.”

He finished by releasing a deep breath, his chest feeling lighter, like a weight had been lifted from it.

Meanwhile, Cyrus had turned his head to look at him as he spoke, a look of wonder on his face.

“You really like him, huh?” he stated.

T.J. tilted his head. “I do.”

“He’s a lucky guy.”

“I don’t know about that. He might not like me back.”

Cyrus looked absolutely scandalized for him. “That’s absurd! Who wouldn’t like you, T.J.?! You’re sweet and funny and really nice even if you pretend not to be and you’re really handsome to boot!”

T.J.’s heart skipped a beat. “You think I’m handsome?” he asked, almost in a daze.

In an instant, Cyrus’ cheek appeared to darken. “Y-Yeah…” he stammered. “Of course, you are.” He cleared his throat. “And, if the guy you like doesn’t like you back… Well, he’s missing out on someone great.”

He was just complimenting T.J., that was who Cyrus was. Always so sweet and kind and aiming to make you feel better with his words.

But, T.J. couldn’t stop this flash of hope bubbling inside him. That, maybe, just a little, Cyrus felt the same way as he did.

“You should tell him,” continued Cyrus.

Fear gripped him. “What if he rejects me?”

“What if he doesn’t? You’ll never know. I know all about regrets, T.J. You don’t want chances to slip by you.”

Buffy’s words echoed in his head, encouraging and believing in him. Sure, it had been a jibe but it was also sincere and supportive. Just like Cyrus was being now.

But, Cyrus didn’t know T.J. felt these things for him. What if things change between?

“T.J.? Are you okay?”

Cyrus’ pretty brown eyes were filled with concern for him, T.J.’s prolonged silence worrying him.

He didn’t know where the sudden burst of courage came from but by the time he realized what he was doing, his hand had moved. His fingers slipped in between Cyrus’ own, intertwining the digits that fit like a puzzle. Cyrus’ skin was freezing cold against T.J.’s own clammy ones, but he didn’t want to let go.

His simple little action caused Cyrus’ eyes to widen and his mouth fall open slightly.

It wasn’t the first time they’ve held hands, but this one meant something different. It was an answer, a question, and a confession all at the same time.  

T.J. knew the boy was a bit oblivious sometimes, but surely, he was smart enough to figure out what T.J. holding his hand meant.

“I’m fine,” T.J. said, softly. “I’m… great.”

He gently rubbed the top of Cyrus’ hand with a thumb and watched as realization dawned upon the other boy’s face. 

Cyrus let out a soft gasp. “T.J….”

The blonde swallowed. “Cyrus… I like you…”

For a moment, the other boy only stared at him, frozen in shock. And, then, T.J. could feel his hold on Cyrus’ hand slipping.

In a panic, he exclaimed, “No! Wait! Don’t disappear! Please!”

Cyrus’ transparent image solidified a bit more as he grounded himself back to Earth and he was still looking at T.J. with wide eyes of disbelief.

“You don’t have to like me back,” the blonde quickly explained himself, in case the ghost decided to disappear again. “I just… wanted to tell you.”

The hand in his hold relaxed a little but was still tense. Cyrus watched him closely, like he was deciphering what T.J. was thinking.

“But… why me?” he finally asked, voice cracking a little. “I’m a ghost.”

T.J. couldn’t resist smiling. “Because you’re you.” He gently squeezed his hand. “Because when I first moved here, I wasn’t sure if I could really begin again. I didn’t have any real friends and I thought giving up on helping ghosts will give me a shot at a normal life. But, then, you appeared and you didn’t want anything from me but friendship. You helped me make friends with your own friends. And you reminded me why I wanted to help ghosts in the first place, no matter how much I complain about it ruining my life. And… well… you’re really cute.”

At that, Cyrus looked down, bashfully, but he was smiling.

“You called me cute when we first met, too,” T.J. pointed out, teasingly.

Immediately, Cyrus let out a strangled sort of noise. “No, I didn’t!” he denied.

T.J. laughed. “Yes, you did! You said, ‘Hey, you’re kinda cute.’”

“I-I… T-That wasn’t… I-I meant…”

“For the record, I thought you were kind of cute, too.”

Where did that confidence come from? Not that T.J. was complaining because his words seemed to have struck Cyrus speechless again.

“I… T.J….” The ghost bit his lip before sighing. “I’m a ghost.”

“Yes, I’m aware.”

“You can’t date a ghost.”

“So… if you weren’t a ghost, you’d date me?”

“I didn’t say that!”

T.J. flashed him a pointed look, amused.

“Okay… I wouldn’t say ‘no’,” Cyrus admitted. “But… the fact of the matter is that I’m still a ghost right now. Dating would be impossible. And if I move on…” He trailed off, a sort of dark gloom falling over him. “I don’t want to do that to you.”

“Things don’t have to change.” T.J. placed his other hand on top of the one he was already holding. “We can just be… us. Like always.”

“Except for the fact that now I know you like me and you know that I like you and...” Cyrus gasped, realizing what he unintentionally revealed.

T.J.’s cheeks burned as his heart soared and butterflies filled his stomach with pleasant fluttering that also kind of made him want to throw up.

Cyrus liked him!

“You like me,” he breathed out.

Cyrus cleared his throat. “Y-Yeah…”

“Wow. I did not expect that.”

“Me neither.”

Cyrus let out a soft giggle that made T.J. smile. Despite the coldness of the boy’s touch, he only felt warmth.

All those months of quietly admiring and liking the ghost as he made sense of his feelings…all the work and research he did to help him…all the little hints of something more in T.J.’s every word had led to this moment…he felt like flying.

“So… what now?” Cyrus quietly asked, playing with T.J.’s fingers.

Now… he didn’t know. He never really thought he would get this far with Cyrus. And, clearly, neither did Cyrus.

“The fact of the matter right now is that I’m still a ghost. And when I moved on, it would only hurt you.”

“Unless, I find a way to get you back to your body, at last.”

Cyrus opened his mouth as if to argue but thought better of it and just stayed silent.

T.J. had to admit, he felt kind of lost now. The dilemma of their situation is heavier than he imagined. This wasn’t like the movies, at all. It was difficult and there were many factors to consider. 

Either way, both he and Cyrus could end up heartbroken.

“I don’t want things to change between us,” he confessed.

Cyrus squeezed his hand. “Me neither.”

T.J. swallowed. “So… like I suggested earlier. We can just be us. And the whole… moving on thing… we’ll figure it out when we get there. But, for now, we can just act the same as we always do. We’re friends, after all. What do you think?”

Finally, Cyrus smiled before leaning his head against T.J.’s shoulder. “Avoiding heartbreaking situations is my forte.” He peered up at T.J. with a soft smile. “I like you.”

His tone was soft and resigned with a hint of sadness underneath the affection.

T.J. could only hold his hand tighter and never wanted to let go. “I like you, too.”

Yes… they would both be heartbroken.

…….....

They did continue to act the same as they always did. Except, now, of course, they both knew they liked each other. And the little touches, the fleeting looks, and the sweet words held a whole new meaning for them.

T.J. didn’t dare do more than just hold his hand and Cyrus still liked to press up against his side whenever they watched movies. They still talked a lot about how they spent their days, shared stories, and teased each other.

T.J. told Amber everything that happened, even though he knew she disapproved (she was his sister, of course, he would share his joy with her). He could often catch her him staring at him in worry when she thought he wouldn’t notice.

And, T.J. would also be lying if he said he wasn’t happy. He was so incredibly happy! Just knowing that Cyrus felt the same way as he did about him made everything so much better.

Cyrus, too, looked happier. He was always smiling from the very first moment they met but, after their mutual confession, he smiled so much more now. He looked less guarded and less lonely and he no longer hid the moments when he would just look at T.J. with obvious affection.

T.J. was happy.

But, he should have known by now that happy moments can make you forget that sad moments can follow.

Or, in his case, truly heartbreaking moments.

A month or so had passed since the confession and the day began like any other ordinary day. Cyrus was out, doing whatever it was he liked to do in his solo ghost time. T.J. was at home, playing video games in the living room.

His phone beeped with an oncoming message and he paused his game to look at it.

It was from Buffy, sent to their group chat with Andi and Jonah: EMERGENCY. MEET AT THE SPOON AT 12.

The wall clock said it was now 11:30. He wasted no time getting dressed.

“Mom! Amber! I’m going to The Spoon!” he called out as he ran out through the front door.

With his hood over his head, T.J. walked to the diner. He tried not to break into a run, using the walk to think about what was wrong. 

What was the emergency that had Buffy going caps lock on them?

Naturally, since he practically sped out the door when he got the text, he was the first one there. He slid into their usual table and waited. Five minutes later, Andi arrived followed by Jonah. Neither of them had any idea what was going on either.

Finally, Buffy arrived, running through the door looking panicked. She found them immediately and ran right over.

“Guys, I have awful news!” She slid into the booth next to Andi. Her hands were shaking and her eyes looked teary, like she would break into tears at any moment.

“Buffy! Breathe!” Andi tried to calm her down by taking her hands. “What’s wrong?”

The girl opened her mouth and a soft sob came out. She took a deep breath, trying to get her bearings together.

“I went with my dad to the hospital this morning, he had an appointment,” she said, voice a little shaky. “So, I figured I’d visit Cyrus for a bit since it’s been a while because of all the holidays and school craziness and stuff. I talked to his parents and they told me….” 

She couldn’t seem to go on.

Dread filled T.J. as he watched the normally strong-willed girl struggle to talk. His own hands were shaking and beside him, Jonah’s knee wouldn’t stop moving.

“What’s going on Buffy?” Jonah whispered. “What did they say?”

Buffy’s lip wobbled and she bit them to try and hold back her tears. But, in the end, her emotions won.

“They told me… they’re going to take Cyrus off life support.”

And, just like that, the world came crashing down.

[mundeejarate]

Circus of Freaks (CoF) OC

(This is gonna have mistakes and I just made this OC like minutes ago-)

Name: Chloe Ferrell

Gender: female

Sexuality: Bisexual prefers men

Height: 5'10 -keep in mind women back then were like 5'2 or so, so Chloe is like a giant during this time-

Weight: 148 LBS

From: Down in the South America

Accent: Southern but not thickly Southern

Outfit:

(I chose this dress because I wanted something similar to what I wore to a wedding as a child which to me was gorgeous and absolutely stunning) Chloe does not wear shoes she is looked down at by women and men for the way she is being barefooted all the time but she hates shoes can't convince her to wear any.

Hairstyle: Unlike other women with all the weird painful looking hairstyles and all the accessories they had in their hair Chloe didn't wear one accessory or had a fancy hairstyle she just left it down which most didn't mind since they're stunned by her natural curly wavy hair (and quite frizzy)

(Here's an example except her hair is dark brown colored)

Ethnicity: Mixed white and native

Since there was LOTS of racism back then (and still is) some people would avoid or look in loathe at Chloe mainly in the summer when she gets tanner and also darker making the native show more obviously but still she's more white than native she knows that for sure so she is more paler but peachy skin toned

Birthplace: Oklahoma which also known as Indian territory Chloe does not tell where she is from to people she only and always says "from the South" Or "From America" Since she's now in England with her older half sister living together

Age: 22

Eye color: brown

Wide lips with a little chubby body but slim and lengthy with a bit of curves and big bondongas (˵ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°˵)

When Chloe was able to finally live on her own and away from her broken messed up family even though she loved them with all her heart she just needed to get away. But hearing from her older half sister Allison she decided to travel with her to England and live with her there. When finally arriving and getting adjusted Chloe hears about the freaky circus full of freaky people and "creatures" So she decided to stop by and look at the place. Once reaching destination she immediately sees the first freaky people Etch and Dalien the conjoined twins. When Etch flirts with her and telling her he could let her in for free if she gave him a kiss and astonishingly it worked she only kissed him on the cheek being the heart of gold and couldn't say no person she is she did (not to mention already taking a small liking to Etch by his voice and looks) When inside she takes her seat watching the show they gave seeing Half boy, Goat girl, Cannibal Twins, and knife woman along with Etch and Dalien she was very fascinated and stunned but tried best to keep the expressions she had not too obvious as she did see them freaks but more like just different from normal people and stood out she didn't pity or seen them the way others did. After the show the freaks did noticed that the rest of the audience seemed disgusted or thought of Chloe as a freak keeping distance away from her and whispering to one another since she seemed like a giant to women and even some men and for as a weirdo no shoes not really dressed like the people there. When everyone left Chloe stayed waiting for all to leave but was stopped by the conjoined twins as they asked and wondered if she would like to join the circus and surprisingly after persuasion and convincing words she did. They did take her back and had to mark her as in taking a tooth out which she actually needed a tooth removing having a bad cavity so she pulled out the bad tooth herself. Etch and Dalien haven't met anyone like her which no one has anyway, then things have turned now having to be kept in a cage with the others and all she did end up fighting back a bit not liking this a bit but gave in didn't want to cause no trouble anyway she stayed in a bigger cage next to the Cannibal twins and the Morgan twins. Chloe wondered what in the living hell are kids doing in here being locked up they didn't seem like the others but kinda thought they're probably hiding something that she doesn't know or can see.

After a bit at the circus being locked up and all now being told the truth of this place and that everyone here was a normal being that was turned into freaks by the brothers she was scared for her life. She was the easiest going out of everyone not much of a talker but when did her voice was shy and soft quite skittish. She didn't argue or say anything bad to Ringy, Tickets or the Michelson twins and went along with everything causing no trouble. She would be in the ticket booth with Tickets helping give out tickets to customers and would chit chat. Sometimes Ringy and Chloe talked a bit and even Etch would talk with her when at the ticket booth. Chloe would chuckle and have a little smile from Daliens terrible puns and the funny things Tickets would tell her, and when Ringy told her about the Michelson twins of how they were homeless and all she felt very sorry and terrible for them couldn't blame them for becoming like this since they had a terrible life so couldn't forgive what they done but give another chance and forgive them. Chloe was more interested and awe by Ringy which he also awed her finding her mysterious as well and stunning for the hair and the way she dresses differently and mainly for the size of her. Whenever locked up she would do her best to make the others laugh and smile and comfort the others mainly interacting with the Morgan twins, Halfy and the Cannibal twins she was seen sensitive and very sweet lacking backbone and a heart of gold by all the others. Goaty and Chloe didn't get along well both having anger issues and easily aggravated/irritated. She really loved Igor and Blake being the child and baby fever woman she is liking to interact with children. When they're fed Chloe had an amazing appetite eating like Dalien but didn't seem to gain a pound really and would even receive apples from Etch which would make her face and heart flutter a bit. When the Morgans asked about Chloe's story and all how she came here and England she told most some of her life which was got the others attention. As a child when only 5 her mother was murdered being motherless most of her life, then having a bit of the Cinderella story of father finding another woman the "step" Mother and step siblings a older step sister and younger step brother which she saw them as siblings but didn't see their mother as her "step" Mother only calling her by her name, her papa emotionally and mentally abused her and the family being a German and whatever else he was part of alcoholic he was but Chloe still loved him wholeheartedly and dearly for he was still a loving silly papa he was being the one that mainly understood him. And that the family was loving silly and crazy ofc but also broken and messed up growing up in violence seeing her own family members would argue and even fight as getting older. Was traumatized by it and also by a man when 15 that always liked to be too close to her and had to put his hands on her always staring at her and talk to her in creepy manner putting his lips on her face once and her hand(s) seemed to target her then her younger sister since Chloe was older. He was a crazy man too fighting and argue with the air and talk to literally the air when there's no one there. And grew up lonely and distant not really having friends and all and growing up in poverty close to being homeless. The freaks really were heartfelt and sorry feeling pity for her and so did Ringy and the etch and Dalien who overheard and stood by the tent listening. Chloe would sometimes even stay up whole nights or sleep not well like others having insomnia couldn't even stay asleep always waking up having dark circles under her eyes.

(SPOILER WARNING IF DON'T WANT SPOILERS DON'T CONTINUE!! THIS CCONTAINS CHAPTER 9 ENDING BUT DIFFERENT)

When the Morgans broke free out the cage and free the others Chloe kept guard and watch as she also had to distract them for the others as they all quietly escaped as knife woman stayed behind to get revenge on Tickets which she did Chloe had to fight back and persuade them they could live with her and her sister and have better lives and be happy she in tears also a bit blushing mess confessed her feelings to Etch and all wanting them to start over and that they could put all this behind them taking his gun throwing it away and hugging them trying not to sob a wreck from almost at death and from the overwhelment of what happened seeing what happened to Tickets feeling sad he's gone now, enjoying his company when she could. But she did convince them as they both had their moments being at finally peace and quiet ( (˵ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°˵)) then Chloe gets a smooch from Etch and yea romantic moment then yuh happily ever after they lived with Allison and Chloe living together happily as would visit and see the others after their escape to see how they're doing now. Happy ever after TEEHEE the end LMAO-

(please no hate I spend like 2 hours non stop on this!! -😭😭)

Circus of Freaks and all the characters belong to @kibadoglover45 ! Go read her comic and go support her Patreon if you can and see her other content!

[gemininerd3000-blog]

Main characters:

This is a story I’ve been working on as these are some of the characters. I hope you like some of them😊

Name: Raven Bloom

Age: 16

Gender: Female

Best Friends: Celeste(Gemini), Crystal(Taurus), and Shadow

Personality:  Quiet(when around people she doesn't know), funny, smart, brave, childish, and also a rebel

Crushes: You'll find out in the story

Powers: Telekinesis, mind reading, dark magic, and making people hallucinate

Likes: Reading dark books, deciphering codes, the quite, laughing, Loves to kill bad creatures and tease people, drawing, getting in trouble with Celeste, and eating chocolate (she loves chocolate...a lot)

Dislikes: Vegetables, clowns, bullies, being left, being alone, when her friends don't talk to her, when friends are sad, when friends don't trust/believe her, and being yelled at

Other: Got into a foster home because her parents were brutally murdered in front of her. She tried to tell the police who the killer was but no one believed her. A few years later the man she accused of murdering her parents confessed and then got put in jail.

Crimes: Stole a box of chocolates from the principal and vandalized a corner store with Celeste

Skills: Deciphering codes, knowing if you're lying, and drawing

Weapon: A gun (sniper)or a bow and arrow

Favorite colors:  Black, blue, and red

Sexuality: Bisexual

Birthday: April,12,2002

                           Aries

Facial-feature: Black curly hair with red highlights, dark green eyes, bright big smile, dark brown skin (African American),and behind her left ear is a tattoo of the zodiac sign: Aries (she's had it since she was born)

Name: Crystal Blackwell

Age: 17

Gender: Female

Best Friends: Celeste(Gemini), Raven(Aries), Rece(Aries), and Shadow

Personality: Funny, motherly, goofball, flirtatious, confident, sweet, and social butterfly

Crushes: You’ll find out in the story

Powers: Healing, mind reading, and growing plants with a swish of her hand

Likes: Reading, drawing, listening to music, talking to people she's comfortable with, and food

Dislikes: When people eat with their mouth open and when friends are sad

Other: Got into the foster home because her parents just...they just disappeared. She stayed with her grandmother but she soon passed away and got put into the foster home

Crimes: None

Skills: Drawing, handcrafting, and green thumb

Weapons: Gun(Submachine gun)

Favorite colors: Green

Sexuality: Pansexual

Birthday: May,16,2001

Taurus

Facial-feature: Medium brown hair with green highlights at the bottom, light brown eyes, a big bright smile, and on the left side of her neck is a tattoo the zodiac sign: Taurus(she's had it sense she was born)

Name: Shadow Quinn

Age: 17

Gender: Female

Friends: Celeste(Gemini), Raven(Aries), Rece(Aries), and Crystal(Taurus)

Personality: Seems mean but is really nice if you get to know her, badass, funny, loud, strong, brave, smart, quick, protective, loving, caring, and crazy but in a good way

Crushes: You'll find out in the story

Powers: Angle wings and mind control

Likes: anything emo

Dislikes: Pink, girly stuff, when people mess with ones she cares about, and when people annoy her

Other: Is in the foster home because she was found in the forest. No memory. No home. No family. No name. She chose her own name and they put her in the foster home.

Crimes: Falling in love with a human and murdering someone

Skills: Boxing and shooting

Weapon: Guns, fists, and mind control

Favorite colors: Black, purple, and blue

Sexuality: Gender fluid

Birthday: May ,20,2001

Facial-feature: Short dark red hair, big brown eyes, wild goofy smile, and a tattoo above her rear that says "Fuck Off"

Name: Celeste Santos

Age: 15

Gender: Female

Best Friends: Raven (Aries), Rece(Aries), Crystal (Taurus), Shadow

Personality: Indecisive, afraid but will step up to the plate if need be, has courage when it comes to friends, nice, too nice, is a bit all over the place, forgetful, hates people who abuse animals, is a total weirdo,super childish, hilarious, bubbly, doesn't trust easily, insecure, and gets super nervous easily, is easily stepped over can be skipped, not very out there, introvert.

Crushes: You'll find out in the story

Powers: Shapeshifter, flying, empath, duplication, and invisibility

Likes: Big hugs(they make her feel special and smile) ,being told she matters and that she's loved(she doesn't feel like that sometimes lol) ,laughing, being around friends, poetry, reading fantasy books, watching movies with loved ones, watching scary movies(even though she gets scared), the little moments, fireworks, snow, swimming, her friends laughing and smiling, and being mischievous with Raven and Rece

Dislikes: Being left alone, being yelled at, being bothered when focusing or reading, when others are mean to friends, when friends are sad, feeling weak, feeling lost, feeling scared, being chased, remembering bad memories, laughing out loud, being around people she doesn't know or feels uncomfortable around, and showing her smiles or tears

Other: Says sorry to much, talks a lot, thinks out loud sometimes, and secretly hates humans, gets scared easily but when it comes to friends she is brave, runs to friends when scared, she also blushes a lot when she gets nervous or shy. She's in the foster home because one day she woke up and her parents were gone. They left. She was alone for a while until someone found her and she met the girls at the foster home.

Crimes: Duplicated in the middle of someone's body, she turned invisible to hide and someone bumped into her, they fell into the street and a car ran them over them, flew into an orphanage and killed all the orphans as it exploded. Rece was there and laughed his ass off. ( That's when Rece and Celeste first meet.)He liked the way she was weird and accidentally killed two people and about 30 orphans. Celeste being a weirdo said "Sorry!" and Rece came over to her and said, "No be proud!" he then walked her to her destination to make sure she didn't die and then disappeared into the shadows. Celeste just stood there in amazement and said, "Awesome!"

Skills: Multitasking, quick thinker, and good with words(she can be persuasive when she wants to be)

Weapon: Combat shotgun and a blade

Favorite colors: Purple, blue, and white

Sexuality: Straight

Birthday: June,15,2003

                         Gemini

Facial-feature: Long dark brown wavy hair with purple highlights at the end, big chocolate brown eyes, tannish brownish skin, small smile, thin black glasses, and on her wrists is a tattoo of the zodiac sign: Gemini (had it since she was born)

Name: Rece Klark Bulford

Age: 16

Gender: Male

Friends: Celeste (Gemini), Crystal (Taurus), Shadow, Nathaniel, Adrien, Ashley, and Zack

Personality: Cocky (some times), hilarious, kinda of a lone wolf, doesn't trust easily, can be a dick but can also be the bestest friend there ever was, will kill anyone without hesitation if they hurt one of his loved ones, serious but deep down childish, and mischievous, he's also a badass

Crushes: You'll find out in the story

Powers: Being able to go into shadows and come out of a shadow not to far from the one that he went into and travel through shadows, Create illusions, and create fake emotions and feelings, He can create an area that is pure darkness and nothing except him and whoever/whatever he wants can enter and exit. The last power and possibly the greatest,he can take your shadow from you and you won't be able to go out in the sun if sunlight touches you you'll die like disintegrate into darkness and if your shadow ever gets out of his possession you can come back to life.

Likes: Likes dark jokes, orphans(that are sad), fires especially when he starts them, Snuffles, shiny gems, he loves the few people he cares about, teasing Celeste, also loves when people fall on accident (he finds it hilarious)

Dislikes: Humans and people in general, hugs and good emotions, also hates with a passion, people who don't know what they're talking about/are ignorant

Other: If you die while he has your shadow he can give you a new life and a new body, new powers, he can level you up or level you down, dick you over (he just can't change you mentally.) Only cares for 7 people (but they're unknown) Snuffles can use telekinesis to talk to Rece and if Snuffles could talk he'd go on and on about enslaving Rece's race. Something happened to Rece in his past and the Fireflies took him in(You'll find out in the story)

Pets: Cerberus

Name: Snuffels

-He has the power to instill fear into the hearts of all. His aura will have this fear factor only the brave and true of heart dare attack. When he bites you it puts a poison in your body that will kill you within two weeks unless you have a good way to heal it. He feeds on all peoples bad feelings and emotions like anxiety hate fear jealousy etc

Crimes: Arson murder, Mass murder of orphans, Assault, Illegal owner ship of an exotic animal(even tho he's raised Snuffles from pup hood)

Skills: Quick thinker, can express himself in words, blood, fear, hate, and mental images

Weapon: Scythe

Favorite colors: Black, Red, Purple

Sexuality: Straight

Birthday: April,16,2002

                            Aries

Facial-feature: Curly dark brown hair, cold dark eyes, huge wide smile(he usually smiles with his soul), and he has a tattoo of the zodiac sign: Aries on the right side of his chest, also he's super tall.

[kdollmarie23]

Haven't done one of these in awhile

This could be fun or extremely sad 1: Name• keisha 2: Age • twenty freaking six 3: 3 Fears • spiders, car accident, heights 4: 3 things I love• animals, cosmetology, singing 5: 4 turns on• tattoos, androgyny, intelligence, manners, thighs. 6: 4 turns off• drugs, no sense of direction, mean, 7: My best friend• my cat and dog lol…. wow that sounds lame. 8: Sexual orientation• bisexual 9: My best first date• I’ll never tell 😽 10: How tall am I • 5'3" 11: What do I miss• free health insurance 12: What time was I born • midnight 13: Favorite color• green 14: Do I have a crush• yea 15: Favorite quote• idk 16: Favorite place• anywhere near the ocean 17: Favorite food• Thai 18: Do I use sarcasm• pretty much everything I say is sarcastic 19: What am I listening to right now• some weird ass movie on the tv. 20: First thing I notice in new person• their hair, what they’re wearing, and their smile. 21: Shoe size• 7 ½-8 22: Eye color• hazel brown/green lol 23: Hair color• right now it’s cool copper/ brown 24: Favorite style of clothing• feminine polished grunge 25: Ever done a prank call? Not since 8th grade 27: Meaning behind my URL• at one point I was loveable, and I also loved cupcakes 28: Favorite movie• dirty love and beaches 29: Favorite song• you’re not alone by Saosin 30: Favorite band• the used and knuckle puck 31: How I feel right now• mehhh 32: Someone I love• my girlfriend 33: My current relationship status• in a relationship 34: My relationship with my parents• complicated 35: Favorite holiday• Halloween 36: Tattoos and piercing i have• 7 tattoos, ear piercing and Monroe 37: Tattoos and piercing i want• nipples and lighthouse haha 38: The reason I joined Tumblr• to keep in touch Jainna, and find cool pictures for my myspace that no one else had back in middle school 😹 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I don’t hate her. 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? Yea, my gf gets up way earlier than me and texts me “good morning” around the time I wake up. Haha it’s cute. 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? That would be my boss, and heck no. 42: When did I last hold hands? I few minutes ago ❤ 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? It feels like it takes for freaking ever, I need a good 2-3 hours or else I look like a monster. 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Surprisingly yes! Although I wish I hadn’t because it’s fucking cold out. 45: Where am I right now? In my living room. 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? I would be home and in bed If that were the case. I don’t trust anyone lol 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? Loud 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Neither since I was 15. 49: Am I excited for anything? I’m excited for the two news jobs I just started. I am now a freaking talent director for a modelingagency lol and back to doing hair! 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? No 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Pretty much every day if I’m working hahaha 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? Today 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? I unfortunately wouldn’t be shocked at this point. 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Yes 55: What is something I disliked about today? I had a good day today. 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Uhmm… I’d like to meet a pleiadian in human form, if they don’t exist, then I’d like to meet Britney Spears lol 57: What do I think about most? Lately my career path, family, and making my relationship work. 58: What’s my strangest talent? I can sing and do the splits! Hahaha is that strange enough? 59: Do I have any strange phobias? Fucking spiders…. ugh…. 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Both 61: What was the last lie I told? I have no idea, prolly that I wasn’t hungry or some shit lol 62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Video chatting is becoming a lot more fun, but phone if my hair isn’t done. 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Ghosts idk, aliens yes 64: Do I believe in magic? What kind? 65: Do I believe in luck? Idk I just broke a mirror so….. 66: What’s the weather like right now? Cold as fuck in march 67: What was the last book I’ve read? #GIRLBOSS 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Not really 69: Do I have any nicknames? Kiwi 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I have never really been injured by anything…. oh, actually, Dorothy from my 5th class kicked me in the shin while playing soccer in gym class and that felt awful…. like thinking back I can still feel it. Ouch. 71: Do I spend money or save it? I freaking LOVE spending money, but I know I need to save it because I’m an adult and I need to be responsible. 72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? Just tried, nope. 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? Oh yea 74: Favorite animal? Cats 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Going over notes for my new job 76: What do I think Satan’s last name is? Uhm idk 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? I believe by nicko vega 78: How can you win my heart? I don’t have one anymore 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? I don’t know, always laugh or some shit 80: What is my favorite word? Namaste 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr? There is more to Tumblr than just my page and my newsfeed???!! Lol 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Everyone should stop eating like shit because processed foods cause cancer and you need more veggies so go try some! 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? Idk 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? Wow what timing, I would be able to go invisible 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? If I was attracted to them lol 86: What is my current desktop picture? My pets 87: Had sex? Well of course 88: Bought condoms? Yea, practicing safe sex is important. 89: Gotten pregnant? No 90: Failed a class? College class 91: Kissed a boy? Yeah 92: Kissed a girl? Yes yes yes, finally 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Ya❤❤❤ 94: Had job? Yep 95: Left the house without my wallet? Prolly 96: Bullied someone on the internet? Lol yes 😞 sorry bout that 97: Had sex in public? Haha yea 98: Played on a sports team? Yes I was terrible 99: Smoked weed? Yea 100: Did drugs? No 101: Smoked cigarettes? Yes, I just quit yesterday 102: Drank alcohol? Yes 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Multiple times, I love steak and burgers too much 104: Been overweight? I think I am now 105: Been underweight? Nope, I wish 106: Been to a wedding? Yes, I love weddings 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Today 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yes 109: Been outside my home country?Do the Bahamas count? 110: Gotten my heart broken? Unfortunately so 111: Been to a professional sports game?Like a legit football and hockey game, yes 112: Broken a bone? No 113: Cut myself?Ya 114: Been to prom? I actually went to 4 proms, 3 with the same guy and my senior prom with someone else 😸 I love dressing up. 115: Been in airplane?Yaaaaasssss 116: Fly by helicopter?No, but I've had sex in one .... secret never have I ever question! 117: What concerts have I been to?Omg sooo many! I love concerts 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Oh yea 119: Learned another language?In the process 120: Wore make up?Everyday 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? 16 lol 122: Had oral sex? I mean yea 123: Dyed my hair?Si 124: Voted in a presidential election?I did! I voted for Gary Johnson because there is no way in hell I was voting for Trump or Hillary 125: Rode in an ambulance?When I was six 126: Had a surgery?Tonsils removed 127: Met someone famous?Some band members and Delilah in NYC!!!! 128: Stalked someone on a social network?My secret crush 129: Peed outside?Only when I was camping or wasted 130: Been fishing? Yea, i suck at this, and deep sea fishing almost killed me.... I just like to lay out and tan and enjoy the scenery 131: Helped with charity?Yes, cuts for a cause and habitat for humanity 132: Been rejected by a crush? Yea, maybe I'm a weirdo, but now I have a gf so who cares 133: Broken a mirror? Yea I literally just broke one this week, and my week has been going great since, not gonna lie! 134: What do I want for birthday? A new car