#sappy married couples amirite?

[deus-ex-mona]

kthn 🤝 lxl “it has to be you; apart from you, no one else would do”

[otvlanga]

Hc: Miraak has a huge crush on the LDB but doesn’t know how to convey his feelings and is just super awkward with romance in general

okay LOOOONG post time because I love last the dragonborn/first dragonborn shit OKAY. Very long post because god dammit, I ramble too much. This might sound like a toddler wrote it.

Miraak literally hasn’t seen another human being in 4,000 years, he probably loses his shit when the feeling of just being attracted to someone punches him in the face. 

He’s just chilling on a giant book in Apocrypha, dipping his toes in the ink water or something and planing how exactly he’s going to kill the Dragonborn to the very detail. Then they actually arrive in Apocrypha, and the very fibers of their souls are screaming out to each-other like “same hat!”, and it feels like every inch of himself is burning on the inside, while the outside remains blandly mild in the stale humid air of Apocrypha.

But he’s a strong minded man, so he swallows it down and continues on with his edgy monologue. He tells the Dragonborn he must kill them, but he can hardly bare hearing the words come from his own mouth as they’re paralyzed on the ground right in front of him. He can practically taste the power radiating off them, layers and layers of dragon souls woven together and wrapped around their own soul, the very soul he knew the in’s and out’s of despite not knowing a thing about the person that it belonged to. 

And THEN the poor man’s brain is like “oh no they’re hot” and he's dealing with emotions and thoughts that he hasn’t had since before the first era. He can’t even remember the faces of anyone he used to know, or whether or not he liked looking at them. All he knows is that he’s seeing a face that looks so foreign but feels so familiar, and he does like looking at it, and he doesn’t know why he does. All he knows is that the dragon soul inside of him is thrashing within it’s flesh prison, desperate to be as close as possible to it’s only match. 

Dragons by nature, are not empathetic or familial creatures. They can be, as such is the case with Paarthurnax, but it is not an instinct they have embedded in them like mortals do. Miraak is a human, cursed to the same raw feelings as any other would be. Dragon souls vibrate with each other on a level that human souls do not. A dragon can always feel another dragon. 

That sense of automatic familiarity paired with the inherent human desire for love and belonging? Paired together they do not bode well for a man trying to kill the only other living being in the universe who understands him. The only one. Every dov is a piece of Akatosh, all siblings in a special way, but no dragon will ever think, feel, and care the same way humans do. He could never find solace in the company of a dragon. 

Now that their souls have had a glimpse of each other, every moment he spends thinking of killing them sends the dragon inside of him wreathing in agony and distress, something dovah are not accustomed to feeling. Before he realizes it, he’s going out of his way to appear in spectral form in front of them to absorb the souls of their kills. He finds himself speaking to them, lingering for a few moments longer than necessary, invigorated just by the feeling of being near  them in an intangible spectral form.

He tries to convince himself that all these odd things he’s feeling are just his inner dovah aching for the power of absorbing their soul. He tells himself that after he kills them, it will all go away, and he’ll be able to finally tear free from Apocrypha. (hes dumb forgive him its been a while)

He has no need to show off, all he needs is to get the job done and over with as quickly as possible. And yet, he casts Dragon Aspect on himself without even realizing it, dancing around them in combat and stalling, using the Thu’um when he doesn’t even need to. He doesn’t realize that his actions mimic a dragon’s, bringing as much focus on themselves when they want to appear boastful and magnificent, rare moments of civility and friendly indulgence where they bask in each other’s vanity and challenge each other in friendly competition. 

The dragon companions he keeps with him in Apocrypha are very confused as to why he’s technically doing the dragon equivalent of flirting when he’s supposed to be killing them and reaping their power. Humans are so weird amirite?

If the Dragonborn spares him and finds a way to free him from Apocrypha and team up with him, he would not be able to properly address or recognize his feelings for a long time. It’s not until he’s grown accustomed to seeing couples hold each other close in the cold and whisper sweet things to each other, or heard a few sappy love songs/poems from bards that it starts to dawn on him. And when it does, he’s distressed because he remembers next to nothing about what it means to care for someone. Even in his time as a Dragon Priest under Alduin’s rule, he didn’t get to indulge in petty things like love and affection. His role was a full time commitment. Of course he had seen people courting each other outside of just having children, but he had never experienced that himself. 

He’d show his affections in very strange ways, because he isn’t quite sure how to say it, and he’s still in partial denial of it all. It would be borderline annoying and obsessive things, like insisting on healing all of the LDB’s wounds even when they’re perfectly capable of doing it themselves, or needlessly jumping in front of them during battles with dragons because he gets over-protective without realizing it. It gets to the point where the LDB has to pull him aside like ”bro what the fuck is your problem it’s getting exhausting” and then cue the cheesy awkward and dramatic fanfiction love admission trope. 

also do u like, know how INSANE it would be to the rest of Tamriel if TWO Dragonborns of legend teamed up, let alone got married or something? They would probably be two of the most important and powerful people alive. Especially with all the forbidden knowledge Miraak had obtained over the few millennia he spent in Apocrypha. Like, I’m serious. If they defeated Alduin together and saved the world? They would probably be worshiped. They would almost be Talos level of worshiped, eventually. 

also just like imagine if they took power over the Empire. Like, a Dragonborn emperor and Dragonborn (whatever your ldb idenitifes as, empress/emperor/sovereign/etc) and maybe secured a new ‘Dragonborn’ bloodline/heired family. And the LDB would have Odahviing and Parrturnax on their side. Just imagine the power they’d have. 

I’ve been meaning to write a fic about that for a long time actually. I’ll get to it soon I swear.

[hebescus]

so,,,some of you wouldn't mind some fic recs so here's me recommending my favorite lawlight fics you probably have read before but i ramble about it anyway. here you go :

and indeed there will be time (incomplete/abandoned?)

Soulmate AU where you stop aging at 18 until you meet your soulmate. I'd say this is my favorite fanfiction of all time. Seriously. Doesn't make me cry hard but makes me cry repeatedly. The emotions, the bitterweetness, the writing, the characterization, the yearning UGHH. It's just out of this world. Every morning I check on this fic in case it's not abandoned after all bcs I have more hope on an update of this fic than life itself.

white chocolate roses (completed) & romance (oneshot sequel)

AU where Light is a cardiologist and L is his terminally ill patient. I didn't know what I expected, but I did not expect crying so hard that i still cry sometimes when i think abt it. The characterization is AMAZING and don't get me started with the writing. If you can tell what's gonna happen just by looking at the description and you can't take heavy angst, I don't think this fic is for you (srsly if someone warn me i'd never read it). But the last paragraph of romance tho....

This is How I Disappear (completed)

Canon divergence where L wins and Light is executed. You might know about this one, as you should. It's a genfic, but holy shit FEELS. Pure pain and beautiful writing, amazing characterization and oh my poor little heart. Even the description of light's bedroom made me weep. The relationship between soichiro and light really hits hard. It also explores L's feelings towards light, and it's very very canon. Simply one of the best dn fanfiction out there, really.

(more under the cut bcs it's long)

Seeking His Hand (incomplete)

Historical AU where L is a gentry seeking Light's hands for marriage. Regency era hoes come get your juice. Seriously, I'd sell my left lung to read this fic for the first time again. It'll bring you so much happiness for being the most romantic lawlight fic ever, and is really good. It's in character as far as historical au can go. the sexual tension between this two oh my god I can't wait, this one is amazing.

Of Music (incomplete/abandoned?)

AU where Light is a stressed college student who loves orchestra shows and meets L, their relationship grows through every show they attend. There's a lot of complication but not too dramatic, it's like enemies to lovers and friends to lovers being mushed together perfectly. Very interesting and oh my god the sexual tension between them and the teasings...i can't even. Misa's only here for like 5 seconds but holy shit i want to marry her. Probs abandoned but you can see the last chapter as an ending or open ending at least.

sugar and pumpkin spice (oneshot)

The best lawlight coffee shop AU. Seriously, you'll love it. As you can tell, I'm a fluff person and this...this is my comfort fic. The one that makes me slam the table after reading and screamed "I WANT MORE OF THESE KIND OF SHIT". Really heartwarming, really sweet, probably not for everyone because of that, but it is def written for me.

Silver Bells (oneshot)

About L and Light spending a real fucking soft christmas day as a married couple. You know i have a certain weakness for ships being married AND christmas. It is a win win but very fucking underrated. I love that it still includes the kira past but don't specify the redemption (the way i love my fix it/happy canon divergence). This is just golden and domestic and soft and i cried reading and rereading it.

One Last Night (oneshot)

Divorce. That's it that's the plot. But oh it will break your heart, build it, and break it again. This one is just...beautiful. the wording...the characterization- the pain. I'm not feeling the best while writing this so...i dont want to explain further i ignore tw for this i almost say it's worth it but pls don't do that so just go read it yourself, it's 👌👌

Change Of Circumstances (oneshot)

Another comfort fic. About Light being a Wammy's kid, building a friendship with L over the years until they fall in love. Seriously, we(me) need more Wammy!Light. This one is just cute. I don't know what to say other than it's just sooo adorable how they build a really strong connection and then fall in love. Childhood friends to lovers isn't the best au for lawlight imo but this one nailed it.

Wedding Date (oneshot)

About L and Light in Sayu's wedding. It's romantic in a lawlight way yknow. I just can't describe it but this fic makes me feel good. I mean, what a dream, to be in a wedding date amirite? And damn the yagami siblings really love the english (yes im quoting a song).

so there you go...i really am rambling. they're my favorite favorite lawlight fics and i have MORE (oneshots bcs it's hard to read multichap these days). but lmk if you want another one. you can tell my fic taste in here lmao but yeah that's all for me exposing my sappy ass.

[vivithefolle]

Hi! First up, I want to say I love your blog and it’s so refreshing to read your analyses and find other people who love Ron, so thank you!

So, I’ve been thinking about the argument between Ron and Ginny in HBP and I wondered about another interpretation. When Ron says ‘do you think I want people saying my sister’s a...’, I wondered if he was also thinking about what happened to Hermione in Goblet of Fire with all the Krum and Harry business.

Schools are absolute hotbeds of gossip and rumours can spread like wildfire. And, let’s be honest, teenagers are arseholes. Ron saw what happened to Hermione with those rumours and he doesn’t want the same happening with Ginny. I wonder if that’s more his motive than slut-shaming her. It’s like ‘I don’t mind you dating, but please be careful, I don’t want you getting hurt like Hermione did.’ Of course, being a teenager himself (and also probably with the added shock of seeing her snogging Dean, which, let’s be honest, would probably shock anyone if they weren’t expecting it! If I had a sibling and saw that, I’d probably be gobsmacked too! Yeah, I know it’s happening; I don’t necessarily want to see it, especially unexpectedly. Plus, you know, it’s really awkward!) he doesn’t react in the best way. He snaps. But I think it’s partly because he’s worried and scared for her and that manifests as him shouting. (Honestly, I’ve done the same; been worried/scared for someone and gotten angry and snappy like that.)

(By the way - and I know this is more my issue than anyone else’s - I was more upset by Ginny virgin-shaming Ron than the rest of the scene. It just really reminded me of my peers at school doing the same to me. Mocking me for not having kissed anyone, teasing me for being a prude and uncomfortable with sex...it wasn’t nice.)

Again, love your blog and I hope I didn’t intrude! xxx

You’re not intruding hon, don’t worry :)

In fact, I think you’re on to something. He was probably recalling not only Hermione being shamed by the world in GOF, but remember that Ron himself was subjected to public humiliation and being the subject of mockery everywheree in fifth year with Weasley Is Our King. So in his mind he’s remembering this sort of humiliation and wants to protect his little sister.

But. But, but, but, he still expressed himself terribly and there was indeed an element of slut-shaming even if he didn’t mean it. And I do think he did mean it. Let’s remember he’s been raised by Molly Weasley, who is quite traditional (which is okay, she wants it herself), and given how young she was when she married Arthur and had Bill, it’s probable that Molly didn’t have one or two boyfriends like Ginny did, rather just dated Arthur straightaway. This would give Ron major “one true love” vibe, and while he’s all bluster and macho like “ha, yeah, pretty girls amirite” deep down he is also a big sappy romantic who sees his parents and sees the ideal couple, and his idea is that maybe somehow he’ll have the same love story as them, maybe somehow he’ll manage to ask Hermione out and they’ll get their first kiss together and then it’s happily ever after!

And so he doesn’t understand why Ginny is dating around. Because why is she doing that? Why did she throw away her first kiss when she could have shared it with Harry instead? And thrown away the second, and the third, and the fourth...

Ron doesn’t seem to understand dating for the sake of dating. For someone the fandom likes to portray as super sexual and macho he’s really a lot more prudish and romantic than he lets on.

And yeah, I reckon that as long as he wasn’t seeing Ginny “gallivanting” (he would totally “gallivanting” come on, he says “scarlet woman”, that silly goose) with her boyfriend he could at least pretend it was “out of sight out of mind, she never kissed anyone if I didn’t see her do it! La la la!” But then there’s the encounter in the corridor when he gets the BLATANT proof that nope Ron, your sister has kissed and is currently kissing boys, better get over it - it’s then that his delusion gets shattered by reality and he freaks out on her.

None of it was right. Well, Ginny was right to be kissing her boyfriend, Ron and Harry were right to be going back to the common room because uuuh yeah they’re gonna stay outside it’s cold outside, but the way they handled the situation... well only Dean (who fled) and Harry (who heroically T-posed in an effort to prevent them from fighting, not that it stopped them from drawing their wands) reacted maturely in that scene.

Also, can relate on the virgin-shaming front. But that personal bias doesn’t make what Ron said okay, obviously.