#sayo event entry !!

[sayorine]

DAY 07 - @strawberrysnipes's event : red fruit themed graphic !!

— cherie !!!!

— did you know my first ever graphic was cherie 🤩

— all art by yemsao !!

f2u w/ credit !!

[macelbacs]

Hi! It's me again. We have already completed our BMC Presentation and as of today, we already have a prototype for the app. So this is what happened last week:

Customer Narratives, Hypothesis Tested, and Results Found

Hypothesis Tested: The customers will be delighted with the existence of an app for their orders. The Facebook page will serve as the customer feedback channel for faster and more convenient communication with the customers. The utilization of a Facebook page will be beneficial for both parties since it is an already established form of communication and it is commonly used by the target market.

Customer Narratives:

Customer 1: Nice na naay app and hopefully dali ra siya gamiton and accesible siya para sa tanan. Unta ma push jud ninyo kay for me as someone na galisod ug mata ug sayo, lisod najud kaayo mamahaw pero kung naa siguro koy groceries naa siguro koy makaon before musulod sa klase.

Customer 2: Okay ra ang app na feature pero suggest lang nako na ma connect ninyo ang app sa inyong page para bisan naa ka sa app, if naa kay gusto i feedback regarding sa imong order kay mahimo nimo siya without manually exiting sa app. Other than that, nice jud inyong idea. Unta madayon ni.

Customer 3: Diba naa moy app as you stated ganina, pero what if mag error? Dili na lugar maka order? Sayang pud sa inyo if maka encounter ug ingon ana. Pero other than that wala naman koy maingon. Padayon lang mo kay dako siyag tabang if ma push na ninyo.

Customer 4: Maayo na naa moy app pero have you considered na additional expense siya if ever need ninyo mag maintenance run? Need na ninyo i consider.

Results Found:

The customers were delighted with the fact that an app would be launched together with the start-up. However, they still have initial concerns about the usability of the app, the convenience of making feedback, the app maintenance, and costing.

2. Team's Decision:

The app will be the only channel for order placements. Feedback on the app will only cater technical concerns, not on the order itself. The Facebook page will be used for promotions, announcements, event information if there are any, and order concerns for customer service.

3. Team's Options:

a. Only utilize the app for orders

Pro: The team is focused on one thing since only one channel will be utilized for the orders.

Cons: No immediate customer feedback through the app, no backup in case the app encounters technical difficulties

b. Utilize a Facebook Page for those who cannot access the app

Pros: More accessible for others who are still learning to use the app, immediate customer feedback through direct message

Con: Additional task for the team since we will be monitoring two channels for the orders.

4. Lessons Learned:

With the things that we did for the past week/s, I learned that adding features to your start-up is not an easy feat. More features may also mean more maintenance costs. However, this does not mean that we should not add those features for us to lower maintenance costs. We just have to assess whether or not the upgrade is worth the money. As for our app, I do think it is worth the shot. With the rise of technology, I am confident that we can make it as user-friendly as possible for the convenience of our customers. Moreover, I have also learned that customer feedback is vital. As the start-up team, we may not see issues since we sometimes cannot see the whole picture. This is where customer feedback and validation come into play. These people can recognize possible challenges of the features designed for them that we sometimes cannot see. Thus, we should consider their opinions on this matter.

Another long blog entry for this week haha. It's been hectic but we live to fight another day. That's all guys! I hope you also learned something from reading my blog. Byeee!

[aldenta]

F.L.A.M.E.S (Filipino Spoken Word Poetry Entry - UV SHS 2017)

[Before I continue, I just want to say this is not the exact piece as I no longer remember each and every word with the event happening 8 years ago, but this has the same idea so do enjoy]

Minsan talaga ay kay sarap na balikan

Lahat ng mga araw na sa atin ay nagdaan

Lalo na noong mga panahon na kung saan

Sa eskwela tayo'y walang habas na nagkukulitan

Pero kaibigan, 'di mo na kailangan pang alalahanin

Sa aking akda ay mayroon tayong bubuhayin

Larong tiyak na nasubukan mo na ding gawin

Kung matatandaan ay ganito siya laruin

Kaya kaibigan, hayaan mong ikaw ay tanungin

Sa susunod na pahina, katauhan ay alin

Umpisahan nating sa letrang F, kapatid

Friends lang ang turing at ito'y iyong batid

Ginusto mong makuha ang kaniyang sagot

Ngunit wala kang makuha, aba'y nakakalungkot

Rosas, tsokolate't harana'y 'di na mahalaga

'Pagkat para sa kanya'y kaibigan ka lang talaga

Ngayo'y magbibigay puri sa katipunerong makabago

Titik niya ay L, lumalaban para sa pag-ibig na 'di magbabago

Mga martyr na lahat ay hahamakin para sa minamahal

Kahit na kung minsan ay nagmumukha ng isang hangal

Araw-araw'y laban ka ng laban para sa kanya

Ang tanong ay, ipininaglalaban ka din ba?

Huwag kasi dapat na pinangungunahan ang lahat

Iwasan sanang maging A, assuming ka sapagkat

Akala mo ay ibabalik niya ang inalay mong pag-ibig

Ngunit sa katotohanan ay dapat kang makinig

Dahil kung siya man ay mayroong babalikan

Hindi ikaw 'yon, kundi ang kanyang dating kasintahan

Mayroon din namang iilan na ang letrang M ang kinakapitan

Magkasintahan, aba'y nakakainggit naman

Pero iyon pala'y isang hamak na kasinungalingan

Ang M mo pala ay naiiba ang kahulugan

Mag-isang magpapatuloy sa malungkot na mundo

Dahil ang inyong mga puso ay hindi nagkasundo

Enemy daw ang inirerepresentang ng E na letra

Sakto lang din naman dahil sa pagtitinginan ay may kontra

Minsan ang kalaban ay ang ating mga sarili

Dahil imbes na subukang ligawan siyang sayo ay kawili-wili

Ang dapat sana'y tamang pag-ibig ay nagiging mali

Nagpapatalo sa pangangamba na baka hindi mapili

S nalang ang natitira, dahil ang iba ay may nagmamay-ari na

Kaya sa bawat mong bigkas, panay sabi ka ng sana

Sana ikaw nalang ang ninais niyang makapiling

Sana'y siya ang makasama't maging magulang ng iyong mga supling

Pero ang S mo ay naging sayang sa kalaunan

Sayang lamang at hindi kayo ang nagkatuluyan

Sa larong FLAMES kung saan ikaw ang taya

Ikaw ay natalo dahil sa pagpapabaya

Kaibigan, lumalaban kaba o nag-aassume lang?

Gugustuhin bang mapag-isa o hahanap ng paraan?

Gawing kakampi ang sarili, maniwala sa pag-ibig na wagas

Dahil ang sana at sayang mo'y pwede pang gawing sa wakas

[hai-nakyuu]

kuya iwa

a/n: sixth entry sa event ni @lumpiang-toge starring your classmate’s older brother iwa-chan (older sibling sya of rika iwaizumi, muse ng classroom nyo) also starring gagokawa and supportive bestie terushima

“bes BES BES BESHIEEEE” terushima pulls on your arm.

“ampota alam mo nang inaayos ko potluck table ehh what do you want?”

“LOOK IT’S KUYA IWA KAJSKAJSKAKJAK ANG GWAPO NYA”

oh, gosh. yuuji’s right. hajime iwaizumi walks into the classroom with his sister- and your classmate- rika-chan and the rest of the iwaizumi family as you and yuuji silently squeal in kilig.

not only does iwaizumi have great looks, he is also very respectful. during the start of the school year you met him at the brigada skwela breakfast committee, and you heard he plays volleyball as a starter ace for grade 12, a year older than you.

“yuuj, stop, ang lakas ng boses mo. nakatingin na nga sayo nanay mo!”

“bayaan mo na si ‘ma, busy sa chika with miss ramos. anyway, girl diba crush na crush mo sya?”

“no, yuuj, porket gwapo si kuya iwa doesn’t mean may gusto ako sa kanya.”

“so you agree, besh? gwapo sya?”

“well-”

“wait- shit- BESH BESH HE’S HEADING TOWARDS US BESH DALI PENGE BABY POWDER-”

“yuuj, tumahimik ka nga!” you hit him on the back of the head just as the hottie in question walks over to you. yuuji winks at you before turning to iwaizumi.

“excuse me po, pa clear nalang nitong side na to para malagay yung water jug. tas may available ba na seat para mapagpatungan ng cooler-”

yuuji whispers under his breath. “may available na seat sa lap ko- ARAY!”

you pinch yuuji’s arm and turn back to iwaizumi. “wala eh, pero pwede akong bumaba sa court to ask for another chair.”

“sige,” iwaizumi smiles and thanks the both of you before turning around- ignoring yuuji’s tiny whimpers of “aray aray sorry na besh aray bitawan mo nako- AHH PUNYETANG KUROT YAN BESH”

“landi mo yuuj, alam mo yon? sama ka nga sakin sa baba.”

“BES WHY AREN’T YOU FLIRTING WITH HIM?” he whines as the two of you walk out of the classroom and down the stairs. “GANDA GANDA NG LAHI NI IWAIZUMI BAT DI KA MAGPALAHI-”

“BES IF YOU DONT STOP BAKA MARINIG TAYO DINIG NA DINIG TAYO ANDUN SIYA SA KOTSE NILA OH”

the two of you look at the iwazumi family’s montero sport- fancy, sleek and flawless- like its owners.

“sanaol,” the two of you say at the same time and burst out laughing. you pick up one of the chairs at the court and yuuji rants off about how lucky the iwaizumi siblings are.

“swerte talaga ni iwa and rika, ganda-ganda tas ang gwapo gwapo, tas mayaman pa! Di ko alam kung bat single pa sila-”

yuuji slaps his hand over his mouth as he tugs on your arm repeatedly. “bes bes bes bes bes-”

you slap his arm away “WHAT?-”

another face comes into view. Brown hair, a white shirt that says “VBC”- most likely standing for volleyball club- and a backpack filled with alien-design patches.

“oh my gah,” yuuji’s mouth drops. “sino YAAAAAARN?”

“i think that’s the oikawa he’s been talking about,” you recall.

yuuji turns to you. “talking? so nag-uusap pala kayo?? And YOU DIDN’T TELL ME??”

“i just made small talk nung card day nung first quarter,” you shrug. “he talked about volleyball, and stuff like that-”

the two of you turn to watch oikawa, who runs to iwaizumi.

“IIIIIIIIIIIIIWACHAAAAAAAAAAN~”

“puta,” yuuji mutters under his breath. “this oikawa’s gay.”

you turn to yuuji. “pano mo naman nasabe?”

yuuji winks at you. “gaydar ko, may fifth sense ako when it comes to this.”

“fifth sense depota SIXTH sense yon TANGA”

“HAHAHAHAHAHA ok ok sixth sense besh, pero pota i think gay sya!”

“IWACHAN~ ASAN JOWA MO??”

yuuji looks like he’s about to scream.

“BESH AKO LANG BA NAKARINIG NON MAY JOWA SI IWAIZUMI?! SAYANG YON AMPOTA SINO YUNG JOWA RESBAKAN NATIN BESH”

you roll your eyes, grab yuuji by the arm, and walk all the way to the montero sport.

yuuji has no idea what’s going on, and why the hell iwaizumi smiles so sweetly at the two of you when he sees you.

“hi babe!” he smiles, kissing your cheek as you smile.

“BESH WHAT’S HAPPENING” yuuji’s confused.

“besh, this is iwaizumi, boyfriend ko.”

It takes a few moments for yuuji to process things, and you and your boyfriend just laugh.

“HA- HOW- AKALA KO-”

“besh, last month pa naging kami it’s a prank!!” you hug yuuji. he pushes you away, mouth agape, before he screams and laughs along with you.

“HAHAHAHAHA TANGINA NYONG PAREHO” he laughs, hugging you again. “AT IKAW-” he points to iwaizumi “-GALING MO MAG-ACTING AMPOTA KALA KO NAMAN ANG BAIT BAIT MO”

iwaizumi laughs. “hi, i’m iwaizumi. you must be...”

“the beshie,” yuuji eagerly shakes his hand. “ok pero since kayo na pala ng best friend ko, sino yung kasama mong lalaki?”

“oh,” iwaizumi rolls his eyes. “shittykawa. he asked to tag along para makita jowa ko. speaking of which, where is-”

“HELLOOOOOOOO~” oikawa grabs you in a tight hug. “YOU’RE SUCH A CUTIE! BAGAY KAYO NI IWA-CHAN~”

“thank you, oikawa,” you smile.

“sa true lang, i don’t know if i like you or iwa-chan more-”

oikawa launches forward when iwaizumi whacks him on the head.

“TANGINA MO GAGOKAWA MANIGAS KA”

[falneou17]

BanG Dream! Favorite List

So... people have been requesting I made this for quite some time now, and I decided that I might as well. It might be a nice thing to look back on the past three years and see how I have formed and changed my opinion on the various characters.

The main reason why I held back with it for so long, aside from wanting to avoid giving off the wrong idea with who my least fave is, is because I was playing on the JP server while conversing with people who were only playing on EN. I stopped playing JP about a year ago now (the last event I remember playing on the JP server was Babyglow, actually), so the EN server has more or less caught up to what I remembered from the JP side of the franchise; which means that there is still a decent chance that my preferences might change from this point onwards. Not to mention that the third season will air next month, too.

I want to do these regularly-ish, but with how “fixed” the rankings have been ever since RAS’ introduction I wonder how often that can be done.

Icons are taken from the bandorisorter tumblr.

Favorites

1. Yamabuki Saaya Same old song and dance, she has been my favorite BanG Dream! girl since day one. She radiates an aura similar to Saten Ruiko from the Raildex franchise (who also happens to be my all-time favorite character), and this, coupled with her supportive, sacrificial, helpful nature really helped Saaya in solidifying a spot in the #1 spot. The only way I can feasibly see her drop from this spot is if she doesn’t receive any character growth and development because she has been, admittedly, rather static in this department.

2. Aoba Moca A name people still think is my fave of the franchise, she might really become it soon depending on how much Saaya grows in the future. A “simple” character at face value, I really started finding out just how deep her character is when I started getting more into her design and learned more about her. She is overall a really fun character to work with and nothing says that more than the fact that she has been the centerpiece of all my multi-chapter fanfics for this fandom at the time of writing this.

3. Mitake Ran Ran goes almost hand-in-hand with Moca, but where Moca had the element of surprise and curiosity to keep her high on the list, Ran felt like this mixture of two characters of a different franchise I really enjoyed, combining both their strong points into who we now know is Mitake Ran. And I am sure you all already know how much I like Ran considering the BlueFlora works I have done since April of 2017.

4. Hazawa Tsugumi Tsugumi is probably the easiest character, at least among the Afterglow girls, for people outside the BanG Dream! fandom to relate to, and for good reason. She’s a hard worker, remains positive, and you know things will go south when Tsugumi isn’t being optimistic and charging forward like no tomorrow.

5. Imai Lisa Lisa shares a lot of similarities with Saaya, or at least how I described Saaya. Nevertheless, there are still a handful of factors that would explain the gap between them. The first is that I saw Saaya on the screen first, so Lisa was doomed to become “similar to Saaya” as a result (the way the first season animated both girls didn’t really help). The second is the way Lisa is shipped by the general fandom that makes me feel a lot more restricted in using her freely. The final point is not Lisa’s fault, but while Nakashima Yuki has done an amazing job at taking over the role... she is not Endō Yurika.

Loves

6. Uehara Himari I make fun of Himari a lot, but she is still an amazing character and a great gear in the Afterglow machine. And while I personally feel like the English translation of Himari’s catchphrase is not doing it justice, I am very much aware of how important Himari is to the chemistry of Afterglow. She is the leader of Afterglow, after all.

7. Shirokane Rinko What started out as just a playful headcanon has really gotten traction and popularity amongst my readers and helped Rinko rise up to this spot, managing to even beat out the fifth member of Afterglow in the process. Although very different from the characters I usually wrote for, Rinko manages to be this breath of fresh air to allow for a different pace than what I usually work with. The only reason that is holding Rinko back is not even her own fault: Akesaka Satomi made Rinko into the character that I’ve come to know and love; she was Rinko, so losing her was and always will be a big blow to me. Shizaki Kanon is doing her best, and I respect her as a seiyuu in her own right, but... she’s never going to replace Akesaka Satomi as Rinko in my eyes.

8. Udagawa Tomoe Tomoe is a weird one. On the one hand, she’s very fun, energetic, and is tunnel-visioned enough to be fairly predictable in a fun way. On the other hand, she is the most static character in her band and one of the most static of the entire franchise, so... she’s still really high up thanks to the Afterglow bias in me, but who knows for how long that can last?

9. Maruyama Aya I really am unable to talk about Aya without bringing up her seiyuu, Maeshima Ami, because the phrase “the seiyuu is the character” rings very true when it comes to this one. And she is a very fun character, too! I am not really good with stumbly fumbly characters, but watching Aya on the screen has never been a bad thing. It also helps that her singing voice matches Misawa Sachika’s so much, reminding me of Misawa Sachika’s Polaris mini-album and even convincing me for a short period that Misawa Sachika was Aya’s seiyuu.

10. Okusawa Misaki/Michelle I am not really breaking the mold here, having Misaki be my favorite Hello, Happy World! character, so I don’t think I need to add much to it. In a nutshell, Misaki is to Moca as Lisa is to Saaya. But instead of being put in a band I like overall, Misaki was put in what is arguably my least fave band of the franchise (mostly because the style of music does not fit me, personally, and I like the other five bands more)... which really limits how much Misaki can rise in my list.

11. Wakamiya Eve I only have one thing to say about her: BUSHIDO. In all seriousness, Eve is adorable and her fascination with Japan can really act as a parallel to how some fans adore the culture. In short, much like the vocalist of her band, there is never a dull moment when Eve is around.

12. Asahi Rokka Rokka is a really fun addition to the cast through the second season that aired earlier this year. And what is really interesting about her is that, while the other four RAS girls have been a hit or a miss in the fandom, Rokka seems to be almost universally liked. She is just an adorable bundle of cute, what’s more to say about her?

Likes

13. Tamade “CHU2″ Chiyu So remember how I said in Rokka’s entry that RAS’ characters tend to be a hit or a miss? Well, CHU2 is, in my experience, the most polarizing of the RAS girls; people either love her or hate her. I personally really like her, because while she may appear as a brat at first there is obviously a lot more going on beneath the surface. And I enjoy watching those characters develop, so here’s to hoping that season 3 is nice to CHU2.

14. Nyubara “PAREO” Reona Now unlike CHU2, I can’t really pinpoint what it is exactly about PAREO that makes me like her. But I do, she is enjoyable, her dedication to RAS and CHU2, while bordering something else entirely, is still... quite admirable to see, in its unique way.

15. Ichigaya Arisa Arisa is a weird one. I enjoy watching the subtle actions she does in the background to show that she cares for and supports her friends, but at the same time... she’s competing with Himari for the title of “who can be the butt of all jokes”... which is a bit of a shame, but oh well. Another thing that is kind of holding her back is the fact that one of her defining qualities, being a tsun, is... not the most unique personality trait in the anime world, to put it lightly.

16. Tsurumaki Kokoro Kokoro is... an interesting case. I think I mentioned earlier that I am not really good with eccentric characters, and Kokoro is exactly that with a capital E, but on the other hand... the few times when we do get to see through that bubble of energy we get treated to a surprisingly deep character. It also helps to share birthdays with me, I suppose.

17. Hikawa Sayo Another really weird one to place, and one that will probably define the rest of the list. Sayo, by far, has received the absolute most character growth of any of the other girls. That is normally a good thing, but in Sayo’s case it kind of acts like a double-edged sword; while she grew to be a better person and a better sister, above all else, she... lost things that really defined who she was in my eyes. And because of that, I don’t quite know where to place her... I do enjoy her and still like her, but... I dunno...

18. Hanazono Tae Tae has always been a fan favorite ever since she first appeared in the anime, but... she faces a problem I have mentioned before: she’s pretty static. She’s still fun and the fact that I am kind of looking forward to the way her seiyuu continues to grow will probably keep Tae up, but not too high.

19. Udagawa Ako All right, so Ako being here should already tell its own story, but... generally speaking, when a character is “created” with its whole purpose being to surpass another specific character, they will never come close to that character on my list simply because I end up thinking of Ako relative to Tomoe (in Ako’s case). Ako is fun to see and her chuunibyou side makes for some cute interactions, but aside from that... with the fall of Rosela came the fall of its members...

20. Satou “MASKING” Masuki At this point in time, we don’t really know that much about her. She had like... what? Five lines in the entirety of season two? From what I have seen of her so far, however... she catches my interest, but depending on how well her character and backstory are handled she can rise or fall accordingly.

21. Minato Yukina So remember the whole “fall of Roselia” I mentioned? It is not really their fault, losing Endou Yurika and Akesaka Satomi was a big blow, but the effects it had on both the characters and their respective seiyuus are still... there. Yukina in particular also suffers from the whole notion that she is introduced as this super professional singer with more talent than she knows what to do with, but... in part due to the seiyuu shift of Lisa and Rinko, Roselia’s songs have taken a hit in how much I enjoy them (to emphasize this point: I haven’t really enjoyed a new Roselia original song ever since Akesaka Satomi left Roselia). The only two things keeping Yukina in this “tier” is that she is still somewhat interesting to work with and her rivalry with Ran can provide... quite the amusement.

Above Neutral

22. Shirasagi Chisato Once we’re in this tier, it... really is a bit of a blur as to who is placed where relative to each other. I can say that Chisato is probably at the upper end of it by the process of tiebreakers: BanG Dream! Livestream and events involving their seiyuus. Uesaka Sumire is always fun to watch on the screen and has made me warm up to Chisato in the process.

23. Matsubara Kanon Pretty much exact same reasoning as above, with Kanon being slightly lower simply because I tend to like serious characters more than those that fumble around. I will say, though, that the few times when we get to see a confident and determined Kanon on the screen, it was a lot of fun to see.

24. Hikawa Hina So remember my point with Ako about characters who are focused on their relationship and interactions with one specific character? Hina serves as this unreachable goal for Sayo to reach, and with a lot of the scenes that are being shown use Sayo’s perspective to do so... Hina’s innate genius is also somewhat of a double-edged sword for her ranking here, because while scenes involving Hina are anything but dull, I... prefer characters who work hard to get where they are above someone who is “born” with the ability to stand out.

25. Wakana “LAYER” Rei I feel kind of bad putting LAYER all the way down here, but as a character, she is rather... static and uninspiring, at least at this point in time. As a vocalist, however, LAYER is probably my second favorite in terms of the singing voice, so I am hoping that the third season can catapult LAYER up a couple places.

Neutral

26. Toyama Kasumi The “face” of BanG Dream!, so to say. I will say that, for a typical happy-go-lucky energetic female lead, Kasumi has a lot more depth to her than others. Unfortunately, being the character we see the world through, I’ve never managed to really relate to her. So while she is almost in the next tier, she barely misses it.

27. Yamato Maya Maya is, actually, a really interesting character with a lot of room to grow and become her own person. Unfortunately for Maya, she did not catch my eye early enough so by the time I got used to characters like Moca and Ran running around, Maya... kind of faded into the background.

28. Ushigome Rimi I don’t know how to say this without being too mean to Rimi, but... Rimi has been really static. Rimi interactions and scenes, more often than not, either consist of her love for Choco Cornets and/or her relationship with her older sister. A lot of potential, a lot of possibilities, but none that have really been taken advantage of...

29. Kitazawa Hagumi Hagumi suffers a really horrible fate, and I think that she would have been a lot higher on the list if she wasn’t in Hello, Happy World. Hagumi’s character and personality traits overlap with Kokoro’s a lot, and with Kokoro being the vocalist of the band Hagumi has really been living in her shadow... which isn’t doing her a lot of favors.

So, that’s my list. Oh, I missed somebody? Right right, let’s fix that~

Unsalvageable/Very Bottom

30. Seta Kaoru Where do I begin to properly explain how I feel about this character? For starters, Bang Dream is a gacha game where we grind up resources, save for weeks, sometimes even months, for that one card we want (unless we’re spending money on the game i.e. whaling). So what do you think will happen to the character who keeps dropping in a banner she is not even a rate-up in while you really wanted a limited card you have saved eight months for? Or if she keeps arriving as the guaranteed 3* in like 80% of all your pulls for over a year? For reference, I managed to get the skill level of her Phantom Thief 3* to level 5 by using duplicate copies of her Initial 3*. And vice versa.

The gacha side of my reasonings aside, the actual reason why she is and always will be at the bottom is for a reason that cannot be removed without changing who she is. Her over-the-top, flirtatious attitude really, there is no going around this, annoys me, and even if it is just a front... I’ve already associated at least three people I know irl to her, and since I despise those three for how they behave irl... I can never see myself saying that Kaoru is not my least favorite of the franchise.

The only way for Kaoru to no longer be at the bottom is for BanG Dream! to introduce a character I despise more. Which, to be fair, is a possibility with Argonavis, but not only am I just not interested enough to properly invest time in checking them out, they are also in an alternate universe or something if I remember correctly... so comparing the girls to the boys in Argonavis is like comparing... Railgun characters to Index characters, in a way, which isn’t really “fair”. I probably will if I decide to check out Argonavis, but don’t be surprised to see this one at the bottom still.

[astorytellerforthatgirl]

Who is Maine Mendoza for this Storyteller?

Maine is just a simple celebrity for me as I watched her first in July of 2015. Few months after that, I started venturing in my inconsistent freelance career. I’m a home-based content writer submitting my outputs through email or uploading in a Wordpress admin account. I’ll make sure at 12:00, I have to watch Eat Bulaga to have a glimpse of her. As the days passed by, I just find myself laughing and smiling at the slapstick comedy and funny antics of her silent character relying on Dubsmash.

I did not know it was a point of no return of my fangirling on Maine.

Being in a fandom is not new to me. I was an active UAAP vball fan before to the point I would even watch highschool vball games to know who are the prized bluechip recruits all UAAP teams want to have in their program. I made my Twitter account almost a decade ago to follow the Gosiengfiao sisters (Alodia and Ashley) to interact with them via tweets. Also, through Twitter and other socmed sites, I got to be in a fangroup of Pinay American Idol finalist Thia Megia and saw her in person. Through social media too, I met other fans of our Olympian Yan Lariba and met her in a friendly encounter.

I know the good side and also the bad side of fangirling. I’ve been into useless arguments with online trolls and I admit their words get to me…until I just learned to be indifferent and not mind it at all. Then here comes Maine. I was hesitant to be a vocal fan because of her immense popularity but again she just have that “something” in her that I want to root for.

I started profiling Maine like how I used to in the other celebrities I look up to her public accounts like Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Ask.fm and lastly her blog….

MAY BLOG SI MAINE!!!

MGA KAPITBAHAY MAY BLOG SI MAINE!!!

Yes, I was surprised to know she has a blog!! My writer heart is leaping with joy!! That was the conviction I told myself it would be easier to fangirl for her since writing is my core and passion.

I started following her and knowing more about her like how she is close to her family, the rumors she went to PBB Auditions, and her other past Youtube uploaded videos. But I was still a silent fan back then since I am clueless how to handle a barrage of comments from other fans once I begin to be vocal. I am happy as a silent fan until the inevitable thing happened…

Maine released her Open Letter in November 26, 2017.

Yes, I won’t forget how I cried after reading it and not enjoying the ice cream I am eating on a Sunday afternoon. I began to connect the dots. I wanted to hate some people and wish them to have double, triple the pains of whatever Maine felt. I do want to start expressing my support for her to prove there are still like me…”isa sa sampu” fans of Maine.

The problem though is I am still at a down moment by that time. I failed to handle the pressure of a teaching career. I love the kids inside the classroom but the paperworks overwhelmed me. Attendance, quizzes, understanding the lesson plan, submitting other requirement, etc---those did not fare good for me. I just realized I only want to be with the kids even if I am with them 6-7 hours straight, I don’t get tired at all. I found out I like to be a public speaker but I cannot cope up with the tremendous responsibilities of the teacher.

Being an overthinker, I felt I failed again not myself but my family and everyone who believed in me. I was down for months and clueless what to do next. I even think if there would still be a company or business owner who would take risk with me seeing my resume with months of no work as I rested after resigning from the teaching post.

I thought of how I am a burden again and have no direction in my career, whereas my batchmates might already be settling down with their partners, finishing their master’s degree, or exploring more of what they can do abroad. There I was, clueless and do not know again where to start. I am just thankful I have a supportive family and set of friends who waited until I got tired of being afraid and overthinking.

There were even days I wish I can just sleep forever and not wake up to those clueless and empty days again. I was also telling God that time I wish I was the one He took instead of my papa who passed away in 2007 due to an illness. Because my papa would be able to help my family instead of my inconsistency, fears, and overthinking. I was in that bargaining stage and I am too blinded, hurt, and tired to see my own worth and potential.

In those dark times, I would pray for a direction…for an enlightenment. Angels in the form of my friends and my family gave me words to fight back. It was enough to hold on….until I saw an excerpt from Maine’s book through an online article of cosmo.ph promoting her book:

“Things may go from bad to worse and you might feel like it’s never going to change, but believe me when I say it will get better. Everything will be all right, I promise you. We may have our own different battles, but remember there is only one God. He is always looking down on us wherever we go and whatever obstacle we face. You may currently be in a lot of pain, but you never know what God has in store for your future.

Marami pang magagandang bagay ang mangyayari sa buhay mo. Magtiwala ka. Kapit lang, laban lang.

P.S.  If you are looking for a sign on whether you should still hold on or give up, this is it. Hold on tight, my dear. Don't you ever give up; never ever give up. “

I cried and smiled after reading it. “Ikaw talaga Lord ha, si Maine pa pinadala Mo rin para sabihin kaya ko pa.” The darker those moments are for me, the brighter are all the Bearers of Light shone in my life. I begin to see more how my mama is patient with me, how my brothers would ask what do I want to eat or where do I want to go, friends who would tell me they will meet me anywhere I wish to be…and that excerpt from Maine’s book.

So I told myself: May laban pa ako. Isang subok pa.

It took me until January to gather all my guts. I started editing my resume. I came back to my freelancing career by looking for homebased jobs. It was also the time I just thought of blogging for Maine. I was still doubting if I am ready to be a vocal fan…but I know in my heart if God is telling me to do something even if I am still scared or doubtful of it.

I posted my first entry about Maine on this tumblr account. What comes next are series of unexpected blessings coming in my way…I did not look for them but the opportunities found me instead. Here are some of them:

(a)    Got a DM asking if I can write for Clairedelfinmedia.com after they read my blog about Maine and Nadine parallelisms

(b)   Got invited twice to Maine’s bday party by generous fans. First is when I told her she is a Bearer of Light and we are her 10th heartbeat in the #EnchantressMaine23. Second is when I co-host in the #DearMaine bday event.

(c)    An anonymous fan who works abroad gifted me a Microsoft Surface Tablet just because she is thankful for my support for Maine.

(d)   Meeting some fans who are as level-headed and as classy like Maine I felt I attended a business conference instead of a fan event.

(e)   Getting back on my feet again to find the direction in my career.

Also, I am grateful my mama is a silent fan of Maine. You see, I am already in my late 20s but she treats me like a pre-teen kid and I find it difficult to ask permission to go to different places and stay late. Kung pwede 6pm sa bahay na ako at may number si mama ng lahat ng kasama ko para mapanatag siya. So I was surprised it was easy for me to ask permission going to Maine’s bday event even if I come home late at evening. As my mama said, “May swerteng dala sayo si Maine, puntahan mo lang pag meron.”

Of course, going back to my freelance career is not as smooth as what I expected. Rejections and no follow-up interviews came, some would even ask me to stop writing for them and they would just pay me for the weeks I wrote, or I have already written an article then suddenly my contact person said the client forgot to ask for the specific writer and that isn’t me.  

It was still difficult but I am grateful to find this new courage, thanks to God’s constant faithfulness in my life and to all my Bearers of Light. In 2018 too, I found CCF, a Christian church whom I am comfortable with in sharing my flaws and mistakes. They focus more on God’s grace, justice, and mercy for everyone than other close-minded religious people or groups who condemn sinners.

Thanks to Maine too, I started to try new things which I still hesitated before. I remembered reading her IG post on her skydiving experience. She encouraged us to try things out even if we are still scared. In 2018, I tried acting workshop and auditioned in a production house for a voice-over artist. I even tried if I could be a female reporter in an FM station. Although these things haven’t yet prospered for me, I am happy to try it out and see what else I can try aside from writing.

At present, I invested in a copywriting module and joined an uplifting and supportive Filipino community of freelance copywriters in a Facebook group. I am determined to venture into copywriting because it is parallel to my passion in storytelling and writing. The process of improving myself excites me.  I am a homebased content writer (as of this time) who still have a lowpay rate but I am enjoying the flexibility of my time. Plus, the company I work for recently gave me incentives and gift certificates.

Going back to one of the dark times in my life and just want to give up, God sent His angels in different forms to remind me I still have to fulfill His purpose, His story, and His plans in my life. He intended to break my heart and dreams so He can form it with a new one. In those times, God chose Maine too to tell me I can and I will be able to do it with God’s help.

This is just a fraction of what Maine did for me. I am more than thankful and will always support her even in the future that she is a private citizen and enjoys that under-the-radar life away from the fame and attention of public.

Salamat talaga Maine sa lahat lahat! 

Bearer of Light, please keep on radiating! 

God rewarded your sacrifices and good heart.

Embrace the genuine happiness you have now.

[nyltxk]

Feelingera pero promise di talaga ako ganito

Whoo first tumblr entry ko to na matino, yung isa sa hs tropa ko kasi ineencourage kaming magpaka-active daw sa tumblr.

Sabi ko, sige itatry ko hahaha

So anyway nakakatawa lang, kasi may group chat kami na may times na biglang nagiging active (kasi adulting at iba-iba na sched namin kaya di parating nakakapag-usap). Tapos habang sinusulat ko to, active yun.

Current topic namin: crushes/love life (di magkamatayang topic na parating napag-uusapan haha)

Tapos, wala lang, currently kasi wala akong crush. Haha sad no?

Pero the thing is, pano ba malalaman kung may crush ang ibang tao sayo? 

May isa kasi akong kakilala na tingin ko may crush ATA sakin (HALA FEELER KO NO?!)

Pero no joke. Pano ba talaga? 

Recently lang kasi, may parang event kami. Parang graduation na rin, kasi yung mga kasama ko dun sa event na yun, 6 years na kami sa program na yun, and yun na yung last formal event na magkakasama kami as a batch. Tapos yung person kasi na iyon, di naman kami nagkakausap talaga. Medyo awkward ako sa kaniya kasi sa 6 years na yun ng program namin, yung first two years, may parang summer classes kami at never naman kaming naging magkaklase so hindi kami naging friends talaga. Nagkakausap kami kapag may mga activities, pero never pa kaming nagkaron ng casual conversation na labas pa sa mga activities na yun. Soooo, yeah di pa kami naging officially friends (sa standards ko).

Tapos matagal na akong may hinala na parang may crush ata siya sakin (WOW DI KO TALAGA KINAYA SARILI KO HAHAHA NAKAKAHIYA JUSKO PALIBHASA WALANG LOVE LIFE FEELER KAAGAD). Hindi naman ata since simula pa lang, pero siguro at some point nung nasa college na kami, around 3 years ago siguro? Actually wala pa akong hinala that time, pero nagkaron kasi ng isang beses na nagvolunteer ako sa isang event tapos na-assign kami sa same na section. Tapos, yung person kasi na yun, extroverted, so may pagkamadaldal talaga siya pero nung time na yun medyo tahimik siya. Hindi ko naman pinansin kaagad yung pagkatahimik niya, pero nakakutob (STARTING POINT NG PAGKAFEELER KO JUSKO) ako nung yung isa naming facilitator, narinig ko na parang inaasar siya sabi:

“O bakit ang tahimik mo ata ngayon? Palibhasa nandito kasi si ano.”

So yun, haha mula sa point na iyon, somewhere in my head may question na “crush ba ako nito?”. Pero most of the time tinatawanan ko lang pag naiisip ko haha, feelingera lang siguro ako na inooverthink na yung mga ginagawa nung tao. 

So back to the present, dun sa “graduation” namin.

Kahit sa last event na to, di pa rin kami masyadong nag-iinteract talaga. Di kasi kami same ng medyo kaclose na friends, so sa mga activities namin di kami magkasama sa group. Tapos may dalawang beses na nagsurface yung “crush ba ako nito?” feelingera moment ko hahaha.

Una, may activity kasi kami na pinagawa as a batch. Tapos may part na pipicturan kami, so ayun pose naman kami. Nakapwesto siya sa gilid ko. Smile pa rin ako sa camera, kasi picture at nagkataon lang naman siguro na nasa malapit siya. Naging feelingera lang ako nung pinagcompress kami sa picture haha, kasi sometime later on, nakita ko yung picture na yun. Sa picture kasi sobrang lapit niya sakin pero di naman talaga kailangan kasi nagkaron ng kaunting gap dun sa mga katabi niya. Definition ko ng sobrang lapit: as in parang nasqueeze ako ng slight papunta sa iba ko pang mga katabi ganun.

Pangalawa, nung uwian na. So dahil mahilig batch namin sa pictures, imbes na umuwi agad (na dapat ginawa namin kasi masama panahon at baka maabutan kami ng malakas na ulan) nagpipicture picture pa kami. Medyo pagala-gala lang din ako sa venue kasi wala pang mga umaalis talaga. Aba nagulat ako kasi nung medyo nagbababye na bigla siyang nagbye sakin nang may akbay, nacaught off guard ako kasi nakatalikod ako that time nung bigla siyang tumabi then umakbay ng mabilis sabay sabi “Bye ___”. As in dumaan lang siya ng napakabilis di ko nga alam kung nakapagreply ako ng bye eh. Paalala lang: di kami naging close diba? Kahit nga nung portion ng event namin na pwede makipag-usap one-on-one, di naman kami nag-usap. Di naman ako though yung type na ilag sa contact with guys kapag medyo naging close ko, kasi nagawa ko ngang makipaghug sa isa kong naging friend na guy dun sa same event na yun.

By the way, may isang time na break namin nun at nagchichismisan yung batch with our facis, tapos sinabi naman niya na wala raw siyang crush, sooo...

HAHA. FEELER KO NO? (o tingin niyo may basis naman para magpakafeeler ako?)

Sigurado magugulat yung tropa ko kapag nabasa nila to. hahaha

Gano kabilis kaya niyo mababasa to? Dito ko na lang nilagay imbes na ibring-up sa chat kasi wala lang haha para may matumblr at para di mahirap ikwento (di ko inakalang magiging ganito kahaba to) haha.

Sa mga makakabasa nito na di ako kilala, sorry sa pagiging feelingera ko hahaha. Promise magugulat kayo if ever kilala niyo ako in real life kasi parang di naman siya fit sa personality ko. Naflatter ako masyado sa idea na baka may taong may crush sakin, di naman kasi ako yung type na nagiging crush ng iba. 

YUN LANG PO. Gusto ko lang talaga mailabas to haha, wag niyo po sana ako majudge :)) Sa sobrang kagustuhan kong mailabas to di ko pa nga naaayos tumblr theme ko haha.

[xllxxrbxg]

meh

my bridge entry just to keep me having more entries so that events aren't all in one whole ass entry and its alr good for like a month. so yeah. nice. whatever feeling meh.

i dont expect karlo on anyday unlike before. kastrict man kaya ng kanyang older brother like peram naman ng bunso nyo lods sainyo na nga yan all your lives tas ganean. charot pero sa true man for safety purposes rin esp di pa ako vaxxedtT. pero im WAXXEDT *glitters* anyways yarn. usto ko lang naman mag date kami ni karlo pisteng yawa di na nga ako umaasang libre guds man lang me sa kkb eh ang important saken yung quality timeeeEE!!!!! ALSO di ko pa nabibigay yung pinaghirapan kong idrawing ilang araw na yorn delayed wayop

anyways hihe ayon iritado na naman manay mo as usual kasi ang inet? anw xoxad na di kami makalabas ni karlo tho soon sana dami namin plans ih. major plan tho is the afternoon tea which is kinda like my idea ofc being my maarte self na usto sa malamig saka sa mga furufancy AHSDHADHA tHO KKB MARS UNLESS PINILIT ME CHAR. Anw ayon. HIHI. OR if not if biglaan lang edi laplapan lang ganun pero liek need ko muna magpagaling sa 3 weeks ko na naubo wayop tagal tagal ko nang may ubo when kaya mawawala para makapaglaplapan na kami mars IDK anyways need ko muna maalis ubo ko kasi i dont wanna repeat history mars ew. yon lang muna balitaan ko kayo. <33 THANK YOU LORD KAY KARLO HAHAHAH HININGI KO SYA SAYO NUNG ISANG ENTRY KO NAKULITAN KA PO ATA KAYA BINIGAY MO NA HEHEHEHE THANKS PO MWAH LOVE YOU LORD !!!!!!!!

[sayorine]

DAY 02 of @lavendergalactic's event : an implied/canon queen relationship !!

— madoka x homura 🥺🥺🥺🥺

f2u w/ credit !!

[sohmariku]

JODEN MITSURA BOSHI KATANA MONOGATARI

This entry was edited 1/26/2018

Thanks to @makichan61 I’m only now realizing there are actually different titles on the new visual we received a couple days ago! 

On the top it says (if I read it right):  如伝 黒田節親子盃  [Joden Kuroda Bushi Oyako Sakazuki] Similar Story: The Tune of the Kuroda Warriors

On the mirrored side it says: 序伝 跛行する行軍 [Joden  Hakō suru kōgun] Prologue: An uncoordinated March

Something else you may have noticed are Nihongo, Sayohanotsurugi and Hakata missing in the mirrored version! And the fact that the official site gives us two summaries for the play!

So, what does this mean? 

At first I was incredibly confused by this, but after reading the summaries, it’s all starting the make sense. No, we don’t have two versions of the same stage play, rather... we have two stories taking place at the same time, yet years apart! 

One story (跛行する行軍) takes place around the time the citadel was established (hence, Nihongo, Sayohanotsurugi and Hakata are missing from the visual). The other story (黒田節親子盃) takes place years after the citadel is established. (hence, we do have Nihongo, Sayohanotsurugi and Hakata present). 

Both stories take us to the “Siege of Odawara”... and that’s when the timelines start to intertwine!

Since I haven’t seen the play for myself, that is all I can say about it for now. For your pleasure I did quickly translate the summaries given at the official site. They sound rather crappy and I’m sure I made some mistakes, but I don’t have time to dwell on that now. At least it should give you some idea what’s going to happen in this new play!

God, I really want to watch it now! 

Summary of 序伝 跛行する行軍 Joden  Hakō suru kōgun / Prologue: An uncoordinated March

It's the year 2205. Scheming to alter the course of history, the "History Revisionists" started attacking the past. Taking a stand against them, the Time Government dispatched "Saniwa" to the past. Touken Danshi (Sword Warriors) are artifact spirits of swords brought to live by the Saniwa's power to breathe life into objects.  Together they plunge into the battles necessary to protect the course of history.

Shortly after the Citadel was established, the first unit, led by Yamanbagiri Kunihiro, travels to the “Siege of Odawara” by order of their master.

However, they aren't dispatched to subdue the History Retrograde Army. The unit's job is to investigate what events of this era are likely to be targeted by the History Revisionists.

While out in the field, they are caught off guard by a surprise attack of the History Retrograde Army. What is the History Retrograde Army doing in an era that shows no signs of alteration? Carrying the heavily injured Honebami, they find shelter in an abandoned hunter’s cabin. Due to their confusion about the situation and their lack of experience they start to question their leader, Yamanbagiri.

When Yamanbagiri and Yamabushi head out on patrol, they meet with Kuroda Yoshitaka and his son, Kuroda Nagamasa, who both joined the “Siege of Odawara”. Suspicious of their true identity, Yoshitaka decides to take Yamanbagiri, Yamabushi and Doudanuki with him to the base camp of the Kuroda army. Meanwhile, Hasebe, Sayo and Honebami encounter the History Retrograde Army in the mountains and give chase. Yet at the end of the trail, they only find the Kuroda army's base camp.

Why did the History Retrograde army venture this close to the Kuroda army camp?

Summary of　如伝 黒田節親子盃  Joden Kuroda Bushi Oyako Sakazuki / Similar Story: The Tune of the Kuroda Warriors

It's the year 2205. Scheming to alter the course of history, the "History Revisionists" started attacking the past. Taking a stand against them, the Time Government dispatched "Saniwa" to the past. Touken Danshi (Sword Warriors) are artifact spirits of swords brought to live by the Saniwa's power to breathe life into objects. Together they plunge into the battles necessary to protect the course of history.

Several years have passed since the founding of the citadel and through countless battles all Touken Danshi have grown stronger. Numerous new comrades have joined Yamanbagiri Kunihiro, who was the first to set foot in the citadel.

One day they receive an order from their master. They are dispatched to the “Siege of Odawara, a historical event that had been sealed since they suffered a defeat sometime in the past. Upon arrival, they are attacked by a mysterious warrior. As they give chase, they stumble upon Kuroda Nagamasa and his vassal, Mori Tomonobu. From the mouth of Nagamasa the Touken Danshi learn a shocking truth.

In the midst of their conversation with Nagamasa, they are attacked by the History Retrograde army and subsequently Yamanbagiri and Yamabushi encounter “a certain person” who isn’t supposed to be there. In the midst of the confusion, Yamanbagiri remembers what happened the last time they were dispatched to this time period and suspects their own time axis went askew.

Now, in this place of defeat, they are forced to face their past selves. As disaster strikes the land around Odawara, they have to challenge themselves to a “battle to overcome the past”.

[mariazenaida]

November 8, 2020 (10:35pm): What happened?

(Posted this one on my first tumblr account, kaso naligtaan ko yung password non so I created this account hahahah)

April 6, 2011... wow, ang tagal na rin pala. Posting it again coz earlier today I saw you unexpectedly. Posting this does not mean I want you back nor I love you still. I am once again posting this because I am forever grateful for the love you've given. Remember the day you've created this note for me? Nearly our 2nd month of being together.

Earlier today I saw you, tho you're wearing a mask I know that it's you. I wanted to say "hi" or "uy, kamusta?" but I guess I'm still shy and ashamed of what happened way back. Swear to god I was not happy with your recent breakup, I was partly sad actually.

Hindi ko nga rin alam kung bat napasulat ako rito, maybe there's part of me that wants to say sorry to you.

Thank you for accepting me back then, kahit sobrang brusko ko and panget. Hindi ko na maexplain kung bakit ako sobrang thankful sayo. Siguro sorry, for taking things not so serious. Sobrang kinikilig ako sayo and kay Sheejay nung naging kayo. Not because I think we wasted each other's time and you're better off with her ha. Sobrang cute nyo kasi and I'm glad that you're with someone that reciprocates your energy.

Ano na Nikka?? Hahaha sorry, hindi ko rin kasi talaga alam kung bakit ako nagsusulat. Ang pangit na nga ng construction tapos pangit pa pati composition hahahaha.

Maybe what happened to us caused this stigma where I am now afraid of letting a close friend get romantic with me. Before maging tayo, sobrang solid tropa mo. Sobrang nanghihinayang ako sa friendship natin after natin mag break. Siguro if I could go back, I'd rather be friends with you na lang, gahd I miss our foodtrip sa may simbahan tapos paramihan ng makain tapos unang uminom ng palamig talo. Miss ko rin yung times na may event sa school tas tandem tayo sa props.

Not even sure how to end this entry hahaha.

I wish for your safety and happiness. Sana talaga nakakausap pa kita, ang dami kong gusto ikwento sayo.

[hai-nakyuu]

kuroo the science b!tch (filipino!kuroo research defense AU)

a/n: bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch kuroo the science ✨ bitch✨ anyway third entry to @lumpiang-toge​’s event starring kuroo and kenmwah

“guys, final na this ha. oh, kenma, make sure na wala nang technical difficulties. yung HDMI cord ako na bahala dun, naghiram nako sa english department. james, yung ensaimada parating na ba? oh buti naman kailangang kailangan yung para di gutomin panelists habang turn natin. yannie, yung sa part mo dagdag mo pala yung argument natin na may antibacterial properties yung materials natin kaya sya mas effective-”

“ang kapal ng mukha mo, kuroo, alam mo yun?”

kuroo nervously laughs at your voice. “hala, sorry na Y/N”

“sino ba leader satin ha? ikaw ba?”

you raise an eyebrow and he shrugs, pointing to you, and you swear on your life that you hear kenma trying to hide his laughter.

“joke lang naman, guys, lighten up!” you clap your hands. “we can do this! good luck satin mamayang 1pm! lunch muna kayo guys, di kayo makakasagot sa panelists pag gutom kayo”

as james and yannie head to the cafeteria, kenma goes to the library to buy load. which leaves you and kuroo together in the hall.

“soooooo,” he trails off. “sabayan na kitang kumain?”

you turn away. “kaya kong kumain mag-isa, thanks.”

“ay,” he pouts, “taray. come on, just once!”

“why?” you ask. “aren’t your friends, like, waiting for you? asan si kenma?”

“he’s buying load, tas sa caf na din daw sya kakain,” he shrugs. “just wanna get to know you more.”

you think about it for a second, then nod. “ok, well, uhh, how do you wanna get to know me more?”

“i don’t really know, um... anong section mo last year?”

“polonium,” you take out your tupperware and open it, and fumble for the spoon and fork in your backpack. “ikaw?”

“yttrium. i got lost and pumasok ako sa classroom ng carbon,” he takes out his asado siopao and unwraps it. “favorite subject?”

“esp. you?”

“science. single ka?”

“wow, nobody likes sci- ano single ba ko?”

“mhm,” he nods, swallowing the food in his mouth before he continues.

“are you seeing anybody? may boyfriend ka na ba? or girlfriend?”

“uhh, single. why?”

“kasi, when we, uh, first became groupmates sa research,” he stutters. “i hated you,” the words rush out of him in a whisper.

“sorry, you what?”

“hated you.”

he waves his hands around just as you’re about to speak.

“but that was then, that was then! i don’t hate you now! i just-” he inhales, “-didn’t like you back then because it kinda seemed to me na parang you didn’t really want to do this investigatory project. but i understood why, because not everyone’s a science bitch like me.”

“a ‘science bitch’?” you giggle, and he rubs the back of his neck nervously.

“yeah, kenma calls me that. anyway, i realized i was wrong kasi even if you didn’t really like it, i saw na masipag ka pala talaga. yung bumili tayo ng materials sa ace hardware you got everything to the exact details. and oh! that time na aksidenteng nasunog ni james yung pancit canton nung nagstay tayo sa bahay ni kenma,” the two of you burst out laughing at this, “you didn’t go home until you cleaned up everything. that was the time i realized na... gusto kita,” he looks back at you sincerely.

“and... also the time i realized i made horrible first impressions about people”

you laugh even harder, and kuroo smiles even wider at the sound of your voice.

“and, after this defense, di na tayo magkikita as usual, kasi patapos na school year, and we’ll probably be in different sections next year. so, yeah, gusto ko lang sabihin sayo na thanks for everything, and you’re a great S.I.P. leader. and... a great girl.”

you smile.

“kuroo, that’s so sweet. pero...”

a million responses flash through kuroo’s head. pero may jowa nako. pero you’re not my type. pero i like girls eh. pero strict parents ko. pero-

“pero studies first ako eh.”

he nods. “i understand,” he mumbles.

“studies first. tapusin na muna natin tong defense, then we can go somewhere after.”

“okay- wait? what?” kuroo’s eyes flicker back up to yours in a startle. “what? ha? ano? huh?”

“kuroo, i was just kidding,” you giggle, taking his face between your hands, smushing his cheeks together. “how could i say no?”

“eh, malay ko ba!” he exclaims, red in the face as you laugh and hug him.

“i’ve liked you too for the longest time too, kuroo,” you confess. “how could i not? sobrang helpful mo sa mga paperworks natin, and lagi kang masigla!”

“masigla? ano ako bonakid?”

you glare at him, and you push him away. “alam mo wag nalang pala. bye bye kuroo! kaw na bahala sa defense natin!”

“HALA I WAS JUST JOKING Y/N~”

“BAHALA KA SA BUHAY MO KUPAL KA~”

[lazuliblade]

AnimeFest 2017 Day 1

I fell asleep yesterday before I could make the post...

Dealer’s Room opened late, but I stood in line for quite a while before then, so as soon as it opened, I was into the room and searching out YOI stuff (plus a couple of things to give as presents). My haul (for the first half of the day):

The can badge sets were actually on sale for $10 each, which was amazing. The embroidery of Yurio’s eyes is so pretty. The small poster (wall scroll, I guess) I got was of Yuuri and Victor in Moscow’s Red Square.

I was looking through the kimono stand (I’m always looking for pieces to finish my set)  and the people helping are AWESOME. Not only is the booth/stand filled with gorgeous pieces and simple pieces at all price points to fit a budget, the ladies are very helpful to both the people who have no clue what any of the names are for pieces, and to those who have worn a full ensemble and need specific little things. They shared the story of how they got this business running (3 years of research, planning, and connecting with Japanese salesmen), and were always ready to turn around and answer another question - even though they were running on little sleep. While they had super nice kimono on the racks (the furisode were so gorgeous I wanted to cry), the booth also had grab bags which ranged from $20 to $50. The $20 bags were usually haori (the coat that goes over kimono), $30 were simple kimono with obi, $40-50 are nicer kimono with obi. Some of the descriptions on the grab bags were hilarious! ( “It looks like a basket. Seriously. If you don’t like baskets, don’t get this.” “What a jedi warrior would wear if he wore kimono” “Green and black and [...] perfect for a SLYTHERIN~” “It’s Blue. ‘Nuf said.”)  I should have taken pictures....

I dashed from there to wait in line for the Japanese Guests Autograph Session, but the line was ridiculously long! I was in Block C of the waiting section and not even half of Block B got signatures. If you were there for people besides the YOI trio, they would let you go to those people you wanted to sign your stuff. Apparently some people in the A block of the line were waiting since 10am even though the staff said you couldn’t line up until an hour beforehand. For the remaining days of the con, they’re apparently going to be roping off the area until the hour before, so I guess we’ll see how Day 2 goes?

I went back to the kimono booth to actually buy stuff (they had set my stuff aside), grabbed a snack, and then went to wait with friends for the first YOI panel -- “Yuri!!! On Ice: Meet the Creative Staff”

While waiting in line I met Denki and won a poster for answering her hard question! (Thanks, @sachiro for pointing her out and encouraging me to go ask.)

My question was: “Which four skaters can do the 4Lo?”

I met a mother&daughter couple in the line (the mother was just as much a fan as her daughter. It was so touching!), gave the daughter a small push to actually approach Denki, and she did well to get her own poster. Denki isn’t scary!

There was some amazing cosplay and itabags I saw while waiting through the hour. One person was dressed as Chihoko! Golden fish tail and everything.

When the door opened, we filed in and were directed down the rows to fill every seat. They gave us posters (I guess?) at the door which were printed on fairly thick paper. I ended up second row left-of-center, right in front of Sayo and Kubo!

I’ll put the interview/talk in a separate post because I took notes on what they said and it deserves a separate entry. To make it short, they talked about American figure skaters (Nathan Chen, Adam Rippon, Jason Brown, and Max Aaron), how they learned of each other and met, the relationship between them, and a few notes. When talking about character designs Hiramatsu has formerly done, they mentioned about the dynamic poses in figure skating and the plentiful crotch and butt shots... I believe some people have already noted how Kubo spread tissue-box-Makka’s legs while Hiramatsu covered him. They were so great. At the end, the threw some freebies to the crowd. I managed to catch a pair of gloves!

After the panel was over, a few of us went to go check out the art show where some of Kubo’s pieces were hanging - both YOI and previous works. I was amazed at seeing everything up close. Her line quality is absolutely gorgeous. I browsed through the rest of the art auction pieces and as we were leaving we saw Kubo-sensei! She was looking at her hanged pieces and just starting to leave. Sayo was waiting outside of the room (her sunglasses were off!), and then Hiramatsu-san passed us to get into the room (he greeted us “Hello!”). 

From there, I browsed through artists’ alley (”Bizarre Bazaar”), bought some gorgeous prints from someone whom I reblog a lot of fanart (I’ll put the links to the specific art later!), dropped off my stuff, grabbed a quick snack, and off to Opening Ceremonies at Dallas’ Majestic theater.

It was amusing and interesting to hear what the different guests had to say. Sayo reiterated how she was invited to Anime Fest years before YOI - ever since “Lupin III: The Woman Called Fujiko Mine.” She was in contact with the guy from then on and would tell him about the cool figure skating project she was trying to have green-lit. She said that he invited her again to come to the con after the anime aired and he had more faith in her project than the producers did. So this is why AnimeFest was one of the first cons that confirmed Kubo, Sayo, and Hiramatsu as guests.

LM.C were hilarious. Aiji gave well-thought-out answers, while maya gave short somewhat deadpan responses that had us laughing. *holds hand up to eyes to look out into the crowd; turns head*  “I’ve memorized all of your faces. You’ll come to the concert tomorrow, right?”

After it was over, my group went to In-N-Out Burger for our first decent meal of the day. When we returned to the hotel, I meant to just curl up to absorb some warmth, but then fell asleep...

I’m planning to go to a lot of evening and night events in Day 2, so I’ll see how tired I am after all of it.

[themclisseconnection]

THIS IS WHAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF...

LAST SATURDAY NIGHT, WE SLEPT.....

...and had a wonderful dream. The first part of our dream was a flashback. A montage of scenes that brought us back to 2016 and early 2017. As the dream went on, we found ourselves holding tickets in our hands. Tickets that said “to one of the best nights of your life.” Tickets which serve as an entry to the happiest place on earth. We were so sure it was not in Disneyland. The dream was quite long. It started with flashbacks then carried on until we finally reached a certain place, a happy place situated at Pasig City. We all entered a beautiful place called “Glass Garden.” The dream felt real. So real.

Roller Coaster

It all started when we got an unexpected invite to ride a roller coaster. We wanted to try other rides that don't involve loops, steep slopes and rollers but we still ended up saying yes to it. In our dream, there was a princess speaking right in front of us. She was saying how thankful she was to everyone for staying with her and his prince through the ups and downs. A large screen showed us the same flashbacks we had initially seen in the first part of our dream. Something was telling us that the ride was extraordinary even if we screamed, squealed and struggled to hold on a lot of times. We suddenly heard teardrops falling. The prince and his princess were....... crying. Ahhh, happy tears.

It flinched our hearts and tears started to form in our eyes too but we knew it wasn't for the reason that we're too scared. The tears fell because our hearts were filled of happiness as if they were about to explode. The roller coaster will always have us as its favorite riders but the princess reminded us to hold on, to never give up and to stay strong. #KapitLang

3D World

Our eyes glimmered the whole night. The beautiful lights might be one of the reasons why they did but we believe they also glimmered because of a number of special moments we've witnessed. We found ourselves crying in our dream so many times. We can still remember how the princess slowly walked down the staircase facing all of us. She was wearing an elegant Red gown with a tiara on. The handsome prince also looked really manly with his Gray suit. 

Our dream was too vivid. We're so sure we also heard speeches full of love and sincerity. Her words shot our hearts and we were fragile enough to let those words shoot us. The dream brought out emotions we suddenly didn't know how to deal with. It was that very moment that tore all our walls down.

The princess said....

“To Marc Carlos, Ser, Mokya, Superman, Partner at yung nickname mo na secret lang natin. Our beginning was unexpected but it was real. Everyone knows our story but we only know what the truth is. Masaya ako dahil nakilala kita. Ang daming naging blessings na kasama ka. Ang daming naging opportunities na kasama ka. Ang daming experiences na maaalala ko habang buhay. Pero bukod pa dun masaya ako sa journey natin. Madaming challenges na patuloy na sumusubok sa ating dalawa pero kasabay nun ang mga life lessons na natutunan ko dahil sayo. Through the ups and downs magkasama tayo partner. Kapit lang! You taught me how to live a happy life. And with that, I'm thankful that I get to live this crazy beautiful life with you.

To McLisse Fanmily, thank you for being a part of our journey. Salamat sa pagiging lakas namin lalo na sa mga panahong pili kaming pinahihina ng mundo. We found strength and happiness in you the same way you found strength and happiness with us. Sa mga laging kumakapit lang at di bumibitaw. Kayo ang inspirasyon namin na mas maging matatag. Simple smiles from you could get us through whatever life throws at us. We are so blesed to have you as our family. Happy anniversary to us!”

The princess and the prince had their first royal dance. Our eyes were focused on them but their eyes were the only magnets attracting each other. It was a magical moment for the both of them. We, the mere spectators felt like we were on cloud nine. The dream was beginning to shape into a classic Disney movie. No need for words. We just smiled and realized that 'this was what we came for.'

The prince surprised everyone. In our dream, we gathered around the royal couple and listened to what he had to say. He pulled out a sheet of paper from his pocket and started reading what was written on it.

Our hearts raced with his words. Yes, including his. But the prince's heart couldn't maintain its pace and we felt the same thing. We were shaking, we were clueless of what would happen next and we were completely surprised of how he opened his heart to everyone especially to the gorgeous princess in front of him. The prince expressed his gratefulness to a lot of people but he mentioned one important thing that stopped the clock from ticking for a few minutes------

“...Isang mensahe para sa taong tinuring ko ring pamilya. Sa sandaling panahon naging nanay ko rin siya. Salamat po. Tita, ngayon po nagpapaalam ako na bigyan mo po sana ng tiwala na tumayong lalaki na mag-aalaga sa anak niyo dahil laging mabuti ang hinahangad ko para sa kanya. Hashtag Princess ko – Isang taon mula ngayon nung nakatingin ako sayo. Di ko akalain na pagkatapos ng tingin na iyon, ikaw ay magiging mahalaga saakin. Bawat blesings na dumarating at sabay nating tanggapin. Nabuo man, kung ano man meron sa atin. Ayan, nagkaroon ng kulitan, (..actually maraming kulitan yan, panay kulitan yan) kasi ayan lang nasa phone ko na di niyo pa nakikita (shows slideshow of pics) Ginawa ko 'to para sa inyo, ayan itsura ko. Nagkaroon ng saya sa kulitan at natural na kilig, kasama na rin ang mga yakap tuwing may kalungkutan. Kaya salamat. Gusto ko lang magpasalamat sayo at share ko lang sa lahat.”

“A love is not all about yourself. There's also a love from other person, who will support you, who will always take care of you, who will always be there for you when you need to. who will make you happy in different ways and I want to be that other person for you.”

“Ngayon isang taon na tayo bibigyan kita ng Pulang bulaklak at the same time Pink na rose- nung birthday ni Kisses. Puting Rose – nung nasa loob ng bahay ni Kuya at Blue rose – alam mo na.

Para sa'yo. Happy anniversary.”

How could a dream be this good? The magical moments found their reflections in our eyes. We saw, felt and heard everything as if they were real. This 3D experience was one for the books. Everything felt real. Again, we asked “How could a dream be this good?”

Fireworks

Everyone was asked to go outside. We all did but as we walked, we also started asking a lot of whats and whys. No one knew of the reason why we suddenly had to go out. The dark blanket above us called our attention as fireworks began its show. THERE WAS A FIREWORKS DISPLAY AND EVEN THE PRINCESS AND PRINCE HAD NO IDEA THAT THIS WOULD HAPPEN.

Everyone was looking up and smiling with our eyes full of hope. Even “feelings” couldn't explain themselves. Our feelings just went up there with the fireworks, freely flying, exploding and sparkling. In our dream, the fireworks made the prince and his princess flash a smile no one in this world could erase. It did the same thing to us, happiness was written all over our faces. We couldn't believe that we were with the royal couple as we watched the fireworks partying in the sky. The dream was close to a new year's welcome. We found ourselves happily welcoming a new chapter-- a new year with a lot of things to look forward to.

...........

AND THEN, WE WOKE UP.....and realized that what we thought of as a “dream” was actually REAL. 

Totoo talaga yun diba? Diba? Totoo yun bes, totoong-totoo.........TOTOO SIYA.

The prince was actually... McCoy and the princess was...Elisse.

The flashbacks were “real” and THEY. REALLY. HAPPENED. They reminded us of all the sleepless nights replaying the latest PBB episodes, trending taglines-- pushing for McLisse to continue here in the outside world, playing O Pag-ibig on repeat, dancing to “This is What You Came For”, eating burgers with “Tuloy Pa Rin” in the background and patiently waiting for their next guestings/projects. The roller coaster ride? We really got butterflies in our tummies because the ups and downs really existed. The past year introduced us to what would be the "greatest ride of our lives." The 3D world? We really witnessed how McCoy fearlessly read his personal message to all of us. The tears were real too. He cried. She cried. We all cried.

Good dreams make us want to stay in bed and dream longer, better dreams are the ones that inspire us to have a goal and best dreams are the ones that we share with the people we love which involve a plan. They're the ones that have a higher chance of ending up into something concrete. The ones that will not encourage us to sleep more but to get up early and work.

McLisse fanmily just started with “best dreams” that we had collectively dreamt of. Now, the whole fanmily is sharing it to other people through charity events and making other people dream bigger.

The Royal gathering reminded us that we should continue what we have started. It reminded us that we're stronger than what we think and that we truly found a new family through MCLISSE. The AVPs just proved to us that we're all in this together. Their story continues because everyone has always been there for them. Their family, friends, PBB housemates (lol @ MayWardCo for their fun greeting), co-actors and of course, US--- the people who are willing to fight for them at all times.

The BEST “Hindi lang” LOVETEAM award will always go to our favorite partners-- McCoy and Elisse. Nagtagpo ang mga buhay ninyo at ganun din ang mga buhay ng lahat na parte ng fanmily na 'to..

We fell in love with McLisse first but after seeing all their happy smiles and happy tears last Saturday night, we're very much sure that they've also fallen in love even more with us now. Head over heels. Diba mam? Diba ser? Forever OTP: McLisse x Fanmily. How does it feel like having an otp that reciprocates your love without any drama? Ask any McLisse fan and tears will fall first even before he/she can come up with an answer. McLisse, thank you for being so sincere and genuine to all of us. We really felt your appreciation, gratefulness and love in all of your words, in your warm hugs and in your smiles.

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY MCLISSE FANMILY!!! Last Saturday, we just turned the venue into a happiest place on earth because of our unforgettable-ginalingan masyado-walang magmu-move-on kind of celebration. Yung dating dream lang natin, nagkatotoo na and it's because we didn't let it stay as a dream, we worked hard to make it happen! Waaaaaaaaah. No one will move on from this. *imaginary fireworks* CHEERS FAM!

We've got somewhere we belong. They've got somebody to love...This is what dreams are made of! :)

(Pics not mine. ctto :)

[quicklyleftwerewolf]

4.29.2019 (Endgame)

Kaibigan.

Ano ba ang kaibigan? Ito yung tao kasakasama mo sa mga panahon ng saya, lungkot, pagkaburyo, labasan ng sama ng loob at kung ano ano pang trip sa buhay. Sila yung mga taong nagbibigay ng ibang kahulugan ng buhay, mahalagang parte talaga sila ng buhay ng tao. Madaming uri ng kaibigan, may makikilala kang panshort time lang, pag may kailangan lang at yung hindi mo maiwan iwan at parang jowa mo na.

Dumating ako sa point ng buhay ko nakilala ko silang lahat, dahil sa di magandang karanasan sa larangan ng relasyon na to, I literally shut my doors sa mga taong nagpapakilalang kaibigan. Masyado akong defensive, ayoko na kasing maiwan lagi ng kaibigan. Luckily I have friends na hindi ko inakala. Sobrang random at unexpected talaga ang pag stay nila and sobrang thankful ako sa existence nila sa buhay ko. Akala ko ayos na ako matatag na ako sa new invader na trying to have peek sa simpleng buhay ko. Then one day, sa new job ko, hindi ako nagcreate ng relationship sa workplace coz no one is real there. But this specific event that change my life, that destroy my walls against people. Isang lumipad ng silya sa kabilang kwarto, sobrang galit ang boss ko sa taong to para maihagis nya ang silya. I know this person I have some transactions with her, I help her out sa mga needs nya in short no personal interaction; trabaho lang. After the flying silya, I saw her eyes showing a strong personality after na maihagis sa harap nya ang silya. Sya talaga ang pinuruhan ng boss namin nun. No tears shed in her face while our boss shout at her. After that day I was captivated by her perseverance her straightforwardness, to make my story short; I try to know her and I succeed we're friends now. But before I admit to myself that I will let this person in, a great battle within me coz I know what it will cause me. I let my guard down for this person I let her win.

As time goes by, our friendship get stronger a lot of secrets, meet ups, pain and plan to share. I love it. I've seen her whole life, I saw the past, I'm with her present and visual her future. What a great friendship I say and giggle while I'm saying it. I call her my favourite, she's not the best but she so right. I thank God to have her. But we are not inevitable of pain, differences and misunderstanding. We had fight every month, I have tears with it but we overcome all of those as if we're in different kind of relationship. That was us before the big leaf in her life. You're getting married, you're going to USA few days after this entry. I'm not myself few months, I'm getting more emotional, clingy and narrow minded. I have fights with my emotions everyday without your knowledge but one day I stop talking to you, then you gone mad, that day was so long and you almost give up. I promise I will not let things happen again but I can't, I'm trying to hide all the nasty feelings. I smiled every time were together I even laugh but deep inside I'm so lost thinking of you living us here, I feel jealous of your boyfriend other people around you. I feel insecure. My insecurities eat my whole self. I hate it believe me.

Are you okay? You asked me. And I have this stare and say of course but you know I'm not.

Ang lagi kong tanong bakit? Bakit need sa US pa? Bakit di tayo tulad na dati parang may nag iba? Bakit kasi ganun eh?? Gusto kitang yakapin ngayon pero nasabi ko lang "last day natin magkikita ngayon" sabay ngiti. Natapos sa ganun yung last moment na andyan ka. Minsan naiinis ako sa sarili ko sa pagiging takot sa pag express ng feelings ko lalo na sayo. Dahil tuwing nagexpress ako ng feelings ko sayo we ended up fighting. Nung huli sabi mo last na ako iiwan mo na talaga ako, mga salita ng bumuhos sa akin ng malamig na tubig sinukuan mo ako ng ganun ganun na lang. Nakakatuwa sabi mo daig pa natin ang magjowa pag mag away, totoo naman.

Kahapon, nanuod tayo ng Avengers Endgame kasama mga pinsan mo, excited ako nun pero for some reason parang nawala ako sa mood kasi ni hindi mo man lang ako binati di mo ako kinausap ang babaw nuh. Pero nafeel ko lately di talaga ako kawalan. hahahaha! You asked me if I'm okay lang of course I said yes no problemo. Twice kang nagtanong same answer pa din. Sa pangalawa sabi mo na pag sa mga pinsan ko ayos ka pero pag nadating na ako bigla kang tumatahimik. All throughout the day tahimik lang ako kasi syempre last time na din na kasama mo mga pinsan mo eh. Then this question hit me, "Pwede picturan mo kami, ayos lang?" And me was like damn it of course! Di ba tayo mag kaibigan? Bakit mo tatanungin kung ayos lang? Bakit ang dami ng formalities sa akin lately? Bigla kong naisip if mag kaibigan ba talaga tayo o naging routinary na lang tayo? Or masyado kasi akong sensitive kaya nag iingat ka? Naisip ko these remaining days mo dito sa Pinas di muna ako manggugulo sayo time mo. Bahala ka. Feeling ko kasi masyado akong nakadikit sayo need ko ng time more than you.

Itong mga panahon na to parang mas need ko ng time sa sarili ko, mafigure out what's wrong with me. Sobrang affected ako sa pag alis mo, nagresign ako sa work natin before kasi I feel lost. Gusto kong itanong sayo lahat ng to pero ayaw mo ng ganto eh. Gusto mo chill lang tayo. Sana wag mo masamain ang pag di ko pagpansin sayo kasi di ko talaga kaya pa. Para akong papasok sa long distance relationship ng wala sa oras.

I like you more than I can imagine. I miss you everyday. I can't imagine a day without any update from you. I hope I can reach you heart one day. And I'll be waiting for that day to come and I promise I will behave myself more coz you mean so much to me. I love you and that's for sure..

Wait for me in US I will get my visa first and let's see what's next. Mag asawa na din ako ng afam para nasa US na din ako titira. 😅😅😅

Let's be friends everyday. I love you! I'm missing you right now and missing you more.

[fuckyaaprivacy]

Happy 1st Anniversary, my love ❤

Hi Tumblr! :) it's been a while since my last entry, sobrang saya ng buhay kaya hndi nako masyadong nakakapag entry sayo. I got someone na din na lagi nandyan for me, na nakikinig sa mga problems ko at rant kaya hindi na ako ganong nakakapag kwento sayo. Sooooo I'm chillin here sa room ko, galing akong Baliwag, Ron and I met para sa Anniversay date namin ❤ dapat kahapon kaso may event syang pinuntahan and dapat immeet namin si Pamela today pero hndi pala sya umuwi, so dissapointing MEH so yeah, kumain kami sa Champas tas ako bumili ng jeans sa Penshoppe then we checked in sa bagong new found motel namin, malapit sa Wilcon depot. He gave me chocolates and notebook that contains our memories, it's inspired sa Omegle and Grindr. so sweet my baby ❤ I got him nothing today, pinag iipunan ko pa yung gift ko sakanya hehe Time flies so fast. 1 year na kami agad non parang kailan lang nagsimula ang lahat, pero 1 taon na pala nakalipas mula non. Minsan naiisip ko parang ang konti palang ng pinagsamahan namin but reading ung gift nyang notebook kanina amazed me, ang dami na pala, sobrang dami na. And thats just the start of our forever. My man is for keeps, I will keep for sure. ❤

I love you so bad. ❤ 

March 31 2019