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simonmlewis · 10 months

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Do I Remember the Second Time?

Most people think about the first time they saw Pulp live when they sing "Do you remember the first time?" Mine was 1994 and it was in the SFX in Dublin, 5 days before Common People was released. I was a mis-shaped, misfit, and the gig changed my life. Where I went to school, everyone wore Global Technicolour t-shirts and chewed the insides of their mouth. They weren't actually on ecstacy, it seemed to be a cool thing to do. I left my classmates to their raves and went to watch bands like Fluffy and the Bluetones. But it wasn't until Pulp's SFX gig, where I felt home with 800 other indie kids.

I watched them a couple of years later in the Point and there were many many more kindred spirits in the crowd by then. I've seen them a few times when they've come to Ireland (though I skipped the post-This is Hardcore gigs, to my regret.)

However, "Do you remember the first time?" took on a different meaning this year. Ten years after their last gig, after which I didn't sleep for three days (due to non-chemically induced ecstacy) they were back, for their This is What We Do for an Encore tour. Rozz and I booked into a hotel in Dublin, had a drink, and we were ready for action! Long story short, Rozz and I aren't drinkers, and we had forgotten the adage of never mixing grape with grain. There is video evidence of us having the greatest night of our lives. The next morning, I logged on to Ticketmaster to see if I could find any way to see them again so I wouldn't live in eternal regret.

All the dedicated Pulp gigs had long sold out so I found myself paying way over the odds to see them at TRNSMT, an annual festival in Glasgow.

Glasgow is a cool city, famous for this statue and this square with loads of statues, ☝🏼 but that was not important. I had this 👇🏼

I stayed in the Crown Plaza hotel and checked in. I'm almost certain they had no idea what they were doing when they were allocating my room but I very much appreciated the gesture.

My room didn't have a bolt across the door. Just as well.

Pulp weren't playing until after 9pm but I thought it would be a good idea to go a bit early so whipped on my His n Hers t-shirt that nobody recognises as a His n Hers t-shirt. With the pang of double wines still fresh in my memory, I thought that I may as well get some value out of my ticket, and get there early enough. Paul Heaton of Housemartins and Beautiful South fame was playing at 4:30 so I thought that would be a good time to start.

The strongest thing that passed my lips was Us+Them coffee and Scran's chicken shawarma. The woman at the box office strapped my silver grey band to my wrist and in I went.

My game plan was to ensure I got as close to the stage as possible for Pulp without having to stand through Niall Horan and George Ezra so I did my test run for Paul Heaton.

I really enjoyed his set and I knew quite a few of the songs. I ended up standing beside a guy with a Union Jack hat who booed Heaton when he sang "F**k the King" and revealed his co-singer's football team was Celtic. I had my line "I support Patrick Thistle" ready even though I haven't even looked at the Scottish League table since the 1990s. Heaton sang a good few Beautiful South and House Martin's songs. He ended with Caravan of Love, which was great.

As planned, I skipped Niall Horan completely in search of food but walked by the stage as he was covering a Tears for Fears song, which probably would have been tolerable had I have bothered standing in the pit. I watched a band on the King Tut stage, mainly a refuge for older people trying to drown out Horan but gave up after a few songs. I found myself some grub and someone smiled at and commented on my t-shirt (FINALLY!) To celebrate I grabbed my first beer and sat on a picnic table. I had a lovely chat with the people sitting there and before I knew it my phone binged a notification. One hour to go. Time for my masterplan.

I calculated that George Ezra fans would not be Pulp fans so I decided to hang out at the edge of the first few rows for the last 3 songs of his set. I knew two of the songs and it didn't make me like him any more or less than I had before. I possibly tapped my toe to the chorus of his last song, the one about yellow and green, which might be about one of the wires in a plug? Anyway, once he had cleared off, hordes of teenagers changed places with people my age. It seems I was not unique in my plan. I found myself squashed between two friends who were now in their 40s and a very young couple who seemed to like Pulp a lot. Although there were more very young people there than I'd have liked, I was happy enough with that. I chatted to a few of them who kept listing other bands they thought I might like.

One thing I remembered from Dublin was to keep an eye on the screens on the sides of the stage as the beginning of I Spy began.

And just like Dublin, up popped Jarvis...

It was as joyous as I don't remember the first time being. The setlist was pretty much the same (minus Razzamatazz) and it basically filled in the gaps of the forgotten evening. After I Spy, Disco 2000 got everyone going, partially because it was one of two songs that the young people knew.

I learned one of the women I met also had Something Changed as her wedding song. She cried all the way through it. I missed Rozz being there.

Another thing I noticed was that I was bopping a lot more than most of the people around me. I think that might have been the difference between the first gig and this one. There were a lot of people there that didn't know Pulp that well. I didn't care. I happily took on the "annoying old man trying to relive his youth" role.

There were too many highlights to mention. I videoed a little bit of "Mis-shapes" for Emrys because it's his favourite song. "Do you remember the first time?" took on its new meaning for me, and it was followed by Babies, which was just amazing. I was slightly relieved when Sunrise started because I thought I was going to faint from all my jumping. I imagine the people around me were too. I never realised what a brilliant song that was. Weeds and Pink Glove were also surprise highlights. "This is Hardcore" was stunningly good and also gave me a break from jumping but "Sorted for Es and Whizz" got me bouncing again. Nobody was chewing their inner mouth.

I'm not quite sure why but Jarvis sang Happy Birthday to Ringo Starr and threw chocolates at the crowd to celebrate World Chocolate Day. Even more puzzling, he read a poem.

I didn't recognise it. My guess is that he googled "very short Scottish poem" and that was it.

The encore was the same as Dublin. I was surprised by how many people knew Like a Friend. I didn't really know it that well. Maybe young people knew it from a film it was in? As the crowd got restless for Common People, I knew Underwear was coming first and I was possibly the most excited person in the crowd. Jarvis may have introduced it as foth-éadaí in Dublin but I don't remember. It didn't matter, it was perfect for the song everyone was waiting for. Like it or not, even if this was the only song most people were here for, there's nothing like standing with thousands of people belting it out. Jarvis teased the crowd asking had he left a song out and suggested "Pencil Skirt" before he gave everyone what they wanted. It was pure pure joy. Complete with fireworks, we chanted "I wanna live with Common People like you" over and over again, and I hoped we'd never stop. La la, la la la la la, oh you. The stage flashed. And then it was over.

I said my goodbyes to my new friends and off I walked to my hotel, back to the 15th floor, the music buzzing in my ears all night. I might not have remembered the first time, but I'll never forget the second.

#pulp #trnsmt

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punkscowardschampions · 1 year

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Bibi (and co.) Pt.1

Bobby: [We were coming home from school, 4ish so a couple of hours before any adult is due, making the racket we usually do, totally oblivious to the fact JC have probably not long left after the absolute scenes they were causing all over this house; all teenage boys are always hungry so it isn’t going to take you any length of time to go to the kitchen for scran and see this vague note; let us assume you text Janis like ?? and Casey too but he left his phone and she isn’t looking/replying right now so then you take a photo of said note and message it to Jimmy]

Bobby: That mean Case has 💀 someone or what?

Jimmy: Means I’ll have to find out

Bobby: Neither of ‘em is here, Jan wouldn’t be but he usually gets up to have a go for waking him and no 👀 after I just dropped the butter

Jimmy: I’ll give her a ring, sort out the or what

Bobby: Fair dos, don’t get cramp in your hand having a chat like that

Bobby: ✍️ don’t come into her job, s’pose

Jimmy: weren’t giving herself cramp with the note, can’t be that bad

Bobby: Had time to write one, dunno where she plans on putting him, mind

Bobby: only get in more trouble if she drops him at Ian’s

Jimmy: she knows what she’s doing

Bobby: Much as can be done with him, yeah 🙄

Jimmy: You get your homework done and leave it with me

Bobby: Where do you suppose his missus is in all this

Bobby: She wouldn’t be thrilled at the idea of them 2 going off together

Jimmy: Oi, you heard

Jimmy: [one of his teachers, I shan’t commit us] can’t have set you questions like that

Bobby: Could be for film club, we reckon she’s a right 🐇♨️

Jimmy: I’m at work here, trying to get hold of her’s enough of a sackable offence without carrying on with you an’ all

Bobby: They’re not gunna sack you, you’re top at your job

Bobby: can’t expect their employees not to have lives, especially not with 2 brothers, 1 being a right dickhead 😁

Jimmy: tah very much, but trust us when I say they’re at the top ‘cause they’re massive dickheads

Jimmy: I’ll chat to you in a bit, alright

Bobby: Alright, I’ll let you know if either comes back and bothers to let me know, or I find any clues

Jimmy: 👍

Bobby: [Time to message Libi like guess what, girl]

Bobby: Reckon Case’s missus is full Glenn Close 🛁🩸🔫

Libi: *🔪

Libi: Anne Archer uses the revolver

Bobby: Touche

Bobby: and may as well be her name, ain’t spending time working on a right good deaf one for her when I think she’s already 💀 to Case and that means us 🤞

Libi: Anne, Glenn, Beth or Alex, it’s all the same, yeah

Bobby: [send the picture of this note because what else could it be, honestly, Janis didn’t need to spell it out]

Bobby: You wanna come over and search his room with us?

Libi: ☢️⚠️☣️ want’s a 🤏 strong but

Bobby: I will provide gloves and a clothes peg for your delicate 👃

Bobby: dunna, the note was giving major 2nd clue will give it more context vibes, don’t you think?

Libi: You’re right on both counts

Bobby: Jan ain’t replying to me but she’d have to you

Libi: 🤞 she’s driving and nothing more sinister

Bobby: 🤔 Would she draw the line at helping bury a body or what

Libi: For Case? Is there a line?

Bobby: Jim said she knows what she’s doing… like that’s necessarily a 👍 thing

Libi: He would say that

Libi: we know what he means by 👍 though

Bobby: Means piss off and do your homework today

Bobby: as if I didn’t just walk in the door to a murder mystery case

Libi: Cos you walked in on such a ??!!

Libi: he’ll be losing it under that 👍

Bobby: I just wish he gave us enough credit to know he can’t hide nothing from me

Bobby: and he don’t need to now, I get why he did when I was a proper kid

Libi: You’re still one to him 👶🏻 both of us are

Bobby: you should definitely graduate to toddler this birthday, at least 🤏 later bedtime, like

Libi: Aw, tah 🥳🌟🌜

Bobby: I know you’re as sick of it as I am

Bobby: if he’s gonna be full ??!! behind a 👍 you have to come stay here, I can’t deal with that alone

Libi: I’m right sick of Case dragging her into his mess

Libi: they could be banged up for my birthday

Bobby: She can’t make the garda lock her up too

Bobby: do you think it’s that bad, what he did, no more warnings left or whatever

Libi: He was with the girlfriend longer than the others, means more chances for him to have a go… I keep thinking about that

Bobby: If I was him I’d just steer well clear, no one winds him up more than the girls he knocks about with

Libi: But you’re not

Libi: if he had your sense he wouldn’t need Jan to be his voice of reason all the time

Bobby: He’s more of a kid than either of us, full-time babysitting, that

Bobby: Right again though, Libs, I just dunna what to do with myself now

Libi: I’m coming, promise

Libi: bus is late, but I’ll be there as soon as I can be

Bobby: 💕

Bobby: I’ll go and bin all the grottiest shit in his room, save your blushes and 👀

Libi: 💕

Libi: My own fault for not going back with you anyway, I had a feeling I shouldn’t have ignored

Bobby: Yeah? You’re usually not wrong, even when it’s less logic and more 🔮

Bobby: I thought she was a crank, yeah but maybe I was just hoping he was happy with it for once

Libi: It’s okay, I wanted to be wrong too, don’t beat yourself up and I won’t

Bobby: Too soon 😬

Bobby: I can’t even act surprised, that’s the bit making us feel proper thick, if he’s done it, ‘course he has

Libi: You’re not thick for having hope he was maybe sorting himself out

Libi: he’s more than old enough to be getting there, that’s the *😬

Bobby: Lads like that don’t, ever

Bobby: they turn into middle-aged dickheads like Ian

Libi: Sins of the father, you’re not wrong

Libi: not everybody can break the cycle

Bobby: If Jim hadn’t got me out, who knows

Libi: I’d get you out, we’d still have to meet somehow 🔮

Bobby: You could’ve when we met, remember when you tried to runaway with us

Libi: Yeah, and I remember your impression of Ian

Bobby: 😡😡🤬🤬😡 only be redder with drink and age, probs

Libi: I’d shout louder than him, had loads of practice, haven’t I?

Bobby: Keep trying, I might hear you one of these days

Libi: You do, you’re a great listener, it’s just me who wasn’t

Bobby: I needed someone to talk to, fairness

Bobby: and you’ve always been good at that, fuck all competition you may have

Libi: I’d fight it off, too soon for another bad choice of those words or not

Bobby: Nah, ‘cos a fight between us is only ever for film or for fun

Bobby: you know I’d never hurt anyone how he will everyone, especially not you

Libi: It wouldn’t be us fighting, just me and whoever you’ve brought in as my talking understudy, for some reason

Bobby: You’re always gonna be the brightest ⭐️ I know

Bobby: you only need a stunt double if things get too ⚠️

Libi: I say one thing about how gross his room probably is…

Bobby: you rn 😤

Libi: A second ago I was ⭐️ rn

Bobby: 😏 you’re a lot of things

Bobby: wrong is not one of them though

Bobby: [pictures of things in Casey’s room that are gross but not like ew I actually don’t wanna see that gross lol, sorry boy, privacy whomst]

Libi: 👍 has never been more accurate

Bobby: Reckon Jim would be 👍 or 👎 if we ordered [some takeout you all fuck with, as shown by a pic of some old containers we’re binning rn] for when he gets back?

Bobby: somehow can’t picture those 2 rocking up in time for tea and I don’t want him distracting himself bothering his arse with it

Libi: He might not be bothered about eating none but it shows you are about him so

Bobby: We can finish his portion when he deffo ends up leaving it

Libi: Shh, I’m starving

Bobby: I’ve already had [the ridiculous amount of after-school snacks you have consumed] 😘

Libi: 🐷!!

Bobby: I’m a growing lad!

Bobby: and there’s fuck all to do ‘til your bus sorts itself

Libi: I get it, you wanna tower over me cos you didn’t when we met

Bobby: 😱!!

Bobby: If you’re checking I can hack it like Jim can, dead easy

Bobby: sure I’ll get my own model missus one day

Libi: I’d have said actress was more likely, and you’ll be alright, they don’t have to be tall necessarily 😘

Bobby: [the lady on whatever instructional sign language videos they’d have you watching for Irish sign language vibes] is most likely 😢

Libi: Boy, you stop it

Libi: she’s WAY too old for you but I’d be the one having a heart attack 👎👎👎👎👎

Bobby: I ain’t thrilled about my option (no s) so chuck a 🍔 my way and we’ll make it mutual, Libs

Libi: It’s a date, and what a date, like 🥰

Bobby: Can’t say we don’t know how to party

Libi: Say the word and we’ll run away again

Libi: I know what I’m doing now I’m not a toddler

Bobby: We better wait out Case’s exile, wouldn’t wanna bump into him on our way out, awkward

Libi: I only wanted it on record, I’m in, whenever and wherever

Bobby: 🥳🌟🌜 I remember and I promise

Libi: I have another feeling, I don’t wanna but it’s right there

Bobby: You can tell us, we’ll work out if we wanna ignore it together

Libi: You might need to eat my [whatever the takeout is] too

Bobby: I won’t show-off that that wouldn’t even be a record…

Bobby: we’re probably on the same page, same script

Libi: If I could demand rewrites, I would

Libi: and a change of scene, for sure, this bus isn’t helping with the knot in my stomach

Bobby: It’s weird, I know it’s weird

Bobby: but he ain’t once touched her

Libi: She hasn’t once missed this many calls from me

Bobby: She might be on the phone with Jim

Bobby: we can’t panic yet, we can make a plan though, me and you

Libi: For if they come back or if they don’t?

Bobby: If she don’t give you some sort of response before tonight, we’ll start there

Libi: [a time like yep you’ve got a deal] 🤝

Bobby: 🤝🩸

Bobby: She can handle herself, just like you

Libi: It was her who taught me

Bobby: I know, I got some benefit too, stopped 😭 as much

Libi: I still remember how to stop you myself if you fancy 😭 for old time’s sake, or you know, cos everything’s so weird sometimes

Bobby: Very weird

Bobby: but that kid who cried all the time still feels ages away, far away as the girl who used to shout at us

Libi: I’ll do it, as long as you warn Jim first, speed this bus is going he’ll get in before me

Bobby: Where’s Sandra and Keanu when you need ‘em 💔

Bobby: he’d get the memo you were ‘round before me, pisstake

Libi: We can’t have that

Bobby: Have to warn me some way else

Libi: Dead easy

Libi: I’ve got loads of tricks up my sleeve, no need for you to wear a 💔 on yours

Bobby: No one jumpscares me less, like

Libi: What happens when I’m as easy on the 👀 obviously

Bobby: Something like that, Libs

Libi: Save me [something that’s her absolute fave snack and hence all she can face eating rn despite being starving] and I’ll know it’s real

Bobby: [picture evidence like of course I shall]

Bobby: Case’s phone is here btw, so, can’t have been planning to stay away for long

Libi: [a lil vid of her signing something feelsy, I vibe from when they were bubs cos they probs had not like a full language of their own but like things instead of ILY and big stuff like that]

Libi: It’s a start, we can try and guess his pin until Jan’s deadline

Bobby: [give that same energy back and sign another thing from your bub speak because love that for y’all tbh]

Bobby: 🧠🧠 better than 💩🧠

Libi: Use her birthday for the first guess

Bobby: 😩

Bobby: nothing, I better check how many attempts we get…

Libi: Do you know your mum’s?

Bobby: Going for the big 🔫🔫

Libi: You said it, we might not get many gos at this

Bobby: Is it bad I don’t know?

Bobby: Didn’t exactly leave 📼 for us

Libi: *sad

Libi: but it makes sense you wouldn’t

Bobby: I got no memory of any 🥳s and it’s never been a priority or a sound idea to ask about ‘em

Libi: ‘course not, ditch that guess, I don’t know what I was thinking

Bobby: It might be the one but I can’t ask Jim so it’ll have to be ❌

Libi: [Suggest the date of another JC moment you’re aware of and hence it won’t be cos it’s too obvious]

Bobby: ❓

Bobby: not that either but you’ve got a much better memory than me

Libi: Is that bad? 👽

Bobby: Your heads like a 🎥 you pick up on all the important things

Libi: You give the best compliments, nobody’s ever said anything nicer to me than that just now

Libi: your heart’s like a …

Libi: I can’t finish the analogy with something as good, you’ve proper flustered me 📌

Bobby: It’ll have to do as making up for me not knowing shit to crack this code to ease the knot in your stomach

Libi: Might make it worse instead, maybe you’re saving me 🦸🏻‍♂️🤴🏻👨🏻‍✈️👼🏻👨🏻‍🚒😎👩🏻‍🚀🧙🏻👨🏻‍⚕️🧚🏻‍♂️🤠👨🏻‍🔬

Bobby: Nothing can be as bad as the scenes that are looping in your head, right

Bobby: real life just don’t get that bad, not now

Libi: 🤞🌠 Bobs

Libi: All I want’s you to be right again

Bobby: not got your inherited 🔮 but its been known to occur enough I don’t feel too bad for you having to trust in us

Libi: You’ve got your own 🔮 and I do trust it

Bobby: Meant to make my other senses proper 🦸 will have to ask Ali if that includes my third eye 🪬

Libi: I’ll get back to you 😏

Bobby: Be a pisstake as I’ve just made you leave there to send you back with that kind of bollocks Q

Bobby: He reckons I’ve got too many but I know there’s more in his own 🧠

Libi: It’d be charming of you 🤴🏻 I’ve only got [however many] stops left

Libi: and yeah, exactly, like we said, I can’t leave either of you to it as if I believe the 👍

Bobby: I ain’t touched your snacks, got some self-control

Bobby: tried Ian’s birthday ‘cos I know that one, weren’t it though 😒

Libi: Are we 🔒 out of tries?

Bobby: Think we have to wait for the tries to reset ⏲

Bobby: you can have your snacks and we can work out how we’ll find them if Jan doesn’t get back to you

Libi: It’s a plan

Bobby: is [an old lady who is always on the bus because you get CHARACTERS when you regularly use public transport] on today?

Libi: It’s [Whatever day it is] she’s on her way to [wherever you’ve made up that she goes cos y’all are making a story out of it as if they are characters lol]

Bobby: Ahh, you’re right 💡 it was [a day it is not] today 🥴

Bobby: got me fucked up

Libi: Reason not to do your homework how Jim wanted, you’d be reading up for all the wrong subjects

Bobby: Fat chance that was happening but not like he’ll get his red pen out to mark and check it’s done if I tell him otherwise

Bobby: Priorities, like

Libi: I didn’t bring a red pen either, you’re alright

Libi: barely have anything, my priority was running for the bus

Bobby: Good thing she had you trained for that an’ all 🏃🏻‍♀️

Libi: I’m meant to be bringing the rescue mission to you, not the other way ‘round, be awkward 🚑

Bobby: you better have your inhaler, more vital than a red pen, girl

Libi: [photographic evidence via her posing with it like a big nerd]

Bobby: 🤩

Libi: 😮‍💨

Bobby: I know, I know, take your breath away, me

Libi: Number 1 trigger, you

Bobby: bit less complimentary comparing us to dust mites but you know, fair if that’s the line I come up with after all this time

Libi: I can’t help it if laughter’s not the best medicine for this, or nobody making me like you do

Libi: how complementary is comparing you to a 🤡?

Bobby: It’s not mime, you’re still a 👼🏻

Libi: I don’t have the legroom nevermind any for a full wingspan

Libi: trapped 🦋 more like

Bobby: No dickhead better come at you with a 📍and some poison

Bobby: even for [bus number] that’d be well out the usual

Libi: As much as it would add to today’s murder mystery vibe, you’ve got enough sleuthing on 🕵🏻

Bobby: There’s limits to how many of us can go missing at once, yeah

Libi: MIA’s only the move if you’re in too

Bobby: What would you do, if you were Jim

Libi: I don’t know, but I know I wouldn’t be in his position

Bobby: It ain’t him, his fault

Libi: It’s Case’s fault, the but comes in cos I wouldn’t be around it, him, if I was Jim, that’s what I’m trying to say

Bobby: Yeah, it isn’t like that’s a choice though

Libi: He’s not a kid any more though, there are choices

Bobby: it’s not like you can just turf someone to the side the minute they hit 18, Jim wouldn’t, not when Ian couldn’t wait ‘til I was in double-digits

Libi: But he didn’t just hit 18 and making excuses for him ‘til he’s 28 or 38 isn’t helping him or Jim, is it?

Libi: I believe in second chances, third and forth even, he’s had so many who’s counting?

Bobby: I don’t know, I’m not the big brother, I never had to make any decisions about things like that so I can’t sit here and judge his

Libi: I don’t wanna sit here and come for his life, you asked me though

Bobby: I know you ain’t

Libi: I just think there’s a point where you reach the end of your tether, if you’re ever gonna, and this has got me at mine

Bobby: and I don’t wanna sit here and come for hers but who’s really given him all those chances

Libi: It’s not right

Libi: maybe they’re both bigger and better people than me, for having the patience I don’t with him, all I see is the toll it’s taking… where’s the upside supposed to be?

Bobby: I should hope so, they are the adults, after-all and we’re just 👶🏻👶🏻

Bobby: I don’t know, I wish I had some clue

Libi: We’ll decide what we wanna do together, there’s no deadline on specifically that part

Bobby: Fuck it, maybe this is the final straw, I dunna

Bobby: it just doesn’t feel like something that’d ever really happen, y’know

Libi: Yeah, if anybody would keep making more and more straws appear ‘til it feels like some sort of magic trick, they’re the ones for it

Bobby: Quite the double act

Libi: I always used to reckon so

Bobby: Why wouldn’t you, it was 🏰💕

Libi: What happened?

Bobby: Either we grew up or

Bobby: it was just a story

Libi: Swear you aren’t about to outgrow me, that we’re not gonna be a story

Bobby: as long as you swear not to walk out on me

Libi: never

Bobby: Then we’re gonna be just fine, like we’ve always been

Libi: 🏰💕

Bobby: 🤝💕💀

Libi: This took a dramatic turn, I seriously didn’t mean to make you swear an oath to me before I’ve even walked through the door

Bobby: Standard you behaviour, dunna what you’re chatting, girl

Bobby: and what else do 🤴🏻 even do, yeah

Libi: Oi!

Bobby: 🤡 too, but I won’t play that its a full-time job keeping you 😂 though

Libi: You couldn’t hack a full-time job anyway

Bobby: Oh, shall I get you the paper for the classifieds for your bday

Bobby: 👍 stuff

Libi: No need, I’ll be putting my name down for [a cool cinema they like or something in that vein] first chance I get, tah

Bobby: Free 🍿 for me then

Bobby: you’ll love that

Libi: Bring your own 🥄 then [random but I have pics in his folder of that because it’s a weird thing Brooklyn Beckham and his missus used to do and it gave bibi to me lol cos why huns ??]

Bobby: Wouldn’t leave for the movies without it, regardless of drug allegations

Libi: I could make a top final straw joke there, having one of them on you too, but it’s meant to be your job 🥤

Bobby: You dead keen to make me a wage slave today

Libi: You’re dead keen on bringing up my birthday

Bobby: It’s soon

Bobby: and a better thing to focus on that… this

Libi: Alright, what are you getting me and what are we doing?

Bobby: Come on, can’t ruin surprises or you’ll have nowt to look forward to

Libi: But 🥺 if I ruin these you’ll think of more, won’t you? 🥺

Bobby: Am I going to let you have a rubbish birthday?

Libi: You better not 😤

Bobby: 😭 You’d think there was ever a possibility the answer to that question was anything but fuck no

Libi: You’d think there was ever a possibility I’m not only playing

Bobby: not my fault your 🥺 are dead convincing

Libi: ⭐️🎬🎭🎥

Bobby: I’m relying on you to bring in a new silent era, no pressure superstar

Libi: Throw 🍿 - your 🥄 if I let you down, bringing it in an eyepatch is gonna limit me and my second chance 🤏

Bobby: Nah, even with one eye you’d still beat every actress out there today

Libi: I don’t know about that

Bobby: Come on, [drag some really shit actresses of your day, they’re always out there, doing the least or doing too much of the wrong thing lmao] 😶😶

Libi: Okay, okay…!

Bobby: You’re properly talented, and I’d think that even if we weren’t best friends

Libi: 😁

Libi: you’ll give me jaw ache in a minute

Bobby: S’alright, permanent rest when you’re around me, very welcome

Bobby: maybe I’ll be a critic, your face, your eyes and your body language have to do all the work to convince me, can’t just memorize the lines

Libi: I’m glad you added language after my body

Bobby: Oi!

Bobby: you know it’s VERY important, sign language 101, you’ve had enough lessons by now

Libi: Oi is exactly right, it would’ve been so rude

Bobby: And I would never, tah very much

Libi: [signing her own tah very much as a lil vid, really being expressive about it for those sign language 101 vibes]

Bobby: 😏 what are you like…

Libi: Admit it, I could take over from [the sign language instruction lady]

Bobby: I’m just thinking of your jaw, no more compliments for you

Libi: Don’t get a job as a dentist… imagine all the kids 😭 when they see you

Bobby: SPECIFICALLY me or what

Bobby: ‘cos we agreed its a little too soon for a playfight 🥊

Libi: Neither of us need that level of rejection in our 9-5

Libi: I say with a straight face as we debate me becoming an actress…

Bobby: If anyone can break that industry, I believe it’s you

Libi: Well now I’ve gotta

Libi: none of that is how I like to prove you wrong

Bobby: and if you can’t get in front of the 🎥 there are a million jobs behind it that you’d be just as top at

Bobby: Not worried about what you’re gunna do with your life for a reason, them pair

Libi: You’re a weight off my mind too, you know

Bobby: Yeah?

Bobby: what I like to hear

Libi: I wish we could just stay in this bubble of the future that’s my birthday and our career goals and none of the rest

Bobby: Me too

Bobby: the rest, what’s happening and what’s gunna when they are back… too uncertain

Libi: Do you think they’ll be back tomorrow?

Bobby: If the police showed here, I didn’t see the flashing lights or feel the door being booted down looking for him

Bobby: makes it feel like an overreaction so, why should they stay away 🤔

Libi: He’d stay to have her to himself

Bobby: She’s married so that’s not a good enough reason

Libi: What’s a good enough reason for her to go as far as really leaving in the first place?

Bobby: What he did had to be scary enough to make them panic

Libi: Then where are the garda?

Bobby: People don’t call them, you know that

Bobby: We never have, I don’t even know if they were told about Debbie… must’ve been but

Libi: I can’t make it add up, she seemed the type who would ring and report him, didn’t she? 🤔

Bobby: Dramatic, obviously

Bobby: I dunna, could be parents, or maybe they were both high or she did something to him too

Bobby: or the garda are just dragging their arses and will show up before Jan replies

Libi: Fuck, I don’t wanna talk to them if they show up before Jim’s home

Bobby: You don’t have to, pretend to be as mute as me, they’re not going to fuck around intimidating two disabled kids

Libi: What if I have to talk to them later, if something bad’s happened, or if she doesn’t come back?

Bobby: She’ll come back, don’t think like that

Libi: Getting in a car with him, both of them panicked, you know what I’m thinking, that I can’t not

Bobby: Shh, I’m putting my shoes on, get off the bus whatever stop you’re at

Libi: I’m almost there, don’t be silly, like

Bobby: it doesn’t matter, I’ll walk you

Libi: [do the ILY kid sign again obvs or one that’s even feelsier because that’s so cute of him]

Bobby: You know I’ll always look out for you

Libi: I’d do it for you too, anything

Bobby: [sign ‘I know’ and her name sign]

Libi: [a pic of this gal off this bus wherever she may be]

Bobby: 5 minutes 🏃🏻

Libi: [just her doing a lil countdown vid putting a finger down from 5 to 1 as if that’ll mean he’ll be there then]

Bobby: Already felt like my cardio was crap without that pressure 😮‍💨

Libi: [signing sorry instead of typing it purely so she can show she’s the least soz it’s possible to be lol, unnecessary close ups of her eyes and face and body language too, really making our point here]

Bobby: 😏 I’ll slow down to a power walk if you don’t behave yourself

Libi: I’ll see myself off home if you reckon you can tell me how I’m supposed to behave, boy

Bobby: 🤐 us

Libi: No, talk to me without telling me off

Bobby: Have we ever gone a day?

Libi: [Bring your memory back out cos if you have it for JC moments you defs have it for yours] 🎥🧠

Bobby: Hm, no, I don’t wanna remember that day 🥺

Libi: UM, no fair to 🐶👀!

Bobby: You started it

Libi: Which don’t mean you get to finish me off 💀

Bobby: I could’ve done 📸 evidence like you

Libi: Too late now, I’ve been warned, won’t even CARE if you do 😝

Bobby: [take the blatant bait, you are very puppy dog boy]

Libi: Nope, nothing 😐

Libi: 🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗

Bobby: 💔 I’ll just hurry up then, yeah

Libi: Yep, I’m VERY unbothered

Libi: even though your eyes are like [idk crystals but you would cos of that cali influence and therefore could name one that’s legit for his eyes which aren’t just dark brown af like his brothers] and it [likewise of a property of said crystal such as protects/calms etc something feelsy af] me

Bobby: What am I meant to follow that up with? 😳

Bobby: I’ve never seen no one with actually green eyes but you

Libi: That’s not a bad follow up, but I still wouldn’t be 😤 if your feet followed on to [wherever she is] faster 🏃🏻‍♂️

Bobby: [show up boy, however long this takes you from when this message is sent, hopefully not too long]

Libi: [Getting is his grill like okay hug me cos not gonna be the one to put her arms around him first, she’s a diva lol, just like throwing herself in his direction with her arms out]

Bobby: [we will give you a big bear hug to prove we have shot up and are much taller than you now, thank you]

Libi: [hugging him back for a MINUTE cos she needs it and so does he, then doing little taps on him like how they do in wrestling when they’ve had enough and wanna tap out, freeing herself and signing ‘I can’t breathe’ like it’s pure bants cos he’s so tall and strong and she’s being crushed, giving it the grin and lols to sell that but there’s a cinematic tear rolling down each cheek at the same time from her sad eyes because she also means it seriously with how tight and heavy her chest feels from how worried she is about this jc situation]

Bobby: [tap her back like a pat on the shoulders because it’ll be okay, we’re not as worried as you because not thinking the worst here, it’s always been alright before so why wouldn’t it be now? ‘Come on’ like let’s go back to the house and sort this]

Libi: [at least how chill he is about this would be comforting because you’ve got no choice gal, it’ll be what it’ll be and we’re bringing the drama, soz, wipe your eyes and give him a Jimothy style thumbs up]

Bobby: [pushing your thumbs down like don’t do that because that’s not the vibe]

Libi: [a look like okay okay, my bad, before she’s just dragging him along in the direction they’ve gotta go]

Bobby: [soz Jimothy doesn’t talk to us properly right now and we can’t find it even ironically amusing, get in this house and back to the note and phone, the former you can pass to her like she needs to read it in person as if there’s something he could’ve missed]

Libi: [do read it and eat your snack that he saved for you, when the vagueness of this note is not calming cos you know that 1. It’s deliberate to downplay how drama this situ could be cos you know Janis and 2. You can tell she rushed it cos she did which really looks like needing to leave was urgent af not cos JC are in love but cos Casey did something BAD, blatantly messaging and calling Janis again even though she has not replied to any of the others cos what else can you do]

Bobby: [just watching her not get through on this call like yeah, I know and didn’t think you would ‘has to be his missus, right?’ because this note appeared after you’d gone to school aka not last night so it’s not as likely to be a issue at the club because he would’ve showed up early hours and you’d have been here]

Libi: [nod because you’d have obviously come to the same conclusion and it’s really not a reach even with the v limited interactions y’all would’ve had with this gal, looking at Casey’s phone cos I assume it’s here in front of y’all rn as if she can unlock it with her mind via sheer force of will]

Bobby: [‘she hasn’t text him’ meaning the girlfriend because that would’ve popped up even if you couldn’t unlock to read a full message]

Libi: [when you’re just like maybe she can’t come to the phone rn cos she’s dead but you don’t wanna say it so you don’t ‘He’s not been dumped before, it’s usually the other way round’ making a face remembering all the gals who’d leave the gaff when he’s done with them, how many there have been and the state of them ‘might be his pride’s hurt, nothing and nobody else’]

Bobby: [shrugging and making a similar face back because we think that’s stupid but also wouldn’t put it past him ‘no one will miss seeing her about anyway’]

Libi: [a look like HARD AGREE cos you can’t disagree, we all know what she was like ‘a close call like he has with you is the best we can hope for’ cos Casey has never hurt Bobby but he’s wanted to on many occasions and I don’t blame you for wanting to think that’s what could’ve happened here and he’s just beating himself up for the almost how he do]

Bobby: [just going quiet ‘cos you know that hope is a long shot because even if you can’t remember any of it, you’ve found out by-proxy how Ian was with your mother ‘do you know her socials?’ after this pause, signing without eye contact but a valid point like we might be able to piece together a better idea from this girl if she’s said anything recently]

Libi: [when you know damn well what that silence and lack of eye contact means cos of course you do, putting her hand over his and giving it a little reassuring squeeze after the question ‘I’ll be able to locate her from his or their mutuals’ cos I doubt she’s deleted every pic of him she’s ever tagged yet, priorities hun if that’s what you’re doing tbh, but adding a fingers crossed for if she has that any shared friends can give you the answer]

Bobby: [she might’ve posted about uni, idk I’ll let my boo decide, at least you’d know what their blatant row was about which is more than you’re getting from JC for a while, squeezing her hand back before dropping it like off you go then, sleuth it out girl]

Libi: [do because she so feels to me like the kind of bitch to be bragging about uni and you can either show him or tell him what she’s been saying if she’s running her mouth and he wouldn’t be able to understand, she probably has also deleted all trace of him if she’s the drama but you can’t force every friend you have to do that ASAP hun so]

Bobby: [doing a little slow clap like there we go, we’ve worked it out, go us ‘he ain’t going to uni’ bit rude you’re implying Casey couldn’t get in but it’s true, it’s not in his plans that any of you can envision ‘everyone knows what you do at uni’ again, the cliche of dumping whoever you were with at home to either fuck around or get a uni boyf, which is valid]

Libi: [a v judgey eye roll at this gf for being a cliche as if you’re so much better gal, love it, and at Casey too for behaving exactly like everyone would expect at this news]

Bobby: [‘she seems fine’ because that would be a relief that she’s got the time and pettiness to be posting about her amazing life news and deleting photos of Casey as she goes, which you wouldn’t do on your deathbed, we can assume, helping yourself to a handful/one of/whatever of her snack because we already feel better and we weren’t as scared as her to begin with]

Libi: [slapping his hand away like excuse you cos obvs also feel better that the gf is clearly not even half dead nevermind fully, RIP, but it’s clearly also playing on her mind and thus her face that if it’s not that serious why did they leave/why are they not back/answering]

Bobby: [of course we can see this, even if we’re attempting to take more of your snack just ‘cos we must ‘he’s embarrassed, just like you said’ with a shrug like wouldn’t you be if this girl dumped you]

Libi: [lowkey playfighting him because obvs, JJ were always doing it and so you two have gotta ‘I would be’ with the shadiest face like yeah she was not it and it’s bad enough he decided to choose her as his gf in the first place of all peeps]

Bobby: [just brawl because it’s comfortingly normal and familiar opposed to saying you can’t because of what Casey may or may not have done, just calling her a lesbian for bants sake as well, which I’m sure is an amusing sign, like Libi would seriously consider this random gal, even if she weren’t a massive cringe]

Libi: [get into it kids, it’ll make you feel better, as will her calling him a dickhead because we can all guess what that sign would be and that’s comforting and normal and familiar in itself for this fam]

Bobby: [nod and smile like yeah, that’s more like it ‘he’s probably talking her ear off’ like that’ll be why she can’t reply to you, nothing to worry about here, at all]

Libi: [miming drinking like yeah you’re so right he’ll be drunk af chatting away and she’ll be driving him home soon if not right now immediately, that’s why, it’s fine]

Bobby: [miming a golf swing, following it with your hand on your brow to getting it in the hole and celebrating like exactly, this isn’t actually anything new or weird, it was just a weird note that made us freak out for no reason]

Libi: [getting him more to eat and making y’all drinks and shit like this is now just a normal after school moment cos that’s what y’all have decided it is, picking a movie, cos she’s a diva who won’t let him pick, with a run time that’ll see you through until Jimmy gets back perfectly etc etc]

Bobby: [get on this sofa and get comfortable, we’re chilling lads, nothing to see here, no drama]

Libi: [It won’t be nice when Jimothy gets back and won’t talk or eat with y’all but you’d still be like it’s alright they’ll be back soon and then he’ll calm down too, thinking you’re just playing a waiting game, which you are gonna be but it’s for Janis’ reply not JC walking through the door]

Bobby: [you wanna do that now?]

Libi: [Come at me bro]

Bobby: [do you wanna send me like at least the last one so I have something to go from, obvs there’s multiple missed calls and probably a few texts but just so I got the flavour lol]

Libi: You didn’t train me in hostage negotiation, and if that’s what this is, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do

Janis: Sorry, sorry, I haven’t had much breathing room to check my phone today

Janis: but I’m fine and I think the situation with Case is going to be too, as much as can be predicted, so 👍

Libi: So you’re on your way home then?

Janis: Not quite yet, it’s definitely a 24-hour stepback needed still but I don’t see any reason that I won’t be back tomorrow after school

Janis: Are you at ours?

Libi: But she’s fine, I checked after Bobs found your note and summoned me

Janis: You did let Jimmy read it, right? It was mostly for him

Libi: Did you hear me? I said the coast is clear

Janis: You’ve not spoken to her, not that you should

Janis: you know social media can be total bullshit, or at least partial, it’s still best for the situation if Case stays away

Libi: I know she’d struggle to use it if he’d broken her arm

Libi: or worse

Janis: I didn’t say he’d done anything that bad, I didn’t specify because I can’t but he’s not in a state you’d want to see him in, any of you

Libi: I don’t want to see him at all, I wanna see you

Janis: And you will, tomorrow, like you would anyway if Bobby hadn’t called you over

Janis: have you told mum you’re staying over?

Libi: Yeah, cos I do this thing where I bother letting people know where I am

Janis: Um alright, I did

Janis: you’ve studied the note, allegedly

Libi: You didn’t pick up when I rang, since when’s that something we’re trialling?

Janis: It’s been super fucking hectic, it wasn’t intentional or part of a plan, obviously

Libi: Alright, you didn’t intentionally scare the shit out of me, that’s fine then

Janis: Libs, I’m sorry

Janis: what do you want me to do? ‘Cos I can’t answer earlier now

Libi: Case’ll come home if you tell him to, you could do that

Janis: He needs looking after right now, you’re gonna be piss tired for school already if you went to bed now, never mind by the time we got in

Janis: it makes no odds, we’d talk even less if I had to bring him back when he doesn’t want to be there, you know that

Libi: It makes no odds to you, Jim wouldn’t say that, I’m not saying it

Janis: Seriously? That’s not fair

Libi: It’s not fair that Case kicks off at his girlfriend and you not only give him a free pass but you offer him a lift to wherever he fancies going

Janis: You don’t know what happened, or what went on between them, you reckon you’ve pieced it together from her socials but that’d only be one side and it’s still not even gonna be her full story, if at all true

Janis: He’s upset

Libi: It’s the same story all the time, whatever happens or whatever goes on between him and whoever he has a go at, you take his side

Janis: Why would you take the side of a random girl you don’t know over someone you’ve known nearly your entire life?

Janis: That makes no sense

Libi: You said it, I’ve known him almost my entire life

Janis: That’s a fucked up thing to say

Libi: It’s true, what else do you want me to say?

Janis: Are you not even slightly concerned how he is

Libi: I don’t know

Janis: It doesn’t matter, I’m here and he’s safe, pass that on to the other two, if they decide they’re bothered

Libi: You need to talk to Jim, he’s really bothered you haven’t done that

Janis: I put all I could in the note, you can tell him we’ve talked, then I’ll talk to him when I’m back

Libi: If you’re making me your messenger, you have to tell me things

Janis: Well I have, plenty

Libi: I’ve known you my entire life

Janis: You don’t need to hear everything, it’s either not mine to tell or not yours to be told

Janis: you aren’t stupid, you know that this is delicate

Libi: I’m not stupid, I know why it’s you he runs to every time

Libi: and how it makes a shit idea worse

Janis: And it isn’t surprising, none of you have seemed even vaguely concerned how he is, he’s not stupid either, who else is he going to go to when things like this happen

Libi: It’s not like I’ve said I want him to go to Ian’s, or I would ever say that, but I’m sick of things like this happening

Libi: why is that bad?

Janis: We all are

Janis: that doesn’t mean ignoring it will fix anything though, from any of us

Libi: Don’t ignore me again, okay?

Libi: I thought… everything… every shitty thing there is to 💭

Janis: I wasn’t but I’m sorry that your head was there

Janis: I will make sure I reply quicker, even if it’s just a 👍 so you know I’m not being held hostage

Libi: Or in the morgue, unless someone who works there has a very fucked up sense of humour

Janis: You don’t need to worry about me, nothing bad happens to me, ever

Janis: well blessed

Libi: You just don’t want me to end up in your place on the slab, I get it, but I’m blessed with an inhaler, so don’t worry either

Janis: 14 is too young, even by our family’s shit luck, kid

Libi: My birthday’s soon 🥳

Janis: I know, ‘scuse me for betting on you not dying before you got to it even

Libi: 😏

Janis: Subtle hint not needed, you’ll get your 🎁 on time, girl

Libi: What is it?

Libi: and how’s that for subtle?

Janis: as a sledgehammer

Libi: 😤 Bobs won’t tell me either

Janis: He better not, you only get the one a year, don’t fuck it up

Libi: Promise you’ll be back tomorrow

Janis: Promise, I have to talk to him in person, already told you

Libi: I do care, slightly, if Case is okay or not… 🤏

Janis: He’ll be okay but it’s no secret he hasn’t been, for a while

Janis: it’ll all get sorted, promise that too, whilst I’m at it

Libi: It’s no secret she’s a… well, you know, without me needing to fully victim blame the girl in writing

Janis: Yeah, we don’t need to worry about her no more

Janis: She was a mistake, fair to say

Libi: And a catalyst, for something he was always gonna do

Janis: You can’t just ignore things forever and act like that means they’re dealt with

Libi: Right

Janis: I’ll see you tomorrow then

Libi: Try and get some sleep yourself, you must be loads tired-er than me

Janis: Pretty knackered but adrenaline works wonders

Janis: I will do though

Libi: Goodnight, I’m the most glad you’re okay

Janis: Of course I am, go have some sweet dreams yeah

Libi: I’ll do my best

Janis: You can tell either of them any of this, by the way, none of it’s need to know

Libi: Bobs’ll probably read it

Janis: 👋 like

Libi: I’d wake him up to, but that’ll take longer than it will you to fall asleep

Janis: about right

Janis: 🥿 usually works but save that for when it’s worth deploying

Libi: I don’t need telling what works, tah, I know everything that does

Janis: 😏

Libi: Maybe I’ll chuck a shoe at you though, next time you pull a move like this

Janis: because I do, all the time, just for fun, like

Libi: It’s a first, I’m not assuming it’s the last time too, like we’ve both said, I’m not stupid

Janis: I wouldn't promise otherwise but

Janis: it isn’t how I plan to deal with things, on the whole

Libi: You’d get called the worst role model again, if nothing else

Janis: You’re smart enough not to need one

Libi: Have you forgotten what 14 is like? I still need you

Janis: Not to tell you what to do, you’re much smarter than I was at that age

Libi: I don’t know about that, I didn’t feel smart today

Janis: Yeah but you didn’t do anything dumb about it, however bad it felt

Janis: you stayed put and it paid off

Libi: I would’ve gone anywhere he wanted me to, further than you, for longer, and cared less about it

Janis: You didn’t want him to feel as shit as you did

Libi: But it wouldn’t have been smart, the search party would be massive, and all FUMING

Janis: Alright, princess, I get it 👑

Libi: Another reason I need you around, you get it, so many other people think it’s weird how much I’d do for that boy

Janis: You’ve known each other forever, it’s family by choice, not blood, it makes it more important

Libi: Yeah

Janis: I understand

Libi: It’s something I could build sweet dreams from anyway

Janis: You know you can tell me anything, whenever you need to

Libi: Ooh, I love how cryptic that was

Libi: the NERVE to say I’m not subtle and then say that

Janis: Ha, you know what I’m saying perfectly well

Janis: some thing you might not want to share with Bobby, or can’t

Libi: We had the same puberty talk at school, they aren’t allowed to split us by gender any more

Janis: Cheek, they didn’t do that when I had it a few years prior, you cow

Libi: 👑

Janis: 🙄😘

Libi: *🥱😴

Janis: Piss off then, I ain’t taking the blame for you falling asleep in lessons

Libi: You could write me a note, you’re not at all crap at it, like

Janis: Only if it’s to Lucas otherwise I can’t be bothered

Libi: No girl is falling asleep in an English lesson

Janis: Hmm, riveting, ain’t he

Libi: He wishes, but instead, it’s too dangerous

Libi: I’m not ending up duct taped into the back of his [a shit car idk but you would cos of Ali and Billie] cos Case was upset by his breakup, tah very much

Janis: That’s really helpful, tah

Janis: no need to be quite so cinematic about it

Libi: I can’t help it if his idea of an after school club is making a snuff film in his garage

Janis: I’m well aware, the preview was enough

Libi: Shh, you’ll ruin my dreams now all this talk of sir

Janis: Go to bed, he wouldn’t mess with you, he’s not quite that dumb, however creepy

Libi: See you tomorrow

Libi: oh and I love you

Janis: Love ya Libs

Libi: Necessary last words if either of us get kidnapped and murdered

Janis: 🤞🤞

Libi: [The way she would have to be dragged out of this house by Casey for this dog walk is just reminding me of her throwing herself at him drunkenly and being dramatically pushed off cos it’s all so physical, I’m FINE]

Bobby: [When neither of you has any clue what’s going on just that it’s clearly bad and there’s nothing you can do about that and also there’s a random dog, for no reason at all, like hello]

Bobby: Are you okay

Libi: [when you don’t reply for ages because you’re too busy having a full go at Casey because like we said in the OG coats or not JC are literally covered in lovebites and Libi is not stupid, but she’s not signing any of this convo which is rude and so unlike her because she just automatically would to the point it’s clear she has to make the effort to not]

Libi: No

Libi: you?

Bobby: Did he hurt you, when we were getting out the door

Bobby: I didn’t see, I was looking at them and then

Libi: I don’t think so

Libi: or not enough for me to care right now

Bobby: That’s something

Bobby: 1 thing

Libi: I’m sorry

Bobby: Why would you be, you’re the only one who doesn’t need to be

Libi: that you had to ask me if I’m hurt cos I wouldn’t just go and it meant he had to touch me, that I left you out of having a go at him when it’s you who has the right to not me, that I didn’t push Jan harder last night to find out what the fuck was happening

Libi: so many reasons

Bobby: I don’t wanna talk to him no more than he does me

Libi: I’m never talking to her again, she said I wasn’t stupid and then made such a fool of me, of all of us

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