#sei talks

[jurousei]

have been in a soviper mood lately. feel free to chat w me or drop ideas for fics ❤️

[wa-kaizen]

Hey guys!

This will be sort of a serious post about anons, so before reading I would like to warn you that this will include serious topics so if you are easily triggered please don't continue to read.

Now, for the issue at hand. Today I have received a few anons which were all hate so I had to make a choice to turn off anons permanently. I will not be turning them back on. I made this choice due to the suggestion of some followers a few months back, which I admit should have done sooner. If you have anxiety you can always ask me to reply to you privately.

Some of the anons were just plain disrespectful and a very very wrong way to reach out to me, the other half were downright horrible.

I will first address the ""better"" ones at hand. If you are frustrated, stressed, angry or anything of the sort you can always come to me and we can talk. I will not get angry, disrespectful, rude, or ever do anything with the intention to put you in a bad position. Whenever I interact with any of you I am doing my absolute best to be respectful, I would appreciate it if you could do the same.

As of addressing the speed and emergency topics, I understand the frustration, and I am sorry, I know it can be stressful but you are always welcome to unfollow or ignore me, I absolute don't mind either of those. I will now share something vulnerable, so you will understand me better. I have multiple jobs, need to take care of not only me but multiple people (kids!) as well. Whom have incredibly serious anxiety among many things. Tw!! Not only do I have weekly bills to pay but I get harrassed, abused and sexually harrassed on weekly basis - I get surprised if I don't. If you truly believe in spirituality someone has been doing black magic on me as well, I am sure of it. (trying to figure it out don't worry) I also have an usual of 5 longer tasks to complete daily, which of all take minimum 1 hour. And of course just regular things. So, I understand your frustration, but I would adore you so much if you could understand me as well. I cannot live freely. I know for some of you it is hard to imagine living that way, but for me it is my reality.

One of the longer tasks is of course working on some readings. I have already delivered to people on my check list before, I promise I will get to you too, but my life isn't as smooth as I wish it to be. You can always come to me for free questions if you have purchased. Wether you think the question is silly or too serious, I will answer. I won't ever ever judge you even if other readers have in the past before.

And now, for last. Tw!! I am kind of a sensitive person, but I try to not get offended easily. However if you feel the need to tell me in great detail how will you proceed to hurt me, fuck yourself. Go and get the help you need. If you tell me how you will c!t me open I will legally track you down. What the fuck, dude?

That's all, thank you for reading.

[sad-alien-club]

43. Is there a movie you detest for a very specific reason?

Fight Club… I hate That Scene with Angelface. iykyk 😭

[amethvysts]

anyway, se um dia vocês me verem falando sobre os marotos saibam que falo Deles...

— simon hempe as james potter.

— enzo vogrincic as sirius black.

— esteban kukuriczka as remus lupin.

[zai-doodles]

I am on my knees !! Please , please Elfman , Angel and Cobra redesign 👀 (if your not accepting redesign requests you can ignore this no worries ^^)

my humble offerings

(i have a cobra sketch but it sucks bc i cant make my idea work so sh)

anyway both of these are pretty straight forward, i never got "angel" from angels design bc the feathers were so??? clunky?? like it didn't feel graceful or beautiful and also the dark blue always felt like a weird accent color to me so i made it yellow.

as for my boy elfman i just made him actually black instead of just tan like in the show. I also made him kinda??? pretty??? like i wanted him to look more like his sisters. Also i broke his nose and took a chunk out of his ear.

Also hes trans.

bc i said so.

anyway thank you guys for all the asks!! im slowly getting through them but keep sending hc, redesign requests and screenshots from ft for me to redraw bc its fun!

I can't guarantee I'll get to all of them but i like hearing your opinions regardless!

[eveningrainstorm]

People often talk about Rio Ranger as if he's the doll version of Sei but what I find super fascinating is that he isn't, not in the same way Fake Reko or the Dummies are replications of their human counterparts.

Ranger resembles Sei on a surface level — same physical appearance, just an unclear amount older; same way of speaking. But he is unmistakably different. Ranger is an incomplete being, missing his positive emotions, but even the true Ranger is Rio Laizer rather than Sei, because there's still something different.

Rio Ranger is, fundamentally, inhuman and yet desperate to be human. He was created to be jealous of humanity and despite his hatred for them, humanity is what he is always striving for. But it is something that he doesn't possess, and is forced to steal instead. He takes clothes from the dead and uses drawings on cards to feign emotion; he is the Dress-Up Doll, Rearranger, not possessor of anything of his own.

While the other dolls based on humans in the game have identity issues based on their personhood being defined by someone else, being merely a copy of another person, Ranger is not even allowed Sei's identity to base himself on — it's very likely he doesn't even know who Sei was. He does not have Sei's clothes — nondescript and tied to Asunaro as they are — and he does not have the capacity for expressing emotion that Sei had.

When comparing Ranger and Sei in terms of personality, differences are obvious. There are similarities, naturally — besides the abrasive way of speaking, there's the jealousy and desire for validation. But in Ranger, these are present to an extreme — they're all he has. (And, ironically, this is what Gashu claims to believe makes him so human, even when Ranger's inhumanity comes through most clearly in this lack of anything else.)

In Sei, on the other hand, these traits are tempered by logic, to put things in YTTD's beloved logic vs. emotion dichotomy. Despite his outwardly emotional nature, from what we see of him he appears realistic and focused on survival in a way that Kai isn't. He's aggressive and overly casual about killing people, but he doesn't express the glee at violence that Ranger does, only a fierce desire to prove himself and survive. Sei is jealous of Kai and desires Gashu's affection, but also has an understanding of the situation he's in that both Kai and Ranger lack — he can tell that Gashu doesn't care about him as much as he does Kai, and recognizes that the way Gashu treats both of them is wrong. Ranger believes Gashu truly loves him, a fact proven blatantly false by his eventual demise at Gashu's hands. Ironically, this blindness is more similar to Kai as we see him in his minisode, rather than Sei.

Of course, this understanding isn't simply a part of Sei's basic nature, but rather the fact that unlike Kai and Ranger, he has past experience to go on. Sei wasn't born into the Satou family — though his exact origins are unclear, based on his grief for his birth father and how he talks about Asunaro ("all this shady organization crap"), it's possible he wasn't even born into Asunaro at all. Before being sent to Gashu, he had his own father, one who we don't know anything about but whom he apparently loved. He doesn't accept Gashu's treatment of him and Kai the way Kai does because he has known a different father and a different way of life. This doesn't free him from Asunaro's influence — he still accepts the role of assassin they give him and resigns himself to becoming a killer. What choice does he have, after all? But he carries no illusions about Asunaro or his role in it. He knows that the training is cruel, that he is viewed only as a tool, that Asunaro is wrong even if they are also not worth resisting.

This is a major part of why Ranger isn't Sei, why he cannot be; because Asunaro is all Ranger knows. They are his creators, who he was literally built to serve. In Ranger's mind, he is not only Gashu's son and heir, but his creation, his masterpiece. And of course he wouldn't have been created with Sei's memories — why take that risk? Why give him any sort of knowledge of a life outside Asunaro or reason to be disloyal to them?

Ranger is not Sei — so why model Ranger after him? Because Ranger is the idea of Sei, what Sei was meant to be: a counterpart to Kai, a rival, a second choice. Gashu preferred Kai, once; Kai won out over Sei. But Kai has proven himself a failure and betrayed Asunaro, leaving Gashu with no choice but turn once more to Kai's long-dead competition. Ranger is, like Sei, the opposite of Kai, temperamental and vulgar while Kai is stoic and polite, and perhaps more importantly, capable of murder while Kai steadfastly is not.

And yet Ranger isn't Sei. Sei was jealous of those — specifically Kai — he saw as superior or at least as being treated as such; Ranger is this idea taken to its natural conclusion. Sei had lost everything he had outside of Asunaro; Ranger never had anything else to begin with. Sei was a human; Ranger will never be, doomed to forever long otherwise. Ranger is Sei only in the ways Sei was useful — desperate for recognition, willing to kill, a perfect rival to Kai — but something entirely different, an inhuman machine, in all the ways Sei was a liability.

Sei was human, and he knew that he deserved to have that fact respected. Ranger isn't human and gets only the wanting, desperate to be as good as a human even humanity itself is unattainable. Of course, it isn't being a doll that is actually Ranger's problem — it's Asunaro, who view humans and dolls alike as disposable. Sei's humanity didn't make him any less of a tool as far as Asunaro was concerned, it only made him more difficult to control. All Sei wanted was to be seen as an equal to Kai, a person worthy of respect — and this is what he gets, in the end: his face and voice used as a base for one of Asunaro's weapons, while his true identity and personhood remains forgotten.

Ranger has nothing to hold him back from doing his duty for Asunaro, nor does he have anything to hold onto outside of it. In that sense, Ranger is an ideal asset for Asunaro — at least until the very jealousy and hatred Gashu programmed into him goes too far, and he is, once again, deemed a failure. Ironically, Gashu shoots Ranger for attempting to kill a participant, when willingness to kill was perhaps the one true advantage Sei had over Kai.

In the end, Ranger is offered no more humanity in his death than Sei is — they are both merely pawns of Asunaro, set to die at its whims. But while Sei dies in the arms of his brother, receiving one final act of kindness as Kai refuses to kill him, Ranger has no one in either of his deaths but his creators: in his death as Rio Laizer the dubious kindness of Tia Safalin, making his final moments full of agonizing guilt, and of course in his first death, as Rio Ranger, nothing but Gashu's coldness, the bullet in his head a sort of culmination to the favoritism Sei found weighed against him, and a demonstration of just how far Gashu has come from the father who once genuinely cared for Sei. Sei was human, Ranger was not, but as far as Asunaro is concerned, they are exactly the same: tools, easily thrown away as soon as they stop being useful.

[seiqn]

fathers and their children

[hansolsticio]

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMrQrdn8f/

Solie, faça alguma coisa sobre

sunsun, você é a segunda pessoa que me manda isso e eu tô começando a interpretar como um sinal divino... alguma divindade quer que eu faça o mingyu ser corno

[seytrix]

inscryption has horribly ruined my life. i need to tear something up i love this fucking thing so much its so bad i want to break things out of love i need to rip something to shreds like an animal i am a rabid predatory creature gripping a rabbit in its maw and shaking it around

[harurio]

watching kitadai takashi's audition for sei no gekiyaku and the director is saying 'just replacing him in your head with a woman won't feel right. we want the emotions of a guy liking a guy, a person liking a person. but of course the mindset of a guy liking a guy will depend on circumstances, so we can't state anything unconditionally.' and it's so weird because watching this movie is like running the fucked up bl gauntlet, but everything it does is so very on purpose. it's a clear uncompromising vision brought to life by a dedicated team and two brilliant performances. it's intentionally queer and intentionally an horrendously difficult watch. you have to admire its determination to be exactly what it is even if you hate its guts. i of course love it and think it's fantastic but i get how not everyone would be into watching some guy get sexually tortured for most of an hour and a half

[jurousei]

the tattoo bug is real, bc tell me why else i got one in april and then now have up to 3 more planned before end of year. this would bring the total up to 6 decent sized tattoos in ~8 months

[sad-alien-club]

anyone else here play everskies lol? We’ve been getting into it but we could use some more friends :x

[amethvysts]

depois de ter a minha semana dominada por conteúdos de fórmula 1, estou alimentando um novo cenário na minha cabeça: enzo e leitora como pilotos de corrida de equipes adversárias, em que a rivalidade antes levada a unhas e dentes se torna uma linha embaçada entre o ódio e a paixão depois de uma noite que passam juntos no hotel.

isso tudo porque o enzo é o rei de mandar sinais mistos. ao mesmo tempo em que ele corre com sangue nos olhos, te empurrando pra fora da pista e alegando que “faz parte do esporte” com aquele sorrisinho ridículo durante as entrevistas no pós, ele também é o primeiro a ir atrás de você, despistando a imprensa e com um pedido de desculpas sincero.

vejo o relacionamento dos dois como mais do que só uma transa casual. certamente, o contato íntimo deixa tudo muito confuso, mas a vulnerabilidade que vocês compartilham durante as noites que ficam acordados até tarde deixa tudo pior. você tenta se convencer que só tá nessa situação porque ele te conhece, que vocês só são próximos porque entendem o outro passa. mas você sabe que é muito mais do que isso.

[iersei]

Sei I’ve missed you so so much I love your art I eat it for BREAKFAST OMNOMNOMNOMNOM!!!

If you have any drafts you should show me 👁️👁️ I NEED MY MONTHLY DOSE OF IERSEI 🥰🥰

MORGAAAN I’VE MISSED YOU TOO <3 !!!

hmmm most of my WIPs are OC stuff, but just for you (since i assume you’d want stuff you’re more familiar with lol), i have these kiddads drafts that have been lying around for a few months :3c

[shenrickyz]

 ꒦꒷꒷꒦ ASSiGNiNG NCT SEi SONG LYRiCS

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 001

❝ so when you're near me, darling, can't you hear me, S.O.S? the love you gave me, nothing else can save me, S.O.S ❞ ⸻ XUWiCHA RATTANAKOSiN

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 002

❝ 'cause whatever you give life, you're gonna get back, why be a wallflower when you can be a venus fly trap? ❞ ⸻ MAKANi SEO

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 003

❝ i would rather hold your hand than have a cool hand shake ❞ ⸻ JiANG ZiXiN

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 004

❝ remember that the days are numbered, springtime returns to summer, with or without you ❞ ⸻ FUKUSHiMA HiKARi

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 005

❝ whatever goes around eventually comes back to you, so you gotta be careful, baby, and look both ways ❞ ⸻ HEO MiNJAE

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ MEMBER 006

❝ don't go crying to your mama, 'cause you're on your own in the real world ❞ ⸻ KANG SEOJUN

  ꒦꒷꒷꒦ iSA SPEAKS ! okay so i wanted to explain at least the meaning for the members' choices 😭😭 i so badly wanted to give hikari a song from bury me at makeout creek, hikari is actually represented by every mitski song 🫶 anyway, i ended up giving hikari skyless moon because the song sort of represents how hikari feels about his place in dream, especially during his hiatus era where he questioned if his role as a member even mattered (will he ever be happy? idk 🤷‍♂️), ofc i gave seojun a paramore song because 😇!!! the lyrics basically symbolize how he had to grow up quickly, how he constantly bottles things up and it especially references like predebut times where he suddenly felt like he had to force himself to grow up when he joined sm 🙁 sorry #seojunnation

makani's is pretty self explanatory 😭😭 it shows how he toughened himself up on his own accord to avoid getting hurt by others, he shuts them out than acts all high and mighty because he genuinely hates the idea of people abandoning him or simply not caring anymore (abandonment issues are soooo common here) zixin's is basically how he doesn't exactly know to encapsulate his feelings, he often hides his true feelings with mountains of affection but then he absolutely confuses himself because he has no idea how to properly go about it 😓 it could also be interpreted as him trying to tell his partner how he truly feels but he's so sure they'll get confused about it.. minjae's is pretty similar to seojun's where he practically forced himself to grow up while under sm's roof 😕 he absolutely despises confiding in people so he "saves himself" by presenting a front and dealing with his personal feelings in his own time away from the rest of his members

so basically xuwicha is the only one with regular lyrics that are lovely under the surface 😭😭!! that man is absolutely hooked on his lover forever, he might die from the amount of love he's receiving 😓

[usertoxicyaoi]

seein yalls tags on my sing in love gifsets like, yes, good, i'm glad we're ALL TRAUMATISED i'm glad we can ALL BASK IN IT.