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A coworker just. Not really gaslighted me but. Idk. I'm not sure what happened or what she was doing.
#anntics#she came into the room and was checking diapers and was like ''omg none of these kids have been changed for hours''#and I felt so bad I couldn't believe I had done something so genuinely terrible. diapers are supposed to be changed at LEAST every hour.#and two babies have diaper rash rn so that would have mad eit so much worse#every time she was changing a diaper she would say like ''oh my god she is so soaked her diaper is soaked''#I was MISERABLE. I genuinely wanted to quit my job and/or kill myself bc I felt so bad about it#and then when I was walking by the white board where we document diaper changes. they were all up there#none of them had on a diaper more than an hour old except for a toddler who came in late and her diaper was dry#I have felt fucking crazy all day.#why didn't she check that first and why was she so insistent about it#at first I kept trying to tell her that we had been changing the diapers but she either ignored me or rolled her eyes every time#and then she was talking about how one of the babies with diaper rash was probably in a lot of pain#and idk. I genuinely felt responsible#even though I had just changed that baby less than 30 minutes before she came in#it feels so weird. why did that happen? I legitimately forgot changing the diapers and believed that I had just sat there for hours
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I had the cutest idea after snuggling one of my littles at work! Harry or EO where there are feelings for the reader but they haven't said anything yet. There is suddenly a breach and a baby is brought through with no one else. So the reader takes in the little one that has an instant connection with her. Harry or EO fall harder watching her care for the baby!😍😍😍
“A Beautiful Miracle” Harry Wells x Reader
Gif credits to the owner, I found it on google.
Author’s note: I hope you like it! I had a lot of fun writing it! Let me know any suggestions!
This was exactly the last thing they all needed. Who would even do something like this? He kept thinking to himself as the rest of the team gathered around to see what the fuss was about.
A baby. Someone had breached a baby into the lab. By the looks of it it was a small baby, maybe a week or so old.
He watched you from a little afar, the way you cradle the baby as you picked it up from the basket it was breached in. You looked so beautiful holding it that for a moment he thought if that was the way you would look with his child.
But of course to get you to have his child he first needed to man up and confess how he felt to you.
“This baby” Cisco began. Not even sure how to continue the sentence. “We, we don’t have any experience with babies. I mean for all I know they cry eat sleep and repeat. What do we even feed… is it a him? Or a her?” He concluded.
“I think is a she. But I’ll check for the vitals and see how the baby is doing. Meanwhile we should figure out where she belongs.” Caitlin commented, concern laced in her voice, for all they knew someone could be desperately trying to find her.
“I’ll help you!” You told Caitlin way too excited.
“Y/n, I didn’t know you liked children” Cisco teased you as he looked at Harry raising his eyebrows in a suggestive manner.
“Are you crazy I love babies, but why don’t you go and look for baby food, and diapers and clothes and blankets” you listed for him. “Harry could help you.” You volunteered the man as you gave him a sweet smile.
“What? Why should I do that?” He said crossing his arms over his chest.
“Because from all of us you are the only one with experience in children. You know what they need” you added as matter of fact.
“Fine” he grunted and grabbed his hat before leaving. He couldn’t deny you anything, even if he pretended to be bothered.
While Harry and Cisco were gone, you and Caitlin checked the baby. It was a she.
“You know, she looks a lot like you y/n” Caitlin commented as she looked at you both side by side.
“She is so beautiful, look at those cheeks.” You grabbed the babies face softly and made baby sounds to her, trying to get her to open her eyes so you could see the color.
Around half an hour later Cisco and Harry returned with everything they thought the baby would need. He went up to you as you tried to find clothes for the baby to wear in the bags.
As you found a cute little white onesie and started to try and dress her you realized that you had no idea how to even begin to move such a small baby to dress her.
“Here, let me help you” he offered as his hands reached to yours. A blush rose to your cheeks as you gave him a dreamy smile.
“Thank you Harry” you felt so shy around him. Your growing crush on the man showing by the second.
He helped you get the baby on clean diapers and dress her up, all the while trying to control the beating of his heart. He was crazy about you. And seeing you like this so maternal made something feral awake in him.
You held her next to you, “Don’t you think she looks just like me? Except the eyes, I haven’t see what colors they are yet. And her hair is so dark and soft.
As he looked at the baby and then to you it was true, the baby had a very strong resemblance to you except for the hair. She had black hair, a little puff of it on top of her little head.
“Yeah she does” he said as he gave you a smile so soft, you don’t think you had ever seen him smile so genuinely.
Barry came rushing into the room. Having just heard the news, he came over to see for himself.
“Omg, this is such a cute baby” he said as he wiggled his fingers in the baby’s belly.
“Careful Allen” Harry half growled at him.
“He is not doing anything to her, Barry will be careful” you reassured him while touching his arm gently, trying to make him feel better.
At hearing new voices, the little girl started to open her eyes slowly and what you saw was something none of you could have ever predicted.
She had the most stunning bright blue eyes any of you had ever see, except in one other person. Harry. She had Harry’s eyes.
“She is like a perfect mix of you two” Barry commented.
“Yeah you are right, she is.” Cisco said. “Apparently you two go at it in another Earth” he teased.
“Ramon!” Harry scolded him while a blush crept up your neck.
“What? Is not me who has a child with y/n” he added.
“I don’t have a child with y/n” Harry barked at him.
“Well maybe not on this Earth but I’m going to run some test and see if I can determine if the baby is biologically compatible with either of you.” Came Caitlin to the rescue.
A couple of hours later the results were done. Everyone gathered around to hear the news, they were too invested in knowing more about the baby and what Earth it belonged to.
“The results show that the baby’s dna is 99.5 % compatible with both of you. Which means that in another Earth she is your child.”
You were shocked to say the least, you had a baby, with Harry from another Earth.
“How can we determine what Earth she belongs to?” Barry added.
“What? We, we are going to give her back?” You said, sadness lacing in your voice at the idea of having to part with her.
“I mean, we can’t keep her y/n. Not at least without knowing if a doppelgänger of you is looking for her.” He concluded, he understood why you didn’t want to give the baby up, but he needed to be rational with you.
“Did anyone check the basket?” Harry asked.
“Uh nop” Cisco said as he looked around and everyone denied with their head.
Coming back with the basket and looking in it they found a hospital bracelet, it must have fallen from the baby’s feet.
It read, y/c/n Wells-y/l/n, Earth 51.
“I can check and see if I can locate any of you from that Earth.” Cisco told you as he squeezed your shoulder in support and went to the speed lab to open the breach.
“Could we have a moment alone with her?” You asked as you held onto Harry’s arm.
“Yes of course” Barry said as all of them made their way out of the room.
“You know, I never imagine having a baby, and even less having a baby with you. But she is so so perfect. I just wish we could keep her” you confessed to him.
Harry looked at you, adoration in his gaze.
“You know, I never wanted children, it was my late wife who had to talk me into having Jesse, but I cannot imagine a life without her now.” If me in another Earth decided to give this a chance then I imagine he loves you very much.” He needed to tell you. This was sign that he needed to tell you now before it was too late.
“Y/n, I need to tell you something.” He waited for your reaction.
“What is it?”
“I, I have this feelings that I can’t deny myself anymore, and this baby right here is proof that maybe it is possible.”
“What are you talking about Harry?” Confusion laced your voice as you stared at his eyes.
Slowly Harry moved his hands to hold your cheeks, as he ran them up to your hair, bringing you into him and connecting his lips with yours. Your eyes widened, only to close and move your hands to his face, relaxing your shoulders and giving into the kiss.
Once apart, he connected his forehead to yours, and let a sigh of relief escape him.
“I have wanted to do that for a while now” he said.
“And I wish you had done it sooner” you told him as you brought him in for another kiss. This time quicker but full of emotion.
Interrupting the moment, Cisco came into the room.
“I have news. Apparently Earth 51 is a dead Earth, and for all we know this baby was breached here to be saved.” Cisco said as he looked down at the little baby sleeping peacefully in her basket.
“So does that mean we can keep her?” You asked excitedly.
“I would think so, I mean you are basically her mother so I would think you and Harry are the best option to take care of the baby, and of course we are all going to help, we want to be part of this!” He finished smiling at the both of you.
This was more than a dream, one you didn’t want to wake up from. You were with Harry and you both were going to give the relationship a shot, while taking care of the baby, he would be spending some days with you since you had no idea how to take care of her but he had experience. And just like that you had everything you ever needed. Harry by your side and a little girl that by some miracle was the best parts of you both.
#the flash imagines#harrison wells fanfic#harrison harry wells x reader#earth 2 harrison wells#earth 2 harrison wells fanfic#earth 2 harrison wells imagine#e-2 harrison wells x reader
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I wanted to write my labor story so that many years from now I can look back and remember what a unique experience I had this second time around. I don’t have the best memory, which is why I love photos. They take me back to that particular point in time. I thought it be pretty rad to write things down as well. One day I’ll be glad I did.
So here’s my story. It started Monday, March 28th, around 1:30am. I was 38 weeks pregnant. I began to have some cramping. Nothing unusual, the later it is in the pregnancy, the more of these you’ll experience (at least with both my experiences). So I didn’t make much of it. After an hour I noticed it was happening every 15 minutes. I tried changing positions, getting up, drinking water and nothing made them stop. This is when I knew my baby was coming. I didn’t wake Richard up until 3:30am. I wanted to wait to make sure this wasn’t a false alarm. His response? “You sure it isn’t those Braxton Hicks?”. I think I laughed a little inside. I said, “No, it’s been persistent and happening every 10-15 minutes now”. So I went out to our living room and walked around. Then I went to the nursery/boys room and got the diaper bag and started getting things ready. Up until this point, I had things 75% ready. We were suppose to take a trip to big bear the weekend before but my son Ezra caught a bad cold so we decided to stay home instead. I had my bag ready for the hospital before this trip, then I unpacked and packed according to this trip and well, I had to re-pack for the hospital again.
Soon it was 6am and Richard would be getting up to get ready for work. He asked me how I was feeling and if he should stay or if I thought I would be like this for a while. I told him the contractions were still 16 minutes apart on average. Some were 20 and some were 12. So I told him to go to work. I wasn’t ready to get to a hospital yet. I rather be in the comfort of my own home. Not looking forward to being tied down to a bed hooked on to an IV and being asked every 5 minutes if I wanted to get the epidural or speed my process up lol. I much rather wait till I couldn’t endure the pain. We decided to call his parents to come and stay with me in case of any emergency. The plan was that as soon as my contractions got closer together, he would leave work and come home and take me himself to the hospital.
His parents got to my place around 8:30/9am and my contractions stayed the same until about noon. My sister Becky and mom also came over around this time. My sister Becky helped me keep track of my contractions. They slowly got closer and stronger. At about 5pm they were so strong that I knew it was time. My contractions were about 12 minutes apart by this point. I called Richard and told him I was gonna have Becky take me to the hospital. After speaking to him I decided to wait a little longer for him to get home.
I was waiting on one of two things before going to the hospital: my contractions to be 10 minutes apart or my water breaking. None had happened yet, but the pain was excruciating. Richard gets home around 6pm and as he’s walking in, my water breaks. I was so happy! I didn’t want to get it broken at the hospital, I really wanted it to break naturally, as it did with my first son. Such a cool experience. So once he got home we immediately left to the hospital.
We got to the hospital at about 6:45pm. After checking in I asked how far along I was. I was told I was dilated 6 cm. So I asked for the epidural. After settling into my room they hooked me to the IV and said I had to wait for the entire bag of IV to be in my system before doing the epidural. My first thought was “Great, gotta endure another 40 minutes with this pain!”. Then I decided my only option was to take it one contraction at a time. Squeezing on to my husbands hand as the contractions came one by one. About an hour later they checked my cervix again. I was told I was still 6 cm dilated and the anesthesiologist would come in and finally give me relief. Keep in mind I was experiencing excruciating pain every 5-10 minutes at this point. Which was why I couldn’t believe I was only 6 cm dilated.
When the anesthesiologist came in, I felt like I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Finally, some relief. So close, and here comes another contraction. This time I feel the urge to push. This is so strange. It’s no longer just the feeling of my back breaking open and my bones cracking into 100 pieces. “I need to push”, I said.
My nurse said she had to check me one more time and make sure I was ready. She abruptly said to the other nurse “call the doctor she is fully dilated” I was ready to go. I moved from 6 cm to 10 cm in what seems to be less than an hour! It makes sense why the pain was so bad.
Anesthesiologist says “I was never here”. I cried a little inside lol. They call the doctor. He runs down. They open me. Leg on each side. It seems like there were 100 people in that room yet I didn’t see my sister Becky, so I asked Richard to bring her in. [Side note, my sisters are both my best friends. They bring me comfort and naturally want them to be a part of the most important things in my life.] Anyway, both of my sisters come in. I didn’t think they would allow my younger sister in, but she somehow made it in and I’m glad. Lol
So here comes another contraction. “What am I gonna do open like this? A baby is suppose to just come out like this? Omg, Lord help me! Do I have enough strength to push? How many times am I gonna have to push, and how many contractions will it take? Ouch this hurts!” These were just a few of the thoughts running through my head lol. It’s as if I forgot what giving birth was like.
So after one, two pushes, and a big grunt from me….out comes my little Elon Levi at 8:09pm! Weighing at 7.9 lbs and measuring 20.5 inches long. It happened so fast. I don’t know where the strength came from but I made it happen. The pushing part itself wasn’t painful. Once he was out, doctor made me push again to take out my placenta. This part was a little painful for me, especially because you’re not expecting it. It’s something we forget about when it comes to birthing.
I’m in a state of euphoria, I had tears of joy. I couldn’t believe I had just done that again. For the second time and all naturally. I know our bodies are meant to do that but somehow we doubt our capability. Regardless of the way we bring out babies to life, it’s just a miracle. It’s the best experience in the world. I feel so honored and thankful to have this privilege. Thank you God for this gift. My little gift in Elon born on March 28, 2016.
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