#smau: hcl

[najaemism]

thinking about an episode au where it diverges from the main plot. it's set 5-6 years later — haechan is a doctor at a hospital in some city far away from everyone else, he's already lost contact with almost everyone (except markrin), and he comes across someone he hasn't seen in a long time.

nari is a project architect working at her cousin's construction firm, in a city far away from everyone else. she moved there after graduating, and since then she had lost contact with everyone. she'd built a pretty good life there now, she has a good job, she made new friends, and then ... she comes across haechan, who's new to the city, and at first she doesn't want to interact with him at all.

they never really became close back then, nor were they even friends. they were acquaintances at best. he was always just her former best friend's boyfriend back then so she never felt the need to have some sort of close relationship with him, so seeing him again was slightly awkward. but then she finds out he's her new neighbor... and all of a sudden she keeps seeing him anywhere she goes — at the grocery store, at the coffee shop near her work, at a fast food restaurant, at a convenience store, the hospital (ok to be fair, he does work there...), and suddenly it felt like he was just everywhere.

so, when they both end up being at the same bar at the same night, with the same group of people (turns out they have mutual "new friends" in the city), they can't help but actually start talking to each other. one conversation turns into getting each other's contacts and texting each other, to seeing each other at the grocery store then shopping together, to seeing each other at the coffee shop and deciding to sit together, to hanging out at each other's places and ordering take out (because it's movie night and turns out they actually have quite a few similar interests), to developing a genuine friendship they never thought they would have (nari being the only sense of familiarity for haechan in a city he's not really familiar with), to hanging out and making plans together despite being busy with work because — because somehow, they feel less tired when they're with each other, a respite from their busy lives — and to eventually, coming to the realization that... oh, they're starting to develop feelings for each other.

then, conflict arrives in the form of hera seo, who is in the city for a conference, and sees both her (former) best friend and ex-boyfriend "hanging out", years after the last time she saw them.

guys this has been plaguing my mind for MONTHS so im giving them to u so we can be haunted by the possibility of hyucknari together 🫦 also if this feels like a plot to a 2000s tv drama,,, thats because they are dair coded to me ok HAHAHAH

also i dont really like the idea of dating your best friend's ex/dating your ex's best friend, (even if you're not really on speaking terms with the "best friend" anymore)........ but this is fiction and i love angst 👍🏼 HAHAHAHAHAHHA

anw here's a playlist for them !! i tried to put the songs in chronological order to how their "story" would play out lol i dont think i would actually end up writing something for them, but i needed to make a playlsit and this post for the brainrot 🫦 HAHAHAHAHA

also if hyucknari is a thing in this alternate universe for episode, herajaem will also definitely be a thing 😭

[neoswift]

ako ay bitin na bitin na sa mga posts mo bestie, gUSTO KO PA PO ITODO MO NA MAGPAKILIG

HAHAHAHHAHA WALA PA AKO MAISIP NA IDEA FOR A FULL LENGTH AU SORRY NA 😭😭😭 baka puro mini aus muna tas after hcl try ko magstart ng mga 20 parts na smau HAHAHAHAHHAHA

[najaemism]

heart can't lose [71]

PAIRING. lee haechan x fem!oc

WARNINGS. very light angst, hurt/comfort

WORD COUNT. 0.8k words

SUMMARY. fourth year pre-med student and neo university student council president, haechan lee does not have the time for relationships. instead, he focuses his attention on his studies and extracurriculars, so as not to disappoint his parents. that is until hera seo came along—and everyone starts to wonder if the university’s golden boy would finally let his heart lose.

IT HAD BEEN about fifteen minutes since Donghyuck had arrived at Hera’s apartment, and since then, the girl had not spoken one full sentence to her boyfriend. They were both in her room, since she deemed their conversation to be something only the two of them should hear, and Nari was in the living room finishing up some work that she had to take home.

Donghyuck was sitting on her swivel chair near her study desk, while Hera was sitting on her bed, brows furrowed as she looked down at her hands, still not sure how to tell her boyfriend about her plans after graduation.

“Juno, you’re making me nervous here,” Donghyuck broke the silence, letting out a nervous chuckle as he looked at her. “What is it that you want to talk to me about?”

“I’ve talked to my family about what my plans are after graduation,” she finally spoke, her voice low as she still looked at her hands, fiddling with the hem of her sweater. 

“Are you still going through with grad school? You told me about that a few months ago.”

“No,” she replied, “not yet, at least.” She finally looked up to meet his eyes. “Remember when I said I’d prefer working first before taking my masters?” she asked, and he nodded, urging for her to continue. “I’m taking the board exams in July,” she said, and she took note of how his eyebrows were raised in surprise. 

“Oh—that’s amazing, Juno. You would have better working opportunities when you have your license,” he commented, smiling at her, “You’ve been reviewing for it, then? While doing your teaching internship?”

She nodded, then swallowed the lump in her throat. “After taking the boards, I’m set to work at this private school while I wait for the results. Dad says it usually takes a few months, and we… we have this family friend who owns a private school, so I’ll be there,” she then explained.

Donghyuck looked genuinely happy for her after-graduation plans that it made her heart ache. “That sounds really good, Juno, I don’t see why you’re—”

“It’s in San Francisco.”

He blinked—once, twice, then let out a soundless “Oh.”

“That’s…” he cleared his throat, “That’s what you want to do?” he asked, eyes still trained on her.

“Yes.”

His lips gently upturned into a smile, the look in his eyes wistful as he said: “Then I fully support you with that, Juno.”

She looked at him in confusion. “You’re… you’re not mad?”

“Why would I be mad about that?”

“For starters, I’d be miles away from you,” she pointed out, “I chased after you for weeks only to leave in a few months, and... and I had these after-grad plans decided already without even telling you about it, and—”

“Juno.”

She looked at him, her shoulders dropping as she felt her tears start to form. “I’m sorry, Donghyuck.”

“Hey,” he called, before standing up from his seat and making his way towards her, kneeling on the floor in front of her while she still sat on the bed. He cupped her cheek before he continued, “You don’t have to apologize about that, I know that that’s what you want to do. I know how much you love teaching, you’re doing what you want to do, and that’s fine,” he told her. “I may not be part of your plans, but I will always support you, baby, you know that.”

She closed her eyes as her tears fell, while Donghyuck pulled her in and leaned her forehead against his, his eyes closing as well. “I love you, you know that, right?”

“I know,” she muttered, “I love you, too.”

He smiled again as he leaned back to look at her, caressing her cheek as her eyes fluttered open. “We still have three months before you leave. It’s fine—we’ll be fine,” he assured her as he wiped her tears with his thumb.

“You’re not—you’re not breaking up with me?”

He let out a chuckle, shaking his head at her question. “Unless you want to break up with me? No, I’m not, breaking up with you,” he replied, “You waited weeks for me to come around and get my shit together just so we could be together—I’m sure I can wait for you, too.”

“This is different—what if I decide not to come back?”

“Then, I’ll go to you,” he answered quickly, as if he’d thought it through before—as if there was no other place he’d rather be than with her. “Of course, I’d have to finish med school first, then I’d be with you—does that sound alright with you?”

She blinked down at him, surprised with how well he was taking it all. “Yeah—yes, that sounds… that sounds alright with me?” she replied a bit hesitantly.

He smiled at her before leaning up to kiss her.

“I love you, Juno. My feelings for you won’t change just because of a little distance. Take your time, and I’ll take mine, and when the time’s right, I know we’ll be together,” he said, “But that doesn’t mean we’ll break up—we’ll just be apart from each other for a while, okay?”

She nodded, smiling through her tears. “Okay. I love you.”

“Okay,” he breathed out before he finally wrapped his arms around her, hugging her while she buried her face on his chest.

There’s no turning back for me, I’ll be I’ll wait ‘til the mountains cross the seas ‘Til all the secrets are set free Meeting you there on bended knee.

SEVENTY ONE. | prev / masterlist / next

NOTE. this was supposed to be a fluffy chapter actually........ yeah...... we're near the end though :p

TAGLIST. @radiorenjun @bluejaem @pink-but-rosie @renjun-pretty @holdinbacksecrets @rynshyuckies @jelllyjae @jenyongcas @whyisquill @beemarkie @morkxlee @hibuki-chan @moonwalkun @lyyhyuck @baekhyunstruly @lilacdreams-00 @ridinhyuck @archivedmkl @najaeminluvbot @jiye0n0 @rensiu @morkleetrash @neo444 @hrjchive @keemburley @soobin-chois @yiz-yo @juune04 @nctasdfghj @hyckio @studywoo @jun5ui @smolpeyy @mahae66 @kkotjia @yoonhanzjaem @goldryush @stopeatread @hibernatinghamster @shwizhies @zgzgzh @bbymatz @eyantice @w0nderr @dinonuguaegi @neozon3nha @mnlylonely 

HCL TAGLIST. @aedreamzy @rrnhyuck @reinde3r @daegalfangirl @yixingtion @dandelionxgal @thesunsfullmoon @yangsbff @y3jiishot @purpleheejin @prdshobi

[najaemism]

heart can’t lose [69]

PAIRING. lee haechan x fem!oc

WARNINGS. none

SUMMARY. fourth year pre-med student and neo university student council president, haechan lee does not have the time for relationships. instead, he focuses his attention on his studies and extracurriculars, so as not to disappoint his parents. that is until hera seo came along—and everyone starts to wonder if the university’s golden boy would finally let his heart lose.

SIXTY NINE. | prev / masterlist / next

NOTE. little markrin easter egg for their own story 🤭 next chapters will be a bit fast paced and will be timeskips throughout the last 3 months of their semester. the end is maybe near…

hope u guys missed haera as much as i did 🥹🫰🏼 heres a haera (taylor’s version) playlist as an apology 🫶🏼

TAGLIST. @radiorenjun @bluejaem @pink-but-rosie @renjun-pretty @holdinbacksecrets @rynshyuckies @jelllyjae @jenyongcas @whyisquill @beemarkie @morkxlee @hibuki-chan @moonwalkun @lyyhyuck @baekhyunstruly @lilacdreams-00 @ridinhyuck @archivedmkl @najaeminluvbot @jiye0n0 @rensiu @morkleetrash @neo444 @hrjchive @keemburley @soobin-chois @yiz-yo @juune04 @nctasdfghj @hyckio @studywoo @jun5ui @smolpeyy @mahae66 @kkotjia @yoonhanzjaem @goldryush @stopeatread @hibernatinghamster @shwizhies @zgzgzh @bbymatz @eyantice @w0nderr

HCL TAGLIST. @aedreamzy @rrnhyuck @reinde3r @daegalfangirl @yixingtion @dandelionxgal @thesunsfullmoon @yangsbff @y3jiishot @purpleheejin @prdshobi

[najaemism]

oh hera seo u would love this song

[najaemism]

all the little hints to what is happening in the future in i want you but my heart can’t lose are KILLING ME OMG I JUST WANT EVERYTHING TO BE HAPPY AND NICE AND ✨perfect✨

anyway I love you fic🥹

hshwuwhshwjehsh i love adding the little hints it makes me feel like taylor adding little easter eggs HAHAHAHAHAHA thank u and im sorry for answering so late 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[najaemism]

Heyyyy dude I jus wanted to ask you if you're going to be updating HCl...? 👀

yeah… later… 😁😁😁👍🏼👍🏼

[najaemism]

so....... no more heart cant lose? 😔

i might rewrite it 🥹🥹🥹

[najaemism]

just reread hcl to kinda remind myself what happened in the smau and now i miss haera....... they are so cute omg my pookies 🥹😔 i might go through with rewriting it though...

[najaemism]

its been almost a year... will heart cant lose ever be updated 😔

it will be at some point 😭 either that, or im rewriting hcl bc … i kinda wanna make it shorter (like putting the chapters with multiple parts into 1 chap only) and maybe changing some stuff … just some dialogue and some scenes, but im still thinking about it 🥹 college is just kicking my ass right now since im already a 1st year clinician hahahaha

[najaemism]

hiii will you be continuing heart cant lose? found it recently n im alll caught up !

hi!!! yes i will eventually continue it im just ... not sure when 🥹😭

[najaemism]

the latest hcl ud …. ITS GIVING ME BAD VIBES

ahaha ,,,,,, noooooooo ,,, everything's fine !!!! hyuck said everything will be fine 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼 HAHAHAAHAHA

[najaemism]

I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED CHAPTER 71 NAUR WUEJDIWJJS I WAS SO CONFUSED WHY I COULDNT FIND IT IN MY DRAFTS 😭😭😭😭 anyway ,,,, enjoy 😭😭😭

why doesnt the tumblr app in android have the confirmation thingy when u click post from the drafts 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[najaemism]

so i was writing narrations for a future hcl chapter but then last kiss started playing... and then i wanted to listen to it again... then i started listening to it on repeat... and i think the chapter turned angstier than it should be 😭 i am so sorry 😭😭😭 HAHSHAHAHA

i did switch to listening to wait by over october towards the end ... (it's the song that was playing when they finally became official HAHAHA)

[najaemism]

HEY !!! i’m a new follower and saw your new smau for haechan and eeeeeekkk i’m so excited to see where it goes and was wondering if i could be added to the Taglist :)))

hiiii!!! yes ofc! 🤍

[najaemism]

Hey sorry if I sound rude or impatient but when will you be uploading Heart can't lose?? I'm in love with your writing and i read it the whole night .

hiii dw u dont sound rude or impatient 🥹 im honestly not sure when i will be updating heart cant lose bc i honestly cant bring myself to write more parts for now. i think i got burnt out with the daily updates for it early last year 😭 so for now i wanna just go back to the mini smaus and hopefully get back to hcl and the whole episode series soon 🥹

im glad that u like my writing, that means so much to me 🥹🩵