#smolghostthoughts

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tiny vampire being threatened with a toothpick

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in light of recent garbage by this hellsite (derogatory)

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anybody who has a problem with that, the block/unfollow button is up there somewhere ☝️ and i hope that one day you can overcome your learned biases and realize that we're all just trying to live out best lives on this stupid rock orbiting a star.

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current mood: need to quit my job and move into a giant's pocket where i can sleep in the dark and soft for at least three solid days

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poll on main about if you like height difference in relationships

me with a g/t sideblog: "i have the chance to skew these results in the funniest way possible"

(but i will not.)

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decided today is the day i tell my therapist about gt / macro stuff

i have no idea how this is going to go down and the anxiety about it is REAL, but she is a kink-positivity therapist and we've talked about some more... realistic stuff before. and i've alluded to the g/t writing i've done, just not anything specific.

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Okay, What is your favorite thing about Melody and Patch? oooh or maybe what's one thing or 'situation' you've been meaning to write for them? Also, Patch has only met Mel (as far as I can remember) but will he ever meet another giant? >.> Give the juice.

I drew them! Sorry if its a bit rough, I dont think i captured Mel's smugness very well. but i hope you like em!!

aaaaaaaaaaa 😭😭😭

artwork!!!! saving this forever thank you so much they're really good!

ok, from the top: favorite things about each of them:

Melody: Out-of-universe, I love how her character evolved from kind of one-dimensional to being a full-fledged character as soon as I said "what if she had anxiety too." It just made everything make sense and made her previously weird actions in the story into totally logical ones. In-universe, I love how quickly she actually realizes her mistake of being terrifying to Patch, but how it still takes her a long time to fully learn how to fix that, she doesn't just instantly become perfect after act 1.

Patch: In-universe, I love how Patch starts the story as just anxiety blob but over time, more of his actual personality shines through, to the point that by the very end of the story (See Banter), Patch is truly just Some Guy But Small. Out-of-universe, I'm going to be cheeky and say that I love how their real name is a really good pun I decided on during a car trip. It was so good I literally pulled over to write it down. I've shared it with one friend and got an "ugh that's clever but i hate you" as a response so you know it's quality punnage.

Patch has met... one human before, which is where his trauma comes from. I think within the scope of the story, it's very much about how the both of them overcome their own loneliness, so I don't know if other characters will be introduced aside from background references like Mel's coworkers. But I've definitely imagined noncanon interactions between Patch and friends' OCs (as you do, y'know). The general vibe is that Patch would be willing to interact with other humans after they get a bit closer to Melody, provided she is there for emotional (and physical) support... even by the end of the story, Patch doesn't trust humans very easily.

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i always see people with commissions and stuff open and i'm like "i have some money! i love your art! please draw my characters!" but then i Do Not because i'm like "what if they think my characters are cringe. what if they hate me. what if they don't actually want commissions."

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well, i started lineart for a pride month piece last night (because my brain would -NOT- shut up about the pose ideas i had)

and i was like "ok that gives me plenty of time to polish the lineart at least"

proceeded to do i think the best lineart i've ever done as my sketch layer.

at least i have... uh... two months to do coloring and shading and stuff???

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strongly considering doing a mini-NaNoWriMo (pun slightly intended) of like. maybe 20k or 10k words in order to finally rewrite a lot of Patchwork Melody and maybe have Spring and Summer done and posted before 2024.

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pros of climate change: SAD brain feels that it's 60 degrees in january and goes "ah, it must be summer" and delivers upon me one (1) ability to write

cons of climate change: literally everything else

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thinking about one of my earlier g/t thoughts

i remember when i was younger, i would always project on Navi and Tatl from zelda, like i didn't want to be the hero, i wanted to be the little fairy accompanying the hero and giving advice.

i used to play video games with an ex-friend of mine and i would kind of play the role of "person in the chair", reading the strategy guide and giving tips and directions, and i would always imagine i was a little helpful fairy companion to him.

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man, i didn't realize how much of a struggle it would be to write this part without adding gender angst of the unfun variety

nobody's reading your silly gt story for the trans character struggles, quinn

(well, nobody's reading it anyways, but still)

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saw a g/t tier list and my Categorizing Things Autism™️ went to work. everything is mostly first instinct and i didn't sort within tiers (except by color).

also a few of the things were things i have positive feeling about but in a macro way and not a g/t way so they got their own tier. yeah.

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the question of "do i actually write a vampire and borrower story or do i simply lay in bed kicking my gay little legs and let the brainrot consume me"

because part of me wants to write it but considering how Normal i am about vampires i'm worried it may be a bit. more on the spicy side.

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Slightly spicy g/t thought of the day brought to you by insomnia:

Giant and their tiny partner are RPing some kind of fearplay scenario, at the tiny's request. Everything is going well and safely within the realm of fantasy, until the giant forgets/ignores the safeword... and keeps going as the tiny desperately shouts that things are going too far (Wow, they're really getting into character).

Cut to an apologetic giant trying to console their tiny partner, who is now convinced that the giant seriously means them harm.

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my influence spreads, my power is unstoppable

(friend who is not even that into g/t wrote a small little crossover fic of Patch and one of their blorbos and it instantly recovered 500 points of my mood)