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machidielontheway · 6 months

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so i "did nothing" today of what i had planned (groceries, 'mental health walk') but i also : - did the laundry - put away the dry cloth of the previous laundry run - waxed (which i wanted to do yesterday so i'm glad i did it now) - practiced my instrument (twas not great as it was a bit mindless, but i finally found the source of one recent sound problem) - washed my hair - did a little callisthenics - downloaded some songs to begin making a collection - learned that even if i'm not feeling it, putting the right song WILL give me the energy necessary to do the thing. i do not need to want to hear the sound for it to work.

so even if i didn't do a "specific activity" outside i still did things and that's good !

#3615 my life #this post comes from the fact that i always 'ruin / waste' my holidays by doing 'nothing'#when i want to do 'things'#and i'm beginning to see/add nuances to what is things and nothings and what feels like doing or not doing #it was sunny today (as much as it can be lately.) and in general i'm dog holding it's leash about it #and if i don't go out i feel like i shot myself in the foot and is doubly sad #but i thought about it and actually didn't want to go truly it was not uuuh i saw it again lately. it was not demand avoidance #because it's fucking wimdy and i hate the wind and behinf outside in the cold wind #so actually i was much happier home #day did not happen how i planned it but in the end i don't feel like i fucked it up. i did things that made me feel good #and or will help me later #and i shouldn't ask too much of myself. like for cleaning : one thing a day is already great ! all in it's time.#that's how the brain learn it's not a chore and is able to do it more readily and agreeably the next time

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bandtrees · 1 year

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So is anyone else going rabid thinking about ostaros and nightshade parallels or is it just me

#babbles #sORRY FOR ALL THE EARTHSPARK TALK I JUST #MY BELOVED SPIDER F/O. HE IS HOME AND I COULDNT BE HAPPIER HES PERFECT #SO SO SO PERFECT....#earthspark spoilers #maccadam #transformers #earthspark #i wasnt expecting much of his idw characterization here but they actually did really really good #at translating those themes and general concept into this new context #the themes of parenthood and possessiveness and everything they did REMARKABLY well at #like it really is just idw tarantulas for kids and i dont say that to demean it they do really good at making those themes #for kids. like we all joke like haha tarn in earthspark or w/e but that could never happen #but this? they really really made 'idw tarantulas but defanged for kids' WORK andits sooo good #the dynamic w him and nightshade is so perfect...#and the talk of alt modes in the first batch of episodes (im 4/8 through) is so. Good. and so transgender also #it makes me happy. god i love this show a lot im so excited to continue #tarantulas my love<33333333333333

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facetsofthecloset · 2 months

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Tbh my life would be pretty perfect right now if my current part time janitoring job paid. Like. A livable wage. Genuinely love doing it, the hours are perfect, I like my coworkers (and don’t have to interact with them much which might contribute to that lol), it leaves me so much time and energy afterward to enjoy my day and live my life—

Except I’m still scraping the bottom of my savings to pay the Existing Fees. Not quite as fast, which is nice, definitely, but like. What if I wasn’t in the red and had this job I think is important and enjoy but also doesn’t consume 110% of my whole life. What then, huh? I might have a good time? I might actually have a chance of kicking my constant SI at some point? Can’t have that can we? Misery is the currency that runs the world isn’t it? Can’t have people having a good time. We might be better off as a society then and that’s not allowed obviously

#still a bit jet lagged so it’s 2 pm and I’m delirious but like #come on #come the fuck ON I could actually be HAPPY it’s like RIGHT there I can fucking see it #it’s just an entire decimal point away #and that might as well be the other side of the universe #ramblings #tbh this is the most optimistic and well-adjusted I’ve managed to be about my life in. well pretty much ever #I am happier than I was and you have no idea how amazing it is to wake up at 5 am and be like ‘alright! let’s get ready and go to work :)’#and have that be genuine!! not a forced smile hanging onto my last thinning thread! I’m #I walk to work and every day I think ‘it’s a beautiful morning’#and I come home and think ‘I’m tired but satisfied. let’s take a break and get some chores done’#and I’ve NEVER been that. idk. FUNCTIONAL in my life before #but this is unsustainable #bc I need to get a different job that pays enough at some point #or replace the time I have to maintain my home with another job #which I know would overtax me and make me miserable unless it was a /perfect/ fit as work for me #it’s not fair #it’s so STUPID #it’s just. INEFFICIENT #and I’m still fairly privileged and lucky #like. fuck. everything is just so fucked

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snapbackslide · 5 months

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I finally got around to watching Tyson’s post game interview from his first game in Rochester and now my feelings are hurt 💔 specifically the second & third answer, wtf man… my heart

#i had to pause and take a breath 😄#the guy who always knows exactly what to say had to stop and think and not be able to answer?#bye i’m out #i actually can’t handle him being sad !!!! it’s 2 much ✌️#he looks so defeated in certain moments like it’s visible in his eyes #when he talks about how he picked it up last season and having to sit for extended periods of time #and he says it like it is which is. just like. he’s amazing and i’m so proud of him #anyway this is why i kinda stopped watching videos of him when times are tough #it is NOTHING but PAIN for my poor little heart !!!!!!!!#idk like a couple years ago he got me through some of my worst days #no matter what happened i always had him & the avs to watch when i got home #things were happier bc even when he got scratched he was there w his friends and on a good team #i knew it wasn’t going to last forever but i didn’t expect.. this #i didn’t expect the ahl again. is what i’m saying #AND I KNOW i’m the person to always say ‘stop viewing the ahl as a punishment 🙄’#but??? that applied to rookies!! guys still on their ELCs who are having a hard time!!!#not an almost 26 year old with over 400 games experience????#after all the bs that’s happened since the trade??#i hope he’s okay 🫶 things will get better #the last answer was such a diss lmaoooo i'm so here for it #ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT how he had other options???? baby what options lets sit down and talk about it #i'm not even surprised he stuck w the sabres tho loyalty runs in his veins and it's admirable #anyway. i love him. i missed talking about him obnoxiously. wish it was under better circumstances!#rants

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seamgreen · 2 months

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fresh out the slammer personal thoughts in tags

#okay well. as someone who was kind of floundering and thought grad school was like my only REAL path forward and then fell in love #immediately after i applied to school and ended up getting accepted and having to move away and spend some of the worst months of my life #finding out grad school is actually NOT the end all be all and i was much happier before and understand now why they lost their minds and #fought the wars bc i will (and have) move(d) mountains for her because she is my favorite person and we’re doing the work and #now i’m abt to leave school in 3 weeks to move home and see her for the first time since january……#fresh out the slammer making me bawl like a fucking BABY #i think all the time about something sarah marshall said during ywa series on princess diana that’s like: something shifts in your life and #suddenly a thing that seemed so insurmountable before just. doesn’t feel insurmountable anymore…..like yeah #this is probably incoherent because i’m typing through my tears but if u read all of this just know ily

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starbuck · 7 months

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okay. Just planned out my next two weeks and change and i THINK i will not die!

#there is soooooooo much schoolwork but i’m managing my time soooooooooo well #i’m honestly really fucking proud of myself for what i’ve accomplished #but i’ll be MUCH happier when it’s all actually done #we are SO close!#HOME STRETCH BABEY!!!!!!!!!#anyways in the end i’m glad i made a billion plans over the next three weeks #i DESERVE a good time and - with proper time management - i CAN do it all!#i’m fuckin READY #actually literally hate that i thrive under pressure but also like. thank GOD lmao

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feralattentionwhore · 1 year

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There's a joke in here somewhere about slapping and hurting me hits the "get wet" button but I'm too tired to write it

#i don't think i can fully express how happy i am here #just over a week left which sucks #but i get to sleep in their bed in their clothes #even if my body sucks and is bleeding a tonne for some reason #feral goes mia because they get to spend time with the wife tm #honestly my biggest realisation while being here is that eventhough having kids grosses me tf put snd id rather die than having any #i understand why people have them now #for the first time in my life #like i actually understand #because when they're cuddled in my arms and their cat is on my stomach ive never been happier #and when we're both just giving scritches to the baby its just so nice #feels like home #and like family #and i understand ehy people want that #anyway im gay for them eventhough anxiety is bad and my body is making it so much worse #queer nsft #lgbt nsft #nblw nsft #nsft #lesbian nsft #sapphic nsft #wlw nsft #nsft wlw #wlw ns/fw #ill write about what happened at some point if i dont forget

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steampoweredskeleton · 6 months

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Tomorrow I am going to buy baldurs gate as soon as I've finished work and I am BUZZING WITH EXCITEMENT

#delete later #good luck to me sleeping tonight #and i gotta write my report tomorrow but ive finished the coding part of the project #im excited #im so happy work is nearly finished for a week #and im staying home!!! im gonna eat good food and play fun games and make chainmail!#Christmas makes me so much happier when i just ignore most of it. its too overwhelming otherwise #ill probably watch the muppets christmas carol bc i love the Muppets but otherwise i honestly like treating it so casually #i think i just find big holidays so overwhelming that i need to keep things level. same as my birthday. i dread it every year #but this year it was relaxing and nice and we did one thing and otherwise it was a normal day just with gifts #living with autism is wild and learning that sticking to my routine and other regulating things even on days when #youre supposed to be spontaneous and busy is very good. it helps. and staying regulated is a high priority now that i can #actually do it and have control over my life #ANYWAY im so excited for baldurs gate 3. my flatmate has told me the things that will frustrate me which is actually very #helpful in preparing me so that i dont immediately get frustrated and upset. very excited

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toytulini · 11 months

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I saw Barbie last night, I dont think i have a long film review of it for yall but idk I'll put some thoughts under a readmore I guess?

-Right off the bat, I enjoyed it, it was fun. It was a fun pink poppy romp. Thats about what I expected of it, and thats pretty much what I got

-Its not particularly radical in its gender/feminism takes, its very basic, which, I saw a number of ppl mention that before I saw it so I wasnt expecting anything radical. It couldve done better. it was. fine. im shrug about it i guess.

-My mom enjoyed it and was apparently not expecting any sort of emotional depth or story at all so it caught her off guard. I heard her crying. she cries easy at movies. I'm glad my mom liked it. Maybe she'll absorb some of the very basic feminism it drops idk.

-I knew the Kens adopted patriarchy and introduced it to Barbieland but it felt lile that happened very fast, idk.

-The ending....I. is her going to a gynecologist supposed to be like. shes gotten a vagina by deciding to be human?? or is she trying to schedule a surgery or something? that felt pretty weird to me if im honest, i thought it was gonna be a job interview or smth... Especially with how everyone was like "Barbie is ace (heheeh i agree) cos she has no genitals! (sorry what. excuse me. wanna run that by me again?)" like okay that makes that headcanon reasoning even more dewply uncomfortable that it already was?

-I enjoyed weird Barbie. i wish theyd cast someone else cos iirc ka/te mckin/non was a transmisogynist? unless she apologized or said she changed her mind on the topic since like 2017?? but i havent seen anything? idk. just. annoying to keep platforming these ppl. i guess theres probably other actors involved that have shit views of trans ppl. whatever i guess.

-I did dress up a little. i feel like my outfit had Weird Barbie Vibes. maybe ill post a pic.

-I did enjoy it and it had a number of shots and or transitions i liked, i think the one with the disco ball to the moon or whatever was enjoyable.

-god we really are so weird about barbie

-it just feels factually incorrect that all dolls pre barbie were baby dolls? idk. im sure it was the most common kind. but idk. not to be weird about The History Of Dolls but like. the porcelain dolls from the Victorian era. idk if those count as baby dolls. iirc those were to help young girls practice prepping dead bodies of loved ones for funerals or smth??? but i guess porcelain dolls have a sort of babyish look about them. and are fragile so you cant play rough with them.

-Like i Know its a 2hr long toy commercial for mattel but also god that cant be right. even if they werent filling the same niche as barbie as idk basically a fashion doll? there had to be other dolls right?

-I know the flat foot thing is Supposed to be over the top and silly for them all to get upset about but also tbh. as a bitch with falling arches the way some of yall make jokes about flat feet still is uh. well. rude. but also lmao man. the day my arches started hurting for no reason while i was barefoot did sorta feel emotionally like her feet falling to the ground lol.

-i want to introduce barbie to margot robbie's harley quinn owo. i think that would be Fun :3

-i want Ken's job. how do i do Beach as an occupation.

-I actually liked how they handled Ken and Barbie's rship til the end. i feel weird about that ending overall and also it feels weak wrt her dynamic as Ken. they make him grapple w her not reciprocating his feelings the same way but then she just leaves barbieland anyway?? and ig they dont get to explore a friendship or qpr dynamic. ok. its fine i guess.

-her saying she has no genitalia felt so transgender in a way im not sure it was intended to. ken saying he has all of the genitalia felt even more transgender. headcanoning them both as extremely transgender in fun weird new ways and no one can stop me.

-Allan is my favorite character i think. bro me too

-bibbleless movie. add bibble.