#so basically i processed it but my family hasn't and they keep putting the blame on me for everything and guilting me for it

[strozzaprete]

not to be morbid on main but my life is so strange every day i'm fighting with my inner suicidal child trying to convince her to stay alive out of spite for our enemies

[itspronouncedfeckyou]

okay. 583 explanation post [again]

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file-583 [stylized as FILE-583] is a [currently work in progress] webcomic!

it follows the lives of Ethan "Feck" Yaker and Coco and Mono Fields.

^these guys. Feck just dropped out of college, Coco works at a family business and makes bouquets for people, and Mono is the mayor of the small town that the story resides in! What a lovely group of friends :3

Coco and Mono have been friends with Feck for quite a while, so seeing him back grows concerning because they're worried that something bad happened while he was away in college, and they worry he's going to slip into his agoraphobic tendencies of his past. So they're sorta keeping a close eye on him, Coco especially.

And Mono sorta starts to notice this and is like "hey you've been spending an awful long time with my wife. suspicious?" nd Feck's like "pshh its not like she's cheating on you. You're just jealous 'cause I'm so awesome."

So Mono's like "oh shit. what if he's right and she's cheating on me with my best friend. fucked up" so he goes home and Coco and Mono get into this fight and he's like "you're totally cheating on me! what the fuck!" and kills her. Womp womp! Anyway, like immediately after he's like "shit oh god wiat no i didnt mean to do that oh my god oh my god what have i done"

Then, like a week later, Feck calls Mono asking if he's heard anything from Coco, 'cause she hasn't been reading Feck's texts. Mono tells him she's missing, doesn't elaborate on anything, then hangs up. Feck sorta just sits in silence as he processes, then gets up and gets ready for work.

Things sorta blur together for Feck as he's overcome with grief and confusion. Why did she go missing? Did she run away? Where did she go? Was it his fault? It didn't make any sense.

While this is happening, Mono is devising a plan to push the blame on someone else. If people found out, he'd lose his position as mayor, nobody would ever trust him again, yada yada. Then Mono has an idea, mostly out of the blue.

He can blame Feck. Tell everyone that Feck did it. He's always been a violent kid; it just makes sense.

So that's what he does. He calls off the search party for Coco, declare her dead, and suspects for her murder are being interrogated.

SOMEHOW, Feck is proven guilty. But they can't send him to.. prison because he's haaunnnteeedddd by Coco. Crazy! But why him? Why must she haunt him and not Mono? Strange.

So they send him to a hospital where we [technically] meet 3 doctors! Moth, Mr/Dr. E, and Sparks <- all very important

Moth mainly focuses in mental health, Mr. E has a degree in basically everything but focuses in medicine and physical checkups, and Sparks is... Electrical.

Anyway, Sparks is Feck's main doctor giving him the good ol' electroshock treatment to get that damn ghost out of his head! Uhm.

"Hey doc this isn't working. and also I'm innocnet" <- Feck to Sparks at every instance aever.

Sparks starts to actually LISTEN to that boy and is like "shit maybe he's right. Hey Moth I think this guy's innocent we should. stop"

Moth agrees, but for some reason won't let Feck out, so Sparks starts sneaking Feck out in secret and actually learns a thing or two about him. He grows more and more keen on the idea that Feck is innocent, and will die trying to prove it.

Word gets around that Sparks is sneaking Feck out, so, in an effort to put the both of them back in their place, Mono just. pulls up. and is like "hey :) Why dontcha... show me the usual procedure for Feck? Y'know his treatment n all :)"

Sparks freaks out, and overlooks a very important detail [mouth guard], which causes Feck to bite his tongue off and the treatment has to be called off. Mono shrugs it off, but is also panicking internally. He leaves. Feck is taken to Mr. E. And Sparks is alone, feeling like shit.

Feck's trust in Sparks has diminished to nearly nothing after that, and he can barely be in the same room as him before he tries to get violent. So Moth has to step in.

Mind you, Moth has been avoiding Feck like the plague, so him stepping in is... very awkward, to say the least. Anyway, they get to talking [to the best of Feck's abilities], and they seem to mesh well together! What good chemistry these two have!

Anyhow, very big angst scene between Feck and Coco that causes Feck to realize that he can't die yet, and he must keep living for Coco. So he devises a plan to escape the hopital . somehow does nd then the series ends! yaaayyy

JUST FUCKING KIDDING

SPARKS IS OUT HERE FOR SOME REASON!!!!!

And he's like "hey what the fuck. hey. HEY. GET BACK HERE" and then they beat the shit out of each other with their bare hands on a cliff. Very dramatic, rainy. whadever. im getting really tired ive been writing this post for like an hour.

Anyway, so like Feck and Sparks beat the shit out of each other and Sparks is getting the upper hand [considering that he's nearly a foot taller and also Electrical] and has Feck on the edge of the cliff. Then Feck smiles and tells Sparks that if he's going down, then Sparks is coming down with him. Feck pulls Sparks off the cliff and they both crash into the lake below them.

the end!!!!! hope you enjoyed my. ramblings

im so tired.

[okami-zero]

*incoherent anime screaming*

So just watched the latest episode of G-Witch, and per my usual, my rambling is below to avoid spoilers.

To say that I wish for Prospera's head on a gilded platter would be the closest I could get to the emotions wound up by this episode.

Now, I absolutely love Guel's return. He grew up a lot while he was away (and now has some fun PTSD! /s). But Prospera almsot gleefully abandoned her flesh-and-blood daughter for her tamagotchi stuck-in-Permet-because-of-her literal ghost-in-the-machine revenge. I will not let her pretend this is for Eri's benefit at all (and Eri deserves better). This is vengeance, pure and simple. She will blame the death of her husband and colleagues on Cathedra and Delling. She will blame Eri being made into a Gundam control system on Cathedra and Delling. She will blame the suffering Suletta is being put through on Cathedra and Delling (and being the duplicitous madwoman she is, throw Miorine in there for the last one). Only one of these is feasibly true. The last two are directly her choice to carry out and do.

And they just HAD to use Happy Birthday, didn't they? Fuck, this series is going to give people depressive episodes when hearing that song by the end of it all...

I will give Guel the props he deserves, he did very well considering he still hasn't processed everything that happened in the attack on the Plant and his accidental/self-defense patricide. He is becoming a fave. And his confession to Suletta was adorable.

So, we saw Suletta's heart absolutely break in the episode and dear gods, it has been a while since I have seen something that fucking tear-my-heart-out-and-stomp-on-it emotionally raw (Demon Slayer had a couple, need to get back on that). And you know "Lady" Prospera is going to capitalize on that shit (she probably knew form the start, so she gets to keep her little puppet, despite Miorine's intent).

Now we saw some of Miorine's reaction (not sure if she could hear Suletta or not), but all we really saw was the hesitation. Even when she pressed the button, the reluctance. And we know the girl is good at throwing up an imperious front. But I want to see how she really feels about this. I mean, we saw how fiercely she faced down Prospera for Suletta's sake. But I want to see what seeing this girl, who had basically placed her heart in her hands, who was willing to do so much for her, that was so in love with her - I want to see what seeing Suletta's heart break right in front of her did to Miorine. Because as good as she is at putting up a front... I don't believe that is something she could have done easily. And probably only had one shot to do it.

So yea, Prospera's head, gilded platter, let's make it happen!

(Seriously though, Prospera is an excellent antagonist here. She has a bit of the whole "revenge for my family" vibe from Char and Zechs, but she's just completely around the bend. And AGAIN with the creepy Bene Gesserit ladies! They always seem so fucking eager to just stab everyone in the back soon as they turn around. And Shaddiq, you tricksy mofo, I see you. You and your Treize Khushrenada vibe, I see you.)

Also, kind of sad Norea missed Elan#Five with that pencil, not gonna lie...

[max--phillips]

Not a thot, but I do love how often people drag T*m in TF fics /o/r just completely write him out to begin with - maybe casting Affleck in the role was a good idea given how much an unsavory person I’ve heard he is lmao.

LITERALLY TOM SUCKS SO BAD (as he's written, anyway?)

(hang on am I really about to defend Tom? Yes and no, I guess. He still sucks and the movie probably would've gone better if he wasn't there, and I gotta hand it to Ben Affleck bc I have no idea why I don't like him but he plays shitty people VERY well)

The way the movie paints him is basically "shitty dad who loses his shit in 0.03 seconds after tasting blood for the first time in a few years." I'm gonna give the writers the benefit of the doubt here and say that's probably not what they were going for. Throughout the movie you pick up on the fact that Frankie, Pope, Will, and Benny are all deeply traumatized in a litany of ways. Will is introduced talking about how he put a guy in a headlock because he wouldn't move out of his way in a grocery store; he was unable to "turn off" the special forces part of him. Pope just... he's clearly going through some shit at the beginning, sees a bunch of guys get killed, and he talks about his knees being shot and his neck affecting his quality of life. Benny is still stuck in a "live to fight" mindset and takes this out with his. Well. Fights. Frankie's dealing with whatever he's gone through with drugs, and blames himself for all the lives lost at the village they crashed in.

We don't really learn what Tom went through, but he's been shot several times, and whatever he went through ruined his relationship with his wife, and the last time we see his daughter, she tells him she misses him. My guess is, they wanted to paint Tom as a man who was irreparably broken by the horrors of war, and was unable keep what he experienced out of his family's life. Nonetheless, he's trying to keep his family afloat despite whatever he did to harm those relationships; he's doing real estate. When he and Pope pick up Tom's daughter, there are unpaid bills hanging on the fridge, so clearly he's not doing a great job at making ends meet. But he is trying. And while he didn't want to get involved with Pope's job at first because he didn't want to revisit the very thing that caused so much strain in his relationships with his family, he sees it as an opportunity to not only make those ends meet, but maybe even fix things, get things back on track. But, because he's still broken and has a boatload of unresolved trauma, he's immediately blinded by greed when he sees much more money than to just "get things back on track." To me, he seems to try to soldier his way through fixing his relationships with his family, effectively flipping the script on how things had been for him up to that point. This, of course, leads to his downfall. In the movie his downfall is rightfully earned, because to the viewer (who hasn't seen the movie 80 times and hasn't analyzed every last frame of the thing slkdjfgsdfg) he seems like a greedy, bossy asshole who got in over his head. But he could've been a very interesting, very complex, very tragic character. Obviously he was important to the other men in the movie, especially Benny if his reaction is any indication. (My guess? Will and Tom probably joined the military around the same time, and were probably close friends. Benny likely saw Tom as somewhat of a second older brother.)

Point here being, yes, Tom sucks, but only because I think the movie didn't do him any justice. The movie needed to either make him a dad trying his best to repair his relationship with his wife and daughters, making a mistake in the process, or truly make him a damaged former soldier who was motivated purely by greed. But, I have a lot of narrative issues with that movie to be entirely fair. We hardly get any backstory for these characters, which is a shame because it's clear to me that the writers had a Vision for this story. There's more to these characters we didn't get to see.