#so if i forgot smth i'll cry

[mechawolfie]

thank god it’s EIGHT PEE EM aka what my INTERNAL CLOCK has decided is DAY TIME!!! YIPPEEEE!!!!!!!

[il-miele-che-scrive]

Please have your asks open okay so hear me out

Charles Leclerc x Greek ! F1 driver ! Reader

You can choose the brand anything Ferrari because I want it to be like a little rivalry to lovers . Social media au or not . Reader being in f1 more time than Charles or Charles with rookie reader .

Thank you in advance

Hello!! I decided to go with rookie reader, hoping you'll like it❤️🙏

scuderiaferrari We are thrilled to announce a historic moment in Formula 1 as we welcome Y/n Y/l/n to our racing family! 🚀 Introducing Y/n Y/l/n, the first woman to compete in F1 since the iconic Lella Lombardi in 1976, and proudly representing Greece! 🇬🇷 Teaming up with our Charles Leclerc, Y/n brings a fresh wave of skill, determination and passion to the track. Together they'll conquer the 2024 season with the iconic Prancing Horse🐎

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yourusername I feel extremely honored to become a part of this family❤️

username1 Miss girl has no idea what she signed up for 💀 wishing her all the best tho

username2 A GIRL, GUYS WE FINALLY GOT A GIRL IN F1

username3 I have a bad feeling about this...

↳username1 wtf? care to explain?

username3 By the summer break she'll have hooked up with half the grid

username1 bye I'm not even participating in this conversation, misogynistic brain rot

carlossainz55 Goodluck @/yourusername 💪

↳yourusername Thank you Carlos 🙏

↳username4 Help why does his comment seem kinda salty

username2 wdym salty lol he literally wished her goodluck

username5 I get him tho, a girl stole his seat

username2 what "stealing" are you talking about? his contract expired, they didn't prolong it and went with some fresh blood that happened to be a woman, not to mention you have to be like the best of the best to get into F1, there was def no stealing done

charles_leclerc Exciting times ahead, let's see if you can keep up

↳yourusername Buckle up 🤠

↳username2 now THAT'S what I'd call a salty comment

username5 Charles forgot they're on the same team lol

achi_of_greece Hellenic Hurricane 🌪

↳yourusername I'll never escape from this nickname will I? 🫶

↳username1 NOT Y/N HAVING LITERAL ROYALTY UNDER A POST ABOUT HER

↳username3 Let's see if the hellenic hurricane can keep up with Lighting McQueen

username4 keep up? 🤡 miss girl will beat his ass up

username5 once again, i kindly remind, they are a TEAM!

lewishamilton History in the making

↳yourusername Omg sir Lewis Hamilton I'm gonna cry 🥹

username1 Y/n being a fangirl just like us

username4 she's so real for this frfr

oscarpiastri Finally🥴it was a bit lonely

↳yourusername Hi f2 bestie 🫶

logansargeant What about me

yourusername you know Oscar and I love you!!

f1 A historic day at the Imola Circuit as Y/n Y/l/n, the Hellenic Hurricane, wins the Emilia Romagna Grand Prix! Congratulations to Y/n and the entire Ferrari team for this outstanding performance.

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yourusername A dream come true honestly 😭🙏

↳carlossainz55 Great job👏

↳lewishamilton So proud

↳username4 Someone explain why the 7 (8)times WC and Charles' ex teammate are more supportive than Charles himself

username2 I think it might be an ego thing? He could be jealous? Personally I think it's Ferrari's fault, they kinda messed up the friendship between CL and CS too at the end

username5 yeah Y/n is definitely the 'favorite child' to Ferrari because she's new and they want to focus more on her or smth

maxverstappen1 Well deserved

↳yourusername THANK YOU MAX

↳username6 Why is Max here and Charles is not😭

username1 A GIRL. IN FERRARI. WINNING IN ITALY. I WASN'T READY FOR THIS

username2 The haters are pretty quiet rn

username4 No cuz I was gonna ask if she found a therapist yet... But she might not need it

username6 Excuse me it's been a few weeks and we get a Y/n win already?? I love it here

landonorris Max Verstappen is screaming crying throwing up

↳maxverstappen1 I'm literally not

landonorris You must admit it was refreshing not having to listen to the Dutch anthem again

oscarpiastri Best rookie fr

↳yourusername I learn from the best (even though you didn't have a win in your rookie year)

oscarpiastri Wdym i didn't, i won sprint in Qatar. Not to mention rookie of the year

yourusername Yeah yeah, stop flexing pookie

logansargeant Go bestie

↳yourusername Can't fvck with these hoes cuz they messy 💅

username7 live laugh love Y/n

username1 the Verstappen curse has ended🙏

↳username3 you know it's probs her first and last victory in F1 right?

username1 I just wonder why is Charles so quiet

charles_leclerc Congrats 👍

↳username7 not Charles commenting after people started to wonder why he didn't say anything 😭

↳yourusername How did you enjoy looking at the back of my car? Oh wait, you couldn't even see it from P8

username1 maybe it was better when Charles didn't comment 💀

username3 if that was how my teammate talks to me I'd be pissed too

username1 if this is angrily my name is Ayrton Senna

username2 pls if he was angry, it was only cuz he's in love with her but can't do anything about it

↳username3 he can, they're both single, if he wanted he would've, but he knows they have to keep it professional

username2 that's why I said he can't do anything, literally. i predict a relationship the moment one of them leaves ferrari (or f1 in general)

username4 dude is so in love it's embarrassing

username5 I just know he's thinking about unholy things

↳username7 angry sex lmao imagine

username6 oh to have someone who'll look at me the same way Charles looks at Y/n

username7 okay so my theory is they're attracted to each other okay? but neither of them can talk about emotions, but they tried to have a talk about it, which turned into an argument cuz both are short tempered pookies

↳username3 this is so delusional 🤡 why would they talk about it in that exact moment?

username7 let a girl fantasize

↳username5 quietly manifesting this to be true

↳username2 I'll never believe in true love if this doesn't turn out to be real

username8 No cuz hear me out guys. The LONGING gaze in the second picture? There is chemistry between them whether they admit it or not

↳username6 I totally see it, that is the stare of a man in love with the woman he's just argued with. Look at him. He doesn't look angry. He looks upset. Why? Because they had this argument and didn't make up. Now he's worried they'll get in the cars and something bad will happen either to him or Y/n and... You can imagine how the rest goes

username3 And i thought the previous person was delulu wtf

username9 I can die happily the day I see CharlesY/n happen

↳username7 be careful what you wish for, I feel like it can happen sooner than we'd expect

username10 I need to know HOW didn't Y/n fold after being looked at like this

username11 My friend went to Monaco for the GP and she has a paddock pass, she told me she overheard Y/n talk to some girl from her team that she liked Charles AND they even had "THE talk"™ (which could mean they did "IT"?), but Y/n can't imagine a relationship with him

↳username3 out of all the things that didn't happen, this didn't happen the most

↳username1 I can see that, they're very similar - competitive, short tempered - each of them is like a ticking bomb alone, so in a romantic relationship they would be truly a nuclear weapon (which doesn't mean I don't want it to happen)

yourusername A great day for some karting 🥴 summer break!

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username1 did I gaslight myself that hard or she's really in the number 16?

↳username5 nah, I see that too

↳username2 girlie giving us hints, is it soft launching yet?

username2 16 I'M SCREAMING

username4 enemies to lovers?

↳username3 when were they enemies?

username4 well they never seemed very fond of each other

username3 then just say rivals 💀

charles_leclerc You forgot to mention I won this time

↳yourusername first and last time you got a higher place than me

username4 I can see them having "the winner gets to be on top" kinda bets

↳landonorris 👀

username1 LANDO KNOWS SOMETHING

username11 i told yall, there's too much tension between Y/n and Charles to not be AT LEAST fuck buddies

oscarpiastri What's the longest you can go without being on track?

↳yourusername Mate as I'm writing this I'm waiting for a plane home, won't sit behind the wheel for like a week or more 😭

↳username2 Y/n is dedicated to her job

yourusername είσαι η αγάπη μου❤️🤍

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username1 the red and white hearts?? just saying but they're colors of the Monaco flag

↳username2 and the guy lowkey looks like Charles🤔

username3 looks like Charles? The best you can see is the back of his head

username2 and it looks exactly like Charles' 😌

francisca.cgomes Where credits for the last pic?

↳username4 KIKA WHAT ARE U DOING HERE

↳yourusername Pierre said not to tag either of you 😭 safety reasons or something 🙄

username4 AND PIERRE IS THERE?

username3 Okay, she's in a relationship, y'all can stop shipping Charles with her

↳username5 wdym 💀 this is literally Charles

username3 And y'all say that based on the back of his head, delusional

oscarpiastri @/landonorris and I want an invitation next time

↳yourusername Sorry pookie, it's not for kids

landonorris I'm not a kid

yourusername Then don't act like one

username5 lmao Ferrari had no idea they're getting a sassy queen

username6 Y/n is in love 🥹

↳username2 She's winning, she's in love, what else could a girl want?

username7 Not the soft launch as if we didn't know it's literally her teammate

username1 WHAT.

username2 I TOLD YOU. I TOLD YOU.

username3 You know it's totally normal for friends to hang out? I'd take it as they finally made up

↳username2 UP OR OUT

↳username4 they totally look like just friends, sure😐

username5 IN HER HOMETOWN 😭 HE MET HER FAMILY

↳username7 I'm super curious how it went. "Mom, dad, this is Charles my teammate, I hate his guts. Oh, and we're also lovers"

username6 So where is the person who said they can die happily when CharlesY/n turns out to be real?

↳username2 dead probs lmao

username7 The power couple we needed 😭

username8 imagine their PR team lurking onto gossip pages seeing this

↳username1 I know FOR A FACT that the pr people do look at the gossip accounts

username9 Y'all remember how once someone said Y/n will hook up with half the grid? Staring with the teammate is easy, let's see who'll be next

↳username3 Yeah, I'm so surprised it didn't happen earlier

↳username2 stay mad lol Y/n is living her best life with the man she loves

username5 THIS and it doesn't matter that they met through being on the same team

username6 They knew each other before tho! Y/n used to be friends with Arthur, so she def met Charles in the past

username3 Oh so she tried to get with Arthur but because it didn't work out she went for Charles?

username6 That's literally not what I said. She was friends with Arthur. FRIENDS

username3 You know there's no such thing as friendship between a man and a woman?

username6 look at who is delulu now 🤡 I'm not having this conversation

charles_leclerc Partners on and off the track

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username1 Man literally said fuck a soft launch 😭

↳username2 as he should! we've been dying for them to announce it

yourusername Je t'aime 🩷

↳charles_leclerc Je t'aime avec tes défauts et tes qualités

yourusername EXCUSE ME

yourusername DO YOU THINK I CANT USE TRANSLATOR?

yourusername WHAT "DÉFAUTS" YOU MEAN? I HAVE NO DÉFAUTS

charles_leclerc That's adorable ❤️

pierregasly Remind me, who took the first photo? 🤔

↳yourusername Kika did 🫶 @/francisca.cgomes

francisca.cgomes First and foremost I am the biggest CharlesY/n fan

pierregasly But you took the pic with my phone, I am the author just as much 🙄

francisca.cgomes No❤️

landonorris OH

landonorris I thought you won't have the balls to hard launch

↳yourusername The balls are there indeed

yourusername And more

landonorris EWWWW TMI

yourusername 😐

landonorris exactly my face rn

oscarpiastri So that's why Lando and I weren't invited

↳yourusername It's a couples trip 🤷‍♀️ there wasn't space for the Aussie and his emotional support extrovert

oscarpiastri fuck Lando, what about the Aussie and his GIRLFRIEND?

oscarpiastri Because I do have a girlfriend, you know?

landonorris HEY that's mean

logansargeant I can't say I didn't see it coming

↳username1 We all did, Logan

↳yourusername You were literally the first person I told about my crush on Charles...

logansargeant But who said I believed it would work out?

oscarpiastri HE was the first to know?

yourusername And you were the first to know about the night Charles spent in my hotel room in Monaco

charles_leclerc You talk to them about these things, chérie?

yourusername Don't act like you didn't run to Lando to tell him all about it on the next day

username4 So the theories were real after all, the spicy night in Y/n's hotel room was the cause of their argument

↳username3 She didn't say that...

username4 But it's obvious. Look - the night happened, they felt weird about it and boom there goes the argument. It makes a lot of sense

username5 However it happened, I'm glad it happened

username6 What happens now? Are they even allowed to be a couple?

↳username7 wdym allowed lol it's better than if they were from different teams, they'd have to sign NDA or something

username6 Isn't the team worried they'll distract each other or something?

username7 At least they'll be traumatized together

scuderiaferrari 🇬🇷❤️🇲🇨

↳username6 The team is indeed not worried

yourusername The benefits of having birthday during the summer break

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username1 I love the Y/n and Charles/Kika and Pierre friend group

↳username2 they're everything I want fr

username4 okay but I NEED to know whose idea the cake was

↳username2 I would expect it from Logan and Oscar, honestly, but they weren't in Greece with them

↳yourusername ofc it was Kika's idea!!

francisca.cgomes and I'm proud of it

logansargeant It hurts to know you're making new friends 🙄

↳yourusername I figured I needed some girl friend after spending so much time with you and Oscar 🙄

logansargeant Do you even remember about us anymore?

oscarpiastri I bet 10 of your american dollars that she doesn't

yourusername how could I forget? You two still haunt me in my nightmares 🫶

username1 lmao Charles wakes up screaming box box and Y/n wakes up screaming what's a kilometer and shoe thongs 😭

yourusername that's an accurate description

charles_leclerc I swear I once heard you talk in your sleep something about running a mile in shoe thongs

yourusername And I don't even know how long a mile is, so you can only imagine how terrifying that was

lewishamilton Happy birthday to my favorite rookie

↳yourusername Every time you appear in my comment section I cry a little

lewishamilton The good tears I hope?

yourusername happiness tears of course😭

username5 Do y'all think Charles is jealous seeing his gf interact with THE Lewis Hamilton?

↳username2 No? Why? Lewis is Y/n's idol so obviously she's gonna fangirl a lil

username6 Y/n being a WAG and a driver at the same time, iconic

username7 My fav wag duo for real

[maleyanderecafe]

I NEED YOUR HELP SO BADLY 😭

Okay so last year I was bored and shi and was just watching yandere vn playthroughs from Your Game on my chrome book (I downloaded the videos and stuff) and there was this one where you had a boyfriend, I forgot what his name was but it wasn't an American name, basically he fucking dies i think and MC gets kidnapped at one part? They find a wall of pictures with them in them (I THUNK, I skipped most of it cause ADD and now I hate myself for it.) MC gets exhausted or smth happens and they collapse but then the ghost of the boyfriend is like "yooooo get up and all that good stuff, comfort comfort" and then the yandere is some type of yandere demon that looks like darkiplier (im not joking he does) and in his end you basically submit to him after he brings you to the VOID and you give him what he wanted. Also you find out the boyfriend died by coming home and seeing MINE (I think) written on the wall in blood.

I have searched FAR AND WIDE looking for this game but can't find it, it had a similar art style to My Darling so I tried seeing they made it but NOPE.

AND I CANT FIND THE VIDEO CAUSE I DELETED IT FROM GOOGLE DRIVE FOR STORAGE AND IM GONNA CRY I WANT IT SO BADLY PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR KNOWLEDGE 🛐😭

Whoa, okay, that’s a lot of info, but I think the game you’re talking about is Love Me Dearly?

From what I remember, the MC doesn't have a boyfriend (at least from what I remember), but she and the pink haired guy, Takuma (non American name) did have a history together that the MC doesn't remember, but Takuma does.

The MC gets trapped (not kidnapped) by the other male yandere Asurio and if the MC does submit to them you give him the box that he wanted. Takuma also does the comfort comfort thing with the MC when they're trapped together and at the end.

Hopefully, this is the game that you were talking about? I'll have to contemplate on it harder if it isn't. It's a pretty good game because it's very different from a lot of yandere vns that I've played and there's a lot more problem solving and mysterious intrigue that made it pretty memorable to me.

[eri-pl]

Silm reread 8 Flight of the Noldor.

Yavanna cannot make the Trees again because That's How Things Work. At least we get a clear statement (again) that she did create their light, so sorry musicals, the Trees did not contain the Flame Imperishable. (I know in one abandoned later revision they kind of maybe did, but also it is like nails on chalkboard to me)

And Yavanna says that their harm would be undone and Melkor's evil would not reach its goal. Very Yavanna thing to say, very "where's the undo button". I'm not a fan. Like, I get her and it's not evil or smth… but… sorry, my pretty green lady, this doesn't work like this.

Tulkas. Can't you just sit still? (No, he can't.)

"Not the first one"! This line always makes me smile, it's just so "random oneliners to say". (I don't think Namo is rude, I think he's just quite alien and doesn't understand CoI and their psychology)

Despite being left to brood in silence, Feanor is paranoid anyway. :(

Capital D Darkness again — it's Ungoliant's stuff.

Finwë died on the threshold of Formenos — defending the house, but it is assumed, I think, because everyone else ran away. Either he had a weapon in hand, or they just assumed he was not trying to run away. Anyway nvm the narrative frame, the indent is that he was defending the house, so ok, why not. Very brave of him.

Feanáro curses a lot:

curses Melkor and renames him

curses Manwë's summons (so it was Manwë who ordered him to come? This would be some overstepping. I'll assume it was Manwë inviting him personally to come and Ingwë ordering him. Or just Manwë ordering him to come not as his ruler, but as ruler of this land, like "if you want any chance to be unbanned from Tirion, you must come")

curses the hour when he left home (very puzzling thing to do imo, but it is a genre thing I suppose)

Melkor wanted to kill Feanor mostly. So the book says. i am honestly surprised he didn't— oh wait. Maybe putting the Silmarils on his face and the pain was what made him shift from "kill Feanáro and his kin" to… well, all those stuff he did with Maedhros.

Morgoth can't ditch the spider. :D I suppose this confirms that now he is fixed in his body. She calls him Black Heart (derogatory, I suppose?) which nobody else does. It is kind of cute when your overgrown ex-pet murder spider has a pet name for you. :P

The "I rule the worls" stuff. I think this is the first time we see him say it (at least in the well-established canon timeline).

The Silmarils are in a box, and they still start burning him. So:

the burning increases or at least increases until it reaches its full level

they are small enough and Morgoth is big enough that he can hold the box with them all in his hand (right. does it have any meaning?)

It's confirmed that Morgoth had given Ungoliant some of his power and she'd grown and he'd lessenned. I assume it was during their initial negotiations.

She puts a web on him if not a full cocoon. The Balrogs have to free him with the flaming ...I forgot the word.

Also, the Balrogs were hiding in the deep dungeons after Angband, which suggests they did not work for/with Sauron. they seem very much like Morgoth's private guard. Also, they free him without question despite the fact that he seems pretty weak at this point.

The Balrogs have no problem chasing away Ungoliant, I attribute it to their connection with light (or at least fire. But fire is a kind of light, even their fire).

Yavanna was afraid that the Silmarils would be eaten by the darkness. this sounds very much like her.

Morgoth:

calls himself king of the world (the contrast of this and his situation...)

his hands are permanently black with burns and always in pain (which angers him even more)

also his crown seems to hurt him

seriously what is wrong with you?

you need therapy

seriously is insane at this point

also has a super powerful aura of fear

The Valar sit and (think, I guess), their courts (Maiar and Vanyar) cry about the Trees, the Noldor go back to Tirion. Suddenly Feanor. Who technically is still banished, which I think is more of a case of "the Valar had other priorities and he didn't ask" or "we aren't going to let him back to his brother in this state of emotions because there wil be more murders" than "revenge for not giving the Silmarils o Yavanna".

Also, now, of all times, is when many of the Noldor learn about the Men being a thing. Because before that Melkor told a few in secret and tehy apparently told Feanáro in secret… Peak unfortune timing. Peak planning on Melkor's side (not that he could now appraciate it).

Also, in Polish it's not "jealous gods", but "jealous Valar" which is interesting, but I think it makes sense. Still, it is out-Tolkiening the Tolkien I think.

Oh. Another part I need in English, because it's so important.

After Morgoth to the ends of the Earth! War shall he have and hatred undying. But when we have conquered and have regained the Silmarils that he stole, then behold! We, we alone, shall be the lords of the unsullied Light, and masters of the bliss and the beauty of Arda! No other race shall oust us!’ [src]

Oh my. It is so much.

First, it is obvious that "reclaim the Silmarils" is (in his mind) the relatively easy, or at least short, part.

Second: "We, we alone, shall be the lords of the unsullied Light, and masters of the bliss and the beauty of Arda!" I don't think this needs any comments.

Aaaand then they swear the Oath.

It's just one huge downward spiral, and he talks himself into it. Yes, trauma, but why are you pouring gasoline on it??? They all need… a lot. And to stop pouring gasoline on everything.

Fefe. I am so dissapointed with you. I am sad. I don't have the words for this. Also, you hate Morgoth, but you two are so similar sometimes.

Oh, and in the Silm they do not call Eru, they call the Everlasting Darkness to claim them if they break their oath. At least according to the translation. also, yes, revenge and hatered is mentioned, but no requirement to succeed in killing the offenders.

Galadriel is enthusiastic about Feanáro's plans, even though she dislikes him. :P

Manwë is silent, because he doesn't want to stop Feanor. Because he careas about the Noldor feeling enslaved! At least the translation says it pretty clearly. They (the Valar, or at least M&V) sit and watch, hoping that the Noldor will calm down.

Politics, politics… Fingolfin goes because Fingon, and the people, and he promised. Mentioned in this order.

90% of all the Noldor go (to Alqualonde and north, it's unclear how many came back with Finarfin). I wonder if it is of all the Noldor or just of the male Noldor. Because most of the women seem to stay.

Eonwë (not named, but seems like him. Technically it may be another Maia) comes to give them advice. Just an advice. Explicitely says that the Valar will not stop them and they came freely, they can leave freely.

Finarfin and Finrod and all the "wisest of Noldor" are in the back and carry a lot of stuff. Good for them.

Túna was nearly at the equator! Oh. interesting. They are very, very far from the Helcaraxe, and I assume nobody invited navigation without seeing the shores (sorry I don't know the English one word term for this). So they have a logistics problem.

The Teleri seem to refuse any help because they don't want to go against the Valar. Even though the Valar did not forbid it, they just said it was a bad idea. The Teleri just trust them, because Ulmo is cool. Also, they don't have much experience with Morgoth and assume "the Valar will fix it all".

An arguement ensues.

Fefe leaves, broods, and returns to Alqualonde when he has enough army. Then he starts seizing the ships. The Teleri push the Noldor to water, a fight ensues. Fingon join them and assumed that the Teleri were ordered by the Valar to stop the Noldor and attacked them. So, Finarfin and his team was not there. Fingolfin might not be at the battle either?

Olwë calls Ossë for help (so, he did survive), and we have the hilarious "I can't because the Valar forbade us to stop the Noldor. However, my wife, who has a clear recorc, will drown them with her crying anyway."

Blatant ad for the Maglor. "…for more details, see the Noldolante…" This is hilarious.

so they all go far, and it takes a long time. Some (most trusted by Feanor) go on the ships, other on foot. they travel from the equator to, idk, but a pretty cold area.

And only then, after probably weeks of travel, they get Namo(or is it?) and the Doom of the Noldor. (I need to correct one of my fics. This fact makes it 3 times more hilarious. even with the Maiarin teleportation).

Finarfin comes back, and he walks all the distance back. Has a lot of time to think, I guess. Many elves join him, but no number estimates or percentages. :(

The rest go further north.

Helcaraxe was assumed impassable. So no, nobody could predict Fingolfin would led his people there.

This was a very, very long chapter.

[youuuimeanmee]

RWTGI 35.1 - 35.2 Thoughts

I forgot chapter 35.2 is already out WAAAHH

I say Kirishima's name a lot this time, maybe I should call him Kiri.

Okay, this chapter confirms my suspicion. So his family really did neglect him.

Uhh I don't think the diary is meant to prove himself as a victim. I bet it's to keep record of what makes him happy 😅

BAHHAHAH Gaddamit.

I thought he was mourning, or at least self-reflecting. Who knew he was playing soccer 🤣 (where is your sympathy kid, tf) At least he knew not to play in the middle of people mourning, lol

Oh yeah, I just remember, Sumire (Kiri's great-aunt) did say his parents tried to get him to talk after that incident, but no matter how much they tried, he never answered them. Maybe it's because he's aware he's too different from them, they wouldn't understand him anyway? If that's the case, that's kinda amazing of Kiri for being able to (kinda) open up to Gaku even though he never met him, because just from a short meeting he knows his great-uncle is not normal like himself.

(If Kiri is your average kid, even if Sumire dropped some hints that Gaku is similar to him, he wouldn't be able to take the hint because he's too clouded with "no one understands me" prejudice. But no. Our Kiri here uses his brainn, bro)

Aww baby 🥺

Turns out his "friend" is more normal than he thought, his plan failed, he got into trouble. He did so much, yet, didn't get anything in the end lolol

I'm surprised Kiri is the first one who asked to be adopted. I don't think Sumire or his parents ever told him that the man in front of him is a yakuza. He must've put two & two together and concluded it himself.

If I could guess why Gaku accepted a brat like Kiri, it's may be because he saw his potential. I'm sure he never heard about Kiri until his sister introduced him, but the fact that she asked for his help is enough prove that his family couldn't handle him anymore. He never introduced himself as a yakuza but Kiri, with limited informations and short time, knew right away. He's not scared or nervous like normal people. In fact, he just focus on getting what he wants, and willing to do anything to get what he wants. Talented. Abnormal. Obsessed. Unhinged. Gaku could really use those traits. Even if he couldn't become his grandchild, at least he could become a reliable subordinate. Maybe that's why he accepted him so quick 😂

(Turns out there's another reason in the next chapter tho, so I'll save my thoughts for later.)

This is just a reminder to myself: Gaku barely provided Kiri with the neccessity needed, probably because he needs to test his worth if he wants to earn that "yakuza's grandchild" title. Or at least that's my theory. Maybe Gaku is just naturally apathetic. Maybe both.

Kiri might've liked Gaku to a certain degree because he's one of his few family who accepts him as who he is, but I'm pretty sure growing up with a man like him in a yakuza household has worsen his mental condition, until he meet Yoshino.

Wow. Turns out it's not the first time he waits for hours in the rain 🤣

AUGH. beautiful. Beautiful. I'm crying 😭😭😭

That's smart of the author. We wouldn't know if he really blushed because of her or if it's just the rain, lol

Yoshino saw a wolf. Renji saw a a guard dog 🤣

I don't like how Aoi kicked my son, but I have to agree with him here. Don't lick your blood on the floor, yuck.

Daww look at his happy lil feet seeing his obsession crush 🥺🤭

We know that Kiri used to date older women to leech, but seeing it with my own eyes disgust me. Not just Kirishima, but that grown-ass woman too; having sex with a minor, what the fuck. That's what I like from the author tho, just bc the ML did it, it doesn't mean it's romanticized.

OOHHH the day when Kirishima is appointed to be Yoshino's guard dog. Never thought I'd see this day come so fast, I thought we gonna have to wait for ch 80 or smth.

Hmm? The guy who killed Kyousuke? Do we know him? Is it Suo Azami? Nah, if he's around the same age as Kiri, he's practically a baby at that time. Wait, didn't he change his face tho? How old is he again? Or myb it's not Azami at all, myb it's his boss, Akime Hishibe? Oh I forgot Shouma said he's already dead, but I highly doubt it. Maybe the mastermind is still alive.

Um, if Kirishima is owned by Gaku, and Gaku leaves him under Renji's care, does it mean he's now owned by Renji? He doesn't have to obey Gaku anymore?

I'm confused with this whole ownership thing now.

Wait. A month? You gotta go big??

Wait wait wait.

Wow, oh wow. I need to recalibrate everything.

This panel gives chapter 2 a whole new layer. Wow.

So like. He told her to sell her body not only because he was tired of her, but also because Renji told him he could make Yoshino go back to Osaka if he didn't feel like up to the task?

Though I don't think Kiri did that because he values his life; he did that merely because he thought she's boring and not worth his time. But then everything change 😂

Yo Renji. You're the one who said it's okay for Kiri to make Yoshino go back to Osaka. You said you'd take care of the rest, you even said he can be creative. He was doing such a great job at making her feel like she wanna leave, yet, you won't let him have his way?

Was Renji intentionlly flaming them both? Is this his plan all along; to have both children go screw each other in Tokyo and forget about Osaka for a year?

(Istg Renji's death flag has been up for a while now, I'm scared for Yoshino)

Oh wow, Kiri really did not lie. Their interest really do align perfectly.

To continue my point above about why would Gaku accept Kiri into his house, it seems like he wanted to use Kiri's talent and obsessiveness towards Yoshino to make him protect her, because he feel indebted/guilty towards Renji? Was he feeling responsible for what happen to Kyousuke? If that's the case, this makes Akime seem even more sus bc he used to be Gaku and Renji's close friend.

Seeing Kirishima's reminiscence sure brings tears to my eyes. From obsession to genuine love and affection. He really does come a loong, long way, huh. Maybe I should make a meta about this particular scene but idk, let's see if I feel like it.

But I don't think he would've feel this way if Yoshino didn't acknowledge his quirks and treat him "normally." She really is amazing.

The way he's so scared when Yoshino didn't move for literally 1 second he decided to check her pulse, like she could just drop dead in a blink. Even though he has seen how strong she is up until now. That irrational fear of losing someone, he finally understand 🥺🥺

I'm really REALLY surprised Yoshino relented and agreed to eat parfait 🤣 Kirishima you always win huh 🤣

Aww, he returned to the same place when he first entered the yakuza household, eat the same parfait he used to eat, but now he's together with a friend/lover he treasures for life, enjoying the life he found boring at the beginning 🥺😭💞

These past chapters have been a treat. Even after he declares he loves Yoshino multiple times, we never stop doubting him because the fear he instilled at the beginning is too strong to dismiss. Just like Yoshino, we have this lingering doubt that he doesn't really love her, he's just obsessed. These flashbacks managed to shed some lights into his character, making him seem even more human. Kiri really HAS been trying to show how genuine he is -- in his own awkward way -- and it shows 🥹

Just 2 more chapters until we catch up to the raws, I can't wait. I've seen it, and all I can say is, it's beautiful. And Kirishima says some crazy stuff while sober. I just can't with him. I love him, I hate it.

See you next time 👋

[the-wrat]

Hello tumblr would you care to see my reactions to the burrows end finale anyway here they are:

(thanks for reading if you do i guess)

god new Tula is so unhinged and I love it like wtf is that jumpsuit idea

implications of lukas knowing about cocaine are stoats have either done it or like watched scarface or smth right

"twerking on a gearshift"

god I hope they ram the humans

noooo thorn

oh god oh fuck oh pants oh sheeeyiit.

my god the flying squirrel scene is right out of an animated kids movie

holy moly the arc from refusing to understand anything to "well, help us understand"😭

RIP Carlos Luna gone too soon

absolutely loving this new map scale

well this is gut wrenching (both figuratively and literally)

wait is Siobhan from the forest? why is she going back to the forest

this time on burrows end:

Iyengar and Mulligan: Rules Lawyers Divided

(good on Brennan trying to twist the effect tho, it was worth a shot)

oh god the betrayal poor bhint baby

oooooooh shit oh pants oh dammit Aabria why

I hate this

I resonate so much with Brennan's dead inside voice rn

if Jaysohn dies I WILL riot

Jesus fucking Christ in hell people

oh im gonna be so emotionally devastated after this

I may never recover

KILL IT JAYSOHN FUCKING KILL IT DEAD

HELL YEAH JAYSOHN CATCH THE BULLET

so frikin cool thas the pants (meant like that's the shit)

man that baculum is tough, huh?

of course the villain in the story wants to bomb everything it's a cold war era story

love the new york accent meat suit thing, 10/10 bit

wow radiation bad whoda thunk

I think i need an image of jasper screaming to react to stuff with

I second the Emmy nom

wait it's called the dimensional dome??!?

this is pantsing insane

oh my god they won I didn't even think this was possible

no not Jaysohn please not Jaysohn I'll do anything cmon you can't do this please no. help.

okay he's not full dead we still have hope ppl.

ah yes nuclear power plants, well known for having their own ice cream trucks.

okay I fully forgot about Lukas is bhint baby okay

ooohhh beans

oh.pants.

final sacrifice?

past Tula really said "all I wanted was to fall asleep, close my eyes and disappear"

this is so sad but that was a truly amazing speech

oh nooo an epilogue time to see how my prediction of "bittersweet" turned out. somehow, after all that, I think it's not gonna happen

peace and love bb

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

stoat pres!

man the whiplash of going from almost crying to "Kenji do that little dance"

Dr. Stoat!

oh shit they never said a stoat couldn't play sports!

literally hyperventilating Air Jaysohn is real and he made it to the Olympics

do they have weight classes in long jumps?

BRIGHTER THAN THE SUN SWIFTER THAN THE WIND PANTS YEAH!!

[aneenasevla]

Red Velvet - Chapter 6

MasterList / Akane’s profile / Last chapter here

Chapter 6 - Afterglow

When he finally managed to regain some coherence, he decided to take a look at his phone, just to kill time. There were several unread messages in his friend's group chat.

EggHead:

I'm heading to the airport

any sign of rihito?

GiantKiller:

He must be sorting things out with Miss Agata

Gigolo_Master:

he's taking too long

maybe something happened?

if it did, I hope it was something good 😎😎😎

EggHead:

I hope not

or I'll have to go back to give a statement to the police

Dickhead_Tokita:

huh

were you arrested again okubo?

EggHead:

nope

but maybe rihito is inside a ice-filled bathtub right now, after having his internal organs stolen 

Dickhead_Tokita:

wait what do you mean?

is she a cannibal?

GiantKiller:

OKUBO YOU'RE SCARING US

Dickhead_Tokita:

what

wait is it true then?

Gigolo_Master:

ffs okubo just say it's a joke

before kaneda starts to cry and ohma believes you

Dickhead_Tokita:

damn it, is it true or not?

Gigolo_Master:

it's not, okubo is just dicking around

she's just a normal woman

and okubo you jerk

stop being an anxious wreck and just wait for rihito to appear 

you being scared of this chick is annoying the shit outta me

we can’t be like that just because she's hornier than what we're used to

Dickhead_Tokita:

oh alright then 

fuck you scared me

I was already thinking about calling raian to hunt her down 

GiantKiller:

For god’s sake

Quit the organ trafficking nonsense already!

Dickhead_Tokita:

I'll be off, I have things to do

see ya

(@Dickhead_Tokita has left the chat)

GiantKiller:

See what you did? He got mad!

It's your fault, Okubo!

Ohma is well-connected

If he gets things wrong, we'll be screwed!

Gigolo_Master:

wait he didn't seem mad...

I'll talk to him, just a sec…

holy fuck he left the chat just cause he thought it was like turning off a phone LMAOOOOO

did no one teach that dumbass that you don't need to leave a group chat like that?

GiantKiller:

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

This guy, I swear to God…

He's worse than my grandfather, I’m not even joking 🤣🤣🤣

EggHead:

LMFAOOOO

I can’t with this dude XD

@Mr_Iron_Fingers put him back on the chat when you see this

Lihito laughed to himself, a little quietly, because he hadn't yet fully recovered the strength to laugh out loud. It was a good thing he had turned off notifications on his phone, because otherwise he would have been forced to tear up his friends faces for ruining his fun. He sits straighter on the couch and starts typing.

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

for fuck's sake

I'm here and I'm fine

calm the fuck down

GiantKiller:

Thank God, man 😭😭

Gigolo_Master:

hey dude

what happened?

did you talk to her?

you were pissed the other day

GiantKiller:

Yes, we were worried about that too

I hope you two managed to talk it out 🙏🏼🙏🏼

Gigolo_Master:

Yes. You seemed to enjoy her performance…

oh yeah, add Tokita again cause the idiot threw himself outta the chat ¬¬’’

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

lmao alright

fuckin dumbass

but anyway

we talked

got everything outta my chest

then some things happened

and I kinda forgot about my phone, sorry

but everything’s fine, don’t worry

I settled things down with her

(@Mr_Iron_Fingers added @Dickhead_Tokita to the chat) 

GiantKiller:

Again, thank God, man

Gigolo_Master:

Yeah. Okubo must be boarding the plane right now 

he'll show up later

hey, ohma, rihito is alive and well

Dickhead_Tokita:

oh alright then

so the woman’s nice

GiantKiller:

Yes, Ohma. Okubo made a stupid joke, but everything's fine now

Dickhead_Tokita: 

got it

Gigolo_Master:

and you don't need to leave the chat, man

disabling notifications if you're busy is enough

we thought you went looking for the Kure to save him or smth

Dickhead_Tokita: 

not yet, I was all confused

I didn’t know if you were joking or not

but ichiro’s fine, so it’s okay

GiantKiller:

I don’t know about you guys, but I feel really good about having a friend who can call professional assassins to help us

Gigolo_Master:

or to kill us if we annoy him enough…

GiantKiller:

😳😳😳

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

It’s Rihito, Tokita!

ffs dude

and yeah, I’m fine

but I’ll warn you guys so I don’t scare the crap outta you next time we meet

I kinda had an accident

my arm's all bandaged

a motherfucker slashed it while I was in the hood

GiantKiller:

Seriously? 😳

Are you okay??

Gigolo_Master:

oh shit O_O

Dickhead_Tokita:

better your arm than a kidney 

you were lucky

I'll leave now (not the chat)

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

you better not dumbass

and I'm not lucky, my arm's all fucked!

I might not be able to do any manual labor for the next few days

I'll leave ivan and komada in the lurch, damn

anyway, her ex-fuck buddy showed up while I was talking to her

dude was a fuckin pos, he was trying to beat her up and everything

I didn't let him, so he cut my arm with a fuckin pocket knife

then I broke his nose

that's what you get for trying me, bitch

Dickhead_Tokita:

Hell yea!

Gigolo_Master:

oh shit O_O x2

chick seems popular, just like me lmao

on the other hand, did you take care of your arm?

GiantKiller:

I guess so, if he said they sorted things out…🤔

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

yeah, like I said, my arm’s all bandaged

she helped me with that

guess that’s what you call gratitude LOL

a knight in shining armor, as they say

fuck

that sounded so fucking gay

forget what I just typed 

GiantKiller:

We can’t, it’s literally written here on the chat 🤭

Gigolo_Master:

we'll let it slide cause we know that wasn't all that happened

your arm got slashed, not your balls

and since that chick has a "velvet mouth" and everything...

I've got your number 😏😏

Rihito looks to the side with an unimpressed face. Himuro liked to act like a respectful friend to all women, but he was the one who picked up on perverted nuances faster than everyone else in that group.

Dickhead_Tokita:

🍹🍹

I can't actually drink right now

but kanami said these emojis get the point across, so cheers, dude

GiantKiller:

Haha, good one

I’m a lightweight drinker, so I’ll drink some water

But just pretending is fun 🍹🍹

Gigolo_Master:

me too 🍹🍹

Cheers to Iron Fingers, who got lucky and fucked 

…without getting too fucked up in the process! 

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

LMAO you guys are so full of shit

and to answer you, himuro

now you get why I went MIA right?

daddy was getting busy here!

she let me breath a little and went to take a bath LOL

Gigolo_Master:

holy shit dude you just said your arm is all fucked up

you should've settled and went only for a “banana smoothie” or something, if you go right for the main course your pressure would skyrocket

you’d bleed all over her floor

GiantKiller: 

Yeah man, I don't know the extent of your injury but go easy

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

but I went only for a "banana smoothie", guys

and for a "mango smoothie" too LOL

idk if she'll ask for the full package

but I can manage without pushing myself too much

don't you all say that I look like a bull?

bulls were made to be fucking ridden 🐂

Gigolo_Master:

y'know there's two ways to ride a bull right? LMAO

from above and from behind 😏

GiantKiller:

Oh my God 😳

too much details, guys

Gigolo_Master:

he's the one saying he's a bull

the joke wrote itself LOL

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

GO FUCK YOURSELF HIMURO

FOR FUCK’S SAKE

DON’T EVEN JOKE ABOUT THAT STUFF

Gigolo_Master:

you’re the one who started with that bull shit, literally LMAO 

anyway, we’re more relieved now, right, guys?

GiantKiller:

Yes, and so will be Okubo when he reads all these texts

Dickhead_Tokita: 

👍🏼

call us if you need anything

but not now cause I’m eating 🍖🍖

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

yeah, I will, thanks

and egghead's such a worrywart

tell him that I’m fine, when he’s back

he needs to focus on his press conference

if he loses that championship belt I'll beat the crap outta him

GiantKiller:

He will see the messages when the plane's staff allows it, don't worry

At least you let us know you're alive, so we're good

Mr_Iron_Fingers:

alright then 

she turned off the water

I’ll go now

talk to you guys later

…

Akane came out of the bathroom about ten minutes later, a towel tied around her torso, feeling refreshed. And she finds him sitting on the couch, looking relaxed and with his pants back up again, but his sweatshirt was still on the floor. He seemed to have loved the softness of the plushy upholstery, as he was looking at his phone, laughing to himself.

She looks at him for a second and decides not to bother, opening the bedroom door just a little, enough for her to hear his voice. She hears him letting out a tired groan, the sound of the upholstery creaking indicating that he was stretching.

"Hnnn... this porn-ish couch feels really nice..."

"If you want, I know where to find more of these, and even cheaper than this one," She says from inside the room "And less 'gay' too, since you worry so much about that."

She hears the upholstery creak again, louder this time, and was amused to imagine him jumping in surprise.

"Uh... that would be nice, 'cause the couch in my apartment is as hard as a rock, haha... and a discreet one would also be good. You understand, right? But look, this furry monster here is awesome! My back couldn't be happier..."

"Yeah, I got that, Rihito," He hears her laugh, and her hand appears on his field of vision, opening the door and getting out of the room, leaning against the door frame "And yes, there are pretty nice couches that look more sober. I've already found several, this one was just really 'me', y'know. And you can stretch out as much as you want in it," She was wearing a shirt with the phrase 'Don’t be scared, my tits are big because of my heart' written on it, and it was so loose that it looked like a dress on her. Her loose hair had lost the shape of those spring-like curls, now looking more naturally curled... and the heavy-ish makeup was gone; in its place there was only a pair of glasses shielding a pair of light brown eyes. She was still that blonde, dark skinned with well-painted nails Gyaru, but the look was completely different.

"... Huh?," He blinks, caught completely off guard when he sees her in that casual attire, without being all dolled-up... and with those glasses on her face "Uh.. jeez, is it really you? Damn, for a second I didn't recognize you, haha!"

She laughs "Well, every heroine needs a secret identity, right?," she winks at him again "Or did you think that I get all dressed-up to go to the bakery every morning? Come on, buying bread dressed like that, on top of being a waste of looks, is ridiculous."

He blushes a little at that, looking away.

"Well, can you blame me? You could've been committed to the gyaru style twenty-four seven for all I know! But it's okay, I was just a little surprised... and oh, so you actually were using contact lenses," He smiles, gesturing to her glasses.

"Well, yeah. And who said I'm not committed? It's my way of life, man," she approaches him, leaning over to look at him in a serious way, albeit not angry "And I go to work just like you saw me. This is my 'homey' look," she adjusts her glasses, looking like Kaede for half a second "Besides, it's a pain to keep adjusting glasses like a secretary, so the lenses are more practical. Why not commit to the style too?"

"Oh... fair enough," He nods, his mouth suddenly dry. Holy shit... did he have some type of fetish for women who wore glasses and was only realizing it now? That would explain his long-ago crush on Kaede... and why was he suddenly overcome with a sudden urge to hold Akane's face in his hands and kiss it, right there, on the bridge of her nose...

Holy shit, where did that outbreak of sissy thoughts come from?! He shakes his head, trying to smile to hide his embarrassment.

"But seriously, they look really good on you."

"Thank you," she smiles "I like to look good in everything I wear. From head to toe," she sits next to him, close to his good arm, and fixes her hair, sighing in a satisfied tone.

"Hehe... a total commitment, right? I like people with this kind of mindset," He leans a little towards her, smiling sideways "I'm into that too. That's why I never stopped bleaching my hair, not after high school or college..."

"Huh?," she blinked, surprised "Wait, you went to college? "

"Uh… yeah?" He turns to her, a bit confused "I majored in Business Administration in Teito University, no big deal…"

"TEITO!?," she shouts, jumping a little on the couch "Oooh yeah, that's just one of the biggests universities in the whole country, no big deal at all.. man, you're either a genius or a lucky bastard," she looks to the side "I think the former is more likely...," she raises an eyebrow smiling.

"Bro, why is everyone so surprised when they find out about this?," He snorts, grunting "And yeah, I'm just lucky, I came in last place on the call list. As I said, no big deal."

"But you still got in, man! That already makes you a bit of a badass, you know? I barely graduated high school, I even got held back a grade," she pushes him to the side, pouting a little "But that doesn't mean that, despite knowing a lot, you don't have things to learn... and that I don't have things to teach," She smiles, now looking happier "I hope you liked the lessons. I want you to become a 'Hot Blonde' from now on."

He blushes a little, again making that adorable expression of an idiot who wasn't used to receiving a sincere compliment, especially from the opposite sex. He scratches the back of his head.

"Haha, thanks! I almost got held back too, both due to low grades and absences, so you don't need to think badly of yourself for that, hehe. And...," He turns his head a little to the side, smiling lasciviously "And I liked the lessons. I really, really did. So much so that I would love to have a few more of 'em, just to reinforce the contents…"

Akane smiles, also in an adorable way "Okay...," she smiles even more, mainly because she had gotten exactly everything she wanted. A cool, fun friend, who didn't find her way of being strange or off-putting, and who also had good attributes... and who also wanted to bang her more often, of course. She then made a decision "Oh, since you gained a little bit of my trust... here," she gets up from the couch, going to grab her phone from the kitchen counter "My main number. Now you can send me a text to make an appointment, if you feel like it. Then we'll meet for a friendly Match of Kama-Sutra," she laughs at her own joke.

Rihito stares at her phone with an expression of absolute disbelief, his mind freezing like an overloaded operating system, taking a while to process what was happening.

Did... did he had just gotten a girl's number? Her real phone number, without it being a fake number given to mislead him, or a telemarketer number or some shit like that?!

Damn, he had definitely died and gone straight to heaven! His friends would raise bottles of sake in front of his grave in celebration of his success in the afterlife!

"Wow... here, take mine too!," He grabs his phone from the pocket of his sweatshirt on the ground, all smiles "This way we can keep talking. And I'm up for this friendly match. But I'll let you know that I have a great history of victories," He laughs mischievously.

Akane laughs too, leaning against him "Can I consider myself a Master, then?," She laughs louder "Alright, here," she gives him her number "I mean, you might also want to gossip about your friends to someone, or you might want to ask for tips about Gyarus in general. That's what a F.B. is for too," she playfully touch his arm with her elbow.

"F.B...? Oh, fuck-buddy!," He nods, now felling even more exultant "So we're fuck-buddies now? That's great to know, hehe. It's hard work, but I'm willing to do it," He jokes, lifting his chin a little and then laughing. And then he leans closer to her, one hand reaching up and caressing her thigh slowly. Yes, her teachings had really penetrated that thick skull of his "And of course you are a master. A master of the Leg Lock freestyle..."

She laughs loudly, her hand over her mouth "You bet! and you're going to be a master of the Hip Wrench style. Seriously, your strongest points are your hips and fingers, so don't be shy about using them. And don't be ashamed of it because no sane woman who has tried it will say anything bad about it. I guarantee you that."

He had to hold himself back from rocking back and forth on the couch, he was so happy. He tries to compose himself, clearing his throat and nodding, his hand still firmly on her thigh, "You can leave it to me, you'll be proud of your student. And yes, fingers are my ace in the hole, as you've already seen for yourself, hehe. I just want to know if the main part needs some polishing too. It turns out that we haven't gotten to that part of the subject yet, haha."

"In general, no," She says after pondering "Just the basics about not getting too carried away too soon is good enough. Oh, and varying rhythms is great. This way you can guess which one makes her moan louder. Some women cum with your pace alone but others don't, so you have to start slow. It's not an exact science, so it's really about following the rhythm of the dance. Oh, and of course, hearing “ooh, Rihito, harder” is always a great sign," she laughs again.

He laughs too, in a playfully tone "Hahaha! Okay, noted! Seriously, it was really worth it. I was pissed a few days ago, and a little upset... but now I understand that that's just the way you are. Honest as all hell..."

"Hnm-hmmm," she nods while siting on his lap, without really touching his body with hers "And honestly, I no longer have the patience to sugarcoat things beforehand, you know...? Yes, friendship, respect and mutual consent are still perfectly valid, but once everything is right...," she looks at him in the eyes, one hand on the wall behind him "It seems much more practical that way," the other hand puts his good arm around her waist, without actually teasing him. He could feel the difference clearly.

Rihito swallows a little, his throat dry again. What she didn't know was that he tended to get aroused by the smallest of stimuli... and it was better if she remained unaware, otherwise she would think he was as desperate as a virgin teen.

The truth was that he was happy to know he wasn't dealing with a woman who cared more about playing coy than delivering clear messages. He was a very simple man, after all, and mixed signals left him confused, frustrated and prone to doing stupid things that scared off the women around him... but it wasn't like it was their fault. The conclusion left him somewhat amazed.

"Yeah... I agree... and seriously, I'd give you a good shag right now if my arm wasn't fucked up. Leave it for another time, haha."

"Hm-hmm… we'll have other opportunities," she gives him a peck, then looks at his hair "Hey, can I take a closer look?," She asks; he seemed to care about his hair as much as she did about hers... 

"Oh... sure, go ahead," He nods, lowering his head to let her take a look at his roots, his hands on her hips, but not holding her in place. He seemed to be following her lead, allowing closeness without sexual overtones behind it. It was a Herculean effort, but Rihito really wanted to improve, and there was no better time to start than now.

His hair was cut messily, unruly and spiky, arranged in a classic mullet at the nape of his neck. Amateurly bleached hair could become dry and brittle, and although she concluded that it would need moisturizing soon, this particular job wasn't done badly.

"Hmmm," she evaluates "It’s… actually better than I expected. You said you’ve been doing this since high school, right?," When he confirms, she nods "Yeah, the experience paid off here, and it seems to have good fiber (gosh, I envy men's hair at this point) but you'll need to take care of it later. And you better go to a barbershop soon, you need a haircut. And also touch up the hairdye, the roots are starting to show their color. Overall it looks good on you, and since you like this style, it's better to keep it well-groomed, right?"

"Uh... yeah, true. But I had never paid much attention to these things," He comments, and she notices that he had become limp on the couch, since she started running through the strands of his hair with her fingers with long, well-manicured nails. He had even closed his eyes, his tone of voice a little sleepy "I just bleach it, go to the barbershop and tell the barber to do his thing, nothing more. I'm not a woman or a fag to worry about this sort of thing, haha..."

"That's where you're wrong...," She squeezes his cheeks "A guy with good hair is a sign of good health and care with personal hygiene, you know? Or do you think we don't notice these things?"

"... Really?," He blinks, looking sincerely surprised "I thought women only care if the guy take showers or if he has a big dick…"

"Haa-ha-haaa!," she tightens her grip "Not really, my dear. The thughs from my hood are all macho and what not, but for what?," She pretends to do that classic pose with a comb in her hair, pouting a little "Their hair looks like stone blocks, but made of gel. And it sucks. In fact, I saw two of your friends who have wonderful hair too."

"Oh... if you're talking about the tanned guy, Himuro, that metrosexual jerk uses more products in his hair than all the woman I know," Rihito snorts "And the worst thing is that it's not even funny to make fun of him, he bangs more girls than everyone in our friend group combined. But... wow...," He suddenly opens his eyes wide, seeming to realize something "I wonder if that's why he... holy shit..."

"Huhum, exactly, darling. That's why we call him Hot Stuff," she laughs, now absentmindedly working his jaw with her nails, while looking at him "And the guy with black hair too, is he your friend or is he just Butch's boyfriend? I only saw him in a pic."

"Tokita? Yeah, he's one of my friends too, despite being an asshole who refuses to give me a rematch," He snorts again, but without so much indignation this time. He was still flabbergasted by his discovery "And yeah, he is Miss Kanami's boyfriend. How he managed to get a girl like that, being such a dumbass, is a mystery."

"Oh, so he's like you?," She laughs in his face.

"What- fuck, woman, you’re awful, y'know?!," He complains with a pout "One moment you soften my ego, and the next you kick it's ass. You're a master of this game of praising and criticizing..."

"Leopards are like that... I thought you liked it," she smugs "And you also have the potential to become hot, you just need to use what you have well."

Although he was slightly offended at not being classified as one of the “hot” ones, her making it clear that he had the potential to reach that level served to cushion the blow. He smirks, running a hand up her back in an insinuating caress.

"Heh, I'll try. If I'm fuck-buddies with a hot girl now, it's only fair that I work to stay at her level too."

"Of course…," she kisses him, a little more willingly, but then she pulls away, her hand patting his face "Now let’s eat, I haven’t had lunch yet because of that shit at the salon's door. I went to grab my lunch, and then I got back only to see Mrs. Jin kicking you out."

"Oh... I kind of already ate before coming here and...," He starts to say, but he's interrupted by his traitorous stomach, which growls loudly. His face heats up as if it had been placed in a pan of boiling water "Uh... but I accept the invitation."

Shit, he always forgot he usually got hungry after sex. He sits at the counter that was the house's dining room/kitchen. The funny thing is that he didn't even need to take half a step to get to that space, it was a hilarious observation, but he kept it to himself. She picked up the bags and began to pull the contents out.

"Good thing you brought cookies. We can share my plate and then have dessert. I don't think I can cook something quick and good enough for both of us, I didn't even go grocery shopping this week," she says, looking embarrassed "I didn't even expect you to come to my house either, but I'll prepare myself better next time," her cheeks get more flushed.

"It's okay, I'll settle for just a few bites. I ate before I came here. And... jeez...," He suddenly laughs, putting a hand on his face "I even made fun of Tomori, pretending I was going to steal some cookies from that box, and now here you are, offering them to me, hahaha! Her threats were of no use in the end!"

She laughs "Seriously, would you steal my cookies? Tomori would choke you if she knew," She arranges the food on the counter "She is very overzealous with her creations, and she takes the things she does really seriously."

"No, I just said that to annoy her. And yes, that girl gets pissed as hell if you mess with her orders, so I wasn't going to miss the opportunity, hahaha!" He shakes his head, still laughing "The good thing about having a friend who's dating is that you get some quality material for your jokes."

"Heh," She smiles "There you go. Bon appétit," she put a plate on the counter, and there were a rice cake, some side dishes and some biscuits on it.

He doesn't wait for a second invitation, helping himself and eating happily. And as he promised, he takes only a few bites, more to try it than anything else.

"Hnnn... her cookies are really good, aren't they?," He comments with a smile "We usually make fun of Okubo, saying that she won him over first by his stomach before any other part of his anatomy, hahaha."

"It’s one of the truths of the world," She responds, agreeing "That saying is real, after all. But I'm terrible at cooking something like Kanami and her, so I have to conquer it by being eaten myself," she laughs, her hand in front of her mouth "I think I have other good qualities too, but when they look for my bed, it's because of my mastery of the Kama Sutra," she winks at him.

He swallows a little too loudly, and picks up another rice ball, laughing again.

"Your Leg Lock is something worthy coming back for, not gonna lie. But it's nice to talk to you too. And you're a good listener. It's something I had to learn too...," He scratches the back of his head again "I talked a lot about myself, but I heard almost nothing from you..."

"What do you want to know?," she continues eating "It's not like I hide much, either," she adjusts her glasses.

He nods, seeming to think hard... and then he asks, arching an eyebrow, genuinely curious, "Is it true that Tomori and you were rival delinquents during high school? And that you fought each other before becoming friends? Because holy shit, I thought only guys made friends like that!"

"Yes, women too. Now, you've probably never seen two girls fighting. When boys fight, you just need to separate them, and that's it. They'll probably say shit about each other's mom's afterwards, but the fight is pretty much over after that. But when girls decide to throw hands... bro...," she puts her hands on her face "They go for the fucking kill! They wanna destroy each other because other tactics didn't work. When a woman decides to fight physically, it's because things have escalated to an absurd level. Scratching, biting, pulling each other's hairs, choking, that's all we have. It's wild, to say the least."

He laughs in disbelief, out loud; the mental image was quite a scene "Yeah, I can see that, hahaha! But it's too surreal to think of that cute girl trying to beat the shit out of someone clearly taller and stronger than her. You, on the other hand, look pretty badass. I had those scratches on my back for a few days to prove it, hehehe!"

"Yeah, I've always been a Gyaru, you know? Since birth, because my skin was always tanned like this, and then I went to the beach every weekend to increase it. I hate artificial tanning, you know. And Tomori went through a phase where she was basically Satan's spawn, and she liked boys like the ones from my neighborhood, she even got a tattoo, hehe... so I think you already know the story, but still... we started liking the same boy. He acted all grown-up and cocky, and we thought it was the coolest shit ever," she blushes with embarrassment "That was when we became rivals. And yes, when I finally got a kiss from him, that crazy bitch came at me with a fucking baseball bat. I didn't let that slide, of course. We beat the everloving shit out of each other and got suspended from school for that." 

"Wow, so you don’t do artificial tanning? It's just excess melanin then, like with Himuro. In your case, it's hot as hell," He smiles a little mischievously, before continuing "And yeah, Okubo said that Tomori told him that she was unhinged when she was a teenager, but we didn't really believe it. At least until I saw the tattoo myself, one day when we were at Miss Kanami's house and she was wearing a skirt. I was so stunned that I kept staring, and Egghead thought I was ogling his girl. Dumbass almost punched me! Anyway...," He shakes his head "Fighting over boys, huh? That dude mustn't been worth it, if you became friends and he's nowhere to be found nowadays."

"You hit the nail on the head," she snorts "Especially a few days after, when we went back to school, and we discovered that the fucker had five… five!," she spreads her hand, pointing to each of her fingers "Five different girlfriends, one in each place. And they weren't just fuck-buddies, each one of them gave him a Valentine's Day gift and everything. And neither knew of the other's existence, dude was a piece of shit of the highest caliber."

Rihito, in another situation, would laugh and congratulate the guy for his courage and cluelessness. But he felt that was not the right answer. And he really needed to stop having those kinds of thoughts, if he wanted to be someone better and more interesting to the opposite sex. He simply shakes his head, his eyes bulging. 

"Holy shit, five? Is he still alive even after being caught? Where I come from, a motherfuck would've his dick chopped off for something like that.

"Oh, but we didn’t let it lie. Tomori and I joined forces and beat the crap outta him, so much so that he ended at the hospital. We caught him outside of school, so the school board didn't find out. And he didn't say anything either, 'cause a man who got his ass beat by a woman would become even more of a laughing stock back then. But we gave him a black eye and if he hasn't had a child to date, it was because Tomori was the one who hit him in the nuts with her trusty baseball bat. Then after that we went to drown our sorrows at a Ramen restaurant. We've been best friends ever since."

He sees when Rihito shivers, closing his legs tightly, a hilarious expression of horror taking over his face, which has turned pale. 

"Holy shit... I will never make fun of that girl again in my life. And I'm going to warn my pal about that too, damn it... but anyway...," He swallows hard, laughing with a certain nervousness "Friendship forged in fire, right? Few bonds are stronger than that, hahaha. I should've imagined it, but when she told me about you, the first image that came to my mind was of someone as tiny and cute as her... I'm glad I was wrong!"

"Hahaha... I can be cute too if I want," she smiles, adjusting her glasses out of habit "But my cuteness is much less... cute than hers. But we share many common tastes too. She and I love dancing, playing baseball (it's fun), going to the beach, going out shopping or to restaurants... one of our favorite pastimes when we were teenagers was buying clothes at thrift stores or getting materials to  customize our own clothes. I still make my own to this day."

"Heh... yeah, I can’t deny that I thought you were cute when you were patching up my arm. It almost made it worth getting razored. Almost," he hardens the biceps of his good arm, the muscles becoming even more prominent "But otherwise, these are very feminine, normal pastimes. I even think she helped you choose that pink monster back there," He indicates the pink couch in the living room with his thumb.

"Hahaha, no, I chose it myself, but Tomori was with me at the store. That's when I got this apartment. Of course, we went to furnish it straight from the thrift store. Usually in stores you only find standard, boring things, but in thrift stores there are even custom-made things that people throw away on a whim, still in excellent condition. I just had to clean it, and then it was brand new. Now it's my favorite furniture."

"Yeah... it kind of became my favorite too," He gives her a wink, smiling naughtily "That vintage, 'straight out of a porn movie' couch..." 

She laughs "Yeah, if you think like that... and as you've seen, it's pretty comfortable. But anyway... you know where I work, but what about you? You majored in Business Administration, so you're probably an office guy, am I right?

"Nah, I actually work at a fridge. Have you heard of SF Cold Storage? That's the place," He smiles "It's me and two other guys, just earning our daily bread and working out a little after the workday is over."

"Never heard of it, but maybe one day I'll pay you a visit," she nods "And wow, you're actually a pretty decent guy. I was prepared for anything, I knew almost nothing about you, and it's always good to be careful around these parts. But it's not like this is the middle of hell, it's a liveable place."

"Hey, I try! If I were to live solely on fight commissions, I wouldn't have enough to cover all the bills. And trying to be nice isn't a sacrifice, c'mon," He scratches the back of his head "I'm a perverted bum, but even a perverted bum has to know how the real world works... and seriously, be careful, okay?," He looks at her, suddenly worried "If this place is as dangerous as you say, you have to watch for fuckers like the one at the salon...

"Nah, he was an odd case, and I know how to take care of myself. I've lived here for years. Eight, I guess... yeah, something like that. And I have some friends here, from my high school days. Didn't I tell you I was a delinquent? Nowadays, these friends of mine are hard boiled thugs. They didn't even finish school, but everyone around here knows who I am. In fact, the jerk you beat the shit out of was one of them, but he had been kicked out of the gang when he tried to force himself on a random chick. The gang leader was fucking pissed, he was out of line with their principles. And as he was my fuck-buddy before that, he thought I wasn't in the gang's 'no touch' list and decided to try his luck. Thank fuck he found your fist instead of my mouth, hahahaha," she laughs devilishly "No, really, thanks for that. That bastard thought I would want swaps after I got rid of them... "

"Damn, girl... that's some crazy ass story," His eyebrows were high up, very close to his hairline "And it's a good thing that son of a bitch was kicked out of that gang, because me beating him up could cause problems for you... and for me too, now that I'n stoping to think about it," He blinks. And then he shrugs "Eh, fuck it, I can take care of myself too. And you're welcome," He smiles again "Again, it didn't cost me anything other than a few days taking care of my arm. Although the Hairspray Squad in that salon could take care of that fucker and leave him in an even worse state than I left him in."

"Yeah, you bet. We came together for that very reason. Like I said, decent men are in short supply here in the neighborhood," Akane sighs, and then smiles again "That said, I'm happy you came. I got a fuck-buddy and the rest of the day off. I think I'm going to buy something at the supermarket and take care of a few things... since...," she looks at his arm "I'm going to have to settle for just foreplay today."

"... You know you don’t need to, right?," He suddenly leans towards her, his gaze lewd "Since I'm playing the student and you, the teacher, we can continue in the same way. I promise I'll behave and stay quiet while you have fun with me," He smugs, showing those “little fangs” again "If I'm your fuck-buddy now, I have to play the part accordingly, hehe."

"Oh, but today’s lesson has already been taught," she pushes him back to make him straighten up "And look, can I be honest with you?," She cuckles in a sudden fit of shyness "I don't think I'll ever want to keep doing it the whole night long again. Not that I didn't like it, quite the contrary, but I was a wreck the next day, and I really don't have the stamina for that," she laughs coquettishly again.

He blinks. And then he laughed heartily, practically swelling with pride right before her eyes.

"Ahahaha, sorry about that! I kind of forget that not everyone has the stamina of a fighter. But remember that it was you who asked for it, and for an encore the next morning. I only met the demand," And again he goes to touch her thigh.

"I know!," she laughs again "I thought I could handle it, and I actually did, c'mon. And you must have seen that I was on a roll, even more so after I saw the whole package, if you know what I mean. No, it's not just your dick".

He laughs even louder, and she's surprised when he grabs her, his arms around her waist, and brings her close to him. But she realizes that he wasn't groping her or getting too carried away. It was a bear hug, pure and simple. She gasped for a second, her eyes wide and her glasses misaligned, but she calmed down when she noticed his intentions.

"Yes, I saw it, and it was that night that I decided I wanted to see it more often, because I also was on a roll because of you! I take back what I said at that time, you hit hard, but you know how to care for wounds a lot more, hahaha!"

"Oh, of course," she smiles "We hit to correct and we care to conquer, that's my ninja way, after all...," she laughs softly at the reference. And she stays quiet, still blushing, while he hugs her. 

"... Did you just quote Naruto at me? Really?," He stares at her, then laughs again "But the reference was good, I'll give you that, hahaha! And you can hit when you need to, as long as the caresses at the end are pleasant... and...," He then realizes the situation they were in, with him grabbing her and keeping her pinned against his chest  "Shit, my bad. I forgot again," He let go of her, all awkward."It was just a hug, I swear."

She pulls him back, but only to lightly bite his nipple. "Rawn," and she lets him go when he jumps, smiling to herself "We're even," purrs, adjusting her glasses.

He touches the area where she had bitten him, dumbfounded... and then he opens a huge smile, his slightly sharp teeth practically sparkling "Oh, you fuckin' minx... I'm going to have so much fun with you from now on, just you wait..."

Next Chapter Here

[theviolettulip]

Yesterday was awesome.

Why, you may ask?

Because I spent 11 & a half hours binging one of my childhood book series - The Tyme Series. And today, I (unfortunately) concluded my binge.

So. Let's talk about it~

Starting with "Grounded", here are some of my thoughts/feelings in no guaranteed order, tho ill try to be chronological:

OH MY GOD SO MANY HINTS!!! I already knew I'd enjoy this reread cuz of how CONNECTED these books are, so I'll have fun noticing the hints & foreshadowing, and BOY DID I! I can't count how many times I struck the guy & butterfly meme pose and was like, "is this foreshadowing?" ESPECIALLY with the way Witch spoke to Rapunzel in the beginning & Prince Frog's actions

Rapunzel's....not UNPLEASANT, per se, I actually still liked her and felt sorry for her, but in the beginning she's just really brainwashed and does and says....unpleasant things

When Jack showed up I got SO EXCITED!! Also when he goes "I literally told you yesterday--" and gets cut off, I actually squealed and took a sec cuz AHHHHH I LOVE THIS SERIES AND PLOT SO MUCH!! her memory loss plotline is soooo good. BUT! I'm glad she doesn't forget Jack any more times

They did NOT like each other at first, not at ALL! XD Rapunzel 's insults are soooo amusing, but poor Jack!

Also poor Red Fairies....come ON, Rapunzel! You don't just say "I wish your mate died" to somebody!!

You know how years after you've read smth, certain moments & details remain in your mind? One of those for me was the scene where R&J are talking about killed vs died & just death in general. I absolutely ADORE Morrison's world building!! About the countries and beliefs and stuff!

The amount of CONNECTIONS Rapunzel makes throughout the books are quite....astounding! And numerous. And she makes them everywhere she goes, without intention! (Reminds me of Monkey D. Luffy from One Piece ngl)

Ngl throughout the whole jacks tournament I was shouting "GO RAPUNZEL! KICK THEIR BUTTS!!!" And she really showed her! Tho I feel kinda bad for the woman who lost, cuz she thought Raps was mocking her when she was being /gen

SERGE! SERGE SERGE SERGE SERGE!!1!!!1!

However it pains me to say that this wasn't my reaction when Raps met him cuz I...MAY have forgotten most things about Serge beside the fact that he's Ella's godfather. Still, he was sooooo cool & awesome & I love him! (Can't WAIT to gush about him (and Jasper. yes, get angry at me and expel me to the void, i deserve it cUZ I FORGOT JASPER EVEN EXISTED!!! 😭😭😭)

Not Rapunzel later getting interviewed and ending up just gushing about her boots for half the article XD

...I am sooooo glad Rapunzel is Rapunzel and not Charlotte, I know WAAAAY too many Charlottes!

I think this might make me a bit evil but I just ADORE grieving scenes when the death is fake! And sometimes when it's real....it's just that real emotions...I really like them. So when Jack is just despiration to save Rapunzel after she gets swallowed by a tree, I could FEEL the sorrow and despair and that made me ache and also fangirl a bit because they CARE about each other!! 🥹

OH just remembered, BRUH. When Prince Frog "died" I was like -_- cuz he's just hibernating, and I thought Jack would at least know that frogs hibernate in cold weathers! and Raps using that life-breather thing that Rune gave her, OH MY GOD I just realized! It's like Tangeled's Rapunzel's magic healing hair! And then she loses the power or uses it up, like in Grounded, and because of that they can't save their partners, both of which were injured by Gothel/Witch!! =(

Another moment that remembered well and was anticipating was Rapunzel & Witch's deal and questionaire situation. And I kid you not, I legitimately started crying. Not tearing up, CRYING! And I was hastily wiping off tears so I can keep reading. That last question was the straw the broke the camel's back--

"Do you love me?"

🥺😭

and then Envearia telling rapunzel to go get water so she can die OH MY GOD THE TEARS KEPT ON COMING!!

I think my foreknowledge added another layer to my experience. That, and my more kowledgable and experienced brain. Cuz this? This whole situation? SO. FRICKING. NUANCED! Rapunzel, she understands, truly she does, all the pain and suffering Envearia has caused, but she's still her mother. She raised her and loved her, loved her so much she did the thing she was afraid of the most. Die for her sake.

I was SO glad White didn't collect her. I would've been so pained ='(

On a lighter note, Raps's fam & Jack's fam being next door neighbors? Why is that THE cutest thing EVERRR. Just THINK of the fanfic possibilites! Of them becoming one big close fam so that when R&J tell them theyre together they'd be BEYOND excited! Plus you just KNOW Rapunzel's gram & Tess are invested in R&J, you just know it!

Anyhoo, that is Grounded's bullet list, and I was going to do the other two books here too but I am tired and I think it might be too long. I'll make them their own seperate lists, maybe just one if they aren't too long. (They'll be too long.)

OH! One last thing, do any of you know Rapunzel & Jack's ages? I don't remember them being outright stated in the books.

I *think* Rapunzel is 16ish, and Jack's probably her age. I think. Please correct me. I also have the same wonderings about Dash & Ella. I think they're 15. R&J are definitely at least a year older, but I think maybe a couple years makes more sense, so if D&E are 15 then I think R&J are 17.

Luckily, I know that Syrah is 15 cuz he says he was 13 when he kissed Deli and then a year passed and then another year passed, so he's 15. BUT he said once that he thought of Raps as his younger sis (which is ADORABLE and so sweet but I will get into that more when I talk about Transformed), but I don't think that necessarily means she's younger than him, just that she's more...childish and naive, and he's more experienced so it would make more sense for him to be the older sibling.

....I think I might be overthinking this. If you guys know anything, or have any better speculations or any at all, do tell! I'd LOVE to chat with anyone who has read this series! Questions & Comments are very welcome.

[just-call-mefr1es]

So✨

I like to imagine uhh

That

Uh

Hang on, trying to figure out how to put it into words-

Sorta hopefully figured it out :3

I like to imagine that certain ghosts (aka some Finches) don't get along with some people

Ehh screw the rant for now, Lil "chart" thing (not a chart but screw it.)

Using my favorite Finch member, Calvin!! Mostly because I don't wanna write for uh, the whole family so you can add to this if ya want ✨

Who he dislikes after death:

Edie (only because he thinks "if she wasn't careless, both his and Molly's death probably would've happened.")

Sorta Sven (because y'know, who tf builds a swingset NEAR A DAMN CLIFF-)

Kay (I forgot she existed tbh) because technically, she left Gregory alone in da tub (oh and the whole carpeted bathroom, yuck)

Now, who does he interact with the most after death?:

Gus! He was the first person Gus seen after dying (Calvin has actually tried to stop him from dying, as he knew Gus's death would probably impact Sam).

Molly, surprisingly they got along well. He's usually Molly's go-to for dressing up whenever she's bored af

Barbara ofc. Due to barb being stuck in the house, they would only look at each other thru the windows.

Sam, once he died. Will not elaborate.

Walter. When he found out about his death, he instantly went to look for him. Once he found him, Calvin immediately hugged him

And many more but I'm lazy.

I'll leave it at that for now, I gotta reblog smth

wooo ghost finches‼️‼️‼️ love it‼️

overall i do agree witn these (sits up so i csn type) calvin kinda being a bit angy towards sven does make sense, since why the hell would yu build a swing next to a cliff like dude ily but huh. i really love the thought of calvin and molly haging out:33 its such a cute lil neat thing to picture^^ DONT GET ME STARTED ON WALTER THST SHIT MAKES ME WANNA CRY😭😭 i love them :333

[nibwhipdragon]

Shin for the blorbo ask game :)

Heuhueeuueueueu thank you for answering my wishes Kirsten. I can talk about this Normal man for Ages. You're so real and awesome and true for this. Love you <3

The reasoning for some of the stuff I've put down on here is so intricate I have to explain it (especially since you have not played yttd. Or played ytts yet as far as I'm aware). Actually thinking about it I'll probably vaguely explain the rest because of that. I'm sure you'll enjoy it. Rant under the cut :3

FUCK THE WAR BAR I FORGOT. IMAGINE THAT IS AT MAX WITH A BRACKET SAYING "DEPENDENT" NEXT TO IT OK

Food is very low because Shin canonically can't eat much food. Most food destroys his stomach so he doesn't really care for feeding himself too much (even though he really wants to put on weight, seeing he is severely underweight at 49kg. I think normal weight is like 53kg or smth like that. God). Though he DOES seem to really like the food he can eat (only soup, really) , so that's another reason as to why I gave food a one on the bar. If he could actually digest food properly he'd definitely be a food person.

He's very disabled (chronically ill ver.) coded, and he's very weak and usually exhausted/can be exhausted easily. So his sleep is at max because he very likely sleeps a lot due to it

Sex is none due to the above reasons. Sorry. He would go into cardiac arrest if he were to have sex and that isn't even a joke. Most sexless man ever

Pals is a middle on the bar. Because he has no friends, BUT. When he cares for someone he ends up caring for them a Lot. As well as that he does care for Midori a lot, actually being upset over his "death" iirc. However I have very much deducted points off from that one, simply due to Midori's abuse towards Shin. Midori used Shin's personality to trap him within their abusive relationship easier, so I'm not fully counting it as some of that is definitely the abuse speaking (iirc he also said part of him was somewhat relieved to hear the news).

Love is also high, because when he cares for someone he cares for them a Lot. Kanna, for example. Ended up getting accidentally attached to her and it caused him to abandon his plans to escape the death game alive because if it did that it'd kill her. I can speak a lot about their relationship (I find it so upsetting he never learns that Kanna was his little sister he always wished he had the ability to see. The fuck man) but you know like nothing about her so I won't here. It's only just come to my attention the template probably meant love as in romantic love seeing there was a pal section. But I don't care.

Due to his relationship he develops with Kanna (and how he's so desperate to save her) the war bar is entirely dependent on which route you take, Logic (kill Kanna, Shin lives), or Emotion (kill Shin, Kanna lives). In Emotion Kanna lives and Shin is happy because that's what he wants, not caring that he's going to now die because of it. In Logic though. Shin was paranoid of everyone betraying him the entire death game. And in Logic, once he breaks down his walls and becomes vulnerable, just to try save Kanna, they end up killing her because it's the logical thing to do. Betraying him like he was fearing. And ofc he gets mad, not just because of the betrayal but also everyone voted to have a 13 year old die, What the Fuck. And he becomes hellbent on killing literally everyone there as revenge. Hell, not soon after the main game, he ends up making the Joe AI "evil" to traumatise Sara even more, to the point she forgot Joe completely to cope with it all. He's very much got war as a priority in Logic route.

Crying is very low because that man suppresses so SO much ("Sadness...? I don't think I can make that feeling anymore." And him later on being distressed and upset over Midori being Midori. Wow, someone is a chronic liar!)

Shin is canonically great at things like coding and hacking so I don't think it's out of place for him to be good at videogames. It's also why he has cracked account and such ticked off. Bad Internet is ticked simply because it feels in character.

His kill count. I know he killed Joe. Not with his own hands but he set up the events that caused Joe to die with the intention of getting him killed so I'm counting it. For the life of me I put 2 down and I can't think of the second one. Hmmm. Well. He does kill himself in many meanings of the phrase. So maybe that's it. And ofc the so far is there bc yttd is not complete yet and it is subject to change.

I wasn't too sure what was meant by "moon" or "sunshine" so. I was stumped. UNTIL I remembered the official translation notes.

His surname is moon related. And Sou Hiyori's surname is sun related. How good for me! He's mostly on the moon side (because this is Shin here) but not fully there due to the whole personality and identity stuff that occurs.

He is a fruit because he's certainly not meaty. All I have to say on the subject tbh

Just giving a heads up as I can't add another cut. But one of the images I'm gonna use very soon has some blood in it. It's not too graphic but I wanna make sure I don't jump you with anything you don't want to see <3

Ticked him off as dead, not just because he dies in one route, but he (technically) dies in them all. I refer back to the Logic and Emotion routes. Look at this CG for the Emotion route.

He is wounded fatally because this is the route he dies in ofc. But I bring to notice that he has no scarf in this CG. Now look at the Logic route version of this CG.

Very upset and mad here as you can see. But he also has the scarf. Idk if you caught on to it (only bc you haven't played the game, this is blatant in game) but that's actually Midori's scarf originally! Shin started wearing Midori's scarf after he died, which is why he has it (this is just to clear up questions you may have). Yknow. Midori, the original Sou Hiyori, the evil and abusive and manipulative man, the man whose personality and identity Shin took on to protect himself in the death game. The Emotion CG lacking the scarf shows that he has finally let his walls down, is Shin Tsukimi, his real self, and he dies that way. The Logic CG having the scarf shows that though he may still be alive, the personality, the REAL Shin Tsukimi is dead and long gone. He's been betrayed and horrifically traumatised and so that "weak" personality has been completely discarded in favour of a "stronger" one, Midori's. There's also Shin AI, of which there was technically 2. One on level 2 of the death game building, not a proper AI due to only being there to give info on his character (the 2nd trial was about trust hence why this was a thing). Shin smashes that Shin AI's monitor on secret before anyone has the chance to discover it to conceal his identity. A form of Shin Tsukimi dies. Then there is the other Shin AI – this one is the one people are very most likely referring to when talking about Shin AI. He's a full-on AI of Shin unlike the other one, with his memories and his personality pre death game, kept on a computer in the level 3 computer room for Midori to play around with (Shin can't escape him no matter what...). In both routes, he's the only remaining version of Shin in existence. And though he's scared and reluctant to help the gang at first due to Midori, eventually he does help! And of course once Midori finds out. Punishment. Said punishment was deleting the Shin AI. Slowly. So he could feel the pain of being deleted and the fear of death (he begs Midori to stop and reverse the deletion saying he'd be good and listen to him after and was saying he was so sorry it actually upset me so bad). And so Shin AI, the last version of Shin remaining, dies. And then there is no more Shin. He is ridiculously doomed by the narrative. Ough...can you tell I'm normal over him.

And of course. He's haunted. By Midori especially. Haunted so much by him that he takes on his identity and personality as a form of defense. So haunted that after his death Shin decided to search for him (iirc), "just in case", despite their relationship being so abusive (yeah ik abuse victims are like that for very good reasons. Abuse does Things to you. My point still stands). He even has a manifestation his trauma have Midori's personality iirc (Shadsou) to help make sure he keeps himself on this track of being Midori in case he slips up. Haunted in so many ways...

[junior-high-rui-official]

// long post ahead. less explicit angst than usual but there is cyberbullying + workaholism involved. also Rui being on his gifted kid bs.

Rui lets out an exhausted sigh. After a certain point, everything became a blur. He remembers crying to his brother, remembers breaking down in front of Nene, and beyond that, everything's a blur... entering the hospital, vitals checked, some patronizing remarks, a nurse up his ass for a while...and finally, it was dark outside, and he could be left alone.

His head hurt. His feet hurt. His legs hurt. His stomach hurt. His chest- god, his fucking chest hurt.

He was relatively sure he was administered pain meds that were supposed to kick in soon, but evidently they hadn't yet. So...

He reaches for his phone to pass the time. He toggles on just about every screen filter - this wasn't good for his eyes, he knew, but he was in the hospital with a broken rib, he had worse things to worry about than some blue light.

He opens a social media app he forgot he had, he'd downloaded it only to follow a certain account that posted robotics materials, and never deleted it.

He scrolls.

And scrolls.

And scrolls.

Mind drifting, eyes blurring out, this is just something he's doing with his hands at this point, he's not even retaining let alone looking at anything he sees-

until he happens upon a picture with a familiar face.

[Ah...that girl...]

[...yes, she's one of many that bothers me at school...]

He scrolls past the photo, but he stops.

[... I'm going to be stuck here for at least a week. In that time, my grades... Oh, and we had that big history project coming up...]

He scrolls back up, then clicks on the account. Scrolling through it, various selfies confirm this is in fact the person he thinks it is.

Several moments of hesitation, and he clicks the "message" button.

類: < hello >

[xxx]: < ??? >

[xxx]: < who tf lmao >

類: < it's kamishiro >

類: < we don't talk but you do know me >

[xxx]: < how tf did you find me on here >

[xxx]: < stalker shit tbh >

類: < i came across a selfie of yours >

類: < i have a question >

類: < more like a favor to ask? >

[xxx]: < bro what >

[xxx]: < we aren't friends im not doing shit for you >

[xxx]: < fucking weirdo >

類: < i know >

類: < you're the first person going to [school] I have contact with though >

類: < whether you know this or not i'm unsure but I've been hospitalized >

[xxx]: < LMAOAOAOAUDHDHSGXBJCHX >

[xxx]: < FOR REAL??? >

[xxx]: < why do you talk like a victorian orphan boy >

類: < i need my paper assignments for the next week or so >

[xxx]: < what the hell?? >

[xxx]: < fucking nerd >

[xxx]: < no lmao >

[xxx]: < go talk to your other fucking >

[xxx]: < weirdo friend or smth >

[xxx]: < why would you even think to message me. you're so fucking weird?? >

類: < mizuki's suspended >

類: < they wouldn't do it either way though >

類: < I know it's an unusual request to say the least >

類: < blame the impulse on the pain meds >

[xxx]: < i hope you fucking stay there fr >

[xxx]: < we definitely don't want your wackass back here >

類: < if you bring me the assignments I'll do your homework for you this week as well ? >

類: < or your friends' >

類: < the hospital isn't far from school. it's not like they're going to fact check whether we're friends or not. you'll just have to say you're delivering me something >

[xxx]: < omfg >

[xxx]: < ok fine if it gets you to quit yapping >

[xxx]: < if you fuck up that homework though I'm not gonna be pleased >

類: < i anticipate this >

類: < thank you >

[xxx]: < yw i guess >

[xxx]: < now leave me alone >

Rui does exactly that, closing the app and shutting off his phone...as he tries and fails not to internalize his classmate's unsavory remarks, he lies his head down and lets tears fall once more.

[ralexsol]

I have decided to keep Tumblr updated as I re-watch... The Adventures of Puss in Boots! A glorious return to a show that cemented itself as the most controversial love in my history of loved media. Do I even love it? I'm pretty sure I skipped an entire season and a half in the middle because none of the episodes looked interesting! The show's last-second ending is permanently marked in my mind as the worst ending ever written! So we shall see. I'll be tagging these posts with "#rrays taopib thoughts" from here on out, so my followers can block it in advance lol.

As of right now, I've gotten through the first 3 episodes. I'll go over them:

S1E1 - Great start, I think one of the most memorable running gags of the whole show for me was always Raúl from the Thieves Market. There have got to be countless fics I've written that have a Raúl in it SPECIFICALLY reffing him.

Also, nobody recognizing the name Puss in Boots really cements this happening in his 1st/early 2nd life. He's not yet the legend, but he's getting there.

After the Thieves Market, the rest of this episode is why every time I've tried rewatching it in the past, I never made it last episode 1. It's just... not very good. Toby is THE most annoying character ever created. The animation really, really takes some time adjusting (it is. Bad.). The jokes aren't really funny.

There were a few good things, though. Dulcinea roasting Puss to kingdom come, Puss realizing he just fucking Doomed The Town ("...souvenir?"), and the fight scene is okay.

S1E2 - Dude the Sphinx is awesome, I LOVE her. An absolute queen. Also, it made me soft when Puss told Dulcinea about how his mama used to make those crunchy almond candies for him and the other orphans, how he now wants to make them for the kids here. And Dulcinea is like "bro you SUCK at baking wtf are you talkin bout" and yet he literally makes them and they're AMAZING?? I'm emotional everyone.

I also forgot that the fucking jail is in the bar... Another incredible running bit of the show.

The quality of humor also immediately rose in this episode from the first one. Good to see! Puss sucks at riddles and also cannot catch a fucking break <3

S1E3 - This episode would've been a lot better if Toby wasn't the main focus, but if it weren't for that, it'd be the best one so far! Puss is acting his usual, arrogant, "I work alone" self. He also gets Fucking Drunk at one point, so it's great.

"She has lots of rules, like we're not allowed to ask why she's crying!" paraphrasing but HOLY FUCK that made me doubletake. Humor is on the next level, let's hope it stays that way. Same point, Puss putting up missing posters in the same spot and me thinking, "man do the animators just not want to do a wide shot or smth?" but no, wide shot shows that he has to put them in the same section of wall now because Every Other Surface is Covered With Them.

Anyways, that's it for now! Might watch some more tomorrow while I finish my pib:tlw traditional piece :)

[thedistortedfroggit]

Local Creatives Dumps Cringe Ideas Cuz He Got Inspo From Maru Togami

you've read that title right folks!

Tonight is no night for a crisis of- Well, technically tonight is a night of 'what if's considering this is a thing im going to do

But it isn't just about just ideas off somethin- well technically it is, considering I got this idea while watching an 'If I met MHA' gacha video by Maru Togami (I love their work go check em out)

BUT ANYWAY-

oh s- I just said the topic of this without the dramatics. Oh well.

Indeed! I am a gacha fan-ish, since I kinda fell out but came back just not as obsessed ig. though thats probably not a surprise if you've read any of my previous rants

'If I met MHA' by Maru Togami revolves around the gacha trend of MHA characters teleporting to the creator's house and staying for an unspecified amount of time while dealing with the crisis of not being real. and I personally LOVE that idea.

maybe I'll edit this and add onto it if I ever get more ideas for this kind of stuff. Maybe if I get enough ideas I'll actually get around to making one.

anyway— Lets start with what I like to call 'changing what makes things easy to be creative'

for this particular one, I'm going to focus on the 'house empty, all free time' aspect most of the videos on this trend have

-- ON ANOTHER NOTE; since im currently writing this while watching the 2nd part of their series

can I just say, I LOVE what they did with Shigiraki's lil existential crisis? just the weight of realizing that everything you've done was all just following a script and you have no actual control. also fallen down? mm, amazing song choice for that moment--and I swear I got whiplash from how the mood did a whole 180 after it was over

another another note; UGHFJCDJ maybe its just cuz manipulative protags are smth I just adore cuz it brings so much potential to the table-- but I love how shigiraki is basically just reduced to a moody dog on a leash after it (also love how deku is just crying in the bg and nobody comments on it xD)

can you tell im a sadist?

ooHHH--I actually like that its totally in Midoriya's character to not become like shigiraki cuz of his drive. I kinda like that since deku being kinda lifeless dog on leash is kinda common

Not to say I wouldn't squeal in joy the moment if it happens, again, sadist.

...oof wait- Is it bad that I actually forgot about Eri?

uHHH- Lets just say that im a chaos gremlin and I don't want to tamper with the child sooooo...child child be safe but I need sustenance <3

--

Back on topic! 'house empty, all free time' Wouldn't it be interesting to have this rule completely thrown out the window?

Like, the creator lives with their family that is almost always at home and school is still a thing. Ofc you'd actually need times where the house is empty so the MHA characters actually get spotlight. Maybe when the family is off on a mall trip? Maybe visiting other family for a few hours?

Its kinda funny to imagine a small group of MHA characters scrambling to hide while the family is around.

What else? What else?

'segregation/immediate trust' This goes for both the creator and between the characters themselves

Theres some of the trend where the MHA crew is chosen out of favorite characters by the creator (I'll be honest, if I were ever to make one of these, I'd use characters that would stir up the most drama--like kurogiri and aizawa for example)

Although probably annoying since If I ever saw it done incorrectly. it'd probably just make me go "get on with it you bafoon, hurry up"

But I'd still like to see what would happen if the MHA crew were a bit sceptical of each other and this random quirkless kid who appearently owns this house they're in and wont let them go outside

Speaking of going outside! 'most, if not all action, stays inside the house'

I vote on letting the MHA crew out the house! Do I know its a bad idea, since weebs were everywhere? Yes. Do I care? No. Because drama and trauma (ooh that rhymed) is my bread and butter

(for the record, I know there are some series of this trend actually has the MHA crew going out the house--but I'll still talk about this)

Since pretty much all MHA characters except Aizawa and Izuku would be ok with basically quirklessness (assuming that their quirks arent working in whatever pseudo-world the Creator decided to plop the real world in)

Actually! Forget the parentisisisisisis (im giving up on spelling) I got the idea of real-but-not-actually-real world from a line in Maru Togami's video that I.....

....tttttotally forgot what it was exactly, but what I remember was that it mentioned the creator's teleporting powers and something about this..uh- reality? series? idk something along that line

It just the idea of it really interests me What if the creator knew about the pseudo-world they're in? What if they didn't? Could the creator also be given an existential crisis with the MHA crew? Who would even present that idea to the creator? The editor?

ok following that line of thought, I had a lil vision where the creator talks to the editor, again, inspired by the little scene at the end of part 1 where the creator just stresses out over things and talked about having to edit the video

So, back to the vision: In it, the creator 'talked' with the editor. But they weren't really talking?

Think of the 4th wall as one sided glass, and the creator KNOWS it's one-sided glass..but they can't really do anything about it other than acknowledge it exists since they can't see behind it. But the editor is on the OTHER SIDE of the glass, so the editor could see everything and do what they want.

With that 'imagine this' outta the way, lets continue! The creator 'talks' and 'replies' but its more like how someone would reply to a conversation they're not really listening to yk, with 'yeah..' and 'totally' and 'I agree' and 'mmm.'

Well, thats basically what the creator is saying While the editor is just getting fed up with the Creator responding wrong--like, 'so who are you planning to traumatize today?' 'I agree'

mmrh, don't look at me- I said I had a vision, didn't say it was a good one.

anyway, where was I going with this? UhHHh. I think I already made my point...probably? I dont wanna go back and reread..so, MOVING ON!

Lets move onto another point well..

I'll be honest, its not really a point More a question, since im getting tired and its been like..idk a night or two?

Would the MHA crew be allowed to use their phones? I've seen alot(not really, but lets ignore that) of the trend make the catalyst of not causing havoc the idea of being able to gain insight about the future since its an anime and manga after all..

But, if ever they still had access to their phones and were told the name of their anime—actually no, even just the knowledge they're an anime

Once they get over the fact they aren't real over here, and a simple search of their name with a few clicked BOOM! there's their future and everything else they could find on a simple google page.

...

eeeeehh Im tired. Maybe I'll update this when I actually get more points Maybe I'll actually be serious about the tags

Maybe I'll get over the fact I put a time limit on my head since I asked the person-creator who gave me alot of inspo on this whole thing cuz guilt without reason is a hobby

who knows? all I know is that im going back to reading immortal no filter izuku crack fics sleeping. Going back to sleeping. yep.

:DD take a coffee if you're actually still here☕ Have fun on this night. or day. or morning. or--

yk what, have a good mutually-neutral-time-in-your-region!

[noodleodoodleo]

Popping in my heart

Chapter 1 Sho-chan... also, it's funny seeing the live 2dmodels in suits and stuff but the dialogue says he just woke up. So now it seems like Shosuke sleeps in a full suit.

Emu gets invited to the discussion awwwww

the otoris are happy and optimistic again. THIS is why I don't agree with the "the Otoris are a bad family" idea. same with Kanade's father. He suffered immensely and despite how he may have felt, he still tried his best for his daughter, even if it didn't work out that well.

Emu is just a neverending well of ideas... yep Emu seems very undiagnosed adhd

Keisuke is so sweet. He is open to her ideas and has a proper discussion with her but also understands that she is 16 and wouldn't necessarily always think of the actual resources needed. She provides ideas and inspiration and the older brothers adapt/take them into account to improve the theme park. Keisuke did say that he needed Emu for a different perspective on things, which she is providing. Also, he's so gentle with Emu.

Emu it's ok not to know everything about the company your family runs, you are 16 years old.

I wonder where is their father? He is one of the owners but does he not do anything for the park or is he just the guy with the money or smth else? How do companies work? I'm not rich enough to know this stuff... T-T

Emu it's fine not to know, I reiterate you are 16 years old and have no experience yet, emphasis on yet. This knowledge and intuition comes with time actually working in the management of the park. They JUST allowed you to know about these things. It's fine.

Shosuke just teach her. You can never know too much and having someone with many skills and specialities is really helpful even if they don't directly work in that field. Stop being an idiot.

NO EMU SHUT UP!! THAT IS NOT WHAT HE MEANT... i hope. But no don't think like that please...

YES THAT'S IT!! While it is ok to rely on others, yes learn about business and all that stuff.

Immediately forgot about her troubles.

Chapter 2 wait... wondashow are idiots, how many of them know english?

Mr Riley is a child at heart.

Rui... what do you want to do in the us? should I be concerned...? I'll be concerned either way but still... rui... answers?

Oh no... I guess you can call turbulence... exciting... I feel you Nene I think robo-nene would count as a weapon... Tsukasa randomly running off to strike poses is gonna stick in my mind forever I feel you Nene (x2)

imagine you're at the airport and this Japanese dude is just standing in the sunlight posing and monologuing

keep Tsukasa on a leash still thinking of Saki even when being overdramatic Miku jumpscare Still never explained why they need to hide the existence of the virtual singers. The virtual singers seem pretty nonchalant about this so... They're in disneyland A performer can know about the business

Chapter 3 This Kaito is such a malewife Oh wow this background is just straight up phoenix stage, not even recoloured. ah of course rui immediately knows how the stunts and effects work ... I started reading wondashow stories so I could read the newest one from jp server and well...

That feels familar...

Emu you don't need to pay that much attention to the numbers...

Yes Tsukasa listen to Kaito you have time, take it one step at a time Not just wondashow all the characters in prsk need to chill out. IT'S FINE, YOU GUYS ARE IN HIGH SCHOOL , YOU DON'T NEED TO BE AT A PROFESSIONAL LEVEL YET.

Tsukasa... of course he knows your struggles, he was literally made from your feelings and your feeling alone mind you.

The brightest stars burn out the fastest...

The virtual singers sensed a crying child. Parent mode activated. Superhuman emu? that's an idea for an au or wild animal emu that works too

Chapter 4 True a young american child would most likely not know who hatsune miku is

Tsukasa you imbecile I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOOD WITH CHILDREN?! is this why he learned how to make children happy so that he can do his job in the white day story I feel you Nene (x3)

Emu materialized flames and sparkles this is why she's the best

You think, Tsukasa? Rui sounds like a tts

Ah so Tsukasa doesn't know english, Nene knows a little bit of and Rui is really good at it.

Chapter 5 how did they do this? money lots and lots money, you know the stuff your park doesn't have.

I wish robo-nene were here so they could tell us exactly how loudly tsukasa screamed

Chapter 6 try things out get experience with these sort of things and get help from others, yes that is how you do things knowing a few things outside of your specialty area is still good. It can widen your horizon and provide you with more ideas and different perspectives, so mixing knowledge is never a bad thing.

NO HER SMILE IS UPSIDE DOWN, TURN IT BACK AROUND!!!

Bad timing dude...

Chapter 7 why are they talking japanese in the flashback... Oh my god... emu's grandfather is so Emu (also has a weirdly Tsukasa-like vibe)

Chapter 8 YES RILEY TELL IT TO HER! EMU YOU'RE 16! YOU! HAVE! TIME!

I still don't think it's a bad idea for Emu to learn how a business works in her off time. Like yes focus on what you can do right now but don't just stay in that nieche forever, expand your horizons little by little.

Emu crams the night before an exam... I feel like no one in this game actually knows how to learn things... then again in real life and in japan especially school is just memorization and not actual learning so... :/ I hate school...

Raunosuke was a jack of all trades. This is what I mean when I say you can never learn too much. No your grandfather is like Tsukasa because he is way too loud and has zero situational awareness, well nvm Emu's grandfather was aware of the situation he just didn't give a shit and honestly, that's such a mood.

btw Rui calls Emu, Emu-kun and I vaguely remember him calling Saki Saki-kun but I'm not 100% sure. So I need to check my hypothesis of Ruil calling everyone (minus Nene and Mizuki) "kun". He doesn't use any honorifics for Nene or Mizuki. Nene cause they are close friends, Mizuki also close friends but hear me out my headcanon is that Rui stopped using honorifics for Mizuki when they told him about well themselves and in that moment rui had the choice of changing honorifics or dropping them entirely (or well, rejecting mizuki's identity but yeah no) so he thought about it and decided they were close enough that he can just not use any honorifics for them. BUT if my hypothesis of rui using "kun" for everyone regardless of gender is true then that adds another layer to the headcanon of rui fully respecting Mizuki's identity and changing his habits for their sake.

Anyway cute story, I am starting to fall in love with these clowns.

[just-some-random-blogger]

good morning, meow meow!! it must around 8:30 a.m. in your timezone and i've just finished all the tasks i needed to do *star eyes* 'i forgot to answer your ask this morning' good. i already thought i said smth wrong, shouldn't had linked those songs or idk TT glad to hear from you anytime, though! 'if you dont want to' no but i literally don't know if i even have an opportunity to do so... actually, the whole death thing is... you know, burning? it's really important to talk about it. it's hard to describe but the death is just not the thing that stops me. omg i haven't watched comebacks for.. a lifetime... srry. but it's really been a long time. 'WHO IS YOUR BIAS MINE IS JOHN' giirl give you 3 seconds to guess yourself... yeah mine too. also doyoung seems too much like me so i just LoOk and relate. 'thats so random' I FORGOT THE WORD COACH!!! hghfjjd. awful. like irl i always say every word i know while trying to cheer up smn so my friends joke about me being one of those buisness-motivation coaches. 'interesting to know you like music like that' ig it's more about hyperfixation and nostalgia. it's published in 2012 and it feels. but it's the best part for me. actually, i like 'my sea' better. but i did fell in love with noize and all his songs yeah... 'i didnt really like the song' it's ok. i was just excited to unit my two fav thins at this moment: your fics an this artist. 'i like the chorus part' AHAAH it's funny that i'm opposite TT 'i never actually imagined the first scene to be a childbirth scene' LOLL ok maybe it's me and my bad memory but it mentioned a child and a wound on her stomach so i though... 'fuck your trauma, she could die and you wont be there?' SAME!! i was a little taken aback when i've read he wasn't present during rhaenyra's labour and didn't support her after due to his trauma and was like?? you claim to love her, fuck she beared your child and you couldn't like don't pay attention to the thing that happened how much time ago? 6 years? literally dont remember even if she died, you wouldn't be there to say her goodbyes like with laena?? i'm angry now(( 'i love how were planning the ending already but i havent even made p3' lol well you asked for this and triggered my imagination, so just enjoy. i'm glad you at least like it. *proud of myself* you may or may not include it, it's just a thought, maybe i'll even have the other ones after another part(s?) i trust you to do your big brained thing. 'i started writing it' YAY good luck catmom, meow meow!! sending you all my best love and big brained thoughts through a lot of kisses!! 'wow i love it when language does that' i'm glad you love it TT i was really nervous about sending russian songs. 'i will say im not feeling making smth fluffy' ig i'm falling ill so my fluffy side craves more sacrifice so... what's going on with the lifetime... 'honestly im a sucker for plots like this' GIIRL were again the same!! i always think what if daemon had a wise present wife instead of rhae (sorry babe you were perfect) who would've made him attend all the council meetings so viserys would've thought about naming daemon his heir... thinking... thinking so much... she'd be besties with corlys and rhaenys and they'd spill some tea every now and then.... ok now i'm crying bc it sounds good for me. (winking but not really. you decide. but one day maybe...) What about dimash!! this song is in russian. a lot of artists from post-soviet countries sing in russian. it's easier to promote like this ig. dimash is not really popular in russia as i know? he's been famous for being popular in asian countries as i remember from my most active time in kpop. but he is indeed talented. his voice is amazing. i'm happy to hear he inspires you so much. he's soso good i think he should be more popular and appreciated. hope you've done good with your midterms last semester! love you!! have a nice day/evening!!! take care!! <3

GOOD MORNING LOVIE

me going through your love letter HAHHAAAH

it must around 8:30 a.m. in your timezone and i've just finished all the tasks i needed to do *star eyes*

well im readinf this at 10:13 am, i googled russian time and the general consensus is that is morning, good morning <3 HAHAH

'i forgot to answer your ask this morning' good. i already thought i said smth wrong, shouldn't had linked those songs or idk TT glad to hear from you anytime, though!

T_T plssssss T_T i will always reply to you i promise T_T i literally just forgot i hadnt done it yet you can tell me anything, link any song, i will read and listen to it all. i will reply as soon as I can always <3

'if you dont want to' no but i literally don't know if i even have an opportunity to do so... actually, the whole death thing is... you know, burning? it's really important to talk about it. it's hard to describe but the death is just not the thing that stops me.

that's fine if you cant watch it. i agree the whole death thing should be talked about, as well as other things that are quite hard to process as a human being.

omg i haven't watched comebacks for.. a lifetime... srry. but it's really been a long time.

that's fineee T_T its all fine T_T

'WHO IS YOUR BIAS MINE IS JOHN' giirl give you 3 seconds to guess yourself... yeah mine too. also doyoung seems too much like me so i just LoOk and relate.

OMG JOHNNY GIRL!!!!!!! I LOVE THAT FOR US :AS:ASH:FAHS:FSAAFAFJFAJF:JASFJASF SLAYY SOULMATES <3 AND DOYOUNG LIKING YOU TOO MUCH AHHAHAHHAH RELATABLE

'thats so random' I FORGOT THE WORD COACH!!! hghfjjd. awful. like irl i always say every word i know while trying to cheer up smn so my friends joke about me being one of those buisness-motivation coaches.

like a motivational speaker? AHAHAH it's ok i get what you mean but LOL ??? THE EARN YOUR FIRST BILLION WAS SO RANDOM HAHAHH

'interesting to know you like music like that' ig it's more about hyperfixation and nostalgia. it's published in 2012 and it feels. but it's the best part for me.

i completely understand what you mean. i have a lot of song i hated as a kid that i love now only because its a song i knew when i was younger. not that im saying you hated this song or whatever

actually, i like 'my sea' better. but i did fell in love with noize and all his songs yeah... 'i didnt really like the song' it's ok. i was just excited to unit my two fav thins at this moment: your fics an this artist. 'i like the chorus part' AHAAH it's funny that i'm opposite TT

yeah i like the 2nd song better too. interesting to know you like noize haha. i cant believe my fics are one of your two fav things T_T and HAHAHHAH it so funny we're opposite about the chorus HAHAH

'i never actually imagined the first scene to be a childbirth scene' LOLL ok maybe it's me and my bad memory but it mentioned a child and a wound on her stomach so i though...

NAH YOURE SO RIGHT THOUGH. i didnt give too much details on the first part because what was important to me was to show she was DEAD HAHAH and i thought she was like, idk, stabbed in the gut by someone mid wartime thus why Daemon managed to find a sorcerer cos he and yn were situated someone like idk the woods yeah. also in my head she was not that pregnant like full on big belly pregnant ya know. but its 100000% fine that you thought it was kind of a pregnancy death scene T_T albeit the fact again idk if i would ever write smth like that.

'fuck your trauma, she could die and you wont be there?' SAME!! i was a little taken aback when i've read he wasn't present during rhaenyra's labour and didn't support her after due to his trauma and was like?? you claim to love her, fuck she beared your child and you couldn't like don't pay attention to the thing that happened how much time ago? 6 years? literally dont remember even if she died, you wouldn't be there to say her goodbyes like with laena?? i'm angry now

ReAL 🤬🤬🤬🤬 men (derogatory)

i understand that you got trauma boy, but being pregnant/giving birth IS SUPER FUCKING TRAUMATIZING AND DEADLY HELLO??????????????????????????? men (derogatory)

(( 'i love how were planning the ending already but i havent even made p3' lol well you asked for this and triggered my imagination, so just enjoy. i'm glad you at least like it. *proud of myself* you may or may not include it, it's just a thought, maybe i'll even have the other ones after another part(s?) i trust you to do your big brained thing.

[chanting] trust in the big brain. i love all your ideas. im happy i trigger your imagination. [pats head] i'll do my best to make everything coherent and add as many ideas as you told me into the story

'i started writing it' YAY good luck catmom, meow meow!! sending you all my best love and big brained thoughts through a lot of kisses!!

'wow i love it when language does that' i'm glad you love it TT i was really nervous about sending russian songs.

you can send me alien songs id still listen to it

'i will say im not feeling making smth fluffy' ig i'm falling ill so my fluffy side craves more sacrifice so... what's going on with the lifetime...

[chanting] SACRIFICE SACRIFICE i will say tho i have some fluffy fics lines up so HAHAH but idk if p3 of waiting for a lifetime will be fluffy

'honestly im a sucker for plots like this' GIIRL were again the same!! i always think what if daemon had a wise present wife instead of rhae (sorry babe you were perfect) who would've made him attend all the council meetings so viserys would've thought about naming daemon his heir... thinking... thinking so much... she'd be besties with corlys and rhaenys and they'd spill some tea every now and then.... ok now i'm crying bc it sounds good for me. (winking but not really. you decide. but one day maybe...)

the 'sorry babe you were perfect' AHHAHH 💀💀💀💀i love the chaos. DAMN sometimes i wish i could just watch these ideas instead of writing them T_T or someone else could write it so i could fucking read T_T asflashfasfafhafash [dramatic wailing noises]

What about dimash!! this song is in russian. a lot of artists from post-soviet countries sing in russian. it's easier to promote like this ig. dimash is not really popular in russia as i know? he's been famous for being popular in asian countries as i remember from my most active time in kpop. but he is indeed talented. his voice is amazing. i'm happy to hear he inspires you so much. he's soso good i think he should be more popular and appreciated.

he is he is such an amazing artist. im glad it was in russian i totally knew that AHHAHAH lololol jk. interesting fact to know about post-soviet countries. he is more popular in asian countries i think. i hope he finds more success too <3

hope you've done good with your midterms last semester!

yeah my midterms was fine. my partner made her part too high and un-singable for herself though 💀💀💀and i couldn't save her with autotune. idk why she did that i made the key not so high and she still messed it up a/lshflas T_T RIP

love you!! have a nice day/evening!!! take care!! <3

i love you <3 i hope you have a nice day as well. i fell like i have to say i finished writing at 10:45am so idk you know what time im sending this from <3

take care my lovie. i have assignments to do now

xxx

[tokencisgirl]

that post thats like 'things in your life will get as bad as possible before they get better' literally not true for m-- welllll in 2022 i was so anxious about shit i literlaly couldnt swallow my own spit and then proceeded to reconnect with my platonic other half but here im referring to recent stuff -- e bc while Yes while recovering from my mental illness shit has made me aware of Every single time i do a bad habit/etc, it's been...pretty fine?

like, every time there IS a bad thing in my life, big or small, it's still -- this has jackshit to do with recovery idc Read my words boy -- theres still other good stuff. a whole lot of adulthood for me has been finding out that it's good and bad, neutral, that people will help if you're visibly struggling to hold smth heavy (literal) and ask if you're okay if you look like youve been crying/zoning out/etc, buttt also they might have this or that pet peeve or be inconsistent or what have you. making a phone call asking when your appointment is bc you forgot and feel stupid abt it but it turns out fine because It's That person's job and they'll probably forget minutes after you hang up etc. it's good and bad. it's pretty okay

sorry lol every single time i face any stage in my life ever as an adult it always turns out fucking fine or good or So much better than it used to be or pleasantly surprising or relieving or not so difficult after all or Hard but literally every single person around me has done it before and is super willing to help me with and tell me how to do it and that its not that big a deal etc etc etc And it makes me SUPER resentful of the adults that were around me when i was a teen that would ONLY say 'oh being a kid rocks being an adult is torture just kys before you get Old (20. they were talking about being in their 20s) lmao i wish id died rather than become an adult'

cause like i'm sorry i know a lot of life circumstances are not super controllable atp and i do wonder how much of my life being pretty okay is due to me Having Money, but everything my life has been even at the worst parts since i moved out makes me think holy fuck were these sad sacks of shit TRYING to have a shit life??? probably because they were relying on a 16 year old making Nice Posts to feel better about themselves and treating her (me!) like an angel reincarnated for it. but life gets better and better and better the older i get, the more i learn, the more people i see, the more things ive experienced, the more awful shit ive been through/done and that i learn from, the more people i hate and the more i love the people that i love, like... how the fuck does your life manage to be WORSE than when you were a TEENAGER? or is it that you never mentally/emotionally grew from whatever dogshit from your Teenage Torture Cycle and then got bills to pay on top of it :msnblush:??? /sorry this is snarky. i hate these people for making me dread a future that outshines the life i lived then in pretty much every single fucking way and every time i'm like I Want to go forward, actually, i'm excited to and anticipating what's next in my early adulthood steps of life, it's just.. man. way to be a role model in my life at the time

point is adulthood rocks getting older rocks my life has bad facets yeah but it's worth it and continuing to move and grow and do stuff and Make Phone Calls and Deliberate over how to spend my money helps me build a better life and future and not the opposite. the people around me were wrong, this rocks actually. i like to expect bad stuff Just in case but it's largely been fucking fine and where it hasnt ive bounced back pretty quick. Life is not that bad. it's worth it. i have things to look forward to. i anticipate a better and better life the more i learn and the more i step into recovery things that are so new to me now, they'll become second nature later and then i'll spend my energy healing other things that tear at me and the more this happens the less i have to suffer about and Life Good. mmmhaha