#so you guys can get some serious art from me in addition to this shitpost

[saphira-approves]

ALRIGHT Y’ALL IT’S TIME FOR THE OFFICIAL IMPLEMENTATION OF SAPH TAGGING HER POSTS

Y’all know I’m not exactly a frequent poster usually lmao, except for yesterday, so first off an apology to everyone whose dash I clogged up 😅 Below is the official list of tags I’ll be using for different categories of posts! Some of these I’ve already been using, such as my art tag.

Active liveblog posts will now be under “saph liveblogs” and, if it pertains to a class I’m taking, “saph does homework”

The final post of a liveblog will be tagged as “saph rambles”; this is also going to be my tag for general long posts.

Art will be tagged as “saph doodles”

Writing, such as fic, meta, or headcanons, and of course all the math, will be under “saph scribbles”

Math will be additionally tagged with “saph computes”

Shitposts, memes, and general tomfoolery will be under “saph causes mayhem for fun and profit”

Announcement posts, such as this one, will be tagged with “saph speaks”

Generally, I keep this blog light-hearted and fun, mostly separate from my personal life and global crises, but in the event that I do make posts pertaining to these subjects, they will be tagged with “not inheritance cycle” in addition to either “saph gets real” or “serious”

Y’all may have guessed this, but I’m not the most organized or consistent person on a good day, so if I slip with some of these—especially the liveblogging and long posts—please let me know! And if you guys have suggestions for types of posts I forgot about that I should create a tag for, also let me know! This can be an active list.

Love y’all! <3

ADDENDUM: Spoilers for Murtagh are tagged with ‘#murtagh spoilers’ for at least the following four months! Please let me know if you’d like that period extended!

[keepcopinghoe]

catch up pt.1

quick rundown of what’s been going on with me

ramo is the first guy that i’ve consistently and personally interacted with since about 2018 and definitely the first guy who actually around my age that i’ve formed a relatively close bond with. i think it’s for this reason that i’m so attached to him. he frequently described himself as an incel (ironically tho) and i think his last actually non-paid-for sexual relationship was back in 2017. so i stupidly assumed that i was the only girl in his life that he was actually close with and this delusion i think in many ways also is what build the foundation behind the inexplicable quasi-infatuation that i have now.

 on 06th june he told me about some girl that was part of his i***c*** discord which i already knew he was a part of since ages ago. i asked about her and he said she was from lithuania and that he was pissed off because some other guy was orbiting her which immediately set off alarm bells to me since there’s legit no reason to get pissy that someone else is orbiting a girl unless you like her yourself. he also said some shit to me which i think was unintentionally (or maybe intentionally?) hurtful, about how he could easily afford my prices and that i sell myself way below the market rate (both true but still). i think it’s both these things happening at the same time which particularly stung: ramo orbiting some e-girl who is involved in the same interests and hobbies to a greater extent than i am and also the emphasis that i’m a whore (and a cheap one at that) who no one would ever really consider as a serious dating prospect if they knew anything about my history.

i told him shortly after than i didn’t want to see him for a month or so, making up the excuse that it was because i was gonna be too busy. this is partially true cus i did initially have the plan to work every single day until the date of my breast augmentation/lift surgery which would be 25th june, earning like £700 a day in profit if i worked very hard. that didn’t quite come to fruition because there was some guy who booked with me that left a negative review on UKP which led to a fussilade of criticism from various users about me being a power-tripping time waster who frequently ghosted clients. this is kinda true except the power-tripping part; my timewasting is a direct result of substance abuse problems which is a direct result of whoring myself out to men that i often find unattractive. all in the preceding week (i met ramo on a sunday and this shit happened the following week).

two separate people passive aggressively threatened to send me another negative review over text, i have to provide a discounted rate to two of my regulars due to consistantly missing bookings, someone left me a negative review under my AW profile (which they did through sending a booking request that i didn’t confirm) saying that my service had declined massively over the last few months and that it was like ‘fucking a zombie’ and the final night of working on thursday (10/06), i saw this guy who has followed me under various aliases i’ve had in the past (jade/sana/etc.) and that i last meant at kingston premier inn in like june 2019. would have been a nice blast from the past in some respect but i made a stupid retarded decision to do coke with him - i then sniffed poppers which was retarded as well because poppers are a stimulant and speeds the heart up even further which i didn’t really know at the time. i then got super paranoid that i was gonna have a heart attack and kept telling the client in question to ensure that he call an ambulance if i collapsed, which i’m sure really got him in the mood. his name was james and i stupidly told him my real name. he couldn’t come and i felt like shit because i knew he didn’t enjoy himself - he told me in his mind that he had kind of ‘built’ the meeting up and i suppose it must have fallen massively short of his expectations. it is what it is.

i couldn’t sleep really at all due to the coke. i had several meetings arranged for the next day on friday with regulars all of which i cancelled. i just couldn’t continue on with the same routine of waking up in the morning feeling disgusting because i keep eating junk food delivery, doing an enema, getting drunk and just getting fucked until bedtime even though it was really good money.

i fucked around and went to chinatown on saturday evening and was feeling really happy and relieved about not having to work. i’ve figured that i can just make money after my surgeries and start again under a new profile where i don’t have any negative reviews attached to it and maybe rent out an actual apartment on a monthly basis, since it’d be cheaper than air BnB and i can set things up the way i want. i ate sweet and sour fish and egg fried rice, it was taste (ramo always says that lol).

idk what compelled me to do it but on 14th june, i looked through ramo’s likes on twitter. i think it was because i recalled seeing an obvious girl account in his likes previously - this is something i didn’t really think about at all previously but with the new information he had told me the sunday before, i ended up browsing her account which kind of led to a personal crisis. i found out fairly quickly that this girl was the same one he had referred to on discord (m** on discord, j**** on twitter) simply because there were screencaps on her media referring to the same discord and she was definitely from lithuania. i always assumed that women in these circles were lame and bland tradthots who lacked any kind of constitution beyond mindless pandering to irony poisoned scrotes and genuinely retarded wignats but i was suprised at how immediately endearing this girl appeared even to me, through the internet and as someone i have every reason to feel petty resentment towards.

her shitposts were funny and while she is edgy, she has an underlying sweet and kind disposition. her art is shit but cool in its own scrambled way. she’s also apparently only 16 so it’s understandable - i was a lot more cringe at her age and just as shit at art.

the feeling of inadequacy was overwhelming since in addition to being an actual whore, i’m super cringe, lame and normie compared to her. it made completely sense that ramo would orbit a girl like this and i’ve since completely re-evaluated my position and meaning in his life. it’s a good thing that my cope of feelings of intense inadequacy is to launch myself into a phase of hyper-productivity - i kept practicing drawing (apeing her in a way ig since i recently had kind of given up on drawing), fasting, reading, etc. to try and overcome how worthless and self-loathing i felt at being the unwitting basis of comparison to a young girl who was better than me in every conceivable manner. i even listened to msg 3.

i was in so much pain over this that i couldn’t listen to songs which reminded me of ramo (any i****c*** but specifically drug approved and also temptation) and when i did, i just felt anger at my position and a weird resentment towards him. worth mentioning than ramo had sent me a weird bootycall kind of text sometime before then which came across as really crash, so that made me feel even more devalued. 

this is already super long so i’m gonna follow up with a pt. 2 later or maybe edit.

[89tczier]

the losers and their tumblr blogs

ik there’s already a billion hcs out there but none coming from my niche hellbrain soooo

richie (tttrashmouth)

his blog is one big ADHD mess, he has a new interest every few weeks and his blog changes accordingly, though there are several common ones 

he never seems to lose many followers for it though

his original posts are funny enough that people put up with it

he’s that user that you start following out of genuine interest and then realise that you’ve already rbed a lot of their popular posts and you’re like

oh shit, i know this fool

he has tags dedicated to each of his friends, they’re usually filled with shitposts or one of their Big Interests 

eddie has two tags, one he knows about, one he doesn’t, and gets mad at richie for not telling him who the tag is for 

the one he doesn’t is full of really gay shit

stan (corvid-company)

stan’s blog started out as a big vent but it was starting to get Unhealthy™ so they switched up their content 

stan knows about richie’s secret tag for eddie and constantly gives richie shit for it like they vague posts about it all the time to get under richie’s skin

‘the intricate rituals of creating a seperate LoveCore tag for the best friend ur pining for....... like the richard siken of it all.......’ ‘THIS IS BIPHOBIA STAN’

it’s 70% bird watching stuff, 20% posts for mike, 9% vaguing about richie’s gay shit, 1% abt being nb (because i fucking CAN ok)

they also have a pretty impressive following, some of it is due to being mutuals with richie, but a lot of it is due to the Wholesome Bird Content

its a surprise to them but they get so damn happy when they receive asks and stuff about their favourite bird watching spots or how to distinguish between different subspecies 

‘i dont know who this guy is, nor do i have a particular interest in birds, but what kind of fucking person would i be if i DIDN’T follow them?’

their tag for mike is pretty cute too, usually its just FarmCore but Romantic stuff they finds, other times its little thoughts they has about them

bev (marsh-makes)

initially set up to advertise her store and products 

she makes things like pins and sew on patches that are really fucking good

she gains a pretty big following from that, people like her stuff and she has a really good quality track record

richie models for her sometimes and everyone kinda loves it

she has a lot of stuff about ethical fashion and makes a lot of posts about the problems with the fashion and clothing industries (eg fast fashion and sizeism)

she also has some quality shitposts

‘i dissociated for like five hours one night and woke up with the best skirt i’ve ever pleated and a top to go with it. my power is unmatched’  ‘op are you ok????’   ‘ye i got a kickass outfit why wouldn’t i be’

eddie (kaprisun)

his blog is pretty simple: things he’s interested in, whatever his friends tag him in, and roasting the shit out of richie

‘tttrashmouth will never be content because he knows im funnier than him’   ‘ur not wrong, eds’

a lot of richie’s popular posts are shittalk between the two of them

he also gets into a lot of discourse because he’s feisty like that, usually about comics or comic book movies

‘imagine thinking marvel is better than dc based on 3 movies’

yes he’s a dc fanboy

he’s not as anti-marvel as he can come across he just really doesn’t get the hype around it 

he Also has a secret romance tag for richie and its half stuff of his own, half rbed from Richie’s Secret Eddie Posts unknowingly (and a bit of bens)

he tags them with ‘mood’ and it gives richie a heart attack each time

mike (hearth-and-heart)

farm core!!! original farm core content fresh from the oven!!

he takes photos around his farm and posts them and ohhh everyone loves them

same energy as stan’s blog (he has a lot of photos of them and the two of them together as well)

he also writes important dates down as well as books he likes

a Solid shitpost now and then but it’s mostly Pure and Wholesome content

people love his photography and unfortunately it gets stolen a lot but other aesthetic blogs but he doesn’t mind so much

he also is the only loser other than bev with an actual Impressive theme: it’s sleek and really fits the vibe

though every now and again he’ll rb one of richie or bev’s shitposts just for a little variety 

bill (deadbrgh)

he posts horror stuff (both from other people as well as his own art/writing) and little bit of vent/rant stuff

his rants are about tropes in horror he hates (eg: ableism and other general bigotry)

his vents are usually about grief or trauma, and he keeps them properly tagged and under a cut

his horror stuff too, he makes sure to keep everything tagged properly and has a link to the tag list in his description 

he sometimes makes a Spicy addition to richie’s posts, and people are like ‘wait why does this Super Serious and Talented creator follow that goblin??’ 

he also rbs a lot of ben’s stuff, people think they’re the same person for a hot minute because ben also writes and draws, but their styles and aesthetics are totally different 

‘people thinking me and eggboy are the same person is really flattering but unfortunately im nowhere near as ripped as he is’ ‘luv u bb’

then people think they’re dating, but also think the one of them is dating bev

they never clear it up

ben (eggboy)

all of his poetry and drawings 

he also makes a lot of lovecore posts that are definitely not for beverly at All

his a few of his poems get really popular so he kinda blows up a bit and he is Unsure How To Handle it

his first haiku for bev is his most popular like people go crazy for it

where his drawings are more stylized, bill’s are more realistic and gritty

people always think he’s straight tho and he’s like ‘could a straight person do this??’ *proceeds to capture the Essence of adoration and devotion*

bev rbs every one of his original posts and hypes him tf up, they collab on a few things and bev puts some of his Iconic lines on patches

the january embers line,,,,,,, people lose it

a lot of his stuff ends up in mike, richie, eddie and stan’s respective Love tags which he finds Perfect

he writes a poem about richie and eddie’s obliviousness and they’re both just like ‘god i wish that were me,,,,,, sounds familiar tho,,,,,,’ 

[woodland-knight]

Fandom Favorites

So I’ve been in the fandom for about... Two and a half years now, and a lot has changed since then. I’ve started writing again, my art has improved, and I found something I’m really passionate about. In recent months, however, I’ve found myself questioning my place in the fandom, and to combat this I’ve decided to take a step back and recognize four of the other members in the fandom who have influenced me in positive ways.

Also to those I mention in this... Please forgive me in advance for my gushing. I hold a lot of respect for all of you, even if I seem like some weirdo on the internet.

1) Hands down, @komatsujo was one of my big first two inspirations. Her writing is fantastic, she’s not afraid to shut others down when they’re causing trouble, and I owe so much to her. If it weren’t for her fics, I honestly doubt I would have become invested in this fandom and floated off somewhere else. I often credit Covered in Daydreams as the reason I started writing again, and that’s honestly because it inspired me to want to write something just as good that maybe one day she would read! It’s been a huge push for me in terms of trying to improve my writing, even if I still struggle here and there. I wholeheartedly recommend reading through her fics on her writing blog (though as a warning some of them are NSFW), especially since there’s something for everyone. I personally stick to her Tiznes and Rindea works, but she also writes for Crystal Crew for those who ship it! Seriously, you guys should check her out. Give her the love and the support she deserves!

2) Now my second big inspiration is @chibimonki! When I first saw her art, I was absolutely blown away by how great it was! I was so astounded by it, I knew I had to commission her when I got the money! I saved for months before I was finally able to, and I still have the finished pieces hanging on my wall! The reason she’s such a huge inspiration to me though is because of how kind and encouraging she’s always been. She always leaves kind comments on my art and about my fics, and whenever I’m not feeling great she always asks me what’s wrong and tries to cheer me up. Along with being a great artist, she’s an absolutely great person, She’s always pushing me to try my best, telling me how much she loves my art, and has even helped push me into making merchandise! I definitely encourage going to her twitter and liking/retweeting her art and liking/reblogging her art on here too! Consider dropping a comment or even commissioning her too! She’s such a sweet woman and I can only wish her the best.

3) Another inspiration to me that came a bit later has been @teamlobster. Her art is cute, colorful, and makes me happy every time I see it. I’ve followed her art for a little bit now, and hands down I absolutely love the sets she does. Her design work is great, and I love seeing her interpret the Bravely Characters (and even original and FE characters too!) in her own way. I strive to one day have design work as good as hers and post as often as she does as well! I also admire her ability to consistently get out different sets, especially since it’s not something everybody can do. She’s mostly traditional, but she’s been trying out digital as well, which is just as neat to see! Also, she takes requests!!! If you’re looking for some great art and are a bit tight on funds, definitely consider throwing a request her way! It’s most definitely worth the short wait!

4) Finally, we have the newest addition, @infinitedependencyresolution. She posts what she wants, when she wants, and nobody but herself can stop her. You want to see Bravely Shitposting? Check. You want to serious art? Check. You want to see interesting ideas of possible Bravely meta? Check. She’s got something for every fan. She’s funny, super supportive and nice, and did I mention she’s funny? I’ve gotten so many laughs from her, and she’s given me some pretty damn good advice too! If you’re looking for some quality laughs, definitely try to check in on her when she’s taking requests or doing an art meme. Not only will she deliver, but she’ll make it even funnier than you imagined. She’s the type of person to inspire to me to try and be silly again, instead of making every little thing I do on here pretty or serious. Overall, she’s shown me I shouldn’t be afraid to be myself. Oh, and you can also find her over on her personal!

5) ...okay I know I only said four, but special shout out to @harblkun bc she hops back onto the fandom boat every once in a while and is overall an awesome person. She’s funny, has great art, and somehow manages to put up with my shenanigans. Stay classy, Harb.