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worn and cherished all the same
#isat#in stars and time#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat act 6 secret encounter spoilers#even if old and worn and theres a newer and better version#even if it is not like before#even if the old memories are gone but new ones are here to take their place#loved and cherished all the same#those are the vibes i was hoping to convey#or at the very least#some form of sentimentality#yea
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Faiza performing the Kagnoma Odo (pretty literally 'lion dance'), a weapons dance and one of the more important ritual duties of Odonii priestesses. A relatively new addition to this traditional dance involves the musket as the primary weapon, which is fired mid-twirl into the ground at the climax of the dance. Faiza is experiencing an 'oh fuck' moment because her shot is more than ideally diagonal, but she’s being so cool with it.
This is a wholly ceremonial performance at the onset of the pilgrimage, performed in full regalia and lion skin (of the small, semi-domesticated strain) but no armor. It’s also distinctly a display of political allegiance between the powerful and beloved Odonii priesthood (and its loyal military) with the increasingly reviled and destabilized imperial family, with Faiza prominently wearing a bracelet of the royal serpent, which was gifted (along with the musket) by the usoma Stavis Amanti himself (Usoma is the Wardi word for king, which has been retained in the context of emperors).
The Kagnoma Odo is the ultimate demonstration of the Odonii as an embodiment of the Lion Face of God and living vessel of military might and sovereignty, demonstrating her fitness and proficiency with weapons and as a spiritual unifier for soldiers. It is accompanied by drumming and occurs in stages, running through the three keymost weapons used in war- the spear, the sword, and the musket. The musket is of the most significance, given the weapon has developed a particular esteem as the ultimate embodiment of might and superiority. Assistants (almost always other priestesses, occasionally high ranking soldiers) load and prime the musket to be fired at the climax of the dance, where it is shot into the ground as the priestess leaps out of range of the shot. The firing signals the end of the dance and the rite itself.
While not the utmost exemplar of trigger discipline, only fully inducted and senior (and therefore very thoroughly trained) Odonii are permitted to perform the dance, and injuries during actual performances are quite rare (though are known to occur during training, more than a few Odonii have burns and wounds on their feet).
The most important renditions of this dance are performed upon declarations of war and before battles (in this case, generally done in full armor along with the lion pelt). It is also done during some trainings (while a dance, it is carefully choreographed to include naturalistic maneuvers of the weapons involved and helps soldiers limber up and learn to move their weapons). It is regarded as an impressive and motivating sight and a morale booster, and, seen at a distance, potentially intimidating to enemies.
A special variant of this dance is performed as means of fully incarnating the Odomache, which is done in full nudity with the body covered in the blood of the freshly sacrificed lion and cloaked in its raw pelt (the lion has become the corpse of Odomache in the moment of death, as part of its recreation of God's sacrifice). Her public, full nude appearance once (and only once) in this act is what allows the Lion Face of God to incarnate within her. Those in attendance see the spiritually vulnerable, naked human body obscured with the sanctified and deified blood and cloaked in the sanctified and deified skin. It is a merger of the contradictions of mortality and divinity, the boundaries between the two indistinct in flickering firelight and the flash of musketfire. She is witnessed by her people, dangling in between humanity and divinity and leading them in dance, and and is thus transformed.
#faiza haidamane#Not really relevant to the core post itself but I don't have anywhere to put this#Faiza is a pretty extreme cultural rarity in that she's something along the lines of agnostic (regardless of her priestesshood)#It's a culturally specific form of agnosticism where the notion that God continues to exist and interact with the world in spirit form is#questioned. She personally gets the distinct vibe that God truly and wholly died in the act of creation and is no longer present#This isn't just a Her Thing it's a concept that comes up in some strains of religious philosophy but it's pretty rare#Orthopraxy is SIGNIFICANTLY more important to the faith of the seven faced god than orthodoxy so her merely thinking this isn't#a fundamental issue as long as she performs all expected rites and behaviors and etc (which she does quite devotedly) but it would#definitely not be socially accepted to openly proclaim (least of all from a senior priestess devoted to maintaining the connection of God's#spirit to Its lands and people) and she keeps it to herself.#She is the only main character who WHOLLY doesn't expect the pilgrimage and rites to end the drought. She doesn't fully DISbelieve#either (kind of like 'well maybe?') but for her this is all a very pragmatic political maneuver to stabilize the crumbling empire and#regain the people's faith in its leadership. It's not fully cynical like it means a lot to her but in a sense of very practically protectin#her beloved empire rather than a more spiritual sentiment.#It's very complicated for her like she takes her role very seriously and cares deeply for her faith while not actually believing#in it in any personal sense. More about what it represents to her than what it's supposed to literally be.#the white calf
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rewatching a gameplay of Bioshock Infinite reminded me that I had once a goofy ahh steampunk/fantasy au for Aardman universe. I posted earlier about it here on my old blog -> https://www.tumblr.com/trouser-consumer/741733919149473793?source=share
basically an AU where everyone is either a steampunky human or a supernatural immortal creature. The Super Smash Bros rosters being these:
Mrs Tweedy = ice queen, her heart is frozen and she drains life from living creatures cuz it helps her Feel(TM). Does not care how many innocent people she hurts in the process yippee. Also Ginger once defeated her and banished her for years, and her ego is hurt because she let a mere human destroy her
Mr Tweedy = fire king (they are divorced lol and he has retreated deep underground to dwell in loneliness)
Dr. Fry = The Sandman, currently allied with the ice queen in destroying the world simply because it's funny
Reginald Smith = a rancid capitalist human businessman who ended up accidentally allying with the Sandman and Ice Queen (doesn't even remember how it happened but there's no way out)
Lady Tottington = Mother Nature, she does her best in keeping the land and its creatures alive during these trying times </3 also trying to ward off Lord Quartermaine (who is either just a stinky ass human nobleman or Lord Death himself, havent decided yet)
the chickens = A peaceful farmer village that is also not afraid to fight literal gods :)
Wallace and Gromit = a couple of steampunky inventors just tryina make a living and help people with their goofy ahh inventions
#aardman#wallace and gromit#chicken run#pirates in an adventure with scientists#pirates a band of misfits#gromit#lady tottington#wendolene ramsbottom#ginger#mac#rocky#mrs tweedy#mr tweedy#melisha tweedy#willard tweedy#myart#yes Totty's design was heavily Hercules inspired LOL#god i love aardman women#Totty x Wendolene is a ship i wanna indulge more in cuz i love me some bri'ish sentimental high femme lesbians#and yes this AU also includes Willard x Wallace in the form of mortal Wallace rizzing up the god of fire LMFAOO
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people who write these posts and then tag them under the squid game and/or the 457 tags:
- "i'm smarter than everyone in the squid game tag because i don't ship 457" - "reasons why the 457 ship sucks actually, and you suck for shipping it!" - "people who ship 457 are gross"
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#just some sentiments i've seen under the squid game tag#i don't careeeeee what you think lol#and this is coming from someone who doesn't really ship 457#feel free to form your opinions but don't tag them bye#squid game#squid game 2#squid game 457#hwang in ho#seong gi hun#gihun x inho
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Riz has counted four casseroles this week alone. Five, if one goes by the method of cooking, but Yelen's scary when she's crossed, and calling her burek by its proper name is important to her, so Riz does her the courtesy and doesn't include it in his mental tally.
He holds the tupperware over his head to keep it out if the way as he takes careful steps over the piles of notes in his path. The dockman case just closed, relevant documentations handed over to relevant personnels, evidences dealt with as needed; all he has lying around now is just record of the process and traces of himself thinking through it. Unsurprisingly they still haven't invented a surface more convenient for people under five feet who like to pace to put pieces of paper on than the ground.
Actual records go into the case folder with the other documents. Anything else with at least one side still blank is going to the school kids in the block - they chew through an astounding amount of paper just learning arithmetic. The rest is for the recycling basket.
Later. It's his mandated lunch break right now.
Riz sits down in front of the corner file cabinet. In an office often overrun with papers and strings and sometimes even thumbtacks, he's never really managed to clutter up this exact square of surface like every other ones. Ever since the bottom drawer rattled for no discernible reason a day long past, his eyes have always just kinda decided to slide across the space without acknowledging it.
It's years out, now. Riz doesn't know why he thought it such a big deal anymore, back then. He wasn't scared, he doesn't think. Not anymore. Maybe just uncomfortable with the idea that certain things persist despite all efforts to change.
He opens the tupperware. Dame Carabelle's experiment greets him with enough spice in the aroma alone to knock out a small mammal. When he chopped the vegetables for this casserole he couldn't really imagine the eventual heft of it, evident even through just these few ladles' worth, maybe weighing heavier for being still warm. His folk eat more through the smell and the textures and the aftertastes than the taste itself. His folk's meal is really the cooking rather than the eating. The eating is the meal's end.
"Hey," he tells the file cabinet's bottom drawer. "Um."
It's the anniversary. Riz doesn't know the exact date of his dad's death; nobody currently alive does. He and Mom both use the date of the funeral, though as he moved out to Bastion and then got more directly involved with Interplanar he hasn't really been going to Dad's grave as much. Doesn't seem like very efficient use of his time, catching a train or borrowing a car or spending a whole spell slot on going somewhere he knows Dad isn't at. They're sorta coworkers now. They talk on and off every other week between missions. When he goes now, it's just to clean up the place, keeping the landmark tidy and respectable.
Without that work to mark the date he doesn't really know what it serves anymore. But he still remembers it. Still takes note, absently or not, when it comes around.
There's not really a good way to tell the drawer that. Riz looks for another way to start the... conversation, hopefully. The question at play, he'd guess, is why he's doing this. He's been pretty content ignoring all the rattlings and the knocks from inside and the times it sits slightly ajar without him ever opening it himself; hell, he still uses the three drawers on top of it. Space is fucking precious in Bastion.
Precious enough to finally fix this damn drawer so he gets his turn to use it? Riz asks himself. Is that what we're getting to? Then he dismisses the thought - he didn't manage to fix it the times he actually tried, let alone-- now. When he doesn't really care that much to.
That's probably a good place to start. "'s fine if you keep being in there, turns out," Riz says.
The lunch hours are quiet in the block, sleepy and bright with the brief window of sunlight that manages to break through roof overhangs and extended balconies and laundry lines and climbing vines. Riz's work isn't loud here (the loud parts happen away from his office, if everything goes right), but the fragment of early summer heat reflected in the steady warmth his meal still carries compels him to lower his voice even more. It makes the words feel intimate, in a way he's never been familiar with - if he says something he just says it. He doesn't whisper. If he gives his friends something, he gives it open-palm. He's found out, along the way, that people usually don't think of rituals and courtesies the way he does.
Small voice for a diminished monster. "You know why I think so?" Riz asks. "Because almost two decades ago you kidnapped me and almost killed me, and now you rattle a drawer in my office."
It doesn't sound as much like a taunt as Riz wanted it to; the drawer has made a lot of noises again this morning when he checked the calendar, and he was definitely annoyed at it. Now, though, facing it like this after cooking the whole morning with more grandparents and peers from the block than he can count on both hands to cater for a tenant union meeting, he thinks the annoyance has morphed. Changed shape.
It has the shades of something like pity. Riz is not prone to pity, and especially not at these kinda matters. It's slightly maddening that he coheres perfectly outside of this one spot. That he commands his spaces, except for a drawer.
He puts the tupperware onto the floor between himself and the cabinet. "I know we're aware it's the anniversary," he says at the drawer. "You do this every year. You make a ruckus every time I decide to go do my job instead of mooching off my friends' aircon, and every time I get an invitation to some stupid social thing I want to turn down, and every time one of the old people tries to introduce me to a child or a nibling, because being a bachelor over thirty is weird," he pinches the bridge of his nose. "I have three fucking jobs. I love doing my fucking jobs. I'm forcing funds into infrastructures. You're never leaving, are you."
The drawer vibrates lightly. It's a very, very mild acknowledgement, considering the history of reactions Riz has gotten from this thing. Riz thinks it's emanating joyous agreement, or satisfaction.
It only sharpens the pity. Riz doesn't like that, but it's how it is. That's, ultimately, the lesson he's been taught over and over and over again, just by existing as himself, turned every which way by space after space that don't see him eye-to-eye: it's not like he'd quit living over any of it. It's not like any of it can sand off these fundamental pieces of him.
He's outgrown a lot of things, he's found out. Again, and again, and again. A childhood home, a yearly trip, a monster.
"'s probably scary for you, huh?" He asks. "Because I left."
He thinks he hears joints creak that sound like you did. Probably the way a scorned lover would say it, in a movie or a yellowback. He has no more connection to the idea than he did as a kid. Less, because it doesn't even scare him.
"That's what it is, right? That it's the anniversary, and I'll never be like Dad." He raises a knee from the floor, pulls it back closer to him. Slings an arm over it. "You love to remind me. The thing is, Dad also left. He loved Mom and he loved me, and none of us wanted it to happen, but it still did. Because love does fuckall to make anyone stay on its own."
He's long past being bitter about it. It's just the facts. Once upon a time he looked into the future and the specter of his friends' happily-ever-after casted lightless, fathomless shadow over him. Love, marriage, that kind of devotion, to a fifteen-year-old with more solved cases than friends seemed so eternal. Final.
But you can only watch your friends build up apps' worth of jilted lovers for so long before getting over it.
"You know what I learned?" Riz tells the drawer. "Love doesn't make anyone stay. Project management does."
He stands up, and picks up the tupperware of Dame Carabelle's casserole, that he helped make, that he helped share with a block's worth of neighbors and members of a community he's at home with, and goes sit at his desk to eat. "Last chance to get any," he drops an offer over his shoulder as he walks away.
He doesn't eat all of his share in one go. What he's spared he leaves on the desk when going outside for a smoke break. Baron looks the exact same as when he saw them last, when he catches a glimpse; they haven't grown at all. They aren't there when he comes back inside, but the leftover has gone days-old cold, like someone's sucked the future out of it.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#this is set a Long time into the future. riz is like 32 in this one#''I will go to sleep'' so turns out that was a fucking lie#lmao I just needed to finally externalize this idea into Some kind of more final form#initially I aimed for a comic with this but ooughgoughhh I am. indisposed. unable to do that rn#and also I feel like there would just be too fucking much Riz Saying Words in that format for it to work. and I always go if theres so much#words in ur comic might as well make it a fic. and well. heeding my own advice perhaps#just been sitting on this sentiment of like. perceiving romantic relationships as uniquely permanent or conclusive#when the vast majority of people I know would hugely benefit from a divorce lmao#since watching fhjy at least. I think in a sense this is kind of my personal answer for that sticky note style comic I did way back thens#how much of that fear of being deprioritized comes from not being taken care of by the community you're in#I think that's the prettiest answer I can give for riz's deal. not one singular Special Person no matter the kind of flavour#but spaces that he's integrated in. that he has a hand in building even#okay NOW I sleep. everyone be quiet ok small voice for good sleep. it wont be a lie this time I prommy
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SHIELDING MY EYES FROM ALL THE PIT BABE POSTS BUT YOU GUYS WE'RE GETTING TOP FORM SEASON 2!!! BOOM SAID THEY'LL BE WORKING ON IT WHEN THEY'RE DONE FOCUSING ON S1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE FUCKING WON QUEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#do you think they'll be an official duo by the end of s2#do u think they'll start working on it by the time we get the fandom name#I cannot WAIT to have a fandom name you guys#we'll be like a big family!!!!!#to all my top form buddies and everyone idk and everyone whi's just on this ride for the shits and giggles#just so u know i love all u fuckers#this fandom has been so fun and joyful and aside from some slight weirdness around that one scene we hate Johnny for#its mostly just been fun silly times and we've all just been vibing#i rlly love this fandom a lot#i hope we can be together for a long time#I can't wait til we get a name <3#okay i'm done being sentimental now i hope you all have an amazing day and have fun watching pit babe!!!!#i'm waiting for my roomie to wake up so i can feed us and put it on#make sure to be extra gay about charliebabe for me while i wait!!!!#top form#top form the series
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tharja!inigo but now he’s laslow and yall know this guy, at his core hes a pacifist, he hates death, he loathes violence, he only does all of this because he has to and these are the cards he was dealth, but if he could pack it up and leave it all behind, you know what, he might just do it! but he’s also the most patient person when it comes to dealing with peri, who should be his moral opposite on every level. but he hugs her, he jokes with her, he comforts her, he supports her, he makes her smile, he reins her in but knows exactly when and how to do it without coming off as overbearing. he accompanies her to store, to her therapy gang (my fav canon fact about them btw?), he cooks with her and tells her all of her dishes are absolutely divine. maybe she doesnt deserve any of this, not after all that she’s done and all she continues to do. but whenever he looks at her and her pastel pink hair tips, and whenever she talks about how she grew up, he can’t help but remember the innocent, darling baby sister he left behind at home. his baby sister who he couldnt save from his mom or the evils of the world, who had to learn how to protect herself because he couldnt. his baby sister who acts more and more like their mom everyday out of fear and abandonment, who he left behind at “home.” he couldn’t save her, but maybe this is the universe’s sick way of letting him try again.
#ann plays fates#and then i think he sees the tharja expy and starts shitting his pants#anyways i dont actually think peri and noire are all that similar#theyre not. like at all#but i think that noire’s talisman persona is a LITTLE peri-ish#and inigo is so sentimental it can kill him#so when he meets her he SHOULD recoil in disgust#but he misses his family so bad he cant help but reach out for her#honestly in any form it takes i really love laslow and peri’s relationship i think theyre sweet#i enjoy them a lot as a couple but ive come to enjoy them more as friends#but their support chain is very near and dear to my heart#and i have been chewing the FUCK out of tharja!inigo lately. GOD hes good. hes GOOOOOOD#100% my second fav inigo ever and hes gettin real close to the top. he wont be but. he’ll get closer and closer#i think its fun. giving tharja pacifist sons. and if you walk this way with me i’ll introduce you to my actual favorite tharja son#brad— SHOT#but no i really enjoy this interpretation of inigo#idk. maybe i just enjoy giving inigo second parents that dont treat him right (chr*m. tharja. lowk been enjoying some c*rdelia!inigo and#i think that would suck for him. which means i like it)#anyways. tharja!inigo girls where are you!!!
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hello! this may sound stupid but do you think we’ll get a prequel or a book or ANYTHING related to young silco? and vander and the others? because he gained sooo many fans with those concept arts and flashbacks (he had so many fans but he’s kinda going viral) and we know netflix milks everything so what do you think?^^
Uuhhhh it's a tricky question tbh. He is popular with the fans, especially after s2, but the creators themselves tried to remove him from the events/character stories as much as possible, so I don't know if we're gonna get much content with him unless Riot requests it. Yeah, it's an important detail that Netflix doesn't really have to do anything with Arcane except providing the platform iirc.
Personally I don't want any future content with him, Vander and others if it's gonna be written like s2. They already ruined almost everything they could about him and I'd want to salvage the little bits that were untouched.
Don't get me wrong, I would love to see more Silco more than anything, he is my favorite character of all time after all, but I'm the kind of person that would rather don't get anything than get something mediocre/bad. If they want to include Silco in something it better be good, or I'll dismiss it and perceive it as a non-canon like I did with the entirety of s2.
#silco arcane#arcane#arcane critical#(i guess???)#we already got complementary content with him in the form of jinx fixes everything event and i hated it too lol#some stuff WAS good but everything that was connected to s2...yeah my irritated groan could be heard in the other part of the town#also idk if i'm alone in this but i think that silco would give “out love” record to jinx. like it's her favorite song why would he keep it#away. yeah s2 established that it was also an important song to him but he already got enough keepsakes#if his daughter loves something he gives it to her. maybe asks to be super careful with it tops.#also i don't like how they made him such a sentimental sap in general. like we saw that he kept vander's knife i don't think anything else#was necessary
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Henna not being back in any capacity in the second Mariposa movie gives me two impressions:
1). untapped potential for a 3rd movie where we get Henna reformation or some such.
2).
Mariposa: I wonder how Henna's doing out there.
Willa: ..... what if she's dead 😧
Mariposa: 😨
Honestly it's entirely possible that she IS dead; a lot of her control over the Skeezites hinged on the promise of invading Flutterfield, and we can see their patience wearing thin throughout the movie. It's possible her failure to follow through would be the final straw, and that her lights would only be able to carry her so far when her entire army is against her. I do like the potential for another sequel to tie up that loose end though, in no small part because "dramatic revenge declaration followed by offscreen death that's never mentioned" is just kind of anticlimactic. Even if it's been a decade and that ship has sailed at this point. We could've had it all. Two fairy trilogies. Also consider: The Skeezites don't seem to be a threat--or even present at all-- in Fairy Princess. They're not once brought up unless in past tense. Regellius brings up Flutterfield defeating them when that's not necessarily how it happens in the first movie(which she does point out but focuses more on the method than the outcome so it's still unclear). Yeah they succeed in driving them off, but if Mariposa's quest or the fact that they've been terrorizing the kingdom for centuries says anything, it's that there are probably way more hanging around than Henna's immediate army. I'm imagining a midquel where she manages to get the Skeezites to hold out for a little longer so she can get her Revenge Plan in, and Flutterfield deals with them for good.
#My biggest thing at the moment would just be that Mariposa specified that it never came down to a fight#so I'd have to consider a Non-Fighty way to do that. Big magic.#She does have the flutterflower so I guess traveling wouldn't be that much of a danger but that gift was framed as more for#sentimental value than for protection.#Bringing Marabella back to life restored flutterfield to its status quo but didn't get rid of the skeezites or anything.#And like yeah they have the thistleburst lights now so maybe transportation is no big deal#maybe the skeezites stopped hunting butterfly fairies when they realized they had some form of defense.#But they're such a non-presence it's still just weird. Walk with me here.#It's still been too long to bring the series back but. Mariposa 1.5 where we find out where Rayla and Rayna and Zinzie went#pieceofcake.txt#cakeasks#Was so deep in Henna Denial when I found out she wasn't going to be the villain in Fairy Princess that my mind just instinctively went#'Oh wow she's aged a lot since the 1st movie'#In my mind if she survives she could maybe eventually get a redemption but she wouldn't continue living in Flutterfield#cakeart#The dialogue for the image was heavily paraphrased but inmy defense my internet has been supreme dogwater lately#So I was working off memory at like 4 am
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had a great night gaming yesterday. got to do the two most important things you can do during quests (skipped stones with neve and fed halla with davrin). then I did blood of arlathan which FUCKED, and talked to solas after which FUCKED and then talked to harding about solas after that and it FUCKED. incredibly great series of events for me. blood of arlathan EASILY my favorite main story quest so far, it was genuinely so great
#also even I can admit I felt some pang of sentimentality when solas said my inquisitor was his friend#losing it that the people form inquisiton he liked were like#inquisitor cole josephine and cassandra#fuck varric I guess LMFAO#I have Thoughts on that. but I shan’t say#anyway I had a lot of fun that was great#datv spoilers#rosie plays games kinda okay#that dragon sure does age
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Just finished infinite wealth
#i dont quite have a solid opinion on it yet#it was the longest i took to finish an rgg game i think? maybe other than judgment#time to 100% it now#then i will form maybe an opinion if i feel i need to say something idk#during the middle it felt like there were a lot of whiplash moments where a big reveal or moment will be followed by nostalgia and sentiment#so its like !!!oh?? followed by …oh ;w;#ngl i was playing the game misty eyed since chapter 3#i do see what the narrative is trying to say and i do like some of the messaging but i think i gotta sit in it and think a bit#also one of the most pooular opinions ive seen is: kiryu overtook the game!! ichiban needs his own game!!!#i actually think kiryu being in this game is … so important#but in the middle it felt like a kiryu game bc his parts didnt have as much of a to-do list as ichibans and was very nostalgia driven#so worth it if you played through all the games and substories imo#i think i just liked kiryu’s parts in this game a bit more… esp the party/table talks hehe#but at the end i really felt like it was 50/50 or honestly more of an ichiban game#i do think kiryu needs to rest NOT DIE just rest and i want to see more ichiban but idk how the directions of future games will go#im excited but not expecting too much bc im satisfied with what ive been fed with :9#also ive lowkey been ichikiryu pilled idk i just like how some fans depict their relationship… so tender and sweet ;w;#thoughts#infinite wealth#like a dragon: infinite wealth#cw blood
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So that was my 13th concert?
#i KNOW it's not much but for someone living in a german small town and is too broke to travel to shows outside of an hour radius#and who has only been going to shows for less tham 3 years that's not bad 😭#in total that's 30 different bands and 4 of them i saw twice#lowkey proud of that and also that my videos seem to be good enough to use them for social media promo now 😭#despite not being a hired photographer/videograher but just some girl who always fights her way to the front row 🥺#i'm just really grateful at the moment and especially because i've formed a sort of personal connection with some of those musicians#that goes beyond walking up to them to ask for a photo or autograph and then leaving without another word#the kind that makes them remember me from a show over a year ago without being in contact since then#the kind that makes them hug or high five me and say it's great to see me again#this is my sentimental week fr i'm so sorry#mel talks
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Me: I've decided to be the kind of person who doesn't over think my fandom participation and just comments on/replies to/generally engages with content and creators. I LOVE it when people do that with my stuff! There are hundreds of posts out there about how much everyone else also loves it when people do that on their stuff! I'll be spreading the joy!
Also me: ohnowhatifI'mbeingreallyannoyingisitweirdthatIjustdidthatmaybethatpersonthinksI'mcreepynowarghistworepliestoomuchit'stoomuchisn'titIshouldprobablybackoffnow
... What the hell brain? 🙄
#This is not about any one interaction in particular#But talking about the first sentiment tonight it did make me ponder the second#I'm going to go ahead and blame the autism for my inability to pick up the unspoken rules about what is the 'right' level of engagement#and where that line exists for most people#On the plus side here on tumblr people can always block me if I get really annoying#Soo that does offer some freedom to just do whatever and hope for the best#to wit if I am really annoying you please feel free to unfollow and/or block me because your blog should be a fun place for you#That said if you share the sentiment of this post even a little bit please know I will always be thrilled by engagement in whatever form#unless it's mean.#But you wouldn't be mean would you?#So come say hi whenever :D
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my opinions on translation : i wish the average person who gets into smth translated/localized could have tl theory beamed into their head . bcause i know it'd be ridiculous of me to expect everyone to understand and i don't want everyone to HAVE to spend that time but man. if it were inherent,
#IT'S LIKE SMTH i make sure not to get mad at any party abt bcause it really makes sense#and i love love the spread of important sentiments that wouldn't be able to be shared otherwise. and#i love the ability for ppl to share things out of pure love for the original media. i am 100% for fan tls#but i think WELL THIS IS BCAUSE I COME FROM A VOCA BG and i feel it's got an extra layer of care it needs when its poetry but#i think.... translating is an art... it should be approached not only as a derivative work but you have to think of urself as a writer#and ur attempting to convey the thoughts of someone else and the work as a whole so for substantial things it's rlly important#to understand the entire piece thematically.. meaning u have to be able to analyze media as well..#it's a difficult and intimidating role really and i love respecting it i have names of tlers i know and look out for#and it's nice as someone new to toku to see that ppl also have their sub groups they like :]#and anyway WHAT I ACTUALLY WANT TO SAY AND STRESS:#WE SHOULD ENCOURAGE MORE TRANSLATIONS!!! we should NOT assume a 'best' or 'perfect' translation!!!#the original work will always be the original work!! you simply can't have it the same way#but that doesn't make tls secondrate or imitations!!#this is why u gotta respect urself as a writer! the point of a tl is it should have its own value!!#and as each person writes diff each person will tl diff#so to get as much out of a work as possible... i think it is for the best to also see as many tls as possible#i've had lil and i tl the same song before and reconvene and it's really good because a translation is jus another form of analysis#how did u read the work? how did i read the work? if u want to understand smth to the fullest#u'll wanna analyze it as much as possible . and translation is a good way of doing so. while getting input in the form of other tls#txt#ugh i gotta break out the tl theory readings again... great stuff.....#in the end there's def also accuracy and quality in translating only cause . some things r less interpretation and more#inaccurate or lacking understanding of a language. but that's probably a given
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every time i think about wyll ravengard baldursgate i feel a little sad. my boy, who lacks content so badly, for what could've been an incredibly heartfelt arc if his writers liked him enough to put it in 😔
#bg3#his voice actor did such a good job!! but they never gave him enough lines!!#this dude is visibly like#''life in absolute shambles and resigned to early death/hellfire while fighting monsters. covers it up by Staying Silly''#''has absolutely nothing except his heroic reputation that he formed at the tender age of 17 after reading too many novels''#''is willing to die on literally any hill bc he doesn't value his own safety outside of being helpful to others''#AAAAAA#he's tragic AND funny AND charming AND self destructive AND sentimentally chivalrous#if they had given him just a morsel of the attention they gave to The Vampire.... 😔😔😔#the entire implication of his backstory and the way he's voiced points to like#a question of ''is this guy ever going to develop self esteem for himself outside of his heroic deeds? or is he going to burn out?''#and then they just never go anywhere with it ;^;#and for some reason keep framing him as having a ~crush~ on mizora which is like#horror material if anything
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ruyan is literally so beautiful that i get ill looking at her
#a lot of my time as a person who cant recognize himself to the point that if you start asking about myself im going to lie to you#is that i really like to engage with media that asks you to be present in the text by creating an outside being who simply has#some similarities to me#like the concepts i know i have. but make them their own unique person#so ruyan is really fun in that if i was a well adjusted person she would probably be a self insert and not her own person#but instead by the grace of god and my own mental problems she exists and is a full person that i practically see as a friend#like when i like a character so much that they become a comfort to me (emil) my brain engages in relationship interpretation to that#chartacter. emil is my daughter who i feel paternal sentiments to despite me being a human person and her being code in a video game#for ruyan she is like a friend where i want to go to her wedding and see her kids and hear about her life#i may have made her but i watch her as if i just met her'#recognizing this thing i have going on has helped me immensely be comfortable with myself#ruyan is a friend to me a sister tock is my daughter who i feel a real world father-daughter dynamic towards#i feel the need to nourish her and entertain her and put her to bed and let her know i love her#and you dont have to think this is normal because if you by now havent harbored some sort of#This Guy is Weird sentiment towards me youre either like me or VERY kind#but i know that i have parts of me that are weird. i am 23 years old bringing toys to the beach#but i dont chase validation so much as i just enjoy when its given to me#but i dont need validation because i cant even form my own self to need validation for#im learning about myself like im wiping down an old mirror. that doesnt need validation because im seeing it for the first time#im having my understanding moment here and you are free to leave the room and leave me to my mirrow
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