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[rukorukie]

Hi hello its me again

Theres some little demons whispering in my ear to tell my ihnmaims oc lore and im listening to them very well so i'll be telling her story today

I'll tell everything i need to tell about her and at the end i'll make something like a little gallery or something

Okay LETS GO (everything under the cut)

TW: Sensitive topics, self-harm, arachnophobia, torture, abusive parent and probably more i cant describe

— About Lia .

Her name is Cecilia, but she preffers to be called Lia.

She is 1,65cm tall (idk how to use ft)

She was born in August 12th (same day as me) but she forgot her age due to loss of notion of time. (She must be 25-35 years old)

— Lia's appearance .

Medium length, curly, dark brown hair, usually untangled, with curtain bangs.

Light brown skin tone, almost caramel, but lighter.

Dark brown eyes (one of them is blind), with a tired, droopy look, and deep dark circles under her eyes due to lack of rest.

Many wounds on her face and body.

On her face, the main scars are:

A big scar that passes through her eye.

A scar on the bridge of her nose.

A scar on her cheek (she tries to cover it with worn out (?) band-aids.)

She has some scratches on her belly because of something really bad that happened to her.

Spider bites all over her body.

She has a back problem, which affects her posture and, depending on the situation, makes her walk slowly and lifelessly.

— Lia's clothes .

Black sweater with red collar and sleeve tips.

Brown scarf covering the neck.

Dark brown pants and black boots.

White button-down shirt underneath the sweater.

Bandages on her hands.

— Lia's personality, habits and things about her life.

Lies: A strong habit, developed by the controlling relationship with her mother. Lia used lies to seek freedom, but her mother discovered her and punished her severely, reinforcing the feeling of helplessness. The habit persists even under the tortures of AM, although he quickly detects her lies.

Kindness: Restrained, but sincere. Despite this, guilt causes her to push herself away at times. However, she tries to get closer, especially to Ellen.

Stubbornness: Wanting to provoke AM with sharp responses. Most of the time this wouldn't go well.

Mood swings: Sadness or anger can appear suddenly, triggered by stressful situations.

Guilt: She carries a huge burden for not being able to help someone and having given up. She is afraid to apologize because she thinks she will be judged.

Emotional gaps: She has forgotten her father's voice and face, which leaves her confused, especially after hearing from her mother that she "is just like him". Even so, he was her motivation to continue living during her mother's abuse. I will speak about this with more details later.

Self-harm: It was something that happened frequently, Lia thought it would help distract herself from her emotional pain. She tried to commit suicide several times, but always regretted it at the last minute, thinking about her father, which despite being distant, was a motivation for her to stay alive.

Cigarette Addiction: Before AM, Lia was addicted to cigarettes as a way to cope with stress. Lia had overcome her cigarette addiction before she was captured, but AM manipulated her mind and body to make her return to the habit. He uses this as another form of torture, exploiting her physical and psychological dependence.

— Lia and her mother.

Lia's mother was extremely controlling and authoritarian, believing that Lia needed to be "protected" from her father, distancing them and reinforcing that he "wouldn't know how to take care of her", but she herself didn't know how to take care of her own daughter either.

Lia grew up under constant emotional pressure, being negatively compared to her father. She always said that Lia looked like her father, which made Lia confused, questioning herself and who she really was, since her memories about her father vanished. Her mother used severe punishments, including physical punishment, when Lia tried to deceive her or failed to meet expectations.

Her mother's oppression led Lia to seek escape valves such as lies, self-harm and cigarettes, as I said before.

— AM's torture .

Arachnophobia. AM explores this intensely and creates situations where Lia must confront her guilt and shame associated with her lies and perceived failures. Lia's torture consists of being kept trapped in a cage surrounded by a vast and dense spider web. In this claustrophobic condition, spiders of different sizes and species begin to climb up every part of her body, intensifying her agony. Some even invade the interior of her body, entering through her mouth and causing visceral terror. Meanwhile, the spiders whisper in her ears as they climb up her face, uttering macabre words that explore her traumatic past and her deepest insecurities, intensifying her psychological suffering.

Lia was chosen for failing to help someone at a critical moment. Feeling inadequate, she gave up because she believed she was not capable, but AM interpreted this as selfishness, judging that she thought more about her own fear of failure than about helping others.

— Lia's relationship with everyone .

AM: AM sees Lia as a rich source of internal conflicts, intensely exploiting her guilt, insecurity and need for validation. He provokes her, reinforcing the idea that she is selfish for "thinking more about herself" and incapable of saving those in need. In addition, he manipulates her emotions by creating situations in which Lia feels like she is reliving her greatest failures. By making her relapse into her cigarette addiction, AM reinforces his control and his pleasure in seeing her fail herself. Despite this, Lia shows stubbornness in defying him, even if sometimes this leads to more severe punishments.

Ellen: Lia has strong feelings for her, but represses them, thinking they are invalid due to what Ellen has suffered. The two have moments of closeness, as Lia tries to be more present, helping and sharing her burdens, despite the occasional guilt she feels.

Ted: Lia is envious and she notices on how he is the least affected by AM and how he seems untouched compared to her state. Ted, out of his paranoia, thinks that Lia hates him, which creates an implicit tension between the two.

The other prisioners: Lia tries to create bonds of help, even at the risk of occasionally moving away due to her guilt.

— Some curiosities .

Lia is Brazilian, and her english had a Brazilian accent, until she saw that AM started to mock and correct her, making her improve her accent over time while living with the other prisoners.

While I was developing her past and her relationship with her mother and her father, I took inspiration from the song "Like Him" by Tyler, The Creator! I really enjoy his songs and now whenever I'm listening to his music I create some scenarios about Lia in my head.

She is almost like a self-insert, but most of these things (like everything with her parents, self-harm, suicide attempts and etc) didn't happen to me!! I just I exaggerated some things in my mind and I put them in her. The closest we have is our phobia and appareance, like our hair and face, moving her scars aside.

I made a little shipp name,,, its Ellia,,, which is the combination of Ellen and Lia,,, I love them so much,,,

Maybe I'll talk about some of the scenarios that happened to her someday and also talk about my another oc, which considers Lia as a sister.

— Gallery !

Those images I'm going to show will include:

Drawings and doodles made by me, picrew images, a gacha club image and even fanarts!!! Yes fanarts!!! Most of them were made by my glorious beautiful marvelous friend @/ami8666 (I'm not going to really tag them because I don't wanna bother 💔)

But anyways, here it is!!

The first image was her first design, made in picrew because I didn't know where to start with her 💔

I really wanted to add more but I can't ☹️

And if you, my dear, beautiful reader, who read all of my yapping and made it to the end, thank you. so much. Lia is a very special oc to me, she is the only one who really haves her own full story and I love telling people about her!

And I wanted to say sorry if anything is a bit disorganized or if I wrote something wrong, I had to translate everything because its in fucking portuguese and google is sometimes very bad at translating things because its never 100% accurate

But yeah,,,, thank you very very very very much, I hope you guys like her :)

Ruko out 🫡

[squidpedia]

they were thinking about what soda they were gonna get on the way home

[alifelongpassed]

Just Zevlor things.

[bluechanas]

actually. i love usopp BECAUSE he's a massive wimp. he's just like me fr.

[asmogorna]

vampires and their black and white umbrellas

[aetalk]

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

god. fucking insane 2 me that ros and I r like patient zero of worm. that feels so fucking wild. everyone go think about nhw okay?

[scarybong]

why’d my therapist ghost me

[bluewithpurplepolkadots]

I’m in the middle of watching The Song of the Sea.

I can understand why it’s not as well liked as the Book of Kells or Wolfwalkers (of the three it’s probably the weakest, not bad: just something had to come last and this is clearly it).

But a part of me can’t help but recall vague memories of several internet reviewers years back really raging about the brother character Ben as if he was Satan incarnate and like… I’m not just seeing it yet. He’s probably a wee bit of a brat at points and mean to his sister but the level of vitriol I remember reviewers were having doesn’t really match up yet.

If I was to say of any moral for adults themselves to take: it would be the adult characters not coming clean or explaining things properly to their kids is stupid. They like… hide things and just expect the kids to obey. And it’s not like the adults are evil either! They adults are still even somewhat sympathetic. But it’s a pretty clear flaw and I think at least one reason Ben is even the level of brat he is. Which like I said doesn’t seem as wretchedly evil as some of these reviewers hammered on about. Just… not great but he’s probably like… nine? Ten? At most? And seems to be getting over it even at the moment.

Like I’ll admit he doesn’t win brother of the year at all and I’m still in the middle of watching (maybe he does something unforgivable before the end credits?) but I was fully prepared for him to be worse than this so I’m kind of baffled.

[hotelstares]

your probably overwhelmed with gif requests but if you could gif Chris in his Pug hat in "RATING YOUR HALLOWEEN COSTUMES *brutally honest*" i would love you forever lol.

Overwhelmed? Noooo. I love getting requests! I think it's nice! As long as you're patient with me, keep 'em coming.

ETA: Completed set HERE

[homicidalqueeen]

It was just a few things that she had shoplifted, and although she had been careful about it, she had been caught. She wasn't really worried about the fact that she had been caught she was more worried about the fact that @chaoticjoke would be upset she had been caught. Now she would face his wrath and it wasn't pretty. Oh no, his punishments were never pleasant ones. He decided to cage her up this time, because jail had not been enough. Yet, she thought it was just a fun little game they were playing. Boy was she wrong about that.

"How long ya gonna keep me pinned up in 'ere for? Ya gotta eat sometime." She playfully cooed at him behind the bars, slender fingers wrapped around ice cold steel.

[dizzybizz]

leaning in my chair and seeing the void

[fabbyf1]

hello everyone kate’s social media manager here with a fun philosophical exercise for y’all. if you’re spewing criticism or backhanded compliments in the ao3 comments, have you ever considered not doing that ? just something to think about ❤️

don't worry, bestie! i have started passive-aggressive responding to ao3 comments again when people are being Not Cool 🙃

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

why must washing your childhood plushies feel like such a harrowing experience

[scarybong]

being insane is fun until I’m mean :(

[elegyofthemoon]

so with that last video, do you think people out there have made conspiracy theories about penacony the way people have made conspiracy theories about disneyland?

how funny would it be if those theories wound up true for penacony