#sometimes i forget that i can just...buy things that i like

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Gonna pop in here and remind people that this conversation gets easier to have with less dehumanization if we start to get specific about what we mean by "smoking"

Do we mean smoking cigarettes produced, manufactured, and distributed by big tobacco, an industry well known for abusive and dangerous production practices and for explicit falsification of medical research/fraudulent standard practices? Because that will be a slightly different conversation from "buys tobacco from a local grower and manufacturer to smoke from a reuseable tool like a pipe rather than through filters and wrapping papers" which will ALSO be a slightly different conversation from "grows and smokes their own tobacco or otherwise processes fresh growth directly for smoking"

None are WITHOUT consequences and medical risks, but the level and manner of risk can look VERY different and make the conversation around "why do people smoke even though they know it's not healthy" a lot less likely to veer into dehumanizing or strawmanning territory.

An aside: I don't smoke anymore. Not regularly. But I do keep a tin of rollies in my bag when I'm out for long periods of time because I have a blood pressure condition and wouldn't you know it, a great way to induce a lil hypertension and compensate for an episode so I don't pass out is to smoke a cigarette. Sometimes a couple puffs steadies me, sometimes I need half or even a whole cigarette to get the effect, but I never go through more than 3 a month. I used to keep a pack of manufactured clove cigars around for this, but the health risks rapidly outweighed even the temporary benefits. But keeping around hand rolled cigarettes that I pack with tobacco from a local grower I know the practices of has balanced that a lot.

It's not like I recommend smoking, but I think it's easy to forget, under the current parameters of the conversation, that part of why talking about smoking from an actual anti-capitalist lens can matter is that in can clarify the ways in which currently available/accessible forms of smoking are often much less safe than they could be. It clarifies that sometimes harm reduction looks like INCREASING access to a version of a risky or harmful thing that is nonetheless safer than the current accessible alternative. Sometimes it means letting people do things that are "bad for their health" while regulating an industry such that it cannot as readily abuse the way their customers navigate dignity of risk.

Most things are complicated and contradictory, including tobacco, nicotine, and self-managed psychoactive chemical support, and if at any point something about it seems straightforward or simple, it's more likely that something has been flattened than that people are just doing something "bad" for them without a rational motivator. That includes the prospective health interactions (not just RISKS, interactions good bad or neutral) of smoking whether incidentally or chronically.

man, weve gotta find a way to talk about big tobacco from an anticapitalist lens bc i cant stand to watch successive generations get addicted to their bullshit and just keep pretending its normal. i dont think condescending to smokers is productive but theres gotta be some respectful way to say that not paying a signficant portion of ur income to some of the most straightforwardly evil corporations in the world in exchange for addiction and sickness and death should be an obvious goal for anyone who considers themself anticapitalist

[cheshireliam]

"The Faux Vow To The Pure White Bride" Story Event: Epilogue

Ring Schwartz

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CW: Maybe slightly suggestive, but no smut.

“— Do you vow to love and cherish each other, in sickness and in health?”

The ringing of the church bells sounded like a blessing to Ring and I. 

We went through so much together ever since the day we became lovers, and today, on this clear and lovely day, we finally had our wedding ceremony. 

It was a joyous occasion surrounded by smiles from our friends in Vogel and Crown. 

After the ceremony ended,—. 

…

Ring: Kate, there’s something I need to tell you. 

The moment we were alone, Ring looked at me with such a serious facial expression it nearly scared me.

I could tell he wasn't going to say something he usually did, and so I straightened up to listen attentively. 

Kate: S-sure!

Ring: …

Kate: …

We held our breaths as we stared at each other in silence. For some reason, Ring’s face started turning red. 

Ring: … 

Kate: ?

Ring: Umm… you know, uhh… 

It didn't happen as often as before, but… Ring sometimes still got all blushy with his words stuck in his throat. 

(This kind of reminds me of when we first met.) 

Kate: It's okay, Ring. Take your time.

Kate: You’re trying to say something important, aren't you? So I’ll wait till you’re ready. 

Ring: Your kindness reminds me of our first meeting.

Kate: Seeing you blush like this reminds me of our first meeting too. 

Ring: Looks like I’ve been getting flustered around you since the start. 

Ring: I can’t help it, you’re just too cute. 

Kate: T-the way you can say such things so casually now really shows how much you’ve changed. 

Ring: What’s wrong with calling you cute when you are? 

There wasn't a hint of embarrassment in his gaze, only pure sincerity and honest emotions. 

The heat in my cheeks spread all the way to the corners of my ears. 

(I guess seeing this behaviour coming from Ring does prove he’s changed from when we first met.) 

Ring: … Sorry, I went off track. 

Kate: I-it’s fine. You said there was something you wanted to tell me, right? What is it? 

This time, Ring looked like he really steeled himself before speaking. 

Ring: … You’re the first person I’ve ever fallen in love with. I learned all sorts of new emotions through you. 

Ring: All my firsts have been with you. Even experiencing loving someone for the first time… was with you… so… 

Ring: Honestly, I don’t know how to hold back. 

Kate: … Hold back? 

Ring: I don’t know what to do with his fierce heat I’m feeling right now. 

Kate: Uhh… Ring, what exactly are you talking about?

Ring: Our bridal night. 

Kate: …!! 

(Right. This is our first night together as husband and wife…) 

It was something so obvious, and yet hearing Ring say it in such a serious tone made me all the more hyper-aware of it. 

Ring: Did you forget?

Kate: O-of course I know that! 

Ring: That’s good, then. Because that’s all I've been able to think about ever since the wedding ceremony ended. 

Ring: Even though we’ve done it countless times before this, tonight feels so special I think I might lose control. 

Ring: It’s the first night I have you as my wife, a one in a lifetime night to remember… right? 

The same seriousness in his eyes now contained a heat he couldn't conceal any longer. 

Ring: Kate… I might not be able to curb my hunger for you tonight at all. Are you okay with that? 

(Simply hearing him express that with his own words is enough to melt me…) 

Kate: … Go ahead and love me however your heart desires, Ring. 

I closed my eyes, fully prepared to accept all of him, and a soft kiss touched my lips.

Ring: You look so beautiful in this pure white dress, it feels almost criminal to take it off. 

He whispered into my ear as he gently removed my earrings and unfastened the clasp of my necklace. His fingers then slid down to the ribbon laced along my back.

Ring: But I want to hold you as you are, so… I can’t hold back anymore. 

The ribbon came undone, the sleeves of my dress slid off my shoulders… 

I felt the tender pressure of his lips against the nape of my neck. 

Kate: … Aah! 

Ring: I’m even refraining from biting you, but you had to make such a tempting sound… now I really won’t hold back.

Kate: Ggh… aahh, Ring… 

The lips that left sweet bite marks on my neck now trailed lower, planting tiny red marks across my collarbone and chest. 

He was once hesitant and unsure of himself during the early phases of our relationship. But now, there was no trace of that hesitation in the way he held me. 

My loosened dress slipped away entirely by his hands, and I was now as he desired — bare, all natural. 

Ring: … You were wearing this underneath your dress? 

Kate: A corset isn’t exactly— it's not that kind of outfit… aaah, Ring…! 

Ring: Don't be shy. I love it when you’re being naughty. 

While still in the corset, I was pushed down onto the bed and Ring loomed over me, gazing into my eyes. 

Ring: I want you. Now. 

Ring: Tonight, I’ll give you all of me, so let me take all of you in return. 

The ferocious heat in his eyes and earnest love told me one thing— that was definitely the Ring I fell in love with. 

(His strength he’s built through relentless training with his blood, sweat and tears, and the part of him so delicate it could shatter… I loved both sides of him.) 

Kate: For the first time as your wife, show me what your warmth feels like… 

That night, I was loved more deeply than ever before. 

His hands knew every one of my weak spots like it was muscle memory, the passion boiling within him never ceased, and the joy he gave me was overflowing. 

Over and over again, he gave me his warmth, as though engraving our vow of eternal love into my body. 

[shaunapenguin]

Toxic!Obsessed!Shauna Shipman x Reader Headcanons

(Masterlist)

- Shauna does not like sharing you with anyone else, not even with your family

- Thinks you were made just for her, so you belong ONLY to her

- Don't bother trying to deny or fight it

- If you walk away from her, she won’t hesitate to grab your wrists tightly enough to leave bruises

- Loves seeing bruises on you made by her

- Marking you is a big thing for her

- But if they’re not made by her, you better tell her what happened

- Even if it was from you accidentally bumping into something, Shauna will ask many questions about it

- If someone else did bruise you, God help them

- Will ruin someone’s life for you

- If you complain about it, she’ll start ranting about how ungrateful you are and how she just wants to keep you safe (except from her lol)

- Ends up making you feel bad and is smug when you apologise and hug her

- If someone dares to get close to you, or at least try, she threatens them until they leave you alone

- Totally finds some kind of dirt on them and blackmails them

- Relishes in the way you come to her when you’re upset about how people keep leaving you, suspicious but not 100% knowing it was her fault

- When you’re outside, she refuses to let go of you

- And don’t try and let go of her, she’ll just grip onto you harder

- Shauna will drag you away and go someplace else if someone looks at you for too long

- Knows all your passwords for everything

- Definitely snoops through your phone to see who you have been messaging

- Shows up at your job at random times too

- If it was possible, she'd convince you to work at home

- Makes you sleep on the side of the bed that’s against the wall furthest from the door

- If you get up she’ll know and won’t sleep until you come back

- If you take too long, for example if you’re getting a drink, she’ll get up and tell you to go back to bed

- Holds you as tight as she possibly can without hurting you

- She may like hurting you sometimes, but not when you’re sleeping

- You’re grateful that she gets softer at night

- Demands that you tell her you love her

- You got into the habit of praising and complimenting her multiple times throughout the day

- She’s less likely to get annoyed at you if you do

- “You’re being a bitch,” and “Stop being annoying.” is something you hear way too often when she’s in a bad mood

- A lot of eye rolling is directed at you

- Really one of the only ways to make her feel better is to fuck

- The other is to just leave her alone but don’t go out of sight

- Bites the hell out of you during sex

- Will watch the wound bleed with wide, satisfied eyes

- (She’s not stupid though, she will make sure to treat it after, neither of you want it to get infected)

- Ties your hands to the headboard and rides your face aggressively 

- If you pass out, well, too bad I guess

- Buys big straps, obsessed with stretching you out

- It really gets to her head that you’re taking it for HER and nobody else

- Wants to see you cry

- Degrades you until your eyes are teary

- Her thrusts will speed up at the sight of you crying and Shauna will pant like a mad dog

- If you don’t tell her you love her while you’re coming she’ll get angry

- You won’t forget to anyway, even though she’s fucked up you can’t help but love her

- Brings out a knife sometimes

- Won't cut you deeply but drags the blade down your skin, causing white lines

- Gets off on knowing she could hurt you right now if she really wanted to

- Holds the blade against your neck when fingering you

- Has nicked the skin of your neck a few times, tiny droplets of blood dripping down onto your chest

- Shauna licks it up and then kisses you, exchanging the taste

- Thankfully she's well practiced in handling knives so she won't accidentally slit your throat

[rosenclaws]

Hi! I really, really love your writing, especially these headcanons.

This is gonna sound really weird but could you write Logan with a reader who struggles with friendships and making friends? And general loneliness?

I'm struggling with feeling like I have no one right now and I just would really like to read about Logan loving on me and making me forget that for a bit

HI!! of course I can. we don't really talk and im so ass at responding BUT my dms or inbox is always open if you need someone to talk to <33 I really understand where ur coming from this was literally me all through college. I didn’t make a single friend bc I commuted and I felt so lonely. Also dofp and trilogy logan can be read more platonic so if u arent happy with it i can redo them!

Origins Logan -

I think that Logan isn’t great with making friends either. He’s not super interested in making friends so he’s very content being alone or being with you. But he notices a small sadness in your eyes sometimes. How you never seem to go out with people or the way your voice falls when he tells you he’s going to the bar after work with some work friends. He wasn’t sure what it was at first but then he saw you tucked away with tears in your eyes one night and decided it to get to the bottom of things.

See making friends is hard. You try. You really do. But no matter how nice you are and how much you try to reach out it just never works out. You never told Logan about it. Fearing he’d laugh or think you were lame. But it breaks his heart to see you so sad. He puts you in his lap and assures you that he’s there for you. He’ll be your boyfriend, your best friend, your support system. Hell he’ll even be your enemy if you wanted him to be.

He takes you out to town more in his free time encouraging you to join that book club you see flyers for or maybe that running group. Of course he won’t push anything but he just wants to see you happy. Whatever you need from him he’ll be. Because he loves you and he’ll be by your side through it all.

Trilogy Logan -

It’s stupid. At least it feels stupid. You live in a mansion with people just like you. Yet somehow you just feel lonely. You didn’t grow up here. You came very late in life and your powers didn’t warrant a spot on the team. In fact you swear the only reason Charles let you in is because they needed an art teacher. You’d sit in the kitchen at dinner by yourself while everyone was chatting around the counter. You would take walks when the students and staff played games. You were never invited to go out afterwards. Hell you aren’t even sure anyone else knows your name.

Until Logan came along. You knew him, of course you did he was The Wolverine after all. But you swore he never even gave you a second glance. It was your birthday and you were once again alone. You debated on going to the store and buying a cupcake but before you could make a decision Logan made it for you. A cute pink box sat on your bed with a card in very proper handwriting. The card just read Happy birthday signed by Logan of all people. It was your favorite flavor too. You confronted him and he just shrugged. He had always seen you but he was a lone wolf kind of guy. Still he liked you and in the spirit of…teamwork? He reached out. Logan was more than the grumpy man you thought he was. He was funny and had a sharp tongue. But he was sweet and a big softie. Only you got to see that side. He was your friend and slowly he made you feel seem. Made you feel loved. Now you have someone to exist in silence with and you’ve never been happier.

DOFP Logan -

I think it’s similar to trilogy Logan in the sense that he sees you when you feel like no one else does. He’s observant and the man can see that you don’t talk much to anyone. At a staff event you stayed quiet in the corner. Your face had “get me out” written all over it. A look he knows too well. He doesn’t know what draws him to you exactly. He thinks your smart and the kids love your class so why hasn’t he seen you around more.

The truth is you hated these events because you want to be apart of the fun so badly. To talk and laugh and befriend the people everyone seems to idolize. But no matter how hard you tried you just faded to the back. Making friends isn’t as easy as asking someone if they like ponies or the color purple. So when Logan. The Wolverine of all people walked up to and talked to you. It was bizarre. Not that you were complaining but fuck how did he even know who you were?

You start to overthink everything with Logan. Are you too clingy? Too forward? Should you ask if he wants coffee when you asked him yesterday if he wanted an extra donut? Eventually I think he asks you about it and you confess that making friends isn’t easy for you. Logan doesn’t think you’re weird or a loser for it. He understands shit happens and things aren’t easy for everyone. He is not a people person either and making friends is low on his skill set. But he likes you a lot and he’ll happily be your friend. Maybe more if you’re interested. He’ll be whatever you want him to be.

Old Man Logan -

Logan notices you’re just a little off. That you aren’t as happy as you used to be. A part of him is worried it’s his fault. He’s gone so much working and when he’s home he’s exhausted. He tries to take out on a nice date every other week. Something that you’ll remember for a long time. He’ll by you flowers he thinks are pretty from the store. They aren’t the most expensive but you don’t care. Was he not doing enough? I think he hides his worry until one day he finds you teary eyed laying on your bed and he can’t hold it in any longer.

It feels silly to tell him. He’s got so much on his plate and it’s not his fault he has things to do. He takes such good care of you and loves you. But you’re lonely. You go to work you come home and that’s it. You have Logan but you don’t have any friends and its starting to weigh on you. You try but people can be mean or they already have friends. You feel like theres something wrong with yoj. Logan frowns as he reassures you there’s nothing wrong with you. Absolutely nothing. Making friends ain’t as easy for some people and that’s okay. He would pick you up in his arms and cuddle you. He makes an effort to be the person you can always come to. Texting you things in between his rides. He’ll let you blow up his phone with everything you’re doing. He can’t always respond but he promises he reads it. When he comes home he’ll listen to you talk, ask a few questions and smile when you do. It can be hard but the loneliness isn’t forever and Logan will be your beacon for as long as you need him.

Worst Logan -

Wade has a lot of friends and sometimes it can be overwhelming as hell. So sometimes Logan just fucks off for a little bit. He enjoys the quiet more than the noise of people. That’s where he meets you. You live next door but he’s never met you. Not even Wade really knows who you are. You’re quiet and reserved and seem to stumble on your words. But Logan likes you. You’re much more tolerable than Wade for long periods of time. Sometimes you show up to ask for help or to drop off something but you don’t stay long.

After a while Logan asks why you don’t come to dinner or any of Wade’s parties. That’s when you tell him the truth. You aren’t Wade’s friend and that sometimes your jealousy gets the best of you when it comes to hearing how much joy and life comes from his apartment. Wade is friends with just about everyone but for some reason he never bothered to befriend you. You’re lonely and despite your small attempts to become closer they never went anywhere so you kind of just gave up. Until Logan came along. He was nice and he looked at you and gave you the time of day.

Admitting to him you were lonely was hard but he understands. He was the same way for years. All his friends had died and he had no one for a long time. He never wants to be that lost again and he won’t let you feel that way anymore either. He listens and he tells you that things might feel bad now but it will get better. He can’t tell you when but he’s there and he hopes his company can distract you even just for a little bit. Wade was appalled with himself for not introducing himself sooner once Logan brings you to a Sunday dinner.

He doesn’t force you to talk to anyone or suddenly expect you to be amazing at making friends with these strangers but he is there when you look back. Offering a smile that encourages you to open up just a little more. And if things feel like you’re losing it again, he’s right there to comfort you. He’s just a wall away and there’s no where else he’d rather be than with you.

[wolfofcelestia]

sometimes i forget sylus also has legitimate businesses and is a legit businessman and engineer. like, he’s not just some rich mafia daddy, our man worked for the money he has.

now that i think about it… i wonder if sylus has a college degree. or several.

regardless, very very knowledgeable and intelligent man. that’s so sexy of him.

I think his success has a lot to do with his street smarts and how he's able to sus out what shady people are planning to do, considering his eye can see people's true desires

He's always one step ahead because he has a cheat code

Even without his eye powers, it seems that he's learned from a young age how terrible people operate and he can easily anticipate their actions

This ability to basically manipulate people like puppets and anticipate their every move allows him to put himself in very influential positions

Therefore leading to lucrative business opportunities

Therefore leading to the amount of wealth that he has

Vast amounts of money is always easiest to obtain through criminal means. All he has to do is take down the kingpin of an organization and take the crown for himself

That being said, he absolutely has a lot of knowledge about tech and business, and he definitely would've been self-taught and/or learned through real life experiences

Sylus gets bored easily and he only bows to one person, so I doubt he'd have the patience to sit through the structured world of academia, follow someone else's instructions at that pace they set, and hand in his work for his profs or peers to approve of

Sylus has always been about freedom in every single way possible. This includes the freedom to do things his own way. Business school may teach you the proper way of doing things, but the real world teaches you that people don't play by the rules and there are always underhanded methods that are more effective and more lucrative

If Sylus were forced to be a student for some reason, I feel like he'd be expelled almost instantly for the illegal methods he'd keep suggesting. They worked for him, after all. And then he'd end up buying the university out of spite lmao

With his background and with his distrust in humans so engrained in him, he was always destined to be a... rich mafia daddy lmaooo

[iratempestatis]

I made a post about Xiao having the potential to be a shitty father, but you know what- the opposite is just as likely.

Again, it's difficult to emphasise the potency of his paranoia. He, better than anyone, would know just how fast and how suddenly things can go wrong. He could never be cautious enough. He could never love enough.

Mortals emulate the love they've received. For Xiao, love is a distant but incredibly fond memory.

His formative years were spent slaving away for a cruel god- those events were just a deluge of misery. He was taught, in his youth, that love was nothing but a fleeting fog- that it is power that forms the stuff of sweet dreams. His childhood was a deluge of misery.

He'd at least know what to avoid.

Sure, love found him in the form of his siblings- and you, of course- overwhelming adoration. But that's not the same as the love a parent has for their child, yes?

Xiao would need to fathom- on his own- what love would have to mean for him.

Xiao has no love to emulate from his childhood- and so he'd at least know what to avoid.

In his youth, his naivete was exploited- and so the child would never be punished for theirs. By the skies and the sands and the seas, he'd do anything, anything to keep them from feeling bad for knowing less, for being small. He'd listen intently to their mindless chatter, be an incredible attentive listener to the most puerile chatter, acknowledge every complaint with the utmost gravitas.

Being made to forego his own instincts, forget his own intelligence and just being forcibly morphed into a desperate bloodhound would be a most painful memory, and so the child would be given a startling amount of autonomy- within reason. Xiao does not have mortal parents, and an elder telling the baby “because I said so!” would make him froth at the mouth in a rage. He'd tell the tiny fucker every reason for every action if they asked. Sure, he can't really make it eloquent, but he can always try to at least answer.

“Why do I have to sleep at nine? I don't want to sleep at nine!”

“You have to sleep at nine because you have school tomorrow.”

“I won't go!”

“That's foolish.”

“Why.”

Every why would find a patient answer. Your baby would be the most articulate six year old on any playground pretty much anywhere.

Xiao would also never place any restraints on food- again, within reason. “You can't have candy for dinner because it's not good for your health, but if you want more chicken, that can be arranged.”

“We're out of chicken!” the child would howl and he'd tell them to say that again, politely, and when they acquiesced and quietly protested "but we're out of chicken!" he'd go off to buy and cook more.

The little runt gets caught stuffing food into their mouth at two in the night? He'd panic. Does he not feed the child enough? He's never been more ashamed of himself. He's a failure of a parent. You have to stop him from staring into space with an anguished expression and gently explain that kids- and well, adults too- just get hungry sometimes.

He'd sternly tell the tiny creature to wake him next time. Why? Because they're too small to use the stove on their own. Why? Because they're not old enough to have the motor skills to use it safely. Why? Because everyone needs to do some growing and get some practice before they can. Why? He really doesn't know. That's just how mortals are. He hopes that's a satisfactory answer.

The child's a picky eater? He'll try to convince them, but he'd never force them to eat something that really does disgust them. Even the thought of it is enough to spark echoes of the past, whispering voices that call for violence and stolen dreams. It makes him nauseous.

The child doesn't like boiled broccoli? That's fine. Would they prefer it cooked into cutlets? That's great. No boiled eggs? What do you have against boiled things, tiny creature? It feels gross? Fine. Would you prefer your eggs poached, on toast?

He discovers that's a messy thing to feed a child.

So much of his life has been spent in solitude. The cool sting of loneliness is an intimate friend, and so he'd let himself be summoned at a moment's notice. The child's bored? What would they prefer to do?

They have a tennis match? The thought of teeny tiny mortals swinging their minuscule arms at a ball flying all over the place nearly makes him smile. He bites it back on instinct, then sees the earnest expression on the ankle biter before him, and lets it escape. He'd never keep a smile from something so precious, so deserving of everything he can contrive and more, more, more.

Anyway, of course he shows up. Maybe not in the crowd with the other parents, but he watches regardless.

Xiao is strict about a curfew. It's one thing he'll never budge on, and it's the same for all his children, if for some reason you want more than one tiny creature running amok causing chaos, and expecting rationale from you before they acquiesce to your requests. He lives in terror of anything happening to the baby, and he's taken care to ensure his name always being on the tip of their tongue the moment they suspect danger.

He'd be so terrified of being a bad father that he'd end up being the very opposite.

(nuance in the reblogs thanks to @sizzles-z-4002 !! Thank you <3)

[lovebvni]

You've probably answered this question many times, and I'm so embarrassed to ask it, but I can't deny that I need help anymore.

I can't shift!! No matter how much I unconsciously shift all the time, I never end up where I want!! I know I just need... I don't even know what I need! They always say "you don't need anything to shift, just decide to do it." Do they think I don't do that? Do they think I'm being dramatic about nothing? I've tried everything: affirmations, visualization, subliminals. They're all annoying and repetitive, and I have a hard time being consistent because I always forget.

All of this makes me feel so... so... useless... and worthless. How can I not do something as simple as shifting?

simplicity ≠ easy.

simplicity doesn’t make things easy, my love. sometimes, it makes it difficult.

it’s simple to buy some groceries, right?. you just got everything you needed scanned by the cashier and you have your card connected to your apple pay. it’s simple to have your phone scan your face and tap your card, but sometimes it declines or just takes a moment, you have to go about it a different way, like actually taking the card out your wallet and swiping it.

this is simple, you’re following instructions and doing what you’re told, yet something still goes awry somehow. your card is in the system, it has money on it, yet it still declined when you tried to pay.

but notice how i said you didn’t stop, you just change your method, how you go about it, how you think about the recipe, what you use. this is called refining a process, customizing it to you, what you have, how you do things.

and this, anon, is what i believe you need to do. refine your process, but first i need you to take a breather, a breath, and take those notes. i promise you, your human brain will not remember everything. what exactly did you do? who’s subliminal did you use? have you tried making your own?

repetition is how simplicity is made so simple. you need to do things over and over again in order so you understand them and you can do them before you’ve ever expected.

note, there is no problem with you. perhaps you’re trying to do too much at once? hopping from system to system? it’s overwhelming. my best advice for you, anon, and anyone else reading, take a break. then define your process.

and sometimes, it isn’t a you issue, it’s a system issue that’s you’ve been fed.

love, bvni.

[perfectlyoongi]

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who runs with you to the cafeteria when the building is busy or empty. if work was a painful, boring thing that made you crawl against the walls until it was time to go home, Hoseok just wanted to make sure that those eight or so hours you had to spend there were fun. besides his company and flowery personality, Hoseok also liked to use his hot energy as a distraction for you and, considering that it wasn't very appropriate to have paper fights in the middle of the office, the easiest alternative was small runs. from your desk, which was at the end of the hallway, away from the stairs, to the cafeteria, which was one floor below yours, you and Hoseok danced in long strides through the office, leaving a trail of laughter and happiness behind you. “coffee break! a run to the cafeteria or are you too scared to lose, again?”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who changes departments for you but will never admit it. Hoseok liked what he did — for him, it was a job and not an obligation. but when you joined the company, when you created an extremely strong bond with Hoseok, he started thinking about what he really wanted. yes, he liked his job, his colleagues, and even his bosses — but what about you? Hoseok never thought that you would become someone important to him, and he never dreamed that he would need to see you every day to feel good. because of that, and because he felt that you would last longer than his job, Hoseok changed departments to something he liked, but wasn't passionate about. but it didn't matter — there, he was closer to you. “yes, i'm going to change offices. if everything goes well, next month i'll be on your floor. when it's my first day here, i'll buy you lunch. what do you say?”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who leaves you little notes on your desk throughout the day. whenever Hoseok passed by you, whether it was to ask a colleague for some papers or to get water, he made sure to leave you little reminders that helped you get through the day and cheer you up in more difficult moments. as if it were some magical power, Hoseok seemed to always guess when you needed his words and made sure you knew you would never be alone, not as long as you had Hoseok by your side. “don't forget to listen to your body. i know it's complicated, but remember to take good care of yourself. stretch your back, take a deep breath, drink some water. the day is almost over. you can make it to the end.”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who hides with you in the cleaning closet when you're too tired. you didn't say anything anymore. when Hoseok held your hand, you already knew what he was going to do. always quick to act, Hoseok led you through the hallways to the cleaning closet to help you calm down. sometimes you would laugh like two children, as if you were hiding from your parents so you wouldn't have to go to sleep; other times, he would hold your face and help you take deep breaths, wiping away the tears as they streamed down your face; and there were still times when he would just hold you, using his arms as a shield against life. somehow, supernaturally, Hoseok always knew what you needed and you knew that if you weren't able to take care of yourself, Hoseok was there to take on that role. “don't make any noise, they can still hear us. just 5 minutes and then we'll be back, i promise! don't laugh! i swear if they find us, i'll steal your chair.”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who believes in you and your potential from day one. “if you don't believe in yourself, i'll believe for you,” Hoseok's voice was low, sweet, carrying with it the little comfort he could give you in that small closet. “you don't have to lose your head over these matters. i'm here. i remind you to take care of yourself. i believe in you. you've come this far on your own, imagine what you could do with me holding your hand. focus on your work. i know you'll get it done on time. you just need to breathe in… that's it, now… breathe out… you're more capable than you think. you're stronger than you think.”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who only leaves work when you go home. Hoseok knew you like no one else and he knew that you loved to escape from work as soon as the end of the day arrived; but Hoseok also knew that there were intense days, when you forgot the time or were even forced to stay at work whether you wanted to or not. as such, and to ensure that you were taking care of yourself, Hoseok only went home when he was sure that you were going to rest. for some reason, Hoseok couldn't end his day without knowing if you were okay. “it's late, let's go. you finish this tomorrow. you have time and you also have to take care of yourself. don't complain, let's go. i'll take you home.”

CO-WORKER!HOSEOK who is afraid to confess because he doesn't want anything to change between you. you were the perfect friendship for Hoseok: you were his support, his conscience, his accomplice in mischief and the one who held all his feelings. from a very early time, Hoseok knew that he wouldn't want to lose you. you became very important very quickly and he felt so good with you, so safe, so himself — he didn't want to lose that connection, that part of him, of you. “i don't know how you’ll react to this, but i ask you to promise me that nothing between us will change. i can't think of what would become of me without you and although i like you, a lot, i'd rather have you as a friend for an eternity than lose you for even a minute.”

[goatlottin]

kylian mbappe sfw alphabet

mbappe boyfriend sfw alphabet/headcanons.

a/n hi guys…. Its been a minute. last time i posted mbappe was still at psg 😭i wrote this really fast and ITS NOT proofread but i think its super cute and i really wanna get back into writing.. so here it is!

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

kylian is sooo affectionate. he’s kinda shy about it around his teammates, friends, and whatnot, but when you guys are alone he literally does not stay more than 3 feet away from you at all times. he’s always hugging you from behind, practically begging he goes out with you on your errands you typically do alone. he’s always checking up on you through texts or phone calls when he knows he can’t physically be there, too. you can’t remember a time you didn’t wake up to a “good morning, beautiful”, or a “goodnight honey 🤍”

B = Bonding (what is their favourite bonding activity with their partner?)

there’s definitely a few things that come to mind, but surprisingly, shopping is your favourite thing to do together. he loves watching you browse and get excited about new products or the most recent trends. buttt he also loves watching you pick out new button downs or sneakers for him, insisting these would be perfect for him for this or that occasion. not to mention you guys are both doing something you love, just together now!

C = Cuddles (how do they cuddle with their partner?)

biggest. cuddler. ever. he claims he’s the big spoon but you both know it can really go either way. finds it impossible to sleep without half killing you through his arms and your closeness to one another. not just to sleep, but even while just enjoying each other’s company. You’re finishing up some work while he’s catching up on highlights on the tv, with his head in your lap and his arms squeezing your torso. Your fingers mindlessly going through his hair.

D = Dates (do they prefer flashy or casual dates?)

he goes all out on dates. his very best suit, a huge bouquet of your favourite flowers, shiny new car. he seriously just wants the very best for you and is not afraid to show you off. although he loves the flashy things, sometimes he knows you need a day in, maybe it’s too stressful at the moment for you to go all out, so he orders in your favourite take out and snacks and you just binge movies. it’s all about the moment

E = Ending (How would they end things with their partner)

he obviously can never imagine breaking up with you, but in the instance that things are just not working out, i think he would wanna talk it out in person. text or a letter wouldn’t begin to express his emotions, not to mention how cowardly that is. i think he would spill all his feelings without being able to look you in the eye 💔 like genuinely close to tears, just trying to explain his side without totally breaking down. (i imagined kenny’s crashout over jaNa for this btw… hehe)

F = Feelings (who caught feelings first?)

Definitely a case of she fell first, but he fell harder. you had thought he was attractive for awhile, and quite honestly was super nervous around him, he pretended not to notice when you stumbled over your words or made up stupid conversations just to keep it going. but finally, you gave up and stopped hoping for him to ask you out first. It’s 2025, a girl can ask a guy out! so you put your pride aside, and finally asked him to a super chill, laid back date. He agreed, and fell in love almost instantly. From the very first date, he was soooo whipped. things just went uphill from there, and he never lets you forget you’re the one who initiated things.

G = Gifts (how often do they give their parter gifts? what are their gifts like)

kylian finds a way to give you a gift no matter what. He makes it a habit that whenever he travels to a new city, he either buys you a little souvenir to bring back (when he was Italy he bought this little pink car with the Italian flag on it and a small ❤️ milano on the side, since then, he tries to find one for every country), or when you’re accompanying him, he takes you for a little shopping spree. he loooves buying you huge bouquet of flowers for anniversaries, birthdays or even just randomly. sometimes he’ll surprise you at work by uber eats-ing (is that a word) you an ice coffee or a lunch. like yea hes adorable.

H = Hugs (do they like hugs? how often do they do it? what are their hugs like?)

SUCH A HUGGER. this is the most canon thing i think i could say about him. he loves hugging you, although he likes to act super unphased about it. hugs from the back, as he just towers over you, or from the front as he picks you up off your feet. side hugs as you walk through the city, cuddling on the couch with his hands around your shoulder. omg. hugging right after he scored and dedicated his goal to you and literally squeeezing you youre hitting his back to indicate you still need to breathe..

I = I love you (who said it first? how long did it take)

as mentioned, he was whipped fast. he felt so comfortable and content really quick with you. by the the fourth date, he was already picturing your lives a few years by now and telling all his friends you were “the one”. Like one day, it had probably been almost 4 months by now, you just overheard him talking to his friend, visiting him at training a bit earlier than he was expecting, “no, i’m like deep in love with her,” you were in awe, sure, it was kind of really early… but you felt so loved by him from the very beginning that it didn’t come as a shock to you. you come up behind him and just have this huge smile, grabbing his face and giving him soo many kisses, in between telling him you love him too. cut short by his teammates ooing and ahhing.

J = Jealousy (how jealous so they get? what do they do when they’re jealous?)

to be honest he doesn’t seem like he would get overly jealous and make a scene when a guy would flirt with you or something, but definitely gets a little more mad about the smaller things. starts pouting and throwing a tantrum when you get all dolled up to go out with your friends instead of staying in with him. all like “who are you dressing up for? you know i dont need all this, baby” you roll your eyes but deep down you know he’s literally so annoying and just wants to trick you into staying. realistically, he knows you would never entertain anything with someone else and you’ve never given him a reason to not trust you. if a guy flirted in front of him, would def give you a few pecks on your lips, just to you know, “provide clarity when necessary” in his own words, not yours!

K = Kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss their partner? where do they like to be kissed?

he loves smothering you in kisses. like. he cannot keep his lips off you for a second. his kisses are so tender and passionate and loving LIKE HE IS NOT CASUAL. he will honestly kiss you anywhere. he’s not big on pda so in public, small kisses on your forehead, cheek, or maybe on your hand occasionally. in private though, he will kiss you anywhere and everywhere. it’s very often too, when you first wake up, to go to sleep, to greet each other, even over facetimes he will beg you to kiss the screen just for his sake.

he likes to be kissed on his forehead most, when you grab his face and just plant a small one, he finds it so adorable and tender help me.

L = Love Language (what’s their love language?)

i feel like he’s definitely a little of all, but acts of service and quality time came to mind, the former overpowering though. said this earlier but he just loves getting you gifts, any time of milestone he is so excited just to spoil you. on graduation day he has the entire house filled with balloons, streamers, little grad hats AND A HUGE banner with like my favourite graduate my CHESTT. and a little cake aswell with a cute pun on the top (im sorry im not creative).

and he’ll always plan these little vactions because he knows how hard it is to get together, so when you are, he wants it so special and memorable. He’ll ask his mom or one of your friends to help him pick out some swimsuits or dresses for you, then randomly surprise you with it. youre all confused and he’ll have this huge smile plastered on his face before he tells you where your next destination is. he’ll book all these really private villas, restaurants, planes just so you can be alone.

M = Milestones (What are meaningful “firsts” to them?)

First I love you’s, he always thinks about that, first game you attended, first time you guys had a serious talk about the future, your first trip together, when you moved in, so many!

N = Nicknames (what nicknames do they give their partner? What nicknames do they get in return?)

he’s pretty generic with nicknames for you, simple mon amour, mon coeur, darling, baby. he loves just saying your name in its entirety. for you, you go all out. kyky, kyks, mbappe (just to annoy him).

O = Open (how open are they with their partner? Do they share everything or are they more reserved?)

Okay, i feel like it took him quite a bit of time to start trusting you. yea, he loved you right away, but his fame really gets in the way of what he reveals to others and how reserved he is. at first, you were super understanding, but overtime it started to get in the way of your relationship, and he realized how important it is to be completely open with you. as soon as he made his little realization, he told you every little thing about him it was adorable.

P = Parents (do their parents like you?)

100%. you and his mom are so close, she always refers to you as her own daughter and has no doubt in her mind that you’re the one for him. texts and calls between the two of you are endless, sometimes kylian’s wondering who’s in the relationship with you.. it’s so sweet though, he loves seeing you guys bond. always asks you when you’re finally going to give her the grandchild, and you’re just blushing cause she reminds you so much of your mom. his dad, who is pretty cut and dry tbh, always asks about you and checks in on you.

Q = Quizzes (how much do they remember about their partner)

Sometimes he likes to tease you by randomly asking, “oh wait what was your favourite colour again?” or “you prefer iced coffee? since when?” but he knows literally every thing about you. as soon as the dates started getting more frequent, he would study you like a boooook. your fifth grade traumas, how you got into your degree, your favourite football teams (other than the one hes on, duh), why you have this painting in your house or your dietary restrictions. like just the smallest things he surprises you with and it makes you the happiest person ever.

R = Remember (what’s their favourite memory with their partner?)

it was probably the first day you slept over. It was early on in the relationship, he had a big match the next day, and surprisingly, he was a mess. Literally going over this tactic and that tactic with you, stressed about the crowds, if he was going to let his team down. you calmed him down, and told him you would stay over, if he wanted. he of course was so happy to have you over, and you completely distracted him from his worries. you reminded him that the team is 11 people, and all he needed to do was his best and that would truly be enough. you helped him study the defender he was going up against, the teams overall tactics, even translated a few interviews to give him some insight. he was so touched by how much you were willing to help him. the next day, he scored two goals dedicating both to you.

S = Sad (how do they like to be comforted?)

it breaks your heart whenever he’s upset cause it’s seriously like he’s just in his own headspace and all you can do (and all that he wants) is for you to be present and remind him you’re there. you’re willing to hug him for hours, stroking his back as you just listen to any feelings he’d like to share. Or, you sit in the quiet as you whisper sweet nothings in his ear, just ensuring him things will be okay and you’re ready to talk when he is. When he’s eventually ready to talk, you’ll look him in the eyes as you rub your nails along his triceps and face, just doing your best to give him any advice you can.

T = Touch (what are some ways you guys touch?)

i mentioned this above but again, always has his hand on you. at dinner his hand is probably on your thigh, or playing with your fingers across the table if that’s the situation. fingers in your hair as you sit on the couch, hands intertwined in the car.

U = Ugly (what would be some bad habits of theirs?)

idk why this came to mind but i feel like when you guys are committed to watching a show together, he would just watch ahead of you and lie straight to your face about it. like you’ve been PATIENTLY waiting all week to watch the next episode and the biggest twist comes along but he’s not even phased. Doesnt even try to pretend either. and you put the pieces together and he’s just like oh i have too much time on flights, what else should i do? And you’re genuinely annoyed but he promises to not do it again, gives you a kiss to the head, and just presses play.

V = Vanity (how much do they care about their looks?)

kylian knows he looks good, and hes quite confident in his looks. so he’s pretty chill with getting ready. little extra but, sometimes you pick out his outfits for him and lay them out when you know he’s going out later and you wont be home. you’ll leave them laid out on the bed or dresser and he’ll definitely take a picture and send it off to you. “you did good, honey”

W = Wedding (do they see themselves marrying their current partner?)

without a doubt. he’s imagined your wedding so many times, already practically has everything planned out — from the proposal to the ring to the venue, like he’s literally just so excited for it. obviously waiting for the right time for both of you, already mentioned it in passing as well. just small comments, he can’t wait to call you his wife or telling your friend to get her bridesmaid dress ready. Like you’re on your toes waiting!! he’s already told all the parents about it as well, and of course nobody can imagine seeing either of you without the other, and besides, his parents (like yours) already consider you a daughter. but he wants it to be really memorable, and wants to iron out every little detail before really doing it.

X = Xray (How easily can they read you?)

like a book. whenever you’re trying to pretend you’re not upset, kylian will not let it go until you tell him exactly what it is and how he can help in anyway. Or, there’s times you’ll look out the window in the car, feet turned outwards (we all know what i’m talking about), arms crossed.. he will tease you at first, but ultimately try to make things better if you’re mad at him or pull the car over until you lighten up. like i can imagine him grabbing your jaw to face him, all “baby show me your beautiful face. Come on,” trying to pull your face towards his, but your pride just will not let you fall into his words, and really, you are trying to be mad at him, but he’s too persuasive, and you end up right into his lap.

Y = Yearning (how do they act when they miss their partner?)

according to his teammates and close ones, he becomes insufferable. just constantly mentioning you, just very coincidentally bringing you up in the most random contexts, talking nonstop about when you’re seeing each other next and what you’re going to do. and it doesnt stop there. he bombaaaards you with texts and calls. “hey just checking in,” “missing you extra. please come back,” “do you want anything while i’m in Manchester? they have those cute rectangle watches you wear” and you find it the cutest thing ever. he’ll also try calling you repeatedly, if you don’t answer he gets all moody when you call him back, but he can never stay mad for too long.

Z = ZzZ (how do they like to sleep?)

He WILL spoon you all night. falls asleep to your rhythmic breaths, and the little shapes you trace into his arms. Gives you these little kisses on the side of your head, sometimes on your cheek, sometimes pulling his head over you to get a final kiss on the lips. and he will pull you closer and closer throughout the night… he forgets you need to breathe sometimes. occasionally he’ll prefer to be spooned, but that’s only if he’s had a bad day, or you absolutely insist (and he’ll of course give in). oh and he will continue to say i love you until you say it back, even if he’s aware youre basically asleep already.

[eats-the-stars]

being an adult who makes my own income is also realizing i can actually buy some of the pretty art i see online. some day i might even be bold enough to directly commission an artist.

[egregiousderp]

We’re on day six straight of “wake up in the middle of the night/morning hypervigilant and struggle to sleep again” which means we’re reaching the season of Perma Tension and Overthink.

Can’t wait to get through the next two days of work so I can start my week of suspension.

[bibleofficial]

saw a starfish on the beach today & was absolutely ENAMOURED - literally 3 of us were just squatting over this tide pool watching him move

[isilienelenihin]

I forgot to hit "confirm" when I made my grocery pickup order and now it's not going to be ready for another 4 hours and y'all know I am FIGHTING the urge to just scroll through Tumblr for that whole time because picking up groceries was item #3 on my list of things to do for the day and skipping items is ILLEGAL.

[adore-gregor]

Gregor interview behind a paywall, life's not fair 😅💔

[todayisafridaynight]

Hey so ive been this reading this manga called "ojisama to neko" ( eng: "a man and his cat" ) and its sosososo cute so sweet 10/10 would recommend also THE MAIN MAN LOOKS. KINDA LIKE SAWASHIRO EVEN IF THEIR PERSONALITIES COULDNT BE MORE FAR APART. His name is Fuyuki Kanda and he is very dear to me just thought to share hope u have a wonderful day

NOOOO I LOVE OJISAMA TO NEKO SO MUCH !!!! I REMEMBER WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT YEARS AGO AND I REALLY WANTED PHYSICAL COPIES OF IT DESPITE IT BEING ONLY IN JAPANESE AT THE TIME AAAAAA SUCH A GOOD SERIES I LOVE FUKUMARU SO MUCH….

[faetealights]

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