#sorry if I sound sappy I just

[jils-things]

i am vulnerable and mushy again sniiff

[tomatoart]

this year was very influential in terms of finding out more of what i want to go forward with and continue using and learning for my style, i went out of my comfort zone and tried to branch out in graphics, design, shading, composition, and sooo much more that i realized are so fun to play with !! background attempter era as well LOL finally💥  anyways jerma meal was my fave piece this year!

[bmpmp3]

the really beautiful landscape/skyscape animation in makoto shinkai's works tends to be the big thing i see focused on and that is understandable and deserved like the weather and lighting effects are unREAL but i do think we should also appreciate how absolute insane the plotlines of his original movies get. at least two movies with in universe catastrophes with major ecological implications. the guns and explosions. theres that one movie i havent seen yet with the guy who turns into a chair (?)

[angelthingy]

love u so much patoo I'm so glad I have u ^_____^

aaaahjgjfhsjfhd i love u toooooo <33333333 im genuinely so so happy that i met u like you mean so much to meeeee hsjfndhdhsh i’m rlly glad i have u too :33333333

[kanekisfavoritegf]

my mutuals are so talented

Like genuinely. Seeing them write is truly the best. Whether it’s just a hobby or something they plan to pursue, makes me so happy. Like I love them so much. Even if we don’t talk much, or at all. I just thought I’d say it cause idk thought abt it.

[rexscanonwife]

Giggling and blushing and kicking my feet!! It always feels so GOOD to start fixating on Rex again 🥺💘💘 it feels so natural! Like that's where it's meant to be, you know? And whenever I'm worried that the feeling isn't as strong anymore, literally all I have to do is look at content or rewatch some episodes and it all floods back to me!! That comfortable feeling of KNOWING you're loved, the warmth of being secure with someone and knowing you're protected in their arms, it's always there. Sometimes I just need to be reminded is all.

[qumiiiquinnquin]

im really really sorry for being overdramatic about becoming an adult

it's just

something i was never mentally prepared for

and suddenly i am one. suddenly i have way more responsibilities now , and how my life goes from now on is entirely up to me

plus , i never wanted to grow up. i never wanted to become an adult because it'd mean bidding my childhood farewell

to me , it now feels like all those memories are from and are trapped in a different dimension , because im no longer a kid. im an adult now

and stupidly , i cry while trying to explain this because if it was up to me , my childhood would never end and id relive it over and over again , no matter how much better it could've been ((also had to set down the phone multiple times to pull myself together haha))

now as an adult , im much closer to my fears that i was never ready to face to begin with , and i still don't know how to face them without crumbling right where i stand

it's all extremely overwhelming

i feel like i should be happy , and i am. i somehow made it through 18 years , really major events happening in that timeframe. just 18 years

the first time i contemplated i was 11 , and i attempted nearly two years ago when i was 16. and i still contemplate. yet here i am. 18.

ill probably get over this eventually and just treat it like how everyone else does when they're 18. when? i don't know. there's a lot to expect for the rest of my life and i don't know how to come to terms with it without immediately wishing i could go back to the past.

but hopefully ill be okay. i made it this far , i think i can keep going a little longer. happy 18th birthday , me. you finally did it , you reached the age that always felt impossible and so far away to you. please live a happy life , and live as long as you possibly can. 🎂🪷

((i am going to have a breakdown tonight because im so overwhelmed and sad , but that's okay , because it's all going to be okay.))

[unholydivers]

lately it feels like i find a new way to love myself a little bit more than i did the day before and i’m just. so genuinely grateful for it

[noxtivagus]

i made a new friend who likes ff today hehe

[sleepyagent]

Fuck, only imagining kissing you still makes my heart jump a bit🤡

[screampied]

✩ㅤ cw. fem! reader, unprotected, established relationship, vırgin nanami, cowgirl, praise, size kink, premature ejac, mdni.

virgin nanami loses it once you tell him to ditch the condom.

“sweetheart, i—” he’d swallow, choking up on his words once cool air settles against his skin. he swallows, chewing on his bottom lip once he feels a brand new feeling. the rubbery latex wasn’t blocking him anymore, and he groans once his swollen tip smears up against your entrance. soaked, he grows quiet once he looks down to see your dripping pussy hovering over his reddened frenulum that’s tearing up with glossed pre-cum. “god, ‘s warm,” the blond sucks in a single quickened breath as a curling pout twists against his lips. “a- are you sure?”

“ ‘m sure, baby,” you whisper up against the hot shell of his ear. he’s so warm, his entire body arouse with temperature all because of the sweet sound of your voice. the center of your palm rubs against his cheek and he leans into your touch. metaphoric heart eyes form in his eyes as they dilate, his own thumping heart beating out of his chest. “ ‘s okay, inside.”

“f- fuck,” nanami’s head gradually tosses itself back, and with quick alignment, he’s back inside. he kisses his teeth once he feels the real thing, your silvery walls massaging around him. the glossy sweat that pours onto his skin shines against his body glimmers brightly. he groans, letting off a soft whine once he feels the brief tightness grow snug. “you’re gonna make me—”

and within seconds, he’s cumming, hard. nanami barely even last a second after you take off the rubber, and he’s an entire mess. with a firm grasp, he’s reanimating your hips with his hands as you slowly jerk and move. “please,” he gently pierces his teeth into your neck, shivering breath ghosting against your skin. “don’t stop, s- show me how to feel good, please.”

his words were like a broken rough whisper — you pause, staring into his eyes and he’s sincere.

nanami’s heavily panting, beads of sweat racing down each sides of his forehead. fawn kind eyes bore into yours before he glances down at your sprawled out legs. “so pretty,” he hiccups, and even his touch was delicate. he was always gentle, he didn’t want to hurt you. a few thick padded fingers drag and scurry down your hips before his lip quivers. “i- i want you, i want more.”

“so have me then,” you coo against his ear, the tone of your voice more teasing than anything. as your hips start to salaciously rock into him again, you grab onto both of his wrists, trying to guide him. “there we go, ‘ken,” you whisper, and you can hear a bundle of wanton whimpers leave from his lips—never has he had a feeling like this, ever. he was so weak from your touch, your body heat, your taste. as your fingers tenderly brush against his, you make him cling onto your rickety waist. “hold me, like this.”

nanami groans, and he’s still sensitive, very. he just came, ribbons of balmy hot seed shoots deep into you and it’s warm. it makes both of his ears ring and he only wants more, more, more.

“okay,” he replies in a husky voice, and you can see blond shaggy strands of hair glue across his forehead. “o- okay,” he repeats, his tone dropping a bit lower. the bed mercilessly creaks as your rocking accelerates, his bulbous tip jabbing around every part of your cunt. once you show him how to touch you, he just can’t keep his hands off of you. “i dreamt about this for so long, sweetheart,” and he watches your pretty lips contort into an amused simper. “s- sorry, is that too dirty?”

“it’s fine baby,” you plant a kiss near the inside of his neck. a long breath gets caught in his throat. he’s about to say something else but he pauses, pouting deeply. cute, he’s embarrassed. nanami’s cock continues to rummage through your doughy insides, so much pressure that you feel it everywhere. your sappy folds squelch within each solid thrust before your arms wrap around his broad shoulders. “you dream about me?”

“sometimes, yeah,” he huffs, and the irregular unkempt thrusts slowly transform into pure blissful sync. nanami looks so pretty, he’s losing the more you bounce on his cock. so good, his jaw tightens and he’s feeling every vein in his body prod. you were starting to grow dumb as each second past and your moans only grew louder right with him. nanami’s head buries itself into your neck before he lefts off a frustrated whine. “it’s hard not to when you’re so pretty,” and his voice cracks at the end. you feel the tip of his tongue swirl around near your collarbone and you gasp. “god, you’re even prettier inside t- too.”

“yeah?” you whisper, creating a trail of sloppy kisses down the slip of his exposed neck. he’s moaning more at your touch. you feel his beefy thigh start to bounce before his palm squeezes against your bare ass. “you gonna cum for me again, kento? ‘s okay, be a good boy ‘n make a mess for me.”

a sheepish smile stretches against his lips, though instead of sheepish smile—it’s more of a pussy drunk one.

as you stare at him, his dimples poke against both sides of his cheeks and he’s getting lost into the way your hips twirl around him. “your good boy, mhm. all yours, ‘m gonna cum a- again,” and his voice lowers significantly. your clit’s profusely getting thwacked and mashed up against his fattened tip and it’s so appetizing. with nanami’s soft mousy eyes flicking backward until it’s nothing but pure white in his sockets, he gives your ass a soft spank. “k- keep riding me like that ‘n i’m gonna fall in love.”

and it’s right as he said that — he came again.

this time it’s a lot more. it’s thicker and languidly, you feel it spew out in velvety strips. his entire base was flaccid and he’s just idle inside of you. nanami’s whimpering underneath you as his legs finally collapse. you watch him fall back against the cushioned pillows and he’s so flustered. “mhh,” he grouses as multiple jittery pants leave from his lips. nanami wraps strong burly arms around you, holding you close. “stay,” he rasps, still hearing the sloshes of his dribbling cum trickle in and out of you. he’s shivering, his teeth shattering and he’s never felt more sensitive. he’s definitely in love.

“okay,” you nod, feeling him hide his head into the crook of your neck again. he’s so clingy—but you didn’t mind, and his warm breath tickles against your skin. you get a brief scent of his rich cologne scent that drives forevermore drove you weak. sitting up to press a chaste kiss against his twitching ruby lips, you whisper shakily. “good boy.”

and nanami’s eyes were so half lidded, your praises—he couldn’t get enough of them. seconds later and he’s still pouring into you deep, painting your gummy walls with his pristine-white color. with droopy eyes and flapping long lashes taking in your beauty, nanami whines. “more, don’t stop fucking me,” and you let off a gasp once he suddenly lifts you off his lap, lying you flat on your back. you land with a soft ‘oof’ before he spreads your legs, gazing at the satiny masses of cum that race down the crevices of your thighs.

“please,” and you moan once he drags his tongue up your legs, stopping towards your puffy clit. “teach me h- how to eat this,” and his eyes rove towards your slobbering cunt. you feel butterflies build up in your tummy before nanami’s quite literally drooling right before you. not only was he probably in love, he was also hungry.

“please mistress.”

[lovelyrotter]

words sincerely cant describe how good it feels to have my system twin back. smth happened with my memory (i think hes holding a lot of 'my stuff' if you wanna put it like that) so i dont remember spending a lot of time with him but he does and its. holy fuck i missed him in a way i can barely fuckin fathom. him coming back and me remembering how much i missed him was like suddenly being aware of a missing limb you swore you still had. i wish i could accurately describe this to singlets but i cant. like i dont have the words. i love him

[bmpmp3]

grabs u by the throat LISTEN to the vocal version of ikesen's theme by Maiko Fujita

[thedevotionaltour]

this is literally the year of the matt toy.

[stary-night]

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[humanmutate]

their asses were not kidding when they said just wait to move out and just go out and make friends maybe it is fr that easy