#spoot writes

[pastafossa]

IS YOUR AFFINITY FOR WOOD CARVING THE REASON WHY JANE IS HOLDING A WOODEN DUCK IN THE FIRST CHAPTER.

IT IS! When I was writing the first chapter I was trying to think of juuuust the right hilarious little object for her to be holding - something a kid could love but also might look like a weird shape if Matt was scanning it with his senses. GUESS WHO WAS ON MY SHELF BY MY PC? THAT'S RIGHT, A WOODEN DUCK, MY FIRST CARVING EVER.

This is Spoot the Duck when he was first carved in August 17, 2017, and TRT chapter 1 was posted September 15th, 2017 one month later!

COINCIDENCE?

I

THINK

NOT

[sforspoot]

I am full of new year cheer…

(It’s my mental break down, and I get to pick my New Year Cheer song-)

-Time spent, 1hr

-12/31/2022

Woah, these past 14 days have been insane… Like, I never thought people would like my art as much as they do!!!!

We’re on the fast track too 100 followers! And have already smashed over 1,000 notes(over all of my posts!)!!!! I cannot thank everyone enough!!! I’m so excited for the future of this blog! And I’m excited to interact more with the community!!!!

If you’re seeing this go and look at some of my other stuff! I’m always trying to post quality Submas/Pokémon related content every(or every other) day!!

-Genuine heart felt regards, Spootie boi! <3

(Extra: below the Read More is lists of my favorite posts, and people and so on. Just a overview of this year as it comes too the end!(also some old art from earlier this year- so I can embarrass myself!!!))

TOP POSTS SO FAR(A linked overview!)

(Most noted) (As of making this)

(My birthday post!) (My 18th!)

(My first post ever!) (It feels like it was just literally 14 days ago-)

(My favorite post I’ve ever made!) (I just like Mellis face-)

MY FAVORITE PEOPLE! And artists that I’ve gained inspiration from a lot in my art journey(who are also my favorite people-)

Sorry for the @‘s if wanted I will remove, just dm and ask me!!

@sophisticatedferret :My best friend, and partner in crime. We share a braincell, I will kill for this person. I might have already killed for this person-

@nartothelar :I’ve looked at their art literally everywhere, I adore their art so much. And looking at their art gave me the idea to start a Tumblr in the first place lolllll-

@nc-eikin :A funky cool writer whom of which I appreciate so much for the support!

@aantarexs :I’ve also seen their art everywhere!!! They’re a very kind person to talk too and I appreciate them so much!!! Their art inspires me to the tenth degree!

@sunshine-vx :A friend that has shown me ceaseless support and I truly do appreciate with all my heart!!! they’re so kind!!! And amazing!!!

@hoofpeet :This artists art inspires me so much, looking at it just gives me ideas for things I could make and write!!! I truly appreciate their presence in the online Sphere!!!

OLD ART TIME-

Ready to see me embarrass myself?

Okay-

All of this is from earlier this year! (If you’re interested in seeing me embarrass myself further- if we get too 100 followers I’ll show more old Spoot art- and maybe do some redraws!!)

[cloudbattrolls]

While I'm at it, knocked Shedir off of others since while I haven't gotten to show it yet I'm gonna kill her off for plot when I get around to it.

I liked her revamp concept but I have felt zero compulsion to use her and if I wanna do streamer shenanigans I have Arriak, who I have more inclination to use.

Also knocked off Indrid since when I tried writing her in Spoots and I's thread it was like typing through molasses and I think her muse is just dead in the water.

Added Taimil since I would like to do things with my racer girl, once I flesh her out a bit more.

[sforsus]

Info for this blog. I recommend reading it.

—Introducing myself-

Hiya! I’m Spoot! I’m the one who runs this blog, I’m a fumbling 18 year old who likes art. And appreciates writing, sadly however not all this art and not all this appreciation i can show on main. As being Suspicious on main is never a good idea-(Don’t do it it’s not worth it-).

This is a side account so I don’t have a posting schedule unlike my main that has one, so do NOT expect a solid posting schedule, but DO expect at least one or two posts a week.

—Why I make art:

•I make art to help me love myself, wether that be with my dysphoria or just not feeling well. And me being a trans-masc individual(you can see where this is going) there will be many many men(and sometimes women) here! In many many situations, for lewd eyes to enjoy in their entirety- you will be subjected too my fantasies so you’re walking into this willingly-. I’ll post from whatever fandom I’d like here as well, it won’t all be Submas.

•I also make art to cope with every day struggles, like depression and anxiety/ADHD, so on so on. So anything I deem too adult too post on main will also go here, that includes Vent art.

•I finally make art like this to practice anatomy, being nakey isn’t always sexual, or sad, sometimes it’s just beautiful. I’ll be posting anatomy practices of the nakey verity I do here as well. Like I said being nakey isn’t inherently sexual, but I will be putting it here anyway. Because I don’t want to put it on main.

-Fandom?

-Submas

-Pokémon

(Will add more if need be)

—What tags do I use?:

List of tags and what they’re for👇 (I may use multiple of these on one post, so make sure to block a tag of mine if that content is something you don’t want to see from me. Like my vent art, so on.)(Don’t worry about memorizing these or anything, I’m serious, I just love being overly organized-)

•#SForSus , General tag that I will be putting on all my posts. To make them easily found and recognizable as mine(You might wanna include this tag if you’re reblogging something of mine, entirely up to you.)

•#SForSpread , My reblog tag I use when reblogging materiel I did not make <3

•#SForSweaty , Explicitly sexual content. Aka content that I’ve made or reposted that is inherently sexual.

•#SForShowy , Nakey things that is not supposed to be sexualized. Either made for appreciation, used in vent art, or for anatomy practice.

•#SForSorrow , Vent art/posts from me.

||Fandom tags/others||

•#SForSubmas , Submas posts <3

•#SForSelf , posts of self insert things

•#SForSelfMade , oc posts <3

—Big No No’s and yes yes’s

Yes yes I will/accept:

•Asks in my ask box

•ideas for future posts

•Always tag my posts correctly using the tags I have listed.

•include trigger warnings, content warnings when needed.

•try my hardest to be respectful, honest and kind to everyone.

No no I will not/not accept:

•Allow anyone under the age of 18 onto this blog, anyone who doesn’t have their age in their bio And follows me will be blocked as well without question.

•Allow BlankShippers/Incest/Rape/(Blantant and Genuine)Homophobia/Transphobia/Racism/Sexism anywhere near me. If I find you are engaging in these behaviors, I will block you without hesitation.

-Closing thoughts

I hope that you enjoy your stay here! If you’d like you can check out my other art on my main. I won’t be even alluding too this tumblr on my main, as I want to keep these separate from each other.

But other than that!

-Introducing the regards, Spootie boi!

[sebthesnipe]

The Art of Painting Literature

You know I get strange looks when people discover that my dream in life is to become an editor. No one hears about famous editors or rich ones for that matter so why would I chose such a career as opposed to something more profitable. The answer is art.

Sounds strange doesn’t it? It’s not really. You see, grammar is not as strict as most English teachers would have you believe. Grammar is flexible, prone to perspective, just as a painting is.

Most art lovers can look at a painting and see the wait each particular artist within them. It could be the brush strokes or the color pallet. Regardless, each painting is different. Each painting is unique and beautiful in its own way. One may feel dark and gloomy while another is bright and energetic. Why is it that we consider these things when looking at a painting but not a work of literature?

  I suppose that I don’t see the difference between a painting and a work of literature. Each writing had their own style, their own feel, their own brush strokes. Some writings will overuse comma, creating long beautiful descriptive sentences that flow continuously throughout a whole paragraph, similar to the style of Edvard Munch’s paintings. Others may be more technical, avoiding commas as best they can and creating short concise sentences that dot break up a paragraph link an impressionist painting by Monet.

Regardless of style or preference each of these writers pour themselves onto the page just as painters do. The see these beautiful landscapes and stories but instead of applying paint to canvas they choose to use ink on paper. The create fantastical worlds of magic that we could never make on our own and share it with the population. They express beauty and suspense just as the best painters do!

So, why is it so strange to view writings as an equally beautiful artform? Why is it so strange that I dream of becoming an editor? I think its all a matter of perspective and the best part is that as an editor I get to glimpse the wondrously stunning works of art before the rest of the word. How can you say no to that?

[writeble]

hiii pinned post.. this is where i’ll post shit about my ocs! read more for the tagging system

tags

#my ocs — posts about my ocs just generally

#my writing — my stuff

#prompts — writing prompts

#inspo — inspiration :]

#magic — magic system stuff

ocs

#elizabeth morana — (she/no preference) tall sexy vampire oc. lesbian

#cat west — (she/her) nature magic specialist oc. bi trans

#jay coles — (he/they) tall sexy shapeshifter oc. unlabeled sexuality & trans

#julian malus — (he/they/it) emo singer oc (projection) also bi & trans/non-binary

#spoot — (they/it) angel oc. nicknamed spoot because their name is incomprehensible. unlabeled

romantic relationships

#lizacat — elizabeth and cat ship content (canon)

#jj — julian and jay ship content (canon)

platonic relationships

#spootlizabeth — spoot and elizabeth

#joot — jay and spoot

#julispoot — julian and spoot

#catspoot — cat and spoot

#jaylizabeth — jay and elizabeth

#lizlian — elizabeth and julian (STRESSING SO HARD THIS IS PLATONIC SINCE THEYRE RELATED)

#jaycat — jay and cat

#julicat — julian and cat

[lovesanmotion]

HELLO! First I wanted to say I really love your writing 💘 and Then I wanted to request a Dom!Hongjoong x sub!reader where there's a big party for idols and they can bring their dates, but there's another idol trying to get close to the reader which makes joong jealous and angry :O I'm sorry if its too much.. idk how to explain TT

Be My Lover - Kim Hongjoong

💌 This is: Requested

taglist: @yunhobabygurl @atiny-chocolate-chip @minhyukmyluv @yunhoandonly

You never thought you'd be surrounded by highly influential and powerful people around you in a dimly lit room.

The bass of music blared all over the floors, idols talking and laughing with other idols, sipping cocktails being served by black and white tie waiters. Everyone in this room has either: won a bonsang, daesang, album of the year, song of the year or any award in no particular.

Earlier, the year end awards were held and your boyfriend Kim Hongjoong, along with his group, ATEEZ, attended the said event and bagged two awards. Before anyone else could go home, an after party was held at the top floor of a luxurious hotel right next to the location of the awards event.

But Hongjoong taught you very well that some awards didn't arrived into the hands of the right owners.

"Y/N!" San was surprised to see you as he entered the hall, wrapping his arms around you for a friendly hug.

"Y/N!!!" Wooyoung almost screamed, running towards you as he spooted you, immediately engulfing you into a tight hug.

The boys were like your brothers and you were thankful to have meet them. Thankful that they keep Hongjoong afloat and on the ground.

"You look pretty in your dress, noona!" Jongho compliments with a smile.

"Hello, baby" Hongjoong says, greeting you as he walks closer to you, placing a kiss on your cheek while placing a hand on your lower back. "Is there anything I can get you?" He asks.

"A drink would be nice" You said, smiling shyly at how handsome he looks tonight with his hair slicked back. Sometimes you wonder if his scalp is hurting from coloring his hair too much or did he just kept it all inside.

"Got it. I'll be right back!" With a huge smile on his lips, he leans to place a kiss on your cheek before heading to the mobile bar. The other boys have already gone and were either helping themselves at the dessert booth or dancing at the dance floor - leaving you alone at the group's booth.

"What's a pretty girl like you doing here all alone on a night like this?"

You lifted your head up and found Cravity's Minhee standing in front of you. You smiled at him then shook your head. "I'm not alone. My boyfriend just went to get us drinks."

Minhee's eyes then darted at the name of the current group this table's reserved for. His lips formed a shape before he tried to get closer to you. "Your boyfriend isn't here though. Is he the small guy? The one named Hongjoong?"

Gulping, you never liked talking about your boyfriend's insecurity. But what Hongjoong lacks, he always makes it up for in different ways. "You know, you should be with someone more taller. In that way, they could protect you better." Minhee smiles and points to himself. "Don't I fit the picture?"

You didn't bothered answering his question. Furthermore, your palms started to sweat and wondered what's taking Hongjoong so long. It was until, Minhee grabbed your forearm. "Come with me and I'll treat you really good."

You tried hard to force and yank your arm away from his grip, but it was no use - Minhee was stronger.

"If a lady says no, it means no. That's not an invitation for you to force her." Hongjoong calmly spoke as he reached you two. He set the two glasses of strawberry daiquiri's before punching Minhee square in the jaw, falling down on the ground.

Hongjoong didn't stop there, he squat down and grabbed his collar, repeatedly punching him in the face that blood started to trickle down his nostrils. All the idols stopped and slowly backed away from the two of them, their respective group members trying to pull them apart.

"Hey, you dropped something." Hongjoong says as Mingi and Yunho took his arms and restrained him from going after Minhee. Before Minhee could ask what was something he dropped, Hongjoong took the opportunity to extend his leg out to kick his chin.

"You dropped your manners." He says, panting heavily before yanking out his body. "And that's for Y/N" with that Hongjoong took your hand and led you out of the hall.

"Ouch!"

"Maybe if you didn't punched him you wouldn't be crying like this" You joked.

You and Hongjoong returned back to the hotel room and minutes later, the manager came striding in and gave Hongjoong an earful how bad this would look on the group and the company. But when Hongjoong started to explain what really happened that moment, the manager looked at him dumbfoundedly and wished his hand a speedy recovery.

"I could have bruised him up some more if only the boys didn't pulled me up" He frowned, looking away. Lifting your head up, you found it cute how his lips would form the smallest pout. And matching it with staring off somewhere? It was an adorable small trait of his.

"You look cute" You say

"I'm not cute!" Hongjoong scoffs, blushing at your comment to which it didn't go unnoticed by you. Chuckling at his cute antics.

"You're cuter than me." Hongjoong says, huffing as he looks at you after you've treated his hand.

"Come be cute with me in bed?" You asked, voice laced with lust as you laid down in the soft sheets. Taking the invitation, Hongjoong stood up from his seat, thankful to have someone like you in his life.

[sukisdeliveryservice]

hi ash :D how was your day? my day has been weird lmao my laptop died so now im on my uncle's apple one and its pretty weird cuz ive only used android my whole life but oh well. about my knitting, im planning on making a sweater! im still reaserching and doing the size calculations but im pretty excited! it's my first big project! what about you? what do you make?

you dont have to apologise! im glad you liked the questions :) sorry for the headache eheh

for the questions :

which of your biases would you want to spend a week with?

i'd say kyeom for svt bc he seems more friendlier? i have a feeling it wouldn't be as awkward with him than with shua even though shua speaks enlish dhfjdjdh for nct i'd say renjun! mainly its because i can speak chinese, and he can speak chinese, but also because he's closer to my age compared to my other biases :3

what food would you be okay with eating for the rest of your life?

i'd have to say sushi :D it has quite a wide selection and it has rice and the occasional vegetable and also protein. and it also tastes heavenly so i really wouldn't mind lmao

sign with sm, yg or jyp?

honestly, i think i'd sign to sm. i dont think i could stan working for a boss who's so full of himself like jyp, and he's also known to body shame his idols, and considering my childhood trauma i'd rather not go back down that lane. and for yg, well, looking at their groups promotions, i just dont think i'd be satisfied lmao so sm is really the only option left. but like you, i think i would sign with kq as well, or even weeekly's company. from what ive seen they're doing pretty well, and they even changed the lyrics when weeekly covered kiss me more. the bar is wayyy too low but ive actually never seen that happen in this industry so it's a start

know how to play every single instrument or speak language in the world?

i'd also rather speak every language. it would be more practical to be able to speak to everyone

be a master at something you love or something unique?

i'd say something i love, which could be singing or writing. then i'd be able to make a career and maybe a mark in history with it 🤪

thanks for your questions <333 it was fun thinking about spending the day with kyeom exploring sushi :'D

now since we've already done the movie, books and songs recs, we're onto our last question! kiss marry and kill :D so here are some people 😌 :

chan, soobin, soonyoung

wonwoo, joshua, minghao

yeonjun, yoongi, hyunjin

chan(skz), jisung(skz), beomgyu

dahyun, jisoo, yuna

ryujin, irene, iu

lisa, yeri, jihyo

nayeon, yeji, momo

also, for the playlist making, i was thinking maybe i make one for you and you make one for me? would that be ok with you?

- 💎 anon who also wants to remind you to hydrate regularly <3

hi anon!! nice to hear from you again hehe :3 aww i hope that you were able to get used to the apple software thing! i too have been an android user for pretty uch everythingg except for my ipad on which i draw on :)

a sweater!! that's so lovely, lmk how it goes! i like doing amigurumi? so crocheting little figurines is what i like to do. today is my day off!! so i'm just organizing this ktown assorted album group order :D

ahh i loved reading your responses anon!! definitely agree with what you said about the entertainment companies though, like i don't thinl there's one that's really good?? exploring a day with kyeom and eating only sushi ,,, sushi date with kyeom? i wanna keep this in the ideaas bank heh heh heh

anyways...this kmk you sent is going to ,,, anyways let's see how this goes FHDSJFKCD you really had to throw all of my biases in there and make my head spin (i love it though anon) TW WARNING UNDER // mentions of the word k*ll

kiss!chan, marry!soobin, kill!soonyoung - i feel terrrible already

killwonwoo, marry!joshua, kiss!minghao - i know i cry about my other biases a lot but believe me when i say joshua is my ideal guy kdsjckds

kiss!yeonjun, marry!yoongi, kill!hyunjin

marry!chan(skz), kill!jisung(skz), kiss!beomgyu - why do i feel like best friend beomgyu is the ideal person to have a first kiss with wahh

marry!dahyun, kill!jisoo, kiss!yuna

kiss!ryujin, kill!irene, marry!iu - (bunny if you see this i'm so sorry)

kill!lisa, kiss!yeri, marry!jihyo

marry!nayeon, kill!yeji, kiss!momo

i'd love to make you a playlist anon! one thing though - do you think your spoots will give away your url? i can def make one tho!! will start tmw after work hehe

i will hydrate daily! and you should too! send you lots of hugs anon, have an amazing day because you deserve it and so much more :3

[marxsound]

do u remember amy denio?

her recording studio was called “spoot” she said “the 4 by 3 foot space at the end of my bed”  so i recorded yesterdaze track on my un-made bed... was gonna try the multi-track options in Wavepad but chickened out (oh well) ended up using the tascam 4 trk on batteries with couple pedals-the ping pong delay and the Donner Alpha..(todaze guitar geek report) so i think the “writing” in stuff like “WET intervals” or” the ancients” or the 1st “slush-pile piece” is somewhat better than last nite*s piece......  wotinell do i know?  so i might get around to more “geezers in a bar” today or i might try part 2 of  “un made bed”  Stay Tuned

[monstersandmaw]

Hello there! I spooted your post about you writing as a career? I'm a god damn clown creature, and I have a story I desperately wanna write, but being riddled with mental illnesses and motor skill difficiencies it's labourous, hard, and bordering impossible to get started, could you be commissioned to write a story?

Hi, thanks for reaching out! My commissions are currently closed, but keep an eye on my blog header for when they’re open, and we can definitely discuss something based on the ideas that you undoubtedly have! I’d love to create something with you when my plate is a little less full in the future, and when I open up commissions again.

[pastafossa]

Before I get on the road:

As requested by @delete-this-when-i-die here's a pic of the first thing I ever woodcarved, AND one of the inspos for the first Red Thread chapter - a chapter that included a small wooden duck which kicked off the epic love saga! I knew I needed her to hold something small, something with the potential for humor, as well as something a kid might like or keep as they grew older, but I wasn't sure what to use. Fortunately, this little wooden duck was sitting on my shelf by my PC, and I realized he fit perfectly!

[captain-habit]

Song ask!: 1, 5, 6, 14, 17!

MUSIC ASKS

Favorite song right now

SO MANY, but uh, you get two

5.Good song for road trips

....because who doesn't love the Monster Mash?? (I was trying to think of something silly and well known lmao)

6. Good song for writing

Honestly ANYTHING from "Two Steps From Hell" is excellent writing music.

14. Happy(?) song

17. Another underrated song!!

The hardest part about ask things like this is that I KNOW there are better answers, but I always draw blanks and just look to my Spoot lists for ideas, even though I only started using it in the last few years so it's hardly reliable LOL

THANKS~

[sforspoot]

Ah hello, welcome! I am Spoot. You may also call me Ingie, I don’t mind as it’s a nickname of mine. Well, expect fandom(Most likely Submas) art, as well as possibly Oc’s. Possibly memes and re-blogs, possibly stories I write. (AKA) I’m going to use this as my creativity dump.

(My opinions and expectations on Bl*nk shipping here)

If I include Music in a post, it pertains  too that post in some way shape or form. So if you want you can listen :3

-Kindest Regards, Spootie Boy<3

——Posting schedule——

-Currently once or twice every other day, not always art but still.

——Current song obsession——

——Art Mediums——

-Digital, Ibis Paint X/Krita(Depending on where I am)

-Traditional, pencil/pen

——Fandoms——

-SanderSides

-Pokémon(in general)

-Submas

-Stardew Valley

[cloudbattrolls]

Honestly speaking of with retconning her in the Day Howlers I think I just fucking. Can’t write Indrid anymore. I have no idea why. I still like her concepts and everything and I was never ruined on her. But trying to work on my reply to Spoots is like typing through molasses. Absolutely baffling.

[austinpanda]

Dad Letter 032022

20 March, 2022

Dear Dad--

Last week was better than most! Granted, I got a bunch of money, but they say it’s not supposed to buy you happiness. (They lie! Ha!) So now I’ve paid off one credit card, paid a few other bills, bought myself a few necessities, and paid for the disco light I recently ordered.

Regarding the disco light. It’s basically four lasers and a small bank of high-intensity LEDs, so they kind of flood the space (the not very large space) with colored light, while the lasers do their thing. There are two lasers, green and red, which just point straight ahead, while filters move in front of them, and make them form patterns that can rotate clockwise. It makes a green laser turn from one point of bright green light to a bunch of rotating green laser stars, for example. The other two lasers, red and blue, are animated! You may ask, “Hey, you said the other ones moved. You’re a lying sack of shit.” Well, those were just filters. The red and blue animated lasers actually bounce off little mirrors on little precision motors that move the red and blue laser points around fast enough to draw things, like at the planetarium.

So, when everything is on, it’s kind of spooting red and green laser designs all over stuff, in a kinda neat way, while red and blue lasers are flying so fast they’re making synchronized animated Yodas and shit, while bright LEDs flood the room with color and do stroboscopic shit. It’s kind of like a gay bar in your dining room; at least that’s where I have mine. I was disappointed by one feature, however. It has a microphone, and it’s supposed to react with the beat if you’re playing music loud enough. Since the thing makes disco light in zillions of combinations, I figured it would change combinations with the beat. Wrong! Basically, it cycles through all of its effects, like it always does, but the whole thing switches off and on in time with the beat. That part can kiss my ass. But it came with a remote with lots of control buttons, so I’ll learn those, and gain disco light mastery.

You probably wonder, “Why did you buy that, you utter homosexual?” Well, lots of reasons. First and foremost, who else do you know with disco lights this goddamn good? No one, that’s who. And it’ll be a cool thing to have on if I ever have a party here, which I hope to do someday. Also, if any enemy aircraft are ever overhead--like if I find myself in Ukraine with my disco lights--I can use them to try to blind the pilots. Plus, in case it needs saying, it’s a light fixture that makes beautiful light. It’s not light you’d want to try to read with. (Jesus, that would kill some people.) But the light itself is gorgeous; it paints beauty into the air. If you can put some smoke into the air, it’s even prettier.

I mentioned getting my income tax refund. I hoped it would come in time to use last weekend. Naturally, it waited until the middle of the week, on pay day, to arrive. And since I’m unable to use any of it to take myself on vacation (it’s not that many hundos) I’m using it to live as an unpoor person for a few weeks! I’m paying ahead on everything, sticking some into savings, getting ALL THE GAS for my car, not just X dollars worth, ya know? Got some of the good donuts for my coworkers, from Gosselin’s Bakery, not Dunkin. You fly Weidmann, you fly first class, goddammit.

Work today was somewhat trying. (I’m writing this one on Sunday evening, having had a full weekend doing not a damn thing.) I got this morning off to a great start, completing the hardest part of the hardest audit in record time. Then around midday, a Big Problem arose, and then got resolved. Basically, an important thing was lost, and then found, by me, after involving the surveillance department. So that was a big noise about nothing, which I could have avoided entirely, if only I’d known that I already had the thing I needed. Then, at the end of the day, during what should have been the simplest audit, everything went pear-shaped. Had to text the boss, who took the day off, and in the end, had to leave a mess for Tyler and me to clean up tomorrow. So…great morning, then okay day, then dog shit afternoon. It pleases me that my most difficult day of the week is, by far, the first day.

You know…I went months and months needing a hard drive for my living room PC, only to find out that I can get something with a lot more storage space, for less money, if I just get a flash drive. I wanted a 1 terabyte hard drive for my media PC, put it on the wishlist that Zach and I share, and it was over $45. Then I looked, and found a 2 terabyte flash drive for $30. D’oh! Now I’m doing a massive transfer of video files to a tiny flash drive that would fit inside my nose, if it had to. Hooray, first world problems!

I’m watching Batman vs. Superman! Holy crap, this movie takes itself seriously.

Imma wrap this up and have some enjoyable evening before I run out of evening to have it in!

RJW

[httpskyo-blog]

RECOVERY | pov!

PRIMEIRAS 38 HRS 

Kyo tinha conseguido aguentar bem as primeiras vinte e quatro horas, apesar da dor absurda que sentia por todo o seu corpo o que realmente lhe fazia querer arrancar a própria cabeça a maldita ansiedade. Se ele estivesse correto e sua habilidade em contar ainda não tivesse sido prejudicada estava ali naquele quarto há quase quarenta horas. O loiro sabia que os enfermeiros estavam do lado de fora, esperando qualquer sinal dele para entrar e interferir contudo, ele não queria ver ninguém.

58 HORAS

 A enfermeira ainda estava verificando sua pressão quando a ânsia de vômito o fez se curvar em direção ao chão, aquela tinha sido a terceira vez no dia que aquilo tinha acontecido. Ele não tinha feito qualquer queixa sobre as dores mas, qualquer leigo podia perceber o quanto ele estava sofrendo. Sentiam-se péssimo, as cólicas abdominais fazia-se contorcer a todo momento. A única luz que entrava no quarto vinha por entre as frestas da cortina, a dor e o desconforto eram tão intensos que o loiro sentia como se pudesse morrer a qualquer momento. Mais cedo naquele dia o médico tinha passado no seu quarto para explicar novamente como tudo funcionava, que graças ao seu estilo de vida muito saudável a limpeza do seu organismo era mais fácil mas Kyo não sentia-se bem, muito menos que aquilo tudo estava sendo ‘fácil’. 

14 DIAS  

A comida do hospital não era tão ruim, o pior momento do seu dia com certeza era quando se via obrigado frequentar as sessões de psicoterapia. Mesmo não querendo se abrir com a psicóloga Kyo se obrigou a contar uma ou duas coisas pessoais, a primeira era sobre o acidente de sua antiga banda e como ainda se sentia culpado por todas aquelas mortes e de como tinha se deixado ser atingido por aquilo. A médica não parecia surpresa quando o loiro desatou a falar sobre a perda da filha, tinha levado muito tempo até que conseguisse dizer outra coisa além do de sempre. Apesar disso, a sensação de leveza aos poucos tomava conta do seu ser. Ainda era muito estranho estar longe de tudo e de todos porém, ele tinha começado a se sentir grato por aquela reabilitação.  

VIGÉSIMO OITAVO E PENÚLTIMO DIA 

A terapia em grupo podia ser muito interessante, principalmente quando se passa quase trinta dias sem celular e internet. Antes de começar oficialmente o tratamento Kyo tinha ligado para o designer que tinha feito o anel de Addie meses atrás, graças aos deuses o homem ainda mantinha algumas fotos do objeto sendo assim, não houve problema para criar outro exatamente igual e com os mesmo dizeres de antes. O loiro tinha recebido a encomenda dias atrás, tinha ficado feliz com o resultado impecável da joia.

Kyo sairia do hospital na tarde do dia seguinte, mas antes disso ele precisava fazer algo. Pegando uma caneta e um papel, começou a escrever. 

‘‘First of all, you should know how bad my words are when I'm writing a song. I asked the doctor to send this letter along with this puppy because then you wouldn't say no, she's cute isn't she? I adopt her when a lot of dogs came to see the kids, yep, that's right. They really keep a lot of sick children here with this shit addicts. They are separate places but still, this against the law, right? Anyway I didn't choose a name so feel free to do it, maybe spoot can help you with that.

I'm going out tomorrow and all I can think it's how sorry I'm messing with your life, I guess I didn't know what to say at time; but now I guess I'm sure.  I’m sorry. I really am sorry. And I need you to know that I do love you, I love you like I never loved anyone.

It’s like I’m watching the world through a shattered glass, and everywhere I look I see your reflection, because I can't stop thinking about you.  

More than anything, I want lazy Sundays in bed with you, clean sheets and coffee and that particular smell of golden light streaming through an open window. I want lightning and thunder outside, and you, holding me closely. I want the kindness and love that flows out of you when you move and laugh and smile. But I also want you to know that I can take your worst, I will show you how I still love you just the same.

Addison, you're the most strong, kind and sweet person I ever meet.  And everything you do make me so proud, understood? EVERYTHING!!

I had everything that I normal person want, fame, money, awards and talent. But nothing compared to your hips, your lips and touch. I wish people could know how you made my life better, I want to be with you, it is as simple that I won't complicated things again.

And you should know that I still feel butterflies in my stomach when I'm near you, just like I did the first time you told me you loved me. What I really mean is, I love you. I want not only be with you again but I want a future, a good one, you know? Without all the drama and lies. 

I almost forgot! If you look closely at her collar, you will see your ring.  The moment you put that ring on your finger it will become official, you're mine Addison Dawson. 

Always.’’ 

Assim que ele terminou deu as instruções para uma enfermeira, ela dirigiria até o endereço da garota e daria-lhe a carta junto com a cachorrinha.