#sry to be sappy on main but

[hinamie]

surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

[sootsprite19]

so my friends, my girlfriend, and i were all watching the last of us tonight and in the middle of all of us watching one of the most powerful queer stories i’ve ever seen on mainstream television, i realized that it’s my girlfriend and i’s 6 month anniversary. thank you to craig mazin and neil druckmann for giving me, a person in my early twenties in the first gay relationship of my life, a story about gay people who get to grow old together. and the crazy part is that since it wasn’t even in the original game, they did it just because they wanted to. i have never had a piece of media both make me so happy and make me cry so hard for 15 minutes. sometimes the best anniversary gift is to hold your girlfriend’s hand and watch some gay people be happy together.

[usedshield]

There is nothing that art cannot express.

at one point in his life, steve might’ve agreed with the statement. there was something to be said about the strokes of a painting, the sketched outlines of a pencil --- they captured the artist’s frenzy as much as the piece of artwork did. there were a hundred secrets in any form of art; there were countless emotions, wrapped up in color and negative space. how many times had he taken to drawing something he couldn’t say --- that he didn’t dare say? 

but he knew better now. she’d taught him that much. what was art, to saving each other --- to relying on that safety in the midst of violence? what was art, to the first time he kissed her? he could capture a moment in a sketch, he could capture the abstract world of feelings; it would never do it justice.

“i can think of one or two things,” he answered, half a smile on his face.  

[good-vibes-only-bitches]

Did anyone else never quite learn the mechanics of love? Like there have been people that I feel really strongly about, and maybe even one I’ve been in love with, but every time I’ve tried having a relationship I get caught up because I don’t know what to do. It sounds dumb when I put it that way but it’s honestly the truth.

[hoestien]

my wife is so cute 🥺 she used 2 say that she couldnt sleep in her apt as good as mine bc mine was more comfy but since ive moved in shes been sleeping like a wriggler w a big lusus. like better than she was at my place

[slut4russia]

This isn't really a request, but how much do you love Ivan on a scale of 1 - 100? 👀👀 He is baby, no questions asked 😺💞

*slams fist on table, shoves foot in toaster, throws self out of 70 story building*

now,,, where do i begin?

i would have to say infinity because the truth is, i would choose him over any other man. like genuinely he’s my main babie forever n always! i love him sm and it’s hard to put in words

so not to be ~sappy~ and ✨ fucking disgusting✨ but i love him more than i think my little tiny fried brain can comprehend like when i see him im like :D and when i think of him i just :D because i know that he would actually care and i relate to him on those issues of feeling like ~nobody likes u~

another part, i kind of see myself in him. u kno, scaring a lot of ppl, not knowing what i’m doing is wrong, people leaving and being all alone. i’ve been thru those things and i feel like being shot would hurt less than those so i just relate bc u kno

if we were together

we’d never be lonely

😽

anyways i hope that answers ur question sry ab the tangent i just love ivan sm, on a scale of 100 it’s infinite because he makes me infinitely happier 😻✨💕 thank you sm for the ask bebe!

y’all never saw me post this or show my soft emotions ycuckckkck

[vanillacoolatta]

sappy rant under the cut sry

i dont say it enough but genuinely i am so thankful for my mutuals. most of us have only been friends since october or later but it feels like we’ve been friends for years. i’ve always been kind of a side character in everyone else’s lives but you guys make me feel like all of us can be main characters and while my mental health is still tricky sometimes my sense of self worth has improved loads since quarantine just because i can be reminded that like. if i send a text in a gc i won’t be totally ignored.

everyone is included but esp the space station gang like. we only have a gc in the first place because we had an among us group and got one (1) too many people and had to make a server but like. that is such a funny and endearing thing. some of you i like to think i know pretty well and some of you i am just trying to be supportive of your interests from the sidelines bc i know nothing abt them but like. at the end of the day i know that i can say something stupid and at least one of you will say something jopiguyfdxtr

i’ve always kinda drifted between friend groups and looking back it was probably because of neurodivergence but like even within my mutuals here we get along so well even if we don’t have the same types of brain things going on. and it has some things to do with the inherent dynamic of the website but also because sometimes someone who has never seen my face and vice versa refers to me as one of their best friends and i legitimately start to cry because quarantine has been hell on the physical end but honestly the best time of my life when it comes to my social life.

ngl this past year has been hard for me with the transition between school and now being out of it. and school had been infinitely hard for me before that. but looking back and realizing that out of all that pain and misery i gained a group of friends that genuinely care about me and who i care about too. just really makes me melt a little bit. after years of being everyone’s second choice i am finally tied for first choice (/hj).

every so often i read a post that talks abt how the dream team was friends before yt/twitch and how they were all there for sap’s graduation n stuff and like. that’s us. that will be us. if v says i am a dream kinnie then officially i am making you all be sapnap and george kinnies because i love you more than anything and also please move in with me

anyway everyone has been very supportive of me here even when i do weird things like post covers or stream and i seriously could not have a better group of friends. including the mutuals who i dont rly talk to.

[pestopascal]

2019 Writer’s Round-Up

Tagged by: @erintoknow

Tagging: @vex-derolo plummmmyyyyy

Word count

according to my calculator and ao3 for actual put online and therefore living exposed, it’s pretty much entirely compromised of FHR, at 108,094. i’m pretty sure anyway i mean ao3 says 147,249 so we’ll just go between those two numbers because idk whatever it’s too early. 

a solid year i think, all things considered. 

Number of smut scenes

lmao too many to count. i have a bloody multi chap fic thats just different scenarios and i would say a good 50/130 chapters is smut, short things but smut, then in the multi step one at least like a generous 90/103 and then politely add another like. 20 on top probably. scattered about. 

sex is rly easy to write, but it’s more the emotion and making it seem a lil more real, like having people laugh through it, cramping in weird spots, loss of drive, getting interrupted, etc. that’s the fun part about it. also it does like absolutely nothing for me i just slap words on a page and move on 

New things I tried this year

second pov. never really had an interest going into it, but i think i did pretty well in the end. now its hard just switching back to writing third pov lmaoooo and tried out writing action honestly.... twas fun. maybe a lil bit of venturing into freaky stuff. it was fun writing logan and heartbreak

that’s pretty much it probably. i cannae think of anything i tried different besides that.

Favourite thing I wrote this year

i cannae pick favourites. i dont even remember what i wrote. counting the word count made me go ‘oh i did that? cool’. hrm okay maybe the more spooky stuff for logan that was fun.

my fave stuff would probably have to be the stuff i wrote for friends. either with our ocs or like canon x oc or whatnot. idk. i like making ppl i care about smile. and by that i mean mostly the private stuff that i didnt post online. a few chaps of bde sure but mostly just the more personal stuff.

Favourite fic I read this year

sry i read like. nothing. i dont read fanfics much.......................... 

Writing goals for 2020

murder mystery, finish my nano since i blew past the goal and turned it into something fucking longer, and do a few more other fanfic projects ive had in mind for a while. go thru my notes. finish wips. the usual shit. 

Words of Thanks

ok this is gonna sound rly like. bad. im still vodka drunk let me live but i cant tag everyone like. not to get emotional on main but this yr was a ride and i wrote a lot and tried a different pov and i mean the server was shit but hey. met some absolutely amazing ppl and yknow. shit was wild. had some truly memorable moments, made a bunch of great friends, and am idk. whatever. insert a bunch of sappy stuff here like they get out of emmy award shows. my brain isnt working.