Here we go again....
I found out that there was missing condoms from the bedside table. How do 4 just go missing?
I also asked to go through his phone. He flat out refused, said it makes him nervous because I'll dig for something and make up some big deal out of thin air. He's only nervous because he knows what I'll find.
I married a narcissist and since I've realised that, I feel new. I feel like I no longer give a flying fuck about what comes out of my mouth. What people think and who it upsets. I am who I am and if you're not here for me then you know where the door is.
I'm showing up for me.
We also sold our house, still not enough to get through all the debt but I can break free easier.
I've also been keeping a secret of my own. I met someone by accident. He lives interstate. I heard from a little birdy that he wanted to fuck and should've taken the opportunity but I was trying to be the bigger person.
A week later I contacted him, our conversations escalated quickly and now he's planning to come back for a little fun. I know this isn't the right thing to do but fuck it, I'm so done playing the victim. It's time for my villain era to begin. He's not exactly who I would've jumped at straight away but to be honest, the attention has made me feel so good about myself. He's confident and cocky but at least he's honest. He knows I'm married with kids and I know he's a fuck boy. It's just a bit of fun and if i feel myself catching any sign of a feeling ill be putting that shit on ice asap!
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spent the last few days appreciating life exactly where we are. I’ve always known that I do not want to escape on the weekend, and I don’t want to recover from the week. I want to spend every day living our lives fully, to be in the present. some days will be good, and some challenging. that is life. ✨ to do this, we need to be mindful of what we choose to put our attention to. hold on firm to our boundaries of our decisions. trust ourselves. do the work that we are happy to be at, and if we are not - make adjustments to your life to change it for the better. small adjustments make a huge difference. give your attention to what matters to you, not what is expected of you. start by defining what does matter to you. make sure it is what is really important to you, and not just what people have always told you is important. you are the most important person in your child’s life. don’t be perfect, but be human. make mistakes, so they can see. live your life, so they can follow. ❤️ #beingaconfidentparent #raisingconfidentkids #takingonlife #momthoughts #middlechild #familylife #steppingup #beingme (at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkDmI7oJTSz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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CANNOT GET That One Out of Your Mind, Energy - 5D Heal - Move in HEALING
Understand how, why, what your soul chooses to help you heal, move on, transcend old, what was, move you into new energy;
When you think you cannot get over someone, addicted, connected or obsessed; there are a lot of soul threads that you have and are sent from your highest aspects; your highest self, will continue to send you energy until you heal the density, the wound, the issues that keep you on the same pattern; like a record with a scratch; there is something that needs to be healed and you are the only one to clear it;
The ones before you are you - what is it that you are being shown; an example, the potential, the balance, the truth, the voice, what reflection of self acceptance are you being shown by the energy and person you think you cannot get over and out of your mind, energy?
Your soul and higher self is showing you to heal what needs to be healed -
What was your beliefs, actions, deeds; you will keep being shown what needs to until the karma, the density is cleared;
How do you heal density - love, forgiveness, accepting, acknowledgment of your beliefs and choices of your actions, and how you, the actions you take, have done, affect the all - guilt, shame, blame, inner realm discussions, the lack and energy within is showing you through such emotions to take action, make it right, bring in self love, forgive yourself - begin within -
Sort out the wounding -
Do you need to acknowledge the other person for what they gave you, offered you, you took, you disrespected; all is a mirror of you - it is a REFLECTION - love is not the constant reflections of what your soul is trying to tell you -Ⓒ
CORRUPTION IS THE DEGRADATION OF SELF; ALL IS HEALABLE
The rebalancing of our planet involve every aspect of life - how have we ignored, turned a blind eye, seen and been a part of the slight of hand, the abuse of power, the misogyny that goes on the worlds biggest corruptions - how is any of this ok and our humanity simply not taking time, honour, self value and honour with to sit with connection within, the spirit and sacredness within - how is any of what has been 'ok' to continue -
True change takes the path within - abuse is not ok and is all healable - ALL IS HEALABLE - YOU WILL NOT BE CHASED; STAND IN YOUR POWER AND KNOW YOU ARE SUPPORTED -
You cannot feel love for another if you do not love yourself and when you choose to not honour your voice, your inner path, your inner due diligence - you cannot treat nor think you can love another - love is unconditional - being of such for yourself regardless of how others act, believe, or create treatment of you - stand in your light unconditionally - what trusting, what deceit, what illusions are you not loving within - there are magnetic - magnetics show you what the GREATEST LESSONS YOU NEED to acknowledge and peace with
Do the inner work - do not mistake the aching, and urging of spirit for you to make right and heal - your all timelines are being helped or hindered with where you sit here and now - making life, health, abundance better is making shit better;
It begins within - energy is energy -
All is a reflection - REALITY IS YOUR REFLECTION
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Excitement, Expression, Experience
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