#stijnvandoorselaere

[oxiegoeimi]

. Art| The Inner Struggle Artist| #StijnVanDoorselaere Torrents running overhead and silence encompassing this reality, I hadn’t expected it to turn out quite like this. Compiling data and pursuing meaning, nothing would stand in my way. Without time to spare or excuses to put up with willingly, I took my leave every time the cuts dug further than intended. Even when the apologies flowed, my heart was callous and mind set on not being hurt again. Without second thought, I threw away relationships and drove intentions far away. Projecting insecurities, I decided that my evil was someone else’s coming against my life. With an ego inflated by wealth, accomplishment, and prestige; there was no one to understand how hard I’ve had it. Lies . . . So, locking out help and love, I pushed the idea of good people out of my soul. I’d rely on pretending to believe them. I’d put a mask on to blend in with the whole. I’d say the right things and listen intently to ensure that my responses were safe. But, I’d never let anyone into my psyche. I know I’m making myself out to be my own worst enemy. Common? Yup. Easier to be a lost cause than hope for something positive just to be disappointed . . . The lesson? The only results of pessimism and faking it are lost time, scars, and emptiness. So; I figured it out and am making the corrections, right? I grew up and gained humility? Now, I’m enlightened and will show people how to do it better? If I’m not transparent, history will repeat itself . . . disguised as healing. Yup. - oxiegoeimi calm 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟 (at Hope) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkS4XVIrRfk/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=