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Last night, I was with a friend at a coffee shop downtown.  This coffee shop has so many flavors and ways to make it your own that I wanted to try all of them, but that would be unrealistic. So, I ended up with four different kinds of coffee. . . And i drank them all. I am not a coffee drinker, and so I just felt the need to have a coffee flight of various flavors (to see which one I would order again). It did not occur to me at the time that I could have ordered these drinks caffeine-free. Let me tell you, I was so hyper that I just wanted to do any sort of physical activity. I just felt like I needed to punch something and run a seven-mile marathon doing arm aerobics. My eyelids were so wide open that I forgot to blink. I went home, went on the computer, and made five whole new chapter slides for my class. I was jittering so much and singing country music aloud like it was broad daylight (it was 2:30 am). After, I started to handwrite my chapter notes on my iPad because I felt like I needed to have two copies. I also finished some homework that is not due until two weeks from now. I had class at 4pm, and i got ready at 6am, but I had some time to kill, so I started to clean my room and mop the floors. I couldn't wait anymore, so I went on my way to school and arrived at 2pm. I couldn't stop smiling because I was so excited, but I wasn't too sure what I was excited about. My professor is passionate about Speech Pathology that she tends to go fast during her lectures, and I usually have the textbook with me to follow along. Yet, today i did not need any guidance lol. I was typing faster than she could speak. I am in the library typing this post still wide awake but not as much anymore. Since i stayed up until morning, I got some excellent morning shine to take these great photos. In the end, drinking that much caffeine could have been fatal and probably detrimental to my health in the long run. But now i know that vanilla sweet cream strawberry latte is my go-to coffee drink.

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Thursday, October 24, 2019

Responsibility – I think I am somewhat responsible. At school, I make it to class an hour early, and I turn all my assignments on time. I take responsibility for my words, actions, and money. Yet, I have no responsibility myself.  Lately, I have been studying in the library from 6:00 pm-11:00 pm every weekday and sometimes on the weekends. I leave the library and make it home by midnight. I then start binge eating anything my eyes catch because studying for 4+ hours somehow justifies my crime of eating so late. I have a gym pass for about five months now, and the only time I have ever been to the gym was the day I signed up. I always think about going to the gym after studying, but my body movements are so trained to drive straight home. I find myself gripping tight on the steering wheel whenever I get off the freeway because I can either make a right for the gym or left to go home. In the back of my mind, I hear myself say “turn right,” but I always end up going the opposite way. I am responsible for many things except for myself. I envy those who can juggle being a full-time student, have a full-time job, and have time to take care of their bodies. All this drainage of my life force is wearing me down to a point where my mental health should be questioned. buuut, I will save those complicated feelings for another entry.

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Friday. 1. November. 2019 

Currently studying out on the patio at school. 

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Monday. October 28. 2019 

I hope everyone stays safe this week, whether you're out or staying in. On the day of, after class, I will be volunteering at my local children's hospital to bring the spooky fun and joy to them. After, I will be spending the rest of my night at a retirement home down the block. If you don't have any plans on Halloween besides hiding in your room with all the lights out to avoid trick or treaters, then i highly suggest volunteering somewhere! If you're not much a people person, then definitely check out your local animal shelters. Whether you have four legs or two, we can all enjoy a pumpkin treat. 

Happy Early Halloween!

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Sunday, November 3, 2019 

Don't you just love cheat sheets? I honestly don't need to write down everything but I am just making sure I get the question I already know I would get correct, correct! haha as we start a new week, I hope everyone receives positive vibes and motivation. I need some myself! :) 

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I studied my butt off for my midterm and got 85%, and I was surprised and pretty happy until the people around me got 90% or higher. After overhearing their cheers of being in the 90th percentile, my 85% felt like shit. I felt like they didn't want to talk to me because of my score. I thought about it for a day, and I've come down to a conclusion; I came prepared and did my best. I did better than I thought I would do, and that is the only thing that should matter. To only do better within yourself. I beat myself up all the time for things like this, but I need to realize not to compete with others but moreover myself. I am going to do better next time. 

- Sunday, October 20, 2019