#stupid body needing stupid nutrients and shit

[medinaquirin]

Ngl, this whole self care shtick is real hard to do with low self-esteem. It's like why do I have to take care of that asshole? Ugh.

[dean-a-mean-tae]

Stray Kids as Hybrids

WARNINGS: Minho and Felix are "defect" hybrids. There's cussing in this. I got the information from research, so if you're an animal "expert" respectfully correct me.

Master list | Not requested, but I don't care.

Chan (Grey Wolf)

He has a grey tail with grey ears that have a black rim.

His fur is extremely fluffy, and he sheds a lot.

In his human form, he has curly hair that's so grey it almost looks white.

Though he has a ton of fur, he doesn't feel the heat.

He needs a lot of nutrients.

He'll eat over 13 pounds of meat at least once a week.

A "healthy" amount of meat for a human is 23 to 33 ounces per week. There are 16 ounces in a pound.

You can do the math yourself.

He's never gone over 12 days without consistent meat intake.

You gotta feed him.

Good luck. 13 pounds = 208 ounces

He won't tell you he's hungry, but you can hear his tummy from across the planet.

In his wolf form, his ears stand up and point forward.

In his human form, his ears just do what they want.

Contrary to popular belief, wolves barely bark.

Whines can be a sign of affection or distress.

You need to pay attention to the signs and what's going on to know the difference.

His growls are warnings, and his loud ones are when he feels threatened.

His quiet growls are playful.

Chan has and will go over to Minho or Seungmin and put his paw on them. IYKYK

the pictures of those 2 wolves are hilarious

Minho (Tiger)

Unfortunately, Minho is considered a defect.

He looks like your stereotypical tiger.

It's just the tip of his tail is white instead of black

In his human form, he has brown eyes that turn yellow when he's in a bad mood

His "defect" is his hair. It's dark brown which makes the orange in his ears stand out.

Believe it or not, he prefers to come out at night.

He doesn't mind the day as long as it isn't hot.

Occasionally, he'll sunbathe, but it's seemingly random.

He, unlike most tigers, doesn't like water. He can take showers and baths, but big bodies of water are a no.

He can't see the bottom. He isn't getting in the water.

He still likes the knowledge of having access to a lake. Preferably a private lake.

His animal form is almost 9 feet at a weight of 650 something pounds. The weight is healthy for his tiger form.

If you thought Chan needed a lot of meat, then Minho is a nightmare. ;-;

Tigers require 88 lbs per week. :)

Since he's a hybrid, he can eat at least 75 lbs. Which is 1200 ounces...

His weight is perfect for snuggling, but his weight is painful if he lays on you.

He doesn't like roaring because it's loud. He grunts and uses chuffs to communicate.

If you are ever cold, just lay on him.

Tiger fur can get so hot that steam might come off their fur when in the snow.

He isn't very sociable and prefers his own space. He doesn't mind you or the boys, but it's obvious if he doesn't like someone.

You know that thing cats do with their tail when they feel mischievous?

The tip of the tail starts flicking but everything else is still?

That's Minho.

You always know when he's done some stupid shit or is about to

Changbin (Hare/Jack Rabbit)

He has brown fur with a white tummy

He gives off Thackery the hare from Alice In Wonderland 2010 vibes

He thumps, in both human and animal form, when he feels endangered or if he wants something

Usually, it's because he wants something

As an animal, he does the binky thing where rabbits jump high in the air

He only does it when he's extremely happy

Sometimes, his legs kick off too high, and he falls forward, like in the picture on the right.

When he's angry, he'll sit on his hind legs with his paws up like he's about to start boxing

When he's annoyed, he'll flick his feet and walk away

Sometimes, he'll kick whatever or whoever is irritating him (like in the first picture)

If he starts nibbling on you while in animal form, it's a sign of affection

Speaking of nibbling, rabbits eat 2-3% of their weight in vegetables.

He's a big boy, so... yeah... have fun. :)

Side note, he's very cuddly.

He rivals Jisung in his attachment to you

He will change into his animal form so it's easier for him to be close to you

Sometimes he'll go flying around the room

Kind of like the zoomies but for bunnies

He is a little dramatic

When he's really relaxed and feels safe, he'll flop over

If he's in animal form, he just does it. Doesn't matter where he is

If he's in human form, he'll flop on the nearest soft object or on the nearest person

Hyunjin (Ferret)

His fur is mostly brown, but he has 2 white rings of fur on his face with a brown spot under one of his eyes.

In human form, his hair is brown, and his animal ears have a white rim.

He's so hyper.

If he isn't running or jumping around the room, he's asleep in a dark space.

Probably under the covers or in a drawer somewhere

Ferrets eat 5-7% of their weight a day.

As a hybrid, he can eat 4% of his weight a day and still be considered healthy.

I recommend just feeding him 5% to be on the safer side.

Ferrets have poor vision. Unfortunately, Hyunjin has poor vision in both his forms.

He wears contacts in human form.

He will snuggle under your clothes and against your skin

If you have a bigger chest, he'll lay between your tits/pecks

If your chest his flatter, then he'll curl up on the left side so he can hear your heart better

When he wants to play, he'll run at people and then quickly run off

He'll keep repeating this until they get the message

When he's angry, he glares and hisses at whatever is causing his anger

He makes cute chitter noses and sniffs when he's curious

Just like other ferrets, he squints when he's sick

Don't get scared if you try to wake him and he doesn't move.

When he sleeps, he's GONE!

He won't wake up until his body is ready.

I like the idea that he scrunches his nose when he's confused

Like genuinely confused. Not "What are you doing?" Confused

I'm talking "What the hell is this thing?" confused

Shit you not! If you have salty skin or a hybrid safe lotion on, he'll lick you. Both in animal form and in human form

He has to be near sleep to start licking you as a human, though

Ferrets kiss, by the way

It's how they show affection

So don't be surprised if you get grabbed and you feel thick lips smack your cheek

He's just giving you a little appreciation, that's all :)

Sometimes, Hyunjin likes to be difficult in his human form

So, like a ferret, if he wants something, he will stare at you.

When you acknowledge him, and you will, he'll repeated glance at what he wants

He refuses to verbalize it until you either get it correct or he's tired of you guess incorrectly.

All just depends on his mood and how generous he's feeling that moment

Ferrets with splay out and sigh when they're sad

It's so fucking cute

Hyunjin does the same thing but on top of you

If you're working on something, like a laptop or iPad, then he'll flop onto that.

Or he'll flop onto your book or something

When you're wearing a hoodie, he'll hide away from the others in your pocket

So make sure it has the one pocket thing and not 2

He can still fit in the smaller ones but he wants the space

Jisung (Squirrel)

He is a ground-dwelling squirrel.

He is usually found sitting on Tiger Minho's head.

Like other squirrels, he is terrified of owls

"Why would someone need to look that scary?! Or turn its head that much?!"

Squirrels do this thing called caching. It's where they find and hide food.

I shit you not! He hides so much food around the house.

He doesn't need a lot of food, but he will gladly stuff his face full.

If you have to travel, then take him with you. He loves to travel and hates being left by himself.

Doesn't matter if you're leaving him with the others. He wants to go with you.

Sometimes he'll sit directly on top of you or pressed against you.

You have no personal space.

If you don't like physical affection, let him down gently please.

He doesn't want to be the cause of your discomfort, so tell him in the most fragile way possible

With that being said, he will use his face to get out of trouble

Quickly turning into his animal form and acting cute so you won't be angry

If that doesn't work, then he's dipping

I'm talking hightailing it out the room and into the backyard

You won't see him until dinner or it's bedtime

Speaking of bedtime, he wants you to tuck him in

So please do it. Give him a kiss on each cheek and then one on his forehead and he'll be good to go.

DON'T TUCK THE BLANKET IN

It makes him feel trapped and like he's in a cage.

Makes him more likely to have nightmares, too.

Felix (Ginger Cat)

Felix is also, unfortunately, considered a defect.

His fur is a golden orange color with lighter stripes.

His eyes look green in the sun, but they're amber.

His "defect" is also from his human form.

His hair is blond like the strips, so his ears stick out. His freckles are also, unfortunately, considered a "flaw."

Most people think when a cat rubs its head against you, it's a sign of affection, which it is, but it's also them marking their territory.

They're scenting you and showing ownership over you.

It's how cats show pride in their belongings :)

If you let him out of the house to hunt, he will return with "food" for you.

He doesn't really think much of it. It's just his cat's side telling you you're family.

I guarantee you'll walk in on Felix either biting the shit out of a toy or him chasing Hyunjin around the room.

Did you know that cats knead because of their early days of nursing?

Kittens would knead at their mothers to encourage milk production. Adult cats knead to show content or to calm down.

Think of it as Felix feeling safe with you.

Felix is the definition of "If I fits, I sits"

If you're curled up on the couch, then he's curled up in the space behind your knees and thighs.

Small spaces make cats feel safe, so be sure to give Felix spots to hide in.

It helps with his natural instinct to ambush.

If Felix stares at you with thin pupils, try not to stare back.

It's his inner cat on high alert, and it could take that as you threatening him.

Meanwhile, slow blinks are kitty kisses.

If you slowly blink back at Felix, he'll do it repeatedly if he's in cat form. If he's in human form, he'll latch onto you and give you cuddles.

If Felix's nightly zoomies irritate you, feed him before you go to bed, make sure he tires himself out before bed, or get him a food puzzle.

Nightly zoomies are leftover energy mixed with their instinct to hunt during the night.

Airplane ears!

If Felix's ears are just sitting up, then he's listening to his surroundings. If his ears are flicking around, then he's agitated or dealing with anxiety.

Either peacefully help him or leave him alone. If he's in cat form, then leave him alone. He'll come to you if he wants to.

Felix knocks things over only when he is bored, as other cats do. It fascinates him to see things topple over. If you want Felix to stop, find a way to entertain him.

When he flops onto your things, it's him scenting your stuff to show you're his and a sign he wants attention.

When the tip of Felix's tail twitches it can mean he's curious or he's hunting. It'll go away when he calms down.

Seungmin (Golden Retriever)

Golden Retriever

A sassy, playful ball of golden fur. He needs frequent exercise and sheds a lot.

Unlike your stereotypical golden retriever, Seungmin's fur is more soft wheat than golden yellow.

His floppy ears blend with his hair when in human form.

Seungmin doesn't like to be left alone. He won't tell you to stay. He will follow you around.

Seungmin doesn't actively seek out strangers. If someone tries to pet him, then he'll move away.

He also doesn't jump on people and hates when others jump on him.

He's not as social as your average Golden Puppy.

I recommend having a big yard for him to run around if you don't have one for the bigger animals.

Please make sure you feed him the proper amounts. He won't hesitate to raid the fridge if he's hungry.

When he grabs things with his mouth, he's extremely careful.

Softly grabbing your arms or a book to move it out of the way.

He'll share his food with you if you beg enough. He won't actively go out of his way to feed you unless you're ill.

If he's being "Destructive" it's because he isn't stimulated enough.

He needs more mental and physical exercise.

He doesn't have separation anxiety unless you decide to give him a terrible backstory on how you found him.

Otherwise, he's pretty confident that you'll come back home.

If something comes up, you'll communicate the issue and a general idea of when you might be home.

If you don't, he'll be pissed.

It's like breaking a pinky promise. Don't do that.

He'll bop you in the face

Jeongin (Fennec Fox)

Fennec Fox

He's got big ass ears and they grow to accommodate his head in human form (Minho thinks it's hilarious)

He's got a cream color hair with white streaks in them

You can barely see the streaks, but the others tell you they're there

He's such a smart cookie until he gets in his animal form.

Then it's like he lost all brain cells except one. That 1 brain cell alternates between Hyunjin, Changbin, and Jeongin. Occasionally, Jisung will get it.

He kind of just rolls around

He's just there, chilling in the silence or the chaos

In animal form, he'll curl up on your lap or on the bed

If you're in an office, pull up a chair next to you and he'll lay in that instead

He may think you're mad at him, but just giving him rubs or head pats and he's good

He's kind of like a cat

You have to gage his moods

If he doesn't want to be touched, he'll look at you as you touch him like the picture on the left

Just "Mittens off, human" paws crossed and everything

Buy him clothes for his animal form. PLEASE

He loves them

Go to Pinterest or something and look up fennec fox in clothes or something and it's so flipping cute

You know that dolphin screech Jeongin does? That but in animal form...

The picture on the right for the header of this post?

That's him when he has too much energy, but no thoughts to put into action

As a human, he's like your average Jeongin, but with big ass fluffy ears and tail.

Sometimes he knocks stuff over with his tail and he's so sorry

After something crashed, you can hear him whine in the kitchen from your bedroom

The others don't tease him as much as they could because they know he's genuinely sad about it

Not insecure, but definitely annoyed with himself for messing something up again

Reassure him please.

Don't make it too obvious because then he'll shut down and tune you out

Not intentionally, it's just his brain's self defense.

It doesn't want to be reminded of his mistakes.

It's the main reason why he likes staying in his animal form.

This was fun

©️DEANAMEANTAE2024

[headspace-hotel]

ms. hotel I am so sorry for the notes of your veganism post. people are so ready to be stupid about the facts of the situation which are that veganism.. is difficult. and it’s easier to make the effort to move away from factory farming than it is to completely overhaul your entire diet

I mean I think the most accurate expression of it would be that we don't have enough facts about it.

Like, we know that going vegan is healthy for some people, but we don't actually know how many people can do it long term. Most people that try to be vegan don't stay vegan forever, and there's widespread anecdotal evidence of some people having symptoms like hair falling out, fatigue and brain fog etc. when trying to 'go vegan.'

and of course the plural of "anecdote" is not "data," but since almost every human culture's diet incorporates both animal and plant products, and has for all of human history and before, there's no basis to claim that this is Definitely something most or all humans can do.

I'm suspicious of restrictive diets. I just am. That weirdo is still bitching about how nutrient deficiencies are not a real concern or whatever and like...No, my guy, nutrient deficiencies are real and it's very easy to end up with one, but the difference between a vegan with a nutrient deficiency and anyone else is that "anyone else" can just...eat stuff that gives them the nutrient they're needing. Eat more stuff, eat different stuff. Eat all the stuff. They're not limited in the stuff they can eat. If your diet is restricted, you can't just grab anything that's easy to get ahold of and eat it, you have to seek out the foods you can eat. Like, the fewer things you can eat, the harder it is to eat a diet that meets all your needs

And vegan resources can be downright creepy and eating-disordered about this. Ages ago I was looking at the blog of that...activeg person that is big on vegan tumblr ig, and they had a post talking about how you need to "resist" and talk yourself down from "urges" and "cravings" to eat animal products, and it sounded so much like thinspo shit that I just blocked them

And the fact that some vegan people apparently have constant cravings for animal products is ?????? not good? I don't like it when people advise others flat-out not to listen to the signals their bodies are giving them, especially when those signals are strong and persistent.

[ovaruling]

mostly a vent but—how do so many adults not only know so completely zero about nourishing themselves properly, but also have zero curiosity about their nourishment on top of that? like how are basic nutritional facts and basic food nutritional profiles and the barest RDAs not known and not even wondered about

like i meet adults every single day who literally can’t grasp the concept of a meal that they know and understand the components of. like. they legitimately don’t know or care what they’re eating at any point of the day but have complaints of many solvable symptoms of nutrient deficiency or saturation

even a large number of people who cook all the time will seem to have this incredible blind spot for knowing anything about nourishment

like there are people who think you legitimately don’t get nutrients from anything but animal flesh and leafy greens and then i’m supposed to act surprised when their bloodwork is a mess

and when i suggest “oh you may need to include more things like orange juice and potatoes and bananas and pumpkin seeds and dried fruit for other quick sources of electrolytes that aren’t just shit tons of sodium” after friendly discussions of muscle cramping despite water and Gatorade consumption

and they’re like “oh my god you’re so smart…,” lmao no i’m fucking not!!! fr how can you have persistent muscle cramping every day and not even WONDER if it’s related to what you do or do not put into your body. that’s my FIRST thought every time i have a palpable issue—“maybe i’m getting too little or too much of something, let’s get curious and think critically about what i’m currently eating and drinking”

especially people with chronic illness like me!!!!! come on now!!!!! how can you not even deign to google what nutritional advice you might benefit from!!!!

i’ve fr had people be in awe of my casual recommendation of eating more fiber. and even more awe about what foods contain fiber. like. you cannot be serious that you didn’t know that about your human body. you cannot be fucking serious!!!!!!!

how can you go through your day—through your adult life—not knowing or caring if you’re meeting your individual nutritional needs and how can you not even be CURIOUS about that if you know that you don’t know. ppl act like you need regular bloodwork to be able to suspect anything abt your body enough to try the very risky risk of simply eating more of xyz type of food (usually a fruit or vegetable god forbid) or something to just see if it helps with your issue ykwim. like eat an apple and maybe your gums will stop bleeding, matey. oh no cap’n i can’t i would need sooo much bloodwork to know if it’s ok to try eating an apple!!! come on now

like. i know im not a genius to just be knowing Feeding Yourself Properly 101. my parents never taught me a damn thing about nutrition and i never even learned it at school. it’s not hard. i know it’s not. so everyone else must just be stupid as hell abt this or willfully ignorant

and maybe they are bc the average western diet has most ppl malnourished despite a very, very large daily intake of calories so idk man IDK!!!!!

[eufezco]

DREAM OF A LIFETIME – E.M. x FEM!READER

REQUEST - I had a story idea and only if your comfortable with it ok here it goes ; what if Eddie Munson got y/n pregnant and y/n starts to become distant and Eddie asks someone from the group why she’s being distant and kind of avoiding him ( maybe Nancy , robin , or Steve ) and on of them tell Eddie and he comforts y/n basically letting her know he’s gonna be there and that she has nothing to worry about ( kind of like a fluff) stupid idea but im throwing it out there ?

english isn't my first language

Dry. That was the perfect word to describe your farewell with Eddie before him, Nancy, Robin and Steve got into the boat and dove into the Lover's Lake. Then Max's plan to distract the cops went awfully bad and now you were sitting in between Lucas and Dustin at the Wheeler's house, two cops in front of you three wanting to know what you were doing in a restricted area but all you could think about was if by this time your friends and Eddie were alive. Of course, the cops knew you were lying thanks to how incoherent your alibi was, and they took Max to a separate room to interrogate her first.

"Please, if you feel something weird, put the headphones on." You were worried about leaving her alone, the girl was mad but still understood the danger and nodded. You decided to wait for her sitting on the couch while Dustin, Lucas, and a curious Erica moved to the kitchen for some privacy. You could hear the loud whispers of Dustin from the living room and you hoped the parents were actually focused on the conversation they were having and not on the one going on in the kitchen. You felt your stomach hurting, the sensation going down your legs and making them stand up from the couch, catching the parents' attention, as you ran to the bathroom. You kneeled in front of the toilet and you vomited everything you ate that day. Tears formed in your eyes when you couldn't throw up anymore but your body thought otherwise, the retching making your whole body shake. The thought of Eddie being in danger, plus, how your relationship had been going these past days and your state weren't helping you to come down. "Y/n? Are you okay?" Dustin knocked on the door. "Yeah, I— I just need a minute." You started throwing up again, this time the vomit was just pure water since you didn't have anything solid in your body anymore. Dustin frowned at the other side of the door. "Do you need me to come in?" You immediately responded with a 'no' to his offer. The last thing you wanted was to have Dustin holding your hair in a ponytail while your pregnant self threw up every nutrient in your body. You trusted the kid, but it was just too embarrassing.

You flushed the toilet and washed your hands. You also rinsed your mouth and washed your face. God, how could you've been so stupid? You loved Eddie, he was the love of your life and you've been pushing him away these last days. How much your life could change overnight? You were pregnant and Eddie was in another dimension, accused of murder and risking his life for a town that hated him. You got out of the bathroom, the door of the room where the two cops were interrogating Max still closed. You bumped into Dustin who apparently had been waiting for you outside the bathroom since he went to check up on you. "Damn, you look like shit. Are you sure you're okay?" You nodded. A part from the pregnancy and the fact that your relationship with Eddie was falling apart because of you, you were completely fine. Without any words, you and Dustin walked to the kitchen where Erica and Lucas were waiting.

"Are you sure you saw them going through Watergate?" You rolled your eyes when Lucas asked one more time. "Okay, okay..." When Max thought it was a good idea to make a scene to give the ones in the boat more time, you stayed hidden on the Lover Lake's bank. You saw Nancy dive in after Steve was pulled to the depths of the lake, you saw Robin jumping with no hesitation after Nancy and you saw Eddie showing you a warm smirk and jumping into the lake too. You were ready to swim to him, your shoes were touching the water when you were caught by the cops too. Dustin explained to you all the crazy things they've come up with while you were in the bathroom. More gates? Hive mind? Wow.

"Hey. Eddie." Steve did a little run to catch up the metal head who was just a couple of feet ahead of him. Eddie slowed down when he heard Harrington calling his name. "Listen, I just wanted to say thanks for saving my ass back there."

"Shit. You saved your own ass man." Steve shook his head. "It's very metal, what you did. That's all I'm saying. Henderson told me you were a badass. Insisted on the matter, in fact. I guess I couldn't accept the fact that Steve Harrington was actually a good dude."

"Henderson said that?" Eddie raised his eyebrows, surprised by the fact that Steve doubted how much Dustin admired him. "Shit, yeah. And not only Henderson, y/n adores you too. What did you do to make them put you on this pedestal? Steve Harrington can't be all of the things they say. Rich parents, popular, chicks love him and not a douche?"

"Well, I used to be a douche. Dustin and I didn't know each other at that time, but y/n and I did and sometimes I don't even know why she still wants to be friends with me."

There was silence before Eddie asked. "Do you know if something is wrong with her?" Steve frowned, acting as if he didn't know anything. "Why?"

Steve looked to Eddie out of the corner of his eye, the metalhead with his eyes locked on the ground, being careful to not step on one of the tentacles as he explained to him what has been things with you like for the past few days. Was he overshearing? He barely knew Steve. He knew that Harrington was your friend when you were kids but you distanced yourselves when he started with his King Steve bullshit and that three years ago you and he started hanging out again. He knew that Steve cared about you, Eddie wanted to believe that not as much as he did, but that wasn't probably true. Eddie knew that Steve knew so much more about what had been going on in your life these last days than he did, and he knew that Steve wouldn't tell him that easily. "I know that she's your best friend, but if she's gonna break up with me, I'd really appreciate if you—"

"Shit. She's not gonna break up with you, man. Why would she do something like that?"

"Well, she barely talks to me and she never visits the boathouse anymore unless she comes with you guys." Steve didn't say a word. It was true that it didn't sound good, and he now understood why Eddie thought you were going to leave him. "She's not going to break up with you." Steve repeated and started walking faster. Eddie stopped walking, watching Harrington getting away from him. Eddie walked towards Steve. "You gotta tell me what happens." Even though it seemed like Eddie was demanding to know, Steve caught the desperation in his voice. "I'm not the one to."

"She's not gonna tell me."

"I'm sure she will. Eventually."

"When is 'eventually', Steve? When this fucking Vecna has killed us all? If we don't beat this mother fucker, I'm not gonna be able to come back to society. Do you think she's gonna tell me by that time? Or she's gonna wait a little longer?" Steve clenched his jaw at Eddie's ironic tone. "Does she thinks I did that to Chrissy, doesn't she?"

"What the fuck man." Steve stopped walking all of a sudden, Eddie did the same. Robin and Nancy's attention was caught by Steve's flashlight lighting the trees instead of the path to the Wheeler's house. Steve shook his free hand to the two women for them to keep walking as he realigned the flashlight, lighting their way. "She's pregnant, okay? She's not thinking about breaking up with you nor throwing you under the bus. She's so scared and you're wanted by the police for something we all know you didn't do. So call me crazy, Eddie, but she's been having a lot to worry to visit the fucking boathouse, don't you think?"

Eddie was petrified. Steve started walking again while Eddie stood there in the dark for a few seconds more. His mouth was dry and his legs felt week. "Come on, Eddie!" Steve shouted making the boy behind him come out of his shock and take a few steps faster to catch Harrington. Nancy and Robin opened the door to the Wheeler's house.

"Might be time to get a maid, Wheeler." Was all Robin could say. The house was dark, the floor, the walls, every piece of furniture was covered with tentacles. "Come on. I don't want to stay here longer than we have to." Eddie agreed on that one. His stomach was queasy, he imagined million things but never that you were distant because you were pregnant.

"So, you're telling us that Vecna's opening more gates?"

"Exactly. And he won't stop."

Eddie and Steve were about to go upstairs when they heard your voices. They looked at each other and Steve used the flashlight to lighten up the dark living room, but no one was there. They both looked at each other again and rapidly went down the few stairs they had climbed.

"They're here. Y/n and Dustin are here!" Steve announced shouting to the two girls upstairs. Eddie called your name unstopping, looking for you all over the Wheeler's living room. He could hear your voice, but the sound was indistinct, like you were inside of the walls. "This is bad." Nancy announced, going down the stairs along with Robin. The two boys stopped looking for you and Henderson and threw a look to each other before focusing on what Nancy was saying. "My guns. They are not here-"

"Maybe you left them somewhere else—"

"There's a six-year-old in the house. I know where I keep my guns. Plus, my diary should be full of entries, the last one that appears on it is from November 6th, 1983." Eddie could feel like not enough air was getting to his laungs. He still could hear your voice and by the look on the two girls' faces as their eyes tried to find the place from where the voices came, they could hear you as well. "Does that mean—"

"We're in the past."

You were sitting at the table, Lucas by your side and Erica in front of you as Dustin kept rambling, walking back and forth, and getting to crazy conclusions that at that point no one except for him understood. Your breathing was slow as you tried to control yourself to not puke again. One of your legs bounced nervously under the table, your fingers intertwined as you took deep and quiet breaths. "Y/n. Is everything okay?" Lucas worried. You nodded at his question, his little sister frowning because it was so obvious that you weren't okay. "It's just- This is too much, you know?" Lucas nodded. One of his hands fell on top of yours, giving you the comfort you needed as you noticed the little girl was not interested in you anymore. Erica was now focusing on the flicking light in the living room. "You said you followed Vecna through the lights, right?" You got up from the table at the same time as her. Dustin looked at you before answering Erica's question. "Yeah, why?"

"Because I think he's here" Lucas stood up too. "That's not Vecna." You stated. When you broke into the Creel's House, the flashlights were out of control, flicking faster and gaining intensity as you got closer to him. But this time, the light was repeating a sequence. "It's Morse code." Thankfully you had Dustin who happened to be a Morse code expert and he successfully deciphered the S.O.S message. "They need lights. Will used the lights to communicate with Mrs. Byers. They need lights!" The unwell you were feeling was suddenly gone when you found a way to communicate with them. That's when you, Lucas and Erica ran to where Holly Wheeler was playing with her Lite Brite. "I'm sorry." You said before snatching it out of her hands, Lucas unplugged it and you both went to Nancy's room where Dustin was waiting. The little girl whined and Erica gave her a candy bar before going after you.

After a difficult communication with them through the colored plastic pegs and explaining to them that there was a gate at every murder site. You pedaled to Eddie's trailer, maybe it wasn't the best idea since you started feeling worse once you arrived there. And just as Dustin predicted there it was the gate, on the ceiling of Eddie's trailer. The place where Chrissy died. "How do we open it?" You knew where Eddie's uncle kept the broom. The stick of it would do the work. You suddenly felt a cramp in your stomach, making the broom fall from your hands. Both of your hands went to hug your stomach, feeling like puking again as Max's quickly landed one of hers on your lower back. "Shit, you okay?"

"Yeah, just– Open the gate already." Erica swore if she had to hear you say that you were fine when you were clearly not one more time, she would kick your ass and send you to the Upside Down to open the gate yourself. You didn't care about how bad you felt. You wanted him there. You wanted to apologize for not being there enough and you wanted to tell him everything. Dustin took the broom and broke the sticky layer that separated the normal world from the Upside Down. Your back tensed when you saw no one at the other side, your breathing almost stopping, but then a curious Steve showed up and a sigh of relief could be heard on Eddie's trailer coming from the four of you. Dustin laughed, letting go all the nerves as he celebrated that he was right once again. Steve smiled softly at you making space for Eddie. You covered your mouth with one of your hands, trying not to cry but your eyes were already filled with tears. Eddie showed you a warm smile and waved at you. "Hi." You mumbled to him, your lips quivering warning you that if you said one more word you'd start crying. "Hi." Eddie answered, still smiling.

"Okay, let's get them out of there."

You helped Dustin to tie up all the sheets you could find as Max, Erica and Lucas grabbed and placed Eddie's mattres under the gate. "Oh my god..." Was all you could say when you saw the big stains decorating the mattres and you threw a deadly glance, embarrassed, to Eddie when he tried to explain what those stains were.

Robin was the first one to climb up the tied-up sheets and fell straightaway into the mattress. You hugged the girl checking her face, her arms, her neck to verify that she wasn't hurt. Robin calmed you down assuring you that she was perfectly fine. "You gotta go next." Steve stated. Nancy agreed with Harrington. Eddie nodded. Same thing happened to him as to Robin, he climbed up the sheets and then he fell, if it wouldn't have been because you were there, he would've complained until his friends' ears bleed out from hearing him. But you were there. He stood up with Dustin's help and he had to take a few steps back to keep balance when you ran into his arms. Your hands were wrapped around his neck and his were around your waist. "Are you hurt?" You asked nervously when you separated from the hug. He was sure covered in dirt, his hair was messy and his eyes were tired but you didn't see blood, you were worried that he had wounds you weren't seeing. Eddie shook his head. "I'm fine." The boy brushed your cheek with his thumb and kissed your lips. "I'm so sorry, I-" Eddie shook his head again and kissed your temple. "We'll talk later."

You almost fainted when you saw the wounds on Steve's belly, you didn't know if it was because of how exhausted you were or because of his blood dripping from the tourniquet but anyways you helped to clean them and to cover them properly. After that, you went back to rest your head on Eddie's chest while everybody talked, just enjoying his arms around you and his chin resting on the top of your head. "Come sleep to my house." You looked up at him with doe eyes, and Eddie looked at Steve, Nancy and Robin, the three of them with worried expressions knowing it wasn't a good idea.

"I don't think It's safe–"

"Yeah, you go. It's fine." Steve interrupted Nancy, the Wheeler girl looking at him and asking herself what was he doing. "Come on, it's just a night. Nothing bad can happen." Your arms squeezed tighter around Eddie. Apparently, Steve was the only one capable of noticing tension between you two caused by all the things you two needed to let out, starting by telling him yourself that you were pregnant.

"Y/n was seeing at a crime scene. It's everything but fine." Dustin added. You took a deep breath, not wanting to say that they caught you because of their stupid idea. "Okay, yeah, it's not fine." Steve changed his mind when Dustin told him the information he was missing. "And where is he supposed to stay?" You separated from Eddie huffing in desperation. You ran your hands over your face, this whole situation was crap and you were so tired of it already, but of course you would not expose Eddie to any more danger. But where was he gonna stay? Your house was out of the table, and so did Dustin's, Lucas's, and of course Max's. Eddie's trailer had an open gate to another dimension and the Wheelers and the Buckleys knew, like the rest of Hawkins, that Eddie was wanted by the police. He needed something on the outskirts, with no parents and of someone no one would expect Eddie to be with.

You laid your eyes on Steve. All of your friends' eyes laid on Harrington too. There was no other place Eddie could hide. Your best friend rolled his eyes, finally noticing what was going on. "Yeah, whatever."

Steve let you sleep on his parents' queen-sized bed. You were sitting on the edge of one side of it, meanwhile, Eddie was sitting on the other side, your backs turned to each other. "He told me." Eddie said while untying the laces of his shoes. You swallowed nervously, sliding the t-shirt that Steve lend you over your head.

"I should've told you."

Eddie nodded. "I mean, I would've preferred to hear it from you than from Harrington." The only thing it could be heard in the room was Eddie's shoes and clothes falling to the floor. He had a lot in his mind, probably the same weird sensation all over his body you've been feeling these past weeks. He slid into the pajama t-shirt and pants that Steve gave him. "Eddie?" He hummed. "I need– I need to know what's on your mind."

"I just– I don't understand why you didn't tell me." He grabbed his clothes from the floor and passed by your side to go downstairs and put them in the washing machine. His voice tone was soft, not angry but confused, with a lot of questions. He couldn't get mad at you because of this, he could never get mad at you. "I was scared."

"But why? I don't think our relationship is one to be scared of telling the other type."

"It's not." Eddie raised his eyebrows, hoping for you to notice the contradiction. Perhaps he shouldn't be this harsh with you. Eddie kneeled in front of you, leaving the clothes on his hands next to him. "Look. All I'm saying is– We've been together for a while now, and I've always had your back as well as you've always had mine. This is how we work. We work– We work like one, y/n." He took both of your hands between his, caressing the back of them with his thumb. "Why did you think this time would be any different?"

You shook your head, laying your eyes on your hands between Eddie's. You didn't have an answer to his question. He sat on the bed next to you, your hands still on his. "Have you thought about what you wanna do?" You swallowed the lump in your throat, Eddie nodded, understanding. He kissed your knuckles and stood on his feet. You looked at him as he did, waiting for a reaction apart from the kiss. Eddie picked up his dirty clothes from the floor, ready to go and leave them in the washing machine.

"I don't– I don't wanna do this if it's not with you." Your voice was weak, your eyes glossy with tears.

Eddie sat next to you on the bed, allowing the clothes to fall from his hands one last time. He'd take care of them tomorrow. He analyzed your face, you looked so insecure and scared that he swore he felt his heart break. He took both of your hands again. "I wanna do this." Eddie assured you, nodding and looking for your gaze. He thought you understood what he was trying to say with all the we are one speech. He was not leaving. "If you decide you wanna have that baby, I'll be the happiest man on Earth. But I'll support you, and of course still love you, if you decide it's too soon for that."

"You won't leave if I decide to have it?" You stared into his eyes, a soft smile on his lips as he shook his head. "Never." Eddie placed a kiss on your forehead. "I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like you couldn't tell me or if like my reaction would be bad." You were the one shaking the head this time. "It's not your fault."

"Come here." Eddie laid in the middle of the bed, opening his arms to you. You accepted his invitation and rested your head on his chest as his arms hugged you tightly against him. God, how much you've missed him. His scent, his chest slowly rising and falling, his hands playing with your hair and the sudden 'i love you's and the kisses he'd place on your forehead.

It was too soon to imagine starting a family with you? It was not as if Eddie hadn't already thought about a future with you but now it was closer than ever. He could already imagine himself hugging your swollen belly from behind and mumbling into your ear that you should rest instead of working in the child's room. He could imagine holding your hand strongly by the time you give birth and hugging you and your newborn baby carefully. His two beautiful girls, Eddie was so sure that the baby would be a girl. He would play dress-up with her, wearing a pink tutu and a crown and letting her carry the sword and fight the imaginary dragon that captured him. He would drive her to school every day and help her with homework. He should start looking for a real job after all of this, hoping for some kind soul that would believe in his innocence before you both could afford to leave Hawkins. He should start looking for a house too, maybe on the outskirts of Hawkins, a quieter and cheaper place. And you. He couldn't wait to ask you to marry him.

Eddie spent most of the night imagining a life with you, making sure that you were comfortable and sleeping well until he inevitably fell asleep too.

[raideo]

Bruh ...... let me tell you, I actually started paying attention to my nutrition intake and I was not eating as healthy as I thought I was like goddamn...

I mean the things I was eating WERE healthy but like, the pacing/frequency of food intake, ratio of macronutrients and micronutrients were completely and utterly fucked six ways from Sunday, I had no idea my diet was so screwed up and thats why I felt like I was DYING ALL THE TIME!!!!!! BECAUSE I KINDA FUCKIN WAS, LMAO!!!!!

I feel like a whole different person this is the best thing ive ever done for myself omg

If you feel like shit all the time please consider getting a nutrition tracking app and DONT!!! DO IT FOR WEIGHT LOSS!!! THAT SHOULD NOT BE YOUR GOAL UNLESS YOU NEED TO FOR HEALTH REASONS, Just do it with the goal of trying to get the macro/micronutrients you should be getting and oh my god it will make such a difference if your diet is unbalanced I promise you.

I was not getting nearly enough protein or fiber before omfg. No wonder i could exercise as much as i wanted and i never seemed to get stronger and i always fucking hurt all the time! Jesus christ!!! 🤦‍♂️ i feel so stupid but also I cannot be the only one who struggles with this PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD BALANCE YALLS DIETS

Also extra note about the fiber- if you get very little you should not go straight to getting the full recommended amount you will have a BAD TIME. Im glad I knew about this already and did not have to learn it the hard way. You gotta give your body days or sometimes weeks to adjust to increasing it, because gut bacteria is responsible for helping you digest that stuff and if you don't have enough they cannot handle a large amount- you gotta give them time to multiply 👍 (i cant believe my fish tank cycling knowledge applies to my own human body this shit is wild)

Anyway nutritional education in this country is fucked so bad, overhauling my diet has only made me more angry that shit is so expensive and school/workplace culture is so hostile to you snacking often like you should be. How the fuck is a person supposed to get the nutrients they're supposed to to fuel their body and brains when they're only allowed to eat once like every 6-10 hours?! Im so glad my job doesn't have an issue with me constantly snacking on stuff because it's extremely physical and I have come to realize it's quite literally imperative to my body's optimal function that I have that.

🪓 capitalism die

[brightgnosis]

I was talking to @beneathfrenzy yesterday about everything that's been bothering me lately- but especially my weight gain.

My issue isn't that I'm "fat" again. For the first time in my life, I actually feel neutral about "being fat"; there isn't that ED voice in the back of my head screeching at my like a Harpy, like there has been my whole life- having constantly had my body poked and prodded and scrutinized; first being chronically underweight as a child, not hitting puberty until my Junior year of High School, and then suddenly being "too voluptuous" and being judged as promiscuous and everything else that comes with solid (obnoxiously German) bones (as my Bio Mother would say).

It's the fact that I can no longer access my own body. There is now all of this ... Extra mass in my way that drags me down, holds me in place, and ultimately prevents me from moving in all of the ways I am used to. And it is so frustrating not being able to access your own body anymore. Especially when you're disabled, and you already have so much wrong with your body in the first place. It just complicated things and makes it worse.

Not only can I no longer access my own body, but the constant need to buy new clothing- and being forced to buy incredibly cheap fast fashion at that, because my weight has been increasing so rapidly that I can't afford to keep up with quality clothing ... It's distressing! It sucks! It makes you feel like shit; no matter how good your relationship with your body is, it's horrible to buy a skirt one week and then turn around the next and find that you suddenly can't fit in it anymore. Especially when you love the skirt.

But then I feel guilty about that, too — about the hatred it makes me feel not only being disabled in my early 30's, but also being fat again on top of it ... Because being fat again is a good thing for me! It means that my body is no longer literally starving to death anymore from untreated Gastroparesis; it means that we figured out the true cause of what was keeping me from digesting my food and forcing me to vomit it all up for 7+ years, and that my body is finally getting all of the nutrients it needs.

I know that my body is still panicking right now; that it did spend 7 years grasping desperately for nutrients, deficient in nearly every damned vitamin under the sun, and inflamed to the nearest freaking Volcano and back. And I know that now that it's finally getting all those nutrients, it's hanging onto everything that it can with an iron grip, because it's terrified of it happening again. Because that's what our bodies do when they're traumatized like that.

And I also know that a lot of the current gain on top of all that was because I spent the last 3 months bedbound and incapable of movement in the first place.

I shouldn't hate my body because of all of that. I feel guilty for hating it because of it. Especially because there's nothing wrong with being fat, and I have no real feelings about that itself to begin with ... But I still hate it. Because at the end of the day, I still can't move. I can't access my body. I can't exist easily in the world (or, at least, more easily; the world will always be uncomfortable for me as a Disabled individual regardless of whether or not I am fat on top of that).

Emotions are stupid.

[2kmps]

TL;DR TALKING ABOUT FOOD, DIET CULTURE

so, like, ive been pretty deeply immersed in american diet culture close to 20 years as I started out in it morbidly obese as a kid—told I'd die if I didn't lose weight by my doctor—lost all that weight and developed a form of exercise bulimia that put me underweight where I just looked.... sickly

anyway, I've worked hard over the past decade not to fall into extremes of either side again and have unlearned a lot of harmful shit about food and exercise

but it pisses me off when I still see "eat this, not that!" shit being peddled around and it's, like, breakfast boxes w/ scrambled eggs, some sort of vegetables (or veggies mixed in w/ something), berries, and a protein source being replaced with fucking chicken scratch and pita chips

like, bro, wtf are you trying to sell?

the idea behind a """balanced diet""" is nutrient density and eating as much in a rounded way as possible so you stay satiated, not to just make yourself less and less and less and less

one thing i really focus on these days is carb intake and high protein. I'm an active person so these tend to be higher for me than someone who may have a different lifestyle

but treating carbs like the devil is bullshit—you need them for fuel, it's literally one of the main sources of energy your body gets

protein helps with satiation amongst other important functions for the body

both of these are important and have their place just as much as vegetables and fruits. also, the sugars in fruits are hardly anything to be concerned about and I want to neck-snap the stupid fuck who started the rumor that eating fruits is bad

also, diet soda won't kill you

sweets and fried foods won't kill you

too much of ANYTHING is bad for you. one thing isnt necessarily more evil than the other unless you have true dietary restrictions and people need to stop pretending that one type of food is synonymous with "bad"

it's driving me up the goddamn walls

[ms-hells-bells]

My national newspaper recently released a bunch of articles about how supplementing is basically a scam, no matter if you're omni or vegetarian. There is a brief mention of B12 for vegans but other than that, they say it's a waste of money if you eat healthy.

I think this is stupid! I'm vegetarian and eat relatively healthy but will immediately notice symptoms if I don't supplement for at least B12, iron, vitamin D and magnesium/calcium. What do you think?

it's a half truth. most people are taking far too many supplements, or are taking multis where if they got a blood test, they'd see that they may only need to take one of two individual vitamins. i always recommend that people get a nutrient blood test to find out what they need to have more of, whether through dietary changes, or supplements. and that's not even getting into all the snake oil supplement pills for things like hair and nails, collagen capsules, SO MUCH FISH OIL, creatine, 'brain boosters' and SO MUCH MORE. supplements aren't covered under the food heath and safety acts of many countries, so there is no legal requirement to do any studies, or really regulate their contents at all. so, it's about digging out the fake shit from what's nutritionally necessary.

as for what you said, i think it's more of a reverse placebo effect for you. all of the nutrients you listed have stores in your body, you will not immediately become deficient if you stop taking supplements. in most cases, if you're healthy, it can take months or even years for your stores to completely deplete. but that doesn't mean not to take your supplements, keep taking them! i'm more just saying to not worry a bunch if you miss a couple days worth every now and again.

and yes, if people did eat healthy and varied, many people would NOT need supplements (apart from some women, because people always forget about women. many women of childbearing age should take calcium, especially if they are going to be childfree, and for women with heavy cycles, iron supplements are important, often you just simply cannot consume enough food to get enough iron needed to replace the blood you lose). but most people do NOT eat healthy because capitalism. they cannot afford healthy foods, they do not have time to cook healthy foods, they were raised on unhealthy foods and replicate their parents, they binge eat, they live in a food desert. many reasons. it's estimated that as many as 90% of people in the west have at least one deficiency. many people are overfed and malnourished. while the core solution is to make healthy foods easy and accessible to all, along with nutritional education, cooking classes, etc. in the meantime until we dismantle society as we know it, people need to stay healthy.

so, they're technically telling the truth, but in a half assed, deceptive manner.

[exandr0th-0f-viscera]

(I'M GONNA GET SO FUCKING MAD AT PEOPLE IN COMMENT SECTIONS) ("ERADICATING THE MOSQUITO POPULATION WOULD BE LESS HARMFUL THAN USING PESTICIDES") (THEN STOP USING PESTICIDES???) (WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR REASONING) (MOSQUITOES ARE MY BABY BOYS ACTUALLY AND I THINK THEY'RE SOME OF GOD'S BEST CREATIONS)

(PHOTO BY ANTHONY ZUKOFF THIS IS AN ELEPHANT MOSQUITO - TOXORHYNCHITES RUTILUS - AND LOOK AT HOW BEAUTIFUL THEY ARE) (THEY DON'T DRINK BLOOD SO THEY CAN'T BE A VECTOR FOR DISEASE LIKE OTHER MOSQUITOES CAN) (EXCEPT I GUESS THAT DOESN'T HELP MY CASE THAT ALL MOSQUITOES ARE COOL THOUGH) (UHHHH)

(OKAY WELL LOOK AT HOW ABSOLUTELY STUPID THIS THING LOOKS IN THIS PHOTO) (THIS IS AEDES AEGYPTI ALSO KNOWN AS A YELLOW FEVER MOSQUITO AND IT *DOES* DRINK BLOOD AND IT *DOES* SPREAD DISEASE BUT LOOK AT IT) (THIS GUY DIDN'T MEAN TO GIVE YOU A DISEASE)

(THIS PHOTO THEY ARE GETTING LOST IN THE SAUCE) (THE SHEER BLISS OF NECTAR) (DID YOU KNOW THAT MOSQUITOES ARE POLLINATORS?) (BECAUSE THEY ARE, THEY'RE ALSO A PART OF THE COOL POLLINATOR GANG) (ALSO FEMALES ONLY DRINK BLOOD FROM HUMANS WHEN THEY NEED THE NUTRIENTS FOR THEIR EGGS, AND IF THEY'RE UNWITTINGLY THE VECTOR OF A DISEASE THEN THEY *ACCIDENTALLY* INFECT YOU) (THERE IS NOT A MALICIOUS BONE IN HER BODY) (WELL ACTUALLY MAYBE THERE IS BUT I DON'T BLAME BUGS FOR BEING UPSET, IT'S HARD BEING THAT TINY) (I'D ALSO BE MAD IF I WAS THAT TINY)

(ANYWAYS HERE IS A COMPILATION OF PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE)

(HI I HATE ALL OF YOU, YOU MISSED THE POINT OF THE FUCKING VIDEO)

"It just may fix itself in a way that isn’t beneficial or even bad for humans"

(DO YOU KNOW WHAT A FUCKING INVASIVE SPECIES IS) (OR LIKE ABOUT ANY OF THE SHIT THAT HARMS THE ECOLOGICAL SYSTEM BEYOND IT INCONVENIENCING PEOPLE)

(AND TO THE PEOPLE WHO MADE AN APPEARANCE TO SAY SOME ACTUAL REASONABLE THINGS, THANK FUCKING GOD)

[cuntess-carmilla]

TW: Weight loss, dieting, food restriction.

Ok, so I'm not gonna pretend I'm eating less For My Health, I'm doing it because I almost started crying the other day when I saw my selfies from early 2021 and I was so much thinner, BUT...!

Alright so one of my big chronic illness nightmares is MCAS aka my immune system releases histamine hysterically for no fucking reason all day every day, which leads to things such as:

Chronic fatigue (because the fatigue I get from my brain being chronically deprived of enough oxygen and the fatigue I get from chronic joint pain weren't enough I guess).

Migraines and headaches.

Nausea.

Dizziness.

Poor nutrient absorption.

Either peeing out of my ass for an hour or not taking a singular shit in over a week and a half no matter how much I eat, no in-between.

Breaking out in hives, either with a concrete allergic trigger or just like, if I'm too sad, angry or stressed (HELL ILLNESS).

Hair thinning.

Soft tissue inflammation aka lots of joints getting locked into place which is extra terrible when you're PRONE TO SPONTANEOUS PARTIAL DISLOCATIONS. Also can't sing because tight throat.

Dry eyes.

Clogged nose and difficulty breathing.

Lots of extra gastrointestinal issues.

Fucks with my heart rate and blood pressure as if I don't already have POTS.

Brain fog. Stupid bitch disorder.

Anxiety, irritability and depression, because why not.

FEVERS. THE FUCKING FEVERS.

Anyway, so, the way the body acquires histamine in order to cause me all of the hell I just described is in big part through food, right? Even food that's low on histamine (and all the good foods are HIGH on histamine because of course they are), it still has SOME histamine.

And like, I've noticed for years too that the more fatigue I'm experiencing the more I crave food because my body is both stupid and smart. Smart enough to realize that we're abnormally fatigued and we need to do something about it, but dumb enough to assume it's because I'm not eating enough carbs rather than because I have THREE chronic illnesses.

So, anyway, these past like, four days I've made a lot of effort to reduce what I eat by a lot (not to an unhealthy degree, I'm still feeding myself reasonably) and it was really hard the first couple of days, but it's getting easier.

The thing is since yesterday I've started noticing that my autoimmunity has been down considerably. I'm A LITTLE less fatigued, BUT now I'm shitting like a normal person? It's not diarrhea but I'm also going semi-regularly, AND it's a normal color instead of the blue-green that indicates I'm having autoimmune fuckery going on in my digestive track.

My hair is falling off A LITTLE less, and yesterday was the first day in over a year in which I don't actively wish I was dead every single second I breathe. My skin is starting to calm down a little bit too. Oh, and I had enough brain power to listen to a lot of music yesterday while ACTUALLY processing what I was hearing instead of everything sounding like white noise in my ears.

It sucks because yummy food is Literally one of the very few pleasures I have left in life but if this helps the autoimmunity... I think I'm willing to cut down on that one pleasure significantly.

[000life-is-meaningless000]

🌱 Nature 🌱 is Not 🚫 Sacred ! 💀

Nature is not fucking Sacred it's Not

All of nature is Based around things killing other things to continue on There Meaningless Existence

. . .

Where is the spirituality in nature Where is the sacredness when all animals are killing all the animals to survive you got animals killing their own kind for dominance to survive you have extremely alien cultures and animal kingdoms

. . .

To make things even worse all cells do the same goddamn thing like selling the body microbiotics, cells are doing all the fucking time animals are doing all the goddamn fucking time even fungus in like fucking mold do the same goddamn thing Everything is in life is trying to kill everything else to continue with Meaningless Existence but most things are so fucking stupid they don't understand what they are is Meaningless, so they continue to circle Of Life they continue this Empty Hollow Existence, of eventual Death.

. . .

Life is fucking Meaningless Resource's are fucking stupid resources didn't even need to fucking exist so we could just stay as fucking Ghost's !

. . .

Life is based off Evil, Evil is Good for life !

. . .

Well, Good is Good for Death ¡

. . .

( one could argue with one energy over another and I would agree to that all lives at different type of energy a different type of essence a different type of a spirituality on its own but even spirituality is fucking Meaningless, Petty, Shallow, And De-Void aka Hollow & An Illusion of Purpose )

You just think about it nature's not sacred the universe is comprised of Greater beings conquering worlds of other Greater beings and you have deities which power the planets going to war with other deities for dominance.

( Alien's, Conquer and driving other and races into Extinction for dominance the whole universe is a fucking jungle )

. . .

Deities are a Divine family and that family is always at war with itself

. . .

Even plants that reside in the ground fight for nutrients below the surface plants are killing other plants all the time for water plants are killing other plants for nutrients there are plants that eat other plants like vines that suck on their new teeth out of them like a spider drinks a bug

Or like you drink a can pre-sun or some kind of juice box ¡

. . .

Where the fuck is the sacredness in life what's the fuck is so holy living as long as possible doesn't make life better it makes life worse because your body breaks down you get a lot of DNA loss and you suffer a lot of pain

! AND, I MEAN A LOT OF PAIN

. . .

Besides all the animals kill another animals torturing other animals eating other animals human beings are complete piece of shit to other human beings the world of humans is fucking god-awful and got himself is Pure Evil

At, The End of the day all we Really Get is . . . Death

Also a job at slavery your life is meaningless and bleak despite the fact technology couldn't be greater and more powerful and more intense than ever and human history Somehow we're also Extremely bored ?

All of us are miserable all of us are bored technology is getting stronger like a fucking digital cancer and everybody's fucking miserable

To make things worse we have the most lawful evil government in any part of human history we have never had a more stronger secret society than ever in existence fucking deep State at this point is basically a God

There's no stopping those secret of fuckers weather reptilians whether any other goddamn race any I don't give a shit at this point evil Powers rule the world but then again evil is the universe

There's a reason why the universe is colored black for a fucking reason black I think activity black is evil there's a reason why the universe has a sprinkle of light in it

Who knows how all the stars look like a sprinkle it look like Glitter in the sky Almost

Got the very evil extremely malicious all powerful deity that tortures and treats all the deities like shit well deities are always fighting for dominance and power like fucking animals

Deity you need to survive by getting fucking babies they need souls to convert into their own kind but always put certain souls are worthy cuz they have the Right quality

Life is meaningless then you die and get reincarnated and human beings are some of the stupidest fucking creatures in existence it really are the most stupid over emotional hypersensitive pussies they don't want Truth, if it offends them