#sunbun speaks

[highraccoon]

it's always so funny when someone "acknowledges" your disabilities but when those disabilities actually, you know, disable/impact parts of your life then they act as if the disability couldn't POSSIBLY be the problem and you're just bringing it up as an excuse

and by funny i mean it makes me want to powerdrill my own teeth

[leonenjoyer69]

New oc dropped: Mr. Lovell Roser, Medicinal Necrobotanist!

A quick summary!!! (His full character sheet and successful experiment will be under the cut :3)

New OC dropped, a Lodger this time!! This is my new guy Lovell Roser, a Medicinal Necrobotanist at the Society :33 his work consists of: general herbal healing of wounds and sickness, treatment of infection or bodily rot, and the slowing/reversal of death by integrating plants into a dying or passed life form!! Basically, he wants to make flower-zombies. Most of his experiments result in creatures suffering from a rabid state, but he mayyyy have succeeded on bringing one man back..

Otherwise!! He's a very paranoid, partially apathetic dude. Most of his empathy is saved for his plants and the people he likes, but he can still usually throw on a friendly or caring act. Sometimes however, he does tend to go more blank, quiet, and oddly jumpy. He doesn't tend to let himself express any negative emotions like anger, always trying to keep an upper hand on his weaknesses unless something reallyyyy gets to him.

So!! To express his emotions, he relies on flower language and gifting flowers and bouquets, feeling that they speak more words than he ever could. So, he's gifting flowers constantly, for good and bad. Otherwise, he's generally enjoyable-- or at least tolerable-- to be around. He also does journaling for a bunch of different things, mainly on plants and his fears.

I think at the Exhibition he'd show more of his healing stuff, kinda just... Skirting the whole "resuscitation via plants" thing under the rug for a bit. To be honest, he doesn't even really like the other lodgers knowing he experiments with that stuff, but most of them are at least surprisingly supportive. High society, however? Definitely not supportive. Anyways, yea, he'd show his little salves and powders and tinctures, also showing the stuff to fight infection and rot, probably explaining how wow!!! These everyday flowers and herbs have so many benefits!!!

And then yea, full character sheet and his "son" Proteus (made by @sunset-sunbun ) under the cut!!!

Name: Mr Lovell Leocadius Roser

Age:28

Pronouns: he/him

Science: Roser studies something he calls "Medicinal Necrobotany", which consists of; general Herbal healing of wounds and sickness, treatment of infection or bodily rot, and the slowing/reversal of death via integrating plants into a dying or passed life form. To the general public, his work only seems to consist of healing salves and powders and tinctures, which he's commonly visited for. However, his work certainly goes much deeper than that. He aims to bring back life, much like Frankenstein, but with the use of flora, seeing if once someone becomes one with nature, they can also be brought back with it. Most of his experimenting is on deceased animals, trying to intricately fuse roots and nerves and make the flora a part of the body, which brings it the energy to come back. Any "successes" so far have ended in an almost rabid, zombie-like state, leading to him having to constrain or put down the creature. However, he has experimented on a few human bodies, and one *may* be successful..

Personality: a paranoid, plant loving dude. Definitely has empathy issues towards people, unless he's closer to them. Most of his empathy is for his plants (and ofc the people he likes). He usually seems somewhat cheerful, fine to talk amongst people and feign empathy with people he's less close to, but sometimes he seems more blank and jumpy. It's usually best to just leave him be when he's like that, unless you're closer to him. Otherwise, he tries not to outwardly express many of his negative emotions, always trying to keep an upper hand on his weaknesses, so he never really shows his anger or annoyance unless something has *really* gotten to him. Somehow, this doesn't stop him from still being an asshole. (Some of the lodgers have also probably seen him cry at least once though, a damning combination of paranoia and sleepless nights tend to set him on edge and one good spook can have him tearing up.)

When he has trouble articulating his feelings, he tends to fall back on flower and bouquet meanings, since he feels they mean much more than words. He also uses this as an outlet for his negative emotions, gifting flowers that have negative symbolism. So, all in all, he's gifting people flowers *all the time*, whether for good or bad. He also has a fear of spirits, specifically malicious ones, so he tends to keep protective plants on him at all times (lavender, ferns, sage, and his 4-leaf clover necktie pin), and when experimenting he's insistent on having his full body covered.

All in all, he's *generally* enjoyable to be around, or at least tolerable, usually more of a listener unless a topic of plants or medicine crops up, then he tends to ramble. Most of his free time is spent tending to his plants, experimenting, wandering the society, or journaling. The journaling ranges from plant and flower information and meanings (which he has logged extensively), slave, medicine and tonic "recipes", experimental logs, paranoid ramblings, and suspicions/gossip on people.

Backstory: As a kid, he lived more in the country, somewhat separated from society. This lead to his initial interest and curiosity in plants, as he spent most of his time outside among nature. His father was a kindly working man, though a bit emotionally distant, and his mother was sickly and snappy, leading Roser to prefer being out of the house. He started reading books of crazy scientists and monsters, which began to cause paranoia, though his curiosity tended to override his fears.

He became fascinated with herbal healing, reading and learning of flora's many uses, and became specifically curious about bringing things back with nature when he first came across a deceased animal, partially reclaimed by nature. He noticed how the plants prospered around the decay, and began to off handedly wonder if that Bloom of life could bring someone back, like how Frankenstein made his creature, except without electricity. He eventually went to university for anatomy and surgery, but he eventually switched to botany and horticultural classes. He made herbal medicine as a sort of side job, mainly experimenting with things, and a few years after university he found the society.

Lodger relationships: he's closest with Tanis (despite his fear of spirits), Doddle, Flowers, Rachel, Bird, and Archer. He's quite neutral on most of the others, but he's a bit intimidated by Maijabi, Cantilupe, and Ito (despite occasionally supplying her with things.) The main exceptions to that neutrality lies in Helsby and Griffin, who have caught Roser in a prank one too many times (and disrespected his lovely plants.) Roser is usually regarded quite well, especially since he's the main person to go to for any medicinal or healing reasons when potions are either unnecessary or just distrusted. Additionally, he won't admit it, but Roser has occasionally used Griffin or Helsby as a sort of test subject for new concoctions. Additionally, he's very half and half on Jekyll, of course greatful for the home he's been able to make in the society, but not very close to the man. There's just something off about him, but Roser holds no ill intent towards him. Hyde, however? He quite dislikes. Hyde has bothered him and messed with him and disrespected his plants enough that Roser gets annoyed at the mere sight of him, surprisingly snappy towards the blond.

His "successful" experiment: he somewhat succeeded in bringing back one human body, old name unknown to him, but Roser's called him Proteus, after the Protea flower, which symbolizes transformation. He's very cautious with Proteus for a good while, but it eventually gets a bit better. Proteus can't talk, and he's partially held together with poppies and carnations, as well as a general mix of other flora and fungi. He's usually quite out of it, not always responding to sound stimuli, but he's also seemingly not aggressive or prone to lashing out. Proteus is Roser's pride and joy, and he makes sure to care for him the best he can, pushing aside any fears or paranoia. He treats Proteus like a son, in his own silly way, making sure he's fed and hydrated and not rotting, testing him to see how he responds to things and how well he can still function. (Proteus's character and design was also made by @sunset-sunbun so once again big thanks to Sunny for Roser's flower zombie son!!!!)

Extra stuff: he made the little strap that holds his lavender himself and put one on each waistcoat. Not only to protect him, but also to showcase to people that he's not the most trusting. He's also allergic to bees! So all of the pollinators in his room are mechanical ones (made by Flowers (or his boyfriendddd)). He has these frequent premonitions or gut feelings that something is going to go bad. If they're not strong enough, he tends to try and ignore them, chalking them up to mere paranoia, but if it's stronger he tends to give into it, warning those who will listen or who he feels is in danger. He's felt dreadfully drawn towards Jekyll for a while now, and despite feeling quite neutral about him, Lovell has been trying to slip him warnings and protections.

If you read all of that, tysm :33 proof again that I cannot leave my characters simple or partially developed, I go ALL the way

He also!!!! Has a boyfriendddd-- a fellow Lodger named Vasily (who's @arsieu s OC :D) I love them sm. Also art by Arsie ofc

[toki-woki-fnaf]

Holy shit hello new people?? i didn't expect that post to be the one to give me followers, welcome!! Those are for my fangame FNAF:Forever and Ever, it's a multiplayer 4 guards vs 1 spirit classic fnaf fangame!! You can mix and match animatronics against the guards which is why I'm making these renders! I apologise as I want to look at a lot of yalls blogs but I sadly cannot touch fnaf media for now till after tomorrow, I'll try to remember to check yall out!! SPEAKING OF TOMORROW, COME JOIN ME AND @sunbun-fnaf'S STREAM OF HELP WANTED 2 AT 4 PM PST, WE'RE GOING IN BLIND AND ARE ALREADY HALF WAY THROUGH THE GAME (estimating, we aren't sure!) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!

[timidblues]

Aaaand there it was, the tint of her face slowly reddening at his teasing compliment while she looked away, smiling bashfully.

* Y-You really mean that?...

The blonde said with a mumble, fiddling with her digits. That definitely had flattered her, feeling a tiny bit better about her performance abilities...until she remembered.

* Okay, don't laugh, but...when I was younger, I remember wanting to do theatre as a hobby or something...but I never ended up doing it because I was too shy. That, and mostly the fact that I have terrible, terrible stage fright. It's horrible...so I honestly don't know if I could have done that...

She sighed, looking a bit defeated. If only she could learn to beat that fear! She supposed it as possible, but at the same time she couldn't help but feel that it was just how she was and couldn't do anything about it.

* Even for small things like singing...I like singing but I'm so scared to sing around people, sometimes it's so bad I literally can't speak at all and my heart's racing. I just...don't like being perceived I guess.

Sophia joked a little, a half-hearted laugh leaving her. It was clear it was bothering her, but she'd accepted it by now. That was just how she was.

The assistant perked up when Sun spoke again though, seeing the rooms from far away as they slowly reached them.

* Oh! Thanks, Sunbun, I can always count on you. I'll be right back then!

She said with a smile, giving a small wave before slipping past the doors and going to change into her pajamas.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *. @celestialdaycare .* :☆ﾟ. ───

It had been a little while since their new assistant had been hired to work alongside the two― and it had been going on great!

Much, much better than she expected, that was for sure. Not that she expected it to go bad, but...she just didn't know that she'd click so well with them!

But that made her very happy for the lonely girl she was― and it made it so nice to work with them! And today was a special day, because they had planned a sleepover!

She had been so excited about it the entire day that it made it seem like her shift was much, much longer than usual. But alas, once her shift was over and they had taken care of the cleaning, they could finally hang out!

With a visibly excited demeanor, she turned back towards them after putting the cleaning supplies back in their respective locker― going back behind the desk and zipping open her sleepover bag she brought just for the occasion.

* Guess what I brouuught~

Sophia sing-sang, sliding a colorful, quite large rectangular case out of the bag and shaking it a bit towards them with a mischievous smile. There was no mistaking what it was! They had talked about it after all.

The blonde had brought everything she needed for the occasion! The switch she had just taken out (without forgetting to bring all the cables) pajamas, snacks, her plushie that she always slept with, her toothbrush for later― nothing was missing!

Oh, tonight was going to be fun!

[highraccoon]

all i ever wanted my whole life, my only aspiration, was to have friends/be a friend. that's all i ever wanted. just someone who chose me, chose to share their lives with me, and we would keep choosing each other.

which is why i put up with so many people who weren't my friends but pretended to be. i just so desperately wanted connection with others because for me, it was the hardest thing to achieve. my whole life I've never been able to make a real friend, just people who used me or hurt me or betrayed me.

there was a time when i thought i had finally made a friend. she was full of life and so fun and she treated me well. she made me come alive. over the years, she became entangled in my soul. i couldn't imagine a future without her in it in some way.

how was i supposed to know it was one-sided? how could i read a situation i barely understood? i didn't know real friends could just throw you away when they get a new relationship like you never mattered. i didn't know real friends could leave you on hold, leave you with a promise, and never come back. i was always taught that real friends loved you.

that means that I've never had a real friend. I'm so sick and tired of people just telling me to put myself out there and to try to make friends. you think i haven't tried? you think i haven't done everything i could think of to achieve this one pathetic goal? after 26 years? really? it's not that i haven't tried, I've been trying so hard. it's just that now, i don't see a point. after 26 years of doing and saying the wrong thing at the wrong time and eventually making my world so small that i don't know why i keep living in it most days... I'm tired. I'm tired of being the only one that gives a shit.

[highraccoon]

is it normal to be really tired all the time no matter how much you rest

[highraccoon]

anyone know how i can watch yellowjackets without having showtime or anything?

[highraccoon]

Day 2:

canon:

Goth, Prep, Jock & Nerd from the webtoon Boyfriends.

Camille, Nyra, & Dendro from the webtoon Muted

non-canon but i wish it was canon:

Yennifer, Geralt, & Jaskier from The Witcher

Alina Starkov, Mal Orestev, Genya Safin, & David Kostyk from the Grishaverse series

Hey there polyamorous punks! Polyamory Week will be on August 15-21 this year! As with last year each day with have a prompt! Share your own story, draw, write, create, whatever!

Prompts will be released on August 1st here on PolyamorousPunk!

[highraccoon]

Seek therapy

genuine curiosity, what for?

[highraccoon]

when you realize you're probably gonna need a large house or two apartments in order to fit your whole family 😭

[highraccoon]

when your new friend called themselves a r*dicle feminist so i asked them more probing questions only to realize they just thought it meant "r*dically feminist" like "radical leftist" and not like "terf-lite" lol

[highraccoon]

so apparently scotty up there just would be totally okay with polio killing and disfiguring people as long as the "government doesn't tell me what to do". like please just say you're an anti-vaxxer 🙄 this is a matter of public safety and we've seen in the past year and a half that this individualist mentality is killing people. but i guess you don't give a shit because its just disabled people, old people and kids. if making it mandatory to do something that would save people's lives means giving up a tiny portion of bodily autonomy, by all means. cause i'm not a selfish asshole who only cares about myself. fuck the government, i don't give a shit. but if you think for a second that people should be allowed to put other people's lives on the line because they don't care about anyone but themselves, you might need to reconsider your views. this isn't about only you. you don't want to be considered an anti-vaxxer then maybe don't spout the same shit they do. you're worse than an idealist, you're delusional. stop pretending you care about anyone's life because clearly your "beliefs" trumps people's lives.

Take a moment to understand how vaccine passports as permit into public spaces will impact anyone undocumented and anyone who is unable to show ID for other reasons, like a trans person who is forced to out themselves every time they show ID.

It should be very obvious that vaccine passports are a barrier to most forms of public life for marginalized people. They’re not safety. They’re state violence against the most vulnerable among us.

Fight vaccine passports. Fight them with everything you’ve got.

( The same goes for any ‘covid-free’ access pass in places where those passes can not be anonymous or where you need an ID to get tested.)

[highraccoon]

i wonder what it feels like to be loved

[highraccoon]

there's pieces missing

[highraccoon]

happy birthday to my 2 year old son

[highraccoon]

i exist with a chronically broken heart