#takes your silly goofy guy and makes him hyper-depressed

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the surveillant aka one of my favourites uwu

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Quick Fire Facts about the muses!

(Editor Beezie here aka the mun: I will be doing small quick fires of the muses of this blog. This will include upcoming ones too. Just a few four headcanon facts about the guys.These are the official headcanon of the fantrolls in this blog. There is more facts about the trolls but these are the only facts I can tell you without spoiling their whole backstories. If you wish to know more about the mueses please send in a ask and find out. )

Calice Wahron 

.Calice makes her own paints at home by mixing flowers,precious stones and clay hence the name dirt paintings or rivercolors.

 Calice is highly allergic to salt water, because of her genetic mutation of an olive with sea dweller gills and fins.

 Her horns are based off the clovers of the bermuda buttercup or the buttercup oxalis that grow in winter months in the state I’m in and they’re my favorite flower.  While her design is slightly based on the book Winds in the willow. 

 Calice’s sign is the mun’s homestuck zodiac sign. 

Eponia Hompis 

 Eponia was originally a ship baby between two canon characters that the mun no longer ships. But still show a little bit of the ship what she was formally was once in a while whenever interacting with others or in rps.

 Yes the mun is fully aware she’s been writing Eponia’s name like this ‘Epoina’ she’s just too lazy to fix it now. 

Eponia’s current  design was originally adopt  for a flower theme of  trolls. Her flower  being irises. But I fell in love with her design and kept her. 

Eponia can make extremely fluffy jiggly  grubcakes aka pancakes which she often sees as a failure. 

Kimaoi Midria

Like Eponia Kimaoi was going to be a grubling adoption, her design was a bronze grub with vitiligo and rabbit tail. But I decided to scrap the bunny tail and keep Kimaoi for myself.

 Kimaoi’s name is the combination of kimo kawaii meaning and please correct me if I am wrong in the comments. It looks a little creepy but cute.

 If you guys hadn’t noticed Kimaoi had a few scars on her legs, meaning she had self harmed herself in the past, due to having dealt with depression and had trauma with abuse. And still recovering at her own pace to self love again.

Like the words for her name, Kimaoi loves everything spooky and scary. Basically halloween is her Christmas. She loves it and finds what we see as big scary monsters to Kimi she sees puppy. ( The mun is no better if facing monsters or dinosaurs and willing to call them puppies)

Kotton Poplus

Kotton is at this moment is one of two  out of the ask group that has their pale quadrant filled.

Kotton was suppose to be a ship baby from two canon characters but got scrapped and the mun doesn’t ship anymore. But like Epoina, it's hinted who they were who turned Kotton into a clown loving puffball who doesn’t know too much of the rules between limes and purples.

 Kotton’s name is the combination of Kitten and Cotton Candy, Hence why she appears to be extremely hyper and overly positive to some situations. 

Kotton and her morial are the youngest of the adults trolls, both being 8.77 aka 19 years old. And yes she is the party girl of the cast.

Mariot Lotora

Mariot is the only one out of the group at this moment who has their red quadrant filled and is the mama of Macleo.

 Mariot’s name is the combination of two Agatha Christie's characters miss Marple and Hercules Poirot.

Mariot had gone through probably the most design changes out of the group currently. 

Is the main mom friend of the group to make sure the younger jades in the caverns are not sneaking off or bringing something back to the caverns. This goes double with the ask cast too.

Mairuz Panais 

 Mairzu is one of my oldest oc characters, not by age but who came first in the large group when being created. he, Nefiri and Rafina were the big ogs before everyone else was created.  And went through a massive design and character change before making his appearance on the blog. 

Mairzu’s name is a play on words of the italian almond  candy marzipan.

Whenever Mairzu becomes scared or excited he would start to smell like someone’s favorite candy for the whole day. This is from an inside joke me and a friend have about Mairzu due to his namesake.  

Whenever Mairzu becomes flustered or has a crush on someone will do the goofy’s very loudly hyuck. He is very embarrassed about it.

Nefiri Bastia

Nefiri is from a very long line of huntresses/tribe leaders. Where her traditions is where both eggs from blackrom and redrom are at risk from the other mate in the chief's black and red quadrant. Nefiri’s egg is the only known recorded redrom egg in the bloodline.  

Nefiri is the old lost friend of @ask-swagger-dagger-trolls’s oc Jamari, she is not part of his quadrant. She did had  two of her quadrants filled before losing them to a rival tribe forcing her into exile.  Making her quadrants empty.

 If she really likes you, Nefiri will lick your cheek or rub her head against you much like how a big cat greets their keeper. Or full on big cat hug which she tends to forget how strong she is at times. And if Nef has red feelings to someone she will bring dead animals and extremely affectionate to them. 

Nefiri does not know how modern society works at all. If you put her in a city setting, she will become extremely tense and nervous about it. Hell she is kinda the reason if someone has some sort of new tech and its someone she’s close to. Yeah.. She’ll see it as a threat and will destroy it. 

Nixiie Apilon 

 Nixiie has a babyface, meaning she is easily mistaken to be younger than her actual age. She is 10.62 aka 23 in human years at this moment since her wiggling day is in the spring.

To Nixiie she sees any jade in caverns she’s in as family/teachers. For example @princeofdoomrps Viktor, Nixiie calls him a teacher if she knows he is not part of her cavern while with @faithlines ‘s Lacuna she is not sure in that department so big sister teacher. And feels extremely guilty if a higher authority jade sees her and she thinks she’s in trouble like anyone of us would towards our own family,teachers or bosses fearing we will be punished or be a disappointment to them.

Nixiie’s name is the combination of Pixie and Nymph two magical creatures of folklore and her horns and wings are based off of the lunar moth. But went through a lot of design changes before taking in another grub adopt and turn it into Nixiie today. And like a moth to a flame if Nixiie sees something new or is extremely excited she will go after it.  

Nixiie doesn't eat meat, she will drink troll blood but will not touch anything that is made from an animal. She’s pretty much the vegan girl of the group.

Pohkin Boines 

Pohkin wears a corset under her clothes and will deny it if someone asks if she does wear it. This goes double for the weave. And bust size. 

Pohkin was held to a high standard by her lusus when being raised  to become a regel and lady of high blood society  and look down at her fellow low caste even in her own. 

Pohkin carries around a very sharp and large syringe and will use it on anyone she either deems as a riff raff or a threat. However she’s not that strong. Cunning yes, but has no muscles. 

Pohkin is at this moment tends to scare the mun and bullies me often whenever something silly comes her way. For example being put in an outfit like idk a chicken suit or something that shows way too much skin.

Rafina Uymumi

 Rafina is a run away troll, to get away from her overly controlling lusus. She ran away and joined the circus sort of speak.

She is extremely flexible, able to bend and  walk on her hands with ease and stay that way for a while before standing on her feet again. 

Originally Rafina was going to be a shut in underwater  writer for her blog for fantasy stories, but I didn’t think that would be a good fit for her. I wanted to give her the little mermaid story where Ariel wanted to go to the human world for her own means and not for a prince. But, still writes just for herself and refuse to show it to anyone.

 Rafina’s performances either contains  acrobatics gymnastics,belly dances or pole dances. Depending what’s on the line up or who’s the audience for the evening.

[lawrence-rowse]

🌻🐰🦋🧦🌳🍎 ⚠️🕰️💫🗑️💡💀🥇🔪🌊⚡🚀 (what you get for being needy lol)

🌻 a worried text

text: Are what we are doing okay for you? The hanging out and being friends? I just don’t want you to ever feel like you have to keep trying if it hurts you. I hurt you enough. I don’t want to keep doing it.

🐰 a goofy text

text: You know the whole pigtail thing has me thinking... Man bun. Or are those out now? Is it too soon to be the one to bring it back?  Can I even pull it off? Maybe I should just stick to the pigtails or maybe go full on Pebbles Flinstones?

🦋 a loving text

text: I know that I’m not always the greatest with words. I always better at the light moments or listening so I’m sorry if this comes out messy or clumsy but I need you to know that you are easily one of the best things I have in my life. Happiness wasn’t something I had a lot of growing up but being with you makes me happy. You make me laugh. You give me the freedom to be goofy. I love when you just get hyper and silly or when you get on a rant about something. I love watching you dance and just seeing what you love to do. When I think about my time with you and getting to be with you it makes me smile. I mean genuinely smile. Not just smile cause it’s what you do or just to seem like the nice guy. You make my heart happy and I don’t think you know what that means to me.

🧦 a half-asleep text

text: I miss you.

text: I mean really miss you.

🌳 a happy text

text: He went for it, babe! I made the dish for him and he said that we can put it on the special menus for a limited time. It’s my first real dish. Mine. Not just my version of something. Something I created that is going to be on a menu! I need to celebrate. Can you meet me for drinks? My treat!

text: I’m sorry about the babe. Old habits and I was excited. Sorry.

🍎 an apologetic text

text: I shouldn’t have gotten so defensive about it. I’m sorry. You had a right to ask. It’s just been a tough week and when you asked it rubbed me the wrong way, but that is no excuse. We said we would be open about things and I’m going to do that. I really am sorry. Are we okay?

⚠️ a text meant for someone else

text: Give the little man two hugs from me. And I mean it. Two. I’m going to ask him.

🕰️ an early morning text

text: I can’t afford blackout curtains so I think I’m going to just start wearing sunglasses to bed so I’m not woken up by this awful light in the morning. Sunshine is not enjoyable until noon.

💫 a late night text

text: Are you awake? I can’t seem to sleep and didn’t know if you were up for a phonecall? I think I just got so used to ending my nights on the phone with you when you gone. Remember how would talk until you were half asleep and mumbling?  I couldn’t understand a word you’d said but I could listen all night.

🗑️ a text that wasn’t sent

text: I wish that I could explain it all to you. About how I feel, but I don’t know that I can and I know because I can’t that we had to break up, but I’m just afraid that you really don’t know how it is that I felt about you. How I do feel. I love you, Alicia. I never lied to you when I said it or deceived myself into trying to. I love you. I love you more than you could know. I know that doesn’t make sense with how I have felt about her, but it’s true. I wanted to be with you. I wasn’t with you just because I couldn’t be with her. I would have never done that to you. You were never some second place for me. You were something like a gift. I couldn’t even understand why it was that you wanted me. And I did want you so much. There is a part of me that still does. But I know that I have no right to ever tell you that and put you in that place again. It was selfish of me to do it the first time. Maybe I never should have entered into a relationship with you but at the same time, I can’t imagine not have had the chance to be with you. I don’t want to take back all those memories. I don’t want to take back the feeling of falling for you. I don’t want to take back loving you. I just want to take back that I hurt you. I hate that I did and I will never forgive myself for it. I tried not to feel this way about her. I wish I didn’t. I did want to be with you. We weren't perfect but you were perfect for me and I’ll say it over and over again that I really do love you. 

💡 a scared text

text: I am terrified that I’m going to end up like my mom. That this depression is going to beat me the way it did her. I can just always feel it coming when I know it’s going to be a real bad period for me. I’m scared that I am going to be like her and one day I’m just going to get stuck in those feelings and only see one way out like she did.

💀 an urgent text

text: Hey hey hey. That broadway guy you like from that one show. He’s in the restaurant. Get in here!

🥇 a supportive text

text: Are you kidding?? You got the part?? I knew it! I knew that you would kill that audition. You are so ridiculously talented they would have been idiots to pass on you. You are a lead in a stage production! I’m so proud of you. I can’t wait to see you up there and you know I’m going like every night right? Well, not every cause I can’t afford that but I’ll be there in spirit.

🔪 a hateful text

text: Petterson I know you set my alarm so I’d go work out with you but it’s not happening. I can’t believe you would do this to me. On my day off. Wake me up early when I said no! You are from the devil.

🌊 a sad text:

text: I know that I’m the reason we ended so it’s probably selfish to say but I’m having a really hard time with this. It’s hard to be near you and just not be able to touch you or kiss you. Nothing sexual. I just have these times when I just want to hold your hand but I know that it’s no longer mine to hold. I have to physically stop myself sometimes from reaching out or saying I love you. I know that I deserve everything I’m feeling but it breaks my heart that I broke yours. Losing you was a mistake that I couldn’t seem to stop, but God, I wanted to so badly.

⚡ an angry text

text: Just drop it. I’m not talking about this anymore. I don’t want to. I’m done. You don’t even get it so you don’t get the right to say anything.

🚀 a goodbye text

text: I hate dropping you off and leaving. It never feels right. I’m happy you are at a great school and it’s going well there but it’s so hard being away from you when I just want to see that beautiful face every day. Every time I leave I just want to turn back around and stay with you a little longer. I used to hate that small bed but I’d take holding you in it every night just to have you with me. Can I just stay with you? Hide in your dorm? Eat that awful cheap instant stuff you buy just so I can kiss you goodnight? Maybe just until someone notices?

text: Probably not a good plan, huh? I guess I’m just going to have to keep saying goodbye until I don’t have to anymore. 

[thebrokenheartedandforgotten]

He's my best friend, and I'm in love with him.

I've had a crush on you since the 6th grade. I've loved you since the 8th. And I've been in love with you since 11th. Don't you understand that's almost a decade that I've wanted you. You drive me insane. You make my heart race. You give me butterflies, the zoo, and fucking unicorns in my gut when you smile at me. Some of those sappy love songs I can only think of you, I have for months. I love my best friend in a way more intimate way than I should. If you told me you wanted to try and be with me I'd push everyone aside. But who am I kidding? You're the moon and I'm just a little star; you're the sky and I'm just a lonely cloud. I mean Fuck, you kiss me and I get lightheaded and I just can't wait for the next one. The way you get serious and really talk to me makes my heart melt and race all at once. I don't think I can not smile around you. You, are everything I wake up for. Your laugh, your smartassness, your goofy and perverted ways; hell even your threats to throat punch me. I love waking up to it. I love our talks, and how you pick on me. I love when you get so hyper that you start twitching, it's adorable. I love the way you are with lyla, and all the other kids I've seen you around. You say you wouldn't mind if I ended up pregnant with your kid. And you don't understand how happy I'd be to have you as the father of my first child. I love when you get frustrated, or angry, or slightly pissed off. I know to stay away, but I love the look in your eyes. It just draws me to you more. Your eyes intrigue me. You're so hard to read yet i want to know you to the deepest level. I've never felt so completely comfortable with someone.. You're my best friend and I love you. I'd kill to call you mine. But that's just a fairytale. Because I'd rather hold on to these feelings, than risk it all. Although. I don't know if anything would change. You already live with me basically. I'd just be the same but I'd call you baby or my love. And I'd steal kisses. I love your morals. I love the voices in your head. they make you, you. And I want to know more about them. I love the way when you really care about something, and you're talking about it, your voice either rises or gets really soft and sweet. I love when you truly smile, and it reaches your eyes, and your dimples show. I love when you get a little embarrassed and your cheeks and ears turn red. I love when you get shocked by something that's said or done and you just freeze and fall over before you start laughing. It's adorable. I love your blunt honesty. Even if it hurts, I love it. I love the way you talk about your dreams. The things you want to do, and accomplish. Even though i know it bothers you, I love when you talk to me about your past. I could listen to you rant all day. I love the knowledge that you hide, and use when you choose. I love that you aren't scared to be you, it makes me feel strong enough to try and be myself. I love your laugh, in all its different forms. I love when you let your accent out, and make your voice really deep. But I love your normal voice more. I love the way you look when you get so focused on something your face is only inches away and you can't look away. Or when you get excited about something so simple and get completely lost in it. I love the way you listen, and care for the people you care about. I love that you put me before yourself when I really need someone to lean on, because most of the time even in those situations I still put myself last. I love you for making me eat, or making me drink more water after I take medicine. I love that you see through my bullshit and others. I hate that you know when I'm lying to you, but I'm still grateful because you force me to talk. I'll put you before myself for anything. Sometimes it's hard and I've got to build up the courage to. But I'll still be there. I love that your aren't afraid to be you. I love all of it. All of you. Good, bad, crazy, goofy, depressed, perverted, asshole. I love all of you. And it's just building up inside me. I know you don't want to lose your best girl friend. But, I can't help but still want you in a more intense way. Maybe I'm just silly. Why would an incredible guy like you want a girl like me. You said be proud of the fact that I'm the biggest girl you've slept with. But I'm not proud of that. I don't deserve you, even if you were to give me a chance. I don't deserve you. Because honestly. Who continuously since the 6th grade falls more in love with their best friend every time they see them. Me apparently. Sometimes I sit and wish I hadn't gone after David, and just gone after you. Like my gut told me to... Sometimes I wish I'd follow my gut now.. just tell all those other guys I don't want them. That my eyes are somewhere else. But I can't. Not without being asked who I have my eye on... not without... fucking everything up... but if I keep saying that I don't want to date you think I don't but you're the only one I'd drop those standards for and... And I'm stupid. I'm unbelievably fucking stupid... I'm in love with my best friend. People would kill to say that. Me? Id rather kill my self. Not because of the fact that I love you. But because of the fact I'm willing to risk everything, for a chance to be with you. And love you, the way you deserve. To give you, all of me. I'd give my life for you. Regardless of status between us... you could hate me and I'd still give my life if it meant saving yours.. I don't think I'll ever NOT love you. I want to just tell you but I can't... my eyes start to twitch and my heart clenches... and I feel like I can't breathe... I'm so scared you'll hate me.... I don't want to ruin our friendship.. but fuck this is hard... just keeping it to myself..... I know you know... but I don't think you know the extent..... and fuck... I wish I had the nerve to just tell you.. but then it'll just get awkward.. probably because of me... I'm just fucking stupid.... I'm so fucking stupid... I'm so fucking stupid